| Sunday, November 16th, 2003 |
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Ok, people need to stop asking me for the link to my new journal. It's at [turbo.greatestjournal.com] I went there since you can have 1000 usericons and I love it. |
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| Wednesday, October 29th, 2003 |
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| Ok, so I've moved to a newer journal. It's not on blurty. So ask for the link. It's private, since I won't give a lot of people links, and it's public, so the people that have the link can read it. Bye. | ||||||
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| Monday, October 27th, 2003 |
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| This is extreme happiness. I've never smiled so much in my entire life. I'm smiling so much and I had excitement running through my entire body. I love it. Tonight is so awesome. I was telling people that I got happy chills. Tess reminded me of the quote which described me really well. "Happiess is like peeing in your pants, everyone can see it but only you can feel its warmth." | ||||||
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I finished my projects at midnight. Actually, I finished it at one in the morning, but we had to change the clocks, so yeah. I had an extra hour. I've been writing notes all day and I never gave any of them to anyone. Oops. Nothing really happened today. Classes were boring. Not too much to say. I was dancing in the rain and scaring people from bushes. It was fun. Here's my note to "Mini Tara". ( Curiosity made the kittens ) |
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| Sunday, October 26th, 2003 |
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| Let's see, I don't remember Friday night. On Saturday, I was supposed to go to Lisa's party, but I ended up going to the movies with Max, Meg, Sam, and Amy. There were so many Somerville people there and it was fun trying to look for them. We watched Scary Movie 3. Hilarious movie. Then, I went home and talked to Max, Ashley, and Blake. I found out that Max was my long lost twin. It's weird though, since we're very similar. Ashley asked Max how kinky he was. Max said, "I'm not foot kinky. I'm more of a tie me up and fuck me kind of guy." or something like that. Then, Ash asked me. I said, "I'm not into foot fetishes, or stuff like that. I find bondage and the hancuff me to the bed and play with me kind of stuff." It was really, really weird to have the same answers. My twin then told me that Ashley really liked me. I've heard that from a lot of people, but it was really surprising to hear it from Max. Anyways, I don't know what I'm doing today. I really have to finish my projects. I'll write more later. | ||||||
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| Friday, October 24th, 2003 |
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| I didn't go to school today. Instead, I listened to music. And became emotional about everything that went on. I then went to the doctor's office, where they found out that I'm fine. Still, my dad didn't allow me to go to the football game or Jamie's party. It's the last football game, due to the football season ending. And it's Jamie's birthday, what could be more fun than that? Well, at least I will be able to go to Lisa's Halloween party tommorrow. A lot of people told me that they were going, so I should expect to see people there. I don't even know how I'm getting there tommorrow. I just know that I will be attending. I missed the fourth episode of Smallville on Wednesday. I made it in time to watch the show, but since I missed the first three minutes, even when I got to the theme song, I didn't want to watch the show. Besides, I had missed the third episode, and it just didn't seem right to watch it without watching the show that happened right before it. Anyways, I dowloaded the third episode, and it was great, and I think that I already said that in this journal. I'm currently downloading the fourth episode, and the first three minutes that I watched were "interesting." Haha. I'm really bored. I can't believe that I missed the game, but it wouldn't matter anyways, I've been thinking a lot, and the games don't exactly seem to be fun anymore. No matter what you do, the stars just don't want to be out. And of course, the only night that I don't go to the game, is the only night that the stars are out. I know that I sound stellar-obsessive right now, but I just wanted to have a good night tonight, and it's just not working. All the funny conversations are getting old. All my favorite books are getting old. The episode of Smallville better be good. I just can't deal with the same old shit anymore. | ||||||
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| Thursday, October 23rd, 2003 |
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| This is my first time in High School to ever update during school hours. There's a first time for everything. I was supposed to run away last night, but I lost communication with the person that I was going to run away with. I think we're going tommorrow, but due to the fact that I was given more time to think, I think that I'm not going to run away anytime this week. I want to stay for the foot ball game and Lisa's Halloween party. Anyways, yesterday was fine. People were nice to me. People took care of me. People loved me. I don't have a reason to run away anymore. This morning, I went to school with 50 Aspirin. I took 40 of them in homeroom. I don't know why. I just didn't want to be at school at the time. I went to the nurse and stayed there for four periods. There was only one thing that I really thought about on the bed that I was laying on at the nurse's