| Growing up. |
[09 Jun 2006|12:49pm] |
Most likely, no one reads this any more. I don't know why I still write in it, or what I expect to come of these charming little journal entries. Perhaps subconsciously, I *want* someone to read it, and furthermore, I want someone I KNOW to read it (Hi, Martyna!). Whatever the case may be, I update.
I've realized, especially now, that this summer is not only the first summer all of us are probably back together on Long Island; by all of us, I mean not only my close friends, but all the weirdos from high school, people I disliked, people I kind of liked, etc. It could make for a very interesting summer. On the other hand, I have a set of new friends from college who will also be in NY. And, as much as I feel this way, sometimes I think the friends i make in college are much more lasting than the ones i made in high school. Sure, I'm great friends with K, S, J and A (occasionally), but those are pretty much the only ones left. I never see the girls in my prom limo anymore, the guys I never really talk to ever, except for Chin..it's kind of weird I guess, since high school was a big part of my life. But I've moved on.
We're all grown up now, pretty much experiencing our first summer in the real world. I have an apartment, bills to pay, obligations and responsibilities to take care of...I wish it were sophomore summer again. Yet, I'm excited to embark on this new journey into the real world. Though, I'm deathly afraid of getting stuck into something I'm going to hate. I don't know if I'll like banking, and what if I become stuck doing it for the rest of my life? I would so rather be doing PR, making movies, etc. I'm sure that's what everyone wants, but I can't seem to sacrifice what needs to be sacrificed in order to make it up to the top. I'm comfortable with my lifestyle. I like going out to eat, buying nice clothes, being spoiled. I'm not a waiting tables kind of gal (though I did have that brief stint at the country club which we will never talk about ever again). Can you succeed without failing first?
Enough ranting. Let's start this summer off right. Here's to living in NYC with my friends, working at a posh british bank, and an endless, fantastic summer!
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| Craziness |
[28 Feb 2006|11:45am] |
Tridelt formal last night. Great times. Thanks, AVG for being an AMAZING girl date and heterosexual life partner. Found a cute chinese boy last night. The first, ever. and he's taller than me. I should get on that. Alex asked me last night why all the tridelts were "wifey-ed up". i have no idea. i'd like to know. bah.
in other news, I've signed with Barclays capital for the summer. I't sgoing to add depth to my resume. The best part of working in sales? the perks. Dinner at Nobu, Koi, Masa, Asia de Cuba, etc., broadway shows, rock concerts, every week sounds good enough to me. I hope I meet some cool people at owrk to go out with at night. One of the Emory girls I met seemed especially ragey and fun. My new Scovotti maybe? I hope not. At least I"m tres close to obi and the kids at DPW, so lunch dates are a must.
I think I'm goign to Arizona with the track team for spring break. it'll be nice to focus 100% on track. i think im making good progress and i'm determined to rock out in the jav..
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| Long Time |
[17 Feb 2006|10:30pm] |
It's been a long time since I updated, I realize. Winter term is flying by and picking up speed every week. Classes are quite tough this term, but I've been doing alright in balancing, I think. Corporate recruiting is also the devil. I guess I'm feeling particularly inclined to write about my *terrible* interview that I had at Bain today. It was a rough patch, and it's sad since I wanted it so much. OH well, c'est la vie. Maybe consulting isn't for me.
On the other hand, I had a sell day today at Barclays Capital, which was FABULOUS. I really enjoy the entrepreneurial atmosphere and the expansion and fast promotional opportunities, which is more than I can say for any of the big banks. If you're an associate in two years at GS/MS/LB, let me know and I'll bow to you. Saying that, Barclays put us up in a really sweet hotel (www.70parkave.com) and took us out to China Grill to dinner, which was delish. I've been offered a position in S&T, more specifically in Sales, and I really enjoyed being on the floor with the rest of the traders/sellers. I even got to listen in on a sale!
