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[03 Nov 2003|01:17pm] |
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I think I should put up missing posters for my boyfreind. Where is Jake? Please don't tell me we went through all of that and broke up then got together again and now he is MIA. For the first time it feels so right.
Damn I know our schedules are secrewed and we miss each other when we call but you have to take time out for each other. I'm hoping he's not one of those guys who disappear from the community ... that has been my track record.
Speaking of guys where the hell is Tobes that lazy bum. He does have an admirer so maybe he's staying low.
Then Tara where is she? Maybe I need to change my deodorant?
(OOC - I'm double posting in CS and ES until I hear from Tobes and Jake-if they don't say I'll quit double entering)
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[14 Oct 2003|08:17pm] |
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Mags should get a journal! I think she actually was the one who made Jake think about us getting back together. Now that I think about it he did come on set to check on Mags. As sibs they are pretty close but still. Speaking of being on the set Mona Lisa Smiles comes out in December. The trailers are out if anyone is interested. (http://us.imdb.com/title/tt0304415/trailers )
– grins - Now that I think about it. Have I said how much I love Jake? Going to a wedding always makes people in a relationship think about where they are headed. I guess more than anything I was just glad that we are together. I thought about the time when we weren’t together. I like being together so much better. He gives a new definition to the term working out. Get you minds out of the gutter. We really do work out together.
I watched Tobey and Tara. I was hoping she would catch the bouquet. It was rather funny that David should catch it. I tried to get Tara to try for the garter but she just blushed when I whispered in her ear. The four of us spending time together was pretty kewl.
Wimbledon is going well. Filming is going well. Paul pissed me off today. For some reason he teased me about Heath. Paul was a great Chaucer, but he doesn’t tease well. Luckily James was there and told him to shut the fuck up. Same thing I said. Why do men enjoy teasing women?
James has gotten me into Dune. We’ve watched all of Dune and have started Children of Dune . The dude is seriously hot, well not as hot as Jake. We have this comfortable relationship kinda sorta like Tobey and me. A gal can never had enough big brothers. Color me excited when I saw he has a journal … way cool. Everyone spam him when he joins. – winks at James -
I’m off to spend some quality time with my Jake. Have I told you how wonderful, talented, funny, sweet and sexy Jake is? Can you tell I’m in love? – blushes -
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[08 Oct 2003|01:26pm] |
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Here I am in Nashville and no one is here. Including Jake but then I didn't expect his schedule to clear up. -frowns-
Let a message for Tobes ... he's not here yet. Hmmm?
Think I'll just crash in my room. Then I'll find Tara.
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[02 Oct 2003|06:46pm] |
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Love gets married in a week. I think that’s so smooth. She’s asked Rose and me to serve the wedding cake. She said she wanted a personal touch to the cake. I don’t know Rose so I look forward to getting to know her. Tara is going to be doing the bride’s book so I’ll have someone to hangout with at least. I’m guessing Tobes will be there too since he and Love are so close. I’m hoping Jake can come.
-smiles broadly-
Two movies should be killing me but I have these Jake fixes. If you’ve never been in love then you don’t know what I mean. All these things bring him to mind and I’m all glowly.
I know it was a shock to most of you when I sang in Get Over It but to tell the truth I sang earlier. I was in You’re A Good Man Charlie Brown. Well one of those songs is in my head and I can’t get it out. I think of Jake and I’m happy: totally, completely and madly. So here’s the song running through my head. I’d put it behind a cut, but I hope there is something in your heart makes you happy too. May this remind you of it?
Happiness is finding a pencil
Pizza with sausage
Telling the time
Happiness is learning to whistle
Tying you shoe
For the very first time.
Happiness is playing the drum
In your own school band.
And happiness is walking hand in hand.
Happiness is two kinds of ice cream...
Knowing a secret...
Climbing a tree.
Happiness is five dif'rent crayons...
Catching a firefly...
Setting him free.
Happiness is being alone ev'ry now and then.
And happiness is coming home again.
Happiness is morning and evening,
Daytime and nighttime too.
For happiness is anyone and anything at all
That's loved by you.
Happiness is having a sister
Sharing a sandwich
Getting along-
Happiness is singing together when day is through.
And happiness is those who sing with you.
Happiness is morning and evening,
Daytime and nighttime, too,
For happiness is anyone and anything at all
That's loved by you.
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[22 Sep 2003|04:40pm] |
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I’ve figured out if I ever need another career I’ll become a tennis pro. NOT!
What they go through is totally amazing. Even though I’ve been preparing for this movie for months most of my concentration had been on Spiderman. Now that I’m focused on Wimbledon my muscles are feeling the burn.
