||[24 Apr 2004|09:39am]
||Burn - Usher
name = Leah
piercings = ears - 11
tattoos = hahaha
height = 5'1¾...dont 4get the ¾
shoe size = 8 8½
hair color = reddish black
siblings = julie,lorenzo,nick,melissa(?),stefanie,julian,anya,mario,antonio
movie you watched = connie & carla
movie you bought = finding nemo
song you listened to = Way Away - Yellowcard
cd you bought = Reanimation - Linkin Park
cd you listened to = Fallen - Evanescence
person you've called = Travis
person that's called you = Giana
person you kissed =Travis
tv show you've watched = Spongebob Squarepants
you wish you could live somewhere else = Hell NO...ok maybe...New York
you think about suicide = once in a while
you believe in online dating = no not unless their all petifile stalker ppl then its fine
others find you attractive = fuck yeah
you want more piercings = yep bellybutton & eyebrow
you like roller coasters = yeah
you write in cursive or print = print
[FOR OR AGAINST...]
long distance relationships = for if they can work
using someone = no...unless its 2 get closer 2 sum1 else hotter
suicide = against................
people = for....as long as they look good and dont piss me off
smoking = against cigarettes, for weed
driving drunk = against
gay/lesbian relationships = for
ever cried over a girl = hmm.....no.
ever cried over a boy = still am
ever lied to someone = yeah.....
ever been in a fist fight = only w/ dudes
shampoo do you use = silkysexyhair
shoes do you wear = k swiss, steve maddens & vans
are you scared of = getting my heart broken....again.
of times I have been in love? = 2
of times I have had my heart broken? = 2
of hearts you broken? = 4...maybe 12
of times my name has appeared in the paper? = umm......no se
of things in my past that I regret? = 5 trillion
[DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...]
pretty = yeah sometimes
funny = yes
hot = im not a lesbian
friendly = only 2 nice ppl
amusing = yes
ugly = sometimes
loveable = not really
caring = yeah
sweet = no
dorky = a little...in a creepy way
5 letter word: blood
Actor/actress: erika christensen
Cereal: golden grams
Chewing gum: orbit
Color(s): red, bue, black
Day of week: wednesday
Least fave day: tuesday
Season: winter....long sleeves
[Person who last.. ]
Slept in your bed: my kitty
Saw you cry: my mom
Made you cry: travis
You went to the movies with: giana
Yelled at you: travis
Sent you an email: giana
[Have you ever.. ]
Said "I love you" and meant it?: yeah
Gone out in public in your pajamas: school duh
Kept a secret from everyone: yes......
Cried during a movie: hell yeah that jesus movie shit
Planned your week based on the TV: nooooooo....
Been on stage: yeah hella times
Been to New York: yep
Been to California: i live in california
Hawaii: no i wish
Wished you were another gender: no i like my boobs
What time is it now?:10:06
[This or That? ]
Apples or bananas?: ew neither i dont eat healthy food
Blue or red?: red....blood.....
Walmart or target?: hmm......target.
Spring or Fall?: fall
What are you gonna do after you finish this?: nothing im grounded i have no life bitch
What was the last meal you ate?: pizza
Are you bored?: yeah....
Last noise you heard?: leah crying
Last smell you sniffed?: traivs......
Do you believe in love at first sight?: no...i believe in like @ first sight...
Do you want children one day & if so, how many?: me & travis r gonna have 2 kids, a daughter named juliette after his mom, and a boy named...uhh.....we dunno yet.
Most important thing to you in a friendship is: trust
[Other Info ]
Criminal record?: nope...never been caught
Do you speak any other languages?: spanglish
Last book you read: this lullaby
Name some of your favorite things in your bedroom?: pictures of me & my friends....posters....tests that travis flunked....my pocket knife from claire's
How old do you look?: 16 17 sometimes older
How old do you act?: 4
Braces: dont need em
Do you have any pets?: yeah a kitty
You get embarrassed: not that easily
What makes you happy?: travis
What upsets you?: traivs
||[24 Apr 2004|10:29am]
||My Immortal - Evanescence
omg i feel like such a loser.....i cant stop cutting....yesterday travis saw my arm and didnt no what it was....if i dont make something up hes gonna break up w/ me....again....
this has been the worst week of my life:
monday - leah & travis forgot to go 2 school...mom found out....called "the travis's"....grounded for 2 weeks...
tuesday - travis wont talk 2 leah.....
wednesday - travis does talk 2 leah...travis fucks leah.....leah comes home smelling like sidewalk....grounded for 2 more weeks....
thursday - travis fucks leah again....then doesnt talk 2 leah.....leahs still grounded.....
friday - travis gets mad @ leah....for calling travis....when travis was busy doing other things....liek skateboarding with his ex-girlfriends......travis yells @ leah.....leah cries.....leah goes home....leah bleeds to death and cries herself to sleep......
saturday - leah wakes up.....still alive...pjs permanently stained red.....fuck.....they were cute 2.....leah drinks half a bottle of scotch.....uuuuggghhhhh.....leah throws up....
wow i just cant wait 4 tomorrow.....
i miss travis :'(
I've been looking in the mirror for so long.
That I've come to believe my souls on the other side.
Oh the little pieces falling, shatter.
Shards of me,
To sharp to put back together.
To small to matter,
But big enough to cut me into so many little pieces.
If I try to touch her,
And I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe no more.
Take a breath and I try to draw from my spirits well.
Yet again you refuse to drink like a stubborn child.
Lie to me,
Convince me that I've been sick forever.
And all of this,
Will make sense when I get better.
I know the difference,
Between myself and my reflection.
I just can't help but to wonder,
Which of us do you love.
So I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe now...
And I breathe,
I breathe no more.
||[24 Apr 2004|11:09am]
||Walk Away - Christina Aguilera
i just found out 2 of my best friends used to be in love with me....one of which is a girl....you can imagine how this makes me feel. im so sick of everyone paying attention to how i look, and not giving a shit about the rest of me....travis for example......aaahhhh im gonna shoot somebody!!!!...preferably myself.....lalala.......im going back to sleep now....fuck u henry......i think its so funny none of my friends no im grounded yet none of them are calling me.....including travis....god i luv my life........someone please shoot me.....
Bakjaa: nick is soooooooooo big
Bakjaa: hes like.... 5 inches!!!!!!!!!!!
mArShMeLL0bUnNiE: ::cough cough::
mArShMeLL0bUnNiE: ahhhhemm nothing...