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its been a long time.
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[02 May 2004|11:38am] |
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boxcar racer "there is" |
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my friends have all been fighting with each other lately. i dont like it. sometimes i feel like i have to be two different people..just to please them...
i got a new job. it will be my fourth job in a year. i should really quit that.
my only comfort these days is karl. he makes me feel rebellious...adventurous...like im wanted. hes the only one that wants me. and sometimes i dont even think he does. he probably ignores his phone half the time i call him. oh well.
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[16 Feb 2004|06:19pm] |
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NIN "head like a hole" |
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billy makes me want to rip all of my hair out.
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| shit son. |
[21 Sep 2003|03:22pm] |
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nirvana "lithium" |
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shit scott. so much has happened since i last updated? xanga is addictive..and i have to admit ive been using that more. hmm since june..umm..license, car accident, attempted suicide, hospital, therapy, will, school again...yeah. holly left for college today...and i cried. im going to miss her. its so weird. ive lived with her my entire life and now..yeah. i dont know how i should feel. we had a moment. we cried together and im about to start crying again right now...yeah...i mean shes only like 20 minutes away. but still. i feel like shit right now...
"im so ugly..but thats okay because so are you"
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[28 May 2003|09:57pm] |
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the suicide machines "what i like about you" |
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ah! tim is making me feel so goddamned guilty!
JTHM216 (9:36:23 PM): Kirstin what do your arms look like?
x cutmedeeper x (9:36:33 PM): my arms?
x cutmedeeper x (9:36:35 PM): why?
JTHM216 (9:36:43 PM): Fess up.
JTHM216 (9:36:50 PM): any new cuts
x cutmedeeper x (9:36:54 PM): not new ones
JTHM216 (9:37:56 PM): promise?
x cutmedeeper x (9:38:04 PM): promise!!
JTHM216 (9:38:12 PM): I'm checking your arms
x cutmedeeper x (9:38:29 PM): !!!!
JTHM216 (9:39:49 PM): If I find cuts
JTHM216 (9:39:53 PM): I'm gonna be soo pissed at you
x cutmedeeper x (9:40:06 PM): why?
JTHM216 (9:40:34 PM): Because you swore to me that you'd stop
x cutmedeeper x (9:41:21 PM): *bangs head against wall*
JTHM216 (9:43:37 PM): Be honest
JTHM216 (9:43:38 PM): how bad is it
JTHM216 (9:43:42 PM): and if I believe you
JTHM216 (9:43:43 PM): I wont check
x cutmedeeper x (9:44:45 PM): its not that bad!!
JTHM216 (9:44:57 PM): Kirstin
JTHM216 (9:45:00 PM): you swear it?
x cutmedeeper x (9:46:16 PM): yes!!!
JTHM216 (9:46:26 PM): :: sigh ::
JTHM216 (9:46:30 PM): can I see it?
x cutmedeeper x (9:46:51 PM): if you must.
JTHM216 (9:48:24 PM): Kirstin
x cutmedeeper x (9:48:25 PM): sometimes i just get in a certain mood and i cant help it!....i dunno...its hard for me to explain...but im getting some help i have an appointment next monday
JTHM216 (9:48:35 PM): I know
JTHM216 (9:48:40 PM): I read the DJ
x cutmedeeper x (9:48:48 PM): was it in my deadjournal?
JTHM216 (9:48:52 PM): I'm meeting you outside of school
JTHM216 (9:48:53 PM): yes
x cutmedeeper x (9:49:03 PM): oohh
x cutmedeeper x (9:49:03 PM): lol
JTHM216 (9:49:08 PM): and I'm bringing my exacto knife
JTHM216 (9:49:11 PM): and you're slashing my arms
x cutmedeeper x (9:49:44 PM): sdafjasdfhajsd!!!!
x cutmedeeper x (9:49:47 PM): >:o
JTHM216 (9:49:52 PM): No
JTHM216 (9:49:54 PM): I'm so serious
x cutmedeeper x (9:50:21 PM): no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no nononononononononononononononononononon
x cutmedeeper x (9:50:22 PM): I SAID NO
JTHM216 (9:51:48 PM): you're either doing that or swearing to me on your entire life. that you'll not do it again. I mean, if you do do it again you owe me your life.
JTHM216 (9:51:50 PM): I mean
JTHM216 (9:51:51 PM): GRR
JTHM216 (9:51:59 PM): I could tell you to run around naked and you'd have to do it
JTHM216 (9:52:10 PM): if you dont slash my arms, and I find out you do it again
x cutmedeeper x (9:52:39 PM): ..........................
x cutmedeeper x (9:52:50 PM): i think you'd enjoty it too much if i ran around naked...
x cutmedeeper x (9:52:51 PM): lol
x cutmedeeper x (9:52:51 PM): JK
JTHM216 (9:52:51 PM): Pick one
JTHM216 (9:53:07 PM): it was an example
JTHM216 (9:53:29 PM): swear it. or slash my arms.
x cutmedeeper x (9:53:41 PM): ok i swear!! i dont want to hurt you
JTHM216 (9:53:57 PM): if you break this, you will do anything I say
JTHM216 (9:53:59 PM): I mean
JTHM216 (9:54:00 PM): Grrr
x cutmedeeper x (9:54:04 PM): lol
x cutmedeeper x (9:54:06 PM): anything?
