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pfff
i can STAND my aunt. i really really really hate being around her. i feel so low. as if im not going to ever return to any standard that i perhaps once met, which she now focuses on me being. i dont understand how long i can continue using my excuses for my life. and i always say i hate so much using them. i really cannot figure out what is important. and why it is so.
she always asks me what i have in store for my future, and i never know. i dont really know if i SHOULD know. its hard to just sit there and take it all in when you're being constantly ridiculed. of course i am going to be defensive. its not like i have no self confidence or something.
am i really going nowhere and doing nothing with my life? (rhetorical question)
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