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until tomorrow is better than today [18 Nov 2003|02:02am]
[ mood | indescribable ]
[ music | Brand New- The Quiet Things That No On Ever Knows ]

old picture slide shows flash in all directions
showing us how simple life used to be.
but now the sky has faded to grey
and now i don't know if i want to continue on with this.
this never ending battle to get what i want,
but no matter how hard i fight it is always forgotten
that i am always the one who leaves empty handed.
tomorrow is on it's way
but tonight seems as if it may never be over.
this is for no one specific, just for those who care.
this is for those who believe they are destined to be alone.
and i sadly regret to say this, but i feel as though i am one
of those few unlucky people.
im on a never ending losing streak and i just wish it would stop!
the feeling of nothing...is too much to handle.
to be so empty is so frustrating.and i wish upon a star that soon it'll all go away.
"even though i know,
i dont wanna know,
but i guess i know,
i just hate how it sounds"
why do you have to take everything away from me???
why cant i just be happy for once???
why am i always the miserable one?
why do you do this to me?
i just want this to go away, to leave me alone.
i just want it to be over with, i cant stand this gut wrenching feeling too much longer.
i just cant stop crying.
my face is swollen and red, and UGLY.
ugly like me...like i tend to be.
"If I traded it all
If I gave it all away for one thing
Just for one thing
If I sorted it out
If I knew all about this one thing
Wouldn’t that be something"
make this feeling go away.
why cant it just leave me alone??
i just want to sleep, forever and ever, and i dont want to wake up.
until tomrrow is better than today.

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if i traded it all... if i gave it all away for one thing... [17 Nov 2003|07:27pm]
[ mood | gloomy ]
[ music | Finger Eleven- One Thing ]

Restless tonight
Cause I wasted the light
Between both these times
I drew a really thin line
It’s nothing I planned
And not that I can
But you should be mine
Across that line

If I traded it all
If I gave it all away for one thing
Just for one thing
If I sorted it out
If I knew all about this one thing
Wouldn’t that be something

I promise I might
Not walk on by
Maybe next time
But not this time

Even though I know
I don’t want to know
Yeah I guess I know
I just hate how it sounds

^^^^katy says that song reminds her of me.....^^^^

but i also forgot to say that sunday me, tara, n michael went to meet lindsay to drop caleb off...not ready for the little poop to go home =( i love caleb!

but also lindsay was acting like a bitch....she didnt say anything to any of us er anything. and then tara, michael, and i went to the movies and saw Scary Movie 3...which sucks so i recomend that you dont see it. after the movie, katy, tara, steven, and i went grocery shopping at wal mart n the card wouldnt work so we had to call sharon and ask if we could get money out...so we got $180 out and bought $150 dollars worth of groceries and then went home and tara and i watched Holes til 6 am then went to bed.

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lots of updates....=D [17 Nov 2003|02:18pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]
[ music | The Devine Secrets of the Ya-Ya Sisterhood ]

oooook....updates....we'll start w/ thursday.....

thursday: katy picked me up on her way home from taking tara to work...when we got back to town, nick and rachel came over, we went riding around, ended up going to band practice to hang out w/ the guys for awhile. but by that time it was just me, nick, and katy. talked to rick, asked if we could get any weed at all. we needed a QP (quarter pound) and we had 200 bucks. so we went to greenville to ricks house, picked up the QP. went to plano to pick tara up, came back to katy's house, smoked, took nick home, hung out for awhile, n thats bout it for thursday.

friday: me n kristin hung out at john's, but jim actually hung out w/ me and acted normal! it was amazing! (katy told me that one night she was hanging out w/ jim and she told him that i heard him ask why i was hanging out the night we went to matthew's parents' house...and he was like "she heard me?" n katy was like..."uh...yeah" and then she was like " jim....she doesnt like you anymore!" hahahaha how funny is that shit???) so now he acts normal around me THANK GAWD!!!!

