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so here´s my philosophy:
if you´re gonna eat ice cream, go for the gusto.
none of this mamby pamby over eating just a bit, as to somehow preserve your well worked on flat tummy, or those saddlebag-less thighs.
you can´t compromise with the omnipotent ice cream, and cookies.
my case: tonight, home alone, a few cookies left, and some old chocolate ice cream that hasn´t been touched.
i have been good for days, exercising, not even allowing myself one morsel of cookie, as i knew i would plunge into binge state, and eat...well...many.
so, there i was, spoon in hand and forget the bowl...who the hek needs a bowl for ice cream?
i sat in the dimmed light of josefa´s ikea-bought kitchen scarfing down chocolate ice cream and listening to U2.
ahhhhhhh, the pleasure of it all.
i´m sure that the guilt from the amount of fat consumption will catch up to me tomorrow morning, or even tonight as i´ll probably do enough situps to somehow justify my binge.
oh, i forgot the leftover homemade chocolate chip cookies from last week...ha, yeah i had 3 of those, too.
although, they were smaller than i would´ve liked.
i haven´t quite been able to figure out this disastrous habit, or quite possibly, a gene that causes this insatiable desire to eat sweets, preferably after a good hearty dinner.
i could be full to the hilt, barely able to bring a straw to my mouth for another sip of water...
but alas, there is candy, and chocolate, and sweets to be had!
i have begun to notice this pattern in my family members as well...and NOT the men.
see, men are lucky...not only do their metabolisms kick in higher than womens´ (so they lose weight at a much faster rate), but they don´t have those vicious cravings for the sinful confectionaries.
i mean, i was one step from walking outside and searching all of pollensa by foot until i found a nice pint of chunky monkey...but i don´t have a key to her flat, and no one is home...so i am confined to the house.
a shame, indeed.
what are your thoughts?
i mean, i know that i can´t be the only 22 (23 in 13 days!!) year old with these horrible cravings, that will probably be the death of me, or that will just cause a nice roll on the 'ol belly.
do ya'll have cravings like this?
please relieve me of my guilt, quick!!! :)
on other notes, i have read 3 books in a week, or nearly 3...i am halfway through the 3rd, hoping to finish tomorrow evening.
i have never been an avid reader, although i enjoy it, but i seem to have this horrible condition of reading narcolepsy...
the instant i set my eyes on the written word, and get linear, i am out.
but this week, i have somehow been graced with the good fortune of being able to stay awake for more than one page...in fact, i have read 2 books over 200 pages, and this 3rd is 350 pages...
i cannot understand what has brought on this new found ability and love for the written word.
i feel empowered, like a little kid who has just figured out how to blow bubbles with his pink bubbleyum for the first time.
moments like these are noteworthy, for me at least.
i feel i can walk in a library and actually appreciate those dusty little things we call books.
amazing.
to add to this new found love, i have begun to write books in my head...
i´m not sure how else to digress upon this notion...
but i find myself thinking in the same way that one would write a story, but it´s about my own life experiences.
i sit there and literally write pages and pages of stories in my head, but never actually write them down.
if this is what reading does to me, we could all be in trouble, as my mind already suffers from the disease of over analytical-isms.
i am definitely on a sugar high...and it feels marvelous.
long live sucrose, lactose, fructose, and all those other '-oses' that make up the marvelous sugar molecules!
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