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Ok, my mom is like basically wanting me to be like her when she was in school....that makes me so mad....I dont have bad grades all A's and B's and like one C and that is almost a B. See thats not so bad is it? well, my mom thinks that it is and everything I do in school she hates....it makes me so fucking mad...
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow
Every step I take is another mistake to you
Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I've becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow
And every second I waste is more than I can take
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I've becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I've becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be
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| I'm drunk off your kiss... |
[01 May 2003|05:07pm] |
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For another night in a row
This is becoming too routine for me
But I did not mean to lead you on
And it’s all right to pretend
That we still talk
It’s just for show, isn’t it
It’s my fault that it fell apart
Just maybe
You need this
And I didn’t mean to
Lead you on
You were everything I wanted
But I just can't finish what I've started
There’s no room left here on my back
It was damaged long ago
Though you swear that you are true
I still pick my friends over you
(My friends over you)
Please tell me everything,
That you think that I should know
About all the plans you made
When I was never to be found
And it’s all right to forget
That we still talk
Its just for fun, isn’t it
It’s my fault that it fell apart
Cuz maybe you need this
And I didn’t mean to
Lead you on
You were everything I wanted
But I just can't finish what I've started
There’s no room left here on my back
It was damaged long ago
Though you swear that you are true
I still pick my friends over you
(My friends over you)
Just maybe you need this
You need this…
And I didn’t mean to
Lead you on
You were everything I wanted
But I just can't finish what I've started
There’s no room left here on my back
It was damaged long ago
Though you swear that you are true
I still pick my friends over you
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[30 Apr 2003|03:44pm] |
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I probably made about 6 songs last night....i guess i was just in the mood....i have never done that many before.....it sorta scares me haha....
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[28 Apr 2003|09:49pm] |
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The song says it all....
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| I hope my mom reads this, since she reads everything I write |
[27 Apr 2003|03:44pm] |
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Circling your head contemplating everything you ever said
Now I see the truth I got a doubt
A different motive in your eyes and now I'm out
See you later
I see your fantasy you want to make a reality paved in gold
See inside, inside of our heads
yeah
Well that's over
I see your motives inside
decisions to hide
Fuck off I’ll take you on
Headstrong to take on anyone
I know that you are wrong
Headstrong we're Headstrong
Back off I’ll take you on
Headstrong to take on anyone
I know that you are wrong
This is not where you belong
I can't give everything away
I won't give everything away
Visions manifest your first impressions got to be your very best
I see you're full of shit and that's all right
That's how you play I guess you get through every night
Now that's over
I see your fantasy you want to make it a reality paved in gold
See inside, inside of our heads
Well that's over
I see your motives inside
and your decisions to hide
Fuck off I’ll take you on
Headstrong to take on any one
I know that you are wrong
Headstrong, we’re headstrong
Back off I’ll take you on
Headstrong to take on anyone
I know that you are wrong
and This is not where you belong
where you belong
I can’t give everything away
this is not where you belong
I won’t give everything away
I know I know all about
I know I know all about
I know I know all about
I know I know all about
Your motives inside
and your decision to hide
Fuck off I’ll take you on
Headstrong to take on anyone
I know that you are wrong
Headstrong,we’re headstrong
Back off I’ll take you on
Headstrong to take on anyone
I know that you are wrong
and this is not where you belong
where you belong
this is not where you belong
I can’t give everything away
This is not where you belong
I won’t give everything away
where you belong
this is not where you belong
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[27 Apr 2003|11:46am] |
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I don’t know who to trust no surprise
Everyone feels so far away from me
Happy thoughts sift through dust and the lies
Trying not to break but I’m so tired of this deceit
Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet
All I ever think about is this
All the tiring time between
And how trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me
Take everything from the inside and throw it all away
Cuz I swear for the last time I won’t trust myself with you
Tension is building inside steadily
Everyone feels so far away from me
heavy thoughts forcing their way out of me
Trying not to break but I’m so tired of this deceit
Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet
All I ever think about is this
All the tiring time between
And how trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me
Take everything from the inside and throw it all away
Cuz I swear for the last time I won’t trust myself with you
I won’t waste myself on you
You
You
Waste myself on you
You
You
I’ll take everything from the inside and throw it all away
Cuz I swear for the last time I won’t trust myself with you
Everything from the inside and just throw it all away
Cuz I swear for the last time I won’t trust myself with you
You
You
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| Bored. Bored. Bored. |
[26 Apr 2003|11:59pm] |
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I'm so freaking bored....There is nothing to do in this very tedious household.....ahhhhh....this is jewish....i have nothing to do and its only 12....all im doing is talking on AIM oh boy thats sure fun....
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[25 Apr 2003|06:47pm] |
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Sometimes I need to remember just to breathe
Sometimes I need you to stay away from me
Sometimes I’m in disbelief I didn’t know
Somehow I need you to go
Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
Just give me myself back and
Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
Just give me myself back and
Don’t stay
Sometimes I feel like I trusted you too well
Sometimes I just feel like screaming at myself
Sometimes I’m in disbelief I didn’t know
Somehow I need to be alone
Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
Just give me myself back and
Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
Just give me myself back and
Don’t stay
I don’t need you anymore, I don’t want to be ignored
I don’t need one more day of you wasting me away
I don’t need you anymore, I don’t want to be ignored
I don’t need one more day of you wasting me away
With no apologies
Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
Just give me myself back and
Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
Just give me myself back and
Don’t stay
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[24 Apr 2003|08:06pm] |
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It's not a bad "funny", it's good funny....I just feel all good and shit....maybe something good is going to happen....who knows???Ugggg, the only bad thing is that I'm going back to school.....I was gone for 2 days....im gonna have so much homework to do over the weekend....oh, well
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[24 Apr 2003|02:07pm] |
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[24 Apr 2003|09:13am] |
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Everyone just needs to leave me the fuck alone and stop tring to get into my business....I can handle things by myself....everyone just needs to fuck off and mind their own business
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[23 Apr 2003|09:53pm] |
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I am a little bit of loneliness a little bit of disregard
Handful of complaints but I can’t help the fact that everybody can see
these scars
I am what I want you to want what I want you to feel
But it's like no matter what I do, I can't convince you, to just believe
this is real
So I let go, watching you, turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here 'cause you're all that I've got
I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
I am a little bit insecure a little unconfident
Cause you don't understand I do what I can but sometimes I don't make
sense
I say what you never wanna say but I've never had a doubt
It's like no matter what I do I can't convince you for once just to hear
me out
So I let go watching you turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here 'cause you're all that I've got
I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Now
Hear me out now
You're gonna listen to me, like it or not
Right now
Hear me out now
You're gonna listen to me, like it or not
Right now
I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
I can't feel
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
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[23 Apr 2003|09:07pm] |
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God, My mom was going through all my stuff today!!!I could tell, everything was moved around....this really pisses me off...I asked her if she did go though my stuff and she said she didn't.....I hate it when my mom lies to me....aren't parents not suppost to do that??? I dont know.... I feel like breaking something now.....later
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[23 Apr 2003|09:00am] |
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Im Still Confused.......I have no clue why....maybe something is going to happen in the distant future....I hope its good..
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