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[23 Jan 2004|04:16pm] |
Switched to LiveJournal.
Check it out..
www.livejournal.com/users/smeshame
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get up, face this year
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[18 Jan 2004|12:56pm] |
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You know what, fuck all of you who have a problem with me saying how I feel.
Gabbriella, I'm surprised that you have a problem with me, and my feelings all of a sudden. You're the one who always tells me to say what I feel. This is exactly what I was afraid of. I finally try and express myself, and every fucking person has a fucking problem with it.
Too fucking bad.
And you know, I'm sorry for assuming that everyone is happy with who they are. I know not everyone is, but you have to fucking read. I know you're not all illiterate.
"And I’m mad because everyone seems to be happy with who they are."
Now I'm really starting to see.. that there are practically only three people who actually understand me, and how I feel. They seem to be the only ones who I can tell how I feel, and they won't fucking flip a shit on me. So, to you guys, thank you.<3333
xxo
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3 days will fade with all your childhood fears <33get up, face this year
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| "Standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in..." |
[17 Jan 2004|03:16pm] |
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So I finally made my LiveJournal because blurty is down way too often. I'm not making my LJ public yet, until I have a couple more entries. But I'll still have my blurty, if for some reason it is needed. And thank you Jen Inglis for my layout.<3333
Today Jen was supposed to come over, but now she said she has too much studying to do. Mother.
I did all of my homework. :)
My dad is being such a jackass to me.
I don't know what his problem is lately.
I want to do something tonight.. movies.. ?
I don't know..
Maybe something with my Lizicle.<33
I talked to Mike earlier. He sort of helped me out with some problems.. thank you.<33
That's about it for now.
Talk to you later.<33
xxo
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2 days will fade with all your childhood fears <33get up, face this year
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| "Standing so close knowing that it kills me to breathe you in..." |
[17 Jan 2004|03:16pm] |
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So I finally made my LiveJournal because blurty is down way too often. I'm not making my LJ public yet, until I have a couple more entries. But I'll still have my blurty, if for some reason it is needed. And thank you Jen Inglis for my layout.<3333
Today Jen was supposed to come over, but now she said she has too much studying to do. Mother.
I did all of my homework. :)
My dad is being such a jackass to me.
I don't know what his problem is lately.
I want to do something tonight.. movies.. ?
I don't know..
Maybe something with my Lizicle.<33
I talked to Mike earlier. He sort of helped me out with some problems.. thank you.<33
That's about it for now.
Talk to you later.<33
xxo
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3 days will fade with all your childhood fears <33get up, face this year
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| "This is so messed up..." |
[16 Jan 2004|09:34pm] |
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So I go out to dinner with my family. No big deal right? I see Miss Fromm and Mr. & Mrs. Donaldson there. Cool.
Then my Dad starts asking me questions, (opinion questions) and getting mad at me for my answers.
Whatever.
I ask to go to the bathroom.
I swear, if we hadn’t been in a public place he would’ve screamed at me.
My Mom gave him attitude.
Then he starts picking on me, asking me why I don’t play piano. And when I give an answer, I get in trouble because he doesn’t like my answer.
When we get home, I come online to see if the 9.o Upgrade for AOL is finished. The upgrade, mind you, that my father wanted me to do. We “have to have the latest version.”
My mom calls me into the family room to watch tv with them. I reluctantly join them. I get yelled at for having my cell phone on in my pocket. He makes me turn it off.
Oh yeah, and I really find it quite amusing how I get yelled at for not coming in to watch TV with everyone, I come in. THEN they talk during the entire show. I mean, seriously. You tell me to come watch TV with you, I come thinking I’ll actually be watching a show. But nooo that’s too much to ask for.
My brother was being a jackass.
Now AOL 9.o finished loading. Finally.
And I’m mad because everyone seems to be happy with who they are. No matter what I do, I can’t seem to be happy with myself, the way I am. There’s no one that I seem to meet, (boyfriend wise) who I can feel completely myself around. And it’s really starting to get to me. It’s bothering me to a point that it’s all I think about.
I’m pissed.
Maybe tomorrow will make me feel better.
xxoo
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5 days will fade with all your childhood fears <33get up, face this year
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[16 Jan 2004|04:47pm] |
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Yesterday was a snow day!
