KimberlyFDR's Blurty

Subject:	Tonight It's TV
Time:	9:31 pm.
Mood:	good.
Music:	Television.

I remembered to watch NCIS tonight (yay!) When did Charles Durning lose so much weight? I hadn't seen him in a while, so it was a little startling to see him as he looks today. The episode was good, though. Very thoughtful. Ducky was in and out, but I could always use more Ducky. I'm gonna try to watch next week, too, if I remember.

Now I'm watching House. I haven't made up my mind on the show yet, but let it be known that I was drawn to the show because of Wooster, not because he's on a cane. However, Hugh looks like he's just woken up from a three day bend and he's got an AMERICAN accent. Where's my pretty English boy? What have they done to you? The reviews were right. He's a man you love to hate.

There's also a new SH Slash Virtual Season Episode tonight, so I'll be pretty entertained for the rest of the night. Then it's up tomorrow morning so I can drive back home for a week and a half vacation. Ahhh, let the holiday begin!

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Subject:	Rotting My Brain
Time:	10:17 pm.
Mood:	exhausted.
Music:	Television.

The WB is pointless to me now. I just finished watching The Mountain for the sole reason that James Marsters was playing on it. Okay, I understand in theory that he could be the kid's father because of his age. Kid's 17/18, James being in that early 40 range, it could work. However, when you've built a majority of your career on a character that was eternally in his 20s...it's just jarring to see the same man cast as a father to an almost grown child.

And then there was a preview of 7th Heaven and I'll admit that I wander in and out of that show, so I don't know if I'm guessing correctly, but I remember a huge deal was made that Simon was going to engage in premarital sex. It being 7th Heaven, he felt terrible about it and there was much angst. Does that necessarily have to go to the extreme of "oh my gosh, I got my girlfriend pregnant"? See, that's why you take precautions. Simon's becoming the poster child of bad choices (you know, since Mary got married and has a family now, she can't be the family screw-up anymore). I sometimes watch this show and wonder how it got to be this bad and then I remind myself that it's Aaron Spelling. It's a wonder they're all not turning into Dynasty: The Prequel.

And I'm not going to mention the four hours I spent on the couch this afternoon watching Cowboy U and the two Baywatch episodes with John Cort (blind lifeguard, always was my favorite character, played by John Allen Nelson). I never realized he came back for Baywatch: Hawaiian Wedding last year. Now I gotta try to find out if it's ever going to be reshown and if Cort ever went completely blind for it. I have a weakness, we all know it.

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Subject:	It Wasn't Meant To Be Boring
Time:	8:22 pm.
Mood:	tired.
Music:	Silence.

I woke up at 7PM from an unscheduled nap. I don't know what happened. One minute I'm watching a special on bull-riders and the next thing I know I'm knocked out on the couch. It's not that it wasn't a good show, but the couch is evil and will put me to sleep everytime. I've learned that I watch most sports for the injuries, though. I watched that special to see the extent of some of the crashes (what the accidents are called). I also watched it for the mention of Lane Frost, who the movie 8 Seconds was based on. He's still a legend in the sport. Which reminds me, I need to watch that movie.

Over on the

starsky_hutch community, we're having a lovely discussion about the Playboy Island episode. Flat out, I hate the episode. For the stereotypes, for the bad plots, for the extent they went to in making me cringe everytime I see it. I even purposely didn't put it into my zine aside from a mention by Hutch that he was still ticked that Starsky tried to kill him. I hate it with a passion. Almost as much as I hate Marianne (almost).

I did re-watch FBI Murders again this morning. David still likes guns and he's still tough. 8 bullets before he was brought down, made all the more staggering considering it was based on the true events. Truely wonderful movie.

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Subject:	Summarizing Me
Time:	9:00 pm.
Mood:	hungry.
Music:	Yahoo Sounds.

I finally got the page for our Secret Santa up at work today and I added my three interests, along with a link to my Amazon wishlist. Good thing my coworkers know me because if you were a stranger looking at my Wishlist you'd come to the conclusion that Tater Salad is good, Even though Eleanor Roosevelt was gay I have a fascination with her husband's mistress, and I love seeing Paul and David in varying degrees of undress. Yep, that's me.