saturday was a big adventure....everybody left me....katy went to deep ellum w/ lucas to a show, kristin n lance went out to the movies, tara had to work, allie n jacqui were going to bailey, and nick was in merit w/ darion. so i was sitting at john's w/ john n brandon....BORING! but i called rachel cuz she wasnt sure if she was going to the bowling ally w/ damieyon er not. but she didnt cuz they got in a fight, so from 7:30 to 10...me n rachel rode around on back roads, and smoked 3 joints, tony got off work at 10 n we went n made him get in w/ us so then we went to more back roads, smoke a joint, a blunt, another joint. then at 11:30 we took tony to his car, went to rachel's smoke a joint w/ cuz (jacob) then kristin came and got me n went to john's drank a smirnoff ice, katy came over there, we smoked another blunt....so yeah...basically...i was FUCKIN FUCKED up. thats the double f there...everybody cracks up when i say that cuz one night i was just really fuckin drunk n thats what i said..."fuckin fucked up"

but ya know whats so nice? katy told me that her n lucas were having a heart to heart convo in the car and he was telling her that him the guys were talkin about dating younger girls and shit...(fyi-im the youngest in the group) and so all the guys were saying that it was stupid to date youngewr chics, and lucas was like.." i'd date krystin, shes a cool chic, and shes fun to hang out w/ " er sum shit like that...n he told katy that he misses hanging out w/ me. that made me feel really good...=) i love lucas to death! n it was nice on thursday cuz when we were at ricks house we were outside trying to figure out where to put the fuckin weed. n we were just talkin n he gamme a hug n ws like "krystin we need to hang out more again i miss you" =( i miss hanging out w/ those guys man! *tear*

but anyhow! this is a long enough update dammit! if i forgot anything ill edit this beotch!

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blegh....bleh.....blah [13 Nov 2003|11:22am]
[ mood | sleepy ]
[ music | Finger Eleven- Stay and Drown ]

man...my cousin tiffanie called me last night at 9 and wanted me to come stay w/ her in her new apartment. so her n steph came and got me and we went to their house. when we get there we put on Finding Nemo n we're watching it and tiff's cell phone rang....and it was her ex boyfriend tj.....so he wants her to come over becaise he's moving today...so she says shes only gonna go over there for a little bit.

well......a little bit turns into a couple of hours....i call her...shes crying....she says she'll be home in a little bit....well a little bit turns into another hour n a half.....me n steph n trevor were just chillin...trevor offered me a beer...i took it....drank it...drank another one....i lay down at about 2...2:30 sumpthin like that. i wake up at 8 am this morning and shes still not home.

i go and lay down w/ steph cuz trevors already up. so we just lay there and talk and i called tiff at about 8:30...she answered and said shed be home in a little bit...so finally at about 9 she gets home. *shakes head* shouldve stayed home.....

but it was cool to hang out w/ steph n trevor...havent done that in awhile.

btw: Finding Nemo is SUCh a cute movie...=)

i got to feel stephs baby kick and move around...we watched the tape of it...i cant wait til its here...but i hope no one expects me to baby-sit...psh!=P

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wow... [12 Nov 2003|08:15pm]
[ mood | full ]
[ music | Third Eye Blind- Blinded ]

mayun! i just scarfed down sum chicken strips and fries from whataburger....and it was GOOOOD. =P

me n mom went to bealles.....i got a few "early birthday" presents...=) a new pair of K Swiss shoes, a black pleather jacket, and 2 shirts...ones nice n dressy kinda...its white w/ a golden brown n green pin stripes, n the other it a black t-shirt w/ a sewn in white long sleeve shirt under it. n it has a lil turtle on the top left.....its cute =)

after that me n mom were getting money outta the bank n my phone stared ringing and it was my dad...=|

first time i've talked to him in 10 months....over 10 months actually. he asked me to go to thanksgiving w/ him at my grandmother's house. i told him i'd go. i dont want to....but i will, and the only reason i am going is so i can see my grandmother and my aunt kitten, and my cousin sheena. i hate how my dad repeats everything he says like 5 times...as if im 7 years old. mom says he's always done that when he's nervous. i dunno... i just dont really get along that well with my father...mom says its because we act alike...both stubborn...which i agree...he can be a big ass hole...and so can i....but anyhow...i wont go any further into that...it just frustrates me and pisses me off.....but after i got off the phone w/ him mom was jokin around and was like "you wanna cigarette?" and i was like..."yeah"...n she was like..."ok but just this once...cuz i know how stressful it is"

so i smoked infront of my mom for the first time tonight.