Yay! :)
I went online, and then Jamie called.
She came over, we hung out at the Bohny's for a while and ate some lunch. Then we were in the snow for a couple hours. So we decided to walk to Joey's house. Because we're cool like that. It really was an adventure. ;)
Then we went back to the Bohny's and I made nachos. We played some air hockey... and then some ping-pong... and then some fooseball. It was hot.
Then... we played the Karaoke game....
...... and Brittany sang..........
....... A LOT........
.... we also attempted to sing "Moulin Rouge" about... six or seven times before we finally got it right.
Then we came back to my house and watched Bruce Almighty but Jamie had to leave in the middle of it. Then Brittany had to go home. And I got to hang out with my lovlyy brother.<3
That was my day.
And I love Gabbriella.<3333 She's a really cool girl.
And I love Steph.<3333 I'm always here.
That's it.
Today was gay. We had a delayed opening.
We had plans, then there were no plans, now I have to go out to eat for my Grandparent's anniversary. And tomorrow I think Jen Wongo is gonna come over and hang.. maybe we can do something.. hmm.. maybe Liz.. ?
Now Jennifer Wongo is on the phone.
Haha oh yeah.
Tom.
What a fuckface.
I think I'm switching to LJ soon.. with Lizicle.. because blurty is being mean.
xxo
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| Hmm.. |
[16 Jan 2004|04:47pm] |
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Yesterday was a snow day!
Yay! :)
I went online, and then Jamie called.
She came over, we hung out at the Bohny's for a while and ate some lunch. Then we were in the snow for a couple hours. So we decided to walk to Joey's house. Because we're cool like that. It really was an adventure. ;)
Then we went back to the Bohny's and I made nachos. We played some air hockey... and then some ping-pong... and then some fooseball. It was hot.
Then... we played the Karaoke game....
...... and Brittany sang..........
....... A LOT........
.... we also attempted to sing "Moulin Rouge" about... six or seven times before we finally got it right.
Then we came back to my house and watched Bruce Almighty but Jamie had to leave in the middle of it. Then Brittany had to go home. And I got to hang out with my lovlyy brother.<3
That was my day.
And I love Gabbriella.<3333 She's a really cool girl.
And I love Steph.<3333 I'm always here.
That's it.
Today was gay. We had a delayed opening.
We had plans, then there were no plans, now I have to go out to eat for my Grandparent's anniversary. And tomorrow I think Jen Wongo is gonna come over and hang.. maybe we can do something.. hmm.. maybe Liz.. ?
Now Jennifer Wongo is on the phone.
Haha oh yeah.
Tom.
What a fuckface.
I think I'm switching to LJ soon.. with Lizicle.. because blurty is being mean.
xxo
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| Hmm.. |
[16 Jan 2004|04:34pm] |
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Yesterday was a snow day!
Yay! :)
I went online, and then Jamie called.
She came over, we hung out at the Bohny's for a while and ate some lunch. Then we were in the snow for a couple hours. So we decided to walk to Joey's house. Because we're cool like that. It really was an adventure. ;)
Then we went back to the Bohny's and I made nachos. We played some air hockey... and then some ping-pong... and then some fooseball. It was hot.
Then... we played the Karaoke game....
...... and Brittany sang..........
....... A LOT........
.... we also attempted to sing "Moulin Rouge" about... six or seven times before we finally got it right.
Then we came back to my house and watched Bruce Almighty but Jamie had to leave in the middle of it. Then Brittany had to go home. And I got to hang out with my lovlyy brother.<3
That was my day.
And I love Gabbriella.<3333 She's a really cool girl.
And I love Steph.<3333 I'm always here.
That's it.
Today was gay. We had a delayed opening.
We had plans, then there were no plans, now I have to go out to eat for my Grandparent's anniversary. And tomorrow I think Jen Wongo is gonna come over and hang.. maybe we can do something.. hmm.. maybe Liz.. ?
Now Jennifer Wongo is on the phone.
Haha oh yeah.
Tom.
What a fuckface.
