it's been a pretty good day. altho i really need to figure out like, when to eat and how to not fall asleep in geo.

so this morning...didn't have time for breakfast. ed psych reminds me of my tdp class in terms of its liberal BS ness... "with-it-ness" uh huh, minus the multiculturalism part. as long as i do the work and go to class it'll be an easy A. i grabbed a bagel w. PB from einstein's before history, since my stomach was in knots from not eating anything since yesterday's sushi. history class was pretty good...of course tho, jeff had to pick a seat right in the middle of the class, so there was a giant column in the way of my view of the overhead. but hey, there was a cute boy to my right lol. world geo put me to sleep again, but at least i got all the notes written down today. somehow i got to the union bus stop right when the bus showed up, but holy crap did we have a psycho driver! i almost pummeled over some girl behind me since i'd only been holding the side bar, not the top. but i got home early, which was nice. now...i'm just getting some laundry done. i'll probably take a quick 30 min nap before class-ass. and then there's band, running, and then traffic school....and then its the weekend! :D

it's been a long day. i'm tired. but i still have to do my ed psych quizzes...boo.

anyways, so today...i was uber tired this morning and slept in. caught the bus to diffenbaugh, i LOVE my speech prof, michelle. she's very vibrant and personable. i stayed after class to tell her that i might have to miss a few fridays bc of chiefs, and as i was leaving a guy asked me what i played - apparently he was on big 8 in 04/05, so that was cool. i went to bill's to get my books and booster stuff, but i didn't know that you have to leave a personal check as collateral in case your bright futures doesn't come thru, or something like that, so they put my books off to the side for me to come back later.

lunch with dave was awesome :) had half of a sushi thing. lol the benefits of smoking pot! it was really good catching up. then...caught the bus home, said hey to larissa. had downtime for about 30 min, then walked with kyra to band. the vball circle was better today. my plastic horn is playing now, which is awesome, so i just brought that in my little fsu #12 drawstring bag instead of bringing my case out there. but DANG IT, i left the circular thingy on my wooden horn, so after learning the drill to hit me with your best shot i had to march/play peace of mind and that by memory. it wasn't that bad. yay for clarinet parts being repetitious lol. um...changed shirts, spritzed on my sweet pea body spray (which all the pieces loved :D), then walked over to class with kyra. i got there a few minutes early and yet i had like, the 2nd to last seat in the back right corner. but hey, at least i got to sit by a cute boy :D his names ryan. my wwii prof is SO crazy and curses so much! lol! how random, katie and that bone guy from my speech class, jim, are in there as well. anyways, i can tell i'm gonna learn a lot from the class, which makes me happy.

after that...went by bill's, picked up my books (which cost exactly $154!!!! AWESOME!!! that plus my 2 from amazon = only $198 spent and not $350! yay!), got change for a $20, then took the night nole home. aw, joel, dan, colin, steph starr, and a few other seniors were eating at BK and when i waved they like, did the come on in hand motion, but the doors were locked. so i waved goodbye (haha, and blew a kiss), and went home. showered. had the other half of my sushi. got my books and folders prepared, etc...

i just read the uber fine print on my speeding ticket and it said you have to pay by money order or cashiers check if you mail it, so i said F it and paid it online. and then i paid kyra $41 for the tv/net/table. and hey, now i have cash to pay kirsten for my share of the elec/utilities whenever that comes in, and for the chiefs $20 cleaning fee...um, i was gonna do the traffic school thing tonight as well, but apparently it takes 4 hours, so i'll do it tomorrow after band since RCIA doesn't start up until next week (yay for random chance like that).

and as for now...i'm really tired. and it's only hump day. my eyes are slowly drooping more and more...but i gotta do the 2 ed psych quizzes and get some reading done before tomorrow for my US history class. after my morning class i'll go print out my blank maps for geo and running schedule in the education comp lab. usually thursday's my off-day for running, but since i didn't get a chance to go today i'll do my 3M tomorrow. and then do that online traffic school thing.

ugh i can't wait for this week to be over, just so things can be less hectic and i can get settled in my routine.

so tomorrow:
ed psych. print stuff. us history. world geo. home, nap, call dr. g's. class-ass (haha). chiefs. run. online traffic school. study. sleep. yaaaaaaaaaaay.

it's been a good evening :)

O M G i *love* my classroom assessment class and prof! quinn referred to himself in the 3rd person as "daddy," oh it was so funny. it's gonna be a lot more work than i expected tho. we got to line up against the brick wall alphabetically - the girl next to me, liz, is actually from niceville, what a small world! and omg, when quinn said he needed a volunteer to take a facebook to put on an excel thing to demonstrate how to turn in the assignment...oh hilariousness ensued. aka clark was rockin' out. LOL. too funny!

boo, more pouring rain >.<

but yay for chiefs being in the baseball stadium! walking past leach on my way there, hearing them playing...oh it just put a huge smile on my face. i love being in chiefs. haha, kyra and i were on the very outside row, so when it started raining again at an angle i had to like, hold my umbrella handle between by knees with it tilted to the right so it was barely covering kyra's head, while i played my clarinet to the left. it was a tad awkward, but rather amusing.

after band i ran 2Ms, in 1/2M increments, at the leach...rar, i forgot my towel tho so i was stuck running around the tiny lap track on the 3rd floor instead of treadmill. it's SO much more boring that way. saw caitlin there, we talked about how like, we never see any other chiefs at the gym lol. well, i've seen amanda there before, but that's it. then i went home, did my strength training for the day using marg's 10 lb weights...arms, crunches, calf raises, side dips. nothing too crazy, but a good start. showered, had the rest of the hershey's chocolate...i couldn't help it. it just makes me so happy inside :) yay greek started again! my other fav tv show besides grey's and army wives! :D

i had a good talk with kirsten. lol and it all began bc i couldn't find my specific citation # on the speeding ticket...tomorrow i get to withdraw the $120, so i can mail it out and thus sign up for the traffic school thing and get it done by mid-sept, that way it won't affect the parents' insurance. oh, ALSO, kyra and kirsten got their $100 security deposits back from univ village, so i need to ask mom to go by the p.o., since i'm assuming i had them send it there. that'll cancel out my ticket...just like not needing to get the geo book ($90) cancels out having to buy that stupid POS chalk and wire teachers thing. rar.

