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[16 Sep 2003|05:01pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

I could lose my heart tonight
If you don't turn and walk away
'Cause the way I feel I might
Lose control and let you stay
'Cause I could take you in my arms
And never let go

I could fall in love with you
I could fall in love with you

I could only wonder how
Touching you would make me feel
But if I take that chance right now
Tomorrow will you want me still?
So I should keep this to myself
And never let you know

I could fall in love with you
I could fall in love with you

And I know it's not right
And I guess I should try to do what I should do
But I could fall in love
Fall in love with you
I could fall in love with you

Siempre estoy soñada en ti
Besandos mis labios, acariciando mi piel
Abrazadome con ansias locas
Imaginando que me amos
Cómo yo podia amar a ti

So I should keep this to myself
And never let you know

I could fall in love with you
I could fall in love with you
I could fall in love
I could fall in love
With you...

- Groans - Damnit...
Kiss Me

[12 Sep 2003|09:53pm]
[ mood | Burnt ]

[ PRAISE GOD MY BLURTY WORKS AGAIN! Stupid thing made me have to keep logging into my username. Anyway, update time. ]

Why must I have sunburn? - She frowns whimpering when her face burns from the movement of her skin - Dangit. It's September, it's supposed to be cold, I'm not supposed to be getting sunburnt. Although, maybe I shouldn't say that because I DO believe it's possible to get burnt WHEN it's cold outside as well.

I'm having to take a trip to Connecticut soon. A trip I'm not looking forward to making. I honestly don't feel like seeing my "Mother" or my "Father" I guess it's one of those things I have to do. I know it's going to hurt me, so much by going. - Sighs softly -

I'm not really up to making one of those large updates, yes, I know, this update was dull, right now it's all I feel like writing. My face is burning... aloe will be my new best friend.

Kiss Me

[09 Sep 2003|11:14pm]
[ mood | artistic ]

It's never going to happen... I just need to throw myself into my art and focus only on that for a while. It'll be good for me. I've been worrying wayyyy too much.

Anyone want to be my model?

Kiss Me

OOC [07 Sep 2003|07:53pm]
Why the heck isn't anyone ever online? It's kind of hard to keep a community going when you have no one on to rp with. If there aren't different storylines there isn't an rp. If you're not online there isn't a storyline. I realize most of you get busy, but come on people. I'd really hate to see this community die. Wouldn't you? It's been around forever and it should stay that way.
Kiss Me

[06 Sep 2003|11:33am]
[ mood | anxious ]

I know you're all getting tired of seeing lyrics, BUT they have meaning.

With that said...

When you light those candles
Up there on that mantle, setting the mood
Well, I just lie there staring
Silently preparing to love on you
Well, I can feel the heat from across the room
Ain't it wild what a little flame can make you wanna do

I melt every time you look at me that way
It never fails, anytime, any place
This burn in me is the coolest thing I've ever felt
I melt

Don't know how you do it
I love the way I lose it, every time
What's even better
Is knowing that forever you're all mine
The closer you get, the more my body aches
One little stare from you is all it takes

I melt every time you look at me that way
It never fails, anytime, any place
This burn in me is the coolest thing I've ever felt
I melt

I melt every time you look at me that way
It never fails, anytime, any place
This burn in me is the coolest thing I've ever felt
I melt

Every time you look at me that way
I melt, I melt
I melt
Kiss Me

[06 Sep 2003|10:44am]
[ mood | hopeful ]

I have a surprise for someone, I put a lot of thought into it and, I really hope he likes it.

Kiss Me

[04 Sep 2003|05:24pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]
[ music | This Love - Unknown ]

- Sighs - I need a night out...

If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
Kiss Me

[04 Sep 2003|02:24pm]
[ mood | guilty ]

I just got word from California CALIFORNIA. Informing me that one of my paintings has sold, I almost fell out of my chair when I heard the sum of money that was paid. The only word I could form was, "what?"

"He offered four-thousand dollars Miss." Those were the words that came out of the young lady's mouth, on the other end of the line. I feel so bad...taking this money, it's not like I deserve it. I'd GIVE him the painting, if he wanted it that bad.

