Krista's Journal


		10:50pm 09/09/2005
	School; amazing classes this year. Travisheart/Nyc this weekend, sweet deal. " Once we played hiding and seek games, Ran away, opened our eyes, Prayed to father's sons, holy ghosts, dreams of life Beyond our sights; but can we keep our souls innocent? If not, we'll fade away... Dissapear and all we see will be erased by time, Watch it go by Watch it go by and feel every grain of sand, And I'll watch it all fly under my toes, slip away. Slip away and I feel every moment I'm losing With the tide... watch as we die. Can we see it changing everything The lights dim with fading dreams, Dissapear with pieces of non-plastic playgrounds Carried upon our sleeves. And I swear everything everything I've learned will probably just hurt me now, But everyone swears it will be alright. "As you grow, and give away yourself, you will be happier." But everyone forgets who they used to be. And I don't ever want to lose the smile on my face But everyone is fighting to keep their eyes down But I want to stare straight at the sun, Even if it kills me. But everyone is too scared to die.
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		06:01pm 08/09/2005
	By the time you get this message, it's gonna be too late. So don't bother ~~paging~~ texting me, 'cause I'll be on my way. See I grabbed all my diamonds and clothes, just as your momma, she knows. You're gonna miss me baby, hate to say I told you so. Well at first I didn't know, but now it's clear to me.. you would cheat with all your freaks, and lie compulsively. So I packed up my ~~Louis Vuitton~~ Ron Jon, jumped in your ride and took off, you'll never ever find a girl who loves you more than me.
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		01:50pm 02/09/2005
	So the summer's coming to an end, and what a trip it's been. It doesn't even feel like it's even near being over, which is unfortunate because the day it is, it'll hit me hard. So what have I done this summer, actually I've done everything I could have even imagined doing. It was amazing. I went jetskiing, on the boat, surfing, parasailing, beach almost every day, south carolina, charleston, I hungout with alot of people, went camping, made new friends, and more people on top of that. And of course I've been bad, drug, sex and alcohol. Yeah, I'm 16, it happens. So I've done alot, and it has really been amazing. I'm kind of excited for school, although it may be a little different without that certain someone there, but it'll be enjoyable to say that least. Watching Travis leave wasn't so enjoyable. I guess it's one of those things where you have absolutely no control over, and I guess it'll be good for him, and he'll have fun, and meet people, and be a smarty pants. He made my summer that much better. Make this ride as fast as I can Tonight this road home feels a little longer I hope you know that you were my best friend Tonight I said goodbye, but I should have said more Thanks for the best time of my life. So everyone's grown up, I'm going to be in 11th grade, I'm almost done. Looking for colleges will be dreadful, but you gotta do something with your life. It's scary, and as I talked to Travis all of his friends left, and I even felt lonely for him. I'm going to dread that day. Although, I do believe college will be the best years of my life. But for now, I've done everything.. I've done everything and I don't regret any of it. Everything's always different, and it will always be different now than it was a few years ago, even if it's the same routine for you. But different in a good way, you experience more and get to know things and people better with time. Although you could never take time back so you might as well do what you want and have fun while you can because the day you hit college, you're back to day one in kindergarden with more responsibilities and with no parents to help you through it. I'm still young, 16 is young, but it's getting there. I guess it just seems young because everyone around me is older, yet I'm growing up at the same pace as them. Hah, I do everything the big kids do. Although, I've still got a childish side to me, a childish side who's heart broke when I found out there was no recess in middle school, or felt freedom when you were allowed to walk from class to class without a teacher guiding you. Where you had a boyfriend for two weeks in sixth grade and have yet to have a real conversation with him, and you're first kiss was the boy you never thought you'd get and you finally did. Your childhood best friend grows up and almost drifts away from you, until you both are reminded how much you need eachother and those memories of playing hide and seek and having sleep overs until you your mom's decided you got too old to have a sleep over with a boy. Where a deck of cards could mean an entire game of spit on the recess tables outside, and no matter how much the wind blew your cards away, your hands were still going as quickly as they could to win that game. Where Derek Jeter and the spice girls where the only celebrities you knew, and you only knew them because the cute boy next to you was wearing a Yankee jersey and your best friend was obsessed with the pop trend. Where middle school you had a crazy obsession with eyeliner, even though you were never tought how to wear makeup, it was pure instinct as a girl to wear it at 13. My mom was never too happy about me wearing makeup, she said I was growing up too fast, go figure. And no matter what, there was the awesome little groups that you were so proud to be in because you were "cool" and "popular" until you realize it's better to be friends with everyone than secluding yourself from pretty much the rest of the world. School was your world. If that kid didn't go to your school, you didn't know him. The petty rumors of who kissed who on saturday night, and who wants to meet up at the mall and hold hands was an every weekend type thing. The handwriting contests, that I always won by the way, by Mrs. Gersley, the teacher who always made me cry, I'll never forget the third grade. The notes passed around saying the teacher has a big butt, and for some reason the class would be giggling and the teacher would get so frustrated but continue to teach anyway. The kick me signs, which I was willing to do, on Ryan Hoovers back, the kid who cried over everything, but didn't cry over a kickme sign on his back. The pointless library where we watched arthur and never really learned anything. Or in 6th grade the girl who got her period all over, and your face turned red for her. Then onto highschool where you everyone was so confused on who they were, but eventually everything fell perfectly into place and everyone became friends and genuine people. I met so many new people, it was amazing. Falling up the stairs one too many has become a routine and no matter what, everyone in art calls me 'little' although I disagree with being little. Getting a piggy back ride from alex was enough to get me a detention and matt made a statement by pissing in his pants in class because the teacher wouldn't let him use the bathroom. The cute boy that everyone adored across the hallway that eventually walked me to class every day and kissed me right before he left and became my boyfriend that every girl in school was so jealous of became the best part of my day. Walking with Marc in the hallways was always an adventure because we would walk to the corner where we'd meet everyone and always be late for class in the end anyway. These are my memories and by sitting here thinking about things that happened 10 years ago, I don't think I'd be able to forget them in 50 years. Actually, I can't wait for school to start and to go to college. Things will be amazing =] Oh, and I love a boy.
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		10:30am 28/08/2005
	"When I fell to the floor tonight, I was so scared, I was so terrified. Then I saw you, and I promised myself that if I could just get up, I'd walk over to you... I'd tell you how much I need you and how much I want you... and how nothing else matters."
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11:34am 25/08/2005