well, thanks to amazon and not needing the geo book, i'll somehow make it by on the limited book stipend. now i'm only paying like, $200, which is a lot nicer than $350.

anyways...tomorrow! for some reason i like making my little lists lol:
wake up @ 8
gym @ 8:30
home by 9:30
leave to catch bus by 10:40
class @ 11:15
bills' afterwards
lunch with dave @ 1:30
home
band @ 3:45
wwii 6:30-9:30
study at library for awhile
catch the night nole home

aw i forgot, i have those 2 ed psych quizzes due by thursday morning. boo.

well today's been a pretty good day.

had a minibagel & pb for breakfast. ed psych is gonna be OK...i couldn't find the classrm, but a guy who's apparently my classmate, steve, was looking for it as well. it's gonna be a BS class i can tell. i called mom afterward ....i love it how she asked how classes were going, and then spent the next 20 minutes talking about her work. aka some things never change. i'm stoked that jeff is in my us history class =] and yaaaay, our prof has a southern accent! i love it. pekoe showed me where my class is in belamy, his is just down the hall. double yay, my world geo prof is british! aka has a great accent and..."is anyone in here french? no? good, because i tend to make fun of them a lot." like when talking about places to visit in europe, he said it was very easy to travel around france and see germany and switzerland lol. AND he said we don't have to buy the textbook, since everything on the test will come from his notes! awesome! i'll need to bring a snack or something to eat right before tho, i could tell that my blood sugar level went down and i got really sleepy and kinda napped. altho it could also be bc i just started my period, sometimes i get really fatigued then.

waiting for the jackson bluff bus was a drag. i seriously was waiting for like, 30 minutes. yes, i probably could've walked home by then, but i was reaaaally tired and hadn't eaten in 5 hours, so i waited. O M G, there were so many ppl on the bus...i've never seen a bus so crowded. its a good thing i'm not claustrophobic. but hey, i got to be up against a cute boy so i can't complain too much :D

anyways...i'm gonna eat some ramen and relax for about 40 minutes, and then get ready for my last class/band. lol usually its hump day (wednesday) that seems to drag on forever, but i can tell tuesday will be "that day" for me. but we shall see. ta ta!

today was a good first day of classes =] i slept in and didn't quite get everything done that i wanted to, but it works out OK since bill's is DIF, where my speech class is on w/f, so i'll pick up my boosters stuff and check out the books as well. boo bright futures for decreasing our book stipend *yet again*! it orig was $300...then 225...and now it's 187.50. wtf!!

anyways, so today! kwentin and another bone guy, jim, are in my lecture speech class, but they won't be there w/f since we're in different sections. starbucks was fun with joe, christina, and jamie. yay for my usual tall mocha! =] hung out with jamie. we went by suntrust, deposited my check, then the fsu card place, so i could pick up the free planner. i seriously would die without a planner, i'm so forgetful - i HAVE to write things down or else it just won't get done.

jamie and i went to the new garage and drove back to the apmt. cooked one of those pasta sides - teriyaki noodles. i let jamie have like, 2/3 of it since i wasn't that hungry. she said i could use her flip folder/windows, since she has an extra one, thus i don't have to go buy one :) we talked a bunch, then she dropped me and kyra off @ band early, since she had to go pick up christina anyways. boo sucky ppl in the volleyball circle >.< and no jocelyn, let's not play basketball or soccer with it, it's a volleyball. at least the horn guy was pretty good, that gives me something to look fwd to. we went over the music in concert arc, then went over pregame and peace of mind a bunch. got the paperwork for the class skip exception thing and yay, vball for seminole sound! i can't wait!

after band i went to the leach and ran 3M. plus the walking/h2o time, i spent 40 min on the treadmill. lol it really is quite motivational, running at the leach, since there are bound to be at least a few cute muscular boys getting their cardio in as well, not just the sorority girls. i stretched in tully, since the leach was waaay too crowded. walked home, showered, talked with marg, then kyra and i went over to jessica's. she invited me earlier to come over since heather made her a cake, since today's her bday. they have a really nice apmt, there at heritage park. i'm a tad jealous of all the extra space lol. thomas's brother sounds really similar to him, it's kinda crazy. aw, they showed us the dead/drowned-from-fay kittens on the side of the road as we walked from her apmt to his =( said hi to ryan barker. i forgot that he used to have a crush on kyra, the 2 of them and tim had calc together frosh year. aww, we went by the dollar store @ 9:15 but it'd just closed at 9! so we went to cvs. but boo, they don't have soymilk! and i wasn't about to pay $3 for an overpriced loofah sponge thing, so i just got myself a big hershey's chocolate bar for $1 to satisfy my soon to be pms-chocolate cravings. i finally got my jeans folded and put away, lol.

kyra and i had a really good talk tonight - she told me about what happened last night with matt. he wanted to come over, she said ok if he watched the notebook with her, but like, for all he'd been saying he wanted to see her and whatnot, he answered his cell 5x during the movie so she had to keep pausing it, and then he got mad that it didn't end til 12:30 and he wanted to leave right afterwards.