The Jerry Springer Opera is being filmed for BBC2 to air in January. This means that UK fans will get to see David immortalized in the role for television and we American fans may just get the chance to see it, too, if someone does the PAL to NTSC conversion:) I was reading an article that said the opera has the distinction of having the most swear words of any stage performance ever. Such a wonderful thing to be known for.

I stayed home this morning waiting for the roofer, who never came. I called their office and the lady told me that "Oh yeah, he should've called you. He's not coming." She said she'd call me at work to make another appointment, but she never did. They've been jerking me around for three solid weeks and it's to the point now where I'm going to have to request they send another company, even if they have to come from across the state. Good thing this isn't a pressing matter or something.

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Subject:	Well, It Can't Get Worse....Can It?
Time:	7:39 am.
Mood:	sore.
Music:	My Immortal.

Yesterday afternoon and evening had some high spots, but silly me all I remember are the two bad spots:( I came home at 5PM to find that Boo (my fish) had finally passed on. I loved him and even though some of my friends don't understand that ("he's just a fish, it's not a real pet") he was with me for a long time. He was with me the whole time

abelladonna lived with me and he was with me as I transitioned from living in an apartment to living in my first house. He entertained me and listened to me, buried himself under the rocks and was just as psychotic as I sometimes am:) I loved Boo. I miss him.

So, after I cleaned out his bowl and gave him a funeral, I set to work on getting ready for my Real World/Road Rules Viewing Party. I had SH on in the background to keep me downstairs, else I'd go upstairs and play on the computer and not get anything done. I listened/half-watched Psychic, Tap Dancing, and Iron Mike before everyone arrived. My coworkers all said how lovely my home was. I was much appreciative. Some even read excerpts from my last slash zine;) I live to serve. And I must mention the fact that I've had my SH Video Game for one year and I haven't managed to get through the levels without cheating. My coworker, who has never seen the game in her life, got through the first level on her second try. Boooooo:) Was nice to see what Level Two looked like, though.

The culmination of the night and the reason for the party was Shawn's appearance on the show. He's also a coworker and was on the Road Rules Semester At Sea. What I didn't know, however, was that this was his last appearance. He got voted off:( We knew it wasn't good when they started showing him WAY too much during the episode. Bad sign. The nice one always goes home. Well, at least we got to all see him go together.

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Subject:	Don't Die!
Time:	6:24 pm.
Mood:	creative.
Music:	Dryer Running.

I got off to a rousing start this morning by racing down the stairs to watch the first hour of Terror in the Mall just because I am weak and cannot stand to know that David Soul is on television and I'm not watching him. Yes, I know I have seen the crappy movie more times than I care to count. Yes, I know I have the first hour on tape. Yes, I know he will die with a crossbow to the back no matter how many times I watch it. That still doesn't change the fact that I watched it;) And I remember the first time I saw that movie I was aghast at how startlingly different his voice was. Now, I'm all about the "I don't care if you die, I still love you."

I'm standing watch over my betta fish, Boo, because I fear he's gotten chlorine poisoning. I cleaned him and I think the de-chlorine stuff didn't mix well before he got put back in. The problem is, he's acting sporatically between normal fish behavior and burying himself under the rocks, but this is normal for him. I just think he's acting worse than usual, so I'll continue checking on him.

Saw the first Bridget Jones' Diary today because my officemate let me borrow it. Umm...it was cute, but I was kinda rooting for Hugh Grant. Yeah, I'm bad:) I also watched some of Murder Most Likely with Paul Gross. He's so pretty and so good at being bad. This was after I wrote badporn on MeandThee this morning. Actually, Starsky wrote it, I just transcribed it. And it all started because of a comment

ginalin made.

There are overused or trite phrases in describing m/m or even m/f sex in fanfiction, sad to say. I prefer it when someone is realistic, but manages to find more imaginative and interesting ways to write sex scenes without resorting to the cliches like "hot seed" and "pulsing channels". The word "manroot" or "mansex" has been known to make me run to get bleach for my eyes.

And that set Starsky off onto his attempt at badporn. Beware, this is Starsky we're talking about.
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His mansex was throbbing at the sight of his naked lover, waiting and calling out to him to hurry and do it. How lucky he was to have found someone who would pleasure him each night, twice nightly on weekends.

