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| 05:20am 14/10/2003 |
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mood:  melancholy music: I was listening to deftones.. teacher made me turn it off.
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DeviantArt will not load here. dammit.. :( I'm in school.. at my beloved Vo-tech.. I love it here, not being sarcastic. So much better than Saucon.. you have no idea... gah.. being poked by classmate.. anyway!.. school is going well so far.. doing good in my saucon classes.. although i prolly have a bit of work to make up because i was absent yesterday due to a splitting, throbbing headache that i've had on and off for a week i believe... . . sucks.. hm.. i dont really know what to write about.. I've been good, we're (John and I) have been working on re-doing the shed out back.. I'm redoing my room.. got a $300 carpet. tis pretty.. earthy tones... diff. shapes.. i like... tis my first big purchase with my OWN money from working.. (got a job at Lost Cave.. as a tourguide..dunno if i wrote that before) I only work fridays for 2 hours and sundays for about 7 6.50/hr.. .. i want more hours.. need more money.. i'm attepting to save for a car.. . . . maybe i'll just find another job to go along with the cave work... i dont know.. hm.. becky moved in down the street from me so shes over more now.. ^_^ OW.. i've been bitten by the classmate troy.. . . . arg. . . yes well. anyway.. john is still living with me.. no problems there.. My mom's been sorta sick lately.. random swollen joints, a lot of pain in her joints, etc.. some other stuff too.. she just got a crap load of blood work done yesterday to see what is wrong with her.. I'm trying to to really worry about it.. we think its probably just from her one medication.. i hope we're right.. anyway.. my dad has been pretty good lately... minus his personal problem from the Atkins Diet.. you dont want to know.. lol.. but hes ok now.. hm.. i think im gonna get goin now.. . . .dunno what i'm doing after school.. prolly spackling the shed more.. dunno.. ::shruggs::.. |
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| 01:51am 12/10/2003 |
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I havent really written much on here lately.. i began writing a bit more in my deviantart (www.larua2123.deviantart.com) .. i just havent really found the need to write in here anymore.. i've been keeping to myself more lately.. but i think i will begin religiously writing again for the hell of it. i prolly need that.. i dont know.. whatever.. . . . i need sleep. work tomorrow... blah.. so yeah, by. |
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| 05:47pm 27/07/2003 |
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mood:  blah music: none...
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Hello.. i haven't written in a while, but i'm not sure it matters anymore... i dont believe many people read it.. but alas, I have reached boredom, so i write anyway. . . Ashley has left for NJ.. she is staying there a while... some things are unsure about where her future residence lies.. :o( I miss her muchly.. Katie is leaving to go back to Ohio either tomorrow or the next day. . ... :o( again.. it pretty much sucks. the two favorite girls in my life are going to away from meeee. . . I miss katie already... waaahhhhhhh.. i dunno.. on the brighter side of things i got a job at Lost River Caverns... I'm getting my permit sometime this week. Feels like some things are finally coming together... Tomorrow is my first day at the Caves and im pretty nervous.. i shouldn't be though, because a few of my friends work there and they can show me how its done.. giving the tours and such... should be odd for me considering i sometimes get weird in large groups of people.. but hell, maybe it will be my thing to get over that weirdness.. hmm.. sooo.. i suppose everything is set for the rest of the summer.. i'm visiting ash for a day, going to the beach. hope i dont have to work.. i can always try to get off.. i really have no idea how my schedule will be... hm... this morning i went out with my dad. i woke up at eight and we went to the lil church group at the middle school... it sucked.. i dunno. im not the church person i guess you could say.. i feel weird because my dad is all about trying to get me back into religion... and i kind of just don't want to.. i have my own conclusions, my own beliefs and morals, and i follow them.... some of that comes from Christianity, some Buddahism, some myself, etc... I don't know if my dad would understand that.. but i did tell him i didnt like church... it feels like school but cheesier.. i dont learn shit, and all of the people are so damned happy.. almost like they're putting on a show to see who is the "best Christian" ya know? I just don't really dig that... but then we went out to breakfast at Kasey Lynn's.. had a bacon and cheese omlette.. good shit.. came home around 11 and went to wake up john and ended up falling asleep for a hour and a half with him.. . .heh.. Then me and Katie went out for a walk and met up with Bob.. Came home, ate too much, and got bored.. woo-hoo.. ::dances::.. i began preparation of my room for painting and moving furnature.. my plan is to complete the vaccuming (go over it like 3-4 times).. then buy a huge area rug that i like.. pick out a color on there, and get paint to match it....get all the glue off the freakin walls with a heat gun and paint away.... My sister gave me these 3 by 4 foot pieces of poster and foam board.. (the good kind, she got from college) and I plan to make a big painting to go with the room.. maybe 2 or 3... dunno.. We'll see how things progress.. but i have to get money for the rug first.. my mom said she'd pay for it when she gets money.. i'm gonna pay her back with my first paycheck... Speaking of painting and re-doing.. I have to email the acrylic paint supplier again and get a colorchart. (My dad wants me and a few friends to sand and paint the van with murals and such.. in order to do this we need special paint..) So I have some shit to do.. just not really at the moment..... perhaps i will go and begin my vaccuming process... I've come to that point of boredom... |