she even referred to him as her ex-boyfriend when talking to kirsten (mims) today, and was like yeah he thinks he can control me which is why he acts like this, but i'm over it...so there is hope after all. she even said that like, she wants to go to stetsons so she can dance with cute boys! i was so excited! but then i remembered that they closed it =( maybe she'll go to aleks bday party next sunday night, she can be my beer pong partner, i'll drink for her, that way she can just be out and meet some new ppl. i told her that like, she seemed happier since i'd seen her, but idk if it was from being back at fsu or the lack of matt. she was like yeah, the last few days i've been in a really good mood...i pointed out that it doesn't make sense for the one person who makes you cry to be the one who you're in a relationship with, they should be like, enhancing your life and make you happy. so....to say the least, it looks like last night might not have been 2 steps back like i thought it was, for all i did hear her crying on the phone =/ it'll take time, but the damage has been done - she certainly doesn't feel the same way towards him that she once did.

but he OMMFG won't leave her alone, he keeps on calling and texting her, i can hear his ring tone right now. i really want to just be like dude, leave her the fuck alone she's better off without you. go find some new girl to control and distract yourself with, stop messing with kyra and her emotions. she's better than you, you asshole.

maybe i should do it. idk if she'd appreciate it, but i'm sure the rest of our friends would lol.

anyways...tomorrow's gonna be a busy day. i gotta get up by 8, since i have to catch the bus by 8:35 and go to diffenbaugh....wow i am such a retard. i have speech w/f in DIF. duh. tomorrow my first class is ed psych, in the stone building...which means i can go by the comp lab and print out somethings, yay. but so as i was trying to say -

9-10:10 ed psych, STB
11-12:15 US hist since 1865, MCH (carothers)
12:30-1:45 world geo, BEL
3:30-4:45 classrm assessment

yay for getting out of some of chiefs :)

...so i looked at the prices of my books. booo.
WWII - World at Arms: Global History of WWII - $25
Class Ass. (haha) - Dev & Using Class Ass 3rd ed (still laughing...lol) - $50 (eh)
Speech - free! yay for joe!
Ed Psych - Ed Psych 10th Ed - $80 (boo!!!)
World Geo - Fund of World Reg Geo - $100 (uber boo!!!!!)
US Hist - 3 paperbacks - $90 (sigh, more booing...)

total anticipated cost: $345.
god dang it, if bright futures still gave us $300 it'd be ok. $50 out of my own pocket is one thing....$150 is another.
i hate being a poor college student >.<

anyways, i really need to get to bed. ta ta! [edit: ok i lied, i'm still online, looking at the rosters to see if i know any kids in my classes...erin hicks is in my world geo class and jeff is in my us hist class! yay!]

Date:	2008-08-25 01:54
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Security:	Public
Mood:	good
Music:	failure by design - brand new (marg u should download it!)

i almost forgot to write about today! well...tim and danny came over. i was uber tired tho, esp after cooking myself some plain ol' pasta & marinara sauce for lunch, so i fell asleep in the living room while they watched harry potter. oops lol.

ugh, matt came over. talk about awkward - danny refuses to talk to him and tim's not much better, so when matt came into the living room to be all like, hey, whats up, i had to be the gracious one that way the whole situation wasn't over the top uncomfortable, just mildly. seriously, jesus christ almighty, why can't/won't kyra just kick him to the curb and be done with him? he doesn't like her anywhere near as much as she likes him and he'll forever treat her like crap, why can't she see that she's better off without him? sigh. whatever.

band was good tonight at least. finished pregame and learned the drill for peace of mind. i'm by richard and shenni for the most part. kirsten was home when we got back from band, yay :) lol "family laptop time in the living room!" i had some more ramen and green beans and h2o for dinner. ugh, i'm starting to get a sore throat. anyways, but so then matt came over and kyra was "fixing his schedule" for him and they were sitting all close on the couch so i went back to my room (...ugh). well, at least i was productive tonight - i am now finally, totally, unpacked. the only thing i have left to do is get my curtains and mirror hung up. i even got all my laundry done tonight :) i remembered to email my class schedule and the fsu/ucf football schedules to mom, too, which's good. i need to remember to call her tomorrow tho lol.

anyways, i'm uber tired and have to get up at 9am. i have such a busy day tomorrow!

1. call cfa/val bc i forgot to last week....leave the apmt by 9:30am
2. edu building, print out boosters email, running thing, and book list
3. deposit cfa check at suntrust, get $60 to pay for utilities, my 1/3 of the table, and leftover food $
4. bookstore, pic up tshirt and books
5. class @ 11 at the university center
6. starbucks @ 12:30
7. go home, grab clarinet and band stuff
8. gym by 2:30
9. band @ 4

...anyways, i'm temp OCD with brand new. i DLed all 3 of their albums, but atm i'm really into failure by design. they didn't make a music video for it, so marg u should just DL it. but here's it on youtube if you want to listen to it first: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EfKRQ-28UGk -but so yeah, it's awesome. night!

well last night was a lot of fun. at first i was like oh jeez, since there were sooo many screech rookies who i didn't recognize, much less know. katie picked me up and then we went to jacob and aleks' apmt...oops, i didn't realize when jacob asked if it was ok if he brought his nonchief roommates he meant all of them. aka i'd told katie we were picking up 2 guys, not 4. but they all managed to squeeze in the back of her tahoe ok. we talked about mark, he still likes her but i don't think she's up for trying again. poor katie.