There was no need for words; they knew the actions so well. As he thrust his lubricated rod into the pulsing channel, he could not stop his moans from escaping. When he thought he would surely burst from ecstasy, finally his hot seed spilled forth into his lover's waiting body, as they joined as one in combined pleasure.

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Hutch looked up at Starsky, unable to stop the laughter.

"There will be no more romance novels brought into this house if you're going to do this."

Starsky came close, wrapping his arms around his partner.

"What's the matter? Don't you like it?" he joked.

"Twice nightly on weekends? You make me sound like a stage performer or something."

"Well, you're good at acrobatics, that's for sure," Starsky teased.

"Mansex? It's a cock, Starsky, call like it is."

"Personally, I liked lubricated rod myself," Starsky said.

"Because it sounds like something you got off your car, that's why!"

"Nah," Starsky responded, leaning in for a kiss. "You know I love you more than my car."

"You better," Hutch told him, "Or I'll cut back on the twice nightly shows every weekend."

"You wouldn't." Starsky tugged on his partner's arm, pulling him towards the bedroom.

No, he wouldn't.

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Subject:	There's Always Tomorrow
Time:	7:25 pm.
Mood:	silly.
Music:	Don't Give Up On Us Baby.

I think today's been a very accomplished day, considering.

Clothes hung up

Papers filed

SH recs posted

Floor swept

Carpets vaccummed

Supper cooked and ate

SH death story sent

Garden weeded

Mail picked up

Groceries bought

Bathroom...ehhh, I'll clean it tomorrow;) That's what weekends are for, procrastinating so that you can spread out one day's work into two.

I watched 28 Days Later yesterday and I've already told

abelladonna how I thought they picked the sucky ending. Normally I'm all about the happy, but when you give me a plot such as that and then stick on a happy, happy, joy, joy ending it cheapens it. Kill them all! You're leaving me with too many questions if you rebuild society.

What else have I done today? Pretty much nothing aside from what I listed. I keep meaning to read more of my zines, but when I recced Eclipse today I had to re-read it and that was enough for me:) Erotic SH vampire fic, how I love thee. If I can't have Giles MPREG, I can at least have VampHutch having sex with Starsky.

I noted the t-shirt I found on Ebay earlier today on the SH community, but it bears repeating. Sometimes, it's just enough to say "It's a David Soul thing. You wouldn't understand."

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Subject:	You Want It, You Got It
Time:	9:12 pm.
Mood:	creative.
Music:	Frosty the Snowman.

I think I've finished the deadStarsky story. And it's all Hutch's fault. He kept telling me he wanted to breakdown in the shower and far be it from me to deny him. But I've learned not to trust Starsky either because he can't even show up in a simple dream on the beach without giving it some deep psychological reason. At this point, I just want to finish a story where one of them doesn't die or crack up. I can't give them sex if they're dead or insane. And I was very much looking forward to watching FBI Murders tonight, too. Now I have to go through my movies and try to figure out which ones David Soul doesn't die in because if I see him die tonight it'll start a whole new trend in writing that I'm not ready for.

And completely off that topic, five random observations:

1. Why are they making The Ring 2 when the first one sucked?

2. We got an internal IM system at work today. Which means absolutely nothing because the entertainment I get from making smilely faces is diminished when the person I'm talking to is a few feet away from me.

3. After having read Corpus et Sanguis by trekker for the FIFTH time last night, I went looking for Giles MPREG. Apparently there aren't any:( If there is, I can't find it and that makes me sad.

4. I still don't know what I want for Christmas and that fact doesn't change day to day.

5. It's cold, there is no snow, so why is it cold again?

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Subject:	Never Give The Man A Drink
Time:	8:05 pm.
Mood:	mellow.
Music:	Trains.

On Sunday I spoke about my latest songvid where I sorta killed Starsky. I knew a story was gonna come out of this and apparently Hutch isn't one for waiting. Starsky's dead, Hutch is depressed, run with it. First page was okay, typical for what I made of the vid. Second page is when it all started unraveling. That's when Hutch revealed the last thing he did in Bay City was get vengeance or committed cold-blooded murder depending on how you look at it. In my defense, I knew this was coming since I've always said that if Starsky had died, Hutch would've killed Gunther. Point proven. By page three he's got liquor (bad idea) and he's arguing...with Starsky...who's dead. The man's mental stability is being questioned by me right now. I'm three pages into this and I already think he's cracked. How much more depressed and broken can he get?