Failing my consulting interview today really gave me some perspective on the industry and to myself. I didn't really think I'd enjoy S&T as much as i did, but I"m glad I went. However, i'm left with questions of what the hell do I want to do with my life? Do I want to go to law school stilL? and business school? Bah. It'll be a rough decision to make. I just want to be on ANTM and be done with it. Lol, maybe I'm just meant to be creative and lazy..
I have another interview on Tuesday, which I'm quite excited about. This was after this final round interview completely stressed me out and effed my schedule up for next week. I feel though i've been through navy seal training though, and I am mentally tough as nails. Ho hum. We'll see.
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| Rando update |
[13 Dec 2005|12:26am] |
Grey's Anatomy has to be one of the best written shows on television today. The wit, the angst, the emotion, the repartee is absolutely ridiculous. Go Dartmouth '91! For all you fools out there, who's response is "Well, meredith just wears dartmouth stuff because she went to med school there and because it's a top med school," I say y'all are just dumb. The lovely writer/creator/producer of the show, Shonda Rhimes, reported in an interview to the D that she attempts to incorporate a little Dartmouth into all episodes because it made her personally feel safe. A little projection of Ms. Rhimes into our favorite Dr. Grey, perhaps as Ms. Rhimes goes to the Dartmouth sweats when she stresses (reportedly). So, let's just clear that one right up, shall we?
I finished my internship with a bang, after being invited to a cocktail party by my favorite partner, and hanging out with some awesome interns, needless to say this firm is all about the booze. It was a great night with free flowing stoli and cosmos. We were going to hit up the club, Duvet after, but I was exhausted and of course, my parents and my bro who came home for the weekend, were cranky and made me go home. Oh well. Holiday Party on Wednesday night! It's time to crunkkk.
My next three weeks at home are going to be marked by working out, researching corporate things, preparing cover letters, putting up christmas decorations, and playing. Alex is coming to visit this weekend which I'm soo psyched about. Winter in NYC is always fabulous, and even greater when it's crisp and cold, and snow is on the ground. Although, if those tourists get in my way, heads will roll...
Another year down. I think Ill be at Dartmouth for new years. I never understood this whole stress of finding someone to kiss on New Years eve. maybe it's because I never have anyone. Sadly. One of these years, it'll change. I hope. I just want Dr. Mcdreamy from Grey's Anatomy..
I've been spending money like crazy lately, and it's really not a good habit. I just bought a Samsung LCD tv for my room in Tridelt for the winter..mostly because I don't plan on leaving my room too often. It'll be classes, leverone, the Hop, libes, and TriDelt. Oh, the woes of winter. I actually really like the snow and being cold (sometimes) and wandering around at night, looking at the stars.
Take me back to paris, please.
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| Random update |
[05 Nov 2005|10:36am] |
Work is work. Enough said. The lovely Dartmouth interns of 1340 (minus the creepy/weirdo ones) made up lists for our legal assistant: THe miserables (Les Miserables) and The Happy's. Needless to say there are more legal assistants on the miserable list. THey all need to just brighten up a bit..and stop treating the Dartmouth interns like bitches. This is going to sound arrogant, but I'm going to say it. I walk into a room of those idiots, and 80% of the time, I feel superior to them. Even if they all went to great schools..they've got terrible personalities. - sigh. - I've been doing more pro-bono work than anything, which is really awesome. i've met some awesome attorneys (one who's a Dartmouth 96) and it's just nice to work with the young lawyers. Obvi, there are some who are MISERABLE and try to do anything to talk people out of going to law school. Maybe they just chose the wrong area of law..
I'm also developing a great relationship with the interns. I really love my boys. I'm going to see Avenue Q on Tuesday with Troy troy, who has been awesome and so helpful this term.
I went to a NAACP dinner the other night where our firm had bought a table. It was a very inspiring event and I met some great associates from our firm and got to hang out with my favorite partner, P. Brad. I also got to meet Diddy (yeah he put his arm around me. and yeah, he smelled really good), Thurgood Marshall's wife, the CEO of Ebony and Jet magazines - linda johnson rice, spike lee's wife (who was uber elegant and trendy), and this inspiring senator from Georgia who lived through segregation and had some wonderful stories to tell. All in all it was an interesting event and I met some very cool people. I spent some time with Ruchita (another dartmouth intern) and liz ghunney, a legal assistant who is at the TOP of the happy list.