anyhow...im going to wait for scott er keith to get online...ta ta for now (famous words from T-I- double "ga"- er

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strange dream w/ a reasonable meaning....=\ [12 Nov 2003|01:31pm]
[ mood | blank ]
[ music | ICP-I Want My Shit ]

i had a dream last night that i was trapped in a building w/ santa clause and angry reindeer, and everybody in the building was running away from the reindeer and going thru doors, but everytime i got to a door, the handle would disappear....but like...i was having fun running around. =| odd....

this is what the Dream Dictionary says about the things i dreamed about...

Deer- Everything related to a deer is favorable. A long lasting friendship, good business affairs and fortune in love.


Door- Access. Ready to enter or something to keep private. Happiness and long life


Santa Claus- Childhood. Belief. >>>Getting what you want. <<<

all kinda adds up huh? very strange.....=\

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me sad =( [11 Nov 2003|10:10pm]
[ mood | depressed ]
[ music | Finger Eleven- Stay and Drown ]

Good God have I been dreaming
This paralyzing feeling?
Was I left alone? Where have you gone?
Were you somewhere else just sleeping?
If I wait to wake you
I'll never ask you
Would you take my hand?
In the deepest end
Would you stay and drown in me?
My open eyes see everything
But I'm passing all the days
through a window pane
And as the scene would change
I'd stay the same
This paradise was nothing new
But the paradise gets tired of you
A single conversation
Stole my attention
My open eyes see everything
And you see nothing
And don't forget it

^^^that would be Stay and Drown by Finger Eleven^^^

i feel empty.......its hard to get out of bed in the...afternoon....but...*sigh* i dunno....i just wish i had sum fuckin pot. pot is good...pot is yummy.

i hope tara calls me er sumpthin after she gets home from the show tonight...(good charlotte, eve 6, and goldfinger) lucky ass won back stage passes on the radio. *pouts*

kathy's gonna take me to leonard on thursday this week...cuz whenever she gets off work friday shes gonna meet mom n georgia n they're gonna have a little girls night out.

i wanna get fucked up again this weekend. atleast then im not all depressed and shit. emotions suck. being a girl sucks. and my hair is pissing me the fuck off...cuz my stoner ass forgot my straightener at kristin's.

anywayz...i guess im out...peace nig!

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*yaaaawn* [11 Nov 2003|12:43pm]
[ mood | drained ]
[ music | Stabbing Westward- Save Yourself ]

damn man.....i was up all night last night....it SUCKED! i hate when i can go to sleep! im eating cold pizza for breakfast...left overs from last night. i didnt have any weird dreams last night or anything tho....i hate when i dont dream...its just boring =\ mom called at like...12 so i just got up. sucks...i wanna sleeeeeeep. but i dont really have a lot to say...

ohhh...tara went and saw brand new last night w/ kerica!!! i was so pissed! just not fair =( but we're gonna see chevelle dammit!

