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you spin around me like a dream [21 Dec 2003|11:32am]
[ mood | artistic ]
[ music | Konstantine(live<3)-Something Corporate ]

So today is Sunday. My grandma aka g-unit got here last night. She's so funny, she cracks me up. Anyhoo. Exams are overrrrrr woot woot and we don't go back to school until Jan. 6th. Thank God it's about time i had a break from that hell hole. Plus i'm sick. My voice is all raspy and shit. I sound like i have emphysema. It gets better and then all of a sudden it will get worse. blah. I'm going to Hanes Mall with my familia today. G-unit tried to talk me into going to mass with her and her mom but i wouldnt do it. Sick my brother is in here watching that stupid spider movie...8 legged freaks i think its called? But anyhoo, i hate spiders and its freakin me out. God they're so gross!!!! so yeah. I'm going to New York this summer with Sarah. Well i think i am. I really hope so because i wanna see Timothy. teehee. I went to Ace's Basement friday night with Megan and Sarah. It was great fun. We saw Each/Every passing moment (i cant remember if its each or every) and The Manhattan Project. They were both awesome, i enjoyed the show. God this movie is so stupid. It needs to be over so i can watch Monty Python and the Holy Grail. okay its over but my brothers not leaving....what the fuck...okay now hes gone so im gonna go and watch my movie. byebyebyebyebye


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im traveling amongst the charred fields of snow [07 Dec 2003|09:13pm]
[ mood | creative ]
[ music | Nightmares win 6-0-A Static Lullaby ]

blah blah blah exams are next week. poop. the only good thing about exams is that we get out early. and it means that we get a break. 2 weeks this year woot woot. mae is playing here on the 22nd. hopefully ill be able to go to that show. itll be a good one. but im gonna go soo...bye.


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i'd offer you my hand it would hurt to much to watch you die [30 Nov 2003|12:39pm]
[ mood | groggy ]
[ music | for petes sake-yellowcard ]

Well i got back from Florida aroud 5 in the a.m. I'm incredibly sick. My vacation wasnt that great. My grandpas dying. But whats new? Someone close to me is always on the verge of death. Oh yeah, and my Aunt's a crack head and has been in and out of jail for the past...oh...i'd say 5 years. cute, huh? We didn't really do anything fun when we were down there. I stayed at my grandparents house, and my aunt and uncle and 2 cousins stayed there, too. My cousin Tommy is a weirdo. I think he has a crush on me or aunt told me that he had to get 4 stitches on his scrotum sack because his skateboard shot up and nailed him between the legs. That made my day. I was laughing so hard when she told me about that. On friday I went to my other grandmas house. My other aunt and uncle and 2 cousins were staying with her. My cousin Sarah is so cute. At first she locked herself in one of the rooms because she didnt know who we were (we havent seen them for about 2 years, they live in Wisconsin...) and then after like 10 minutes i was sitting on the couch being bored and she came up to me and just sat in my lap. Then after dinner I went in the spare room to lay down because I wasn't feeling so good, so she came in there and put all these stuffed animals all around me. While I was in there I was watching this thing on the history channel about aliens and I got freaked out so I went into the living room with the rest of the family. Then Sarah started playing with my hair and she put a tierra on me and yeah. Shes adorable. On Thanksgiving day my grandparents had a bunch of their old friends come over to get drunk. It was quite the experience. One guy named Charlie couldn't even stand up. I was kind of mad. I think whenever a person gets to that age its pretty lame for them to get drunk...its like...enough is enough.
Anyways....I didnt think that I would be able to talk to Timmy that whole time, but my madre let me use the phone to call him one night. I don't think that kid knows how much he means to me. He's wonderful and I'll do anything for him. You know how you can tell when you really like a person because you get nervous when you talk to him? ack He's too good for me, I don't deserve him. He needs to get online now so I can talk to him!

the early november & count the stars & hidden in plain view-December 6th (this saturday) woot woot


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smash it up, smash it up [25 Nov 2003|06:04pm]
[ mood | anxious ]
[ music | powder-Yellowcard ]

i found this in savannas journal and took it because im super bored and im waiting for us to leave to Florida

001. What is your name? Lauren
002. Spell your name backwards. Nerual
003. Date of birth: March 22, 1988
004. Male or female? Female
005. Astrological sign: Aries
006. Nicknames: Laurenita
007. Occupation? Student
008. Height: 5'7 ish
009. Contacts? Negative
010. Hair color: right now...dark brown
011. Eye color: Hazel
012. Where were you born? Florida
013. Where do you reside now? North Carolina
014. Age: 15
015. Screen names: killurtelev1sion
016. E-mail addy: forgetmenots06
017. What does your screen name stand for? Its the name of a cd by The Reunion Show
018. What is your blurty name? killyour_tv
019. What does your diary name stand for? same as my screen name
020. Pets: a big fat yellow lab named Molly
021. Number of candles you blew out on your last birthday cake? i hate cake
022. Piercings? Ears
023. Tattoo's? negative
024. Shoe size: 10?
025. Righty or lefty? righty
026. Wearing: jeans and one of those baseball shirts you know? the sleeves go down to your elbows and theyre a different color than the body? well...that.
027. Hearing: Something Corporate
028. Feeling: antzy
029. Eating/drinking: nothing