office. I was thinking about Tess the entire time, hoping that she wasn't worried about me. Hoping that I would be able to see her later on, and then realizing that I had to go home after fifth period when my dad came and I wouldn't be able to see Tess at my locker. I watched the third season's third episode of Smallville, which was great. But it made me realize a lot of things. Here's the second to last scene with Clark and Lana at the Kent Farm: Lana: "You won't share whats going inside.. Clark, if you dont want to open up to the people that love you, you'll always be alone. I cant believe you want to spend your life like that." Clark: "I may not have a choice" Lana: "You always have a choice." I don't wnat to be alone. I want to tell everyone everything about me. Or, at least what they're willing to sit back and listen to. And by the way, I only experienced minor symptoms of overdosing. I'm fine now. | ||||||
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| Tuesday, October 21st, 2003 |
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I don't want to talk about how stupid my school day was, and how fun being with friends was. And how I yelled at people. And then I was comforted by people. And how I cried. I want to update with something my friend Kris wrote. It's awesome. swtcatastrophe x: a portion of a lake no matter how small or big how clear or murky how beautiful or unattractice how calm or rough can still make a difference in that body of water one person in the world no matter how small or big how beautiful or plain how strong or weak how intelligent or incompetent can still make a difference in the world do not criticize those who are different, or those who are not different the unfamiliar, or the familiar accept everyone and anyone and you will find tranquility within yourself and if you do need to know how my life is going, then here's my away message: who said that beating the strings would help tune it up? i know that it could not have fuckin been me. this is finally the greatest time to leave it all. im ready for our getaway [breemo], so don't worry about me, i'll be gone before you know it. "saying 'fuck it all' finally has a meaning" when the day comes dont go searching for me. just know that im gone.. understand it.. and leave it alone. |
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| Monday, October 20th, 2003 |
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| Haha, that title is so wrong. Anyways, I was talking to Brie, and to my surprise, she had a list of S.S.! I was so excited. Names: Ryan, Matt, Ian, and Mike. I think that I'm going to the mall tommorrow with Brie and Matt. Highly stoofalicious. Yum. Yeah right. I think that I should do my homework. My mind is hung up in desperateness. I was thinking about switching schools. I was telling Brie, "I want to go to your school." I made a funny tonight. A lot of them. Haha. | ||||||
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| Tess had in her profile "name three people who you make you smile." I couldn't fit three people, so I said five. And then, Max said ten people, which was perfect. Here it goes. [one] Tess, [two] Blake, Raz, [three] John M. and the rest of the Asian Crew [Leo, Doug, Garrett, Kris], [four] Keith, Jayke, Ryan, Eddy, [five] Max, Jess R., Katy G [six] Mike R and the members of Sweet Catastrophe [I love the members of our band], [seven] Lee, Syrup, Brie, Lyss, [eight] Amanda and Ashley, [nine] Buddy, Oscar, Shannon, [ten] anyone else who I've forgotten that possibly means something to me. My top ten includes twenty-seven people. I cheated. Oh well. | ||||||
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| I would like to say that I would fight through every step to be myself. I will totally forget about it all. Start my life with what I want it be. Blake iMed me and he yelled, "Flip channel.. now!! The hottest flip girls you'll ever see." Of course, with my Blake-esque reflexes, I flipped to the flip channel. A show called "Otso Otso" was on and the game "dancers" were on. If you don't know what this is, then you kind of just have to see it to understand. Anyways, it wasn't exactly interesting at all. I'm going to buy a tablet sometime soon and that rocks my computer. Anyways, I think that I'll be taking a lot of pictures today. I really need a new camera. 5.0 megapixels isn't doing it for me. | ||||||
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| I go off to do my favorite thing, associate with music. I was listening to a song called "Tiny Vessels" by Death Cab for Cutie. The whole song was heartbreaking. It kind of sounded like how Mike tells me my life is. One part was placed in my away message. It goes a bit like this: All i see are dark grey clouds in the distance moving closer with every hour. So when you ask, "Was something wrong?" Than I think "You're damn right, there is, but we can't talk about it now. No, we can't talk about it now." | ||||||
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| Today was great in it's own silent ways. I actually slept in my room last night, and I think that I will keep doing that from now on. Haha. Well, I got to school and realized that I need to buy a jacket. I already know which one and from which store and how much it costs. Its one that matches with my school bag and it's $90. It's a cheap jacket, but I love it. [And yes, I'm trying to sound like Rayne.] In first, I don't exactly remember what happened. All I know is that I got my bass back, but I left it in the office. Max fixed it up for me. In second, we sat on blankets and showed our projects. Then, we broke up into small groups and I learned the word "pimp" in french. In third, it was fine, I guess. We didn't really sing at all, and we did some worksheet about stupid stuff. In fourth, we worked on our posters. In fifth, I was drawing. In seventh, I was participating in class and I filled up half a sheet of paper with random songs and thoughts. I'm going to scan it tonight so people could see it and try to figure it out. I'll have a contest with it to see if people could guess which songs and thoughts are in it. In eighth, we did some stupid relay, and I only got to run 100 meters. In ninth, I finished the contest sheet. Afterschool, I saw Tess and she said that her trip was fun. I stayed to talk and I left since I had to go home. I got home and used a leaf blower to clear off my lawn. I listened to music and had the best conversations. | ||||||