it was so good seeing some ppl who i don't get to usually...steve miller!! and his wife, shawna. andrew and jeff, katie and melanie and jessica. kellie made her usual hunch punch, with 3 bottles of everclear mixed in with red stuff in the cooler. i remembered what happened the last time i had some (coughtoomuch) at toni's party (and i ended up crashing the night over there), so i most def paced myself. i only had like, 4 cups. i was so proud of myself :) haha christi came over and we talked for a bit...and then she randomly was like, you have such a great butt laura. seriously, gillian and i were just talking about it at band, how does she have such a nice ass? hahahahhahaa. pics with grace and sarah :)

ahhhh talk about a potentially awkward party...like, i was standing by aleks in the kitchen since i had been planning on joining in on flip cup, when mike jennings came over and said hey, but then he was like, you know, you look beautiful tonight. me = aww thanks, *hug*. he's always very complimentary and i'm pretty sure he'd jump on the chance to go on a date, but i hate to say it...we're just friends. and i'm not physically into black guys =/ but so anyways, aleks just kind of looked over, but i couldn't read his expression. but that wasn't too bad....it was when i was talking with jeff and then joey came over and like, leaned in and said hey we're having a small party at my place after this if you want to come over, all the while with his hand on the small of my back and i'm just like eep! but i didn't say that, i just said ok and went back to talking with jeff. i talked with katie (pregame vet) outside about it for a second. she was just like, well, you just have to make a choice and don't let the various guys run into each other while talking to you. bc that could be bad....yeah, no kidding.

we left a little early, at 12:30, since katie wanted to get home before the rain picked up again. the boys invited me over to watch a movie, they let me pick :) originally we planned on it being a disney movie, but since they had a ton of movies i'd never seen, i picked good luck chuck. watched the movie, then went to bed. aleks and i laughed that it was the first time we'd actually just slept. not gonna lie, my bed is way more comfy, thanks to my awesome memory foam. but i can't complain, its not everyday that i get to spoon with a cute boy. lol. um..slept in til like, 10, then aleks took me home and now i'm just chilling. wondering what to eat for lunch.

lol coming back to college has worked wonders for my diet. all i drink is water and i eat mostly breakfast carbs (minibagels, english muffin, oatmeal), soup, ramen, and canned veggies. i already finished off my sliced peaches and fruitsnacks :( boo. i'll need to get some more whenever k&k next go to walmart. and soymilk! i can't wait to have cereal again :)

anyways...today's gonna be a pretty blah day. i need to email mom my class schedule so she can drop it off at the bb place. do laundry. tomorrow's the first day of school :) yay! you know, i really hope bc of the rain theyll be like, music rehearsal! and not drill. even tho we are behind and should have pregame done by now...i just feel so lazy lol.

yay for tropical storm fay =]

i've had such a nice lazy saturday. well, i got up at 8 to make sure band was canceled and switched my speech class to 11:15-12:05 m/w/f instead of 8am lol. i slept in til like, jeez, 2. we lost power apparently but well, i slept thru all of it lol. was a little hungover, but not too badly. just the usual dehydration/headache/feeling warm/boo light feeling, which went away in time for me to enjoy some ramen and watch transformers with kyra and danny. joey asked me if i wanted to go to tonis party tonight, sure, but then he asked me if i'd mind being dd right when katie uinino (sp?) asked me if i'd go with her, she's not really big on showing up to parties by herself...i felt a little bad, but i texted joey and told him about katie, and that toni's ok with ppl staying the night if he wanted to drink. plus, seeing as how we did make out last night, i don't want him to get the wrong idea/too close, if that makes sense. like, we're friends but that's all i want us to be, the making out was an alcohol-induced one time thing. trust me.

but minus that, which makes me go eeeep inside, life is daisies right now =] i'm having good convo's with boovy, joe, and payday. i talked with kerri, hers and chelseas party was really good last night apparently, i wish i could've been there. like, i had fun at joey's party, he has cool roommies and friends, but at the same time, i'm more comfortable being with my usual gang. i think a part of it is that usually the person who i'm closest to/know the best at a party is a girl, not a guy. and that just makes the dynamics of the party different, at least for me.

anyways...i have another like, 2 hours to do nothing before i need to shower and start getting ready for tonight. it's gonna be fun =] its like, instead of the block list party @ the backyard we just moved it over to toni's place. lol.

man am i tired. thank goodness the fire alarm rang a lil bit ago, thus giving me a reason to go home...not gonna lie, for all joey is a good friend and we did awesome @ baseball/beer pong, uh. yeah. i'd like to keep it as just friends. yay for making some new friends tonight :) the gals =sarah, katie and katie, and christina. lol i like it how we each had our own separate dude partners. it was a tad weird that pat's (coughcreepy) uncle was there. anyways, so for all tonight was a lot of fun... chiefs is no earlier than 9am, but i need to switch speech classes @ 8am. aka < 4 hours, booo. anyways, i need my sleep .ta ta!

today was a pretty blah day. i went back to bed, then kyra and i went to opperman @ 1:30. practice seemed to drag on foreeeeever. LOL it was pouring rain when rehearsal ended at 4:30, we had to like, power walk to the call st garage. i held my case over my head, so at least my make-up didn't melt. i was like ahh its cold! and this bone guy was like, oh its bc your AF (i was wearing marg's af pt shirt). me = i'm actually not in it, it's my sisters, she's in rotc at ucf. the guy, david, was prior enlisted in the navy. i recognized him from around band, i thought he was going out with lauren westenberger? idk. we dropped off kirstens book at the library (finally). danny came over. we watched the notebook since practice was canceled (yay ts fay!)...i cried. like always. i can't help it - its like, right when she chooses noah i just start tearing up and can't stop. well, i wasn't like, bawling, but i def had to go blow my nose and splash some cold h2o on my face once it ended...wow, the past 24 hrs i've had the most absolutely stereotypical college diet ever - pizza, coke, h2o, beer, and ramen. hahahaha.

anyways, since now i'm just waiting for joey to come pick me up, he's having a small hurricane party over at his place in frog pond. on the chiefs website it said practice won't start any earlier than 9am, so i'm fine for drinking tonight. and besides, realistically we'll be in opperman again and not marching. oo, the registration opens tomorrow morning at 8, i can switch my speech class! yaay! well, gotta go....ta ta

yay for hurricane/ts fay, our morning practice is canceled.

