KimberlyFDR's Blurty

Subject:	Triggers
Time:	9:55 pm.
Mood:	creative.
Music:	My Immortal.

I washed my clothes today so that I could actually pack my con clothes instead of just looking at my dirty jeans and repeating the fact that I needed them;) Everything's packed (I think) besides my Palm Pilot and my Cell Phone. It's gonna be a long three days until we're gone.

While I was doing the sporadic packing, I watched way too many Lifetime movies and also re-watched the Biography of John Wayne. Only I would re-watch that and the whole time they're talking about Wayne and Ford's friendship I'm remembering the story in Chick for a Day that has them in it. I actually might re-read that book sometime this week. I enjoyed it alot the first time I read it (in the UNC bookstore, hoping no one would see me;) and then I bought it at the used bookstore a while back. My bookcase has all sorts of weird reads on it. Chick for a Day, Children of Men, Moving Violations, and No Ordinary Time are ones that come immediately to mind. See? Eclectic, but interesting:)

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Subject:	Fandom Rule
Time:	8:02 pm.
Mood:	bouncy.
Music:	Boxes Rattling.

It's been a wonderful two days:) First of all, the Starsky and Hutch essay I did for

ship_manifesto? I sent it to Flamingo so that she might use it as a resource during her SH 101 talk at SHarecon. She liked it so much, however, that she's trying to incorporate it into the SHarecon zine. YAY!

Secondly, I found the two first line meme stories I was looking for. I did one that was post-Sweet Revenge and then I did another that was open to interpretation.

For

castalie

As I watch him sleep, I can't help thinking about our last case. That's what it was, the final case of our careers. There was no way he'd ever go back to the force. I knew it, the doctors knew it, and in a small way I think he even knew it. Everytime I came to visit him, I'd smile and pretend it was all going to be alright. But I can't lie to him, not really. How could everything be okay again? He was lying there with three bullet wounds to the chest, massive internal trauma, and a heart that was damaged from the cardiac arrest. I'd be beside him, no matter what, but inside we all knew that being cops was something we had been, not something we were now.

For

veronamay

Right from the start, it had always been the two of them against the world. But it wasn't like that anymore, was it? When it was the outside versus the partners, they were strong. Now it was partner versus partner and that was an impossible situation. How can you fight against yourself? How can you be strong when half of yourself was ripped away? How can you survive when the one person you loved turned his back on you and swore that if he ever saw you again it would be too soon? He didn't mean to destroy it all, but that's what he usually did more often now. He pushed until something broke and this time there was no coming back from it. He had made the one person he could count on lose all trust in him. That was the worst feeling imagined.

Thirdly, I got my Starsky shoes! I usually buy tennis shoes in size 8 to have room for my feet to move around, but I can wear a size 7 1/2. The store was out of size 8, so my new Starsky Blue Adidas are size 7 1/2 and shall be worn at SHarecon.

Fourthly, my zine is coming along well and it's looking really good for the SHarecon premiere. I think I'm getting overly excited for con, but such is the way I always am:)

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Subject:	Perfection After Reflection
Time:	7:55 pm.
Mood:	contemplative.
Music:	Days Go By.

I woke up this morning to the news that Christopher Reeve had passed away. To say it was a shock would be an understatement. Not Christopher Reeve, not Superman. He had such strength, such determination, such a overwhelming spirit. He was on Love of Life three years after Paul Michael Glaser (Chris ran on the show from 1974-1976, Paul was on in 1971). When I watched Above Suspicion, I felt very odd that he played this role and soon it would come to be. I watched him in Smallville, marveling that Superman had come again. I remember watching him in the Superman movies, but one that I return to again and again is his performance in Noises Off. He was a great actor, but more importantly he was a great man. I started donating and receiving newsletters from the Christopher Reeve Paralysis Foundation early on. What the man did to raise awareness for the disability community and the strive for research cannot be described. He showed us what real strength was. To me, he will always be a Superman.

And after the shock of that wore on me, I began to have a wonderful day despite the news. First off,

abelladonna is coming to SHarecon Thursday afternoon! We're picking her up at the airport before dinner. Me and Bella, Outback, be afraid:) And I got edits back from Flamingo today after reworking the ending last night. She's made me feel so wonderful during this whole editing process, guiding me and helping me fully express the story I was trying to tell. Thirdly, one of my coworkers has Starsky shoes! I've been looking at them all day and commenting. The blue Adidas that were $120? The ones I always wanted and was not going to spend that amount of cash on? The local shoe store has them for cheap. So, I'm thinking that Friday, I may have to swing by the mall. I loooooove Starsky's shoes:)

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Subject:	There's A Theme Here
Time:	7:31 pm.
Mood:	frustrated.
Music:	George Strait.