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| Sunday, October 19th, 2003 |
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| I need to calm down. My mind is hyperactive right now. I have school tommorrow. I think that I should sleep. I was talking to Amanda and she brought up a hilarious memory. So, here it goes: I think that it was located at an Office Max or Staples, I forget which one, but it was somewhere down south. I was with Carl and Blake. Carl, being loud as he is, yells "I need this floppy for porn." If you really weren't thinking about it, you wouldn't have known that he was talking about a floppy disk and not a floppy something else. Blake literally starts rolling on the ground while laughing and crushing his bag of bugles. This guy, named Dave, or something with a "D" walks buy with extension cords and drops one and trips on one. The tags on the cords were all different colors, because they were all different lengths [primary and secondary colors, haha, think about it.] and then Blake looks up after hearing Dave fall. I accidentally yell, "He's tied up in gay." And then Carl trips on Blake. Carl says, "Aren't we all?" and then Dave starts laughing. We all look at Dave and then we paused in silence and then started laughing again. After a while, we were paying for our stuff and leaving and we see that Dave is our cashier. We were all quiet until he said, "Didn't you need some floppy disks for your porn?" We all cracked up and the other cashier people were looking at us weirdly. In the car, everyone was being serious and Carl goes, "Now that I've thought about it, I've downloaded so much porn and I don't even think that my computer can handle anymore." And then Blake said something funny about how he should've bought the floppies. I can't say it since I don't want to say it wrong and have it now be funny. I don't know why I'm so hyper. Maybe it's because I tripped over the plug. And then Amanda knew of that memory and said "You're all tied up in gay." It was hilarious, though. I'm going to grow my hair out. "Call me Shags." Haha. "Let's dance." Memories are going crazy in my mind. Here's another one that happened the same day as the tangledness: This is after Mike was picked up so we could go to Freehold Mall. We went to the Freehold mall, and Shannon was working there [which reminds me, I still have Shannon's number somewhere, if you want it., Am]. We bought pretzel nuggets and had a pretzel war, and it was hilarious. I wish that we hadn't done that, since I was hungry. Anyways, Amanda starts hitting on Shannon. This was a great show. Amanda starts trying to be flirtatious, "Nugget's, huh? Are they better when they're.. sweet?" She said "sweet" seductivaley and Blake ran towards Abercrombie, almost spitting up his soda everywhere. Mike and I stayed to watch the show. Carl was in the bathroom, I think. He was somewhere, just not with us. Anyways, I got up and said to Amanda, "Forget about it, you're flirting isn't working." As we walk away, Shannon says, "Wait." We turned around. Shannon continued, "I think you're little friend could do better." I made the little confused face that make and then Blake came over. Blake says, "Can I do better too?!" Shannon says, "try me." I said, "So, about those nuggets." Blake yells, "Sweet!" I start laughing. Shannon smiles and then says, "You did a lot better than she could've done." We knew what Shannon was talking about. When we walked away, Carl was with us and he looked back. "Why is Shannon staring at you guys?" Amanda sarcastically replies, "I don't know. I wonder why Shannon is checking you out?!" I pushed Blake away so we could get away from the pretzel place and then we were stalked by Shannon. And I just checked to see if I had Shannon's number. I know that the area code is 609. I can't find it, so just call Freehold mall's Pretzel Gourmet place and ask the lady for Shannon's number. She gave me the number last time, she should do it this time. I don't think that Shannon would remember us. If Shannon does, then I'd laugh. My hyperness is going away. This is cool. Even though it did take half an hour to do so. I really need to sleep. This is really early but I have to do it sometime. | ||||||
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| I really did nothing today. I went to Circuit City and talked to random people. I went to Toys 'R' Us and waited for Jackie to hurry up. I then went to Zany Brainy and got the AJ "Plus." Finally. I kept hitting myself on purpose to see how soft it was. And then, at CostCo, I saw a lot of kids from IHS, and it was weird, since you wouldn't think of meeting people there, other than Matt and Melissa, and that was the only time that I liked meeting people. Haha. Then, I went to Target and got headphones. I saw my cousins there playing video games at the electronics section. I went home and tested out my new headphones and I almost went deaf. I talked to people and did my homework. I have nothing else to do now. Entertain me. | ||||||