mood: jubilant

music: honey soundtrack

Yeah, long time no real entry.

So I came back from south carolina, it was a fun trip. Didn't think it was going to be, but it was. We stayed at this amazing condo with an oceanfront view and the beach infront. Yeah, I was there everyday. The first night, we stopped at a motel 6 because everyone was tired of driving, and how classy that was. I fell asleep and got woken up to a naked man playing with his peepee running around banging on doors. Hooray, haha. So yeah, that was the worst of it though. We went there with nothing planned, and ended up doing a million and one things. Plantation, parasailing, beach, out to dinner, etc. It was fun fun.

Yesterday I went to the beach with Joe and some mad peeps. It was alot of fun as well. Yeah...

Then I went to Tracy's, here I am. We're going to the mall shortly, so she could get a damn job, and I could... shop. Fun fun, then Joseph tonight. I heart him.

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I'll be okey. I swears... But will you?
		06:17pm 16/08/2005
	Hello lonely How you doin' today? Hello sweet thing Why don't you walk this way? Hello, you again How could you go and be so cold? She said "Goodbye sad man" Cause all this pain is getting old. So why're you sad? Don't you know that It's you that holds my dreams and seems to always come back? How do I live without you? How could you walk away from this, just walk away from this again? How do I live without you? How could you walk away from this, just walk away from this? Hello lonely Now that you're gone I can move on Goodbye sweet thing Just know that I've been here all along Just walk away from this, again...
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