. . . F r i 3 n d S t u F f. . .
Which one of your friends is the...
030. Craziest? megan
031. Loudest? megan
032. Nicest? meghan
033. Bitchiest? i dont have bitchy friends...or else they wouldnt be my friends
034. Life of the party? Emily!
035. Jock? yeah right my friends play a sport? my friends are the laziest group of people youll ever meet
036. Prep? meh, becca
038. Cutest? ew my friends arent cute at all
039. Best friend of the same sex? the megans and emily
040. Best friend of the opposite sex? ...brad? hahaha
041. Most popular? uh juliet
042. Rudest? megan
043. Most shy? meghan perhaps?
044. Dumbest? emily
045. Smartest? hahahaha
046. Weirdest? megan
047. Best hair? oh its definetely megan
048. Best personality? all my friends have good personalities
049. Most talented? none of them
050. Most ghetto? ghetto people love meghans pants
051. Most spoiled? megan
052. Drama queen/king? ?
054. Funniest? megan
055. Best advice giver? megan
056. Druggie? emily har har har
057. Most likely to join a cult? a girl in my creative writing class asked me and megan to join her penguin cult.
058. Have you lost touch with a good friend recently? not really
059. Person you've been friends with the longest? megan
060. How many friends do you have on your buddy list? like 20
061. Have you ever been in love? i think so
062. How many people have you told "I love you"? 1 or 2 not counting megan because i tell her i love her all the time (because i do)
063. How many people have you been in love with? 1
064. How many people have you kissed? meh
065. Have you ever kissed someone of the same sex? oh yeah me and megan make out all the time...just joking but we kiss eachother on the head sometimes...
066. How many people have you dated? 3 or 4
067. What do you look for in a guy/girl? hair, shoes, music, smile, smell
068. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? either hair, teeth, or shoes
069. What type of guy/girl do you usually go for? guys with dark shaggy hair
070. Do you have a bf/gf? megans my girlfriend
071. If so where did you meet them? 8th grade, she just started following me around...
072. What do you like most about your bf/gf? her hair
073. Do you have a crush right now? ugh yes
074. If so who is it? newton
075. Do you believe in love at first sight? yeah
076. Do you remember your first love?
077. Who is the last person you kissed? a boy in new jersey
078. Do you believe in fate? maybe
079. Do you believe in soul mates? yeah
080. If so do you believe you'll ever find yours? i think i already have teeheehee

. . . F a m i L y S t u F f. . .
104. How many siblings do you have? 1
105. What are your parents names? Shirley and Bob
106. What are your siblings names? Robert Francis LaCava, III
107. How many siblings does your mother have? 1
108. How many siblings does your father have? 2
109. Where are your parents from? My madres from California and my Dads from Philadelphia (for a long time i thought Philadelphia was a state)
110. Is your family close? i guess
111. Does your family get together for holidays? only my mom dad and brother...not like my grandparents and cousins and aunt and uncle
112. Do you have a drunk uncle? yeah hahaha and a drunk grandma
113. Any medical problems run through your family? i think heart problems....bad
114. Does someone in your family wear a toupee? no
115. Do you have any nieces or nephews? no
116. Are your parents divorced? no
117. Do you have step parents? no
118. Has your family ever disowned another member of your family? no
119. If so for what? nothin
120. Did some of your family come to America from another country? yes, Italy

. . . M u s ii C S t u F f. . .
121. What song do you swear was written about you or your life? wanksta
122. What's the most embarrassing cd you own? spice girls
123. What's the best cd you own? hmm i love all of my cds
124. What song do you absolutely hate? anything by avril lavigne
126. What song reminds you of that special someone? Thats So You by The Rocket Summer
127. Pink: shes stupid and dykey
128. Aerosmith: used to be decent
129. Madonna: old
130. Korn: i hate korn so much
131. Backstreet Boys: definetely gay
132. The Beatles: good
133. Sublime: very good
134. J.Lo: i hate her
135. *Nsync: are they still a band? and didnt one go to the moon?
136. Limp Bizkit: i hate them so much
137. Britney Spears: el diablo
138. Creed: i hate them. the lead singer has a terrible voice
139. Enrique Iglesias: mexican
140. Good Charlotte: i liked them in 8th grade
141. Christina Aguilera: trashy
142. Eminem: white
144. Kelly Clarkson: i hate her too
145. Kelly Osbourne: she used to be cool until her and avril teamed up and became "the punkest girls around!"
146. Mandy Moore: i hate her music but shes pretty and not a whore like the other 2
147. Eve: stupid
148. Aaliyah: dead
149. Nelly: whats with the band aid?
150. Alicia Keys: bad hair
151. Incubus: meh

