AHH [16 Aug 2003|06:33pm] [ mood | crappy ] I wish that life could be so much better! asian

happy [31 Jul 2003|06:23pm] [ mood | happy ] Happy 6 months! :D asian

Ruined Day.. [28 Jul 2003|07:28pm] [ mood | angry ] Okay, you usually think when you make plans with someone.. it doesn't get changed for any means neccessary. I only wish it could be that easy. All my plans backfire al lthe time and leaves me with nothing to do.. Grr.. The sooner we go to school, the better. Today, I had my physical and man, oh man.. I might need glasses. I flunked the vision test, the nurse gave me. But other than the fact that I might need glasses, I'm as healthy as a horse. (So says my doctor.) My arm's dying.. It keeps on stinging.. Then it stops.. Then it does it again. I got another shot for some TB thingy. I don't really know what that is but I know that Mark has it, and he's had it since we went to Korea. Which was about 5 years ago.. My dad just said I was fine and I don't have TB. Okay, back to my point.. I was supposed to go to the fair with John, Alyssa, and some other people. But Alyssa was busy with Aubrey (like always), I couldn't get a hold of the other people.. and John had to go with Teresa because she wanted him with her.. and he felt sorry for me when I didn't mind at all... He makes it a big deal, which I don't get. If his girlfriend wants to spend time with him, I completely understand.. So anyways, I was stuck home for a while. Then Jen came online, and I was gonna go to the fair with her.. But she went shopping for Valerie's present. John got online AGAIN saying that Teresa ditched him.. So he had nothing to do. Then I went to do chores.. But John stopped talking.. And when he did, he was at Teresa's. Jen stopped tlaking because she has a softball game... and dammit. I'm still home alone with Adam... Why do my plans always get ruined? I haven't hung out with anyone for the longest time. asian

