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test sa tickle pa din [04 May 2006|09:25pm] Your wedding wish is to Let Love Rule What's Your Wedding Wish? Brought to you by Tickle post comment

tickle tests [22 Apr 2006|10:30am] [ mood | cheerful ] You're a Pug! What Breed of Dog Are You? Brought to you by Tickle Your movie star double is Drew Barrymore Who's Your Movie Star Double? Brought to you by Tickle You're fit to commit because you've met the right person Are You Fit to Commit? Brought to you by Tickle post comment

college days [18 Apr 2006|09:06am] [ mood | contemplative ] i just got my couse card yesterday. thank God i passed all my subjects meaning i am already a graduate... yohoo! all my sleepless nights and tiring a.k.a stressful days are over ( is it really over? oooppss... may board exam pa pala) i just thought of reflecting / reminiscing on the early years of my college life... ***TOP TEN THINGS THAT MADE ME LAUGH*** 10. mga kalokohan sa classroom ( mga natutulog, kumakain at kung ano ano pa...) 9. mga asaran and love teams 8. first year first term: swimming classes... we don't know each other but we were all obliged to wear bathing suit and swimming trunks in front of our classmates... ( funny moments : kay paolo, elmz, and marion) 7. menen's french kiss (kiss sa cheeks) 6. Tedd's attire when we were about to buy food at multinational village (shorts, t-shirt and black shoes) 5. eric's hirit while we were doing our thesis proposal ("hindi ba ako boyfriend material?") 4. Wen's pagkabingi, pagkabulol at being inosente with things 3.Dyan's panic moments 2. my kapalpakan when it comes to typing names when doing school requirements ( Christian bautista instead of christian soriano) 1. si Ching... who could ever forget ching's funniest and hillarious moments... (island hopping stories, love life and even classroom incidents that really made everybody laugh) ***LOVE TEAM NG BLOCK*** dyan and tedd ( ang walang katapusan na love team...ndi natinagtinag) dyan and j.c rod (ehehe..isa pa ito, ndi ko alam kung panu nagsimula, basta love team sila) elmer and ching (hay, first crush kasi ni ching si elmz...ndi nga lang sila pwede) dianne and paolo (tanung niyo kay jigs...) chester and menen (dahil sa rels...kawawang menen) ayen and jing (ang namumukod tanging naging totoo sa block) jigs and gretch (remember the roses nung Hearts day?) marian and marion (pangalan palang bagay na bagay na) jigs and marian ( mga halimaw sa accounting) j.c avelino at jigs ( ahaha... remember the days when jaycee gave jigs things like letters, tapes and so called "albums niya") Note: walang ranking kasi lahat naman yan bumenta... * TEN MOST UNFORGETTABLE PEOPLE SA COLLEGE (DLSU)* 10. kris - ang classmate ko nung summer sa rels na super bait and gentleman. enjoy kasama kaya lang may kakulitan talaga. binigyan pa ako ng chocolates at nung christmas naman eh cake from beckys...sweet 9. my thesis mates - si eric and tedd. ang mga kasama ko sa puyatan at lakaran pag interview. mga karamay sa hirap at ginhawa sa paggawa ng thesis. nagbunga naman lahat guys dba? 8. wen - ang kasama ko sa pag-uwi ng gabi pabalik ng parañaque (Actfin1 days, mga late night na pag stay sa conserve dahil sa thesis at iba pang times na late na uwiann from our classes) 7. marian - isa pa itong kasabay ko sa pag-uwi. madali raw kasi ako iligaw... 6. elmer - ang ever sweet and windang sa pag-ibig na friend namin... sobrang matulungin at mapagbigay... 5.ayen - well, too many to mention na din ang pinagsamahan namin nito... dami na din trials sa friendship namin... 4. jigs - ang taong pasaway na mahilig mangurot... achiever at all around talaga... isa rin yan sa mga nakikinig sa mala telenovela ko raw na buhay love life 3. dyan - karamay ko to sa mga times na windang ako... although lately lng kami naging close, lagi naman yang andyan para dumamay at mag-advice...lalo na sa love life 2. ches - ito ang eversince friend as in partner in crime ko sa dlsu... dami na rin namin napagdaanan together... i really miss this gal... mga baliw moments at laugh trip times... isa pang windang din sa pag-ibig... 1. Block 6 - siyempre, makakalimutan ko ba yung block kung san ako napapabilang... last kami...block 6... ndi nakikisama gaano sa ibang tao... kakaiba... may sariling mundo...outcast... pero this block is the best para saakin... damayan, tulungan at close talaga lahat sa isa't-isa... i can say that one of the best thing that happened to me is nung naging part ako ng block na ito... *TEN THINGS THAT I LEARNED DURING MY FOUR YEAR STAY SA DLSU* 10. CRY IF YOU WANT TO AND IF YOU HAVE TO... IT REALLY HELPS (ESPECIALLY WHEN YOUR HURT) 9. LOVE INSPIRES YOU BUT IT CAN EVEN DESTROY YOU 8. SECRETS WILL ALL BE REVEALED IN TIME 7. EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED HAS ITS PURPOSE...BE GLAD AND BE THANKFUL FOR IT 6. SOME WRONG THINGS ARE NEVER MEANT TO START 5. FRIENDSHIP IS REALLY TESTED THROUGH A LOT OF THINGS 4. WALANG NDI NADADAAN SA TIYAGA 3. YOU WILL KNOW WHO YOUR REAL FRIENDS ARE, IN TIMES OF NEED 2. LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST, YOU WILL ONLY PASS THAT PATH ONCE SO ENJOY IT WHILE YOU'RE STILL THERE 1. GOD NEVER LEAVES US, ESPECIALLY AT TIMES WHEN WE REALLY NEEDED HIM ***************************************************************************** 2 comments|post comment