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i get bored [10 Nov 2003|11:11pm]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | KMK- Kings Blend ]

im boooooooorrrrrred!!!

gawd i hate being bored and having nothing to do! im lonely=( im sleepy, i want somebody to cuddle with, and i just feel like shit. *shakes head* im just pathetic. =|

my tummy hurts...i dont think i should have eaten so much pizza. *siiiigh* ima take sum mo ibuprofin. blegh...i might just end up going to bed. dayum...tiff wants me to stay w/ her in her new apartment wednesday...i just night do that. im kinda excited to see what it looks like. atleast it'll give me something to do.

i cant wait til november 24th! Chevelle is coming to town and i think me, katy, tara, n possibly lindsay may go. that'll be fun. whenever we went to Kings show when the bands were settin up the music they played inbetween was chevelle...i like chevelle...theyre cool.

i talked to brett tonight. i said fuck it n i PMed him. i was bored... so we talked for a bit. his birthday is this sunday. he said hes gonna be in san marcos visiting his sister at college. but he said he'll prolly hang out next weekend. i hope so. i really do miss him =(

but anyways...im out...peace easy!

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its too earlyyyy..*yawn* [10 Nov 2003|11:47am]
[ mood | tired ]
[ music | Kottonmouth Kings- High Society cd....again...=) ]

dayum....stupid ass math tutoring got me gettin up at fuckin 8:30am. BULL SHIT! *shakes head* i hate math....nobody needs to know how the fuck to divide fractions n shiat! ugh...i hate math! i wanna go back to sleep...but i cant! i just gotta stick it out. man....my fuckin stomach hurts! damn pig in a blanket n a nasty ass chocolate donut fucked up muh tummy =(

todays muh cousin meagans birthday...i suppose ill call her whenever she gets outta school. i havent talked to her in for fucking ever! (man i have a potty mouth this morning) =)

but anyhow...somebody needs to get online cuz im bored! n i need some pot....i wonder if rachel ended up going to work today...=\ she had a fever last night. no way would i be baby-sittin an 8 month old w/ a fever n shit. i saw stacy (dustins sister) n philip (her husband) saturday night! i miss them! stacys like my mom! shes awesome! i miss her...me n katy used to hang out w/ her whenever we hung out w/ dustin n damieyon all the time...(blegh...when i was dating brian)*vomit*

hmm....*thanks to mary, jane is my bro...glow baby glow baby, grow baby, GLOW!*

anyhow...i guess ill go now.....peace

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tha weekend.... [10 Nov 2003|01:44am]
[ mood | sleepy ]
[ music | Kottonmouth Kings- High Society cd ]

FRIDAY....

me, kritin, john, travis, megan, and amanda sat at john n travis's house n watched the matrix reloaded (awesome movie btw) me n travis were the only ones hittin the bong.....hit it about...10...12 times...sumpthin like that....FUCKED UP.....kristin smoked a joint w/ us n passed out in the spair bedroom...brian passed out in the recliner....snored EXTREMELY loud...so i went it johns bed n passed out cuz he wasnt in there =P then when he did come in there he snored WAY loud....went to kristins at 6:30 am....slept.....


SATURDAY...

well make this short n simple....

blunt, bowling ally, shitload of ppl, played pool, drank a shitload of jack daniels hard cola, left bowling ally, smoked blunt, went to johns house, smoked, drank, got fucked up, katy puked, went to kristins, sat in the rain for an hour, went inside, got in bed, had fucked up dreams, woke up at 11 am...went to katys...smoked, took a nap...come home...=D=D=D

(ok...not so short...but simple) =)

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FRIDAY!!! [07 Nov 2003|03:03pm]
[ mood | happy ]
[ music | buffys on yo ]

TGIF!!!

im so fucking glad its friday...buffy's on tho so i cant talk long....i gots ta pack muh bag still....and um... this is gum is hardcore! vewy vewy mint-eee

but yeah...ima get blazed (hopefully) possibly drunk(?????) but most of all ima have fun...i finished my work last night so i dont have to worry about that...so that puts me in a good mood =D=D=D

tiff, steph, trev, n jenn moved into the apartment yesterday, i havent talked to them tho...ill prlly call tiff monday n see whats up. but anyhow!!

ill update this beotch on sunday er monday er sumtime! =D

peace easy!

