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[07 Apr 2004|08:34pm] |
ok, so i changed my mind about today. not did it only suck, it was the day from hell. heres things summed up:
i dont think my mom and i could be fighting more
i hate the house im in right now.. its nice but its just not home
i wish my parents had never gotten divorced, i miss them together so badly it hurts
and what hurts even worse is watching my dad move on so quickly, and watching my mom start to almost fade...
i am SO stressed out with school, i have to learn about 6 new pieces of music in a week... did i mention i cant read music?
no matter how hard i try to get better at track, or anything for that matter, its just not good enough...
my computer might get fucking taken away, yes, thats right kids, my mom thinks that i "hibernate" myself in my room... well, i dont really know what else to do in this house
i feel so detached from my family, and i know its my fault but i couldnt make it better even if i wanted to, i just dont connect with any of them like i used to and i dont have patience with them anymore
and to top it all off... god damnit my shin splints hurt
i do have things going for me though, i have a few really good friends who i love to death, the guy department is going good-- yeah, i only like one guy now, he knows who he is.. well at least he should... so i guess thats looking at the bright side, but whatever.
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