one of the boys [21 May 2005|10:31am] [ mood | cheerful ] I have a confession to make. I have more than 10 boyfriends all at the same time. I am not one of those pretty faces. Neither am I what the conservatives would call “loose”. It’s just that I am blessed (cursed would be more like it) with a character that can easily be buddy-buddy with the opposite sex. The guys probably think I have the same hormones as they. I’m just kidding, of course. After years of self-examination, I am absolutely positive I am a female. My anatomy says so and I have no desire to cavort with the same gender. I have long list of crushes whom I would dream about night and day. I’m normal, I believe. The problem is that the guys see me as one of them. Sure, some girls might be envious of me because I am surrounded by guys. Guys don’t hesitate to talk to me as a pal. My bestfriend said she was almost jealous of me because I was closer to a male friend of ours. If she had only known, my life is no bowl of cherries. It’s like being stuck in a middle of a sale in a mall with just enough money for the ride home. Male friends speak to me when they need an opinion about some girl. Okay, I’m not being fair to the guys. They don’t only talk to me about girls. We also talk about the latest movies, martial arts, schoolwork--- all the good stuff, you know. I guess it was partly my fault. I was once in a phase when I was a hoyden. It was enough to terrify some of my childhood playmates. And it was enough to ruin my adolescent, and mercy me, my adult love life. As a child, I hated wearing dresses (those frilly pink ones make me itch). I ended up wearing mostly jeans and shirts. I also had a smiling face so I was never taken seriously. Because of that, I learned to put an expression that says, “Mess with me and you’ll never see the light of day again”. Through it all, I was very happy and secured being a “boy”. A boy had a better chance of being allowed to go on adventures. I noticed that my male cousin was allowed to climb trees, while his older and bigger sister wasn’t. Besides, I know that fathers preferred boys particularly for their eldest. I’ve seen how dads treat their sons and daughters differently. I mean, girls are capable of taking care of themselves better than those sniveling boys but are treated as if they were wilting flowers. I told myself that I wont be treated that way. It wasn’t fun to be stuck in the sidelines watching other kids play rough-and-tumble games. So I went and climb a tree, and those adventures were the stuff legends are made of. Eventually, I had to outgrow my uncomplicated life which allowed me to do virtually anything and enter a world of compromise.. it means that to make people notice me and accept me as one of them, I have to act, talk and move a certain way and join an appropriate crowd. Still, I persisted in doing what I enjoyed doing and what I thought was right. There are some advantages in being one of the boys. First, you get to have lots of friends. And since you’re a girl, you’re treated like a kid sister. Instant big brothers are what you get without the hassle. You are also the object of envy of other girls because you can talk to the guys anytime you want without anybody speaking ill of you. And no matter how much you hang around with them, your reputation remains unsullied, at least as far as those who know you are concerned. Now for the downside, correct the reputation part. Your reputation can still be butchered by some envious hag. But then, since I know I’m not doing anything immoral, who cares about them? The worst is when you fall for someone who only thinks of you as a kid sister--- and a hoyden at that (sob). That’s bound to happen when you are so close and get together so often. He was really nice to me and all. But it turned out that he still thought of me as a kid who chewed gums and liked boxing. Did I do anything to win his affection? Absolutely not. If I changed, he would have thought I was doing it all for him (I have my pride, you know). And since he told everybody that I’m not a female, I played the tomboy part of the hilt. I enjoyed his discomfort as I hang around with my own “big brothers” and ignored him or insulted him. Served him right for treating me that way. I think I ought to be hanged. I mean, I’m acting immaturely. Maybe someday I’ll learn to act differently. But I don’t want to change overnight and make everybody feel like the end of the world is near. Now, I have started wearing skirts and stopped wearing my hair short. It’s been a year since, and in another year or two my hair will probably reach down to my waist. I hope that before that happens, guys will no longer see me as one of them. post comment

girl...cowgirl [21 May 2005|10:30am] [ mood | cheerful ] "So anong plano mo?" "Ayoko naman siyang gawing girlfriend e. Pero tawang-tawa talaga ako sa kanya, nagbukas ng bote ng toma ginamit niya ngipin niya. Cowboy talaga yun." The cowgirls are never anyone’s idea of a girlfriend. They’re just the most fun people to be with. The ones who receive the “I really love your company” compliments. And that really sucks. "You might be in over your head, Peter." "I just really love hanging out with her." I was reading through an article by caravaggio entitled To Be an Effective Girlfriend, You Have to Think Like a Man and I could totally relate to this. I've always been more at home with guys than girls (not counting my best friends, that is) and have been told that I was "one of the boys" over a dozen times. They say that in a good way. They, referring to the guys I hang out with. It doesn't really bother me. Men usually don't give you that much crap. Sure, they try to be "pa-sweet" and "pa-gentleman" to the girls but with a "one of the guys" kind of girl like me, they act normal. It's not so bad. At least I get to see them in their original and unpretentious demeanor. We can talk about anything and everything. They could burp and express their chauvinistic ideas in my presence and I wouldn't mind. I, in turn, could laugh so hard that they could see my tonsils and yet not be ashamed of it. The problem comes when I start liking a guy and he only sees me as, well, just one of the guys. That just sucks. Take this guy I've been spending a lot of time with. We always have fun watching movies, eating out, wall climbing, and whatnot and yet when I asked him whether we were dating or not, he told me we were just hanging out. Fine. I told him I just needed to define things and wanted to know what "this" was. He clarified that we were hanging out and just having fun. If it ended up as something more, then lucky us. But he also couldn't assure me as to what he was feeling right now and what he wanted right now. Okay. Do guys really put that distinction when it comes to girls that are girlfriend material and girls that are just one of them? (Let's not even put in the factor of being wife material or just remaining girlfriend material.) If you're considered as one of the guys, does that mean you can't become a girlfriend? What is so wrong about being comfortable with a girl? A lot of my guy friends always complain that they want someone whom they could talk to and who can make them laugh and yet they go out and court girls who they don't really know. Girls who they have to put up a front just to impress. They would rather have a hoity-toity girl than a girl who's knows them and accepts them for their normal selves. They complain about girls who are "maarte" and say that they would like someone "simple". Let me tell you about how not-so-simple the word simple is. Simple to men is not having makeup BUT when you don't put any makeup on, that's too simple. Simple is not being high maintenance (i.e. not making him spend too much) and yet still not be jologs. Simple is not being too dressy and yet not too homey at the same time. Simple is someone you can hang out and be comfortable with, like an old comfortable shirt, but they don't like wearing an old comfortable shirt to a party. That's how complicated people's definition of simple is. But going back to my situation. The guy I'm hanging out with is quite alright. I guess our situation is a whole lot better than what it was a couple of weeks ago. He used to tease me that I wasn't a girl and that I was just one of the guys (ho hum! what's new?). But one time he teased me about that and I really felt bad (I think it was during one of our, as I thought, non-romantic but actually romantic dates) and became quiet. He still kept laughing but at the same time he kept on wooing me and telling me "Hey! I'm just kidding." I wore a really sexy dress during our next date. He has never teased me about my being one of the boys since then. He has also been regularly texting and calling me every single day. He updates me with his schedule and lets me know if he will have time for us or not (take note! US, meaning him and me) without me asking. He doesn't even cringe or complain when I call him sweetie and I even hear him refer to me as "dear" on some occassions. I have no complaints about our situation. Whether we are just hanging out or if we are dating exclusively doesn't bother me. As long as we're having fun, then I'm cool with that. In the back of my mind though, I can't help but wonder, in his eyes, am I still "one of the boys" or has he finally seen the girl in me? post comment