I think I'm switching to LJ soon.. with Lizicle.. because blurty is being mean.
xxo
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| "Waiting for you to say...I love you too." |
[14 Jan 2004|05:55pm] |
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Yesterday--School.. I can't really remember. I stayed after and Mike and I walked around Satz. We saw Sean and those cute little wrestlers running around the school in their spandex. Sucks for them. He tickeled me. >_<
I came home and umm.. did my homework.
Studied for the G-essay and my Loulou quiz.
Hot stuff.
Umm..
Took a shower and straightened my hair because I have no life.
Haha oh yeah. Ms. McBride is gay.
Circumcision.. ?? Yeah.. that's what our World Civ class is like.
Today--School was good. The G-essay was pretty good.
Signora wasn't here so we had a sub. Mm.. he was cool. All I did was listen to my music.<33
Then........... Franny, Jamie and I went into the library (because we are such dilligent students) during Lunch so that we could study/"prepare" for the Geometry quiz.. if you know what I mean by prepare.
Fran was about to fucking lose it.. haha.<33 I love you.
We made some hot soup in Culinary Arts.<333 It actually came out really good.
My Mommy brought me my project.. and a donut.<333 :)
Then Nix and I went to the Newton's. We got to grade papers!!
I came home on the little kiddie bus.
Rosa and my Aunt left. :(
But it might snow! :)
It better snow.. I'm not in the mood for school.
We have off on Monday though.
Thank God.
Mall.. ?
Oh speaking of the mall I need to get my dress for Natasha's party.
Any ideas? Comment.<33
Hmm.. I believe that's it.
I'm going to finish up my MP3 and then I just might start to study for my World Civ test that is scheduled for Friday. Hmm..
Oh yeah, Friday.
Ice skating.. ?
Every time I want to go ice skating, it snows. Mother.
xxo
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3 days will fade with all your childhood fears <33get up, face this year
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| How could love be so thoughtless, so cruel? When all that I did was for you? |
[12 Jan 2004|07:43pm] |
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I hate AOL. It should die.
Anyway..
School was boring today. Nothing special happened, which I guess is a good thing. That means no drama.. which we definately already have enough of.
I stayed after today with my fellow Field Hockey-ers. We had that cute little meeting.
Camp--August 1st-5th. :) TheMiddleOfNowhere, PA. How fun.
Wow, I really can't wait. It's going to be so hot.
A whole week of nothing but Sofee's and tee-shirts. I definately can live with that.
..... and.... I met my Italian tutor. Cindy! Oh man.
Brittany taught Shirley and I how to use that "T-9 Word" thing.. it's special. :)
Shirley's using my old locker. So now it's Jay, her, me.. all in like.. a locker triangle thing. :\ Yeah... just like my hoes.<33 ;)
Took the 4:oo with Mike and Brittany.<33
Mike told me a really hot lyrics but I can't remember it at this moment..
I finished all of my homework. :)
But Mid-Terms are in 2 weeks.. and I'm certainly not ready.
Oh well.
I talked to Jen Wong.<3333
She's coming home Friday so if we go ice skating, she'll probably come.
I miss her so fucking much.<33
Talk to you later kids.<3
xxo
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| "Cole. MY Cole!"-Rosa |
[11 Jan 2004|05:26pm] |
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Today was another pretty cool day.
I went to Khol's, Drug Fair, and Costco.
I got this army greenish shirt/jacket thing, and two shirts.
There were three really hot guys at Costco.
Then I passed on some McDonald's because my Grandpa & Grandma dropped off some Italian food. Mm.
I am so proud of me. I finished all of my homework. :)
I feel so... smart.
I talked to Gabbie, Brittany and then Jamie on the telefono.. fun.
Now I'm online.
And that was my day.
Interesting right?
Yeah. Thought so.
xxo
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1 days will fade with all your childhood fears <33get up, face this year
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| "Matchmaker matchmaker make me a match..."-From Mrs. Doubtfire |
[11 Jan 2004|11:44am] |
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Yesterday was very cool.
I hung around my house for most of the day, we watched Ice Age again..
My brother went to a party and I played with my cousin.<333
I talked to Sean and Gabbie.
Then my Lizicle<33 called me.
Me, Mom, my Aunt and cousin went to Target around 5:oo.
