Below are the 12 most recent journal entries recorded in Kelly's Blurty:

Friday, April 18th, 2003
3:46 pm	yo yo yo!! haha hello!!! wow its been like a week. But we're on SpRiNG BrEaK!!! ahhh its so great. ive been waiting for this for like ever. so nice...tho i have to do like 5 projects...but w/e. i got up at noon today and i cleaned the house coz people are coming over tonight. it took me 3 1/2 hours. goodness...but yeah it should be fun. Its really cold and i have a softball game tonight. they are gonna cme watch it first then come back here. ahhhh, o well. School has been going well...finally im like in a good mood. I know wut did it, but id rather not share on here. some of ya know already...but yeah OMG in DE yesterday we were in the library and ms. whitman yelled at me. she was gonna write me up for having water in my purse, and me and rob were dissing on her so bad. haha then his computer froze so he had to get her...poor rob. ure lucky i took those papers! i dunno wut else, i know this is short but i still gots stuff to do so im gonna go...bye bye Current Mood: energetic Current Music: addicted Simple Plan (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 8th, 2003
6:11 pm	long time hey!!! i havent written since like forever ago. i dont know, a lot of shit has happened and i dont feel like reliving it. but all imma say is im a "stalker", he believed it, and i havent talked to him since. So please dont ask, coz i may flip out. Anyway other than that things have been pretty boring. This weekend i didnt hang out with anybody. Well Friday night Erica and I went to Mr. Mustang. it was fun, and next year i think we should all go coz i laughed soooo much! haha..."is this good charlotte?" that was really funny Saturday me and mommy went shopping, and then i put together a new computer desk, and i had softball practice. the girls went to the mall, and i just didnt feel like it. first off i had no $$, second i wasnt finished building the damn desk, and i had to do my italian poster. so i was like w/e...and plus i wasnt in the best of moods... Sunday me and mommy started to redo the puter room. then i had to babysit, and it wasnt fun stuff. Monday me and mommy stayed home to finish the puter room. Then we went out to eat and of course shopping again! but i guess it was a good weekend, spent some quality time with my momma and i guess i needed it. Arg, guess wut? i got up at midniight last night, thinking it was time to go to school and i got a shower and my mom came upstairs and she was like "kel, wut are ya doin'?" i was like geting a shower, she was like its only midnight. well didnt i feel like an ass, so i got back in bed and had a restless night after that...grrr.... I got a 10 on my Italiano poster today!!!! yay! it brought my test grade up from a 84 to a 94, which brought my grade up to an A for the marking pd. ahhh i was happy. and then i got a 92 in bio (highest in class) and i got an 88 in english, so im rocking it...lol. i dunno, geometry is gonna be really low...ahhh im scared but w/e. when the hell m i gonna need to use thm 45-45-90 anyway? w/e In english we are watching the Dead Poet's Society, but coz i wasnt there yesterday i dunno wut is going on...argh...its all good, just when it comes time to do the questions im screwed. today i came home and took a nap, and then i uhhhh cleaned my room and bathroom. Mommy treatened to take my room back if i didnt clean it, so i did. An now tonight i just have to read like 2 chapters in The Catcher in the Rye (i like it, just i dunno its weird) and italian homework. and study for history, but ill do that in lunh tomorrow. Tomorrow we play CHerry Hill East...its gonna be freezing, i dunno know how imma sit there and do that book. Ummmm i really need to talk to Christina...about stuff. other than that i cant wait to go to bed tonight. haha well im gone dont feel like looking for one! KeL BeL Current Mood: calm Current Music: none (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 30th, 2003