3-day Chicago trip. [26 Jul 2003|11:17am] [ mood | exhausted ] Alright.. Chicago wasn't the best thing I could ask for but it was good enough. As soon as we got there, we went to the baseball game with Cubs and Phillies pounding each other's faces in the dirt. I didnt really care for baseball games.. they're always so hot and boring. I was getting thristy so I told my mom that I wanted a smoothie. And the stupid smoothie guy kept on ignoring us until I had to actually follow him to the other side of the stadium... Okay, once the game was over we went to our hotel which is really nice. It has ducks and fishes in it. Pretty awesome to me. The next morning, we woke up late so we were late for breakfast. My mom kept on leaving tips for the hotel people.. Dad was getting ticked... So the agenda was: Dad and Adam leaving me and mom at Gurnee Mills so that they could go to Great America Six Flags which was across the street.We went inside the mall and my mom was telling me "You can buy whatever you want. I won't get mad or anything. I promise." so I was happy.. I was thinking about buying some comics but I was still deciding. Mom and I had to tinkle so we went searching through a mall that we've never been to. She went in a jewelry store and told me to look for a bathroom. So I went looking for a bathroom.. While I did that I couldn't find my mom anywhere! I walked and looked around all the way to the other side of the mall thinking that I was lost because there were two food courts. So I walked back and I stopped at Suncoast to look at comics. The peole working there kept on telling me that there was a sale if you buy two, you get one free. They kept on stalking me saying that the whole time.. I was about to smack the workers with the comic I wanted... Until my mom found me and told me to put the book back. The workers were snickering at me.. I could of sworn I threw something at them later that day.. I dunno. My mom was pissed at me for shopping instead of looking for her. She said that she thought some guy kidnapped me or something so she called the security guards to go looking for me. And she was screaming her head off saying that I wasa pretty girl and that someone could easily kidnap me and whatever.. All I hear is BLAH BLAH BLAH. Well, we worked out our differences after I went along with her to go 'kitchen shopping' which is boring as ever. We went eating in one of the food courts and got some food. She got chinese food, and I got sushi. (I <33 sushi.) After done eating, we only had two hours left. We went to some store that had the cutest asian clothes I've ever seen.. And, you guessed it. We bought them. Costed nearly $200! When we were waiting for my dad, we talked about how scared my mom was and what friends I should hang out with. She said she wants me to hang out with the "rich-talented-intelligent-snobby-preppy" kids. I told her that they were all mean people who are so shallow. (Which is true.) Besides, I love the friends that I have right now.. Some nerve my mom telling me to be one of those people who think they're better than everyone. I hate people like that. They always miss out on all the fun stuff. As soon as dad picked us up, mom wanted to get her hair done so we were all like "AGAIN?" Obviously she went.. Dad dropped me and Adam at the hotel while he took mom. I fell asleep like ten times. Lol. When we left to get mom, dad told me to go in the hair salon to look for her. So I went in all mad because I didnt want to go and plus I didn't know if I'd understand the people in there. The lady told me that my mom was inside the back room so I stayed there for five minutes, until I saw my dad waving his arms around outside telling me that mom was over in the other store. Urgh.. I hate that! Mom bought some chair cushion thingys, a comforter, and a giant pink blanket.. There goes $300. PLUS we had to go eat which was $60. So all together... $560! Dad was getting more mad than ever but he kept his cool. Okay, last day of Chicago.. Mom wanted to get her hair done so we dropped her off while us (Dad, Adam, & I) went to the Toys R Us store.. Which is bigger than the one that we have over here in moline. We were looking around for a gameboy color becaus mine malfunctioned and now it doesnt work, plus a pokemon yellow game. I used to have that game until I lost it somewhere in the house.. I really can't remember. The worker at the game section told us that they don't hold or make game boy color games anymore. Which was a bummer. I got the Paper Mario for N64 game while Adam got 100 baseball cards. We left to get mom who was so excited adn talking to whatever to the hair stylist person. It took a while until we left and Adam was getting mad and he wanted to go home. While I still had $50 to spend because I didn't spend it at the mall, I wanted to go to Chinatown. Mom and dad kept on telling us where to go when I told them that we should go home because of Adam. Mom knew I wanted to go to the town so we left there. Anyways.. I was shopping for a bracelet and my mom gave me this jade bracelet so I was like.. "Ooo.. pretty." (Like Cory with his wedding ring.) And I put it on then it wouldn't come off.. So I panicked and I was waving my arms and crying and stuff and the owner was like "It's okay! That bracelet means that you'll have a good life.. But if it breaks then you have bad luck.. The jade will protect your body all to eternity.." So I was like... "Ehh.. if I can't get it out, might as well buy it." I bought some little things for my friends and ALOT of Pucca stuff. God.. I love Pucca! Now, I'm here at home. FINALLY. Noone but Crystal and John said "WELCOME BACK!" =( But it's okay. Those two are the best. Crystal was going psycho on me because of Koushiro~! Goodness... She's weird. I was talking to John about what I was thinking on the way back home. He told me that he missed me. Lol.. He's weird. I was thinking about if I should stay with Matt or not. Because right now it seems like we're not even dating. But I know why. One word.. MOM. I mean I know that I love the guy but dang, I can't spend two months without seeign the guy and not start liking other guys! But I feel like I'm a bad person because I'm beginning to like someone else. It's forbidden in a relationship. God.. Life's complicated. asian

Hehehehe.. [22 Jul 2003|03:02pm] [ mood | bored ] ( Have fun.. ) asian

seth is strange. [20 Jul 2003|01:42pm] [ mood | happy ] LiL AzN GrL 005 (1:31:12 PM): how come everyone hates you? Auto response from NAKEDNESS123 (1:31:23): everyone hates me so im leaveing. NAKEDNESS123 (1:31:32 PM): cause im stupid LiL AzN GrL 005 (1:31:42 PM): okay? NAKEDNESS123 (1:31:54 PM): yah i dont get it either LiL AzN GrL 005 (1:32:11 PM): aww you poor thing NAKEDNESS123 (1:32:18 PM): yah LiL AzN GrL 005 (1:32:42 PM): so you have no idea why they hate you? NAKEDNESS123 (1:32:59 PM): casue im stupid LiL AzN GrL 005 (1:33:12 PM): why are you stupid then? im so lost. NAKEDNESS123 (1:33:22 PM): i dunno LiL AzN GrL 005 (1:33:30 PM): lol alrighty then The strangest guy I've ever met... Well, except for Matt.. But still. He's really weird. His profile changed too. Ha. I'm loved. <33 um everyone hates me im gonna i dunno except for linda asian