My experience at DPW has been very worthwhile. I am very lucky to have gotten a legal assistant, who although is a bitch a lot of the time, still manages to keep me informed about things, and let's me get involved. I guess it doesn't hurt to have a Dartmouth grad on our pro-bono team either. The two highlights so far have been the trip to D.C. and the dinner. Definitely worth it.
In news of Dartmouth, I went up to the Big Green for homecoming. Sooo nice seeing all my friends and chilling at 7.5 maple. I'm living in tridelt in the winter, so i'm pretty psyched. I got a bit too drunk and passed out on that friday really early..i don't even remember how I got home. Apparently, i made some really interesting drunk phone calls, and my housemates had to pick me up and put me on the futon. The Saturday after wasn't terrible..i definitely watched my intake a bit more so I wasn't too hammered. Phi Delt tails were relaxing and I convinced Grace to come to my house for Thanksgiving. Sooo excited to show her around NYC! I signed up for my courses next term, and will be making my debut into Econ 1, math 63, and french 20. Doubling up on math can wait until spring .
That's my life for now. enjoy.
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| Sweet 16 |
[08 Oct 2005|05:59pm] |
I've been watching a lot of "My Super Sweet 16" lately. Makes me have ideas of how I could've made my sweet sixteen more interesitng..hehe. maybe my parents will give me a sweet 21...
ha. in any case, i just saw that creepy Bjorn kid. his idea, however, was great. All his friends were freaking out about getting a BMW for his birthday..but i mean, c'mon. That's the norm for the lovely lil' kids in Long Island. My God.
My birthday is coming up. I'm on the hunt for a perfect designer cake...but I think i'll save that for next year for the big 21. especially since these cakes need to be ordered a year in advance..
dammnnn
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| Fall |
[10 Sep 2005|12:11pm] |
Just started work at DPW. i really like all the people there..and it's crazy working with people i know..i.e. the lovely miss margot laporte. my legal assistant is pretty awesome also.
I got fauched in govy this term. I'm on the road trying to alleviate the damage...i.e. trying to contact my prof to figure out what the hell I did wrong. meh. lksfj;ldsafjas
that is all.
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I hate to even write this, and I'm starting to feel a bit nostalgic about sophomore summer coming to an end. The beginning was hard, to say the least. school during the summer?! But as i reflect back now to all the time at the river, hanging out with the Deltas, 7.5 maple, party upon party, papers, tour guiding, all that reading, etc...it's been pretty sweet. I'm going to miss sophomore summer a lot, despite taking 4 classes.
7.5 Maple was such an amazing house- Nat, Esther, Mary, kat, and lauren - you're my girls!
giggle . play . OC . gnocchi . laundry . wine and cheese . dinner parties . salmon . slip n' slide . pesto pesto pesto . cuddling . italia . running . laughing til your side hurts . un-pcness . champagne . vodka . kahlua milkshakes . (it's been awesome).
Just a few other things I'm going to leave this entry with:
rage . river . Tubestock . sushi . sex and the city . novack cafe . Jeanne marie (and her dog) . Tri-Delts . pong . Crush party . Bates Mansion . Wedding tails(my husband = my first love) . Pornstar tails . West leb . Coffee . Milkshakes . Roadside Diner . canoe . Ledyard Nude Beach . Tom Dent . canoe . ledges . laugh . read . play . Effectivement . Engines . law . New York . Boston . computer meltdown . stress . soaking up the sun .
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| Life is scary. |
[18 Jul 2005|05:25pm] |
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http://www.sfgate.com/cgi-bin/article.cgi?file=/chronicle/archive/2005/07/17/BAberkeley17.DTL
I didn't know her, and I wish I would've had the chance. She had the same birthday as me. She seemed like an amazing girl that everyone loved. I almost cried, just as I had almost cried when lindsay della-serra passed away. I suppose it's a feeling of connection- we all went to Dartmouth. It never seems like something as scary as her death would happen to people our age..and I guess it's wrong. She was a good person, from what I've read.