1:21 pm	so0o0o0o well things are alright i think now! im in a much better mood than i was like 2 days ago. hehe friday wasnt a good day, i got in a fight with someone who does mean a lot to me, and it was over something really stupid (fighting is bad) but we made up and are cool now. and yes im prolly gonna use some of her advice!!! friday night i went to Amanda's party. It was fun!!!! frankie look alike DJed and yeah we had a good time dancing and stuff. I just wish, well there was someone there for me to dance with. haha but it was fun...then miss Marie slept over and we had this long talk about feelings and all. i can totally relate to her problems, but they are different. saturday we watched center stage and then i got ready to go to Jess's sweet 16. well i came on line for a lil bit and these people were IMing me, and they wouldnt say who they were. well about 2 hours later i find out its the frosh, his friend, and ash funk. lol well i was very frustrated! but its all good, and as soon as i found out it was him i had to go to the party. well when i got on over jess's house he asked me if i liked him...and of course i like him....hes a cool kid, i just dont like him like that. HOW can i?? i dont know him but he obviously knows me (haha convo yesterday). but like i hate people when people assume that. i just want to be friends. and ever since that day in lunch...(haha Christina) Last night was fun. we danced...the perculator and the cha cha slide and he tootsie roll and we did ballet...lol and ummm i dunno... jess got her sweet 16...she got with the kid she is like in love with. (he stopped over) and yeah it was fun. i did my justin timberlake, and i acted like the lion from the lion king when we were listening to disney music (seriously we are scary alone) then i got in this epressed mode coz i started thinking bout stuff and i wasnt myself. My insecurities were racking my brain again and it wasnt fun. so danielle and i talked about it and she made me feel a lil better. i learned that i have to let go, so someone else can...and its the truth i think. its all good. this morning wasnt good, my mom and brother are picking on me...grrr i just want them to leave me alone! lol but im okay...i guess im gonna go Somewhere in your dreams Let my lips come close to you, Though they're only dreams Someday they may all come true. *until i met you, i didnt know wut it was like to look at someone n smile for no reason!* KeL BeL Current Mood: and scared Current Music: Bowling For Soup Girl all the Bad Guys Want (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 27th, 2003
8:24 pm	haha wut a wonderful day It has been a great day. It started off well, and i gots lots a compliments, which put me in a really good mood. And so i wrote him a note last night. i explained myself and apologized (sorta) and if he didnt sit with me today i was gonna give it to him. well he did, so i gave it to him then and i told him not to read it...he said okay. well we talked for a lil bit and then he went back to his table. i looked up and he was reading it. (haha i saw that) and ash was looking over his shoulder. he quickly pulled it away and gave us a look, but ha i dunno. i dont care i just didnt want her to read it, coz i dont want her to know whats going on with me and the frosh. its none of her business...right?? Ahhh but he gave me his screen name, and haha he was on for like 3 minutes. but i didnt im him. i didnt want to be like hey! lol...i dunno just jumping into things like that isnt cool. so then iw as gonna and he signed off...i went grrrr. but it okay. todays scrimmage went well. we won 22-0!!! go gurls! they were being told to strike out purposely...and thats a bad thing. so yeah go gurlies. and marie she has great hair! both of them! og...insiders...i luv them okay well i gots nothing else to write coz i have no life. cant wait til tomorrow!! *sometimes i know i can't open my eyes because then he will vanish into thin air* KeL BeL Current Mood: hyper Current Music: Josh Groban (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 26th, 2003
5:25 pm	bad day! Well i cant really put too much in here on wuts going on with me and this kid from school. yet anyway...but my friends know who he is. so yesterday he comes in lunch and sits with me and we do this thing together and i dunno he was so cute. and then today he didnt even look at me. and i dont get it. does me being a sophomore and him a frosh have nething to do with it? i dunno....but i gues i have to wait to see wut happns tomorrow. yesterday i wrote him and note and at the bottom i was like write back and he didnt... :*( so i dunno wut to think and i got all flustered. i went to my locker after lunch and steve comes up to me with more drama...about him and ash and stuff and i just got really mad. coz it seems that no one is grateful for the relationship they are in. i know its hard, and times get rough sometimes, but people are fighting more than they