panggulo ka lang sa buhay ko (???) [04 May 2005|10:41am] [ mood | confused ] [ music | fallin' ] sabi nga nila mahirap magsalita ng tapos dahil baka kainin mo lang mga binitawan mong salita... paki ko, confident naman ako na ayoko sayo... unang beses palang kita nakilala eh ginulo mo na ako... punitin mo ba naman yung ginawa ko sa dyaryo... kahit ndi mo yun sinasadya, basta...sinira mo ... bihira naman ako pumunta sa practice niyo... ndi nga kita nakakausap... yun yung una at huling beses na nakausap kita... dahil ginulo mo yung maayos at planado ng buhay ko... hay!ibinilin ka kasi sakin... tigas daw kasi ulo mo, at baka daw kahit papano eh mabawasan... kung ako maninita sayo... ayaw ko nga, kasi dagdag ka lng sa mga purpublemahin ko pero sige na nga andyan na yan eh... may magagawa pa ba ako... makulit ka nga...maloko...gago...chickboy...lahat na... tama ang sabi sabi o tingin sayo ng mga tao... napatunayan ko yan nung mga panahon na pinipilit kita tumino... tigas talaga ulo mo... puro ka nlng laro at biro... kaya tuloy inaasar ako na bagay tayo, lagi ka kasi pasaway... siyempre ma-pride ako... yun pa rin ang sambit ko.. ayaw ko sa tulad mo... kasi baka magulo lng ang mundo ko... mundong iningatan ko...ng hindi na ulit masaktan ng mga lokong tao... pero bakit ganito... tulala na naman ako... dapat nga eh nag-aaral ako, at pinaplano na naman ang mga araw sa buhay ko... ayan ka na naman kasi... nangungulit , nang-aasar at nakangisi... hirap tuloy ako na di mapansin yung ugali mo na kay daling mahalin... putik, mali... ndi dapat ganito... planado lahat ng gusto ko sabuhay ko... ikaw kasi, hinayaan mo na makita ko... ang ugaling mong tiyak hahanaphanapin ko... *masarap daw magmahal ng bolero, d dahil sa gusto ko lang magpaloko....kundi dahil gusto lang kita magbago... dahil nais ko sanang marinig buhat sa bibig mo..."sa dami ng niloko ko ikaw na ba ang karma ko...?" 1 comment|post comment

summer vacation [23 Apr 2005|04:54pm] two days from now eh start na ng summer classes... ang bilis ng araw... tagal kong inantay itong vacation..tapos ngayon patapos na pala... pero sa saglit na panahon na yun, dami na nangyari sa buhay ko... may masaya, malungkot pero ang mahalaga dun eh maraming natutunan... isa isahin ko kaya mga nangyari saakin... a. Sleepover last night, April 22-23 --ayun DVD marathon kami, my sassy girl tsaka wind struck... un ung prequel sa my sassy girl...astig ung kwento... mata-touch ka talaga... nag inuman din pero di ako sumali...kasi may allergy... ayun, may nalaman ako na galit daw mama ng isang kasama ko dun saakin...wla daw tiwala saakin... ang sakit lang on my part kasi wala naman ako ginawang masama...naipit lang ako..kasi ang pinagpaalam pala eh debut daw ng sister ko kaya ayan saakin nagalit, pero ndi ko naman mai-defend yung sarili ko, kasi pag sinabi ko naman na wala ako alam dun maiipit naman yung friend ko... ok na saakin na ganito...mawawala at lilipas din naman sama ng loob ko eh... yung friend ko kasi dami na niyang problems..kung ito dadagdag pa...baka ndi na niya kayanin... she is too young para mamublema sa bagay na dinadala niya ngayon... family problems talaga...it will ruin a person particularly a young teen... kasi yun yung mga panahon na kailangan ng guidance and love ng isang bata... nasaktan din ako kasi yung taong kino-consider ko na bro. eh naiwan yung binigay ko sa kanya... i've spend hours para lang matapos yun, sa mga nakakakilala saakin alam naman nila how much time and attention ang binibigay ko pag gumagawa ako ng sulat...kasi i want everything to be ok and presentable... ilang araw ko inisip mga ilalagay dun... i am not expecting something in return... mababaw lang naman ako..enough na saakin yung itago lang at ingatan yung binigay ko... b. pagpunta ni noel shux, panic mode.... dont know what to do...kasi nung sunday eh gulong gulo na talaga ako... i wanted to be alone... im too tired sa dami ng problema at pressure c. Sis Problem ayun ang magaling kong kapatid...problema na naman...i wont explain things... basta, i felt alone, rejected, taken for granted... i am hurt and mad... she had caused me too much pain... she doesn't even respect me... she calls me on a first name basis - KAT..duh! ate niya pa din ako... headache to my parents... d.Usherette isa pa yan sa mga dagdag na problema ko... i felt helpless kasi wala ako magawa para ayusin yung ministry,,, dami kasing walang pakialam... e. chat evry night till dawn mga ka-chat ko yung PYM Peeps tsaka si bro (cocoy)laughtrip at kulitan lang... f. pagpunta sa CAP hay kakapagod na nga yung byahe...grabe pa dito..dami tao ang gulo.... g. Shopping eto ang masaya...bili ng mga things... h. Books... bumili ako ng books na mababasa...wala lang... i. update ng friendster, email kay mama, internet all day long diyan nauubos oras ko other than reading books or watching DVDs... lessons learned: a. minsan kailangan i-sacrifice yung own happiness para sa ibang tao na mas nangangailangan...kahit minsan ang hirap gawin b.PATIENCE... kailangan talaga...lalo na when the people around u are to hard headed and rude c. CHANCE... yan yung binibigay sa tao para makapagbago siya...kailangan kasi pagkakataon, tiwala at supporta... (tama ba ako bro.? always remeber na hindi ka gago ok...) d. SACRIFICE... kailangan yan para ma-achieve ang mga bagay bagay... e. THERE'S A RAINBOW AFTER THE RAIN ---kasi despite lahat ng problems ko may mga tao na laging andyan para tulungan ako...mga rainbow.. 1. Bro. (Coy) - ang lagi ko kausap at labasan ng mga sama ng loob, nakapagpatulog saakin ng mahimbing... 2. PYM Peeps - mga ka-bonding ko...mga pamilya na turing ko dito 3. Babies ko sa SOS (joy,tala,Emilie) - mga lil sis ko...ayan yung nagpaparadam sakin na may kapatid ako 4. Ches, Dyan, Jigs, and guess who..Omar - mga DLSU friends na walang sawang makinig at mag-advice 5. Mama - yung laging nagcocomfort saakin kapag down na ako 6. Rev.Bro.Kuya Jerry - ang kuya ko na laging nagpapaliwanag saakin at nagsasabi na i can be happy 7. Tita MAlou - ang tita kong kalog na kasama ko bumili ng gamit, at nakikinig sa mga sama ng loob ko... 8.Yza- my 3 yr old pinsan na sweet... lagi ako kinikiss at hina-hug...sarap ng pakiramdam... nakakawala ng pagod... Sa lahat, thanx! you have helped me overcome trials and problems.... i appreciate all of you..labs ko mga yan... pero di ba rainbow sandali lang yan, nawawala din agad..parang ngayon..despite d comfort na nafeel ko bcoz of them... may tampo at hurt..although alam ko ndi intentional... i cant blame din naman myself... lalo pa pag pinaghirapan tapos parang nabalewala lang di ba... its true na yung taong nakakapagpasaya at nakakapagpagaan ng loob mo, eh yung taong pwede makapagpalungkot sayo... 1 comment|post comment

