Kristy

7:37pm: Okay, I just don't understand people. Some guy explain to me, why guys just don't call? Like, friends or more, guys just do not pick up the telephone. Why??? People are really bugging me at the moment.

I am so, so tired. But at the same time, I can't sleep. I think I am getting a migraine again. It has been two weeks since my last one, so this is progress.

I am loving music right now. I am trying to write again, it is just so relaxing. I am listening to Billy Klippert, The Killers, Green Day, Orgy. Lots of different more rock groups.

I love my dog so much, she was sleeping with me last night and thats all that I thought about. I don't have anyone else, but at least I have my dog. Dog's are always there for you. No matter what you do to a dog, call their name and they will come running back to you, all is forgiven, all is forgotten. It is sad in a way, but then I am thankful that I can always rely on my little dog, in a way. Ok, not rely, but you know what I mean.

---

---

11:46pm: Happy New Years! I hope everyone has a great, happy, less turbulant 2005
Hopefully 2005 will be a better year for the world, then the past few. So many horrible things happened, but at the same time it brings everyone together, if only people could all get along like that normally (I'm thinking about the Tsunami's). Too bad something can't change about everything going on in Iraq.

Anyways, I had a really good New Years. I have had alot of bad luck the past few years as well, so I try to be an optimistic person but at the same time not get my hopes up. So this New Years, all my friends were out with the boyfriends. That left me with nothing to do at all. So, I had a nice little night planned. I was going to walk Bell at Bronte Creek, then rent a couple of movies and a pizza. My sister and her boyfriend and their friends were going to show up eventually, I knew that. It was just a matter of when.

As it turns out, I went to somebody that I am just starting to date's house (not proper english there at all in that sentence, I realize). Anyways, it turned out really good. We just had a small dinner and hung around with four of his friends, but I had a good night. Like I said, I am trying to not get my hopes up, but they are. But, if things don't work out, at least I rung in the New Year having a good, happy time and it is predicting the trend for the next year.

Just a short entry, I'm really tired.

---

---

9:31pm: Good Charlotte
I am listening to Good Charlotte right now. I absolutly love them. I think they are the best band around right now.

6:43pm: Adbusters
A friend of mine sent me a link for that adbusters website. It is amazing what the corporate world is like. Very, very scary. Go to http://www.adbusters.org/magazine/ and watch the poem "After The Fall". Scary stuff. Almost Big Brother-ish. I am trying to think of what I can do to change anything and I am finding the answer is nothing in regards to big things. But it is like that whole pay it forward idea that was in that Christmas commercial for HP. If someone does one good thing for you and you pass it on, you may be helping someone out in a big way and not realize it. So, maybe if we all try to do one good little thing each year to reverse the world we destroyed in the past, oh, 100 years (real long time seeing as the world has been around for a billion year