. . . F a v 0 r i T e Z. . .
152. Color: Hot Pink and/or neon green
153. Food: taco or cheese
154. Song: hmmm grand theft autumn by fall out boy, handguns and second chances by senses fail
155. Show: uh queer eye for the straight guy
156. School subject: blech
157. Band/singer: a lot
158. Animal: elephant
159. Outfit: jeans and a band tee...thats all i ever wear
160. Radio station: i hate the radio
161. Movie: The Boondock Saints, Happy Gilmore, Billy Madison
162. Pair of shoes: my checkered slip on vans
163. Cartoon: Simpsons
164. Actor: booo
165. Actress: booo
166. Potato chip: torengos
167. Drink: sweet tea pink lemonade any kind of juice
168. Alcholic drink: oh...
169. Holiday: christmas
170. Perfume/cologne: pink from victorias secret
171. Pizza topping: cheese
172. Jello flavor: i havent eaten jello since 4th grade because i saw a movie about jello and it said that it was made out of the cartilige in cows knees
173. Lunch meat: blah
174. Board game: jumanji
175. Video game: tony hawk pro skater
176. Website:
177. Book: Catcher in the Rye
178. Computer game: emogame
179. Number: 27
180. Cereal: blah
181. Comedian: dane cook
182. Dessert: cheese cake
183. Disney character: pluto
184. Clothing store: uh i dont really shop at stores i buy my shirts at shows. but i do like urban outfitters they have cool stuff
185. Pastime: Going to shows
186. Teacher: meh mrs douglas perhaps, shes so nice
187. Childhood toy: betsy wetsy I SWEAR TO GOD SHE WET HERSELF IT WAS SO COOL
188. Carnival game/ride: ive never been
189. Candy bar: reeses cups or what ever
190. Magazine: AP
191. Salad dressing: italian
192. Thing to do on the weekend: hang out on the computer or sleep
193. Hot drink: tea
194. Season: winter
195. Sport to watch: hockey
196. Person to talk to online: Timmy or Megan
197. What color are your sheets? pink
198. What color are your bedroom walls? yellow
199. Do you have posters on your wall? everywhere
200. If so of what? pictures ive taken at shows, clips from magazines of pictures i like, bands, etc.
201. Do you have a tv in your bedroom? yeah
202. How many pillows are on your bed? 5
203. What do you normally sleep in? a shirt and boxers
204. Describe your favorite pair of pajamas: any t shirt and some short/boxer things from old navy
205. What size bed do you have? full
206. Do you have a waterbed/bunkbed/daybed? just a bed
207. Do you have your own phone line in your bedroom? no...
208. Do you listen to music while trying to fall asleep? sometimes, usually the early november acoustic ep
209. Describe the last nightmare you had: birds...lots and lots of birds
210. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? my doodle bear, but i prefer my blankie
211. How many people can comfortably sleep in your bed? 2

212. Do you sleep in any unusual positions? ...maybe?
213. Do you have to share your bedroom with a sibling? negative
214. Do you snore? maybe?
215. How about drool? yeah sad
216. Do you have an alarm clock in your room? yeah
217. What color is the carpet in your room? white-ish
218. What's under your bed? board games, trash, homework, etc.

. . . N a m 3 G a m 3. . .
What Do You Think Of When You Hear These Common Names?...
299. Jack: off
300. Tiffany: breakfast at tiffanys
301. Ben: from the sf show
302. Maria: my cousins middle name
303. Jennifer: ...?
304. Nicole: girl from 8th grade
305. Amy: blah
306. Adam: puckett
307. Richard: guy from church who goes to bishop hes wicked hot
308. Justin: jenks
309. Arnold: swarzinager
310. Tom: delonge
311. Melissa: poop
312. Charlotte: a place where bands play
313. Harold: my dads friend, i used to call him hair ball because im cool
314. John: old allister member, asian but hot
315. Joel: my cousin
316. Vanessa: i dont know
317. Michelle: branch
318. Kevin: kid
319. Brent: cheese
320. Jake: harker ew
321. Billy: my cousins name
322. Sarah: malloy....ick
323. Natalie: a girl who sits next to me in french she likes good music
324. Christy: my cousin
325. Nick: hot kid in PA that was megans lover
326. Linda: a girl in my CW class...what a bad name
327. Taylor: jonathan taylor thomas what happened to him?
328. Jordan: big black man
329. Jamie: okay
330. Adrian:icky girl from 8th grade who i still hate