anyways....the pieces party was a lot of fun. yay for rookies being stereotypically freshmen..such as beau! LOL "the clap"! too funny. kyra and i won 5 games on beer pong, i drank for her since she doesn't. lots of talking and mingling, it was most def a good party. i suck at shoulders but heart thumper. we went back to josh's yesterday morning for the block list lunch, i passed on the pizza. i wish i could've had coffee lol. katie and i were the first alternates, but since molly's ankle/foot is messed up, i have her spot and katie has her own. lol it reminds me of freshman year! sectionals was a drag, esp since we were standing in the heat. we learned pregame up to the end of g&g last night, i'm by tim/john, larissa, and kyra. LOL tim is such a meteorology nerd, with his anamometer wind measure thing! that was amusing. i'm by mary and a few rookies in the attendance block. bill's was last night, we picked up our free true seminole shirts (thank god, they had smalls this year!) and the $8 mc spirit shirt. LOL so me and kyra were eating our pizza off in the side aisle, and ppl would randomly try to skip the line and walk past our aisle - this girl walking by randomly was like, "are you margrets sister?" 'yes...' apparently she was in the marching knights last year lol. um...went home, showered, etc. aleks called me, asked me if i wanted to play beer pong with him and jacob, sure, so they picked me up. we played super smash bros and mariokart on the wii. lol, gives a new def to drunk driving. joey texted me last night to see if i wanted to be his beer pong partner at some party, but i was like aww if only you'd asked me 30 min ago! i felt kinda popular lol. but so i ended up staying the night since we didn't want to stay up an extra hour or 2 for one of them to sober up to take me home, so aleks took me home this morning. i was so paranoid about getting up for band, i set like 3 alarms and had marg call me. and we don't even have practice lol...idk if i'll be able to fall back asleep tho =/ "so we either like to hook up or should be going out?" but yaaay for not wanting commitment. lol "huge massive clouds of doom," what a nice way to describe fay. anyways, i'm going back to bed. i still have 4 hours to do nothing =]

ahh i'm in such a good mood =]

today: sectionals, blah. break = had minestrone & kirstens cupcake. danny came over, the 3 of us watched rachel ray and a gwb impersonator, then went to band. yay for it starting to pour as we lined up for march over lol. did the usual vet march in, except on roll step and not glide/zip since the field was wet, hissing, concert arc show for rookies, etc. final eval went pretty well - i only made a mistake on the very last band halt when i called a drag halt but shut up (but couldn't stop the awkward oh shit smile from coming to my face). i had a good talk with krystal - i like her a lot better this year than last year. lol we bonded over our love/appreciation of cute pilots. went home, showered, called back boovy but he didn't pick up :( ..wow, random, aleks just called me. lol, i heard jacob in the background saying i know where she's going! the pieces party! aleks was like oh so i guess i won't see you later then? me = no, i'll probably stay the night over there since we have to be there at 10am anyways... (altho i really dont know). is it weird that i seem to forever be in limbo mentally as to how to define our friendship? like, i consider us friends, but at the same time it's like well, we've hooked up in the past. i don't regret it(hell, i had fun), i'm not saying it won't ever happen again, but at the same time it's like...kinda weird? at least since it was always alcohol induced? and also bc i usually keep friends and flirting, etc, separated. i can't imagine myself consciously flirting with any of my friends, that's an odd thought lol. anyways, it's time for kyra and i to head out, we're going to josh's for the pieces party, woot woot :) block list comes out tomorrow morning @ 11:30..whoo......

i forgot to write about yesterday, so here's the summary:

we finished the gold packet that morning. woot. went home, took a quick nap. then we had vet music rehearsal in crazy hot hmu114, then had full music rehearsal in opperman with the rookies. i can see what jenny meant about that richard kid. then we went home for a bit and went back to the vet concert arc on the IM fields...yay for the sprinklers turning on right in the middle of devil. danny called last night and we talked for like 45 min, he apologized. simple misunderstanding, i'm glad that's done with. i was so productive last night, i got my pics up on the wall (mr. july is covering the circuit breaker box thing lol), put everything away in my closet, and so now all i have left is one small bag and a few pictures and stuff to figure out where to put on my dresser and whatnot.

as for this morning...thank god we got to sleep in. i'll def need to change my 8am speech class lol! i had a english muffin for breakfast and have been watching anywhere but here (w. natalie portman, who is awesome) on hbo. ooh i need to call back boovy! but first i need to get ready for band...we have sectionals @ 1:30 and then tonight is final evals. after that, there's gonna be a pieces party at josh's, yay! :)

overall today was a pretty good day. but atm i'm in a really bad mood. so i'm going to vent.

note to self: dairy is *still* off limits. i've been so good about it, basically bc i haven't bought any diary to tempt me (lord knows how much i adored cheese and ice cream last year), but then kirsten said we could have her leftover little caesar's pizza since she went back to orlando...and so stupid me, right when i got home from band i had 2 slices for dinner without thinking...and since shortly afterward, i've had the most *wonderful* stomach cramps. boo crazily processed cheese =(

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anyways, i wrote this really big rant but now i'm just going to delete it and start over.

1. i don't like feeling that suddenly danny's around all his other (chiefs) friends and just kind of drops me and kyra - like, we're good friends so he doesn't even need to bother trying. it's not like i'm a clingy or jealous friend, but i guess my take on how close we are is different from his. idk.

2. i *really* didn't like it when i asked him to get his soccer ball from his car and he declined, and yet < 10 min after that julia and courtney whine and bug/pressure him into finally agreeing to get it. i didn't bug him about it, i respected his decision, and yet they act like 2 yr olds and he says ok. its like bad parenting, but its between friends. in all honesty, its not THAT big of a deal - it's just over a soccer ball. but really, its the issue behind the matter that counts. fairness.