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| After having people's droplets of spit land on my face and lips, it just made me realize how dirty our lips are. We never brush our lips when we brush our teeth. We never put our facial cleanser on our lips, since it's not recommended, or tasty. And I'm pretty sure that no one puts their soap on their lips while showering. I brushed my lips this morning, and it felt minty. Haha. Anyways, I think that I'm going to Zany Brainy today, which is pretty cool since I finally get to my Astro Jax Plus. I already have two Astro Jax Vmax's and I think that I might also get Saturn today to, so I can get the disco lights. This is the dorkiest entry I've ever written. Time to make kiwido's. Haha. | ||||||
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| E.E. Cummings rocks my socks: "To be nobody-but-yourself -- in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else -- means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight, and never stop fighting." Anyways, the only people that I'm actually having a conversation with right now, is Max, Blake, Ashley, and Kearow. I usually have a lot more conversations, but this is actually a lot better since I could focus better on what they're saying. Actually, Max and Blake are the ones that are having actual conversations. Ashley is sending pics and Kearow is being.. Kearow. So, I don't know how you would catagorize that. | ||||||
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| It's really gross to know that more than 50% of the sweat that is on me right now, isn't even mine. I got used to the smell, but goddamn, the pheremones are raging all over. There, I said it, but you get no money. Haha. | ||||||
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| I better do this before I shower and fall asleep, and then completely forget about everything that just happened. This morning was fine, I guess. Really nothing to do on a weekend morning. I talked to people and watched Battle Royale and 2 Fast 2 Furious. They're both good movies. Anyways, the night was the part of my day that was awesome. At first, I thought that I was going to a Saves the Day, Taking Back Sunday, and Moneen, which was confusing, because if you look at their tour dates, they're weren't playing anywhere near NJ. I realized that since Sarah said that we were going to Philly, that it was probably in the Electric Factory, and I realized that we were really going to see The Starting Line, The Early November, Senses Fail, Home Grown, and Allister. Kathleen came and brought me to Sarah's house. I met Erin and the hyperactive dog. I had a slice of pizza and then Lauren and Ally came. There were still four tickets left over, until Kim and Kevin came. Kevin drove over, and we picked up Kim. I was so happy that Kevin went since I was the only guy to the last concert, and when I kept seeing girls walk into the door, I was telling Kat the Kim better be short for some male name, such as Kimbo. We got into the two cars and drove to Philadelphia. It wasn't a long ride. We got there and it was cold outside and the temperature greatly changed. The bands were really awesome and everyone kept seperating. The only person that I was with for the whole time was Kat and that was cool, since she was the only one that I was comfortable being around with. I only crowd-surfed once, but it was awesome tonight, since it was just after the Starting Line's song "Best of Me" and when I was crowd-surfing, all this confetti came down and it was great. They played two more unplanned songs since the crowd demanded more, but since I was out of the crowd, I decided to view the show from the back. At the end, everyone smelled like the sweaty crowds. I know that it seems like not a lot happened, but I just don't want to type it up right now, since I'm dead. Oh yeah, when we went to Sarah's house, Kevin's car had shaving cream all over it and it was hilarious. I would've laughed, but I was too tired. I don't want to sleep without taking a shower since I feel so gross right now. And Blake, you completely lose the bet, because I never said, "I'm really sorry, it was the pheremones, I swear." Haha. Maybe next time. | ||||||
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| Saturday, October 18th, 2003 |
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| I was picked up at my house by Sam and Amy and I was teaching them to play guitar and we ate hot pockets. We went to Rite-Aid and then walked to the school. We went the wrong way, but it was all good since we found the "bowl lights." I dropped mine in the mailbox. We go to the football game and saw not a lot of people there. Kris and Brit were there and a lot of ville people. The football game was good, I guess. I hung out with Lee until Tess came and I was really hyper. Raz was pissing me off. Tess came and we hung out and looked for Mel. It was really cold. I went to Mannians and then ate stuff. I got home and realized that everyone was god. Lee is god for being really bad at the contest, and I'm kicking ass. Max is god for fixing up my bass and thinking of the club that we're going to be founders of. Juliana is god for being a good hostess. Sarah is god for planning a hopefully kickass night. Anyways, the only person that isn't god is Blake. Since he said: acklandtript: "theyre not as prude as you want them to be....and it kills you". What an asshole. Anyways, there's a family party for my new second cousin, or something like that, and I'm not going to it since I'm going to see Saves the Day, Moneen, and Taking Back Sunday in concert. It rocks so much. Last night wasn't great, but I wasn't expecting for it to be good at all. | ||||||
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