I saw Crash last night also. It was oddly fitting to the circumstances.
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| Remember This? |
[10 Jul 2005|10:57am] |
wear sunscreen.
If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be IT. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice now.
Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded. But trust me, in 20 years you’ll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked.
You are NOT as fat as you imagine.
Don’t worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday.
Do one thing every day that scares you.
Sing.
Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts, don’t put up with people who are reckless with yours.
Floss.
Don’t waste your time on jealousy; sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes you’re behind. The race is long, and in the end, it’s only with yourself.
Remember compliments you receive, forget the insults; if you succeed in doing this, tell me how.
Keep your old love letters, throw away your old bank statements.
Stretch.
Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still don’t.
Get plenty of calcium.
Be kind to your knees, you’ll miss them when they’re gone.
Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll have children, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll divorce at 40, maybe you’ll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary. Whatever you do, don’t congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself, either. Your choices are half chance, so are everybody else’s.
Enjoy your body, use it every way you can. Don’t be afraid of it, or what other people think of it, it’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever own.
Dance. Even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.
Read the directions, even if you don’t follow them.
Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.
Get to know your parents, you never know when they’ll be gone for good.
Be nice to your siblings; they are your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.
Understand that friends come and go, but for the precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography in lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young.
Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.
Travel.
Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will philander, you too will get old, and when you do you’ll fantasize that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.
Respect your elders.
Don’t expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund, maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one might run out.
Don’t mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will look 85.
Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it’s worth.
But trust me on the sunscreen.
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| Sophomore Summer! |
[28 Jun 2005|04:36pm] |
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Welcome to Camp Dartmouth. I currently reside at 7.5 Maple street with my lovely girls (5 of them to be exact). we have this adorable house that looks/feels like a ski lodge. It's super sweet and so cute, so definitely drop on by if you feel so inclined!
My past few weeks have been a blur..C&R went well and I met some awesome new people (and made good money). Then I trekked on home with Esther for a mere three days to visit my fam., force esther to eat good chinese food, and just see everyone. I'll be home again for the Fourth of July. Finals from last term were a bust..and math screwed me majorly. Luckily, I did well in my other classes so I wasn't hurt *too* badly.
Thus, summer term marks a new beginning. I'm taking four classes, currently (yeah I know it' sSophomore Summer). Govy 66- a course taught by a Harvard Law prof. who is awesome. The material is pretty awesome too and we do Socratic method. French 40- architecture in literature with this super fun prof from Toulouse..I had to take advantage! French 25..a prof from Princeton who, according to the lovely Miss Chervin, is "sexy". And, Engines 3...which is about the easiest class ever. It'll be a good summer. of course, sophomore summer is supposed to be drunken days and nights with classes as some punctures to relieve the liver of constant overload. Contrary to popular belief, I have not been drunk yet here. I feel like if I rage too hard oN Frat row, i may not make it back to my off campus house, which is a ways from campus. That'd be bad. Fortunately, i have many parties to look forward to, so drinking is never an unattainable goal. Marked by the Tri Delta Summer Crush party, following possible trips to the Cape, lobster bakes, Tubestock, Softball tails, Frozen Mondays, margarita madness, Reds, etc. fun is to be had.
I'm not quite settled in yet..but as soon as I figure this out (hopefully in the next week)..i'll be ready to rage.
Yours Truly
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| Finals |
[03 Jun 2005|10:29pm] |
Finals are a period of suckiness. Double suckiness when the weather outside is 80+ and gorgeous. Oh well. I finished my math final today, and hopefully it'll come out right. i'm studying for Chinese now, basically memorizing too many freakin' words. It's almost over. Woo.
Sisters' Banquet night- at Pierce's inn. It was adorable and i heart the '05s soooo much. i'll miss them next year. of course, the night was followed by bequests..and i got some pretty cute things. - sigh. - I hate when people leave adn graduate and stuff. Especially the seniors, 'cause some of them I didn't get to know as well as i would have liked. Boo to that.
