| 10:46a |
my friday night
after school iana and i did recycling club and we had a decent amount of people there. then to mcdonalds and brooks and then to the show. the people were assholes and wouldnt let us wait in the parking lot so we just hung around shaws plaza. at six we went to the show. i guess it was good, i think i was kind of drifting away... you know like alone with my thoughts. if i wasn't doing that i was listening to the music, watching kids kick the shit out of each other and dance, or flirting with my friends.
some kid started fighting everyone and everyone got pissed at him so they started fighting him and just when the fight broke up a lady that worked there noticed and she counted to five and obviously they cant get a whole crowd of people gone in five seconds, so then she called the cops and kicked us out. it was sooo stupid. a global threat and state control and confront didnt even get to play. they did this all during dirty water, and even they didn't get to finish their set, we got kicked out during their second to last song. but they were wicked good. the only bands that actually played were the knox, androstine, 47 for ted, and some others, alot of semi- local punk bands.
so we went to the shaws parking lot and hung out there and got invited to some party 3 times that state control was having in somerville, but we had no cars so obviously we weren't gonna go. some kid was in a hurry because i guess he had stolen a van from a band, but i don't know, that sounds rather farfetched.
and then we split up, bachecks or garrys, and I went with Iana and Jessica and Kat to Garrys, some other people too. By that point i was hyper and didn't care about anything, it was such a stupid night, and i just didn't care.
i was pissed though cause my aunt and uncle gonna let me stay out till 11:30 so i would have gotten to see alot of the bands, but then i just had to go to garrys.
we got to garrys and went to bobs food mart and when we got back to garrys a game of strip poker started and i played, but it was just me ryan and ray and steve] was helping me. i kicked ass at it though cause all I took off was my shoes socks and belt, and ray and ryan were down to nothing, but they didnt take off their boxers, they just decided the game was over and they lost.
iana's mom drove me home.
Current Mood: anxious
Current Music: van morrison- dancing in the moonlight |
| 11:38a |
i never do these things...
Start Time: 11:42 am
Pick up a book and write a sentence at random from it.
"I think he was especailly happy because I used to kiss this boy in the neighborhood a lot when I was very little, and even though the psychiatrist said it was very natural for boys and girls to explore things like that, I think my father was afraid anyway."
~The Perks of Being A Wallflower, page 124
Do the same with a lyric from a song.
"I can feel you dreaming of me and the time when our steps are retraced
and I creep through the twilight to that hidden place, beyond the lonely, I'll meet you."
~AFI, Wester
What posters do you have in your room? i have alot of things i printed off my computer and some of my artwork, the only real poster I have is of a faery.
Can you sing? the question is MAY i sing... i have the ability to sing, but not well
What's your favorite color of post-it note? white
How many cd's do you own? i dont know... like 50 or more
Ever bought a cd for just one song? when i was in 4th grade probably
Have you ever lied to get off the phone? yes
Have you ever written a survey? nope
How about a song? musically? or lyrically? tried to
Or maybe a poem? yes
Are you addicted to Napster? no
Would you ever shave someone else's head? yes, that looks like fun, but only if they wanted me to
Name your favorite type of music: just rock stuff in general
Are you a vegetarian? yes
Describe your bedroom:
Its downstairs in my basement, it used to be a storage room. From the door in the right corner theres a mirror and things on this shelf that goes all the way around my room, like a blowdryer and whatnot. I have my rings and bracelets and elastics near it. Then I have my desk and above that on the shelf theres a box where I keep all the notes and memoirs I get. On the wall above my desk theres a celestial calandar Iana got me for last christmas and a bulletein board. Going to the left I have a piggy bank and more crap. Then theres my bed in the far right corner. The shelves surrounding it have a phone, clock, "pocket" dictionary, my current journal and book im reading, clipboard and tape and glue. My bed has royal purple sheets and a black comforter, the pillows on it are black and silver and i have one purple quilted looking pillow. Above the head of my bed theres a window and on the wall to the right of my head theres a fuse box. Going to the left its just the same shelf, where I have all my books, the few movies that I own, and all the composition notebooks I've ever written on it. The shelf ends there. The far left wall has closet doors that lead to the furnace which is really loud at night, but I'm a deep sleeper. Then theres my dinky closet that I just keep my old memory crap, some shoes, and dirty clothes in. Then I have my bureaus where I keep my clothes. The one closest to my closet has candles and incense on it, and over it is my faery poster. The one near my door has picture frames, some filled, some empty and trolls and crap. Then theres my light switch and the door, which has a coat hanger thing on it. The carpet is a royal deep red and the walls are a light gray, the wood for the shelves and doors is just plain color wood, its too bright in my opinion.