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| 11:04pm 12/07/2003 |
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mood:  amused music: Kidney thieves- feathers
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The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to the First Level of Hell - Limbo!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test |
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| 09:30pm 07/07/2003 |
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mood: optimistic music: none at the moment
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I just had an interesting little experience... Mentally, i havent been all that i used to be.. i felt the driftage with a few friends.. and started to envy the relationships i observed them engaging in with my other friends.. I lack the same bond with my friends that i once had. the mental connection. the best friend i guess you could say. i have many friends, all of which i could go to with anything if i wanted to. But recently i've noticed myself not coming to them when i need to... I think a lot to myself and think that some things are for me to figure out without outside support or opinion.. but i'm realizing that i need to go to people.. i need to get off my chest what festers there because i need people to better help organize me... its hard to explain really. But i talked to cora and katie about it.. and i plan to talk to others.. engage in those relationships that i see fading.. rekindling of sorts i suppose.. i need to regain my confidence also.. that has too been lacking.. i find myself getting more strange in groups of people that i may already know.. more awkward.. more paranoid.. like im in sixth grade again... not the same out-there, up-beat person i used to be.. so afraid of judgement.. trapped in my own little bubble i suppose.. I'm extremely glad i had that talk with katie and cora.. it organized my thoughts.. made me remeber what is important, what i need to fix, what i need to do basically to reach my mental well-being and be a better friend.. break beyond the surface of things.... I think this could help me feel more motivated.. motivation needs to come back.. i only applied for one job, of which i know im not getting.. and i need to get an appointment for a psyical before i can get my permit... i know what i have to do with things.. i just need to get up off my ass and act on it.... And i know i will.. im too tired of feeling like a lump of shit.. it doesnt need to be that way... I think this is another cornerstone in my teenaged metal growth process.... |
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| 10:32pm 29/06/2003 |
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mood:  bored music: The missing - I scare you
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Woo hoo.. i'm having my first spell of summer boredom... the night is young and i have nothing to do, noplace to go... for once nobody is here at my house... john is sleeping at nates... its just me bobby mom and dad... I'm not quite sure what my emotion is at the moment.. im just here... not really thinking a whole lot... i know what the hell to do, i have no idea why i didnt think about it before!!.. im gonna go paint.. yes.. i havent gotten to finish my painting i started about 3 weeks ago.. heh.. I'm off!t |
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| 10:21pm 29/06/2003 |
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mood: blank music: Metallica - One
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This is fairly morbid, but i found it to be an interesting quiz...
(im not suicidal, though i have thought about it. i have concluded that it is a cowardly escape and it is not for me..)
my method of suicide: hanging.
how would you commit suicide?
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| 04:10pm 22/06/2003 |
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mood: blank music: nada
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THis may sound strange, but i believe i forgot that i had a blurty journal... i've been pretty busy with the end of the school year and crap like that... anyway.. school's out, im enjoying it so far. turned 16 on the 20th... attempting to get a job... and my permit.. I am now being given new responsiblities... yay... its weird... i'm not a little kid anymore... ::dances::.. but it could also prove to be stressful... hell, i guess thats life.. n e way.. Katie is up, we've been having lotz of fun.. her b-day is on the 27th.. ::dances in a circle::.. WOO.. yeah. speaking of katie, she wants me to join her on the porch.. soo tata.. i'll start writing again for the hell of it.. |
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| 11:19pm 29/05/2003 |
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You are a Ravner. you are part of a collective hive
structure. Your sole purpose is to eat and
support the queen. your planet is inhospitable
to almost any other living organisim. You
breath sulfuric acid and follow an insect life
cycle. Though you have nearly god-like
strength, your intellegence is somewhat
lacking. Your civilization has not advanced
past the wheel. (that advancement took a
considerable amount of time to get too.)
Natural predators,a low intlegence, and
insatiable hunger drvies your species into
eternal enslavement. have fun in the mines,
slave.
Which of Our Alien Races Are You?