wow.. [15 Jul 2003|11:56pm] [ mood | hungry ] I was talking to John earlier but then my dad needed the phone so I got off.. Leaving my computer on my name. Then my dad comes in and gets on the computer and clicks out the IM boxes I wanted to save! Big meanie! So when he left, I asked John if I could get the convo back! So here's what we have right now. ( My Bestest Hottest Sexiest Cutest Cuddliest Friend Ever.. HAHA. JK. ) asian

boooooooooooooored. [09 Jul 2003|05:29pm] [ mood | bored ] I'M SO BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORED. ( :.Quizzes are fun.: ) asian

im sorry [05 Jul 2003|08:06pm] [ mood | lonely ] I'm sorry for not updating this lately.. I've been so upset with everything and I don't know if I even have a future ahead of me. I try and try to keep up with the pace and go along with what's been happening. But it's so hard and yet so confusing. Nothing's making any sense anymore. I have noone to confess it with.. Noone's here for me anymore. I miss the way where whenever I have trouble, I'd rely on my friends.. Like I do with my friends in need.. I'm always tere for them and now I'm beginning ot think it was a big mistake for all that I've done for them. I've sacrificed so much stuff just to help them. It's not really the best feeling in the world.. and it's not really the worst either. Beucase now I know not to have complete trust in everyone. I realized that you have to have complete confidence in yourself when your friends walk out on you. Andeven though things may feel lonely and lost.. Just believing in yourself and having all the faith and hope you can carry.. it's so much more than you can imagine. Friends are just people who say that they care when they really don't. They just want someone to hang out with... to USE. And a best friend is the person that will be there no matter what the cost.. That's what I think I am.. But noone believes me though. I do whatever I can to make everyone happy.. dammit.. I even set aside my own feelings for you! It's not fair the way you guys are treating me! Not fair at all.. 1 licked an asian

:DD [30 Jun 2003|11:46am] [ mood | bouncy ] HAPPY BIRTHDAY USAGI-CHAN!! =D 1 licked an asian

fuck off [27 Jun 2003|12:45am] [ mood | lonely ] FUCK LIFE. >/ I miss everyone... My life's going by so slow and painful... Every day I wish and wish for me to just be gone. But it never happens... I hate this life.. I dont like any of it going on. Everything I love and cherish are slipping away like sand. I cant take it anymore.... I'm gonna smile like nothing's wrong, talk like everything's perfect, act like it's just a dream, and pretend they're not hurting me. 2 licked an asian

