harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban   
10:12pm 04/06/2004
 
mood: full
music: bush- everything zen
la la la. so, giancarlo was 2 hours late picking me up....although it was raining severly but they stopped to go shopping. when they got here though, his mom said it was raining so hard everywhere else, but right over my house it was barely raining lol, and at one brief minute (when i walked out to the car) it even stopped. lmao. thats because im special. i felt bad leaving brandi here all alone though because she hates thunder and she has to have someone there when its thundering or else she totally freaks out.

anyway, so we went to dunkin donuts where i got an iced latte and a brevarian cream donut while his mom was in walgreens getting chocolate (she had a craving). then we walked baby and i squished my donut all over his face lmao...it was so funny, the powder was all over his face like he was unshaven and then the cream was hanging off of his chin like a little beard. then i ran onto the golf course and fed the big cranes little pieces of the donut. (dont worry, i had some too, it didnt go to waste) we got some water at the little rest stop areas on the golf course and we went inside and watched most of american beauty again, (we didnt finish it the first time) and then his dad came home and said we had to go right away. and there were only 10 minutes left! but anyway, so we picked up gaby from his play audition, they played the music for the play in the car (soooo loud and sooooo annoying) and we went to rave to see harry potter. it was pretty good. i think i liked the other ones better though.....although im not really sure. the dementors were cool looking though. and when they went back in time..that was cool. then we went to chilis for dinner. they were handing out mardi gras beads if you ordered a presidente margarita, and i told giancarlo i wanted beads, and his dad kept egging him on saying "giancarlo, your girlfriend wants beads, get her beads!" so he was too chicken and his dad asked our waiter and she gave me one of hers. she asked what color i wanted (pink) and put it aroudn my neck. lol. she was really nice. after that they brought me home and here i am.

i need to go shopping for polo shirts for that stupid youth leadership thing. its so dumb that we have to "dress up" i have to buy shirts...for this stupid class. its retarded! shannon and jessica went to the mall today and asked if i wanted to go with them but id already made plans with giancarlo, so idk when im going to have time to get any shirts. or where ill get the money from.

anyway, im stuffed and can barely move. so i think ill go to bed. i have to work tomorrow... and memorize all the prices and shit... (she said if i dont start answering phones tomorrow, im fired) but she wants me to answer like...A LOT. i havent even been working there 3 weeks people! 3 weeks! ugh. im not good with people, im really not. i think thats why id be good at forensics...all the people you work with would be dead. lol. i know its very morbid of me but its true. anyhoot, im going...now. ttyl, love you all!
 
     

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OMG IM ORANGE   
11:18am 04/06/2004
  last night i put some of that fake tan-in-a-bottle stuff on...and, it looked like it had no effect what so ever....so i was like okay...whatever. cuz its supposed to dry in 5 minutes and youre supposed to see visible results (THEY LIE!) so....i was kinda bummed, cuz i wanted a tan for today to see giancarlo....and i wake up and look down and my legs are as orange as a carrot! and i didnt even put that much on. and i had streaks on the underside of my forearms and it looked like huge birthmarks or lesions or something. i looked like a leper! lol. and then my belly button was orange, except the inside, i had a ring around it, lmao. and my hands had big orange spots all along the knuckles and up the side of my fingers. and my toes too. so, lol i took a shower, and scrubbed and scrubbed and scrubbed...and i dont seem to resemble a carrot as much.

actually yes, i look normal. in a way, its bull crap though cuz that stuff isnt supposed to come off so easily. (but luckily for me it did lmao, cuz giancarlo will be here in a half hour) well anyhoot, talk to you all later, have an awesome day!


oh, had a dream about a talent show at school and sara was dancing and singing with all the guys from work (her work) and they were all wearing tutus. i think they won too.

and had another one about this little girl who lived next door to me and i always saw her running around "trying to catch the breeze" and i ran after her one day, talked to her and she told me she lived with her aunt and uncle, her parents had died, and the little girl next door to her who was her best friend died because she was really sick and had pneumonia. and some of her other friends from school died too....then she was running around this dirty pool and ran to a tree, and i followed her and there were these pellets of some dead animal and it was really foul smelling, so i asked what it was, and she said her neighbor liked to shoot squirrels, and then i looked around the corner of the tree and there were all these bullets and more pellets but they didnt look like squirrell pellets....and i looked at the little girl and her eyes got all mean looking and she somehow got a gun and tried to chase me and kill me. (cuz i figured out shed killed her parents, her best friend, and her friends from school) then somehow i ran across the street to this old deserted parking lot with a few cars, a big green truck (which happened to be julie lindsays (?) and my dad happened to be there and he told me to get into this little tiny silver car and drive away (it was a celica or sonata, something like that) and neither him nor i could fit in it, our legs were smashed, my chest was up to the steering wheel and i could barely close the doors, but we didnt care so i drove away and i think my dad fell out of the car. idk...it was very odd.

then giancarlo called my house 15 million times and woke me up.
 
     

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YAY!   
12:45am 04/06/2004
  i got my pink shoes!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

sooo happy!!
 
