04:46pm 01/05/2004
  Some insightful thoughts from my man Lunchbox:

Roses are red, violets are blue, I'm schizophrenic, and so am I.

He who laughs last, thinks slowest

Ok, so I walks up to the drive-thru winder like, gimme a burger bitch! She tells me the winder is fer payin customers, I show her my hundred dollar bill tatted on my cock, look bitch, 'Sir the drive-thru means you have to drive-thru'. bitch I'm holding a kenmore box that looks like a car.

Jesus Christ is dead.		  
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04:41pm 16/04/2004
 
music: Lil Jon "Get on my level"
So i went to the reinborn. i drank water. i went to the RR. i drank water. i went to kilkennys. I HATE THAT PLACE IT MAKES ME WANT TO LIGHT MYSELF...well, you know what i mean . i didnt drink anything. i had fun tho, it was good times ;) Devin drank too much. what a silly chick. i like her. i like her sis too, shes cool shit. ( i wonder if you are reading this ;) ) tonight im stayin in to watch the sox beat the yanks with mike. hes leaving tomorrow! boooooooooo. by the way, you can neva eva get on my level. HHWHAT!		  
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02:57am 15/04/2004
 
mood: sick
music: Ryan Duerte "You"
It's time to enter into the journal again. It is early thursday morning. Jonesie and I just took our daily trip to dunkin donuts. this is what we do. we have decided to stop drinking for 3 weeks or so. it doesnt seem that long does it? well to us, IT IS! i already have the shakes! im going to try the reinborn and the rr tomorrow night withought liquor in me. i just may have to light myself on fire. the semester is winding down and im pretty much fucked. but i say, oh well, summer is near, lilys gave me a raise and a paid vacation, so i will be ok. i want to go to texas for a couple weeks. christian, if you ever read this, i want to go back with you when you come in july. are you driving? i havent talked to you in a while, ima call you soon. hope all is well down thurr. i need some sleep.		  
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12:46am 06/03/2004
  Everyone gets that feeling. Maybe it comes in different forms but for me at least, it is a dull, tight feeling in the center of my chest. it is stronger depending on the situation. if your girlfriend dumps you or if a close family member dies it comes after the tears. (blah blah blah) it's not that bad right now. i've had worse. the thing is, i don't know why it is their tonight. nothing tragic happened. it has been the strangest night i have had in quite sometime. i've been hearing things. i heard footsteps in the snowbank when i got back. i keep hearing a door slam shut right now. its quite frightening actually. its one of those nights where the weather parallels everythig that you are feeling. the fog is so thick, i could hardly see when i was driving home. i didnt want to drive home. i just wanted to see her. i definately miss her, that must be the reason.  
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11:12am 27/02/2004
 
mood: rejuvenated
Twenty-four hour stomach virus. I thought I was dying. I finally feel better though. Leon is the man for letting me go home and sleep. Today, I get to work all day though! I'm gettin psyched for spring break, its going to be good times. We are leaving on St. Pattys day! Stopping over in NY, then heading to Daytona. I wanted to go out so bad last night with Case, Mike ,Louis, Laura and Devin. Damnit. I mean, I hope yall had a good time! work time.....till next time		  
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05:55pm 20/02/2004
 
mood: drained
music: J-kwon "Tipsy"
Thursday night are officially my favorite night of the week. and friday mornings suck. i worked all day on like 3 hours of sleep///but you know it was worth it. last night was fun, i went out with decker and the vieve-cleave. reinborn and the RR. we are goin out sat. to keene..prolly the tap and the RR for mikes bday....if anyone wants to come, meet us there! jow shmo will be out and decker, maybe d-chab and the whole crew, you know we run this city right?		  
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12:48pm 17/02/2004
 
