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goddamnit...... wow i am so pissed i dont even know what to do... $*&@!(*#&
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[20 Jun 2004|10:31pm] |
you know, it always seems that when im with my dad (which is every other weekend), he tries to find every possible excuse to keep me in. like- youre eating dinner with grandma tonight; or- me and tommy will be out golfing late (aka 6:30) and you have to babysit your sister while we go out to eat afterwards... and even though this time he has a reasonable excuse (its his birthday) i still reaaaaaaaaaally dont want to be sitting here. i have come to the conclusion that i am the kind of person who always needs to be out doing something... maybe the people who know me best would call me lazy (which i can be, dont get me wrong.. but thats only when ive had very little sleep), but i just HATE sitting around not doing anything when i know of things that i could be doing. like tonight, andys birthday, cant go to his house (well, because its my dads birthday), but all my dad is doing is sitting watching tv with elizabeth (his girlfriend). not that i have a problem with that, i just dont see my need to be here. and when i get bored, i eat. story of my life... when i transferred schools and actually got friends (yes, i was a loser, but we're not going to even touch that, haha), i started getting like this.... if you backtrack a couple years, i was the person who could sit on the computer all day for 7 hours because i had no life whatsoever, but i was perfectly content doing so... so i didnt eat because i wasnt bored, therefore i was skinny. not that im fat now, but i could stand to lose a couple pounds. when i get my liscense, ive decided to go to the gym everyday (yeah, a lot of people do that, i know)... welllll.... we'll see how long that holds up for. but i have every intention of doing it now, which is all that matters.
AND i need to find a job... you know what, no i dont, ill just apply at hy-vee. its like in my backyard, and a lot of people work there, their hours are flexible... i dont really want to work there, but hey, its money. wow, this is a really long entry already... and im not done yet. i am SO BORED... that could probably be why i have so much to say. i have drivers ed tomorrow... my last week... hallelujah! and i know im gonna pass, every day my teacher asks if he can buy me a pop.. a little weird, i know, but what can you do.. its not like i ever LET him buy me a pop. im just reassuring myself that im gonna get a good grade.
you know something else ive realized? ive straightened my hair twice this whole summer... that is probably a record... and you know what? i LOVE it. scrunching my hair takes about 15 minutes of my time.. if even that. and it never gets frizzy! its amazing. im gonna have to straighten it one of these days though, i kind of miss being able to run my fingers through it. austin powers in goldmember is on... ive seen that movie three times, but i have yet to see the ending. and even though i want to, i really dont feel like watching a movie right now. wow, that was so random, sorry. uhh.. for some reason, i really dont want to end this entry. so im not going to... actually, i will. so now would be the time that you click that little [x] in the corner of the screen... ok..... aaaand.... go.
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