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EXHILARATION
ex·hil·a·ra·tion n.
The state of being stimulated, refreshed, or elated
Friday night I saw Recover, The Explosion, and AFI at the Avalon with Kim, Iana, Jessica, and Brittney. We saw others there.
It was the most amazing night of my life.
They played A SINGLE SECOND and that's all I asked for.
Oh my God!
My God this can't be happening!
God tell me, tell me this isn't real!
i can't believe all that i have foreseen is finally happening.
i cannot for a single second stand the way i feel.
i always knew.
i always saw it coming.
Enveloped now, encased by my worst fear.
i've never felt the nausea of longing to feel nothing, i never wanted to cease to exist, just disappear.
Fear memories are all that lie ahead.
Never have I felt so lost.
Memories dull my senses.
Fear tragedy is all that lies ahead.
Never have I felt so dead.
Once felt so warm, no i'm fucking freezing.
i am the once embraced abandoned one.
i raised my eyes up to the light in hopes of finding healing; no relief was mine, i was burnt, by the sun.
At some point, I plan on writing down my weekend's events in my journal, maybe then I'll share them with you.
Saturday I went to the formal at my school, it was fun, I made it fun.
how am i this way? i wonder what it is that gets me.
Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: The Explosion- Hero |