mood: indescribable
music: The Vines "Ms Jackson" cover
WHAts up yall. The weekend was good, I had good times with the girl for valentines day. To tell you the truth, it's good to come back home though. I have a lot of homework to get done in the next couple days. so i probably wont see the outside until thursday night (in which i plan to go out and get shitty of course, lol). me, decker and joe shmo...we have a blast dont we?. (it would be better with chin and lunchbox of couse though). good news tho, mike is prolly coming home saturday for his bday. good times, good times. by the way, im addicted to madden'04. it makes me be non productive. work still sucks, i work too many hours. i worked 12-11 on valentines day and it was absolute hell. me, arwen, leon and ian almost died. fatigue, but also starvation, lol. we wished sully was there going thru hell with us. thanks for the shout out by the way. well im off to school for the next 8 hours. should be great times. stay up yall.		  
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05:26pm 28/01/2004
 
mood: mellow
music: Eamon "Fuck IT"
Long time, no talk. It's yet another semester. Yay. Hope everyone had a good break. Superbowl SUnday is coming up. I will be at the railroad in Keene, you should be there too. Song of the week is Eamon's "Fuck It". What a great song, lol. I know how he feels. Oh, and the phrase that pays is "I run this city" It's true, I run this shit.		  
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03:32pm 02/01/2004
 
mood: drained
music: Mobb Deep "Drink Away the Pain"
It's going to be a whole new year. Can't wait. What's your resolution? Have a blast tonight but be safe ya bastards.		  
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12:58am 02/01/2004
  hello all you cock a roaches. im just chillin here with casey j playin some ps2 yadamean. blingo!...i dont know what that means. happy new year all...mine was pretty uneventful but cool at the same time....swell swell  
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01:21am 30/12/2003
  Tired.
I really should be sleeping so here I go...		  
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11:30pm 19/12/2003
  Memories (talkin to Azzariti online made me think of the old days) :
Playin at the pole barn with Sean Mike and Joe. And kickin Sean Boiusierres ass all the time. The first time I met Azzaritti he was wearin those nasty Reebok Kamikazis lol. ANd we played one night and mike cut his arm all up on one of the poles.
Hangin out at Seans restaurant (which is Fat Boy's now, lol) and walking down to Duncans to play pool. All those dorky kids would play Magic, and we would play pool on that slanted-ass pool table, lol. One time Sean was foolin around wit one of those kids and he gave him the nastiest weggie, lol. Sean was goin out wit that chick Tabby and i was seein allyson and we used to go to the sand dan all the time.
Sean and mike were over one time and we decided to shoot cars as they drove by wit my BB gun. It was cool at night bc the cars had no idea what was goin on. the next morning i went to al's and when i came home, sean was sitting on my porch shooting cars still in BROAD DAYLIGHT. lol. we got arrested.
I used to have to sneak over to my gf's house. when her parents went to work in the morning, i would go over and park at either the church, or the mill and walk to her house to spend the morning with her ;) one time my coach, Springfield drove by with Joe and saw me walking to her house. joe told her that her parents didnt let me go there when they werent home. he gave me so much shit at practce the next day HAHA.
One time, al's parents were away and i snuck in her house at night and spent the night. the next day the cops came bc my car had been at the church all night. They ended up telling al's parents and her dad LOST IT. i wasnt allowed to see her for like 4 months lol.
Me, mike, sean, larss, joe and skinny used to always hang out at skinnys place. i remember the super bowl with the pats and packers. i was the only one ruiting for green bay and i pretty much got my ass kcked that night lol. Then we got the WWF thing on pay per view and we all drank and then went out in skinny's yard and started wraaaaastlin'.. Joe kicked all of our asses, i was sore lol.
Casey J's. i remember working with casey and christian. me and case used to wrestle like everyday down in the prep room. i used to kick his butt most of the time (although, he can DEFINALTELY kick my butt now). One time, chin and I got him in the parking lot and hosed him wit the ole h2o, lol.
...more to come...		  
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10:23pm 19/12/2003
  Hey?! Want to know another pet peeve of mine? Yea ya do?! When people use the word "literary" when the action was not actually literal. For example: "Kobe Bryant literally carried the team on his back". No. No he did not literally pick up the team and carry them around ya stupid piece of crap.  
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04:42pm 18/12/2003
 