JTHM216 (9:54:08 PM): I just might hit you if you break this
x cutmedeeper x (9:54:44 PM): hit me?
x cutmedeeper x (9:54:56 PM): are you goibg to beat me up?
x cutmedeeper x (9:54:58 PM): lol
JTHM216 (9:55:03 PM): God damnit kirstin
JTHM216 (9:55:05 PM): I'm fucknig serious
JTHM216 (9:55:07 PM): >_<
x cutmedeeper x (9:55:15 PM): :'(
x cutmedeeper x (9:55:17 PM): im sorry.
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[09 May 2003|03:38pm] |
blurty is crappy. thats why i never use it anymore...gah/
The members of Slayer! YEAH! SLAYER RULES! You like
your man dirty and smelly. A man who knows how
to rock..
Who are you most likely to fuck
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| tra la la |
[04 May 2003|01:34am] |
you are the "you suck, and that's sad"
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brutal.
which happy bunny are you?
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Stoner Bear
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You are Elizabeth Bathory. (The bloodcountess)
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murdered some 650 young women and bathed in
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In some stories, it is said you have drank thier
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Ah vanity is your downfall. For shame!
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[16 Apr 2003|04:28pm] |
school sucked ass today. there was a food fight today!! some kids got suspended for throwing a bagel. oh john..im sorry about your quiz...lol.
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[31 Mar 2003|05:58pm] |
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"like a virgin" madonna cover by NIN and marilyn manson |
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my life hurts.
im sad and mad and upset and i dont know why.
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| tra la la |
[26 Mar 2003|10:22pm] |
i got a 96 on my drivers ed test! thank god..im all excited lol. well i have to leave tomorrow for my aunts and im not too excited about it..
you know whats a dirty song? "little lovers" by 40 below summer. its really good. jojo had it in her pro and i was like hey i like dirty songs so i dled it..and its good. power tool is a good song by them too..hmm..who does this remind you of?
"power tool" 40 below summer
I shut your eyes and I fed you lies
I'm up inside - now I cannot hide
those burns on your skin
and the stains on your grin
I took your pain
now you're dropped again
I can't feel the way you want me to -
I'll use you, abuse you, conveniently lose you
I can't feel the way you want me to
It's just my power tool
Who takes your hand
who makes you dance
who's in your pants
your lover, player, president
I can't feel the way you want me to
I'll use you, abuse you, conveniently lose you
I can't feel the way you want me to
It's just my power tool
You lose - don't confuse - what I say
I took you - then threw you away
You're through - don't misconstrue - what I said
All I wanted was just a little head
I can't feel the way you want me to
I'll use you, abuse you
I'll use you, confuse you
I can't feel the way you want me to
It's just my power tool
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| BOOM! |
[26 Mar 2003|01:31pm] |
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"boom" system of a down |
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i just watched the system of a down video boom. its really good...lol. im downloading it right now. its so real.
isnt this song so real?
"BOOM!"
"Modern globalization
Coupled with condemnations
Unnecessary death
Matador corporations
Puppeting your frustrations with a blinded flag
Manufacturing consent is the name of the game
The bottom line is money nobody gives a fuck
4000 hungry children
Leave us per hour from starvation
While billions are spent on bombs
Creating death showers
Boom, Boom, Boom, Boom,
Every time you drop the bomb
You kill the god your child has born"
anyways...i havent really written in a while. i got in a huge ass fight with my mom yesterday. it was a stupid fight too..it ended up with her telling me to go to hell. what kind of mom tells their kid to go to hell? a sucky one..thats right. its all good though cuz my dad bitched at my mom for it later..he was like under no circumstance should you ever tell our kids to go to hell!! blah blah blah..
i was kinda cheered up and creeped out later at the same time..i drove my dad and brother to the library...and i was in an aisle flipping through a book and this creepy guy came up to me. i would guess that he was probably about 20. he was like hey..you're cute. wanna give me your number? and i was like no..not really im 15. lol. then i walked away...then i think i saw him leave. i must have crushed his spirit..lol haha yeah right..
today is my last day of drivers ed! YES! i have to take my test today..i hope i do well. my mom was like u better study! and i was like duh! of course i know i have to study im not an idiot you asshole! except i didnt call her an asshole otherwise i probably would have been bitchslapped lol.
god i hate pms...one second im laughing at a funny song and the next second im literally screaming at my brother for touching me. ahhhh
well tomorrow i have to go to my aunts in indiana. i better start reading that stupid book...last friday i guess mrs. leonino thought it would be fun to assign us an entire book to read over break. its called anthem. ive only read like the first five pages and the guy is like fricken shizophrenic or something..weird...
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