I'm a bit incohesive and boring..that's what being in the libes does to you. And being in the libes for 13+ hours over two days time, it's worse. Almost..done. i can pull out of this. And then, I'll have to start scheduling for CR, planning life, packing, etc. Yay summer. Wayyyy excited.
Update more later.
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| You make me wanna Lala! |
[23 May 2005|05:09pm] |
whoa...an entry in the beginning of the week? I think so. This weekend turned out to be pretty sweet. Friday, I spent the better part of the night at Relay for Life hanging out with cco, kels, mattie, meliss, and jadahhhh. It was fun..esp. when melissa graced us with her awesome guitar and singing skills. I heart her! We had a bit of a crisis with our little Tri-Delta table but cate and i spruced it up. Saturday, I went golfing. I heard this phenomenal lady speak, and she was just incredibly inspiring. Of course, we got to go as the best of prep..and that's always nice. I think I like preppy clothes 'cause they're always so bright and summery looking. I had an interesting time whacking away with Esther..so we're going to go more often. It's actually quite fun. Saturday night, I headed over to Barbary Coast jazz concert with Dave. Kabir was absolutely awesome, and I'm sad he's leaving next year! We left in the middle to play some pong with Dave's roommates..and that turned out pretty sweet. We wrecked a bunch of '08s (sad, really) and then had a close game against some of Dave's buddies.
Sunday- Stella's concert! She was gorgeous and just so damn good. The Trout quintet was a little eh, but I guess it's just my expectations are wayyy high. Everytime I see a quintet, all i see is Yumi, alice, hans, miye, and erica. Lol. I miss chamber music like whoa..and playing with my partners in crime...it's really sad. I also really miss Mrs. Dicecco..and her wisdom and knowledge of the violin.
I might get to throw Jav next year..so that's pretty damn exciting.
The term is going to end soon (thank God). I'm ready to move into 7.5 Maple...and rock out in our amazing new house. I am soo ready for summer term to be here.
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| End of the week. |
[20 May 2005|12:05am] |
Thank the Lord it's the end of the week. math midterm is over and done with, although i'm a bit nervous about getting my score back. boo to that. i should start going back to track practice again..yeah that'd be smartish. I miss working out. I didn't get the Scholarship for the NCKUAA thing. Which, sucks. But, when you're competing against a whole bunch of other overachieving chinese kids, shit is bound to happen. Oh well. Maybe next year..?
The week was nice after Tuesday night. Played pong with meels, fraz and sherbert on Wednesday before meetings..and then Sex and the City meetings! yay. today, bBQ at SAE to raise money for AIDS in Zimbabwe, etc. I heart my Deltas.
Got into a really big fight with my parents, more specifically my mom today. She told me that I didn't work hard enough and that I'm not smart enough to get by on my own..so I really need to work harder. I was uber upset. I felt like Elle at Harvard Law. I blew off Green Key in the same manner Elle blew off Greek Week to study for the LSATs! And then after (when i was crying, aka something i never do) my mom was like "oh, dont' cry. Come on. Don't be upset. Go out. Go shopping in town..make yourself feel better. Spend some money." Have I really become so superficial? (the answer is probably yes). So depressing...i
I have one class tomorrow..yay to that. Then the weekend. Relay for Life and out with my track girls tomorrow night..Saturday i'm off to go golfing with Esther (yay!) and who knows what to do on Saturday night. Out again, hopefully. Sunday is Stella's Thesis recital, which should be really awesome.
The term is almost over, I can almost taste it. I need to send more resumes/coverletters out to places for the fall. Hopefully i'll get something worthwhile.
this update has brought to you by your friendly neighborhood asian.
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| Sucky people. |
[12 May 2005|11:52am] |
People, I find, will most definitely/almost always disappoint you.
I also realize..i'm really bad at choosing friends.