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*sigh*.....*long silence*.....*sigh* [06 Nov 2003|09:44pm]
[ mood | blah ]
[ music | pink floyd- i wish you were here ]

hm... im bored, i need to finish my english so that i can be done w/ my school work...i need to eat something...seeing as how ive only had a bagle today...but now im eating bottle caps, which i shouldnt because they're full of sugar and umm....i dont wanna stay up all night cuz ill sleep all day, but its not like i have anything better to do. kathy said she wont get off work til 4 pm tomorrow....which sucks cuz i wanna got o town early...*pouts*... byt anyhow....keith didnt get online last night dammit! i was gonna call him but it would have been 1 sumpthin there, n he said not to call past 1...so i decided not too, last time i called it was 2 sumpthin there, n he said he was laying in bed, but he wasnt sleepin, i only let it ring once n then decided he could be sleeping....so i hung up..hahahaha....he told me he picked up the phone but no one was there, n it only rang once so no number was on the i.d. he said he figured it was me er amy cuz we're the only ppl that call that late, lmao!

micahel called my phone yesterday looking for katy because he wasnt sure if i was in town w/ her er not. he sounded like he was fucked up... =\ and he was at amy's house. im really worried about that. i dont think he should hang out with her bc the only time he's ever fucked up is when he's with amy, or he's been with amy. i love them both to death but i dont trust either one of them. ***it makes me sad but i gots to move on
so i packed up my stuff grabbed my bong and wrote a song***

anyhoo...thats all for now...but ya never know...i might end up posting again before i go to bed =)

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grrrr [06 Nov 2003|04:16pm]
[ mood | frustrated ]
[ music | buffy the vampire slayer is on tv ]

i cant figure out how the hell to post under the community group!!!! ugh!!!

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i had a dream last niiight [06 Nov 2003|01:21pm]
[ mood | burrrr...its cold ]
[ music | dashboard confessional-a mark a mission a brand a scar cd ]

i had a dream last night...havent really had one of those since brett b/c that was the only person i was dreaming about. and it was so weird cuz like...in all my dreams about him, we were always together and happy. =\ i dont understand, you'd think that i would have had dreams about something bad happening. but anyhow!!

i was dreaming about me, katy, my cousin meagan, and these two guys, we were going to six flags, and like...i knew the 2 guys, but i dont remember what their names were, and i really have never seen either of them before in my life. BUT....we were on our way and the guy that was driving (was really cute) asked me who my boyfriend was and i told him i didnt have one. and then we were just driving....it was just kinda cool....until i fuckin woke up and realized that it was just a dream =(

im so sick of being alone!!! i wish that dreams really did come true!!!

btw: my KMK logo actually turned out decent....especially for my first try=)

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wish i had sum MJ!!! [06 Nov 2003|01:45am]
[ mood | tired ]
[ music | 106.7 KDL (the texas party station) ]

i wish i had sum fuckin weeeeed!!! im sick of being sober! everybody gets to be high and fucked up and whatnot...and i have to sit at home and be sober. *pouts* im about to try to draw the KMK logo...and i bet you anything it's going to turn out like shit! HAH! and i wish keith would get online...i like ramblin to him...haha...i hope he moves to tex-ass soon...amy says he has too. i really hope he does, hes cool as hell...seems that way from what ive gathered anyhow. =)

hmmm...i keep staring at my jeans on the wall....the ones that the kings signed...*siiigh*...i wanna go baaack! they were so fuckin awesome! but...i guess im going to atempt to draw the logo.

peace easy!

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blahblahblah [05 Nov 2003|09:59pm]
[ mood | okay ]
[ music | new found glory- sticks and stones abum ]

hrmm....today was boring as usual! i really should do my stupid work and get it over with...but i just dont feel like it! im such a lazy ass! *sigh* i should just get it over with...i wanna go back to leonard! i hate being at home...these stupid people that live upstairs are driving me absolutely MAD! tiffanie, stephanie, trevor, and jennifer are moving into their new apartment tomorrow. GAWD i feel bad for trevor and jennifer! i would NOT be able to live w/ 2 pregnant chics! especially tiffanie..shes bitchy anyhow! no way am i EVER staying over there...ESPECIALLY after the babies are born!! steph is due in february.....tiff's due in like..june er july. (not sure) i keep stuffing my face w/ candy...well...bottle caps...its candy...but its the only candy ive been eating all day, except for milk duds...but i ate all those earlier =\