get along. i would give anything to have that support of a boyfriend, and i dunno, no one realizes that. but thats all im saying coz im not getting in trouble you know how the frosh and Carlos, moved in lunch to ash funks table? well shes on my bus and i wanted to see wut was up...so i asked her today if she was with him...she said no, but they like eachother. altho they both are just gonna stay friends...for now...w/e i dont care anymore. haha...he was just a "holy moly hes gorgeous thing" and he still is. my punky PR...ha and the frosh is a preppy italian. wut the hell?? i think its the dark hair ;) Today i came home and i took a nap, coz i havent been home after school in like 2 weeks and i was exhausted and really upset. so it was all good and now im talking to eric, marie, mike and erica...so its all good...i guess im gonna go It's like a bad movie He is lookin' through me If you were me, then you'd be Screamin' "Someone shoot me!" As I fail miserably KeL BeL Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: Bowling for Soup Girl All the Bad Guys Want! (Comment on this)
Friday, March 21st, 2003
11:58 pm	movie night at Kels hah tonight was fun. Everyone, well jess, li, ash, dee and eric cam over to watch The Ring tonight. I didnt think it was that scary, i mean i didnt look at the scary parts becoz they were all saying when they were and it asnt quiet so u really couldnt like concentrate on it. lol so if i had been in the movie theatre i prolly would have been scared to death. omg how freaky...the DVD player i guess got screwed up in the middle of the movie and the screen started blinking yellow and stuff and we couldnt stop the movie. holy moly it was scary. like i guess coz the whole tv thing in the movie and then it happens to ours. ahhh it was definately not cool. lol we were freaking out! jess and dee were acting crazy like normal...singing and dancing...wut else is new? ha i really think when they are together they are like insane...but ya know...dancing forks...and eric we loved ure support...j/k o well off to bed soon, talk to everyone in the morning...gotta get up bright and early for the game, bus leaves at 9! Nighty nite KeL BeL (Comment on this)
3:34 pm	Today we had off. Ah it was nice to sleep in, not getting up at 5:20. So i slept until 10 and i got up to watch the war coverage. scary stuff. then i got up and got myself going for the day. I did half of my childhood homework and i have to finish a book by monday, but w/e it will get done eventually. otherwise ive been pretty bored today. everyone has their a/m on! I think everyone wants to hang out this weekend? yes? im not sure but it would be fun i guess...i havent hung out with the gurls since like 2 weeks ago. daddy is coming here again tonight, im not in the mood to see him! grrrr him and my uncle they are doing something to sign off the mortgage, i dunno... um...nothing else is really going on. softball is going well for school anyway. for town...ugh dont even get me started...right ash? lol i cant wait til tomorrows practice...NOT REALLY! Watching this stuff on the war makes me really nervous. then again when i think about this war, i really dont even know the reason we went to war. i know saddam wouldnt give up his weapons or power, but does it go back to 9/11? ugh so confusing!!!! and as much as i hate the kid across the street i feel bad for his family. His brother is on the front line stationed in Kuwait. hes probably not there anymore, hes probably well on his way in Iraq so that makes me even more nervous. Eric u cant confuse me like that! it makes me nervous! lol yeah and i dont see any rain. and watch that umbrella next time! i didnt think it was that funny! OMG OMG OMG i hate my research paper grade! ahhh i got a 84 on my english paper and everyone else got a 90 something. ahhhhhhhhh! but i guess i deserved it, but im so mad at myself. i had a really bad conclusion and grrrr i dont get it sometimes but w/e. i thought it was a damn good paper! BoReD!!! so i dunno wut i m gonna do, wait to see if nebody is up to nething for tonight....we'll see. kk well im gonna go I want to be remembered as the girl who always smiles. The one who could brighten your day... even when she couldn't brighten her own. KeL BeL Current Mood: bored Current Music: Beauty and the Beast Soundtrack (Comment on this)
Saturday, March 15th, 2003
