| Imaginary Friends |
[22 Dec 2003|04:43pm] |
Sometimes, when I'm left alone in conversations, I have a dialog with myself in my mind. I always end up conversing with my subconscious self who I like to picture as a baby dragon perched on my shoulder.
It's my way of contemplating things. The dragon is a representation of my greater potential, and it's a baby since I haven't reached that yet.
When I go back to school from this boring Christmas break, I'm going to talk to it more often (I named it Kazeryuu, Wind Dragon in Japanese). Not like there's anyone to talk to anyway.
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| Song... |
[22 Dec 2003|01:13pm] |
I made a song... Sums up what I felt during the Christmas Party...
It needs chords... Either I make some or Rych or someone else does.
( Song: Third Year )
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| Class Write-Ups for the Blue Book |
[08 Dec 2003|11:13pm] |
Graduation time, we're asked to write about our friends. Here's my bit. The others who are not here, I don't really know that much about 'em..
( Class Write-Ups )
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| At the Point of Letting Go... |
[08 Dec 2003|09:32pm] |
Most of the time, it's hard to let go of something you've been accustomed to.
And therefore, I'm stuck at a standstill once again.
It's so hard to hold on a phantom object, something that doesn't exist, something that can't become real.
It's about her again. After what Erik said... I don't know. Somehow I'm living in dreams again... The possibilities are low... Keeping my hopes up proves futile.
But she's a source of hope and inspiration... Darn... I don't know... She's the one where I got the inspiration to write again... I haven't even continued my series yet...
I'm at a point of letting go... What to do??? I don't know...
Maybe it is too early for the "L word"... I don't even want to say it anymore....
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| Parents... |
[07 Dec 2003|01:40am] |
Why do they always make me anticipate for stuff, then they cancel whatever they said they're gonna get/give/make for you?
It's not like their bad parents... I don't know. This is what's annoying about them.
I was going to get DSL (as far as I knew) since Dad was getting it for business. I go all happy and stuff since I wanted an unlimited connection. I wondered why they were getting it, since getting it is equal to PHP 30,000 a year. But then, I didn't really care.
Then mom takes it back since it was so costly. I agree, but it's not really good for them to promise me stuff they can't give, right? It is bad to make people anticipate for nothing.
Oh well. That's life. I'm entering negotiations with them later.
On the other hand, I have to say some stuff to people.
To Jake, sorry I was so silent in the party. It's in my nature to be shy. I was just tired, it was a long and boring trip to get to the party. Sorry I didn't have a gift and stuff.
To everyone else there, sorry I was silent the whole time and just played the guitar. I'm a shy person, too shy, too conquered by fears and anxiety. You know all of those. Hehe, the party was good though.
May float pa ba, Jake? Ha? Ha? Ha? Plzzzzzz.... Waaaa....
Hehe. It was fun, I guess. My second time to go to Power Plant by myself (from far Antipolo to Makati), so I was quite tired. Hehe.
Does everybody present there think I suck at playing in the guitar? Sorry na lang, I'm a work in progress.
Anyway, that's all.
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| Hahahaha |
[30 Nov 2003|11:22pm] |
I failed math.
Hahahaha...
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| In the Times of Pressure... |
[26 Nov 2003|10:44pm] |
I wanna thank those who made me go on with the pressures of exams, and life in general.
To Vic for emailing me notes.
To Rych for talking to me about stuff and for the TD Pointers as well.
To my Harry Potter Book 5 for distracting me in my studies.
And to my Ragnarok knight which you can see in my userpic that makes me believe I am meant for greater things.
And thanks to my friends in general.
And to my mortal enemies who give me the inspiration to greatness (at the cost of their honor), for letting me backstab them to find fire within myself to go and achieve. Those of you who know me well know who these are.
And about family, events have passed, sorrys have been said, and I'm not sure if they're getting me DSL or not...
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| Short Story: Infinity |
[21 Nov 2003|11:25pm] |
Here's another story. Be reminded that the girl character is named after the girl character in my last story, Umbrellas in the Rain (I like the name Iris, hence...). This story has no relation to the last story whatsoever. Enjoy.
( Short Story: Infinity )
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| Frustration |
[17 Nov 2003|11:20pm] |
Workload... Too much...
I had to ask Dad to bring the printer to school to catch up...
Argh...
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| There is a God.... |
[16 Nov 2003|11:56pm] |
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To my classmates, to see what this entry means, ask me tomorrow.
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| Falling Apart... |
[16 Nov 2003|07:53pm] |
Why does it seem that what I worked for in the past four years are falling apart???
Friends are drifting apart over petty things...
The class is drifting apart...
MY MATH GRADE STILL WON'T RISE ABOVE C+!!!
And I'm failing English. As ironic as that sounds.
This is my last year with friends. I should be enjoying it. But I'm not. And I don't know why...
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| For Kudos and All My Friends |
[10 Nov 2003|11:32pm] |
Don't we all want to go back to the past?
I sure would do.
But I guess we can't do that.
We have to move on. And that's what friends are for. They're like soldiers who'll risk every limb for the safety of their comrades.
We should be able to help each other. Help each other laugh, cry, cope up, and all that stuff.
This song helps me face everyday life, especially moments when life throws sh*t at me. I hope it helps you.