I went wild and worked with the first line meme thing this afternoon. What emerged was the realization that the boys are trying to tell me something.

For

dragonsinger

He woke up in a cold sweat, his breathing labored and his body shaking. But why should tonight be any different than the last 47 nights? And each time, he was forced to live longer and longer within the dream world before being pulled out. At times, though, he wondered which was better, laying on the cold pavement as his blood poured from the three bullet holes that had ripped across his chest or laying in the cold hospital room as he watched his life be torn away with every hitched breath. He couldn't be a cop anymore, couldn't cove his partner, so why was he still alive? More importantly, why did his partner show up every single day to watch him be useless? The promises of "when you get out of here, everything will be okay" were slowly being replaced with the simple "we'll deal with whatever comes." He couldn't deal anymore, couldn't pretend that he'd ever be the man he once was. Everything that he stood for, everything that he was, had been torn away by an assassin's gun. And that meant one thing, without the job tying them together, how long before he was truely alone and his partner decided it was too much? How long before the man who was killing himself to cover the streets and his recovery decided that he had to choose? A broken down man who couldn't even walk was never going to be the victor in that scenario.

(I changed it around to fit

heuradys first line, too)

The shots were loud, even to me. Every night, the same dream, the same nightmare. And each time, I was forced to live longer and longer within the dream world before being pulled out. At times, though, I wondered which was better, laying on the cold pavement as my blood poured from the three bullet holes that had ripped across my chest or laying in the cold hospital room as I watched my life be torn away with every hitched breath. I couldn't be a cop anymore, couldn't cover my partner, so why was I still alive? More importantly, why did my partner show up every single day to watch me be useless? The promises of "when you get out of here, everything will be okay" were slowly being replaced with the simple "we'll deal with whatever comes." I couldn't deal anymore, couldn't pretend that I'd ever be the man I once was. Everything that I stood for, everything that I was, had been torn away by an assassin's gun. And that meant one thing, without the job tying us together, how long before I was truely alone and my partner decided it was too much? How long before the man who was killing himself to cover the streets and my recovery decided that he had to choose? A broken down man who couldn't even walk was never going to be the victor in that scenario.

For

lamardeuse

It's really not his fault. At least that's what he tells himself. There was no way that he could've jumped over the car and shielded his partner from the bullets. He yelled his warning, told him to get down, so what more could he have done? It was proper procedure, by the book, and nobody would say anything differently. But watching the monitor beep its steady rhythm, watching the chest methodically rise and fall despite the three bullet holes that lay beneath the white guaze, he realizes that it's all his fault. He should have protected him, that's what partners do, but when the ultimate test came he had failed miserably.

And I wrote another one, but I forgot for who;) Anyway, the result was an over-dose of post-SR pieces and the knowledge that the boys will not let me leave this story until next year (as I had planned). Hutch has issues now and I fear that if I don't do it soon, he'll get worse and do more damage than I can repair. I love being dragged blindly into these emotional breakdowns. Yay!:)

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Subject:	What Happened?
Time:	6:16 pm.
Mood:	tired.
Music:	Television.

I'm so tired, so very tired. My parents came yesterday and are here through the weekend. That means that I've been going non-stop since I got home from work Friday afternoon. The house is never clean enough, the shelves are never fully stocked, and I'm just here trying to keep up. Cashed my two checks for my freelance work yesterday. $100 richer, right? Umm, no. Less than 24 hours later I am without the $100 because I had to buy $70 worth of groceries, $20 worth of clothes/household supplies, and then another $10 worth of groceries that weren't picked up the day before. How quickly it comes and goes.

We walked and shopped and drove and walked and tired me out all day today. Antique store, thrift store, another antique store, health food store, another thrift store, another antique store, grocery store. I'm finally sitting down again, but now I have to go downstairs and eat. I just wanna sleep! Too much activity, not enough lazing around on Saturday! Thus answering the question, "Why are you so tired?"