I don't know what to do...

Kiss Me

[03 Sep 2003|08:42pm]
[ mood | shocked ]

I just hung up with my mother after a three and a half hour phone call, she told me the reason she had been acting to weird the other night.

I sure as hell wasn't expecting to hear the words that came out of her mouth. I never thought I'd hear that from her. My "Mother." - She sighs -

I think I'm going to be sick...

Kiss Me

[30 Aug 2003|11:24am]
[ mood | disappointed ]

:-: Kikii steps out of her bedroom dressed in only a towel, the other towel wrapped around her head, with a sigh she walks across the living room to the coffee table, bending over to pick up a magazine the laptop on the couch catches her eye. Dropping the magazine she walks to the couch and sits down opening her laptop, clicking it on to let it boot. Clicking on an icon to log into her journal, places her fingers on the keys when a clear page comes up, starting to type. :-:

Where to start? I guess my life is still okay, I've been spending most of my time working on my paintings, as well as going to work. Work is killing me, I told my boss I'd work a couple more hours than I usually do each day/night that I work. Big mistake.

I haven't seen...him in a long time. Maybe this is a hint to me that he no longer wants come around and see me. - She sighs - I thought he'd at least, tell me in person, instead of avoiding me. If that's even what he's doing, I have no idea. I just want him to be happy and if this is what makes him happy then, what can I do? I'll support his choice. He comes first.

On another note, it seems my brother Xander has left. I'm not quite sure what to think about that anymore. I'm not sure what to think about him anymore. He began acting so different, so clingy. Maybe he'll be happier out in California. When my parents found out he left my mother gave me a call, we began talking about the past. She kept acting really strange then told me I needed to make a trip over to see them, that we had something to "discuss" That really scares me, my mom has never acted like that towards me. Guess we'll see what that's about if I decide to make the trip to see them.

I don't even know why I write this stuff, are you people even remotely interested in my life or what I have to say? I doubt it.

:-: Clicks 'Update Journal' and shuts her laptop. Lays it on the couch and gets up walking into her room to get dressed for the day. :-:

Kiss Me

Longing.. [26 Aug 2003|10:49pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]

Skin the color of cinnamon
His eyes light up and I melt within
Feels so good it must be a sin
I can't stop what I started
I'm giving in
He brings life to my fantasies
Sparks a passion inside of me
Finds the words when I can not speak
In the silence, his heartbeat is music to me
Kiss Me

[23 Aug 2003|10:46am]
[ mood | contemplative ]

- Kikii walked very carefully through her apartment, whincing from the burn on the fronts of her legs and tops of her feet. She sighs wishing the pain would subside. Walking into the kitchen,paintbrush in hand she grabs a bottle of water from the now fully stocked fridge before making her way back into her bedroom. Sitting down she looked at the face on the canvase, the body she loved the touch, those eyes she sighs and picks up her paintbrush adding the finishing touches to her painting. -

It's amazing how much of him I remember in my mind. I haven't seen him in so long - A frown forms on her face. - I have so many things to tell him. I miss touching him, the smell of him. Damnit... - Shakes her head trying to clear her mind -

I'll have you work on you later. - She talks to the painting before grabbing the white sheet draping it over the canvase, she stands and makes her way into the living room. Sitting down on the couch she picks up the remote and turns on the television, finding an interesting movie she lays back and watches.

Kiss Me

[22 Aug 2003|12:59pm]
[ mood | Hurt ]
[ music | Avril Lavigne - Losing Grip ]

This morning hasn't started off well.

First I took my dog out for his daily walk, and this man feels the need to make noises, gestures and whistle at me. Maybe it's just me, but I do not find that in the least bit attractive. Sorry, but I want a real man.

While I was walking, I step into a crack on the sidewalk, fall completely on my backside in front of everyone. Needless to say, I was mortified. It was funny though I soon began laughing at myself remembering the way I was laying when I had fallen. But so SO embarrassing.