a letter from somebody who touched my life the most... [27 Mar 2005|07:08pm] Hello kat, i guess this is goodbye... for now. we'll surely be keeping in touch with each other. i'm so thankful for meeting/for being able to meet you - the great katrina a.k.a "fave brother". thank you for all the support, the "gifts", the inspiration and for all the lessons i learned from you. i'sm so afraid that i could not really reciprocate all the acts of love you've shown. in a way... that's good. bacause that would make me forever grateful to you... i'd like also to take this chance to say i'm sorry (tao lang kasi...yes tao din ako...kasi baka hanggang ngayon iniisip niyo pa rin kung anung klaseng hayop ako...hehehe) alam ko marami akong pagkukulang. you've taught me a lot. through your examples, i've learned what service is all about; what it takes to deepen and nourish friendship... kaya lang i cant promise that i'll ba able to do the same... kasi kakaiba ka talaga. i've always taught my students that in a relationship, you've got to have creativity - but i failed to remind them that first you have to have a very big heart. si kat : she has one of the biggest HEART i've seen and it is so much filled with love that overflows to nourish so many. kat, thank you for showering me with that love Kuya Jerry,SDB * this was written last march 24. pero ngayon ko lang na-receive. grabe, first lines pa lang eh tumulo na luha ko. i really miss him so much. siya kasi yung bro na minahal ko talaga...kasi kuya ko yan. sobrang special talaga siya.. pansin niyo naman sa mga earlier entries ko dito na sobrang dami niya nagawa for me... 1 year lang kasi yung bro sa bawat parish eh kaya ito he has to transfer na bago na namang parish. grabe, after ng mass kagabi di ko na napigilan yung sarili ko na umiyak. hindi ko siya matingnan kasi tumutulo lang luha ko... na-touched talaga ako sa mga sinabi niya bago siya umalis...kinuwento niya yung first impression niya saakin... masungit daw tsaka parang ang hirap abutin, yung pag-iwas niya na ma-assign sa ministry namin and all... hanggang sa first time na makausap ko siya... ako daw yung tao na naging super supportive sa kanya.. iba yung level ng enthusiasm ko... all out talaga..sobrang support sa lahat ng activities niya... nakita daw niya saakin kung paano ibigay yung sarili at mag sacrifice para sa iba... iba daw yung thoughtfulness and sweetness na meron ako.. dati daw akala niya walang tao na tulad ko or parang impossible...meron daw pala... hindi na nga daw niya alam sasabihin saakin... grabe, tiningnan ko nalang siya... niyakap niya ako before lumabas ng church... humagulgol na talaga ako... conservative kasi congregation nila kaya hindi sila nanyayakap and all... sinabi niya na most of the time chini-cheer up ko siya... sa mga panahon na down siya...basta... namumugto na mata ko kakaiyak...kanina din before matulog..3 am na kasi kami nakauwo after ng salubong... iyak na naman ako..buti nalang andun mga friend ko (nag sleep over kasi kami). tapos nung service ko na ng 10:30 tumulo nalang luha ko... grabe naisip ko siya...hinahanap hanap ko yung deacon na kuya ko na nakikita ko na nakangiti sa altar... pero ngayon di ko na siya nakita... nasanay pa naman ako na siya unang hinahanap ko pagdating church at huling kinukulit ko bago umuwi... routine ko na yun... kaya mahirap talaga para saakin ang mag move on at bumalik sa buhay ko nung wala pa siya... ngayon naiiyak pa din ako... hindi ko alam kung hanggang kailan ko malulungkot ng ganito...sana makayanan ko... plano ko mag leave sa service for a month if hindi ko pa din kaya... kasi tuwing titingnan ko yung simbahan... bumabalik lang saakin lahat... umiiyak lang ako... alam ko mali yung ganito... pero hindi ko naman pwede turuan puso ko ng dapat ko maramdaman... kahit nga si noel eh nakiusap ako na kung pwede di muna kami magkita or mag-usap ng 1 buwan. gusto ko din kasi mapag-isa... mag-isip... gulong gulo din ako... kasi dati takot ako magmahal or maging close sa ibang tao... kaya nilalagyan ko ng wall para hindi ako masaktan... pero kay rev bro. kuya jerry...hinayaan ko yung sarili ko na magmahal ng walang conditions..yung magmahal ng walang wall or harang... mas masaya pala yung ganun kaya lang ang naging problema... hindi ko pala kaya mag let go... ngayon pa at naging attached na ako... may panibagong bro na naman starting june... di ko alam if magiging ok ako with him. alam ko di siya dapat maapektuhan nito kasi its beyond his control... pero siguro ayaw ko na muna maging malapit sa kahit sino... balik ulit ako ngayon sa dati..yung over protective sa feelings ko... alam ko gusto ni kuya jerry na yung same level of cooperation and enthusiasm yung ibigay ko... pero alam ko hindi ko kaya yun,... kasi sa kanya lang yun pwede ibigay eh... alam ko unfair din kay noel... pero hindi na naman ako handang magmahal ng ibang tao... gusto ko na naman mapag-isa... i'm sorry sa lahat ng tao sa mundo ko... i'll admit, i'm emotinally weak right now... post comment

