Date:	2003-10-03 02:35
Subject:	another one for you
Security:	Public
Mood:	sad
Music:	boys don't cry by plumb

Artist: Plumb Lyrics
Song: Boys Don't Cry Lyrics

You sit there on the couch
Sipping your scotch and ice
You turn the TV on
And tune me out again

So what would you say to me
If you could talk to me
You could ask anything
I wouldn't lie
But you're okay with this
Damaging awkwardness
So i'll just play it safe
And keep it inside

Boys don't cry

I used to hold your hand
So tight there was no question
But now even when you're near
I've never felt so alone

If you just stand beside me
I'll keep you in my life
Tell me how much you love me
And i'll be just fine

Don't be afraid of me...

~*~

i've alreaady tried telling you how much it hurts me that you don't seem to care anymore...
it hurts that it seems so easy for you to forget everything when at times i wonder at night how you are.
i get so worried about you because i know you aren't one to share your feelings...
and stupid as it sounds, i get jealous thinking about other people who are closer to your heart than i am at this moment.
you can dismiss this as another of my pathetic ramblings.
you can choose to hate me or worse, you can choose not to care...
you can dismiss this as a lie.

...as easily as you've dismissed me from your life...

Date:	2003-05-29 13:38
Subject:	this is for you.
Security:	Public
Mood:	contemplative

i know i'm kinda strange to you sometimes
don't always say, what's on my mind
you know that I've been hurt by some guy
but I don't wanna mess up this time

and I really really really care
and I really really really want you
and I think I'm kinda scared
cos I don't want to lose you

if you really really really care
then maybe you can hang through
i hope you understand
it's nothing to you

my heart's at a low
i'm so much to manage
i think you should know that
i've been damaged

i'm falling in love
there's one disadvantage
i think you should know that
i've been damaged

i might look through your stuff for what I don't wanna find
or I might just set you up, to see if you're all mine
i'm a little paranoid, from what I've been through
you don't know what you got yourself into


damaged by tlc.

i hope you understand what i'm trying to say.

Date:	2003-05-21 10:51
Subject:	stupid me.
Security:	Public
Mood:	crappy

i am a bad best friend.

*shakes head*

i suppose i'm pretty messed up right now.
i cried more than my fair share of tears. *sighs* in one night, i cried more than i cry in a MONTH.

i cried because he matters. and yeah, i have a pretty twisted way of showing it.

i've been gently reprimanded by some of my sisters. (you know who you are).

but you know what? it's not fair.

i'm human and i'm entitled to have crushes. jeez-us. i'm sorry for that already.

i was wrong because i know (all too well) how he feels for me, and yet i still went ahead and--you all know what i did.

enquote:

"he loves you sis."

dammit, don't you think i know that?

guilty on all counts. now let the jury fucking decide.

Date:	2003-04-15 12:02
Subject:	on late nights and an ex-boyfriend
Security:	Public
Mood:	sleepy
Music:	walking after you by foo fighters

last night was great. :) i had a nice long talk with my precious ex-boyfriend and we got to talking about how great it is that we've remained tight in spite of everything.

i guess i'm just happy that we're so close. i know not many people can be friends like this.

we also got to joking that we'd write a book together.

several books actually. ^^

1. my best friend; my ex.

2. 101 ways to be friends with your ex.

3. 101 ways to mess with your ex's mind. (^^)

4. how to maintain a good relationship with your ex.

5. the best relationship in the world--me and my ex.

hehe. we were just bored i guess. i mean, it's summer in the Phils and it's so friggin' HOT! i SWEAR i can't stand it!

*shakes head* ugh.

gonna log out now. go check my blog for other random stuff. ^^

Date:	2003-03-20 11:33
Subject:	no more class! (and still hectic)
Security:	Public
Mood:	busy
Music:	harder better faster by daft punk

okay, this is gonna be really quick, first of all, class has officially ended. at least--for my block. i'm currently in the vicinity though, because i'm meeting +aish+ for our guidance clearance and then this one later lunch.

by the way, sis, i waited a full hour for you last monday. i don't appreciate it, but i'll let it pass.
and miel, i'll try to email you. sorry, but finals week was really hectic. jeez, i still AM hectic now.

okay. more next time.

ciao.

Date:	2003-03-18 11:20
Subject:	about a friend
Security:	Public
Mood:	happy
Music:	feel by robbie williams

said friend is +alysia+, one of my college kabarkadas. :)

why is she special?
1. she's the only one in our group of five who isn't kikay; trans: excessive usage of make-up.
2. she can get along with anyone.
3. she practices 'live and let live', but has her own set of morals.
4. she's one of the few who understand me!
5. she's street smart and sassy!

negative side?
everyone has agreed that she has a tendency to act TOO easygoing. personally, i don't agree since i know her and i know perfectly wel how she really is. :)

negative side effects
NONE! i believe that out of the other four, she has made me be a better person to others! ^_^

~*~*~*~*~*~

anyway, we're stuck in a netshop because i'm helping her do her proj...i've done mine already and basically, i'm waiting for her to finish typing so that we can eat lunch and study for our finals.

speaking of finals, our last day is TOMORROW!!!

happy me!

Date:	2003-03-12 19:10
Subject:	On Printing Presses and Imagination...
Security:	Public
Mood:	pleased
Music:	burning down the house by tom jones/the cardigans

I'm currently online in a net shop with my pals +alysia+ and +ashley+. we've been busy for the past half-hour or so typing a reaction paper on a printing press we visited. *grins*
it's due tomorrow.

and only one in our barkada (tagalog for a group of friends) who actually WENT to the place last tuesday was +ginny+. how, you may ask, did i make a paper without knowing about the place?

that, dear, dear, friends, is where my precious imagination came along. ^_^

(can anyone be this lazy???)

well, i HATE schoolwork and anything pertaining to it, so i didn't BOTHER going to that godforsaken place. i have better things to do on a hot tuesday afternoon than listen to a boring tour on how to make a magazine. *snickers* i don't MAKE magazines. i MODEL in them. ^_^

only kidding.
for what it's worth, i'm not usually this conceited. i'm just bored waiting for +aly+ and +aish+ to finish typing.

hmmm...shifting to my precious blog to talk about something that happened earlier today with my sisters minus ekai. i heard from doggy that she fainted dead away yesterday.

*frowns*

that happened to me a few years back, and i know perfectly well the cause. KAI, EAT. you don't have to eat a lot, just enough to keep you on your feet. :)

and hopefully, my twin brother won't leave the country on April, as it's melina's debut.


onwards to my blog!

^isis_ of the +moon+

Date:	2003-03-11 13:55
Subject:	html doesn't like me.
Security:	Public
Mood:	cranky

oh well...

i tried. i really did.
*mutters under breath*

i think there's a book available on this. "idiot's guide to html".

*snorts*

out. pissed.

^isis_ of the +moon+

Date:	2003-03-11 13:29
Subject:	got meself my own blurty!
Security:	Public
Mood:	bouncy

weeeelllll...this is my first entry on my brand new blurty. >.< me decided i WANTED something new to obsess about. the way i see it, though, not much will be posted here. i'm still more inclined to using my blog. if anyone's interested, you can check it out here. to see me when i'm in a bad mood, this is the place to visit.

feel free to drop by anytime, and comments are muchly welcome.

off to fix up the template,

^isis_ of the +moon+