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| 11:07pm 29/05/2003 |
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mood:  sleepy music: nada
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I'm a loser.. lol... I like these lil dumb quizes and illustrations... i dunno.. too much crack i suppose... Hm.. nothin is really too new here.. redyed my hair. haha.. cora did it again.. its all different shades of purple fuscia red and blue.. its cool though.... hmm.. School is almost over.... ::dances:: yay.. john's sittin behind me doing his homework.. i actually dont have any.. ::dances more::.. im pretty tired... im gonna go sleep now.. friday is tomorrow.. :::dances one last time:::.... good night.. |
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| 03:28pm 19/05/2003 |
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mood: blank music: A perfect circle- orestes
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ola... i am bored as hell.. its john and my 10 month anniversary and he is at work... :( its ok tho.. we're goin to the cafe later i think... hm.. ash is on the porch with mom.. im in here.. being bored.. with a headache... i dunno what im gonna do for the next few hours.. maybe i'll actually clean my room.. holy shit. lol.. hmm.. i have no idea.. John is all moved in now.. so thats cool... :) blah, i hate mondays. everyone was in a bad freakin mood in school... and we had a damn pep rally ish thing last block too. that topped it off.. lol.. I'm still attempting to get a background on my damn journal... its being evil.. arg.. I dyed my hair once again.. blue and fucia.. i like it.. best colors so far i think.... hm.. blah, well, i guess im gonna go occupy myself... tata.. |
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| 02:22pm 12/05/2003 |
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I had a really good weekend for the most part. Camping the woods Friday.. ::dances::..saturday..ah, brain fart, dunno what i did... sunday.. me and john cleaned up the basement.. ugh.. it was gross, but hes movin in soon so its worth it.. :) heh.. i chopped my hair off saturday.. thats what i did.. lol... its a lil bit above my shoulders... I need some health back in my hair, too much bleach... hm.. i gotta go, bell is gonna ring.. tata.. |
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| 12:16pm 08/05/2003 |
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mood: sick music: classical... (im in the library)
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Wow.. i really havent written in a long freakin time.... and i am now, because i am bored out of my mind in the library.. I missed monday and yesterday so i didnt have to take the test in world cultures... i have no idea what its on.. im lost.. yeah well, study tonight..... anyway... i've been sick for the past hmm... 3 weeks i guess? Coughing and crap.. the doc gave me an antibiotic last week and said i had broncitus..I thought it was working, but i thought too soon.. i got sick a day after i was done with the medication.. so i went back to the doc and got another bottle of magic pills.. if my cough doesnt clear up in a week, i am getting a chest x-ray.... blahh.. anyway... I got my braces off monday too... the clear retainers are really annoying, but im done with the 3-day time period i had to wear them.. now its just at night.. but as you can imagine i have been in a good deal of annoying discomfort and pain in the past couple weeks.. yeah well. im trying to tough it out and not miss too much school.. i get to far behind... blah.. i got john sick too.. :(.. he stayed home for 5 days. lol.. he went to the hospital to get his medication but the people just told him he wasnt sick and it was his mom's fault for not making him go to school... WTF is that?! hes 17 years old, i think he knows if hes sick or needs medicine, i dont think he requires his mother to get him to school.. common people.. anyway.. so he didnt get medicine, so if he does have brocitus and it gets to pnemonia, the hospital will look very stupid... and you know what's even funnier about this? he works for the hospital, handling food in the cafeteria... go figure.... Human stupidity never stops amazing me... anyway.. i had a good little conversation with my brother and later with john about different things going on in the world, how screwy everything is for stupid reasons, etc... I was watching the news.. thats what brought that on... Joy... I cant watch very much of that crap, it just pisses me off to no end... yeah.. soooo... idk what else is going on.. so I am leaving for now.... peash |
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| 10:34pm 14/04/2003 |
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mood: blank music: sinnistar- freak of nature
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Hello whoever reads this...
This weekend was radical dude.. haha.. i went to that thing at the school, twas ok i suppose.. i had fun.. I came home and went to crossroads.. John slept over... woke up the next day at 11 and went to hang out with nate and sara.. we went out to eat with them at the hard wok.. it was cool.. john had some problems with the sushi.. lol... n e way, then we went to sara's and then we went to sally's and got bleach.. went back to her house and we all dyed our hair.. i now have alternating streaks of greenish teal and purple.. john has some blue in his.. nate did green in the front.. sarah did green chunks.... n e wayz, we had fun.. came back home and ash and john stayed overnight... next day we all pretty much hung around here.. i dyed pat's hair with red streaks and ash's roots in the front are purple.. annie's underside of her hair is now black.. compliments of moi.. lol... just hung out the rest of the day basically.... hm.. today was just very dull, dont even ask...................ash is goin to jerzy for a week.. im gonna miss her ::tear::.. kk..i go now.. byby |
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| 04:55pm 11/04/2003 |
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mood: cheerful music: Marilyn Manson- Dope hat
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Ola.. I'm writing in my thing that nobody reads.. yay.. n e way.. today was boring for the most part, but its friday.. ::dances:: so yeah.. theres a school concert thing.. a few bands are playing.. APC motherfuckers.. heh.. yay.. goin with my new found friend tiffany and john.. dunno who else.. should be pretty cool. might go to the cafe after or something.. dunno yet.. doot doot.. yeah.. thats all that is new.. ohh yeah, its Dane's b-day.. HAPPY B-DAY DANE.. you're sexy.. yeah. hes in the other room hah.. yeah, i go now.. im retartedddd... |
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