. . . H a v 3 Y 0 u 3 v e R. . .
331. Mooned anyone? dont think so
332. Been on a diet? tried
333. Been to a foreign country? negative
334. Broken a bone? yes
335. Swallowed a tooth/cap/filling? yes
336. Swear at a teacher? no
337. Talked to an LJ member via e-mails or instant messages? yeah
338. Got in a fight? not really
339. Dated a teacher? sick
340. Laughed so hard you peed your pants? no but i was close
341. Thought about killing your enemy? too much
342. Gone skinny dipping? yeah
343. Met another LJ member in the flesh? no...
344. Told a little white lie? yea
345. Told a secret you swore not to tell? no, one thing im good at is keepin secrets
346. Used a foreign object to masturbate? sick
347. Misused a swear word and it sounded absolutely stupid? yeah
348. Been on tv? no
349. Been on the radio? yeah
350. Been in a mosh pit? not intentionally
351. Been to a concert? der
352. Dated one of your best friends? no
353. Loved someone so much it makes you cry? yes
354. Decieved somebody close to you? no way
355. Broken the law? perhaps
356. Been to a rodeo? negative thank god
357. Been on a talk show? nope
358. Been on a game show? yep... no not really
359. Been on an airplane? no
360. Got to ride on a firetruck? yeah in a parade
361. Came close to dying? hmm yeah
362. Cheated on a bf/gf? no way
363. Gave someone a piggy back ride? yeah stupid fat megan
364. Terrorized a babysitter? no
365. Made a mud pie? no
366. Had a dream that your falling off a cliff? yes
367. Snuck out of the house at night? yes
368. Been so drunk you don't remember your name? i always always always remember my name
369. Had an eating disorder? no
370. Felt like you didn't belong? yeah
371. Felt like the 3rd wheel? yes
372. Smoked?
373. Done drugs?
374. Stolen money from a poor person begging on the street? no way
375. Had your tonsils removed? no
376. Gone to camp? yes
377. Won a bet? yes
378. Written a love letter? yes
379. Gone out of your way to be with the one you love? yes
380. Written a love poem? yes
381. Kissed in the rain? no...
382. Slow danced with someone you love? yes
383. Participated in cyber sex? definetely not
384. Faked an orgasm? no
385. Stolen a kiss? no
386. Asked a friend for relationship advice? yes
387. Had a friend steal your bf/gf? yes
388. Watched the sunset/rise with someone you love? no
389. Gotten a speeding ticket? no
390. Done jail time? no
391. Had to wear a uniform to work? no
392. Won a trophy? yes
393. Thrown up in public? yes one time i threw up in food lion it was grosssss
394. Bowled a perfect game? no i suck at bowling but i still like it
395. Failed/got held back? no im not that pathetic
396. Got perfect attendance in grade school? hahaha no way
397. Roasted pumpkin seeds? yes! theyre sooooo sososo good
398. Taken ballet lessons? yeah im damn good at it too
399. Attempted suicide?
400. Cut yourself?

. . . R a n D 0 m. . .
425. Do you believe in aliens? yeah i saw one at megans house i swear!
426. Name 3 things that are next to your computer: speakers, a lamp, and a pen
427. Do you have any hidden talents? im a wicked good dancer
428. Do you wish MTV would play music videos? no
429. If you were to star in a movie, what kind of movie would it be?something like star wars i suppose
430. What would your movie star name be? Laurenita
431. Do you play any sports? yeah
432. What's the scariest movie you've ever seen? uh the ring
433. What is the best movie you've seen in the theater or rented recently? the boondock saints, thanks timmy
434. What is the dumbest movie you've ever seen? glitter
435. Do you drive? yeah
436. What is your dream car? hot pink VW bus
437. Do you think you're good looking? no
438. Do others think you are good looking? some do
439. Would you ever sky dive? it depends on who im with
440. Do you believe in Bigfoot? I SAW HER
441. How many rooms do you have in your house? 6 or 7
442. Are you afraid of roller coasters? no way
443. Do you believe in God?
444. Do you believe in Satan?
445. Do you believe there is a heaven?
446. Do you believe there is a hell?
447. Do you own a pool table? no
448. Do you have a pool? no
449. Do you have a dishwasher in your kitchen? yeah my grandma doesnt though and thats a pain in the ass
450. Do you like chocolate? yeah
451. Who/what is on your 2003 calendar? i dont have a calender
452. How many U.S. states have you been to? new jersey, conneticutt, pennsylvania, maryland, wisconsin, ohio, illinois, florida, south carolina, virginia. you count
453. Ever wished on a shooting star? HOLY SHIT im listening to that! that was so weird, im listening to starstruck by yellowcard, and right when i got to this question was the part where ryan says "but i grew up wishing on a star you think i wont ever get too far" WEIRD
454. Best Halloween costume you ever wore? pumpkin
455. Do you carry any weapons on you? no way
456. What is your weakness? i have a crush on every boy
457. Name something you can't get enough of: men or music
458. Describe yourself in 3 adjectives: lovely tall fuckin good dancer
459. How many kids do you want to have? 2
460. Future daughters name: Mackenzie
461. Future sons names: Aden
462. What is your ideal way to die? in my sleep
463. How do you release stress? music
464. Are you a trendy person? lol
465. Are you an artistic person? i suppose so
466. Are you a realistic person? no
467. Do you un-tie your shoes every time you take them off? no
468. Are you a strong person? sometimes
469. Are you a strong willed person? maybe
470. Who is the last person to e-mail you? my cousin
471. Who is the last person to IM you? megan
472. Do you hate chain e-mails? god yes
473. Are you a deep sleeper? sometimes
474. Are you a good story teller? no lol everytime i start to tell a story i pause because i get distracted and everones like "is that it"
475. What do you believe is your best quality? im funny
476. What is your greatest accomplishment?getting into highschool
477. Do you like to burn candles or incense? yeah
478. Do you do yoga? i tried once but my dog jumped all over me so i couldnt do it
479. Do you have your own credit card?
480. Let's say you win the lotto. what do you do with the money? buy lots of cds, give some to family and friends, get a car, go to college, buy some record labels...teehee
481. Do you have a check book? no
482. Do you like your driver's license picture? its okay i guess
483. Do you tan easily? yeah
484. What color is your hair naturally? brown
485. How many fillings do you have? none
486. How many cavities did you have at your last dentist visit? none
487. Worst feeling in the world? being in love, getting your heart broken, or seeing the person you love with someone else
488. Best feeling in the world? seeing your favorite band play live, being in love
489. Is the glass half empty or half full? both
490. Last thing you downloaded? for petes sake by yc
491. Do you catch yourself using online terms in your real life? i say jk but its just to make fun of internet slang
492. What do you think people think of you? a weirdo
493. Are you a likeable person? id like to think so
495. Do you take medication for a chemical imbalance? okay
496. Whats the best way to be proposed to? being proposed to period is wonderful
497. Are you in love right now? i could be
498. If so, with who? shut it
499. When are you moving? when i turn 18
500. What's your favorite phrase? "WHAT!? Friends listen to 'Endless Love' in the dark!!"