     

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i had a dream......   
12:18pm 03/06/2004
 
mood: confused
music: trapt- echo
that one day..... all my children.... lol just kidding!

no, okay, the whole class went on a feild trip to this naval park place....but it was like...near mexico or something, somewhere just on the us border....because they had giftshops there and all the girls were buying purses dirt cheap. like....jessica miller got like....5 for 2 bucks. lol. but everyone was messing around and no one was really looking at the displays with the ships and stuff except me and giancarlo. and there was this one little pier and it had a sign that said "this is where the _____ sank and will forever be intombed" (i 4get what it was called) but i was like thats so sad.....and giancarlo was like i know. and then i kept talking about it and i was saying how horrible it must be to be in the navy and how awful it would be to drown on a sinking ship. and then he looked at me and said, im going into the navy.......and ill be in iraq for 3 years. (even though that doesnt make since because its a land locked country) but i looked at him and was in shock and i had to ask him what he just said and he told me again and i just started crying hysterically and shaking.

then...idk, my dream like... went to this scene with all the girls changing in the bathroom, and the guys were waiting outside for them (apparently everyone had a bf or gf) and i guess the girls were taking too long so the teachers sent paschal in there (which is just sooooooo wrong) they all started screaming because most of them were hald undressed and this creepy red headed man walks in there with his lisp and starts yelling at them and stuff... lol. idk, it was strange.

then it was a diff dream....and me and giancarlo were on a swing set. but, we were younger.... like... maybe 8? idk, it was weird. and there was this little 3 year old jamaican kid or something, and she kept running around with sisscors i think? and me and giancarlo were swinging on the swings, holding hands and singing and we were both really happy, except his name wasnt giancarlo, it was colin, and my name wasnt krista, it was katerina (i think....idk, something with a k) so we were all happy and bla bla bla, and i think it started raining, so we ran for it, and i dropped my storybook on this little berm and giancarlo went back and got it and then i tripped and fell over, so he picked me up and started running down the berm and then the little jamaican kid was below the berm looking up at us with her sisscors (or maybe it was a gun) and somehow she killed us both. and then i remember seeing a paper with the headline "2 children, colin and katerina, killed by unattended 3 year old"

it was very odd...it sort of reminded me of the pact.....except without the suicide, instead it was a homicide.
 
     

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ahhhh, im going to be fired   
03:40pm 02/06/2004
 
mood: nervous
music: thunderstorms brewing
okay... so, i was supposed to just work yesterday and saturday this week...but tina suggested that i come in today and try answering phones.....and memorizing ALL of the prices and codes. i've pretty much succeeded in memorizing the codes i think, but theres no way that i can memorize all of the prices. and i dont know which ones to study...because they had me copy down prices that were higher than the ones on the menu...because supposedly they changed....but, last night tina said that the only prices that changed were the white pizza and the white spinach pizza.....sooooo...i have no frickin idea what im doing. ive tried...i really have. ive been studying them for the past hour so that my ass is not kicked out the door. i mean...in reality, it would probably be the best for me since i hate this job, but my mom would look at me and see a complete failure and yea....sooo...

on the other hand....my mommy talked to the insurance company today about adding me to the car insurance...they said i should bring in my report card when i get it and if i have above As, which i will we get a discount. and if i watch some stupid video and complete some answer sheet we get an even bigger discount..... and i heard that if youre a girl u get a discount too, so thats good. mom has let me drive more....well... not all that much. just from here to frank and al's which is a 2 minute drive....but still. im still mad at her for some reason though.

period STILL hasnt come. im seriously wondering if im pregnant by mere imagination. its been almost 2 weeks! im thinking it might be because of the sit ups though...or maybe because ive been eating so much over summer and my body isnt used to it. i really have no idea.

only an hour and a half left.... ::sigh:: i will become a complete failure in the working world.

but.....it is going to rain soon, there is a bunch of thunder and its looking stormy...so maybe it will be a slow night....BUT, if its slow..then theres less to do...and that means ill stand around...which is bad....god dammit! i lose no matter how hard i try.

my daddy is going to get the laser treatment today. im very worried for him.... i really hope it works out though.
and mom is going to the youth leadership meeting tonight for the parents....so i dont think ill have a ride home from work... lol. which really sucks..maybe ill walk to burger king or winn dixie or something. ahhh idk. i really need to go study, but i cant concentrate!

dinner salads are 2.00......tossed are......3.95? YES! im making progress. antipasto....6.25? mmk. well i must go. see you all later. adios!

pray for me, PLEASE!
 