current mood: disatisfied
current music: thursday- cross out the eyes
current taste: leftover milk
current hair: parted and in a ponytail bun loop.
current dress: my big black new orleans hoodie, pink flower fuzzy slippers, black undershorts, rachel's black tanktop, and lacy black underwear
current annoyance: myself
current smell: air?
current longing: to be with someone
current game: i don't usually play games besides spider solitare
current thing I ought to be doing: making plans to go out, or eating healthy food and exercising
current windows open: AIM, untitled notepad of my dreams from last night, Blurty, Mapquest, Kazaa, and a folder of lyrics
current desktop picture: my icon times a million
current favorite group: thursday
current book: Dreamland by Sarah Dessen
current cds in stereo: Dirty Water
current colour of toenails: hot pink
current refreshment: none
current worry: if im acting like an idiot
current favorite celeb: I don't pay much attention... I guess the lead singer of TBS, Adam, has gotten me ever since Kat put that hot picture of him on my locker
current hate: the fact that I can't drive and don't have a car
today have i ..
smiled?: yes
laughed?: yes
cried?: no
bought something?: no
danced?: no
were sarcastic?: i forget
talked to an ex?: yes
watched your favorite movie?: nope
a last time for everything.......
last book you read: Sloppy Firsts by Megan Macafferty
last song you heard: well, now I'm listening to Paris in Flames, so its Cross out the eyes
last thing you had to drink: skim milk
last time you showered: yesterday morning
last thing you ate: 2 donut sticks :P
do you...
smoke?: no
do drugs?: no
have sex?: no
sleep with stuffed animals?: sometimes i sleep with my blanket I've had since like 3rd grade
live in the moment?: when I get lost in the moment, otherwise, I don't know, not when I'm writing in my journal, cause I'm always thinking about the past and future
have a dream that keeps coming back?: no
play an instrument?: no
believe there is life on other planets?: i dont know, i dont think about it much
read the newspaper?: nope
have any gay or lesbian friends?: i know some who are bisexual, and i know some gay people
believe in miracles?: i guess, but i dont know why theyre called miracles if theyre going to happen, theyre gonna happen no matter what
believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: lately i've been doubting it
Consider yourself tolerant of others?: not if im constantly around them, i can easily find something to annoy me. but i am, for the most part, very tolarant
consider love a mistake?: no
have a favorite candy?: ... donut sticks count as candy!
believe in astrology?: no
believe in magic?: no
believe in God?: no
go to church?: no, i used to go to temple
do well in school?: sometimes, i guess yeah, i usually get honor roll
go to or plan to go to college?: i plan on it, but i don't know if i will right after high school
wear hats?: no
have any piercings?: my ears are pierced, but i dont wear any earrings
have any tattoos?: no
hate yourself?: no
have an obsession?: i dont think i do, no
have a secret crush?: yes
do they know yet?: yea, i think
collect anything?: my journals, typewriters
have a best friend?: yes, Jessie from Vermont
wish on stars?: i have before, I don't think to anymore
like your handwriting?: sometimes
have any bad habits?: being picky, being loud, procrastinating
care about looks?: i think you need to be attracted to a person when youre in a relationship thats more than friends. and i also think i feel better when i am confident in how i look.
believe in witches?: no
believe in Satan?: no
End Time: 12:09 pm
Current Mood: apathetic
Current Music: thursday- standing on the edge of summer |