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| 5 Weeks |
[06 May 2005|01:25pm] |
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I've hit the 5 week mark for this term. I was down for awhile, but after spending much needed relaxing time..I'm starting to feel better. of course, this doesn't cure the nagging insecurity pain I'm having right now..but I'm glad to know I have friends who care about me.
I drove home with jess zepeda last weekend (who's in my sorority). She's super sweet and we had a nice convo and got to know each other better. She dropped me off in Darien (her home town), and the size of the houses there puts the ones in L.I to shame! CT is the place to be, I feel. Waiting for the train, I saw a whole bunch of mid 20s type people getting ready to go into the city for a night out, and some eager Yanks fans going in to watch the game. of course, there were also some of those corporate types..which I didn't really understand where they were going..but whatevs. I got to flushing in one piece, not being assaulted by the shady asians on the 7 line..and in tact with my roommate's ipod. It was sooo nice to see my parents. I miss them lots..and calling them isn't the same as being with them. We went out for some much needed GOOD chinese food, and headed home. We spent the night just talking and looking at some of my pictures from Europe. On Saturday, the day was kind of a bust. I kind of hung around at home and did some work. I was supposed to go shopping with my mom..but that kind of fell through. THe weather was really icky anyway. We capped off the night by getting sushi at my fav. sushi place, and afterwards, I made my dad watch Sex and the city with me.
Sunday..was by far the best day. My mommy and I went to the Americana on a 2 hour time restriction, as they were going to drop me off back in CT to go home with jess. So..I power shopped. I got the D&G light blue perfume that i've been dying for..and I LOVE IT. i also found this really cute store around back, which I don't really remember the name..but it had really really cute chanel bags. I would love to have one of those. We finally just popped into Burberry, and I pointed out to my mother the watch I want..it's adorable. I think thats what I'll get for my bday. I also tried on some of those classic quilted jackets..and after much prodding to my mother to buy it, I didn't. I felt bad dropping that much money in one day (esp. since it really isn't mine). We left Burberry and hopped on home to get my dad. Then off to CT we went. I got back to Dartmouth in one piece with Jess..and the boyfriend she picked up from her weekend at Princeton. I really can't get over that his name is B.J. though...
Monday morning, I spoke to my mom...and it turns out she went back to Burberry and bought that jacket for me. And, "if you dont like it, i'll keep it for myself." yay for spontaneous presents! I also got that Presidential Scholarship so I guess it's kind of a reward....that's how i'll justify it.
The week went by as a blur. Martyna and I gave our presentation to tri delt, and it was quite well received...i guess it worked better since i was kind of drunk. Jenna's dad's over for the weekend so we're going to din with him tonight..and hopefully playing pong and sisters only tails. Woo.
Hope everyone's well!
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| Finally updating |
[26 Apr 2005|08:42pm] |
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Yeah. Finally updating since I've been here. I think. Life is alright..not peachy or anything. I'm in a weird funk I can't get out of, and it's frustrating. Same ol' with track..though I feel like I'm starting to take it more seriously. The workouts aren't too bad anymore..and suddenly 5x300 tempos dont see too bad..? I'm glad I don't have Tues/Thurs class this term..although it doesn't really lessen the stress on my other courses. Chinese 23 is going quite well..better than I had hoped. Despite the 2 quizzes/tests a week, and essay per week, it's actually a great class and I"m learning lots. Intro to Probability is yucky. I suck at it. It's not math I'm used to doing..and I definitely fucked up that midterm big time. Good news is that my prof. drops the lowest midterm grade..but it puts a lot of pressure on me for the next midterm. Gah. i'm also in process of choosing classes for summer term..and I find that I can't take math..which means I'll have to double next winter. DEATH. Chinese 10 is a shitty class..and I'm retarded, and WISH i had taken French 20 instead. BOOO. The midterm is going to be freaking hard also..good thing I'm NRO'ing? Although i did do alright on that quiz...and that puts me in about the top 5% at least of the class. I guess it doesn't help that I spend half the time in that class checking out this adorable soccer player who sits in the row behind me..