SHarecon needs to be here right now. I need con, I need slash, I need the usual coversation that accompanies these activities;)

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Subject:	That's MY Bathroom
Time:	5:39 pm.
Mood:	calm.
Music:	Glasses Clinking.

I was re-reading Flamingo's story, Another One of Starsky's Dirty Moves, and I realized something. The first time I read it, back when I still had my apartment, I was in love with the domesticity of the situation. Starsky taking care of Hutch, reminding him of all the love they shared, as they spent the first night in their house. Starsky had fallen in love with the bathroom and from the description, I did too. When I moved into my house, I went on a dometic/house reading kick and read most of the SH stories that had to do with them buying their first home. In that time I re-read the story again. And today I returned to the story yet again. What did I discover when I looked closer? Starsky fell in love with MY bathroom. The description of the tub, that's my tub. The layout of the master bathroom with the double sinks and the mirrors and the jetted tub? That's my master bathroom. It's so funny that I own a bathroom that Starsky fell in love with;) Leave it to me to let a fictional story come to life.

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Subject:	Trial and Error
Time:	3:11 pm.
Mood:	chipper.
Music:	Phones Ringing.

I'm trying out the new off-site LJ tool. I don't know if I like it yet or not, but I'm always one for trying new things. And all I can really think about is that in exactly two weeks I'll be at SHarecon. These are going to be the longest two weeks in history aren't they?

On a sad note, they always say it happens in threes. Janet Leigh, Rodney Dangerfield, and then there will be? Well, for me, it was my Great Uncle John. I'm sad to see him go. He's been in a nursing home for a long time now (he was in there even before my Granddaddy died in 1992, so a long long time). I'll miss him, remember him.

It's just a disorganized day all around. We've been running around planning for an office luncheon all morning and now that I'm through eating I'm trying to play catch-up. Basically your typical day.

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Subject:	Profitable
Time:	11:31 pm.
Mood:	peaceful.
Music:	Don't Fear the Reaper.

With a ten minute dip into SH eps tonight (had to check on some things for edits) I did first round edits on the last two sections of my zine and sent it back to my publisher. This is becoming a reality:) And with that on my mind, so is SHarecon. It's so soon, just 16 days away! That's so close! And in 12 days I get to see Ron "Tater Salad" White! October's such a great month!

After the editing, I tuned in to watch Plain Truth on Lifetime. Quick synopsis: A newborn is found dead in a serene, simple Amish farming community. Was it a tragic accident, or could it be murder? That's the shocking question facing high-profile criminal lawyer Ellie Harrison (Mariska Hargitay), who ditches her self-indulgent city life to head to rural Pennsylvania. Ellie must defend an 18-year-old Amish girl, Katie (Alison Pill), who stands accused of killing her baby. Despite the surmounting evidence, the teen insists that she was never pregnant. While trying to learn her client's secrets, Ellie is forced to live with the Amish and attempt to break down the barriers of this very private society. I really liked it, though I was left feeling broken. Nothing is right, nothing will be right, but as long as you lie enough you start to believe it. What kind of a life is that?

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Subject:	He's Aging Well
Time:	9:28 pm.
Mood:	bouncy.
Music:	Silence.

Martin Shaw is on Mystery...now! Oh my gosh. He's playing Detective Inspector Adam Dalgliesh in Death in Holy Orders. Let me bracket this by saying, I'm not a PROS fan. I have seen many songvids and people have attempted to pimp me at various times, but the visuals never really grabbed me as much as other shows. In fact, the first PROS vid I ever saw at MediaWest, my first reaction was "these two don't even like each other." So, I surely thought there was no way that I'd get into the show. However, Barb Phillips gave me one of her off-set photos of Martin Shaw as he looks today. And she showed me a magnificent vid she did with his PROS character aged, as he was today. That's one way to pimp me into the show, show me what they look like now. MUNCLE's the same way. I'm not really into the show, but David McCallum now? NCIS is one of my weekly programs. Martin Shaw has aged very well and to see him on Mystery? Yeah, recording it:) Part One is tonight, Part Two is next Sunday. And I love British mysteries because I can pick out actors, but it takes me an hour to realize what I've seen them on before (priest tonight was off of All Creatures Great and Small). I remember Roy Marsden when he had the role of Adam Dalgliesh. I must say, Martin Shaw's better. And about ten minutes into it I realized that with all the PROS vids I've seen? I've never heard him talk until tonight. I like his voice. This is a good television viewing night.