It was the alcohol, it had to be. Either that or his eyes were playing tricks on him again. But there was no denying it. His partner was sitting across from him, just as real and young as he always was in his dreams. Hutch took another swallow of his drink, trying to banish away the image.

"Does it make you feel better?" Starsky asked, pushing him.

"Makes me feel something," he countered.

"And tomorrow when you wake up with a hangover, it’s gonna hurt just as bad as every other time."

"I’ve got nothing to be sober for," Hutch replied, taking the last swallow of his drink.

"You’ve changed, cut yourself off from everyone. Look at what this is doing to you.”

"Well, right now this," he said, holding up his empty glass, "is doing me a lot more good than the alternative."

"It’s been twenty-five years, Hutch."

"I know," he sighed.

"You have to let me go. You’ve got to get on with your life."

"What kind of life would you like me to get on with? I’m old, Starsky, worn out and beat down. I’ve got nothing to look forward to and I never did."

"And it’s all my fault," Starsky pointed out. "Everytime you remember me, it’s like the first time all over again."

"When a memory’s all that’s left..." he trailed off, looking at the empty glass and wondering if he was steady enough to go get a refill.

"Maybe if I stayed away..."

"No!" Hutch shouted, dropping his glass onto the carpet. “Don’t leave me again, please don’t leave me again.”

"You’re not living."

"Why should I?" he asked, sinking back into the cushions of the couch.

"Because one of us should."

I broke him, I broke him bad:(

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Subject:	Movies Are Good For You
Time:	9:39 pm.
Mood:	hyper.
Music:	Goodbye.

This 28 Days Later movie better be worth my inconvienience. I wanted to watch the Dallas special, so I'm having to watch it on the portable TV as I record the zombie movie downstairs. I managed to get through Cheaper By the Dozen this afternoon, after laying around in my pajamas all morning and not actually taking a shower until 1PM;) The remake, while bearing very little resemblance to the original, was kinda fun. I also read the Giles MPREG three times through since yesterday. I really like that story;)

The reason I laid around in my pajamas all morning was because I didn't actually get to bed until 3AM. Once again, my vidding motto is "it's never too late to start a vid." I was going to listen to CDs last night, just get some songs that would make good future vids. That turned into finding the perfect Starsky versus Hutch song (this would make my second video about an episode that has bad lighting, doesn't have the boys touching at ALL, and has a plot that inspires murderous thoughts in alot of fans;) So, I did a mock-up, which led to a rough draft of that vid. About 11PM, I'm listening to this song that I thought would be a great older Hutch vid as a remembrance of a break-up he had with Starsky. I started mocking it up and of course that led to a rough draft. And I kinda killed Starsky. I told the man to leave, walk out after a fight with Hutch. He took that to mean die. And not just dying when he's old, no no. Dying in Sweet Revenge and sending his partner into a 20 year depression that he ain't coming back from. I used to have happy vids, what happened to that? Anyone who wants to look at the rough copies and give feedback are welcome. These are my first live action vids and the source is all from Sel, so I wanna know if they work as they stand or if I need to change around the scenes or...whatever.

Why is JR Ewing not on my television yet?!

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Subject:	What Did You Do Today?
Time:	3:55 pm.
Mood:	bouncy.
Music:	Television.

A whole lot of nothing and that's just perfect. I started off cooking biscuits and gravy for lunch. Then moved onto cooking a nice chocolate cake for dessert (haven't actually finished frosting it yet, got distracted by the batter;) I'm planning on making barbequed chicken and mashed potatoes for supper. And just so you don't think I've been just cooking, there have been other activities.