     

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ahhhh, im going to be fired   
03:39pm 02/06/2004
 
mood: nervous
music: thunderstorms brewing
okay... so, i was supposed to just work yesterday and saturday this week...but tina suggested that i come in today and try answering phones.....and memorizing ALL of the prices and codes. i've pretty much succeeded in memorizing the codes i think, but theres no way that i can memorize all of the prices. and i dont know which ones to study...because they had me copy down prices that were higher than the ones on the menu...because supposedly they changed....but, last night tina said that the only prices that changed were the white pizza and the white spinach pizza.....sooooo...i have no frickin idea what im doing. ive tried...i really have. ive been studying them for the past hour so that my ass is not kicked out the door. i mean...in reality, it would probably be the best for me since i hate this job, but my mom would look at me and see a complete failure and yea....sooo...

on the other hand....my mommy talked to the insurance company today about adding me to the car insurance...they said i should bring in my report card when i get it and if i have above As, which i will we get a discount. and if i watch some stupid video and complete some answer sheet we get an even bigger discount..... and i heard that if youre a girl u get a discount too, so thats good. mom has let me drive more....well... not all that much. just from here to frank and al's which is a 2 minute drive....but still. im still mad at her for some reason though.

period STILL hasnt come. im seriously wondering if im pregnant by mere imagination. its been almost 2 weeks! im thinking it might be because of the sit ups though...or maybe because ive been eating so much over summer and my body isnt used to it. i really have no idea.

only an hour and a half left.... ::sigh:: i will become a complete failure in the working world.

but.....it is going to rain soon, there is a bunch of thunder and its looking stormy...so maybe it will be a slow night....BUT, if its slow..then theres less to do...and that means ill stand around...which is bad....god dammit! i lose no matter how hard i try.

my daddy is going to get the laser treatment today. im very worried for him.... i really hope it works out though.
and mom is going to the youth leadership meeting tonight for the parents....so i dont think ill have a ride home from work... lol. which really sucks..maybe ill walk to burger king or winn dixie or something. ahhh idk. i really need to go study, but i cant concentrate!

dinner salads are 2.00......tossed are......3.95? YES! im making progress. antipasto....6.25? mmk. well i must go. see you all later. adios!

pray for me, PLEASE!
 
     

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omg people....im going to be fired.   
03:27pm 02/06/2004
 
mood: nervous
music: thrunderstorms brewing overhead
okay... so, i was supposed to just work yesterday and saturday this week...but tina suggested that i come in today and try answering phones.....and memorizing ALL of the prices and codes. i've pretty much succeeded in memorizing the codes i think, but theres no way that i can memorize all of the prices. and i dont know which ones to study...because they had me copy down prices that were higher than the ones on the menu...because supposedly they changed....but, last night tina said that the only prices that changed were the white pizza and the white spinach pizza.....sooooo...i have no frickin idea what im doing. ive tried...i really have. ive been studying them for the past hour so that my ass is not kicked out the door. i mean...in reality, it would probably be the best for me since i hate this job, but my mom would look at me and see a complete failure and yea....sooo...

on the other hand....my mommy talked to the insurance company today about adding me to the car insurance...they said i should bring in my report card when i get it and if i have above As, which i will we get a discount. and if i watch some stupid video and complete some answer sheet we get an even bigger discount..... and i heard that if youre a girl u get a discount too, so thats good. mom has let me drive more....well... not all that much. just from here to frank and al's which is a 2 minute drive....but still. im still mad at her for some reason though.

period STILL hasnt come. im seriously wondering if im pregnant by mere imagination. its been almost 2 weeks! im thinking it might be because of the sit ups though...or maybe because ive been eating so much over summer and my body isnt used to it. i really have no idea.

only an hour and a half left.... ::sigh:: i will become a complete failure in the working world.

but.....it is going to rain soon, there is a bunch of thunder and its looking stormy...so maybe it will be a slow night....BUT, if its slow..then theres less to do...and that means ill stand around...which is bad....god dammit! i lose no matter how hard i try.

my daddy is going to get the laser treatment today. im very worried for him.... i really hope it works out though.
and mom is going to the youth leadership meeting tonight for the parents....so i dont think ill have a ride home from work... lol. which really sucks..maybe ill walk to burger king or winn dixie or something. ahhh idk. i really need to go study, but i cant concentrate!

dinner salads are 2.00......tossed are......3.95? YES! im making progress. antipasto....6.25? mmk. well i must go. see you all later. adios!

pray for me, PLEASE!
 
     

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i hate my job   
10:11pm 01/06/2004
  yes....i hate it. i hate it i hate it i hate it. everytime i have to work... i get nauseated and i dread going all day until the time actually comes. then when i went in today tina was like... u need to start answering the phones or youre going to be fired. and i was like uh...okay...great. (IVE ONLY WORKED THERE 5 DAYS!) i barely know how everything else works, all i really know is how to make salads and fill up dressing containers. its so retarted. so then the whole night i was freaking out and shaking and i kept spilling all the dressing and dropping things and when i had to put the delivery pizza boxes up, waiting to be filled with orders, the stack was too high but i tried to put them up there anyway because there was no where else to put them and thats where theyre supposed to go....so i gently push them on there....jumping a bit... and they seemed to stay..and right when i turned around to leave...they all fall from above and hit me on the head and are all over the floor. i looked at my boss, and he just totally ignored it like nothing happened, and he was talking to the owner of the store... (well, theyre partners, they both own it) and they just looked at me and i felt so incredibly dumb. so i picked them all up and they were all out of order...and i walked back into the kitchen and tried not to cry or throw up. then i 4got to put cheese on the rolls......forgot croutons.....forgot cucumbers..... and they tell u about every little thing too. i mean, i know i need to realize me mistakes...but its like theyre rubbing it in my face and its being held against me. i really really dont like it there. no one talks to you.....its a very depressing atmosphere and everything is all dirty. the floor is sooooo greasy, you slide around, like youre practically ice skating. i was cleaning some dough trays and i almost fell backwards because i slipped, somehow i caught myself though.