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Subject:	Love! Valour! Compassion!
Time:	12:24 pm.
Mood:	relaxed.
Music:	Television.

I just watched Love! Valour! Compassion! and I am amazed at this movie. For those of you who don't know this movie, the summary is that eight male friends, all of them gay, leave the city behind for three simple weekends of rest and relaxation. Gregory (Stephen Bogardus) owns the house they stay in and he's the narrator of sorts. One by one Gregory's circle of friends arrive for the weekend, ready to unload their own worries and anxieties. There is Gregory's much younger, blind lover Bobby (Justin Kirk), and there is Arthur and Perry (John Benjamin Hickey and Stephen Spinella), an accountant and lawyer who have been a couple for more than a decade. "We're role models," Perry proclaims. "It's very stressful." Then there is John (John Glover), the overbearing, angry English composer whose arrival almost everyone is dreading. With John comes his latest lover Ramon (Randy Becker), a hot, young dancer with a perfect body. Finally, there is Buzz (Jason Alexander), who lives for old Broadway musicals and swears he will fine anyone who even mentions the word AIDS this summer (he is in teh beginning stages of the disease). Later, the group is also joined by James (John Glover), John's identical twin who is his mirror image but his exact opposite in every other conceivable way (he is in the later stages of AIDS). It takes place over three summer holiday weekends-Memorial Day, Fourth of July and Labor Day.

The interaction of all the characters was an emotional event, but John Glover's ability to portray James and John Jeckyll in depth is what brought the whole thing together. As soon as I started watching it I was not liking John. He was rough, stand-offish, and totally unloveable. And then his twin brother came and I realized that while James was his complete opposite, John wasn't so bad. He was just scared, insecure in who he was, and afraid of what was to come. I am so glad I finally got to see this wonderful movie.

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Subject:	New Vid/Slideshows Posted
Time:	6:48 pm.
Mood:	content.
Music:	Bed of Lies.

My last three slideshows/vids were just linked on Sel's site. They vary, so be warned;)

Found in the Downloads Section
http://www.dream-somehow.com/nightside/downloads.htm

Remember When [5.29 MB] - Vid by KimberlyFDR :: An older Starsky and Hutch look back at their lives together. (This is the old one, most of you have already see)

Still the Same [6.51 MB] - Vid by KimberlyFDR :: Starsky loves his car and he loves his partner. "Don't make me choose!" (This is the car vid..and proof that I'm partially insane)

Leave [4.55 MB] - Vid by KimberlyFDR :: Starsky versus Hutch, the pain is too great. (I had to do it...the picture quality isn't great, but I had to try)

Bed of Lies [5.27 MB] - Vid by KimberlyFDR :: A partnership of pain and forgiveness. (Basically a visual representation of the zine that I wrote over the last year.)

Hope everyone enjoys them;) (I really do think they're happy....really I do:)

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Subject:	Loyalty Goes A Long Way
Time:	8:48 pm.
Mood:	content.
Music:	I Can See Clearly Now.

The issue of partner loyalty was brought up tonight when dealing with Starsky and Hutch. The question was posed of when would one of them report the other for his actions. Would that ever happen? How far must one partner push to cause the other to report him? In the terms of falsifying a report, it would depend on the situation. An illegal search and entry would be easy to legalize, so to speak, but placing evidence is not gonna fly. However, ommitting certain irrelevant facts from the report so the case is stronger? I could see that happening. Police brutality is a varying line, too. Heavy-handedness happened and looking away wouldn't necessarily be a bad thing. If Hutch puts the guy in a coma, then yes Starsky needs to report him;) If they rough up a suspect so that they bruise him or snatch his arm a little too hard when taking him down, then no. I think most of what is done in the course of catching the guy is allowable, but if Starsky's got the guy on the ground, handcuffed, and still wants to do a little hurting, then no that's not allowable. The actions of the situation lead to the actions of the partner. I think, out of his partner's best interest, he would report him. Not to get him in trouble "oooh, you did wrong and I'm gonna tell!" I think he'd report him because he wants to see his partner get help and deal with the underlying issues that is causing him to stray so far from lawful action.

It's an interesting scenario to ponder. I think the outcome would wholely depend on when the issue took place, time-wise. Fourth season actions would be completely different in their outcomes than first season actions. They've walked away from the job bfore, but they've never really been able to walk away from each other. The time it would take them to heal, though, would vary.