3:33 pm	yo! ahhh, i havent written in a while. its all good tho. Things are good right now i guess. Everyone is happy this week, its amazing. KEEP IT LIKE THAT! hehe lunch was interesting yesterday! carlos...ahhh he sat at our table and i think ti made that bitch jealous...i dont know her name but he sat next to me and he was all talking to me and stuff...it was good. hes cute. he lives in the middle of bellmawr lake, and christina lives in it, so they are neighbors...haha yesterday was the first JV scrimmage. go gurls! they won 12-1. i got hit by a foul...its wasnt cool, thanx McClain. haha. they did goos and this season looks like a lot of fun i went and saw ash's scrimmage today. she looks good up there pitching. she always does. throw them strikes, watch out for them ballz...haha...itll make her smile! my dad was here last night, and my parents were fighting again...i wish he would just leave us alone...hes really annoying. like his cousin bought him a new computer and it just boggles my mind that after everything he has put me and mommy through people just drop and give him shit. like is it fair? me and mommy dont get all the extra help, and hes the one that put us in the hole. grrrrr pisses me off, and yet mommy still has yet to receive a check for me...hmmmm wonder where that is? oh yeah how could i forget, he doesnt work...he cant give her one!!!!! ahhhhhhhhh well i have softball practice in 20 minutes. it should be good. Lisa is coaching for us this year...thats awesome. shes so much fun! so sad she isnt on our team this year! Go Hawks! Eric hes all cool now. him and dee hung out last night. he said it went well so yay! things are good with them. she worries me a lot! the group is hanging out tonight, but i made plans with ging, so yeah i cant break them...that would be wrong, but they know i would be there if i didnt already have plans. i think tonight me and christina are gonna watch the ring. i never saw it before so im gonna try to brave through it. ha! we'll see and ging u better not chicken out on me either! Marie, Brooke, and I have a great time managing. Marie and I are gonna be best friends. Brooke u can be our sidekick. haha Just Kidding. we love you Brooke. i told marie some stuff the other day that i have never ever told anyone before. kelly and marie secrets. luv them! and talk all u want marie, believe u me, i will tell u to shut up when i dont feel like hearing it anymore. have a good saturday night. hope things gor well for u! well i have to get ready to go to practice, so when i get a chance i will write again. Cheerleaders say oops I broke a finger nail, Softball players say oops I broke my finger! hehe, dee i knew u would appreciate this one KeL BeL Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: Kenny G mommy is listening to it! (Comment on this)
Saturday, March 8th, 2003
1:10 pm	hes here again My dad is here again...my parents are fighting like usual. I cant stand it, im telling u, him being gone has been so peaceful and now that he is here for 10 minutes they are fighting. OMG! i was in sucha good mood and now im all blah again. AND OMG he had the nerve to ask me to go see his shrink with him...im like wut the hell...y would he ask me that! AHHH Last night i went to Ash's to help her babysit. We had a good time. She made me laugh and thats what i needed last night (and right now). We talked about the asshole, right ash? and we both talked about feelings and stuff. It felt good. ugh and now im crying... Tonight i have to go to my cousin's spaghetti dinner. It should be interesting and them i m going bowling with the El Groupo (lol eric) im excited i guess we havent been bowling in forever. so it should be interesting...i suck! hopefully he goes! ahhh im nervous, but i will be alright..hehe School was alright yesterday. Nothing interesting happened. In gym i had to play against chandelliers class. ahhh it sucked we were playing hockey and i was all embarrassed. lol wut else is new? In preschool we had the kids. that was interesting, i got to hand out stickers and ahhh all thos kids can make ya crazy...that class is a good form of birth control...believe u me! Ahhh finally Christina and i can talk again like normal. I dont know it felt good that she was letting me in on her life yesterday. She told me some personal stuff and like im glad shes not a mystery to me anymore. im glad shes coming to her senses too. An ging, for ure good mood, go in for the kill, who cares if something happens, take care of that then. Remember i will ALWAYS be here for you...just like the summer...luv ya chica...RED!!!haha i love