on the other hand... i did get paid for last week...so thats a plus. lol. i wish i would have gotten that ice cream job.. i really do. it would have been much easier. and the people are so much nicer and its 100% cleaner i can assure you. lol.

seriously..... the broom that i sweep with, is like.... the dirtiest thing... u cant even clean with it.... it trails hard, greasy, black dirt whereever you sweep...its disgusting. i should tell my mom to have the health department investigate it...seriously. thenk mr bobby (mean man, very very mean man....and he has an earring like elton john...its a little scary) wouldnt be so......arrogant. or something. idk. itd be fun to see his reaction though.

anyway giancarlo is calling me and i want some strawberry shortcake. ttyl love you!
 
     

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whoa.... im fat.   
07:24pm 31/05/2004
 
mood: optimistic
music: system of a down- chop suey
dinner was really good, im so full though. i was wrong....we werent having chicken wings....we had ribs instead. they were really really really good though. had corn on the cob, and potatoes too. mom left rolls in the microwave... i havent told her yet, theyre still in there. lol. im so mad at her! ugh!

anyway. who wants to hear how bad of a joke-teller my dad is? i know i know, you all are raising your hands feverishly and jumping out of your seats. no need to worry. you will all hear.

so....we sit down to eat, start eating and my dad goes, i have an announcement. and me and my mom look at him. and he goes, "i've just saved a bunch of money by switching to geico". and we look at him.....and just start eating again. i never know what to do in those situations....because if you dont let him know the jokes are bad....hell just keep doing it...but if you do, u hurt his feeling...so i always just kind of grin and dont say anything.

and then hes like no wait, i really do have an announcement. and no one looks at him. and then he says, i made an appointment for laser treatment this wednesday so that i can quit smoking. and my mom was like what? really?!?! and he was like yep. and shes like, thats great! and then she starts reflecting on the negative parts about it...like she always does. (i realize that this is why i am so negative all the time...i get it from my mother) and then she was like well, just make sure you remove all your ash trays and cigars and everything that will remind you of it or u can give it to me. and she was telling him how he would have to completely rethink his way of living. (this, is true)

he spends so much time smoking. when he wakes up in the morning, he gets up, goes to the garage, drinks a diet coke and smokes. then maybe he'll come inside and eat breakfast....or he just goes out to the porch to smoke. then hell watch tv, for a little bit, maybe do some yard work.....go to the garage and smoke. then put brandi out.....smoke while watching brandi outside....go back to yark work...take a break and smoke.....go back to yard work.....come in for lunch, smokes after that in the garage and on the porch. then.....idk what he does after that...watches tv, plays guitar...who knows.... but i know when he cooks dinner, he smokes first, put the food in the microwave...smokes while its preparing itself, comes in to check on it...smokes some more, comes
in to set dinner on table...smokes before he eats dinner.....eats....smokes.....eats cereal (his ice cream) and smokes some more... i think you get the picture.

its really bad. so if he actually does quit... idk what he will spend all of his time doing. im afraid that ultimately he will have nothing to do....and start smoking again. he started smoking because of the damn navy. everytime they beat their enemy or just for kicks to pass the time on the ships, they would all drink and smoke....and he was hooked. he was only in his 20s too. i remember he got acupuncture treatment and quit when i was born. well..i dont remember, but ive heard lol. and then i guess when i was about 5 or 6 he started up again and has been smoking ever since. its really quite sad. i think thats why i grew apart from him. i used to love him so much, i was daddys little girl... and then i just couldnt stand the constant smell and the second hand smoke... i would always breathe it in...it was so gross. and then when he got older he started to lose his hearing even more and it was just so hard to communicate with him. and thats my story.

i just hope that it works. my mom told me to pray...and i think im going to.
 
     

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yea.......no period yet. great.   
05:02pm 31/05/2004
 
mood: cranky
music: the kicks- Mir
hmm....maybe im pregnant. just kidding guys. anyway, went to wal mart with shannon on...saturday night. didnt buy anything but looked at my pink shoes (which i found 13 dollars in my purse so ive decided i AM going to get them if theyre still there) and we looked at curtains for shannons room. she has no idea what she wants though. lol, she wants it all to match...but she has a blue/purple/black window seat, blue walls, and a green/blue and white bedspread.....and she wants pink curtains lol. so, idk, im trying to help but its difficult to match like..10 diff colors. anyway.....