After I finally got home I figured I'd make something to eat. I thought "Well, I'll make pasta, it'll be a change." I went to pour the pasta through a strainer and the water went everywhere I burned my legs and my feet. - She sighs softly, shifting in her seat - Today has been a bad day.

I need some love. - Pouts -

Kiss Me

My life... [20 Aug 2003|01:44pm]
[ mood | happy ]
[ music | Sweet Misery - Michelle Branch ]

My life has changed in so many ways over these past few weeks. I'm very happy with my life and where it's going.
I think before I was more focused on, the bad things in my life. Now I'm focusing on the good. I'm focusing on my paintings and sketches. I've even sold a few. When I sit down and paint, I'm relaxed, everything wrong that's in my life dissapears. I get to focus on the beauty of things, on the beauty of people.
One of the reasons I began drawing and painting nudes is because of my love for the human body. The way God made us. The hollows and curves of the body, lips the way they look when someone smiles, or pouts, even a frown can be beautiful. Hands, long slender fingers of a man. Eyes, the windows to our soul. So many different beautiful body parts, and I get to capture them.

I've also been decorating my apartment, with the help of a...- Grins - friend. They've helped make my apartment beautiful. Sometimes I never want to leave. Damn jobs.

Lately I've been thinking about my singing, do I want to persue it? Do I want to give it up and just focus fully on my art? I'm not quite sure yet, I guess we'll see how things go.

So, until my next update.


Kiss Me

[18 Aug 2003|01:27am]
[ mood | hot ]

I must say, thanks to a certain living room has had a miraculous make-over.

I love it. I want to see you

Kiss Me

[14 Aug 2003|10:20pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]

I gottttt a new pupppyyyy

Kiss Me

[11 Aug 2003|06:27pm]
[ mood | flirty ]

I need to see a certain someone tonight, I'm getting lonely without them around. You know who you are.

Kiss Me

[06 Aug 2003|12:58pm]
[ mood | geeky ]

:-:Kikii slowly sits up in her bed looking around the room, climbing off the large bed she walks to the balcony doors pushing them open to let some more light in. Smiles glancing down at the city before making her way to her bathroom. Quickly washing her face and brushing her teeth she walks to the kitchen putting on a pot of coffee and grabbing her laptop from the counter. Flops down on her soft white couch opening the laptop,she lets it boot before signing on and logging into her journal. Placing her fingers on the black keys she begins to type.:-:

These past few days have been good. I have to go to work tonight blah, I hate closing it makes me nervous. I don't like being there by myself at night, it's creepy, but you do what you have to.

I got to hang out with Andie lastnight, she doesn't really say anything but somethings really going on with that girl. Something's wrong, I know she's a bit unhappy about not seeing Jason as much as she'd like but, something is REALLY going on. It's much deeper then she lets out, I see it in her eyes when she looks at me. On a happier note she let me paint her. Since I'm such a nice friend I didn't make her get fully nude, it's amazing what you can do with a white sheet. She looked beautiful and I think Jason really liked the painting :-:Laughs softly:-: but he is a guy so of course he'd like it.

I'm really hoping to get some of my paintings sold, it would be a really awesome feeling to know someone liked my work enough to buy it. I'm not really in it for the money, hell I'd GIVE my paintings away if anyone would take them. The money would just be a bonus for me.

I haven't really seen my brother around lately, I talked to Sarai the other day and she said he helped her out a great deal with her job. If you ask me I think he likes her, I know my brother and the way he thinks. I'm also not as blind or stupid as he believes.

Anyway this update is longer then I expected. I have to go take a shower, then I'll go out and see what I can do until I go to work.

:-:She clicks 'Update Journal' and shuts her laptop laying it on the couch. Gets up walking into the bathroom for her shower:-:

Kiss Me

[05 Aug 2003|02:13pm]
[ mood | flirty ]

:-: She opens her eyes and sits up slowly, her slender,tan body curled up in a soft white linen sheet. Rubs her hands over her eyes before looking around the room. She softly smiles and lays back down burrying her face in the soft pillows:-:


Kiss Me

[05 Aug 2003|12:13am]
[ mood | hopeful ]

I want another today...

Kiss Me

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