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[01 Jun 2004|03:34pm] |
wow, so last full day of school, right? supposed to be a good day... and it was, until the choir meeting after school. now if youre not in choir, i suggest you stop reading because you probably wont care about anything that i have to say beyond this point.
mr patterson, our choir director, is like my second father. he has helped me through so much... and i remember him saying- "i cant wait to see you guys through your senior year".. and i had always just assumed he would. wrong. hes leaving, taking a job in florida. and i made show choir this year.... and what happens? HE LEAVES. next year was supposed to be so amazing... show choir, all state (possibly), concert chorale, holiday singers, chamber singers... we were going to be so good.... and i was so looking forward to having him direct us... and i cant believe hes leaving... i just cant believe it.. there were so many people crying, so dont think im an idiot for getting upset... me and becca are going to the mall in a bit, we were both like bawling...
but yeah... so, happy end of the year guys
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[01 Jun 2004|10:45pm] |
i realize ive posted already today.... but deal with it. lol...
lately ive been really, extremely confused on a lot of things. have you ever noticed that you never get what you want when you want it the most... but when you dont want it the most, thats when you get it... (thank you laura paylan).. its so true.
and what else sucks, is that when you do something wrong, and you know you shouldnt be doing it, something is ALWAYS said afterwards (by someone who didnt know about it) that makes you feel extremely guilty... maybe no one knows what im talking about and im just rambling... but thats kind of whats been happening to me in oh, say the past week. its hell, because i dont know what i want anymore... i like what i have, but its not everything i want.. and what i really want is unattainable... THIS IS GAY. wow sorry, none of this is really making any sense to anyone but me, but if you want me to describe it more then just ask.
its funny how someone can flip shit on me for no reason and then like a week later talk to me as if we're friends? act like it never happened... thats cool... at least i dont have to see you
and um... losing weight begins...now.
but man... two friggen half days left... i cant wait
ctbball2402: my little brother is dancing around the house in his tighty whiteys singing 'macho man' at the top of his lungs
ctbball2402: i think he thinks im asleep
ctbball2402: wow i should go tape this
that made my night
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