yesterday i went to the mall with giancarlo. mom told me to drive since i needed practice. so i did. i did fine....and then when we were going around a corner she told me to slow down and she already had me nervous because she has this fear that i am never going to brake....and she always like..convulses her body and twitches and slamms her foot on the floor like shes going to stop the car....but it doesnt work. and i can see all of this out of the corner of my eye with my excellent peripheral vision.....so i was freaked out and then shes screaming at me to slow down, so i got all flustered and hit the gas and yea.....it wasnt that bad, i wasnt going that fast either but after that i was fine, and we were only 2 minutes away from the mall and she made me pull over on the side of the road and shes like GET OUT! so she made me switch with her and i was so mad. i wanted to cry. shes always complaining about how i never practice driving and then when i do she freaks out and wont even let me drive. and when she suggested that i drive to the mall i was like what? to the mall? me? and shes like yes! itll be fun. yeah......tons of fun...sure... hoorah hoorah. whatever man. seriously. im so mad at her right now, i dont even know why. im sick of her treating me like a baby like im so incapable of doing anything. i just need friggin plastic bubble. no, make it a box, so at least i can entertain myself with pretending to be a mime. then when we were outside of borders shes like are you mad at me and i didnt look at her or say anything and she touched my arm and i shrugged her off and got out of the car. i wanted to cry, i wanted to punch her, i wanted to run someone over. but NO! that would require practice, in a car, that i am not capable of handling!

so i met giancarlo at borders, frustrated and furious. he tried to make me feel better and said i could drive a bicycle for the rest of my life and i said it would reruie training wheels and i wouldnt be able to go past my street. he laughed and took me out to the parking lot and his dad showed me their new porshe, its black. its really nice, but its so low to the ground and you can barely fit 3 people in it. i'd be too scared to drive it. but his dad drove us around the parking lot and dropped us off at the main entrance and i had my sunglasses on and stuff, and i got out and giancarlo was like, you look like a movie star! everyone's looking at you! and he kept telling his dad to gun the engine for my arrival. it was very embarrassing. lol.

then i dragged him around for about an hour and a half looking for a purse. i thought they might have "the sak" at burdines or dillards, and they did, but not the style i wanted. and all the others were WAY too expensive for me. jennifer indiveri was there, she walked by and looked at me and him and smiled at giancarlo. then we went to all the major department stores, and giancarlo kept going over to the flip flops in each store shouting "HEY KRISTA! you should get some new thongs!!!! these are really hot, this one is bright green! hey, KRISTA! HOW BOUT THIS THONG!" lmao. i was so embarassed, it was funny but everyone was looking at me.. lol. and then we went to sears even though usually all their stuff sucks, and i looked at the purses and actually found one. it was a relic purse, with a blue and white hawaiian print, they had one in beige and i didnt know which one to get so giancarlo picked it for me. lol. he picked the blue one....then he leaned in to kiss me and...idk what happened but he totally spazzed out and almost knocked over the entire stand of sunglasses. the whole thing was wobbling and a bunch fell on the floor and i just walked away like i didnt know him lmao. it was so funny though. but my purse was 26 bucks...BUT! they had a 50% sale so it was only 13! i know! lol. youre jealous.. i know. so that means i have money to buy my pink shoes AND another purse...the "the sack" purse that i want. i dont think my mom will let me get it though...but i dont see why not, i have a job now, i have money. i get paid again tomorrow, and i have to work too. i think ill keep half of it, and put the rest in the bank, get what i want and then put all the rest of them in the bank.

anyway, then we went to see troy, brad pitt was hot again... giancarlo wasnt even paying attention to the movie. all he wanted to do was kiss me and i kept pushing him away. lol, there was this creepy old man sitting right next to us! we were the only teenagers in the whole theatre, everyone else was 60 or older. lmao. but um......yea, i still like that movie. then we met his parents and gaby out front and went and ate at pueblo viejo. i wasnt very hungry cuz we had cookies, popcorn, nachos, and a barnies freezer, plus i had a big breakfast so i just had 2 tacos, and i ended up only eating one. his mom was telling us how she had a boyfriend that looked just like brad pitt and she will show me a picture sometime. then they took me home. gc said hi to my mom and dad, kissed me goodbye and left. then i called kenny cuz during the movie he called me and i had to shut it off cuz everyone was getting pissed, and turned around to yell at me. but he said he didnt call me and it must have been an accident. mmmm...sounds suspicious. but he was nice and stuff, he said he wrote jessica a nasty email about her trying to blame everything on him in her journal. and he said hes happy now and hes so glad that he didnt get a second chance with her or else he would have regretted it. so im glad that hes realized how wrong she is for him. then he told me to call him if i ever wanted to hang out or do something with him during the summer.

yea, then i read my book......gc called me, talked to him and went to bed.

now its memorial day... my mom forced me to go swimming or she said she wouldnt cook dinner or buy me anything and bla bla. plus she was yelling at me and crap too so.. i went it.... i was pale and gross as ever. it was really cold too, even though the temp was up to 90 on the pool heater. so now...here i am. we're supposed to eat soon....chicken wings YES! i love aunt lori for introducing those to my mom. lol. thats about the only thing i really like that we ever eat. well, must go, talk to you all later. adieu.

with my luck, ill get my period tomorrow at work..where i cant go to the bathroom. yea....wont that be fun. im sure it will happen seeing as how my bad luck is infinite. its probably why im so cranky and irritable right now anyway. jolly day tomorrow....indeed.

guys are so lucky they have testicles.
 