3. (at end of tonight's practice, leaving the field)
me: hey, you bringing the ball in the morning?
danny: yeah why?
me: bc i wanted to claim dibs to pass/kick it around since the girls earlier hadn't really shared earlier and well, they sucked.
danny: *really irritated tone* god laura you're gonna be a crappy history teacher with an attitude like that (about lack of patience? idk)
me: well, i'm competitive, why would i want to have to run like 50 ft bc someone can't pass the ball correctly?.
danny: well its just for fun and i could use the extra exercise. *we walk diff paths to our cars*
(that's not quite verbatim, but close enough)

...first off, thanks for saying i'm not going to be a good teacher, bc you know playing sports and teaching high schoolers are exactly alike. and yeah i know kicking the ball around before chiefs is just for fun but that doesn't mean i want to play with crappy players. especially with a girl who i strongly dislike, esp now that she's our assistant section leader. people like her just...oooh they get on my nerves.

anyways, i mentioned it to kyra and she was like, i wouldn't think too much about it, that's just how he gets sometimes, which i know - danny's a people pleaser and wants to be liked, he's bendable. and i know by tomorrow i'll be over it, it's not like we're no longer friends. but still...as for right now, i'm really irritated by it all. but its more like, i feel slighted in that he wouldn't get his ball for me and yet he got it for them, and then his comments later. it doesn't help that *I CAN'T STAND JULIA OMG* and he thinks she's cool but that's another story.

ahhh where are marg and joe and mike when i need someone to talk to :( anyways. i'm done with all this negativity. poof! it's gone. well, not really, but by tomorrow morning it will be.

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as for everything else...

had 2 hawaii sweet rolls for breakfast. practice this morning was really good, thankfully we ended early. me being superstitious, i have to stay in the same spot the entire time, with sarah to my L and kyra to my R lol. i think i did pretty well. kyra took a nap during the lunch break, i had ramen and continued reading jodi picoult's "vanishing acts." the music rehearsal was fun, i sat in between kyra and destiny. LOL i thought devil had 3 sheets of musics, not 2, destiny = don't you see the railroad tracks? "i don't know what the railroads mean, just that i want to cross them!" ...yeah, talk about forgetting basic musicology 101 and sounding totally retarded in the same sentence. um...i took a nap and read some more before the night drill. boo rain >.< man did we look tired and sloppy at first. that sucked. yay for getting to hit the wooden spoon against the clipboard for jenny lol. um..went home. had pizza. laundry. and now it's like, just past midnight and i should get to bed.

for all i'm not angry anymore, i still am not happy.
on top of that, i didn't get any of my to-do list accomplished today. boooo.
and i have to add to the list, talk to ginger...what a scam, hell no we're not paying for any part of the previous tenants' utilities bill! she might have simply overlooked the date differences by accident, but we certainly didn't.

ughhh. tomorrow's gonna be a bitch.

it's been a good day :)

slept in, had a mini bagel and sliced peaches for breakfast, and then went with kyra to opperman for the vets meeting @ 1. i was SO happy seeing everyone and getting to say hi to what feels like my long-lost chiefs friends....sarah and destiny and the rest of the pieces vets, last year's rookies, some of the guys...i must've told kyra i'm so happy/excited to be back/see everyone like, 5x at least lol.

the fsu nursing student got a weird look on her face when she took my blood pressure...i was about to ask her if it was ok when she said it was 96/64, so i asked her then and she said that it was low. it's definitely lower than what it was last time i had it checked, i guess running those 100 miles over the summer did something for me lol. i mean, i feel fine so i'm assuming me having low pressure is a good thing. i think it's just when the elderly have LBP or there's a sudden drop that it's a problem.

anyways....my audition went rather well - especially seeing as how i practiced for a whole whopping 2 hrs...i did make a couple mistakes, but nothing major.

1. on the ascending F scale for some reason my right hand decided to press the side key an octave too early, so i played Eb (vs Bb on the 2nd octave), so i just said sorry and restarted it and got it fine the 2nd time thru. yay 3 octaves.
2. my L ring finger slipped on the descending arpeggio on the Bb scale, so yeah..random C grace note in between the Eb and Bb...but scales only count for 10% of your overall marching/music score, so eh.
3. that one measure with the 16th notes in the slow piece...boo. but everything else was good :) esp tone quality and cresc/decresc.
4. waited one measure too late to breath in the middle of the fast piece, so that one measure's tongued 16th notes sounded fuzzy. and why on B? that's like, the worst note on the horn for that.

but eh, those were minor details. thank god i didn't freak out like i did my rookie year, and not put enough air in the horn bc i was so nervous. i think i did pretty well on the sight reading piece. but so yeah, it wasn't great, but it was good enough. woot.

after that we went back to the apmt. emerson and kirsten were watching the olympics (lol, what else is there on tv right now?..whenever i bring up how michael phelps face is kind of awkward looking, kyra always brings up and laughs about me once saying "he's confusing looking." i'm glad she likes my random statements lol). tim and then jamie came over, it was good catching up...altho i was feeling tired and didn't focus on the convo as much as i probably should have. i had some roasted peanuts and (lol, "low sodium" AKA not as tasty) ramen for an early dinner, and then some gushers right before we left for hymn night.