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its always you in my big dreams [15 Nov 2003|06:49pm]
[ mood | lonely ]
[ music | Konstantine-Something Corporate ]

well nothing has been going on. last night i saw elf with emily and micheal. today i went to megans sisters bday party. let me tell you, some of those dads were quite good looking. teehee. uhh senses fail and matchbook romance show is next friday. oh yeah i havent updated on my current condition. apparently i have a swollen appendix...? it may burst, and it may not burst. its quite a comforting thought actually. the doctors think theres a couple things wrong with me but they havent exactly pin-pointed it yet. fun, huh? well im gonna go watch a movie or something. bye


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sorry i never was everything you ever dreamed [10 Nov 2003|07:56pm]
[ mood | pensive ]
[ music | cross my heart-the rocket summer ]

i just typed something wicked long and something happened and it was deleted. how cute. anyways. today we got the pictures back from the other night. there are some good pics man. im proud. katy and savanna were being cool and bithching about aces basement and how the tavern is better, but i love them still.

no school tomorrow. FREEDOM!


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tonight i will sleep with a gun in my mouth, goodnight my love... [08 Nov 2003|10:20am]
[ mood | drained ]
[ music | little boy-one six conspiracy ]

last night was a static lullaby. oh my god, theyre amazing. there were like 5 bands playing that night and i thought they were all pretty good, except one. i didnt enjoy them. the guy was in front of me singing and i could smell alcohol on his breath and it was disgusting. the first band that played, i dont know their name but they were really good. i liked them a lot. one of the guys in it was gorgeous, no joke. i was like TOUCH ME! his string broke in the middle of a song, it was kind of sad but he was prepared. oh theyre called one six conspiracy, im listening to them as of now. omg hes beautiful. i was just admiring his picture. ahhh! im really hoping that meghan got a picture of him because he looked so good last night. he was wearing a wicked tight epcot shirt, and tight drooling. har har har. anyways back to the show. the next band was crazy the singer was incredible. he did some crazy things on stage. he danced a lot, it was funny, i couldnt help but laugh at some of the things he did. he stuck the mic in his mouth...i was like hmmm wait that was the third band that played. the second band was called salem, they were really good too. the singers voice reminded me of geoff from thursday, which is a good thing, i love his voice. then there was a band called fiddler, they were good. i cant really remember anything that happened during that show...then lawerence arms came on. i didnt like them very much...i didnt like the guys voice. and then...a static lullaby performed. they were amazing! oh man, so good. i'm in pain because of that show, i have bruises on my knees because i was being pushed up against the stage. but its cool because it was totally worth it. Joe gave me the mic to sing during the shooting star that destroyed us all. well he didnt GIVE it to me, but he held it for me and i sang in it i was like omg omg omg thats the coolest thing ever! i love it when bands do that. then a couple times he was standing in front of me singing and everyone was pushing me up because they wanted to touch him or something so yeah, i definetely got a face full of his weiner, which isnt a bad thing at all because hes beautiful. hot water music came on afterwards, theyre pretty good but we had to get out of there because we were all in pain.

juliet and megan disappered during um 3 bands...crazy. me and meghan had fun watching the bands play. they were all very talented.

this kid named andrew/drew who we met at the mall was there. i was like MALL KID! and he was like MALL GIRLS! and then we hung out with him, but oh my god guess what! he was like totally in love with juliet! like what a big fuckin surprise! she was all over him. she was wearing his scarf...she looked like a douche bag...i was like uhhh take that off. and during asl she was standing with him instead of us i was like sweet...this is the last show ill ever let you go to. i didnt want her to go anyways. it just pisses me off how she'll flirt with any and every guy but she has a boyfriend, and a really good one at that. i would kill to have a boyfriend like danny. i dont know him too well but just the things she says he does is so sweet. oh yeah, and for like 2 weeks she was like "oh my god i cant wait till the asl show!" and she never even heard their music until oh...thursday....the show was friday...god. i really really hate people like that. i really do.

i think megan got mad at me last night because i said i wanted to go home instead of spend the night (i was in pain and i wanted to sleep in my bed...) and she like stopped talking to me. maybe it wasnt about that but i dont know. i <3 her anyways.

im listening to one six conspiracy still. omg theyre so good. i think im gonna order their teehee k im gonna go to sleep or something...


