| 10:05p |
past events
friday was draining. i can't believe matt moffitt died. my poor poor friends...
saturday was pretty crazy. who would have known i'd end up running around in garry's back yard with a bunch of drunk kids in their underwear? thank god joe was there and sober. man, did i get soaked.
sunday was... sunday. i guess it sucked. i slept over jessica's and today we went to the mall. i finally got a bathing suit except the bottom part doesn't cover my ass. that's where shorts come in to play...
so summer's officially started. i've got alot of things i want to get done... like read my assigned books and continue riding my bike and running. tonight i did 5 laps in a row. my record so far. i've just got to keep getting better, that's all. and my uncle fixed my bike, so tomorrow im doing a big bike riding session.
i think this whole "stop thinking so much" thing is working for me. i may be ruining myself even more, but its working and im not feeling guilty.
so i think i need to alter some of my summer plans. i don't want to be in georgia for 3 days after the beach. a week with my dad's family is plenty of time. so now i'm absolutely terrified to try and change those plans. i am so so so scared. and my brother doesn't help because he's bitching about how he wants me there, but i think its a bunch of bullshit. he never calls. he only wants me there so he can show off his "new life". i fucking hate his new life i dont want to see his new life. something/someone give me enough strength just to say no to them and their manipulations. i feel so weak when i hear them conning me into going.
Current Mood: peachy
Current Music: dashboard confessional- so impossible |