Rikku-chan's Blurty

Sorry I haven't updated!!
I have really been thinking lately... How come it seems like I am one of the only people that doesn't have someone else?! I hate thinking... Nothing good ever comes to me from it!! I am constantly reminded of most of my friends or, just people in general having boyfriends, or girlfriends, as the case may be. Then, seeing all this, I start to wonder why I don't have one... What the fuck is wrong with me!! Am I too silly? Am I not pretty? Am I too serious? Am I too boring? Am I too tall? Am I too short? Am I too smart? Am I to ignorant? Am I to childish? Am I too naive? Am I too bold? Am I just too mean?! All these stupid thoughts have been running through my head all fucking week. I'm not usually a person that this sort of thing would bother, but my God, it does bother me this time!! What do I have to change about myseld? Thinking about shit like this makes me unhappy. I just want happiness, it's a good goal isn't it... Well, now that I'm thinking about the previous bit that I have written, I'm thinking and starting to get optimistic, but you know me... It never lasts too long. Maybe there are guys that do like me, and just haven't said anything to me or made it obvious. I mean, I can never tell things like that about me, but I can for other people. I'm not readable, and neither is everyone else... I'm going Ito return to thinking.. Leave comments if you must... Lata.

A good relationship, is it a good goal to have? Is it something reasonable to miss?! Because I do...

Current Mood: rejected
Current Music: Do As Infinity - Standing On A Hill