     

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holy stromboli!   
08:09pm 29/05/2004
 
mood: full
music: the buzzcocks- orgasm addict
holy crap..... i seriously....had to have eaten about 100 of those little smokies....my mom came home and brought back a huge crockpot full of them and ive been eating them nonstop for the past 3 hours. theyre so good...but omg..lol. i dont even want to look at another one. EVER AGAIN!

CUZ YOUR AN ORGASM ADDICT! Orgasm addict!

im turning so girly... i dont know what it is.... i painted my toenails pink..painted my fingernails a diff color pink....and im STILL thinking about those pink shoes...idk what it is. maybe lack of color in my boring, dim, drab colored house. idk....i dont like it.... at least i think i dont.....: /

i need to figure out how to put a picture in for my background... i have angelfire but i dont understand it and stuff..... lol. if you know how to, please comment and gimme some help! thanks babes!
 
     

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:( giancarlo is a hottie   
07:29pm 29/05/2004
 
mood: jealous
music: system of a down- chop suey
apparently....giancarlo is irresistable. lol. he just got back from wet n wild and he said he got hit on by a big group of girls with big boobs... ( i asked if they had big boobs... lol, why cant i have big boobs?) he said he was hanging out with his friends, and this girl came up to him and was like, hey, my friend over there thinks you're hot. wanna come meet her? and hes like uhh..i have a girlfriend but sure. and he brought his friend with him i guess, and he said hi to them and then hes like uhhh...i gotta go and he left his friend there with them. lol. idk... i just think its weird. he said they were really pretty too. and he had his shirt off while they were hitting on him.... :( hes mine. and then he was like, man my jaw hurts. and i was like what?!?!! did u make out with them?!?!? and hes like what? no no!! god no!!! my wisdom teeth are coming in, i have to go for orientation on tuesday. :( my poor babyz. lol. its weird though, him being hit on and all. but he was really happy, because he has this complex about not being cute and stuff....and he felt so good that he was recognized for his looks. and even his mom thinks hes not that good looking... lol, which is sad... but... yea. idk... hes mine... not theirs. :(!!! i miss him.

anyway.... im watching seinfeld. i didnt do anything else today..AGAIN! im still thinking about those pink shoes in wal mart though... i really want them...they were so adorable! :( maybe ill go with shannon sometime and get them with my paycheck. they were only like 7 bucks. hm.....decisions decisions....
 
     

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giancarlo got hit on by another girl   
02:29pm 29/05/2004
 
mood: bouncy
music: the girl from impinema- dont know the artist
YES! its true. he was hit on by some girl. he told me he almost got her phone number too. and i was like uh...what was her name? and he said brittany and i said oh.... was she pretty? and hes like ehh...she was alright. and i said, how come u didnt get her number? and he said because i have you. i dont need her number. :) and i said oh...thats good. and he said yea, i just wanted to show up my friends...i met her at rj gators, they were all jealous. lol. so... im glad he didnt go further in that encounter. he said that brittany was an ugly name anyway, and that mine was better than everyone else's. :D

:) .i wub him. :)

hes at wet and wild now.... he wont be home until late :( i miss him.

today my mom woke me up, i had to make little pigs in a blanket. then she left and shes supposed to bring people back to the house. i actually got dressed today. (mainly because people are coming) but i look cute. lmao. a hell of a lot cuter than me in my pajamas with my hair all greasy and frizzy and undone, with my glasses on. yep. lol. its major improvement. i even plucked my eyebrows people! lol. i havent done it in forever...because my one eyebrow is shorter than the other....so i have been trying to grow it out. i probably have looked like a cavewoman all month. oh well.

so after the people come....mom is leaving and going to a graduation. im hoping shell let me go to the movies tomorrow with giancarlo.... im really sick of sitting around here. theres absolutely nothing to do. i just watched My Girl for the 384729873 ba-jillionth time. i actually started tearing up. idk what it is.... i usually never cry at movies or books or anything.... its either because im PMSing or ive gained estrogen or something..... IM BECOMING A WOMAN! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! lol. not that i want to become a man or anything.............


im really hungry. i think im going to go put my sunless tanner on. ITS A BETTER BRAND THIS TIME, dont worry! lol. i really need a tan...for rizzle dawg. peace out. >1< (whatever the hell that means)
 
     

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im so lonely :(   
10:45pm 28/05/2004
  giancarlo is at a sleepover with 3 guys. its so cute. lol. ive been giving him a hard time about it. im like, now there arent going to be any other girls there are there???? and his parents will be there at all times too right?? lol and hes like yes....and then today i called him cuz i was really bored and he said he was at his friends house already and it was just the 2 of them. so i was like omg! giancarlo...when are the other boys getting there??? his parents are home right?? you left the door open in his room right?!?! lol. and then i was like, let me talk to john. so he put john on the phone and i was like hi john! this is krista and hes like uhh...hi (he sounded really nervous.. lmao, he kept studdering) and i was like, so is it okay if i call every now and then to check up on giancarlo? and hes like uh...sure. and i was like are you sure? cuz i dont want to interrupt your little birthday party, and hes like uh....yeah..sure whatever. and i was like okay!!! goooood! well, have a happy birthday!! and hes like uh..thanks... and i just sat there cuz i thought he was gonna give the phone back to gc, and hes like uh........um....do-do you wanna talk to him now?? and i was like yes, that would be very nice, thanks jon!!