Jake is back –smiles- finally. It’s amazing how one person can totally change your outlook. So I’m crazy about the guy, I admit it more than crazy. Absence does make the heart grow fonder. Now let’s see if it’s improved my cooking? –giggles-
Off to make him an incredible dinner to let him know just how special he is to me. If I burn it well there is always take out.
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[16 Sep 2003|07:40pm] |
Shuffling between two sets, Wimbledon and Spiderman is tiring but I can manage. I am proud of how buff my body is getting. What actors do for their art, right? I thought getting in shape for Bring It On was rough but man. For days my body ached, but I’m really getting into it. What’s even sweeter is Jake works out with me when he’s in town. It makes working out so much more interesting.
Yes we did buy matching rings this past week to symbolize our commitment to each other. Yes I am crazy over the guy. We spent the weekend chilling out in NYC shopping and doing couple things. Just being around him makes everything better.
Started my tennis lessons and I have to say I am developing a wicked backhand. Even beat Jake the other day. I know everyone gushes about their boyfriends but I have the best.
Found Bring It On 2 and can I say sucks much? So I wrapped it up in a brown paper bag and sent it to Eliza. There should be a warning label attached to it.
Off to work out with Jake in the gym this is addicting. ::smiles::
( OCC )
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[06 Sep 2003|07:50pm] |
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I should be exhausted ... I know Tobes is but I guess being in love makes you .... well - blushes-. Okay I said it. I'm crazy over Jake. And yes I did read what he said ... what he told the world. Watching everyone here and the things that go one ... the way people get hurt and well the things we went through ... makes me realize just how lucky I am ... well we are. But more than anything Jake it's the things you say when I'm not around ... I know long distance is hard but with you the distance is worth the difference.
Half the spidy set is all sappy ... so people kind of leave us alone guess they get tired of hearing about Jake and Tara. She does the sweetest things for him and I have to admit to stealing some of her ideas for Jake to surprise him let him know the words he writes on my heart. Can you believe Kiki is sappy? Well she is over one incredible guy who she happens to miss terribly. So you guessed it home watching Donnie Darko ... rereading Virgin Sucides and yeah watching Bring It On. I mean who can resist that movie?
Should be working on Wimbleton but my mind wanders to one incredible guy. Can you blame me? -grins-
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[17 Aug 2003|03:36pm] |
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It is horrible I should feel this happy when people around me are hurting? Nah. The heart feels what the heart feels but I do hurt for those peeps even if I don't know them. Just thinking of Jake makes me smile.
Since Tobe's off doing somethings we have just a few days off. So I snuck off to find Jake and of course by the time I got there he was sound asleep. Something so wonderful about coming in and seeing my picture on his mantel and next to his bed. Okay his place isn't always the neatest but now it was.
In his sleep he felt me there and pulled me into his arms still sleeping. I don't think he ever work up. Okay I admit it I'm a sap.
So I sang to him.
( Dream of Me )
In the quietness of the night the window open and the breeze playing with the curtains the frogs singing in his pond we were alone in the world. It was one of those moments that I knew without a doubt how much I loved him.
I'm still scared ... I want everything right this time. As I watch him sleep he wakes up. "Kiki" he whispers his sweet breath tickles my neck. I kiss him softly and sing again lulling him back to sleep. I just want to be with him.
I love you Jake.
I lay my head down on his chest and fall asleep totally happy for the first time.
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[06 Aug 2003|07:08am] |
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Whoa ... I looked at all the people Tobes misses talking to and I need to get out more. Maybe change friends cause they sure as hell don't miss me.
Early call this morning. I really feel for Tobes. These early calls are killing us. This shoot is so much more complicated that the others. Then having to make allowances for Wimbleton which Rami's been good about but then shooting around for SeaBuscuit and Alfred apparently has something else in the works - well every day isn't always the happiest but we still are one great family.
Yesterday Tobes and I played cards. Ya know when you throw a card in the hat. That's what we did with our down time ... instead of sleeping we talked about Tara and Jake. Maybe it's becaue we know each other so well ... but talking to each other sorta helps in a way. Makes me feel closer to Jake.
Leaving Jake is like having to turn your back on a sunrise. How do you do that? Damn I miss him.
The limo is here. So I'm off ... coffee and Tobes perky face. How is he so damn perky every morning?
-nods off-
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[30 Jul 2003|11:51am] |
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I spent a long time talking with Shane the other night. He loves Maj so much and knows he screwed up. –biased plug for Shane- I tried to cheer him up. Shane I’m here when you need to talk.