change!!!!! [20 Mar 2005|07:25pm] [ mood | gloomy ] CHANGE!!!! ang word na di ko talaga maintindihan...kasi lagi nalang niya pinapahirap at pinapagulo yung buhay ko... example..noon...wala ako iniisip kundi kain, tulog, at laro..pero dahil sa change na yan..ayun nagkaroon na ako ng right and privelleges, mga choices and decisions sa life.. kaya eto sobrang gulo at dami iniisip...isipin niyo nalang..kung hindi sana ako tumanda eh di sana masaya at walang ko kailngan problemahin... pero siyempre ang buhay sa mundong ibabaw ay napaganda..hindi lang naman puro problema eh..bakit si CHANGE din naman eh madaming nagawa at na-contribute saatin eh... dahil nga sa CHANGE na yan kung ano man tayo ngayon... kung ako tatanungin... kuntento na ako sa simpleng buhay na ganito...ayaw ko kasi ng pabago bago..kung pwede nga lang pag diyan, diyan na talaga..wala ng mga dahilan tulad ng kasi may ganito ganyan etc.. parang nung mga nakaraang araw, sabi ko bakit pa ba nagkaroon ng change...hindi ba pwede na ganito nalang forever... alam ko saakin din kasi yung problema...mahirap ako mag let go...kasi mahirap din naman makuha yung full attention ko eh... ngayon, ilang days nalang aalis na si Rev. Kuya, Bro.Jerry...grabe nakakalungkot talaga... ewan ko, pag naiiisip ko yun parang humihinto lahat sa mundo ko... kasi iba talaga siya...ang hirap ipaliwanag yung ugali niya..pero i can assure you na sobrang bait at ok siya... he knows how to deal with people specially sa amin na youth... kahapon sobrang pagod kami kakahanap ng mga kailngan sa props para sa play..eksaktong pagdating namin sa church, yun din ang dating naman ng mga reverents..hehe!di na sila brother kasi kahapon po eh inordain na sila..dapat nga mag-absent ako sa audprin kung wla lang test..aatend talaga ako sa ordination... aba, sa 7 na inordain...6 yung kilala ko dun( bro.Jay, Bro.Ian, Bro.Arvin, Bro.Ed, at ang 2nd fave ko BRo.Carlo at siyemore ang #1 si Bro.jerry) pero wala naman ako choice...i have to go to school...nakakapanghinayang talaga..kasi konti lang yung invited dun..sa parish nga namin 4 lang kami na pinayagan na pumunta dun..tapos ininvite pa talaga ni Bro.Jerry..di naman ako makakapunta...pero pinangako ko na sa sarili ko na dapat sa priestly ordination nila andun ako...mag-absent na talaga ako nun...ayun, back to my story...pagdating nila sa parish grabe mixed emotions...ang saya saya ko nung nakita ko yung 2(Bro.Carlo n Bro.jerry) galing kasi sila retreat few days ago kaya medyo tagal ko din na hindi sila nakita...ang saya ko kasi nga deacon na sila... siyempre another step yun sa kanila papunta sa gusto nila maabot... pero nalungkot ako kasi alam ko sign na naman yun para sabihin saakin na malapit na din umalis c bro.Jerry... ayun kulitan at daldalan..piture picture...bonding... kasama din mga ibang youth..grabe, sakit ng mga tiyan kakatawa...sarap talaga balik balikan yung mga ganitong panahon... nagbinyag na nga siya kahapon eh..ayun medyo nabubulol pa din si rev.jerry...kakatawa nga eh..nung 7pm mass naman na nagserve ako siya naman nagbasa ng gospel..siya din nagbigay ng communion...before mag start yung mass asaran na naman nga..lagi kasi yung nagpapanic kaya sarap asarin... pero nung nasa harap na siya ng altar..kami ng ibang kasama ko sa youth iisa yung nafifil..masaya kasi iba talaga itsura ni Rev jerry..yung saya kita mo talaga sa mukha. niya..pero nalulungkot kami kasi parang ang bilis ng araw...parang kelan lang kulitan at batukan or tulakan...tapos ngayon makikita namin siya sa harapan namin...iba na din yung suot..siyempre yung pang deacon na... dasal ko nga araw araw na sana bigyan ni God si Bro.Jerry ng strength para harapin lahat ng darating na trials sa buhay niya...siyempre mahirap at malungkot buhay ng mga may vocation eh..tsaka pangalawa hiniling ko kay God na bigyan niya sana ako ng strength na harapin yung panibagong CHANGE na ito sa buhay ko... sabi ko nga dati nakakainis kasi feeling ko pinaglalaruan ako ng panahon at kapalaran...kasi nga masasanay ako na andyan yung tao tapos magugulat nalang ako isang araw aalis na pala siya...yun bang wala akong choice kundi harapin yung sitwasyon...ang hirap.... alam ko hindi lang ako yung nakakaramdam ng ganitong kalungkutan...madami kaming mga youth..minsan na din kasi napagkwentuhan... pero ngayon eto ibinubuhos nlang yung attention sa ibang bagay para mas maging madali para sa lahat...para less yung iyakan.. ngayon nga kahit wala pa ako tulog at pagod dahil sa mga practice eh pinilit kong magising ng maaga..first time niya na magbigay ng homily...siyempre di ko ata papalampasin ito noh... medyo kulang pa sa confidence kasi halata sa voice...syempre first time eh..pero if yung homily ang pag-uuspan..two thumbs up... walang favoritism dito promise...seryoso..astig yung homily...kasi mapapareflect ka talaga... tsaka yung pagdeliver niya...parang kausap mo lang siya ng personal..ang sarap makinig and at the same time mapapaisip ka talaga... one thing that struck me dun sa homily...yung na-mention niya about being strong and trusting the Lord..i can't remember yung exact words..pero iyon nga yung message...kasi yun yung madalas niya sinasabi saakin pag feeling ko ayoko ko na at suko na ako sa dami ng problema... ngayon nga medyo naghahanda-handa na ako ng mga remembrance na ibibigay ko sa kanya...labo ko noh!ewan, pinapahirapan ko lalo ang sarili ko kasi habang hinahanda ko mga ibibigay inaamin ko andun talaga yung lungkot... pero sa tingin ko kasi mas makaktulong saakin yung ganito...at least unti unti ko na pinapaintindi sa sarili ko yung reality..reality na sana hindi nalang nangyari pa.. grabe, less than a week nalang alis na siya... kung huminto nalang sana ang oras...kung wala nalang sana ganitong CHANGES... gagawa na nga lang ako ng letter for him eh..usapan kasi namin before yung black saturday na easter vigil at mass eh magpapakita siya saaming mga youth... bibigay ko nalang yung letter sa kanya at yung mga remembrance.. alam ko mas maganda kung personal pero alam ko sa sarili ko hindi ko talaga kaya magsalita pa sa harap niya..malamang iiyak lang ako nun... mahirap kasi magpaalam lalo na sa isang napakabait na tao...yung tinuturing ko na kuya...kasi di ba panganay ako... siguro magpapasalamat nalang ako nun...magmamano ulit tapos alis na..ayaw ko makita niya ko na umiiyak...gusto ko ang huling image ng kat na makita niya eh yung image ng kat na makulit at masaya..iyon kasi yung positive daw saakin..masayahin at palangiti... alam ko mahirap din kasi for his part na magpaalam saamin mga youth... grabe, naiiyak na naman ako sa mga panahong ito... pero masaya ako kasi may mga bonding, kulitan, asaran, iyakan etc moments naman kami with him na pwede namin balik-balikan.... post comment

from dyan [20 Mar 2005|06:35pm] [ mood | tired ] Your World (Part Three): How do you see your world [girls] brought to you by Quizilla Your World (Part Two): Your social world [girls] brought to you by Quizilla Your World (Part One): What is your world made of? [girls] brought to you by Quizilla post comment