I really miss home. I miss my family, and I miss NYC. I miss shopping. I Saw Kadavi in Philly while I was at Penn competing..so nice to see my girl! I miss the rest of them...- sigh. -
My new roommate is fucking amazing. Yay for cool roommates. We spend the better part of the day arguing, and watching the 30+ box sets of DVD's she has..not to mention trying to find her non-existent red box with all her personals in it (i.e., checkbooks, SS card, etc.). In addition, I like how she decides she wants to take an English class this summer for the sole reason that it's entitled "Nags, Bitches, and Shrews".
I miss Kat and I hop eshe's having a ridiculous time in Prague.
The bank is fucking stealing all my money. I'm very possessive about money these days..and I'm up to the point where I feel like Abe in the Inferno. "That's my fucking money! I'm pissed."
I hope Summer will turn out to be better,and I hope i'll be able to get out of this funk. at least I can look forward to trips to Martha's vineyard, the Hamptons, and Nantucket...- sigh. -
P.S. I bet people read this and think I'm a real weirdo..as I read some freaky asian bitches' xangas/livejournals..and wonder who let them out.
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Here comes a jackie-type rant. I hate stupid Asian people. I mean honestly. I go around day after day, stalking Facebook, and then somehow winding up on xanga and livejournal entries, only to conclude Asian people, above all girls, are retarded. I feel like my IQ drops everytime I read these blogs. All they ever do is complain about life/parents/school/white people. I mean get over yourself. And it's even worse if they're busted as all hell.
I guess it's really my fault. I should really think "ugly. bad journal. not worth reading." and move on. Oh well.
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[23 Mar 2005|04:17pm] |
50 THINGS ADMISSIONS NEVER TOLD YOU ABOUT COLLEGE
1. Quarters are gold.
2. Two meals per day is the standard.
3. Road trip whenever possible.
4. Going to the mailbox was never an ego booster/breaker before.
5. You will begin to nap again.
6. Your bookstore bill will almost equal tuition.
7. Squirt guns = Stress relief.
8. Instant messenger becomes an addiction.
9. E-mail becomes your second language
10. College students throw paper airplanes too.
11. You never realized that so many people were smarter than you.
12. College football is the coolest thing on the planet.
13. Western Europe could be wiped out by a horrible plague and you wouldn't know, but you can recite last week's re-run of The 70's Show verbatim.
14. Cartoons are for all ages.
15. Disney movies are more than just classics.
16. You will never rent/buy more movies in your life.
17. No one is too old for video games.
18. Procrastination is an art form.
19. SNOOD is more addicting than pot.
20. Thanks to Kazaa/Audiogalaxy/Morpheus, you will never listen to any of your CDs ever again.
21. It never hurt so much to get sick.
22. The health service nurses are there because they couldn't make it at a real hospital. Never, ever forget that.
23. Care packages are right up there with birthdays.
24. Campus is only clean for Family Weekend and Freshman Orientation.
25. Nothing you want to register for will be open.
26. Classes... the later the better.
27. You are no longer thankful that the fire alarms are here to protect you.
28. Jeans may be worn as many times as the wearer desires.
29. The only time to dress up is when your jeans are dirty.
30. Showers become less important; sleep becomes more important.
31. Asleep by 2:30 am is an early night.
32. Creativity in the dining halls is KEY...
33. The freshman 15 is NOT a myth!!!
34. If it's snowing out, the only reason you will leave your room is for food.
35. Dishes smell after days of piling up.
36. Cereal makes a meal any time of the day.
37. You will eat anywhere that is a buffet.
38. You will eat anything that is free.
39. New additions to food groups: pitapit and pizza.
40. Stealing from the dining hall will become second nature.
41. ATM's are the devils advocate. ATM = Another Twenty Missing.
42. Keys have never been so important, yet you seem to lose them or lock yourself out of the room even more.
43. Duct tape heals all wounds.
44. If they say you can't have it in your dorm, they are just kidding.
45. You will come to hate hallways/elevators with a passion. (STAIRS ARE THE DEVIL)
46. You will begin to negotiate with God even if you have doubted his existence in the past..."Please God, if you let me pass this final, I'll never drink again!"