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your eyes, they shine [30 Oct 2003|06:03pm]
[ mood | crushed ]
[ music | things you never knew existed-Over It ]

blah becca is in love with my dad.

anyhoo. yeah so about the whole emily missing thing, well it gets worse. apparently she has to live in a foster home now. pretty lame. i guess she'd be better of there without me and a few other people who are friends with her. she might not get into so much trouble. sad. i had to leave home early on monday when i found out about it because i was heart broken and couldnt make it through the day without crying my eyes out. oh yes, also, on tuesday joey got in a fight with chody. not at school though, at their bus stop. i got to school and becca was like "HOLY SHIT LAUREN joey and chody got in a fight! chodys not at school because joey broke his nose!" god joey cant keep himself out of trouble. but the worst part of it is that he has to go to caldwell academy now. so in two days, i lost my best friend and the guy i like. freakin a i cant even believe how much that sucks. i called him yesterday...wowza. i cant believe i had the balls to do that, because when it comes to men i am quite i shy girl. im not sure if i like him that much anymore though...i've met someone new...someone nicer lol because joey isnt exactly the nicest person ever. the kid im talking about rides the elevator with me at school. har har har. oh man the other day we got caught! and there was like a shit load of kids in there man! it was crazy!

tomorrow is halloween and i have no clue what im doing. me and meghan were supposed to go to megans house but her mom DOUBLE grounded her. pretty fucked up. so i gotta call meghan later when she gets back from work so we can figure stuff out, because if megan seriously cant do anything, we'll hang out or somethin. i hope i get to go trick or treating<3 anyhoo.

ohhhh on saturday im get to hang out with my cool new friend sara. shes one of the funniest people ive ever met. shes a horrible driver okay im leaving bye kiddies


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[24 Oct 2003|11:01pm]
i fucked up when i tried to put my should look something like this:

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its just enough for me to fall in love with you [24 Oct 2003|10:37pm]
[ mood | sympathetic ]
[ music | cross my heart-the rocket summer ]

i went to the tavern tonight. it was okay. i met becca and juliet there, and then alistair and katy arrived. while i was watching selfish motive i was introduced to this kid named adam. hes quite hot. and then becca suddenly disappeared. for like 4 songs i was like ...hmm...where has becca gone too? and then she came back with like 3 things of "laffy taffy" and some gum. i guess she went to the gas station next store. and then i hung out with becca and adam for a few minutes and then i was introduced to adams friend ryan, who was also hot. comes the sad part...he has like...some kid of limp or something : / it didnt embaress me whenever we were walking together or anything because i dont care about stuff like that, but it made me really sad. i felt really bad for him...not to sound really girly or what ever, but it made me want to cry. i like him though he was really sweet. he kept telling me about how he got his hair cut and it used to look better because it was longer and finally i was like "ryan, its really not as bad as you think it is" and then he kinda blushed and stopped talking about it. haha. and then we were following becca and adam, and well...heres the conversation:
me: "so where are they going?"
ryan: "i dont know, im just following them because adam has my phone"
me: "oh well then ill go with you to keep you company : )"
ryan: "hahahaha, thats cool"
me: "no not really"
ryan: "yes it is, i like being with you"
awwwwwwwwwwwww...hes so nice. but i cant stop thinking about how bad i feel for him! im a bad/sad mood because of it. i shouldnt be, because its not even that big of a deal. its not like hes in a wheel chair or anything, or he has like some mental thing. its just the way he walks. juliet said something to me about it, she was like "aww i think his friend is...retarded : /" and i was like umm...he looks normal to me... and then she told me he was bowlegged or something and i was like juliet being bowlegged doesnt make you retarded. god...why am i so upset over it!? i probably wont even see him again...i hope i do though... but argh! its not just him though, whenever i see anyone like that it makes me sad because i think about how cruel people are and how somebody has probably made fun of them for something they cant even control. god i hate people like that.
shut up brain.


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[24 Oct 2003|06:36pm]
[ mood | scared as hell ]

my best friend has ran away.

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goodbye friend, it wont be long, and until then we'll sing the same sad song [23 Oct 2003|05:42pm]
[ mood | pessimistic ]
[ music | where the circle ends-thursday ]

have you ever felt like you wanna go home, but you already are home? i dont know...but thats how i feel right now. weird, eh? well anyways, thank god tomorrow is friday. i need sleep. ive been stayin up too late to watch i love the 80's strikes back. im lame, i know. either tomorrow or friday im going to the tavern. or maybe i wont go at all. its still up in the air. megans grounded for a couple weeks, but can still go to the shows next month. emilys not grounded! woot woot its about time. shes been grounded for like...5 weeks. and im not exaggerating about this one. yeah so my computer has been so mean to me lately. the cable keeps going on and off and on and off. megan let me borrow the new early november cd to copy but shes my computers a bitch hoe it wont let me burn it. but it came with the special dvd and i watched it yesterday...i couldnt stop laughing. those are some funny guys let me tell you. i noticed when i went to see them (twice teeheehee) that ace danced a lot when we were talking to him and in the little "documentary" one of the guys talked about how he always dances and i was like ohhhh that clears EVERYTHING up. yesterday i had to stay after school for this club meeting (i tutor kids, sweet huh?) and i found a kid (i think hes a freshman) wearing a coheed and cambria shirt and i was like "KID! YOU LIKE CO&CA!?" and he was like "yes i do" and then we chatted for a few and then i ran into the auditorium b/c i was late. and then today i saw him and he asked me about the show next month because i mentioned it yesterday when i was talking to him. hes pretty hot, but he has bling bling in is ear and its funny. OHHHH yesterday someone at my school got expelled for trying to stab someone! crazy stuff. it was in the newspaper and the news and shit. it was this HUGE black kid i think his name is robert... but that is the tallest kid ive ever seen. The other day me and emily made him hide us from ralph (our principal) because he scares us and it worked because that kid is so fuckin tall. i tell ya. makes you wonder what that kids been eating. yeah. im leaving now because i have to do current events for astronomy plus im gonna watch i love the 80s because im so cool.