mamimiss ko talaga siya... [16 Mar 2005|10:07pm] [ mood | crushed ] tagal na since yung last ako nag update ng blurty. di kasi ako nagkaroon ng time para mag-update...kasi nga busy sa school, dami meetings and practices para sa holyweek na service and lenten presentation. hectic talaga ng sked. ang last entry ko eh lyrics pa ng song kaya eto update na ulit ako..(kahit may exam pa ako bukas) every friday night, whole day ng saturday, and afternoon ng sunday eh practice para sa lenten presentation. although nakakapagod talaga masaya naman kasi dami ko nakilala. karamihan kasi sa kasali sa play eh hindi talaga member ng kahit anong ministry sa church. saya ng bonding tsaka mga kwentuhan pag break... basta kahit saglit palang kaming magkakakilala iba na yung samahan... nagkaroon pa nga ng konting tampuhan pero dahil mature na mag-isip ang lahat eh naayos din at mas naging close pa kami... iba din kasi yung pakiramdam pag nagtatarabaho ka para kay God... iba yung sense of fulfillment... sacrfice talaga ito para sa lahat..ako inaamin ko ang hirap talaga pero alam ko naman na lahat ng pinaghirapan eh may magandang bunga sa huli..sana lang maging successful yung play sa good friday... nung sunday, sked din ng meeting namin na mga usherettes sa church..last formation na rin yun with bro. Jerry. every meeting kasi nagbibigay ng formation kung sino man ang brother na assign sa ministry namin. this year si Bro.Jerry yung na-assign so sha yung nagbibigay ng formation. si bro.jerry yung kasama ko sa pic na pinost ko dito nung entry ko nun sa youth camp. fave ko yun sa lahat ng bro ng na-assign sa amin. kasi sobrang bait, maalalahanin, optimistic, walang masama para sa kanya yun bang kahit gago ka eh there's something good pa din sayo,appreciative kasi kahit simpleng bagay lang ginawa mo sobrang pupurihin ka na niya, tsaka siya din yung taong hindi marunong magalit...basta iba talaga... siya lang yung brother na kapag formation may activity..yung ibang bro kasi puro lecture lang eh.. kaya nga hindi kami tinatamad na umattend kasi nag-eenjoy nga kami tsaka dami pa natututunan...friendship, relationship etc.. kakaiba talaga yung approach and method niya... nung sunday ayun last formation na namin na siya magbibigay. astig yung activity..may mga picture tapos mamimili ka ng isang picture na makakatawag ng attention mo... tapos share mo bakit yun napili mo...grabe, astig nung sharing part..nag-iyakan talaga lahat kasi kahit pala yung iba sobrang masayahin sa church eh dami din pala problema... tapos after nung activity naghanda siya ng 5 na bowl na puno ng candy. susubuan namin ng candy yung tao na gusto namin sabihan ng thank you, sorry etc... ayun iyakan na naman at yakapan...grabe, ang sarap ng feeling ng maraming tao na nakaka-appreciate ng existence mo... iba na pala yung samahan namin...kasi hindi lang kami magkakasama kung magseserve lang or gagala..kahit sa problema magkakaramay kami... binigyan nga kami ni bro.jerry ng bookmark.... alam ko kahit hindi niya sabihin saamin way niya yun ng pagpapaalam saamin... sa march 26 kasi alis na siya..lilipat na siya sa ibang parish. kasi napag-usapan na namin na hindi siya magpapaalam saamin formally..gusto niya kung sino lang nakakaalam yun nalng...ayaw niya yung may paalamanan pa at iyakan... naiyak nga ako one time..kasi nagbibiruan lang kami nun kasi niremind ko siya tungkol sa formation.ulyanin na kasi yun madalas...tapos ngtext siya na sana daw ganun pa din kami ka enthusiastic at lagi pa din kami mag-participate sa mga activities kahit iba na yung bro. dapat daw i-enjoy namin yung bagong bro... grabe, tumulo nalang luha ko ng hindi ko namamalayan...hindi ko kasi ata kaya na mawala siya or umalis siya saamin... siya kasi yung tao na nakakausap ko tungkol sa mga problema ko..kahit love life, friends, sa simbahan lahat na..basta siya yung tao na makikinig lang sayo, or magbibigay ng advice. hindi siya nanghuhusga... kahit sa ibang tao ganun din siya kaya nga dami nagmamahal dun eh..minsan nga nakakwentuhan ko isang taga simbahan ayun iyakan pano naalala na naman namin pag-alis ni bro.jerry... habang papalapit na yung march 26 hindi ko alam dapat ma-feel kasi nga ang hirap eh...alam ko mahirap din naman yun in his part. kasi nagtext nga siya dati na thank you daw tsaka masaya siya kasi nakilala niya ako at yung youth sa san antonio..napamahal na nga daw lahat sa kanya eh kaya mahirap... gumawa nga ako ng letter kasi usapan namin sa march 26 kita lang kami before mag mass...after ng mass alis na kasi siya..bigay ko nalang remembrance ko sa kanya tsaka yung letter kasi alam ko kung kakausapin ko pa siya hindi rin naman ako makakasalita... kasi panigurado iiyak lang ako... masaya naman ako for him...kasi nga deacon na siya...pero ang hirap kasi mag let go sa taong naging part na ng buhay ko eh... "A butterfly flies beside us like a sunbeam, and for a brief moment its glory belongs to our world. But then it flies on again, and though we wish it could have stayed, we feel so lucky to have seen it" mamimiss ko talaga siya...sobra... post comment

to be with you [24 Feb 2005|09:15pm] [ mood | busy ] Hold on little girl Show me what he's done to you Stand up little girl A broken heart can't be that bad * When it's through, it's through Fate will twist the both of you So come on baby come on over Let me be the one to show you ** I'm the one who wants to be with you Deep inside I hope you feel it too Waited on a line of greens and blues Just to be the next to be with you Build up your confidence So you can be on top for once Wake up who cares about Little boys that talk too much I seen it all go down Your game of love was all rained out So come on baby, come on over Let me be the one to hold you [Repeat **] Why be alone when we can be together baby You can make my life worthwhile And I can make you start to smile post comment

cute ng song.. [22 Feb 2005|10:37am] [ mood | calm ] Everytime by janet jackson I'm afraid I'm starting to feel What I said I would not do The last time really hurt me I'm scared to fall in love Afraid to love so fast 'Cause everytime I fall in love It seems to never last But every time your love is near And every time I'm filled with fear 'Cause every time I see your face My heart does begin to race everytime One half wants me to go Other half wants me to stay I just get so all confused I'm scared to fall in love Afraid to love so fast 'Cause every time I fall in love It seems to never last But every time your love is near And every time I'm filled with fear 'Cause every time . . . My heart does begin to race everytime I'm scared to fall in love Afraid to love so fast 'Cause everytime I fall in love It seems to never last But every time your love is near And every time I'm filled with fear 'Cause every time I see your face My heart does begin to race everytime It's everytime It's everytime 'Cause . . . Everytime your love is near And every time I'm filled with fear 'Cause every time I see your face Could it be that this will be the one that lasts The fear does start to erase every time, Oh Could it be that this will be the one that lasts For all my times Ooh yeah For all my times 1 comment|post comment