happier moment [15 Jun 2003|09:31pm] [ mood | exhausted ] HAPPY FATHER'S DAY AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY SETH!!! Okay, I have to admit that today was one of the funniest day I've ever had. It all started out with me talking to Alyssa online and since I couldn't get a hold of my dad I asked if I could come over. So I ended up being there for a little bit then we were talking to John online who stopped talking to us because his computer died and he never got back on. ( I told him that I had some Altoids and he told me that he never had them before. ) So we were talking to Ginger because she told Alyssa that she would be spending the night over there again so we had to go get her but before we did, John called us. Well, We had to go get Ginger so ... what do you guys think we did? Lol. Yup. We went to get her, but we told John that he could call us back. Ashley was acting pretty scary and high because she was with Lance and they were smoking weed and they were seeing and listening to some scary crap. It was SPOOKY... When we got home, Ginger got amused and played the Super Nintendo. Hehe, she's so adorable. John called us and asked if he could come over and I told him it was okay because earlier I told him that he was gonna be bored and that he could hang out with us if he wanted. We didn't mind, actually. The more, the merrier. Then Alyssa's new "FRIEND" called us so we were talking to him on the computer and he said that he was coming by at 7:00 or so. To keep me occupied, I was playing Mario Kart Racing. It was so much fun on the fact that it was my first time playing it and that I was the winner in all but one race. Lol. But I still got first place. John was pigging out on chips and salsa with salt... Sounds nasty to me! But he still ate it. We all got bored and were a little bit terrified on Ashley and Lance because they were really high and they kept on jumping out from the kitchen screaming and yelling to scare us. ( They scared me! ) We didn't want to be near psychos so we left to go meet Aaron. ( Alyssa's new "FRIEND" ) He seems pretty nice.… Besides the fact that he tells things that irritates me.… I don't think he likes me... = ( Oh well. John got in trouble by this lady that works at Teske's. He wrote "John Tadie W/H" and he drew a penis on the wall outside and the lady who works there came out after we were like five feet away from the store yelling at John. The only thing he could say was that he had A. D. D. Lmao... That was pretty funny. After we all headed to Alyssa's, John got thirsty so he wanted a drink at the Laundry Mat. We all went over there and since Seth's house was right next to the darn place, I was being a nice person to go his house and say Happy Birthday. Unfortunately, Aaron and Seth were being mean to me I left... The sad thing is.… I actually told Seth that he was my best friend and that's all I get from the Birthday Boy. Urgh... I wanna know why I even bother? Okay back to what was happening. John was anxious so he put on Kacie's little sister's shirt that she wore the other day. He looked really ridiculous. But hey, it's John. Anyways, they all walked me home.… I felt happy! When we were walking everyone kept on picking on people! John was talking about me so I got mad at him. He was like "I'm sorry Linda!!" and he hugged me and I was like "Okay, John.… You can get off of me.… John.… Umm.… Can You Get Off Of Me?" and he was like "I'm gonna kiss you!" Yah.. I wanted to run but he was holding me and I was all trapped-like. He kissed my cheek.. PSYCHO! I'm Serious! He still wouldn't let me go until we go to my house. We all just kinda hung out.… I introduced everyone BUT John because he wanted to introduce himself to my dad. Lol. What a weirdo. Adam kept on wanting to fight with John for some odd reason... We all went into the porch so that the mosquitoes would stop bugging us. John kept on flirting with Alyssa, it was so weird. Oh well. I had fun. As soon as everyone had to leave, I gave them a hug. Hehe. I'm nice! John gave me a huge hug and I dun know why but he was like "Linda, I love you!" ( As in kidding around! ) then he kissed my hand! It was strange. Today was a lot more fun than I thought it was be! John promised us girls that when he gets rich and famous that he would buy us a big mansion with a hot tub, spauna, a pool, a car, a huge bathroom, lots and lots of clothes, with penguins and squirrels. asian

Fuck Life. ;/ [14 Jun 2003|08:12pm] [ mood | bitchy ] How come my life gets more miserable every single day? I don't even know how and why it's like that! Nothing I do can make things better, can they? I really hate my life... No one should deal with everything that I do. I mean look.… I Have: • A step-dad who drinks alot. • A mom who yells alot. • A dad who doesn't see me alot. • A younger brother who annoys me alot. • An older brother who hate me alot. • A boyfriend who I miss alot. • A very close friend who doesn't seem to like me alot. • A therapist who I wanna shoot alot. •A life which I would like to end so badly just to make everyone's life better. I really can't take it anymore... My relationship with Matt is so fucked up.… I mean everything I thought what we actually had was so much worth it but then I realized that he was drifting away from me more and more. And it's making me feel so much pain knowing that I have no idea if he even thinks of me or not. I don't know what to do.… I feel funny whenever I even try to call him and everyone's telling me to call him but I feel so not right and today I was with my friends and they told me to break up with him but he's my actually FIRST boyfriend that I actually care about more than my family and I don't know what to do! I cant take it anymore.… No one is online that helps me with my problems so all I have is my journal. I suppose I can tell you all that my life isn't fair not one bit. asian

[10 Jun 2003|04:24pm] [ mood | crappy ] You are Toshiya. Cuter than should be allowed, you don't care who's doing what or who wants to kill who. You just want to have your kinky fun in V.I.P. I mean, come on, nothing's better than a strange Japanese guy chewing on your knee, right? Which [KR] Cube character are you? brought to you by Quizilla what the hell? asian