I got Bruce Almighty.
.. and my cell phone "semi-back."
Then they dropped me off at Liz's house.
We hung out and shit.. she explained her room and life story to me.
Then I took some Axe from her brother.<3333333
OMG Axe.<33333 Seriously, guys, wear Axe. It's hot.
Then we played some Mario Kart.<33
Ate some pizza.. and talked.
... lots of talking..
Haha, great times Liz.<33 Then I left around 9:15.
We picked up my brother from his party.
Now, I'm talking to Ronald.<33
We're having a very "in-depth" conversation.
Hah. I enjoy playing Match-maker.
I have to do homework.. and start my Mid-term studying.. damnit.
Well, I'd better go now.
xxo
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| "Paint sarcastic smiles upon new wounds" |
[10 Jan 2004|08:58am] |
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I'm really pissed.
Because I actually was looking forward to sleeping in late today.
Mother.
Now I'm like, the only person in the world online.. because well, it's only 9:oo and all..
Jamie and I still need to go to the mall to buy our dresses.
That should be a party.
I'm really starting to enjoy From Autumn To Ashes.
And I really like the Coheed & Cambria CD.
So it's all good.
I didn't go to the movies last night. My Mom said that if I had been nicer to her, I would've been there.
Bitch.
But that's what got me in trouble so..
Fuck.
Yeah, better.
Next Friday I'm thinking we get a crew to go ice skating.<33 Then I can visit my buddy Coach James.<33333 That should be hot.
I miss my cell phone. :(
I turned it on yesterday, and there were like... six-billion text message thingies that came onto the screen.
AHHHHHHH I'm going CRAZY without it!!!!
.. but then again, I shouldn't be complaining because some people don't have cell phones.
So I guess I'll just have to live in their world for a while..o
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| Monkeys... sex... Chelsea.. disturbing... |
[09 Jan 2004|04:30pm] |
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Today was boring.
English--G-ay.
Italian--Quiz.
Bio--Test and monkey sex movie. Disturbing images.. holy crap. They say they can't show us R rated movies.. losers.
SS--Bitch.
Lunch--Funny shit.<33
Math--Loulou.
Culinary--Cream puffs.
My Mom took away my cell phone. Ugh, I'm like.. going crazy. :(
I have to get an Italian tutor.. oh gosh what if it's Sean's brother? Haha.. that'd be great.
Chrissy told me I have to "get with all the Riley's." Haha NO. :P
Now I have to get tested for ADD.. because my Mom is weird.
Rosa's still over with my Aunt.<333
Autumn's a bitch.. fuck you.
I love Gabbie. She always knows the right thing to say.<33
The Shirley situation is complicated..
Jamie and I have wonderful phone conversations about teaching Juniors how to walk, and Dumbo.<33
Nothing else to say..
Fo' shizzle.
xxo
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| "Backpack backpack. Backpack backpack.." |
[07 Jan 2004|06:04pm] |
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Today was dumb. Ms. McBride can kiss my ass. She's such a bitch.
Gabbie wrote me a note, so it's all good.<33
Yesterday I had a really nice talk with Mike.. and Sean.
I feel a lot better, but I'm still confused.
Maybe I'll write more about it sometime.
Natasha put a picture of me and her when we were in 3rd grade on her slideshow. :\ Oh God..<33
Aunt and Rosa are over.<33
xxo
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1 days will fade with all your childhood fears <33get up, face this year
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[05 Jan 2004|05:20pm] |
Haha, oh yeah. I have to add something Brittany said today. It made my morning:
Brittany: Liz, you're so tan!
Me: Brittany, she went to WISCONSIN.
Liz: Yeah, that's like the complete opposite of tan.
Brittany: Oh.. :\
Haha.. it was so funny. Bye.