Absorbing Man
by Parokya Ni Edgar
You can beat me up
Call me names
Steal my bike
Go insane
I don't care if you rearrange my face
I don't mind
You can burn my toys
And the books i read
Still it wont matter to me
'Coz with one big gulp
I'll swallow it up and smile
CHORUS:
Because I'm the incredible absorbing man
And I'm gonna do the best i can(2x)
'Till you finally understand
I'm calm, im serene
Not a word is getting through me
When you scream
I'm a sponge
I soak it up
All the crap you put me through
Won't make me give up
(chorus)
I will never falter
I will never quit
You'll never find another
Who'll put up with your shit(3x)
I will never falter...
(chorus)
Sing this whenever you're facing all of life's problems. It helped me absorb it all.
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| Stuff... |
[09 Nov 2003|12:38am] |
The Bangkok stuff will be updated once I find my notebook. I think its in my desk at school...
Anyway, on to stuff.
English Sh*t
I got a 30 in English. In a formal composition. HPS 50 points. I took it as a serious question of my... whatever you want to call it. Talent, gift, whatever... Some people outmatch me in writing anyway... Darn. I don't deserve that grade. If I didn't adhere to my code of honor, the class would be dressed up in black next Monday with grins on their faces.
Field Trip
Last year, our trip to Mt. Banahaw was cancelled. Big disappointment. What came last Friday was even worse.
Our bus did not arrive. Apparently, it got into trouble while on the road. I was furious. Everybody was. People are usually hyperactive in the morning, hence the behavior. The morning bus is always the best part of the field trip, since people were wide awake and charged up so the bus would be lively. Damn school administration. They decided to split us up into buses. We got into 4F's bus. It was like another world.
Another thing that bothered me was my distance to my so-called "friends." I was seated in the aisle chair since the bus was packed. To my right was super-asshole loser John and Sam, someone from my Org. To my left was Erik and Jake. My right was full of Ragnarok discussions, although I mainly talked with Sam. My left was full of discussions in general, with constant shifting of topics, most of which I can't relate to. The only communication I had was text from Rych and Josh. Some guys (who have questionable... mannerisms) were all in awe with my Ragnarok Guide... I just imagined some storyline conversations for some stories in my head to have at least some conversation... Pathetic to do, but I had no choice.
We got to our destination, Enchanted Kingdom, a theme park of sorts. Basically we were there to understand the principles of Physics. I'm a big chicken, so I just went to ride the Ferris Wheel, Go-Carts, and Bump Cars. Most of the time I just took pictures for our photo essay and stuff. Got a rootbeer float (I love those).
We had a bus in our trip back home. The bus sucked. Everyone was tired, and the TV didn't work.
Some additional info: We were accompanied by our English Teacher and Math Teacher. We plotted to let our English teacher ride the rollercoaster to... [evil laugh]. Wanted to play paintball, but we ran out of time.
"Friends"
When I'm with my "friends" I just tag along. It's not like I'm important or something. Heh. I guess that I'm not really that important. I'm just a ghost that keeps tagging along with them. Not heard, not seen.
Pobbes
Its really ironic.
Pobbes, our classmate for three years, repeated third year. We left him behind, technically. The Pobbes that always played his PS2. The Pobbes that always slept in class. The Pobbes who didn't study. The Pobbes we knew.
Now, he has a girlfriend. Wow.
He left us behind. We, who are mostly dreamers, torpe (too shy), and heartbroken...
It's ironic.
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| Pre-November Stuff |
[27 Oct 2003|08:06pm] |
Got a lot to do before sembreak. Lucky for the college and the grade school, they got their break early.
Anyhow, it seems that I'm off to Bangkok this sembreak. For five days, eating up all but one day of sembreak.
Great.
The tickets are free. Frequent-flier miles. But I don't wanna go.
The people in my class who play Ragnarok may level up higher than me. There's no hope of anything to do but watching HBO in the hotel room and doing... homework...
Argh.
I have the option of not going, but it's free. Although I'd like a few people to play my character for me, they say they have their own characters to level up. It's true, but if I were asked to take care of an account, I'd do it.
Oh well. Studying, since we have long tests on our last three days of pre-sembreak school. Happy. Right.
Math still sucks.
And my bus service home is too full of hot air from all the A and B boys bragging how hard their math is compared to our math, and a few others.
Darn.
I hope that November gives me good days. The last days towards it are giving me migranes.
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| Who Needs Friendster? |
[05 Oct 2003|07:29pm] |
I have a complicated life enough with the friends I have. I don't want to have more.
What I really need right now is some science notes. I stupidly left them in my desk.
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[04 Oct 2003|07:10pm] |
Some people just can't get it kung pinapagtripan sila.
They do it so often to me. They can't recognize whether I'm joking around and trying to stress a point or I'm serious.
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| Bangkok Visit Part 1: Hong Kong |
[02 Oct 2003|11:15am] |
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I'm updating from an iMac in Hong Kong's airport, waiting for my flight to Bangkok. Still tired and my head aching from the trip.
It was nice to experience going above the clouds again, something which I haven't experienced since I visited the US when I was still 7.
Anyway, Rych, take care of my account. I wish all of you well and I hope I can return on time.
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| The Eagles Soar High Once Again! |
[30 Sep 2003|09:44pm] |
We won the do-or-die match between our arch-rivals La Salle.
Wohoo!!!!
The Archers are worthy opponents.
And, the best thing is, the UAAP Juniors game will be on the same date as the seniors game. There's a big possibility that the High School will send the whole juniors and seniors to support the HS.
*Hoping and praying*
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| Yahooo!!!!! |
[24 Sep 2003|05:47pm] |
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Theme of Prontera: Ragnarok Online |
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After three months and three characters in RO...
I'm going to be a knight soon!!!!
Wohoo!!!!
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