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Subject:	Ouchie
Time:	10:12 pm.
Mood:	sore.
Music:	Sounds of Silence.

I lasted five months, but tonight I managed to fall down my stairs. I have the bruise on my butt to prove it;) But the good thing about having a landing in the middle of your staircase is that you won't fall all the way down, just half-way. I should really watch that.

Once again I watched Father of the Pride and once again I come away with the "oh my gosh, did they really do that?" feeling. They are making fun of anyone and everyone, including themselves. It's perfection. I recorded NCIS, though, since the plan was to watch all my shows during the weekends. I probably won't last that long. Might even watch it tonight.

Over on

starsky_hutch one of the newer fans asked if Starsky's sweater was the same one Hutch was wearing on another episode. Yeah, it is:) The passage of the sweater, stuff of legend. They spend so much time in each others' pockets, is it any wonder their clothes end up in each others' closets? But I readily admit that most of the time I was on constant lookout for Hutch's guitar shirt. It's a nice shirt! It's David's shirt! Good taste:) Between that and his letterman jacket, I'm very fond of alot of Hutch's clothes.

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Subject:	I Don't Wanna Be Grown Up
Time:	9:47 pm.
Mood:	full.
Music:	Television.

I think I have a leak in my roof. It might be the combination of the hurricane and winds blowing through the vents in the attic, but the bottom line is that there's rain sporatically hitting the attic door. I have home warranty for a year, so I'm gonna call them tomorrow morning and have them check it out. Maybe the hurricane will hold off from completely destroying my sanity and my roof.

The sattelite timer function is a wonderful thing. Now, even if I forget, the TV will automatically switch to the show/movie I was planning on watching:) Tonight it's that horrid Lifetime movie with Richard Burgi. I have yet to see him, but at least I heard him. His movie, Message from Nam, was on earlier. I missed his scene, though. No worries, that's why I have it recorded.

And this Trauma grant is going to kill me one way or the other. Too much work in too little time. I would love the project if we had weeks or months to work on it, not days. I went through trauma pictures today trying to find illustrations for the site and all I ended up with was images burned into my brain of injuries I shudder to think of. The human body can withstand alot of pain, but the aftermath of these injuries is almost over-whelming.

Maybe I should just forget it all and re-read another SH zine. Oh! I meant to read My Lover, My Hero before SHarecon anyway. Yeah, that's a good plan. Forget the blood-filled images and instead read a dark story of pain. Sounds good to me.

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Subject:	Killing Myself Softly
Time:	7:09 pm.
Mood:	sore.
Music:	Hurt by Johnny Cash.

It's my goal to burn every part of exposed skin at least once in my cooking career. This weekend? My elbow. The oven door has good retention of the springs and when your hands are full, skin meets metal.

What else have I been focusing on this weekend? Getting Section Two of my zine edited, corrected, scenes added, and basically being safe in my knowledge that the boys are trying to drive me insane a little at a time. One main thing that I was careful to do when I wrote this was not have Starsky tell Hutch he loved Terry. I was very aware of that fact and I thought it was settled. Today I fleshed out the scene where Starsky reveals to Hutch that he's been dating Terry for a while. What words came out of his mouth? "Hutch, I think I love her." No, no you don't. Let's re-write that, shall we? So, he was careful not to say the word, but I think he got his point across quite well. Hutch understood, which is why he got depressed. Go team! But after three days and 85 pages, I got the edits done and I'm back on track.

I've learned the value of Satellite Timers as well. I finally got my VCR and Satellite working in sync so now I actually can record (umm, sorta like TiVo) all the programs during the week that I've been meaning to watch, but keep forgetting. And Paul Michael Glaser is going to be responsible for dragging me back into regular viewing of Third Watch. The man's not even on camera and he's dragging me in. That's good directing.

And now I'm tired and I think I'll go watch a movie or some television or...something. OH! Two random notes that are SH-related. Remember when I was going on and on about Key To Rebecca? I accidentally discovered that Season Hubley AKA Terry Roberts from Starsky's Lady is the third girl in the David Soul/Hooker/Hooker in Training threesome on Key to Rebecca. Terry and Hutch and Hooker in Training and Alex and...the mind cannot fathom. Small world. Also, the blond guy (Hutch's double) in SH Are Guilty? When they're coming out of the massage parlor? Sounds EXACTLY like Owen Wilson when he says the line "Come on, Starsky, he didn't mean it." It's like a bad dream;)

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Subject:	There's A Reason I'm Running
Time:	10:07 pm.
Mood:	bouncy.
Music:	Television.

