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 I was only 6-years old when Mommy finally got her own apartment in New Haven so I could come to live with her. I moved in just before 1st-grade started. Although I'd spend vacations with her at the communes, it had been over 3 years since I'd actually resided with my mother - since the time she ran away from home, leaving me with her mother. Anyhow, Winchester Avenue Elementary School was, from the first day, a bitter disappointment. The only reading books they had were the "See Dick and Jane" ones. I needed more than that; I wanted to learn and I was way beyond Dick and Jane at that point. By the fourth day of not learning anything, I pressed the teacher to find out when there would be something there for me to learn, too. That white woman hissed at me, "Look - this is all there is for you people! ...And this is all there willever be!"So, after just one week of finally being able to come home to Mommy, I had to make a choice between my mother and my education. The day after that shit happened, I went back to Danbury to live with my grandmother because her district was zoned for bussing to a new school built especially for the suburban white kids. It had the works, including a 4th-grade Lippencott reader for me to learn at my level. My first day there, I froze when it came to the lie: "...with liberty and justice for all." That was clearly some blatant bullshit; there was no justice for me or mine. I took my hand from my heart and defiantly sat down. Of course this was unheard of in 1972 and quite a scandal ensued but I didn't give a fuck and from that day to this, I ain't never stood up for or saluted their mother-fukkking, markkk-of-the-beast, god-forsakkken flag. No justice, no motherfuckin' peace.
No piece of me.Over 30 years later, not much has changed. Today, the public school farce in Albany state capitol of New York, is comprised of approximately 75% Black students - only 33% of whom are graduating from highschool. That is an outrage! ...An indescribable disgrace! New York touts the, "no child left behind" credo in theory (and politricks), but in actuality, their mis-education system is as classcist, racist and vile as ever. The institutionalized abuse and neglect of impoverished and so-called minority children in the U.S. is usually too much for some children to bear as is evident in their exodus from the hypocrisy... And unlike me, most of them have no alternative place to go - except straight into circumstances that lead them into an even worse situation. ...Which is the system as-it-is, doing what it was engineered to do. No justice, no motherfuckin' peace.
No piece of me.
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Dealing with most of my paternal relatives is like picking the scab off of an eternal festering wound. It's putridness stings my senses into automatic recoil. Deciding not to attend the funeral last week, was the first major step I've ever made toward releasing the whole maggot-foul lot of them.
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Good morning, Papa Ellegua!
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Everyone is asleep and I have some time to myself. Thank Goodness Yusef starts school on Monday. That bullshit racist goddammed school we had him in last year took 3 weeks to send his records - all they had to do was fax 2 sheets of paper and they bullshitted us, the registration in this city and the guidance counselors for 3 f*cking weeks. I called the Superintendent here on Tuesday and his assistant sounded pretty serious about the level of bull going on from that other source. I phoned her Thursday afternoon and she was shocked that they still hadn't sent it. When she hung up with me, she was not the least bit amused. ...First thing this morning (yesterday morn actually, since it's after midnight), I get a call from his guidance counselor at the new middle school to in inform me that he may start at anytime because they got the paper work Thursday (I wish I could have heard what that Superintendent's assistant said to light a fire under those fools asses). Actually, she did say something about having the super here call the super there... In anycase, now we don't have to deal with those unbelievably dispicable creeps from Amsterdamned, New York anymore! 
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