||Daniel Beddingfield-If you're not the one
I am sitting in the plain, on my way back to the Us, the show last night were great, a good ending on the Uk tour. But I ruined it all!!!
This is what happend.
The boys and I decided to go celebrate.. We knew that getting drunk was stupid, cuz we made so many mistakes when we were drunk, but we wanted to celebrate, and we wanted alcohol… after a few hours, and a lot of talking, alcohol and pool, we decided to go.. Go to another bar.. We need some new faces.. We found this awesome place, a little one though, but with some awesome music, and some fine woman.. 10 hours later I woke up in my hotel room, next to a naked woman. I just panicked.. What the hell did I do? I took my shirt, and some money, and ran out of the hotel room, and took a taxi to the nearest hotel. I rented a room, and when I sad on the bed, I cried.. What the hell just happened? Did I sleep with her? Was it a dream? Was this Gods way of punishment, cuz I did something bad?? I couldn’t other than cry.. I love Megan so much.. How could I?? Y did we go get drunk? Where was Tim? And Matt and Brett?? I couldn’t call them, cuz I knew I couldn’t talk with them.. I would freak out, and they would know what was wrong.. Sometimes I think they know me too good.. Well, I called Megan.. I wasn’t talking in 2 minutes, which felt like 10 hours. What was I gonna tell her? She knew something was wrong.. I could hear it in her voice.. I missed her voice.. I miss her.. I love her, and I was gonna tell her about that other woman.. I just said “I slept with another woman” that was all I could get out. She didn’t say anything.. She just hang up.. I called her a few times afterwards but she never answered.. She must have called Matt, cuz he came and yelled at me.. I couldn’t say anything, cuz he was right.. I was an idiot. Y risk what I have, cuz of a one-night-stand? Not normal ppl do that.. So I was just sitting there.. Matt was yelling.. I wasn’t really listing.. I was just thinking about me and Megan.. About out wedding.. I love her so much.. Y? Y would I do this? That “y” wouldn’t come out of my head.. I could never forgive myself for this.. It’s about 10 pm now.. And I haven’t heard from Megan yet.. And I don’t really blame her.. But I wanna talk about this.. I don’t wanna lose her, cuz of that.. I know it’s a big deal.. I know that.. But I also know deep deep inside, that we are gonna grow old together, and have the kids we have been talking about..
I’m lost without her... And now more than ever.
I’m gonna try to call her agian...
The biggest asshole in the world
Just so that It won't be all bad I want to thank Sarah (Madden) for making the new layout...