This shoot is so much harder than the last one. I’m not sure if it’s true of all sequels or not. But Sam is pushing Tobes so much harder … all of us really. I’m enjoying some of the stunts, but those too are more difficult this time. It’s really been grueling on Tobes.
I have to say that at first I was a bit intimidated by Albert. I saw the movie he was in with Sally Field and he really plays a good bad guy. Watching him on set it was difficult to get that image out of my head. You’d think I’d know … I guess I was so young when I saw it … or maybe it’s the way Iranian men treat their women, but it got to me. That movie mad me chose to do ‘The Devil’s Arithmetic.’
It didn’t take long to feel comfortable with him. He’s become quit a jokester on set and that’s really helped.
Nicky is here. So all of you spam Nicky and make him feel welcome.
-blushes- Jake is amazing. Every minute is so special. I can’t get him out of my head. I get this stupid smile on my face when I think about him. Tobes reminds me every time I grin. I must be grinning a lot. But then so is Tobes.
I took one of Jake’s shirts. Its way to big I know, but it has his smell. I like to wear it when he’s not around. Silly girl thing I know. –sighs- There are times I look at him and my heart just stops. If he knew that would it scare him off again? I’m not good at hiding my feelings where Jake is concerned. It’s like learning to breathe underwater –shakes head-
I saw Love on Orlando last night. She was blonde! Go buy her ‘Barenaked,’ CD. Pleasantville is on this weekend. So watch it and then go see Sea Biscuit.
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[27 Jul 2003|07:41pm] |
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Shane’s here. Everyone make sure you spam say hello. Plus Josh’s birthday is soon so make sure you buy him expensive presents you wish him a happy birthday.
If you haven’t met Hayden, Vince, Jessie, Josh, Tobes, Trent or Shane you are missing out! The sweetest is Eliza. Can I just brag and say I have the hottest costars … Of course the hottest is my leading man and I don’t mean in the movies.
I have to admit having the past few days off has been great. Sleeping late, being lazy and spending all my time with Jake has spoiled me. I am so proud of Tobes – Sea Biscuit is getting such great reviews. Can we say Oscar performance? Yes we can!!! That’d be mad cool.
Jake and I went to Carmel for a few days. The first two days were great – actually the first day. Then we were recognized. He does have some unusual ways of getting around the paparazzi.
Saturday we went to the beach to watch the sunrise. Sitting there in his arms watching the day begin … I knew I only want to watch the sunrise with him. We had a little picnic there with the gulls. Gulls can be frightening. I had the entire movie, ‘The Birds,’ running through my head.
Jake mysteriously had to leave so time to work on lines – again. He made up for it though. –Smiles-
Went back to Jake’s early afternoon to a movie marathon. First we watched, ‘Donnie Darko.’ After it was over he gave me a small lop-eared dwarf bunny. It reminds me more of a Himalayan cat. Of course I named him Jake. Then we watched ‘Bring It On.’ What is it about men and cheerleaders? After it was over, he had that same grin. He scared me cause all I could think about was some gift with a spirit stick, he really scared me when he took me outside. In a tree he’d carved our initials.
The last movie we watched was ‘A Walk to Remember.’ Afterwards we went back outside where he took his telescope and found the star he had named after me. Then we danced in the moonlight. I have something special in mind for you Jake.
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Sometimes everything fits .... just like it's meant to be. That first rush when you see your guy ... how the butterflies flitter in your gut and all you think about is the other person. -smiles- That's how Jake made me feel. I thought that well I'd never feel that way again ... particularly over Jake.
There he was at my door. Seeing him brought make so many memories - the flood gates opened up. We talked all night long. I guess it's the most we've talked in forever. I fell asleep in his arms. I hadn't felt that safe in such a long time.
He brought me a present ... one of those huge puzzles and then he made me put it together. But it was missing a piece. He turned it over and I won't tell you everything he'd written on the back of it but it was so sweet. In his pocket he pulled out the missing piece. On the make of it he'd written his name.
See Kiki I am your missing piece and then he kissed me.
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[16 Jul 2003|11:30pm] |
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I don't even know what to say. There is a certain synchronicity ... something that just makes this feel right. It's not starting over .. I don't know what it is ... it doesn't matter it just is. People may think I'm stupid for trying but I don't care. Anything worth having ... well you know how it goes.
Jake I know you are reading this. You know how to sweep a girl off her feet. -blushes-
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I had to arrive early on set this morning, since Tobes and I snuck out early yesterday. We’d made plans to swim and just talk some in the late afternoon so he could spend some more time with Tara. So I went home. I couldn’t sleep so I got up and watched Donnie Darko.