Ehhh.. [05 Jun 2003|01:04pm] [ mood | restless ] Lately I've been working on my ACTUAL writing journal and on my poetry. I have nothing else to do at home besides clean and cook. My mom has been telling me that she'll teach me Korean and that we have a new satellite that will pick up Korean shows. Okay, I've been a little naive about some more things. I'm gonna try to update with this! And I'm gonna at least try to have fun this summer.. Hopefully work on a new look and enjoy what I have right about now. I guess that's how my life is set up! Chrissy showed me her pictures at a-kon! She lookd so cute! =D Hmm... Anything new?... Let's see.... Adam messed up the computer so I lost everything on my computer. All my music, my stories, my conversations, my pictures... All of them are gone. Urgh... That's driving me nuts! Sooner or later I'll get everything back again! Well, my mom's calling for me! I'll be back later! See Ya! 1 licked an asian

;___; [29 May 2003|08:25pm] [ mood | disappointed ] Today was the last day of school. Man it went by really really fast. Well, to start it off, my arm and hand feels like they aren't there anymore because of all the yearbook signing we had in each class. The schedule was screwed up too and everyone didn't know where to go. It went period 1, 2, 3, 4, 7, 8, lunch, 5, 6, faculty game, and 8. Yah.. Pretty confusing. At the faculty game it was really weird and funny at the same time because I was sitting with Ryne and Matt.... Man oh man, are they kinky. Matt would keep on touching ryne's leg and all and they would both be staring at me and aevery time I cover their eyes, they would lick me! And then at this one time they both turned their head to look at me nad freaked me out because they looked like zombies! I wasn't really paying any attention to the game though, Matt kept on wanting to touch my forehead.. I didn't understand it at all because... I mean think about it. It was either him touching my forehead or I had to point because my finger is double-jointed and Matt's all amused by it. Okay, so after that, I sat below them because they were acting so strange. I didn't feel like watching the game so I would turn around to talk to the guys and BAM. Ryne's legs are wide open. I was like "RYNE! SHUT YOUR LEGS!!!" He was like "I can't help it.. It's how guys sit!" But all in all, I had a fun time at the game.... After it was done.. We all heard that Mr. Brunner had a heart attack...... =( Poor dude. Later on we found out that he died. Even though I didn't really know him that well, he will be missed by everyone. Mr. Brunner R.I.P. =( 052903 2 licked an asian

....... [27 May 2003|10:52am] [ mood | depressed ] Hey you guys! I'm at school again! We don't have to do anything but you know it's all good! Lol. Hello Tyler! Yup! He's looking at his grades online! Fun Fun! Well, I got my Deere Dimensions book today and everyone kept on wanting to see it... Especially Justin... God... I swear one of these days he's gonna get shot and I'll be the one laughing! Hehehehh.... But you know! That's just me! He was all complaining to me because I've been treating him badly this past quarter and that we've been best buds since forever.... Which is a huge lie! Lol! I "think" he'll be able to survive without me as a nice person to him. But in any news, Jen's really sad today because it would be her 5 month anniversary with Ray if they were still together.... Her hand says I <3 Raymond... Think that's pretty weird and in Math we ( Jessica, Chelsea, and I ) were talking about her situation about everything and how she blamed stuff on me and Jessica instead of saying that it was actually her fault in the first place! Yah... It's okay I suppose I mean she can act like that if she wants... Tyler's looking at what I'm writing. Lol... I really don't like this keyboard... It's too disobedient you know what I mean? Hmmmm.... School is over in 2 days and 1 hour.... I'm screwed. I have no idea whats' all gonna happen over the summer because I might move to a different city, Matt has summer school with Seth so I won't see them much often, and I won't have anyone over since they're all ignoring me. There goes another summer wasted by friendship of somesort like that! Tonight we have an 8th Grade Recognition and the choir has to sing 'Can't Help Falling In Love With You' by .... Um... I think Elvis? I'm not really sure! Because I have that song on my computer at home and he sings that song, along with A*Teens and Pearl Jam. Tyler's computer is slower than a mo'fo. Yup... Poor kid. "It's okay Tyler! I still love ya!" =D Anywho, I'm gonna get going! I'll write in this later! Tyler, don't fall off your chair dude! asian

