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BRACKET
"I think I have finally found something to bounce back my hope. I've waited for it for so long and now I don't have to wait anymore. Its here! All that I've waited for is here. All the happiness and content and enjoyment is here. I've just waited for so many things in my life... so many. Nothing's ever what I've wanted it to turn out to be- I'm still waiting for most of it. For some of it, I just can't even wait anymore. And you trying waiting around for the same thing for about 5 years- sometimes getting your hopes up- only just to get them knocked down. But you just keep waiting and waiting. Can you understand why I am at a loss for hope? Why I've lacked so much in that area of my life? - quite possibly one of the most important things a child could attain. And I do miss it alot. I almost feel responsible for my wait time- for I;ve given up. Who would ever give up at something they wanted so badly? Its so easy to give up. But it hurts so much. Its just too hard to decide between hurting from giving up or hurting from being let down. Please please please don't let this let me down."
Yesterday I went over to Steve]'s house and we listened to music and hung around. We got Friendly's and along with my chocolate milkshake and his banana split came really full stomachs. Janelle called me because she had my shampoo and she and Kemper came and picked us up and drove us back to Steve]'s. It was really good to see both of them. I have been having quite possibly the best time in the past two days. I am just so so so happy.
Today I had to see my mom and nana. My family went to Belmont (which I had no clue that was where we were going) and got Brigham's for lunch. Its so depressing being around my mom.. I hate it.
Its official, I have a Saves the Day ticket, so I have decided to do a countdown. Starting now, only 24 days until Chris Conley and the gang are MINE!!!!!!!! (yah, Steve]... i'm NOT sharing!!!)
Current Mood: discombobulated
Current Music: hot rod circuit- radio song |