lunch! Softballf ro school started. Im managing and stuff...it should be fune, but yesterday i come to find out that people whos bnames arent even on the list are gonna manage and that means there is like 7 of us for JV and Varsity and ahhh thats not good so we are gonna have to talk to Mr. Smit...but i think me and u are covered Brooke! Go StAnGs~ lol ash, my varsity playing chica...watch them balls now...j/p ~Hes not worth it ~When you cry ~More than you smile *This is for u gurlie! Just remember Love is a 4 letter word and so is bull ~Chis (i think thats how it went) LuV Yaz Kel*BeL Current Mood: excited Current Music: Pretty Baby Vanessa Carlton (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 6th, 2003
5:12 pm	tired... o0o im so tired today. I was up late last night doing my paper for mukoda, actuallty til about 1. I had to make sure it was perfect, coz if we dont pass, we dont get outta 10th grade. Not fun! I still have my doubts about it, but we'll see. Today was alright. The testing was horrible today. The questions didnt make any sense and neither did any of the reading. Yes, guys the poem was about a car, and i picked plan c. I'm so glad they are over, but i dont want to go back to having 1st, 2nd, and 3rd periods. . In gym there was a fire in the boys locker room. Someone set a shirt on fire and the whole wall caught fire. That was kinda scary, but we didnt have to go outside or anything coz it was raining, sleeting, snowing, and that would have sucked! OMG!! in lunch today i could have killed someone. GURLZ...i'm not too happy, (Erica, Nikki and Chellz) Well they called my section for lunch so Christina and i went up and i got my pretzel and cream cheese. When i sat back down they were writing a note in orange highlighter and i casually asked, "Who is that for?" they said Dee (one of Michelle's friends) so i didnt think anything of it. Well they were folding it in a hat and i dunno i thought it was odd...Erica handed it to Nicole and they went and put it on Carlos's head. Well i was like "omg guys! Carlos lemme see that when u are done." well Carlos turned around and was like "Who's Christina and Kelly?" we started flipping out. When we finally got the note it said: Hey Honey Muffin, you are really sexi. Nice shoes. Wanna fuck? Lemme know as soon as possible (it was something to that effect) Omg well my face turned red, christina's turned red, it was horrible. Nicole then announced "Well you like him, y are ure faces red? y are you ashamed of it? He should know. You like him! you like him!" Well how friggin embarrassing is that? To set the record straight, NEITHER of us like him, hes just plain out gorgeous. That's all. Wut is there a crime that we think hes cute? I dont even know the kid! And personally im hung up on this thing where you have to know somebody before you can like them, (makes sense right?) Well thank you for stating false information today gurls. It was kind of rude and embarrassing. And we had nothing to do with it! On the better note, after all that, Chandellier waved to me, or us. I dunno so i waved back of course. Fun Stuff! So yeah im hung up on this "El Groupe" thing on Saturday. Not that its a big deal but i thought it was supposed to be small. I dont care now, i mean no fighting allowed between us 6, so imma deal with it. But i just put this thought in the back of my mind, and thats how i thought it was gonna be. My reasoning may sound selfish but its like well i wanted all his attention on me, if u know wut i mean (I know Eric knows) LoL but yeah we'll figure it out, so dont even worry about it alright? hmmm... i dont know wut else to write, so i guess im gonna go -I don't know you.. Ha, I barely even talk to you.. But boy when I look at you.. there's something that makes me wanna know you and talk to you.. but then again.. theres something I feel that I know I never will... *totally explains my situation and insecurities* ~THANX ASH~ *KeL~BeL* Current Mood: tired Current Music: Vivo Per Lei, Andrea Bocelli and Laura Paurini (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 4th, 2003