I've been going non-stop all day. I ran up and down the stairs at work today trying to make sure the Trauma site was ready to be seen by 5PM today. When I left at 2:30 it was getting close. I'll probably work on it some more this weekend.

When I got home I started running through the box of tapes

kormantic sent me. So far, I've discovered two eps of Invisible Man (YAY!) and a tape of Twitch City eps (CKR). I've got the VCR recording the Three Stooges docu-drama downstairs. Yes, I know I've seen it before, but I loved it back then and besides, Paul Ben-Victor (Hobbes) is in it. That movie is the reason I had such trouble the first season of Invisible Man. I kept reverting back to "OK, that's Clark Kent's father and why is Moe Howard working for them?" And I'm upstairs with the portable TV on watching Third Watch because PMG directed tonight's ep. He's framing is so well. I love his directing style, always have. And I might start watching the show again this season, off and on, to follow Bosco's progress. A fellow SH fan suggested we might compare it to a post-SR Starsky recovery. The only time I really watched the show was when PMG had his three-episode arc. Man that was some good acting.

And I don't want to jinx it, but I submitted an idea for the Ideas Happen contest. It's basicallly like this. Ideas Happen gives 18-29 year olds an opportunity to launch an idea by pitching it to win $25,000 to make the idea a reality. A total of 12 winners will be chosen, four in each category — entrepreneur, community, and self-expression. Out of 3,077 entries, my Reality Greetings entry? Umm, it's sorta high. I've told no one since I entered it on Tuesday, but as of today my overall ranking is 24 and my category ranking (Self-Expression) is 7. This is a really nice thing:)

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Subject:	That's A Change
Time:	9:04 pm.
Mood:	lazy.
Music:	I'm Just a Girl.

I am not liking the new update window for LJ. There's too much going on and not anything good about changing the interface. I don't need a preview of my icon, thank you, I know what they look like. Why can't developers just leave things alone? I know it's about improvement, but when you're a paid user and you liked the old interface, why force a change upon us? However, I do enjoy the fact that I can now see the picture for my moods before I post. Mmmm, SH moods:)

And I'm more than happy to give consumer feedback on things. But when I spend 40 minutes in a conversation with someone about recall of commericals, I don't think it's unfair of me to be just a little ticked off. I was in the middle of a conversation with

lyricalsoul and the guy would not get off the phone. Take my answers and go. Don't repeat every word I say just to "verify you actually said it." This is not the way to collect correct feedback on products, not when I'm so ticked off at the end that I'm giving low marks to products just to end the phone call.

And randomly, if anyone has not had a chance to watch Father of the Pride...give it a look. Maybe it's my admiration for Siegfried and Roy, but I had been meaning to watch it since it premiered. I was reminded at 9:10PM last night that it was on, so I went downstairs. In the course of ten minutes, I uttered the phrase "What the FREAK is this?" twice. I like the animals, really, but the main reason I am going to try to watch this show semi-regularly? The fact that these two men can make fun of themselves and enjoy it. Animation-Siegfried in bed with Animation-Old Lady. Animation-Roy wearing the flashiest pants I've ever seen. Boys, you're marketing well:)

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Subject:	It's Cajun
Time:	8:58 pm.
Mood:	full.
Music:	Eat It By Weird Al.

I have cooked barbequed chicken very many times. Why is it, tonight, that I decide to blacken it? Well, it's not really burned. It's just cooked like is done on a grill. It was a good, hot meal even if there was a little twang to it;)

Yesterday I borrowed a copy of "Confessions of a Shopaholic" and read it. Yes, all in one day. It read fast and was enjoyable. I also re-read another section of Goliath. This one's going slower than Thousandth Man because I'm trying to retain a good summary to save on my zine list. That way, I'll know what the stories are actually about when I want to re-read one of them.

Tonight I'm supposed to watch a video for a television pilot study. Maybe I can do it really fast and get back to reading slash. I worked on some more of the zine's edits Sunday night and Monday morning. It's working really well. I'm getting a clearer picture of what Hutch was intending as I worked over it again. But there was one sentence where I had absolutely no clue what he was intending, so I re-wrote it. I gave him the chance to explain, he declined, so I told it my own self. I'm not quite sure how he's taking it.

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