O M G.

so just the other day i was kinda bragging to kyra and danny, oh i've never slipped on these stairs!, when they were talking about the random small step right above the big one. well, whatdya know...i'm wearing my silver heels, kyra's walking behind me down the stairs, and then BAM! my one heel slips out from under me on that blasted crazy step and i slip another like, 3 steps...i grabbed the banister and stopped in like, a vball-type squat position and thankfully didn't fall face first into the door, which is a good thing. kyra just about died laughing. it was quite funny looking apparently.

anyways...it was nice relearning the alto part to the hymn, last year i just matched the pitch of the girls singing around me (who were usually sopranos). hopefully this year i'll remember to just stick to the F and low C notes, instead of trying to hit the mid D lol...i think i'll get along better with krystal this year. she sat with kyra and i during the rehearsal and idk, she just seemed more...normal? i don't know what the right adjective is. i figure it's a new year, everyone deserves a clean slate, i shouldn't be so quick to judge people based on my past grievances or dislikes of them. people change and besides, this is my second-to-last year in chiefs, i might as well at least start off liking everyone. haha when we were all in the lounge for the pieces meet-n-greet thing, i laughed about danny's nickname from last year "cant get up" and kyra was like yank it up??!? it was too funny.

um...after that we went to get gas, then went home. took a shower, changed, did the dishes, changed jacques' water, talked with kirsten by the kitchen, washed my vera bradley purse, got my stuff ready for tomorrow morning.

dang it, i wish it wasn't already past 1 - i just started reading jodi picoult's "vanishing acts," and i'm really starting to get into it but like, i def need to get to bed...i have a 6:45 wake up time, thanks to chiefs starting @ 7:30. boo not having any coffee filters! =( oh well. i have 4 days to finish reading it before kirsten returns it to the public library. i'm really happy she's letting me borrow it, i love love love jodi picoult. she's by far my fav author ever.

i have a nice little to do list for tomorrow...hopefully chiefs won't end too late tomorrow night, so kirsten and i can go by walmart. i only really need to get a remote and soymilk, so i can have cereal for breakfast, but i'd like to get a new loofah, apples, those hershey's milk choc nuggets that marg had over the summer, and fruitsnacks. i'll call cfa right after we finish the morning practice and ask val to just drop off the cash at my dad's work. i also need to call mom and ask her if she could call dr. g's to set up an apmt for the day before thanksgiving. i should call her tomorrow anyways just to tell her how the audition went, i'm sure she'll want to know.

i'm so happy to be back :) kinda funny tho, how being back here and on my own again makes me appreciate having my family there for me more. distance makes the heart grow fonder? idk. altho i'm pretty sure that line is meant for lovers, not family members lol. anyways, i'm off to bed. ta ta.

it's been a pretty blah day...i really didn't do much. hung out with kyra, danny, michael, and kirsten. played rock band and trivial pursuit. watched more of the olympics. looked over the audition music...it's kinda weird thinking that its tomorrow. anyways, i should get to bed. ta ta.

i like it how my first friday night back and i'm back into the swing of things lol.

i had a really good time hanging out with kyra and katie at lunch @ gordo's. i'm really happy that she'll be coming back for a few of the home games :) i helped kyra's fam move her little sister's stuff into kellum. i like her, she's pretty cool. aw =/ -some of the kkpsi kids offered to help. phil was like, did yall go to high school together? kyra was like uh...she's my little sister. i said she's my roommate (in reference to kyra), but he didn't recognize her so kyra said i'm in band. talk about awkward. i like her fam :) her dad is pretty high up in lockheed martin, the orlando office. we had dinner at moe's, talked about the olympics. since we got danny's couch earlier, he and kyra's dad moved it up the stairs for us.

OH! i almost forgot! kyra and matt are finally no longer! like, it seem's like she's seen the light! since she was here for her bday, back in may, her mom decided to rent some tubes and have a fam day out on some big lake and like, he got MAD at her when she invited him, yelling at her and saying stuff like wtf who goes tubing on freshwater...he went to cj's party the night before and wouldn't leave, hung up on her when she called, didn't go out with her and her fam, aka was a total asshole...now i feel almost bad, i didn't even notice that they haven't talked to e.o. once since what, 2 days ago? but i'm happy about it. like, ecstatic. she can do SO much better than him. yay kyra :)

i went to nic's bday party with katie last night, which was fun. kyra went to walmart with her folks, so we'll just go to stetson's next friday. i CANNOT believe that michael phelps won the 100m fly last night! that was just crazy. um...won 3 games of beer pong with katie, but she had to get home early so charles said he'd take me home, which was nice. ugh, not shots of crown again. LOL in between their neighbor the deputy and the homeless creepy wheelchair guy, the party just died in a matter of 10 minutes. apparently kyle and holly are on-again. ahh, screws' hair! the "jew fro" ...i'm not gonna lie, i almost didn't recognize him. lol, i'm glad marg said i could take lucky (the uber comfy dog stuffed animal thing) back with me to tally...i woke up holding it for dear life with my right hand. what can i say, i like to cuddle when i go to bed at 3am lol. i forgot how well i sleep after drinking with my friends, it's quite nice. i'm glad to know that i still get up early and don't sleep in with a hangover until late in the afternoon.

i need to call back danny today, about practicing our music. and finish getting the stuff up on my wall. drink more h2o, so i'm not dehydrated during chiefs. get those last 3 bags unpacked =p moving sucks, it's such a pain in the butt.

but i'm glad to be back :)

what a crazy 2 days its been....

first off, wtf val. i called her twice, left a message, ixnay ever calling me adter work and getting together. WTF. so i'm just gonna have to call and be like look, *sarcastic* whenever its convenient for you to be a financially responsible adult, just leave it at my dad's story at the corner of navy and bob sikes since i obvi can't get it personally since i'm now in tally.