I found out that this weekend is Free Movie Weekend on satellite, so I watched the live action version of Cat in the Hat. Umm, yeah, interesting. I then had to take in the Sci-Fi movie They Nest because Dean Stockwell was on it and even if he did die when the bugs ate him from the inside out, he's still worth it. I set the VCR to record Cheaper By the Dozen tonight, but I'm not sure why. I loved the book and its sequel. I loved the original movie. I don't know what I'll think of the remake, but I'm willing to give it a try. I'm also looking forward to seeing 28 Days Later tomorrow night, even got the VCR set in case I miss it. I'm not big on zombies, but I'll try. And to top if off, Something's Gotta Give is running TWICE tomorrow and even though I have it on DVD, I am going to watch it both times to see Paul. Well, I'll watch his scenes. No need to force myself to see Diane and Jack naked again.

On the fandom side,

boingobaby is putting AVI versions of the SH later eps online and I'm downloading them. This means that I can start making episode vids...help us all:) In between that, I'm reading a very not very common story. It's Giles MPREG. Yes, Giles "The Ripper" from BTVS is knocked up...by Ethan...and he's falling in love with Willow...and it's so very good. There's 30 parts, I'm on part 5. It's gonna be an interesting afternoon.

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Subject:	Full and Ready
Time:	10:00 pm.
Mood:	full.
Music:	TV Sounds Drifting In.

I made mashed potatoes for supper tonight. I've been craving Thanksgiving dinner, so I guess I'm just going to accomplish it one dish at a time;) And even though I've been away for most of the week, I'm glad it's almost the weekend. Today's workload was quite a bit to come back to. So was the amount of list discussion. I think I'll bury myself in zines for a while. The good/bad thing that happened while I was gone was that I won the newspaper drawing for sneak preview tickets to Around the Bend. Sadly, the movie was tonight and in Raleigh, so I didn't go. I'm sure it was a nice movie, but there's no way I'm driving to the N&O by 6:30PM when I don't get off work until 6PM and then wait around Raleigh for another hour to watch a movie I'm not even sure why I registered for tickets. I have Ray, that's enough for me.

On the fandom side, my fantasy trip to the UK is in doubt because of this ongoing Jerry Springer lawsuit. Poison, baby, pure poison.

http://entertainment.news-leader.com/today/1030-Springermu-214525.html
Springer musical plays on despite lawsuit

"Jerry Springer: The Opera," threatened with closure because of a libel action, will run at least until mid-December, producers said Friday.

This week, producer Jon Thoday said the critically acclaimed musical starring David Soul might be forced to close because of the costs of a lawsuit against the Daily Mail newspaper, which falsely claimed in January that the show was losing money.

The producers sued for a reported $730,000 in lost earnings, saying the Mail's story had hurt ticket sales.

Thoday said the show's marketing budget was slashed to cover the costs of the case, leading to a slump in ticket sales that threatened the production's future.

On Friday, Thoday's company, Avalon Promotions, said the show would stay open for now. He said producers would make a final decision after the court hearing on Dec. 13.

A raucous musical take on the king of trash TV, "Jerry Springer" opened to rave reviews at the National Theatre in April 2003.

The $13.9 million production is scheduled to play San Francisco's Orpheum Theatre next summer before arriving on Broadway in the fall.

(If only David played the US run...but alas, little hope of that)

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Subject:	Ray
Time:	9:50 pm.
Mood:	sleepy.
Music:	Georgia On My Mind.

Still not around, but we just got back to the hotel after a jaunt to Maryland. We decided to go to the movies and I wanted to see Ray. Seriously, everyone should go watch this movie as soon as possible. And if Jaime Fox will get nominated for an Oscar for this, no doubt about it. You know it's a great actor when you forget who's playing the character. He became Ray Charles, totally and completely. I was actually shocked near the end when he took off his glasses for a scene because it reminded me of who that actor was. Ray Charles saw a rough cut of this before he died and I agree with his assessment, Jaime nailed him. I was unaware how much Ray's mother and brother impacted his life, but after seeing this movie I'm amazed. This man had a life full of bad and good, strength and pain, but above it all he was a legend. I can't express how wonderful this movie was. I would say that it's one of the best movies I've seen in the past five years, seriously. Go, watch, be amazed.

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Subject:	Leaving Again
Time:	7:57 am.
Mood:	chipper.
Music:	Erotica.