my uncle works for his friend, hal, and theres this chic, mellisa, who also works for hal, and my cousin meagan's step dad, frank, has supposedly been cheating on meagan's mom with this mellisa girl for a long time. and when my aunt kathy and uncle jack went to kathy's highschool reunion, my uncle raymond (meagan's real dad) and his wife lisa (who is just a frickin weirdo) were there also and katy was telling lisa about frank cheating on melanie (meagans mom). kathy told her not to say anything to anybody. but OF COURSE lisa told meagan, and meagan told her mom. so today melanie called kathy and said that "frank would never cheat on me" n all this BULL SHIT! meagan's told me n rachel (my cousin) (yes i know...i have a lot of cousins) that frank has hit her before and he yells at her and gounds her for no reason all the time. im sure franks cheating on melanie. i think he's brainwashed her into believing that he's a god or some shit. hes always been an asshole. but anyways...none of my business...

anyhow...i guess im done...

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GEEZ! [05 Nov 2003|03:07pm]
[ mood | laaaazy ]
[ music | KMK- Royal Highness Album ]

ok so the new KMK cd doesnt come out til 4-20-04.......that is WAY too long! i cant wait that long! =\and i also cant wait tilt hey come back to Tex-Ass and play another show! man the last one was so awesome...and it was my first show! i STILL cant believe that i got to meet/hang out with em. that was bad ass! but anyhoo....gawd im a lazy fuck! i need to get in the shower but i just dont want to! *pouts* but anyhow...brett was online last nght and didnt PM me...psh..wuteva. but anyhow...

*ima getcha soooo hiiiiigh (mind bogglin mind, mind bogglin) ima make that ass flyyyy*

so yeah...peace easy

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my christmas list so far.... [04 Nov 2003|02:10pm]
[ mood | mellow ]
[ music | Kottonmouth Kings- High Society Album ]

KMK high society cd
KMK hidden stash II cd
KMK rollin stoned cd
KMK hidden stash cd
KMK cd/dvd combo (endless highway)
sub noize rats cd
tsunami bros cd (kings harbor)
SRH camisole tank top (blue)
SRH daisy dukes(white)
SRH womans trax t-shirt (pink)
SRH bikini briefs(pink)
SRH sticker pack
KMK girls hoodie (black)

digital camera
tv w/ built in dvd player

the goonies dvd
finding nemo dvd
loser dvd
cky2k dvd
pretty in pink dvd
16 candles dvd
legally blonde dvd
legally blonde II dvd

evanescence cd (fallen)
dashboard confessional cd (a mark a mission a brand a scar)

gift cards to hot topic, gadzooks, pacific sun, and best buy

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dammit [03 Nov 2003|10:32pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]
[ music | The Roseanne Theme Song ]

WHY CAN I NOT JUST SAY HOW I FEEL?!?!?!

im so tired of being a pussy! gawd im just sick of myself...i wish i could just be somebody else for a day...to see if things work the same way in their head as they do in mine.

Kw3eN420: you should hang out sometime tho...everybody always asks where you are
bh22hr1: oh yea
bh22hr1: who?
bh22hr1: i'ma be there sometime
bh22hr1: not this weekend but i will hang out
Kw3eN420: like john, n lance, n jeanie n all them
bh22hr1: yea
bh22hr1: lance is a good man
Kw3eN420: yeah
Kw3eN420: n me n kristin miss hangin out w/ ya
bh22hr1: i'ma be there don't worry
>>>>bh22hr1 signed off at 10:31:23 PM.<<<<

notice that he doesnt say bye anymore...he used to say bye.....i dont understand why he cant jusat say bye. and that also frustrates me. =\

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