Shoes..from dyan [30 Jan 2005|01:18pm] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | afraid for love to fade before it can come true ] astig kasi yung story kaya i decided na i-post na din dito at mag-comment... (imbes na gumagawa na ako ng paper sa conact, busipol,audprin eh eto update muna...huling post ko eh nung nagpunta pa sa laguna with noel...hindi ko nga nailagay dito yung greenhills shopping eklat and yung LEAP) ------------------------------------------------------- May mga iba't-ibang shoes daw... 1. The over-used shoes When I went to Davao for Christmas vacation in 2001, I found what I think was the best shoes I've ever had. It was a blue and white slip-ons with a flower on its strap. Margay ang tatak niya. Ang tagal ko na naghanap ng blue na kikay slip-ons at doon ko lang sa Gaisano Davao nahanap iyun. And I bought the shoes for 500 lang! Feeling ko pa, suwerte ako dahil last pair na iyun. And it was my size! Sobrang natuwa ako sa kikay kong sapatos. At napakalambot niya! I wore the shoes everyday because they would match anything... denim, slacks, capri pants, skirt, dress. Gamit ko siya in the office, at the mall, in church, even at the beach! Dahil araw-araw ko siyang nagamit, at nasuot ko na siya sa kung saan, it was expected na wala pang isang taon ay sira na siya. Sabi ko, okay lang. May Margay naman sa Robinsons saka sa Landmark, siguro naman may ganoong style pa sila. Ngunit napuntahan ko na lahat ng display ng Margay pero wala akong nakitang katulad nang nabili ko sa Davao. Nakadalawang uwi na ako sa Davao at pumupunta ako sa Gaisano, umaasang may makikita akong ganoon klaseng sapatos. Hindi na nga ako naghahangad ng eksaktong ganoon eh. Kahit na kamukha lang o kasing-lambot lang, okay na. Kaso wala.Iyong kikay blue Margay na slip-ons ko -- na malambot at may naka-angat na bulaklak sa strap, na bagay sa kahit anong damit ko -- ay sira na ngayon. Hindi lang siya sira, nangingitim na sa dumi, at hindi na kayang i- glue ang punit na talampakan. Pero hindi ko pa siya maitapon-tapon. Hindi ko alam kung bakit. Alam ko hindi ko na siya maisusuot uli, pero may reminder naman ako na once upon a time, I had a perfect pair of shoes. Hindi ko nga lang inalagaan. Lesson learned: Kapag nahanap mo na ang bagay o tao na sa tingin mo ay perfect na para sa iyo, ingatan at alagaan mo. Huwag mong abusuhin. Kapag nawala sila, baka wala ka nang mahahanap na kapalit. At habambuhay mo na lang iisipin na "sana, inalaagaan ko siya." 2. The "maganda siya pero masakit" shoes May fini-fit ako noon na sapatos sa Celine. Okay lang ang presyo. Maganda ang material. Kikay ang hitsura. At kapag suot ko, nakaka-sexy ng paa. May isang problema nga lang... masakit sa paa. Pero cutie kasi siya eh. Saka on sale. At sadyang matigas ang ulo ko. Kaya ayun, binili ko. Sa umpisa, okay lang naman. Keri ko. Saka masakit naman talaga sa paa ang bagong sapatos. Pero habang lumilipas ang oras, lalong sumasakit. Hindi siya meant sa pangmatagalang suot. Habang suot ko siya, parang gusto kong umiyak sa tuwing humahakbang ako. Pagdating ko ng bahay, puro sugat at galos ang paa ko. At ilang linggo din akong may peklat sa paa dahil sa diyaskeng sapatos na iyun. Kapag sa umpisa pa lang, alam mo na masakit na sa paa at hindi mo puwedeng suotin ng matagalan, huwag mo nang bilhin. Bakit mo pa itutuloy kung alam mong masasaktan ka lamang kapag sinuot mo? Parang pakikipag-relasyon din iyan eh. May mga lalake na good on paper, bagay sa iyo, tipo mo nga eh. Ang kaso, panandalian lang siya. "Boylet" lang kasi unavailable siya. Bakit mo pa itutuloy kong alam mong eventually ay masasaktan ka lang? Sana, habang maaga pa, iwasan mo na. Lesson learned: Kung sa umpisa pa lang, alam mo na masasaktan ka lamang sa bandang huli, huwag mo nang ituloy. Baka mag-iwan pa iyan ng scar na hindi mo na maaaalis kailan man. 3. The shoes that got away May nakita akong magandang sandals sa Landmark. Mura lang, less than 500 lang siguro. Kakaiba din siya kasi hindi siya iyong style na makikita mo sa babaeng katabi mo sa MRT. Black and white siya. Polka dots ang strap niya pero hindi cheap ang dating. Ang kikay nga eh. tapos, two inches iyong heels niya. Sinukat ko minsan, ang ganda sa paa! Kaya lang, hindi ko siya binili. Kasi, kakaiba siya eh. Mahirap hanapan ng ka-match na damit at bag. Saka kakabili ko lang kasi ng isang sandals kaya sabi ko, next pay day ko na lang bibilhin ang polka dots na sapatos na yun. Madalas akong dumaan sa Landmark at nakikita ko ang sapatos na gusto ko bilhin pero hindi ko mabili-bili. Ilang pay day na ang dumaan pero hindi ko pa rin siya kinukuha para iuwi. Hanggang sa dumating ang oras na kailangan ko ng isang kikay na sandals na may print. Naisip ko agad ang polka-dots na matagal ko na gusto bilihin. Pero pag-punta ko sa Landmark, wala na siya doon. Naubos na. Ang ending, napabili ako ng ibang printed na sapatos na hindi ko naman talaga gusto pero wala akong choice kasi kailangan ko na nga. Lesson learned: Kung magpapaligaya sa atin ang isang bagay, seize the day! Sa kaka-delay, baka mawala lang sa atin ito at mauuwi tayong nagse-settle sa hindi naman talaga natin gusto. Mas mahirap pagsisihan ang mga bagay na hindi mo ginawa. Wala na yatang mas masakit pa sa thought na abot-kamay mo na lang, pero pinalampas mo pa. Sino ba naman mag-aakalang may mapupulot pala akong leksyon sa mga sapatos? Kaya nga panay bili ko eh, para mas marami pa akong matutunan. Sa susunod, I will find lessons from bags naman para ma-justify din kung bakit sandamakmak ang bags ko. ----------------------------------------------------------- Astig talaga yung story...majority dito agree ako...binabasa ko nga mga entries ko the other night, i was reflecting sa mga taong dumating, nakilala ko at dumaan lng sa buhay ko..yup! dumaan...ksi almost all of those guys were just part of my past... pero they gave naman lessons that i can ponder and carry for the rest of my life.... hindi ko pwedeng ilagay na they left me...kasi it was my decision din na lumayo...hindi sa selfish ako or what...pero im just scared and coward pagdating sa mga bagay na yun... parang sobrang protective ako sa sarili ko... ayaw ko ng mga risk cause im afraid na baka in the end eh masaktan lang ako ulit at hindi ko na naman alam kung saan ako magsisimula...thats the sad thing about love... pero siyempre ironic nga diba sabi nila...hindi lang puro sakit at pasakit yung love...kaya nga marami pa rin ang may gusto niyan kasi iba yung feeling...i can attest to that kasi "na-inlove" na din naman ako... its a wonerful feeling na habang buhay mo i che-cherish at babalikbalikan...pero siyempre pag tapos na...hindi ka na dapat mabuhay sa nakaraan... ang dalhin mo lang eh yung memories at lesson na nakuha mo... hindi kasi pwede na umasa at mabuhay sa nakaraan...hindi na iyon yung ngayon..kahit pa sabihin mo na sobrang saya mo nun..bakit iyon pa ba sa ngayon? hindi na di ba.... ok, balik na tayo sa mga shoes...iniisip ko kung may mga tao ba sa buhay ko na parang yung mga shoes na yun... yung una, "over-used shoes"... actually, wala namang guy sa buhay ko na over-used shoes...kasi ang pagkakaintindi ko..iyon yung lagi ko kasama, yung gusto ko..pero hindi ko inalagaan... lahat naman ng tao sa buhay ko or naging close ko minahal ko talaga..ayaw ko kasi dumating yung panahon na sisihin ko sarili ko na pag nawala or umalis yung tao dahil hindi ako nagmahal or hindi ko pinakita na mahal ko siya..kasi di ba..bakit mo pa ipagpapalipas yung mga panahon kung pwede mo naman gawin ngayon... second, "maganda siya pero masakit" shoes, yan...siguro can relate din dito...ang guy na yan para saakin eh si pao...kasi nga gusto ko rin naman siya at minahal..nung high school nga sabi nila perfect pair at we look good together...pero ang sabi ng mom ko "wag, masasaktan ka lang"...tama nga si mama, nasaktan ako...sobra sobra pa sa inaasahan ng iba..imagine i suffered for 3 years...ganun ko siya kamahal na hindi ko alam kung saan ako magsisimula..siya na ksi yung buhay ko noon eh..nakakalungkot lang dun eh nagdulot talaga saakin ng scars..siyempre may lessons din... third, The shoes that got away, nung una sabi ko baka iyan yung mga guys na nanligaw tapos pinalampas ko lang kasi takot nga ako magmahal after nung "heartbreak".... pero habang ginagawa ko na ito....na-realize ko...hindi pala...kasi yung mga guys na yun..hindi ako yung deserve nila...may babae pa na mas deserve nila...kasi nga dumating sila nung mga panahon na hindi ko pa kaya magmahal...mahirap naman di ba..hindi ako selfish na sasagutin sila just for the sake na makarecover or may masabing meron ako bf ngayon Christmas, Valentines day or other occasions. happy naman ako kasi sa ngayon masaya naman sila sa kani-kanilang love life... yup!may mga Gf na sila... sana walang dumating na third type ng shoes sa buhay ko. alam ko duwag talaga ako mag-risk... mahirap na kasi masaktan... ayaw ko mapalapit sa kahit kanino kasi natatakot ako masaktan... pero gaya ng sabi nila Bro.Carlo and Bro.Jerry saakin dati "let go and live life" wag daw ako masyadong pigil sa lahat ng bagay..kasi baka nga hindi na ako magh-enjoy... wag ko daw hayaan na fear yung mag-control sa buhay ko...biniro pa ako na baka maging matandang dalaga daw ako...(wag naman sana) joke! naku, malapit na naman Valentine's day.... actually, hindi lang naman yan para sa mga couples... hehehe! dami rin kasi single...almost lahat ng friends ko eh single eh...kaya madalas eh can relate kami...although walang mga kilig moments sa araw na yun ok lang..love hindi lang naman yan sa BF-GF thing.... LOVE = friends, family, relatives, at siyempre GOD..... kaya sa mga singles out there... take your time... hindi kailangan magmadali kasi baka yung "maganda siya pero masakit" shoes ang mapunta sayo....mahirap na...or wag naman tatanga-tanga at ma-pride dahil baka yung The over-used shoes or yung The shoes that got away naman ang dumating...right love na pala eh nawala pa... basta you'll just know pag siya na talaga...if dumating man yun...mahalin at ipakita niyo kung gaano sila ka-importante para walang regrets di ba... pero leave something for yourself...hindi sa selfish ka pero dahil sa iyon yung dapat...kasi pag hindi naging ok...you can still move on with your life.... post comment