I just got back home from SHarecon in MD and now I'm on my way back up to DC for a work conference. I travel because I love;) The scary thing is that I'll be in DC on election night. Hmm, maybe I should just hide in my room on Tuesday. I still need to pack last minute things (including zines) for the ride up, but I want to lay around for an hour or two before I do that.

Last night I went to a Halloween party at a coworker's house. There was drinking, there was food, and there was chocolate. Perfect night, don't you think? And in theory I should have been able to get an extra night's sleep since Daylight Savings Time ended, but theories often don't work out. I work up the same time I usually do, except it's an hour earlier;)

Night before last, I had an odd dream that still hasn't gone away, so I shall share it with you. I think this came about because of a conversation I had at SHarecon with a fan and watching too much baseball. ( Dreams are weird )

Now I'm off to DC. Enjoy the early part of November and I'll see you after the election or maybe before if I can get online.

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Subject:	To Remind Myself
Time:	7:37 pm.
Mood:	depressed.
Music:	Don't Fear the Reaper.

Since I got back from SHarecon, issues at work have built up my stress level until I finally cracked today. In order to not return to the terrible mood again, I'm going to remind myself of that which makes me happy:

1. I love my family and my friends. They make life interesting and care about me.

2. I thoroughly enjoy my writing. I'm able to express my feelings and tell a story that I can share with others.

3. My vids are loved by fans and I have access to multiple vids done by a multitude of fabulous vidders. When life gets me down, I can always watch one and it makes me feel better.

4. My art collection surrounds me and no matter where I look there's an image of the boys looking back at me. Some are simple, some complex, but they all express the love and devotion between SH.

5. The boys, period. Starsky and Hutch makes me happy and the suckiest day can be made better by sitting down and watching an episode, looking at art, or reading a zine.

I am loved, I am appreciated, and I am special. Tomorrow will be better and the weekend is almost here. I can survive, I can make it, and life will get better.

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Subject:	So Long, Farewell, and All Those Other Things
Time:	8:28 pm.
Mood:	hyper.
Music:	I Wanna Talk About Me.

In 12 hours I will be on the way to SHarecon. I'm all packed (I think), I'm hyped up, and I'm ready to go! I left work at 3PM today so I could go to the bank and get my travelling cash. I think the best part of the day was...well, pretty much the sum of the day. EVERYONE knows I'm going to con. Some shake their heads, some smile, and others say "don't bring us anything back, really." I love that in my workplace I can say "I'm going to con" and the reaction of my boss is to ask which one;) I loooooooove my job, my coworkers, and my bosses. One of my coworkers hasn't seen my home office yet, with the slash art collection, so I promised that when I got back from con and hung all the new art I'd have a viewing party for one of Shawn's Real World/Road Rules: Battle of the Sexes 2 episodes and she could get the tour.

I had to miss out on the fair this year because last night was the only night I could go and it rained:( My coworker's gonna get me a bag of cotton candy though, so I haven't totally missed out. I'll try to eat it between Tuesday and Friday because next weekend I have to go to DC for a work conference. Yes, I'm going to Maryland and then coming home and then going back up to DC. I just enjoy travelling I-95, what can I say?

I'm sure I'll remember a million things I wanted to say in about an hour, but for now I'll bid you all farewell and I'll be back online Monday night with an attempt at a con overview. (On second thought, it might be Tuesday before I can give a con report since I'm bound to be too wound up and excited to get it all down;)

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Subject:	Soon, Sooooooon
Time:	9:58 pm.
Mood:	cheerful.
Music:	Voices Carry.

Countdown to con is still continuing. Only two more workdays! But tonight I need to watch yet another episode of Real World/Road Rules: Battle of the Sexes 2. The reason? My coworker Shawn is on there. We laughed over his bio on MTV because it's perfectly summing him up.

Shawn is the nice guy we barely saw during Semester at Sea.

He's the nice guy, always! Whenever the drag out fights start, he's nowhere in the middle of them.

He is currently engaged to be married and gainfully employed as a web designer.

Gainfully:) Yeah, gainfully employed. We love Shawn and were sad when he went to consulting in order to move farther down the state to be with his fiance and go film the show. He still comes to visit and he's an awesome guy. I get very excited whenever they show him on an episode. Hey! That's Shawn! We know him!

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