anyways, yesterday...got everything packed up, went with d & marg to the eglin hospital (lol, 'thanks for telling me bout the guy walking behind us before i picked my wedgie...NOT!' - 'don't die!" "is that your fan club?" - tacky wedding centerpieces, lol), picked up marg's rotc pants from the cleaners, hung out @ dad's, went home, got the truck loaded up, then drove with marg to tally. ugh, i got my first speeding ticket - doing 79 on the interstate, which is 70. i'll just have to pay the $100 fine and go to that school thing so the points are erased (thus, no insurance rate increase), w/i 30 days. seriously tho, if there's almost no traffic and it's a clear night, why give someone a speeding ticket? oh well, it's not the autobahn. i shouldn't have been going that fast, even if i was trying to make it to tally asap. i told mom this morning, i was pleasantly surprised at her reaction - not overreacting. lol, "hey marg, how bout happy merry early xmas....?" aw, 'well at least you don't have a boil!' "at least you don't have a speeding ticket!' marg and i played hearts/asshole at michael's and had some pasta while we waited for mom. haha "ahh i hate hannah montana!" i should've known it was a joke. michael gave me the actual copy and i gave marg the h.m. one. um...got my stuff all unloaded. yay for 3 guy neighbors offering to move the tv up the stairs when they saw us struggling, lol. mom and marg went to bed, i stayed up til like, 5am unpacking and sorting thru everything. i still have like, 2 small bags to go thru, but that's not too important. marg told me to just do it later after i got back from orlando but i was like, dude, i won't be able to sleep, seriously.

today...slept in a lil. whoops. took a nap for the 1st half of the drive to orlando. the rain sucked. went to elliot's apmt. LOL "where's benji?" ...hiding under the covers in between marisa's legs, who was taking a nap. of course, she woke up as we were holding up the end of the sheet looking at the cat - it was quite amusing. we went to their future apmt's place to check it out. marg was tired and slightly rar due to being discomforted/in some pain, but they finally got it all figured out - they're actually going to stay at elliot and marisa's place for a few months, since their dad is buying a house, and then move in there, which saves them money. haha, d's skinnier cousin was all like 'dude you're getting beat by a girl!' to the bigger one when we played battle gh. it made me laugh, it's such a little boy thing to say. OMG the spicy beef was amazing! d's mom sure knows how to cook. um...moved marg's stuff up into the apmt. one of their neighbors, a nicely dressed young guy, who i'm assuming has an office/business job, kinda flirted with me in the elevator as i was bringing up marg's stuff. it made me smile. awwww, the puppy with the huge cast on his front leg was so cute! he was just dragging it around. <3 =] sang happy bday to derrick, had some cake. i can't believe he's already 21.

mom and i had a really good drive back to tally. i was really tired for the first hour or 2 back, but we stopped at ocala for gas and to get some food at waho. if only she talked to everyone else like she does with me - having a normal 2-sided conversation and not like, being an uber chatterbox, ya know? we talked about soooo many things, i don't even remember it all. anyways, she left awhile ago and now i'm going to bed....dude, small world - as i was hugging mom goodbye at her car, i'm pretty sure i saw steve, bama and chang's old roomie, leave the opposite apmt with some chic. weird.

tomorrow....lunch w. katie hill, practice audition music!, hang up pictures, laundry, etc...yay for being back in tally =]

this morning has been surprisingly very productive lol.
...finally got a hold of val, i'll meet her after she gets off of work/cashes her check. wootness over no more angst over that.
...got in touch with ginger, she's gonna make a copy of the key and have it in an envelope under the flowerpot by her door. but i just talked with michael on fb, he said he'd go by there and pick it up for me, bc i'd feel better knowing he had it rather than trusting the safety of a flowerpot lol.

and now i am totally 100% packed up - except for little jacques lol. i'm so excited =] i love my folks and hometown friends, but i'm ready to get back to tally.
anyways, derrick just got here, so ta ta!

today was a good day :) took dad to work, watched saved by the bell. went by cfa, but since it was raining we went to maas to meet up with CB for coffee. kate was there! that was random, but it was good catching up. then...checked out the fwb flea market, then tj maxx. went home, marg and i cooked grilled cheese sandwiches, marg took a nap. i picked up dad, then after that we all drove out to navarre for dinner at grandpa's. it was good seeing him and aunt di one last time before marg and i leave the hometown to go back to college...sigh, the usual rarness over sisters being butt-headed and uh, disagreeing. to put it lightly. drug use vs alcohol. edwards' affair vs. clinton's. UU...whatever.

thank goodness i have marg.

man, i am so fed up with trying to get a hold of val. i called her house this morning, since joe told me she said to call her...anyways, i left a message with my cell # and asked her to call me back. i called back around 5pm, her daughter said she was in the shower. so i called back at like 6, the kid said she was on the other house phone with her cousin, i asked her if she'd tell val to please call me back, ok. so i called back at 9, and the phone just rang and rang and rang. i mean, are you for real? ...it's just so frustrating. val's cool enough and all, but if i'd known she be so NOT diligent in repaying me i never would've offered to pick up some fsu apparel for her in the first place. cuz honestly, $85 is like, a month's worth of food for me. i'll just have to go to cfa and idk, maybe ask her to give it to joe? mail it to my house? idk. it's just frustrating.

anyways. on the bright side, we got the whole trip moving thing FINALLY figured out. i'm just gonna have to call dr. g's and reschedule my appointment for the wednesday right before thanksgiving or else the xmas break. we're gonna get the truck and go to tally tomorrow evening. i called michael, he said he'd pick up my key for me, i really owe him big time for that. anyways, we'll move my stuff in, i'll unpack all my stuff, and they'll continue on to orlando i suppose, or else crash the night at my place. and i'll have all thursday, friday, and saturday to perfect my audition music lol.

you know, i really like to-do lists, bc i'm really bad at forgetting things. so tomorrow!
1. laundry/finish packing
2. go by cfa
3. call ginger
4. load up truck
5. go to tally
6. unpack! :)

...yay more olympics. phelps and the mens swimming team are doing awesome, like usual. yay 4x200free for getting in under 7 minutes. boo women's gymnastics getting second =( you can't help but feel sympathy for alicia, the team captain. she fell and it basically blew their chance of getting the gold, when usa & china were neck and neck. but you know, it happens. everyone makes mistakes and tonight just wasn't her lucky night. but yay women's vball :)

anyways, i'm off. ta ta.