music: Dr. Zeus "Naina"
Christian is home! He gave me a nickel that has "elekcin" and "dru" engraved on it. how kick ass is that? i think ima put a hole in it and turn it into a pendant. THANKS CHIN! We had a great time last night, but me being the bitch that i am...copped out early. ah well, we will have fun again tonight bling bling. glad to be on break and hopefully mike will be able to come home and hang wit us :) oH dear, it is 20 of, and i dont have a ride to work.		  
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Selfish bastards!   
01:30am 17/12/2003
 
mood: irritated
Selfishness. It makes the world a less desireable place to live in, don't you think? I admit, I am not the most giving person around, but when I speak to someone I like to ask them how they are doing. How are you doing today? What is new with you? I would light myself on fire before I rambled on about how cool/funny/drunk/ I am at the time being. I try to be nice but it gets to me, I'm not going to lie to ya.

"Does this person really think I am interested in what they are saying? Or are they just talking to hear themself talk?"

Well, they are just talking to hear themselves talk. It doesn't matter to whom they are talking. They could be talking to me, Earl, Seth, Mary, Erika, Ellisa, Bobby Brown, Peter, Mr. Mike or Jerry (can't forget Jerry). It doesn't matter who they are talking to, they could care less. What they DO care about, is getting responces from you like:

-"Oh really? That's so cool!!"
-"HAHA, that's funny shit"
-"Yes, you are the hottest chick/guy in the world!"
-"Wow, I can't believe you did that! You have balls!"

Spare me the time and agony because I have better things to do. Granted, I probably won't go do them, but I would like to have the freedom to at least think about them.		  
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12:06pm 12/12/2003
 
mood: okay
music: Nas "Halftime"
Well the semester is winding down. Thank the Gods for that eh? Wow. THe nastiest thing just happened to me. I was drinking a rootbeer with ice and there was a hair coming out of one of the icecubes. WOW. That just makes my day. Anyway, this was not my best semester, lol. I gotta pick it up next time ya know. I need a break. And not a one moth break like i get coming up. I need like a one year break, away from NH,. Christian is definately comin home Sunday. And hopefully Mike will be able to come home christmas week also. THen it will be us 4 gankstas again!. If we were midgets, there would be a sweet picture of us up at Caseys house.		  
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What's important.   
02:43pm 04/12/2003
  Going down
When everything seems subpar
two comrads seem so far
two are closest
i cant lose focus...of whats important
they are all there but im not there for myself
happiness comes in small doses
but im not happy with that
i need more but it makes me blind
i want more but i havent the ambition
i wish i had half my mothers drive
im not going to survive
at least i got the comrads		  
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11:02am 02/12/2003
 
mood: worried
ok it hit me. i am officially fucked as far as school goes. say goodbye bc mr underwood is going down...		  
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11:26am 01/12/2003
 
mood: tired
music: Nas "Quick to Back Down"
Well, it's been a few since I put a real entry in here, so heres whats on my mind...the semester is windng down and im about to be stressed. It hasnt hit me yet, although i should be starting to worry because i have plenty of shit to do. CHristian is coming home the 14th, im excited! Good thing i dont have a lot of finals bc i have a feeling im going to be going out with him and case a lot..ya know, we are going to get drunk and freestyle lol, or try to rap songs we dont know...i love it! I miss going out to the bars, i havent been for a while..case and I are saving money and getting school work done and all that rubbish. i had good times with Kelsue the last couple nights. she likes me for a change! i love it. Class tonight at 6..booooooooo. I should get some work done so i'm out. have a good one yall...		  
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05:20pm 28/11/2003
 
mood: excited
music: Jedi Mind Tricks "Rise of the Machines"
Kiwi Sport Foam cleaner is the best! It got my dirty sneakers lookin like new!		  
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