so.... i havent had anyone to talk to for the past......2 hours. its getting pretty lonely. lol. he called me while i was in mcdonalds with my mom but my phone died. dude... that place is crazy...they had tv monitors with the ronald mcdonald cartoons playing constantly...it was so retarded. that guy freaks me out after he asked me to marry him when i was 5! can you say pedafile? cha.

so, at wal-mart i got 2 pairs of shoes.... i REALLLY wanted this really cute pair, they were hot pink and had stilletto heels and little bows on them.... (doesnt sound like me at all right?) but i was insane at the time...although i still want them.... they were so cute! :( i want them. my mom said i could only get 2 pairs though. so i got these awesome spiked mary jane looking ones, and these brown cloggy looking ones.....more fall...but still cute. i also got a brown belt with stars on it....and, ummm....4 ribbed tank tops for running.

so anyway......hmmmm.....i will be bored tomorrow. my mom is going to a party and a graduation, and my dad will be working. and i will...be ....all...alone. and forsaken. blah. whatever. ill just....idk what ill do. lol, i cant eat... i already ate so much today. the abs i had yesterday have disappeared.. lmao. i need to do 200 sit ups tonight... i need to find an excercise that gets rid of love handles.....sit ups dont work well for that. anyhoot.... im going to retrieve my pictures from shannon. bye ya'll!
 
     

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watch my chin twitch while i try not to blink.   
10:03pm 28/05/2004
 
mood: bitchy
music: cassidy ft. R.kelly- hotel
yea....so im about to have a hissy fit. My mother is such a freaking hipocrite, i swear to god. we go to walmart...cuz she wants me "out of the house" so i spend my friday night out with my mother.....yay.....cuz im a loser like that. anyway.....so on the way there shes like, u wanna drive home? and i shrugged my shoulders...cuz even if i wanted to, it wouldnt matter....she wont fucking let me drive. so then after we go back to the car and put all the stuff away, she starts getting into the car and im like....um.....i thought i was driving? and shes like uh........and had that look on her face..... and shes like welll....its dark and um...... i dont know, you really havent driven in a while.....how bout next time? SURE WHATEVER BITCH. god seriously. she wont let me fucking grow up. i might as well ride my bike everywhere...oh wait.... i would need training wheels for that.... and i wouldnt be able to go further than our street because well... "youll get raped". omg.... i mean, its nice that she cares and all for my well being...but she cares too much....so much so to the point that its like im a fucking prisoner....... she complains about me being lazy and not doing stuff....WELL HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO WHEN SHE WONT LET ME GO ANYWHERE?!?!?!?

i want to..... UGHH!H!H!H! i just want to hit something i swear to fucking god.

and today, i got a little call from someone.....2wice in fact.... guess who? oh yes......ding ding ding ding ding!!!!!! you guessed right......the one and only inbred, mitchell farrell. he calls me (i was online thank god) and he leaves a message on my callwave saying that hes nearby fishing and he wanted to stop by and see me...... first of all, i do not want to see his ugly face anywhere near my house..... and whoever the hell was with him...(chip, travis, maybe ryan) i dont want them in my house either.... and then he called again like 10 minutes later "hunny, its mitch, where are ya? call me back on my cell, im comin over" IN HELL MITCHELL! IN HELL! i didnt call him back.....and then my dad said i had to go do yardwork...so i went out back and i kept hearing these noises like big truck doors slamming...and i was so scared he was going to come over... i kept running to the back corner of my house peeping around it to make sure he wasnt there.. i was so paranoid. my dad was in the garage but it still wouldnt have mattered if he showed up or not. my dad loved mitchell. he doesnt like giancarlo cuz hes not "manly" or something. idk, mitchell and him got along really well because they both liked lobster diving and fishing and crap.... AGH! i kept imagining him coming and my dad being like OHHH! hey, krista lookie whos here, your old boyfriend! isnt that nice?!?! NO DAD, NOT NICE!

but he didnt come, so that was good. mmk...well, i need to go sleep...or something. im sick of all of you..... EVERYONE! YOU PEOPLE!
 
     

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::cant breathe::   
06:30pm 28/05/2004
  just......did........yard......work.......


::dies::
 
     

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i have a complaint!   
06:15pm 28/05/2004
  okay, i have a huge complaint.(other than the fact that blurty isnt working) but this time, its reasonable. jessica, is a fucking hoe. jessica, is a fucking moron. jessica, is WAY to fickle. JESSICA, NEEDS A FUCKING REALITY CHECK AND A SLAP IN THE FACE!

i was bored, so i went online and was reading her journal because well, theres nothing else to do. apparently kenny IS going out with taylor, and josh Is going out with amber.....so basically, all 3 of them (kenny, josh and adam) are pedafiles with little nutruting freshman girlfriends. i dont have a problem with that...but i find it somewhat amusing. on the other hand....jessica needs to fucking get over herself and make up her damn mind! in her journal she was talking to kenny and asking him about taylor and i guess he didnt tell her right when he asked her out again (like last time) so of course jessica was upset because apparently she is the gossip queen of the world and has to know everything about kenny. ugh. so she starts yelling at him and telling him that he needs to make up his mind about what he wants...when he has been the one who decided he wanted to go out with jessica and has tried many a-time to ask her out....but what happened ladies and gentlemen??? what??? SHE IGNORED HIM AND PLAYED GAMES WITH HIM AND NOW SHES BEING A FUCKING DICKWAD AND TELLING HIM HE SHOULD BE THE ONE TO FIGURE OUT WHAT HIS PROBLEM IS, when in fact, ITS HER OWN FUCKING PROBLEM!