---

---

5:35pm: Dream
I just had a very strange dream, but sounds like it could be a plot for an independent movie if someone could re-vamp it or touch it up a bit. I went shopping today for boxing day, the malls were packed. But, I was prepared. I was up bright and early at 7:30 and at Sherway Mall in Etobicoke by 8:00 for the store opening. I bought absolutely nothing. Actually, I bought one shirt. Oh, and an eyeshadow. But other than that absolutely nothing. I don't even think I like the shirt, I have to try it on again. But, I saw these amazing sun glasses. My best friends all bought the Versace glasses (Paris is wearing a pink pair in her Guess ads), and they are amazing. I saw the price tag and they were $260, I thought what are my friends thinking. But then, I saw a pair of Chanel one's today. So, so nice. They were actually amazing. But, with tax, they are equal to my car payment. I now understand what my friends were thinking and am getting a pair on Thursday (payday or else I would have no cash for boxing day shopping in the states tomorrow). Back to my dream, it was related to my shopping experience. I dreamt I was shopping with my mom and frustrated by all the shopping line-ups and was hallucinating. It was creepy. I would close my eyes adn remember something, bits and pieces involving another lady and baby, I knew something bad had happened. Then I would open my eyes, and in the story the woman and baby were with my mom and I. Then I shut my eyes again, saying "This is not happening". My mom was telling me not to worry about it and just concentrate. Then I realized the woman and baby were dead, it was just a feeling. When my eyes were shut again, I saw another lady in a bathtub and I think she died in it. When I opened my eyes, that lady was with us as well. Then we saw a man in real life, in the store. Okay, now don't laugh too hard. It was the father from Home Alone. But anyways, he was supposed to be really bad and I knew he was dead also, had something to do with killing these two women and baby, and was now after my Mom and I. So we ran into the bathroom of Banna Republic (last time I checked, they didn't have bathrooms and thats where I got the shirt from I am undecided on so maybe that has something to do with it). Then he chased us into the empty Banna Republic bathroom on boxing day (only in the movies). Then I woke up because my dog was yapping her head off and stepping on me. It was an interesting dream. Now, anyone who doesn't know me would think I am a very plastic, materialistic person by reading this entry seeing as how I mentioned how I love Paris Hilton's clothes, spend a fortune on mine, and am now considering spending almost half my paycheque on a pair of sunglasses, which could be an extra payment on my car. But, I am NOT. I have a good job and not a high-maintenance person at all. I already have a bank account, I don't need a guy to be one, thank you very much. As to the stores I shop in, I wear absolutely no real fur. Leather is a bit of an exception, I know the soles of my shoes are leather (I think? Except my running shoes? Isn't that rubber? Is rubber really leather?). I try to avoid leather as much as possible, except for shoes. I will not buy a leather coat, and my shoes I only buy leather shoes once a year for the snow. The most I would ever buy leather shoes is once a season, that is absolute most. As to my infactuation with clothes. I would love to be a clothes designer or own my own little boutique or even spa/bath and beauty store, but seeing as how I have no creative side to myself whatsoever, I don't think that will be happening. Yet, I love art, music, plays, photography and love to write, what's the deal with that? So yes, I spend lots on items, but I do not buy animal-tested products, products made from animals, and I try to spend money at stores that try to do something good with some of their profits. When I open my store, my ads are going to be just like United Colors of Benetton and try to do something good. Automatically, 1/3 of my profits are going to charity's to help animals and things like that. My money will NOT be going to any cancer (or similar) charity's because in my personal opinon (which I know will bother lots of people), there will never be a cure for cancer or other similar diseases as the drug industry is making too much cash off the medicine out now. Why would they want to prevent it? The other thing my 1/3 will go for will be for children, orphanages and to help those less fortunate. Then 1/3 will go to business costs and 1/3 to re-invest in my company because there is a good chance it might go broke without it. I am not too optimistic that this will be happening and even succeed. That's it for my great big long message. It was quite the do-gooder blurty, but I have a life too. I have to go help my mom with dinner now and watch Meet The Parents. I saw Meet The In-Laws yesterday. It was great!!!

---

---

7:16pm: Christmas
This is not going to be the most optimistic entry, and what a way to post a first entry on here. Anyways, I think Christmas can be really great, or be awful. So far, mine is at the awful stage. My 18 year old sister is being a brat like usual, and my dad is just bugging me. My grandparents are over for Christmas dinner, and I'm up in my bedroom because they are being losers. My sister is only concerned about her Christmas presents, and how many things she is getting. Her list was easily about $1000 worth of stuff. That's real considerate when my parents are having a tough time financially right now. My dad is being his usual miserable self, complaining because I didn't buy one of his friends (who fixed my car after I hit a pole) a present. In my personal opinon, if you want to buy your friends a present just to suck up to them, do it yourself and don't blame other people if they didn't have time because you left it to two days before Christmas during the middle of a snowstorm.

Every year I take my dog for a walk down by the lake to look at the lights around midnight. I am looking forward to that. I love my dog. She is the only one that is always happy and gets along with everyone. Dog's really can have a great life, but then there are yet again more selfish people that can hurt innocent animals too. I guess everything is a toss-up.

Maybe this is pessimistic, but all I want is for Christmas to be over so we can back to the real world. This year, shopping for gifts I did not go spending-crazy, but I went to the mall quite a few times. I love the mall, I could handle the malls being open extended hours all year long. But commission this year, my god. Every store I went into I was asked at least five times if I needed help. I really hate commission. It got to the point where I told the girls if you bug, I won't buy anything. I know that was rude and it wasn't really their fault, but my god, when I say I am just looking, it usually means I am just looking.

---

---