I open my trailer and it was all I could do to keep from crying. My room was filled with dozens of Sterling Roses. About eight people were watching ‘Bed of Roses,’ with me or knew about it. It certainly didn’t seem like the thing the girls would do, nor did it seem like the thing the guys I was talking with would do.
The cards on all flowers were cryptic … except for one. The vase was one I’d admired a while ago in an antique shop. My hand shook as I opened the card. I recognized his handwriting.
Kiki:
Saw the move and thought of you. Hope you still think about us. I plan on seeing you soon.
Jake
Life continues to be surprising and wonderful. I hadn’t thought about Jake in such a long time.
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[14 Jul 2003|12:31am] |
A day off! Finally a day to just relax and think. Tobey says I should IM more people and get to know them so I guess I will. I actually don't know very many people. So I'm going to IM them I guess.
Everyone say hello to AJ for me cause she's a great friend.
Tobes and Tones thanks for keeping me company.
Jess you are a hoot. (kicks timezones for you)
I just signed to do Elizabethtown in 2004. Shooting Wimbledon and Spiderman wears me out!
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Some lessons are really hard to learn, but I’ve learned several over the last two days. I guess honesty is a rare commodity around here, or I’m just stupid or both.
Things aren’t always what they seem. I guess I’ve been wrong about several things.
Tobes’ plane is flying in late today he'll miss filming; so maybe I’ll just skip work too a first for me.
Where is a knight in shining armour when you need one?
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Damn am I glad I decided to get back online. Tobes you are so gonna die.
All the girls would agree with me on this and pulled the same joke. Tobes wants to know who I'm intersted in and I'm not telling. So we are here in NYC - yeah waiting to go back to LA to film talking about getting out cause we are bored out of our minds - flight back to LA is late tomorrow well today.
Tobes tells me I should talk to Orlando. It was just a joke. I've known Orlando for like two minutes and yes he's my new best friend causethat was a cool joke to play but if Tobes wouldn't worry about my love life. He worries more about it now than he did when we were together. So the whole thing was to get Tobes off my back about my love life.
Don't go all big brotherish on me ... good grief Charlie Brown.
You are so going to pay for that post Peter Parker.
I don't IM people I don't know ... okay well only one but I really wanted to Eliza made me do it.
Vince unlurked. He and Tobes seem to be worried I only have seven friends. Well I have a few costars I haven't said hello to yet and a certain person who was the musical guest while I hosted SNL -coughs-whohadthemostexcellentmovie8mile -coughs-
Hey to all my costars I haven't talked to yet and didn't know you were here -coughs-Josh-coughs- and hey Brittany.
Eliza you should see Vince's face when I talk about you. It's so sweet!
Peter Parker's web slinger might just have problems with his web on Monday. -looks around for James for help-
Now if some people would just quit lurking. -sighs-
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I have to have some serious down town. So while I'm in my trailer between takes I've been on the computer checking out the community to see who I know. I recognize many names and it's impressive but so far no one I really know has posted ... yet.
Thanks to that Hot Sexy Pompom carrying incredibly talented actress Eliza . 'Bring It On,' has been on again. Watching it brings back all those great memories. Yeah the shoot was grueling but it was a hell of alot of fun.
While being incredibly bored and reading journals, I noticed this name survey everyone was taking. Of course I had to try it too. So if you care it's here.
Hey to all my partners in crime costars who I haven't realized are here. I'm not suppose to say hello yet I don't think. But know I love you all.
I think I need a man more friends.
( Kiki Means ... )
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I am exhausted. These day and night shoots are driving us all up the wall. I can’t imagine how Tobey must be feeling it has to be hard on him as he is in almost every scene. Tobey is such a sweet guy; it’s good that we can be friends after having gone out during the last Spiderman movie. I can’t forget James either. Of course when those two start joking on me … I’ll get them back. They’ve also started calling me MJ all the time.
Of course having this many movies in a row probably wasn’t the smartest of choices. We’d just wrapped Mona Lisa Smiles then I had to go straight to Spiderman. That was an interesting movie and I got to work with Elijah so that was with the good. At least the producers aren’t giving me grief about Wimbledon and with the problems with that production I might get a bit of a rest, otherwise we will be filming both and that will be incredibly difficult.
As far as Spiderman goes, AJ is great as our evil villain. I’ve been a fan since Species. He’s always cracking jokes. This time the set is more like a family. They are even talking about Spiderman III. We all just look at them. I think we will all be glad when this movie wraps.
Well, duty calls or I should say my favorite web slinger calls.
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