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| "We should've seen this coming.." |
[05 Jan 2004|05:07pm] |
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Today was a pretty slow day. Gettis was easy, considering we did a packet on Great Expecations and I actually read it. I'm so proud of me. Italian was hard.. and gay as usual. We had lab today so periods three & four were spent with the lovlyy Cory Kemple.<333 The morning announcers were dumb so half our class didn't come until fourth period. Ooh well.. not like we did anything anyway. Haha, Niki's so funny. She had her cute David Bowie magazine in class today. And her voice kept on changing.. I love her.<33 World Civ we had a sub that fell asleep. Gabbie thinks he was awake but I'm not too sure about that one.. Lunch was fun. Jamie pointed out that Chrissy's sweatshirt said "Deuschland" or something on it.. funny stuff.<33 We talked about the dresses we have to get for Natasha's fifteen.<33 I can't wait, you have no idea how much I want to go to a party where we get all dressed up and shit. I already found a really hot dress that I want. :) Fun. Ahh... Mr. Lou-lou is growing a goatee.. haha. He's a cool man.. a little...... queer.. but a cool man nonetheless. Culinary Arts was special. I got to clean up. I hate Linnet.
Now let me clear some things up for all you nosy little kiddiesssss...
I do not hate Abby Apicella.
Why do you all think this? I must have had five people come up to me and ask why I hate her.
I simply said, that I would talk to her about the whole little Mike situation, before Mike's girlfriend has to talk to her. So let me just say now: Abby, if I were you, I'd quit texting Mike about all this "I miss you" shit. He's taken. So unless you want some Juniors up your ass, I suggest you keep your hands to yourself.
See? I don't hate her. I'm simply doing her a favor... yeah. That's what I'm doing.
That's about it I think... I have to find an easy recipe to cook for Culinary Arts.
Ciao.<333
xxo
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[04 Jan 2004|05:20pm] |
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Today was boring. I cleaned my room and my desk, and then I read Great Expectations Stage 1 for Mr. G.'s class. It's an umm... interesting novel.
Last night we got a DVD player. I watched Freaky Friday, Finding Nemo, and some other movie.
Tomorrow we have school again. I'm kind of glad because being home was starting to get boring.. but then again, Midterms are just around the corner... :(
Ooh yeah.. I get to have a little chat with Miss Abby about a not-so-happy girlfriend. :) Oh boy, that should be interesting...
I'm talking to Sam now so bye.<33
xoxo
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I know I've done this one before, but I'm bored so I might as well do it again.
:::10 BANDS YOU'VE BEEN LISTENING TO LATELY:::
01. The Early November
02. From Autumn To Ashes
03. Story Of The Year
04. Yellowcard
05. Thursday
06. Brand New
07. RxBandits
08. AFI
09. Finch
10. Homegrown
:::9 THINGS YOU LOOK FORWARD TO:::
01. Going to the mall with my Mom.
02. Making plans with Melissa.
03. Turning 15 in February. :)
04. Natasha's party thing.
05. Going to college.
06. Finishing my Frosh year.
07. Finishing Mr. Gettis' class. :D
08. The spring.
09. Finishing this damn MP3.
:::8 THINGS YOU LIKE TO WEAR:::
01. Rings
02. Earrings
03. Belts
04. Necklace//Watch
05. Chucks :)
06. Comfy sweatshirts
07. Warm scarves
08. Pajama bottoms
:::7 THINGS THAT ANNOY YOU:::
01. People who lie to me, and then think I won't figure it out.
02. Younger kids, who think they're better than me.
03. Procrastination.
04. When Justin tries to beat me up.
05. AOL.
06. Hunger.
07. My room.
:::6 THINGS THAT YOU TOUCH EVERYDAY:::
01. The computer.
02. My bed.
03. Clothes.
04. My sink.
05. My cellular.
06. The lightswitch in my room.
:::5 THINGS YOU DO EVERYDAY:::
01. Shower.
02. Sing.
03. Watch tv.
04. Make my bed... wait, no.
05. Talk.
:::4 PEOPLE YOU WANT TO SPEND MORE TIME WITH:::
01. Gabbie
02. Liz
03. My Mom
04. My stoners
:::3 MOVIES YOU COULD WATCH OVER AND OVER AGAIN:::
01. Mrs. Doubtfire
02. Freaky Friday<333
03. Mermaids
:::2 of your favorite bands at the moment:::
01. Finch
02. Story Of The Year
:::1 PERSON THAT YOU'D SPEND THE REST OF YOUR LIFE WITH:::
01. No clue.
xoxo
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