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i fucked up on the last quote... [19 Oct 2003|02:53pm]
[ mood | runny-nosed ]
[ music | television-The Reunion Show ]

im quite bored...yes i know i just posted something but...just die.

I Want: a mexican pizza from taco bell
I Have: a runny nose
I Wish: that it would be Nov. 21st
I Hate: people at my school
I Miss: ...megan
I Fear: people (mostly women) with huge muscles and bugs
I Hear: "goodnight starlight" by The Juliana Theory and my dad yelling at the tv because his team is losing
I Search: for love
I Wonder: why everyones so ignorant
I Love: men
I Ache: when i see the boy i like... lauren

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i hope you choke on those words the kissed that bottle [19 Oct 2003|02:26pm]
[ mood | morose ]
[ music | i wont lie down-face to face ]

x audio boxer (2:28:03 PM): and i was like i dont plan on trying it because it's WEIRD
x audio boxer (2:28:09 PM): because you have an extra flap of skin
killurtelev1sion (2:28:47 PM): AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
killurtelev1sion (2:28:55 PM): his dirty uncircumsized WEINER
x audio boxer (2:29:54 PM): EW
x audio boxer (2:29:55 PM): EW
^^^conversation with megan about kyles penis

x audio boxer (2:30:12 PM): on the ten cd
killurtelev1sion (2:30:16 PM): yes?
x audio boxer (2:30:16 PM): some girl has an orgasm
x audio boxer (2:30:18 PM): and it's gross
killurtelev1sion (2:30:19 PM): WHAT
x audio boxer (2:30:28 PM): yeah
killurtelev1sion (2:30:30 PM): are you sure its a orgasm
x audio boxer (2:30:38 PM): like it has a bunch of people tlaking
x audio boxer (2:30:40 PM): and she's one of them
killurtelev1sion (2:30:44 PM): maybe she was just frightened
x audio boxer (2:30:51 PM): and she's like on the phone with her friend or something
killurtelev1sion (2:30:52 PM): oh in the 3rd song right?
x audio boxer (2:30:53 PM): or bf
x audio boxer (2:31:03 PM): and she says stuff about people bein naked
x audio boxer (2:31:06 PM): and then she's like OOOOOOOOOH
killurtelev1sion (2:31:08 PM): ...
killurtelev1sion (2:31:12 PM): omg
killurtelev1sion (2:31:16 PM): ten's dirty
killurtelev1sion (2:31:20 PM): but oh so sexy
x audio boxer (2:33:04 PM): god i know
x audio boxer (2:33:07 PM): the dvd is SO funny
x audio boxer (2:33:14 PM): they almost show sergio's butt
x audio boxer (2:33:28 PM): but it's gross cuz he pullls down his panties and farts on jeff while he's sleeping
x audio boxer (2:33:33 PM): and jeff talks about jacking of
x audio boxer (2:33:34 PM): f
killurtelev1sion (2:34:37 PM): HAHAHAHAHA
x audio boxer (2:34:55 PM): AND
killurtelev1sion (2:34:58 PM): sorry my dad had to check something and i was afraid to put your box up because youd say something dirty
killurtelev1sion (2:34:59 PM): and you did
x audio boxer (2:35:09 PM): ace seduces a chair
x audio boxer (2:35:15 PM): and he seduces jeff

anyways, today is a blah day. i watched pleasantville for a while then got on the comp. but im gonna go finish watching it in about 7 minutes.

x audio boxer (2:38:19 PM): she makes you pay for everything whenever you guys go out but she has all this money to buy all this shit
killurtelev1sion (2:38:36 PM): UH YEAH
killurtelev1sion (2:38:41 PM): shes like i have $20
killurtelev1sion (2:38:44 PM): and im like...give it to me
x audio boxer (2:38:55 PM): she owes you like 50
killurtelev1sion (2:39:00 PM): i buy everything for her man, and i always tell her about it
killurtelev1sion (2:39:18 PM): and she was like well i paid for you to go to the movies and taco bell and i was like EMILY THAT WAS YOUR BIRTHDAY
killurtelev1sion (2:39:27 PM): you paid for everyones!
x audio boxer (2:39:35 PM): HAHAH
killurtelev1sion (2:40:18 PM): and then she started talking about how she bought food at the chinese buffet at the mall and i was like...3 people shared it...that hardly counts
x audio boxer (2:40:52 PM): i know cuz it was like 4 dollars
killurtelev1sion (2:41:08 PM): argh i spend a lot of money on that hoe

if emily doesnt pay me back soon...ill kill her.


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breaking hearts has never looked so cool [18 Oct 2003|10:21pm]
eeeeeeeeeeee i got the fall out boy cd, the new thursday cd, and (finally) the senses fail cd at bestbuy i love that store. it had every cd i could ever ask for. well no, not every cd...but you know. my dad is in the other room watching the new matrix...its giving me a head ache. i also got a new wallet today...because my other one was freakin stolen. man i had everything in that wallet. these cards i got from for free were in there in like the picture part ya know...? well when i went to see them in may (the first time teehee cuz i saw them twice in one week BITCH!) i took them with me to get signed and yeah...those are gone. and a couple dollars and my permit and my 9th grade ID and my library card, etc. also me and my madre made me a nifty bag/purse thing. i needed something to carry my shit around in and everything i saw was gay so we made it. its pretty cool man, i think im in love with it...ha.