8:26 pm	hey guys! HiYa! How is everybody feeling? Heh...i'm alright today. My dad came over for dinner, he just left like 2 minutes ago. hes making me crazy. I wrote him a letter back tho...it wasnt too nice...hes gonna think i am a bitch but oh well. School was okay. We had terra nova (?) testing today. My head was like spinning when it was over...i never saw the point of those things. We have it again tomorrow and thursday. fun fun fun Everybody is okay finally. Ash and Steve are cool... ahhh its so great seeing them happy. And no ash u arent a bitch! LoL Lunch was alright. Carlos...well he looks good everyday and the other kid, well yeah! lol...no steve you CAN NOT tell him! i will kick you! coz i dont like him yet, its like i have to get to know him to make sure hes someone worth liking...know wut i mean? its confusing coz i have insecurities, and insecurities suck. Hopefully this weekend...they kinda go away Ahhh! Friday is Danielle and Eric's one month. I think they are hanging out and that would be cool. They're cute. hmmm...wut else happened today? In lunch everyone was really quiet. It wasnt normal. I feel tension between me and Christina, but wut else is new. We went from being inseperable, to not hanging out or even talking to each other like we used to. Its not that i cant trust her, because i know i can, its the fact that i dont know if i want to tell her. Well wait, i do want to tell her, i just dont think its appropriate to. She doesnt tell me anything anymore, so i just keep quiet around her, i feel that ifi need help i can get it in other places as well. Plus she has Tony, and i have everyone else so that doesnt go over too well. i dunno wut happened to us, but its confusing! The girls at lunch i feel judge me when i talk about "chandellier". They think he is a jerk and stuff and i just dont see that yet. Tho i havent hung out with him other than friday night. So im not gonna let them change my mind. Not yet anyway. We'll see. LoL Danielle wants to read this, coz shes bored and i dont really have nething else to write....ahhhh my mom is making all these assumptions with me and chandellier. on the phone i told my cousin that saturday night i may hang out wit him, and my mom was all like smiling at me and stuff...she makes me mad sometimes and thats why i dont tell her anything...grrrness dont get mad kel! i love it when you look at me because i know that for at least one moment... i crossed your mind {memories for today} DEE!!!! Lotz of Kissez ~*KeL BeL*~ Current Mood: lonely Current Music: I"ll Be Your Crying Shoulder Edward McCain (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, March 3rd, 2003
3:56 pm	hey Hey! Well i decided to start this because...i dunno actually. Where should i begin? School was okay today...a lot of my friends are having friend/boyfriend issues. This one feels like the third wheel, and this one is touching that one. Its crazy. My life if a friggin soap opera, when things start going right, something happens and it goes down hill. Heh in lunch, there is this kid Carlos...lemme tell u about Carlos...hes friggin gorgeous. He's got dark spikey hair and some washboard abz...NiCe! well anyway like last week Erica gave him a note on how hot and sexi he was and how we have been watching him and crap...i kinda think it scared him...coz he hasnt been his normal flirty self... :( he wont sit next to me anymore but thats alright coz he got his hair cut over the weekend and damn he looks fine! After lunch today i met steve (best friend ashley's boyfriend) and he looked all upset. I asked him wut was wrong, but he wouldt tell me, so steve i hope ure all right. I think it has something to do with this kid Dave, but ya never know. This past Friday i hung out with a bunch of people over steve's house. We had a good time and i guess right now im hoping something...well yeah...lol Ash and Dee...holy moly chandellier...n/m But we had a good time beating eachother with those ping pong paddles... thanx again steve! Early 90's club music was great... Well my dad wants me to talk to him. Eric (my problem counselor w/ good advice, lol danielle's boyfriend) says because my dad is making the effort to be a part of me still i should give him the chance. I dunno, i dont feel like really opening up to him right now. The other day he dropped off a letter explaining how sorry he was and that he still loved me and all (he walked out on me and my momma about 2 weeks ago) I just dont know how to respond to that, like we were never close in expressing our feelings, so its gonna be hard, but hes coming here tomorrow so sometime tonight i have to write him something...yay! Eric ure gonna have to read it. *sighz* O well i guess im gonna go, write more later if i have time! KeL BeLz Current Mood: frustrated Current Music: Frank Sinatra and Celine Dion "All The Way" thanx Eric (3 Comments |Comment on this)