47. Pictures, posters, emails or anything else to cover the ugly cell we live in will be transformed into wallpaper.
48. Everyone is only nice for the first week. After that, no matter how nice you are, some people just won't smile back. Get used to it.
49. You are never alone!
50. You realize college is the ideal life! style, except for those pesky classes
TOP 10 REASONS THAT COLLEGE IS LIKE PRESCHOOL
10. You cry for your mother.
9. You cross the street without looking for cars.
8. Snack time is a necessity.
7. You bundle up for the outdoors without caring what you look like because everyone else looks as stupid as you do.
6. You stay at home and play games with your friends.
5. You wear your backpack on both shoulders.
4. You wear big mittens.
3. Playing in the snow is a legitimate activity.
2. You take naps.
1. You look forward to grilled cheese sandwiches.
YOU KNOW YOU'VE BEEN IN COLLEGE TOO LONG WHEN...
You actually like doing laundry at home.
Two miles is not too far to walk for a party.
You'd rather clean than study.
"Oh man how did it get so late!" comes out of your mouth at least once a night.
Mom's Meatloaf and potatoes become something you desire, not avoid.
Half the time you don't wake up in your own bed and it seems normal.
You schedule your classes around sleep habits and soap operas.
You know the pizza boy by name.
You go to sleep when it's light and get up when it's dark.
You live for getting mail.
Looking out the window is a form of entertainment.
Prank phone calls become funny again.
You start thinking and sounding like your roommate.
Black lights and highlighters are the coolest things on earth.
Rearranging your room is your favorite pastime.
The weekend lasts from Thursday to Sunday.
BEFORE I CAME TO COLLEGE, I WISH I HAD KNOWN...
That it didn't matter how late I scheduled my first class, I'd still sleep through it.
That I could change so much and barely realize it
That you can love a lot of people in a lot of different ways.
No matter how 'cool' you were in high school, no one here cares.
That if you wear polyester everyone will ask why you are so dressed up.
That every clock on campus shows a different time.
That if you were smart in high school, so what? It doesn't matter here.
That I would go to a party the night before a final.
That Labs/Art studios take up more time than all my other classes put together.
That you can know everything and fail a test.
That you can know nothing and ace a test.
That I could get used to almost anything found out about my roommate.
That most of my education would be obtained outside of class.
That friendship is more than getting drunk together.
That I would be one of those people that my parents warned me about
That Sunday is a figment of the world's imagination.
That Psychology is really Biology. That Biology is really Chemistry, that Chemistry is really Physics and that Physics is really Math.
That my parents would become so much smarter in the last few years.
That it's possible to be alone even when friends surround you.
That friends are what make this place worthwhile!
Don't be dismayed at good-byes, a farewell is necessary before we can meet again, and meeting again, after a moment or a lifetime, is certain for those who are friends.
Forward this to your friends because, without friends, college is prison
Hm. Cute.
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Last night in Paris. I'm sad to be leaving, but it's time to go home. Natalya and I went to Sacre Coeur tonight to watch the Aires perform. Not a real performance..they were just kind of singing for fun. When we got there (after having drinks with Mathilde), the steps of Sacre Coeur were completely filled. It was absolutely ridiculous. We sat there, listening to the guys seeing (and of course Natalya's adorable bf who sang suchhhh a sweet song), and basically watched as Paris melted in the background to a series of lights and fog. Absolutely incredible. I could think of no better ending to my trip in Paris...then ending with something so Dartmouth. It's time to go home.
During the gorgeous 65+ degree day we had, I hung out with alex and mathilde, and then people watched with Alex. I'm going to miss all the cafes, people watching, Mathilde (the most probably), and just hanging about. I love Paris, but we're not ever going to be in a context like this again...as a class, as friends, studying, living, eating, drinking. These past two weeks have been an immense blur of papers, dinners, shopping, and eating. I'll never forget this experience. But i'm glad to be going home.
Signing out, for the last time in Paris
Moi
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