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im another day late and one year older [16 Oct 2003|05:02pm]
[ mood | angry ]
[ music | jet black new year-thursday ]

well my "friend" emily is in love with the guy i like....all of a sudden she likes him. and guess what? he likes her to...why? thats pretty shitty. why the hell would she do that to me? ive liked this kid for a really long time. all of a sudden whenever she sees joey shes like "oh my god theres joey!" and im like...hey thats my job...ugh i should have known. hmm shes a really good friend. god im so mad. im done


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cross my heart, hope to die i swear i wont say what happened that night [11 Oct 2003|01:50pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]
[ music | Glass To The Arson-Anberlin ]

last night i spent the night at megans. it was mucho fun. we watched a movie about this gay guy. jude law was in it...and we saw his weiner! he is hot. im very sad to say this...but drive thru records is the end of every band. i like most of the bands signed to drive thru...but theyre all selling out. sad. meh i guess theres just no way around it.

we had to go on a 2 mile walk for people with diabetes this morning. it was totally worth it because the most beautiful guy in north carolina was we followed him. lol the we went to this place called jans house for breakfast. that place scared me. it was really small, i think our waitress really was jan. if it was, then i hate jan. and her stupid house. our table was this big: | | and we had about 20 plates all over it. it was chaotic. then i went home because i had to clean my room. yeah well im gonna go get some juice and watch a movie. good day kiddies.


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my t's are dotted and my i's are crossed [07 Oct 2003|07:56pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]
[ music | heres lookin at you-everytime i die ]

well today is already ready for the weekend to come. today kinda sucked. i found out that the kid i like likes me...but also likes megan and juliet. hmm...figures. i give up. BAH.

i went to the doctors today and there was this big thing on the wall about how our area of living has the 13th highest amount of people with syphillis in the COUNTRY. wow. we have nasty people here. holy shit thats gross. i need to remember to ask anyone who i may have sex with about if they have any std's because im not about get one of those mothers. siiiiiiiiick. check this out bitch:
Nov. 7th- A static lullaby
Nov. 14th- thursday thrice coheed and cambria
Nov. 21st- senses fail and wakefield
november is gonna be badass. i cant wait. my throat hurts. meh. im going to bed. no ill probably watch a movie EEEEEEEE THE GOONIES HERE I COME! bahaha


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this is me with the words on the tip of my tounge [03 Oct 2003|06:48pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]
[ music | stuck pig-glassjaw ]

well today we had a p(R)ep rally. it was cool cuz we got out of class. i hung out with megan, emily, meghan, and stephanie(kind of...) and we all froliced around. they started playing some rap so me and megan took the opportunity so show everyone our hot moves. this kid from the bleachers goes "BREAK IT DOWN LAUREN LACAVA!" ...i was like whoa people are actually watching us...neat. then me and megan made friends with the HOT ASIAN!!!!! eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omgomgomgomg hes so sexy...and hes an asian too! does that make sense? should see this kid...i want bed. teehee well anyways tonight we were supposed to see hidden in plain view, i dont remember if i said this but my mom wouldnt let me go, and today megan told me hers wouldnt either so i was like sweet you cant go eithere muahahaha just kidding but yeah so we decided since we have nothing better to do...because we live in north carolina...we'd go to the homecoming game. i was in such a good mood today man, i dont even know why. maybe its because im in love...but who knows lol okay well megans here so i gotta go jump in their mini van and drive off to schoooooooooooooooooooool.


meh i told one of the football players that they were gonna lose tonight, and he laughed and said, "probably." it was funny.

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now and again it seems worse than it is, but mostly the view is accurate [02 Oct 2003|08:53pm]
[ mood | horny ]
[ music | better off alone-count the stars ] was nothing. its getting quite cold outside. oh man the other night i had a dream that becca shaved all her hair off...i got scared. i woke up and i was like holy shit...becca better not have shaved her head!!!!! but she didnt so we're good teehee i just wrote a short story called "Olive" for creative writing. Megan dies in it haha but its actually pretty good. i think this one might be a winner. tomorrow is a pep aka prep rally. its during 6th period, which sucks because 6th period is creative writing and thats such an easy class. all we do is journal for about 10 hours and then read some stuff we've written. i was hoping it'd be during 5th period...fuckin astronomy...blah. i took that class cuz i thought itd be wicked easy...boy was i wrong. i have like a 91 in that class but still...i hate being in there. oh well. the prep rallys gonna be really gay. last year this girl in me and megans class was wearing overalls and she unbuttoned the top and started running around with her pants down. oh my god that girl was so funny. she would sit there during class and eat packets of hot sauce...crazy kid. all its gonna be is cheerleaders jumping around like fuckin jackasses and the football players all gathering together to "get pumped up for the big game"...please. they'll lose. we have the worst football team EVER. no joke, not that i pay attention to it or anything, but i havent heard anything about our varsity team winning a single game...hahahahaha. fuck i need to join the french club asap lol. well i gotta go read...yes i said read.


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