UGH! seriously, she makes things so much more difficult. and i dont know why i even care so much, kenny should have known better the 4th time around. me and shannon warned him...but no. he didnt want to listen. im sick of seeing him get hurt though.

and then.....shes still upset that he doesnt like her......yet she waives him off like he doesnt even exist. SHES FUCKING BIPOLAR AND SHOULD BE HELD CAPTIVE AND TORTURED IN A MENTAL INSTITUTION! she should be strapped to a chair, with johnny depp and all the wonderfully hot guys standing in front of her...and have them all ignore her just like she did to kenny. honestly, WHAT IS HER PROBLEM!!!

from the bitch herself:
Updates on recent couples: Kenny and Taylor, and Josh and Amber. Apparently today, love was in the air. Now Kenny, Adam and Josh can all double date together! Its so cute, its almost sickening. But Im very happy for Kenny, but I just wish he’d make up his mind.

Crazy4ubaby15 [11:25 PM]: are you going out with taylor again?
Kwgators17 [11:26 PM]: lol yes i am
Crazy4ubaby15 [11:26 PM]: lol ok thats all i needed
Crazy4ubaby15 [11:26 PM]: you loser
Kwgators17 [11:26 PM]: thank you
Kwgators17 [11:26 PM]: that was nice of you
Kwgators17 [11:27 PM]: are u being serious with me?
Crazy4ubaby15 [11:27 PM]: you think you would have learned from last time, to just tell me, seeing as how thats why i was a little upset
Crazy4ubaby15 [11:27 PM]: but no, you wanted to play this game again
Kwgators17 [11:27 PM]: hey
Crazy4ubaby15 [11:27 PM]: and thats fine
Kwgators17 [11:27 PM]: u did it to me
Crazy4ubaby15 [11:28 PM]: i know how you are
Crazy4ubaby15 [11:28 PM]: i did nothing
Kwgators17 [11:28 PM]: wtf
Kwgators17 [11:28 PM]: i've been trying to go out with u for weeks
Crazy4ubaby15 [11:28 PM]: but thats cute that taylor would take you back.. adorable in fact
Kwgators17 [11:28 PM]: and u blow me off every weekend
Kwgators17 [11:29 PM]: im tired of chasing you around

Now that hes going out with Taylor again, nothing will ever happen with us… ever. I think he has been playing everyone, and I don’t say that out of spite. I don’t know what’s going on with him. Oh well, Taylor’s problem now, not mine.

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I WANT TO CHOP HER HEAD OFF WITH A NAIL FILER! HILLARY TOO, JUST BECAUSE!
 
     

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:( boo hoo   
06:14pm 28/05/2004
 
mood: bored
music: dave matthews band- crash into me
giancarlo said we're not going to islands of adventure this weekand since is memorial day weekand and a lot of people will be there.... :( oh well. i suppose its for the best. its supposed to be REALLY hot this weekand, today it was up to 93, a record high. plus i havent gotten that dreaded u know what yet, which im sure ill get it tomorrow....or sat or sun...hopefully...since ya know. i think we are going to see troy instead though...hopefully.

guess what people! I HAVE ABS! lol. my tummy feels tighter, and it hurts a little...but i dont care. i will have abs by the time summer is over. and i wont be "squishy" as giancarlo calls me. but anywho...im bored...so im going to go eat. god i hate summer, i always gain weight lol, cuz im so bored so all i do is eat. and im so freaking lazy, i cant go anywhere, dont have anyone to go anywhere with.....once again, i didnt get dressed today. im becoming a potato. ::sigh:: oh well, ttyl bye!!

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:( boo hoo   
01:47pm 28/05/2004
 
mood: bored
music: dave matthews band- crash into me
giancarlo said we're not going to islands of adventure this weekand since is memorial day weekand and a lot of people will be there.... :( oh well. i suppose its for the best. its supposed to be REALLY hot this weekand, today it was up to 93, a record high. plus i havent gotten that dreaded u know what yet, which im sure ill get it tomorrow....or sat or sun...hopefully...since ya know. i think we are going to see troy instead though...hopefully.

guess what people! I HAVE ABS! lol. my tummy feels tighter, and it hurts a little...but i dont care. i will have abs by the time summer is over. and i wont be "squishy" as giancarlo calls me. but anywho...im bored...so im going to go eat. god i hate summer, i always gain weight lol, cuz im so bored so all i do is eat. ::sigh:: oh well, ttyl bye!!

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