[25 May 2003|05:53pm] [ mood | bored ] Matt's name is in my journal 196 times... I have no life. ;x asian

[25 May 2003|12:46pm] [ mood | annoyed ] You Are A Banana Flavored Condom! Hot, wild, and overtly sexual. You are the kinkiest of all condoms.. Your over the top style is loved by some, hated by others - but never ignored. Once lovers taste your flavor, they always crave *more*! What Flavor Condom Are *You*? More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva Wow.. That's insane... Anywho.. It's gonna be a normal day at home. asian

Survey [24 May 2003|04:23pm] [ mood | okay ] LAYER ONE -- Name: Linda Jean. -- Birth date: 01.23.89 -- Birthplace: St. Louis, Missouri. -- Current Location: Moline, Illinois. -- Eye Color: Brown. -- Hair Color: It's kinda like the combination of red, orange, blond, black, and brown. -- Height: 5'4" -- Righty or Lefty: Right. -- Zodiac Sign: Aquarius. LAYER TWO -- Your heritage: Chinese and Korean. -- The shoes you wore today: New Balance. -- Your weakness: Too Damn Sensitive. -- Your fears: Losing someone close.. Regular writing pencils. -- Your perfect pizza: Taco. -- Goal you'd like to achieve: Have the PERFECT life. LAYER THREE -- Your most overused phrase online: Yah. -- Your thoughts first waking up: Fuck off. -- Your best physical feature: Eyes. -- Your bedtime: Whenever. -- Your most missed memory: Grade School. LAYER FOUR -- Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi. -- McDonald's or Burger King: Neither. --Single or group dates: Both. -- Adidas or Nike: ADIDAS. -- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: both. -- Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla. -- Cappuccino or coffee: Cappuccino. LAYER FIVE -- Smoke: No. -- Cuss: Yes. -- Sing: Yes. -- Take a shower everyday: Yes. -- Have a crush(es): Not recently. -- Do you think you've been in love: I have what you call Jr. High Lovebug. -- Want to go to college: Yes. -- Like high school: I'm not there yet. -- Want to get married: 'Course. -- Believe in yourself: Sometimes. -- Get motion sickness: No. -- Think you're attractive: Nope. -- Think you're a health freak: Nope. -- Get along with your parents: Sometimes. -- Like thunderstorms: They're soothing. -- Play an instrument: Yes. LAYER SIX: In the past month... -- Drank alcohol: No. -- Smoked: No. -- Done a drug: No. -- Had Sex: No. -- Made Out: No. -- Gone on a date: No. -- Gone to the mall?: Yes. -- Eaten an entire box of Oreo's: Yes. -- Eaten sushi: Yes. -- Been on stage: Many times. -- Been dumped: No. -- Gone skating: No. -- Made homemade cookies: Yes. -- Gone skinny dipping: No. -- Dyed your hair: No. -- Stolen anything: No. LAYER SEVEN: Ever.. -- Played a game that required removal of clothing: Yes. -- If so, was it mixed company: Yes. -- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: Yes. -- Been caught "doing something": Yes. -- Been called a tease: Perhaps, but I probably wasn't listening. -- Gotten beaten up: No. -- Shoplifted: Yes. -- Changed who you were to fit in: No. LAYER EIGHT -- Age you hope to be married: 23. -- Numbers and Names of Children: 3; Gazelle, James, Kimberly. -- Describe your dream wedding: In a haunted house. -- How do you want to die: While I am asleep. -- Where you want to go to college: Yale, Champaigne or Harvard. -- What do you want to be when you grow up: A heroine actress. -- What country would you most like to visit: I've been all over. LAYER NINE: In a guy/girl.. -- Best eye color? Brown. -- Best hair color? Brown. -- Short or long hair: Short. -- Best articles of clothing: Doesn't matter. -- Best first date location: On the beach. -- Best first kiss location: The lips. LAYER TEN -- Number of drugs taken illegally: None. -- Number of people I could trust with my life: Six. -- Number of CDs that I own: Too many. -- Number of piercing's: One on each ear. -- Number of tattoos: None. -- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: Three. -- Number of scars on my body: Four. -- Number of things in my past that I regret: Too many to count. asian