quiz results (from dyan) [05 Jan 2005|08:43am] [ mood | crazy ] You Are the Girl Next Door! You're caring, warm, and the girl that nice guys want to marry. Uncomplicated and simple, you've got an easy going attitude guys love. But this doesn't mean you're dull - far from it! You're a great conversationalist, and you're an expert at living the good life. What Kind of Girl Are You? Take This Quiz :-) Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance. * ayan na naman ang result! pang ilan na ab ito? GIRL NEXT DOOR DAW>>>pareho kami ni dyan, pero ewan...hanggang ngayon wala pa rin bf..wahahaa!!! itaas ang bandera ng mga single but happy!!! You are 20% Flirt How Much of a Flirt Are You? Take This Quiz :-) Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance. * ayan, walang asaran ha! mamya sabihin niyp eh manang na naman ako... You'll Find Love Where You Least Expect It You're the type most likely to find love... surprised? You shouldn't be! You're a fun, independent woman who is always out and about. And you're smart to sometimes leave your girlfriends behind and go it alone. Men love to approach you when you're out by yourself - including Mr. Perfect! Where Will You Find Love? Take This Quiz :-) Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance. *hay! ganun ba yun? parang ewan! You Don't Have a Boyfriend Because You are Too Shy When a guy gets to know you, he finds a great catch Problem is... you're too shy for most guys to get to know. From meeting someone to dating, you usually have your guard up. And while you're just holding back, it makes you seem like you've got something to hide. Why Don't You Have a Boyfriend Take This Quiz :-) Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance. * ayan, kaya pala single pa rin ako hanggang ngayon! single by choice ha! You'll Find a Boyfriend Within 3 Months Maybe you need a bit more time to get over an ex Or maybe you need a confidence boost to talk to new guys Either way, you'll find a boyfriend in time... As long as you keep getting out there and meeting new guys When Will You Have a Boyfriend? Take This Quiz :-) Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance. * kakatawa naman ata ito..mukhang impossible Guys Like That You're Sensitive And not in that "cry at a drop of a hat" sort of way You just get most guys - even if you're not trying to Guys find it is easy to confide in you and tell you their secrets No wonder you tend to get close quickly in relationships! What Do Guys Like About You? Take This Quiz :-) Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance. -no comment post comment

personality test [27 Dec 2004|06:03pm] [ mood | calm ] Advanced Big 45 Personality Test Results Gregariousness ||||||||||||||||||||| 70% Sociability |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 90% Assertiveness |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78% Poise |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 86% Leadership ||||||||||||||||||||| 62% Provocativeness |||||||||||||||||| 54% Self-Disclosure |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 90% Talkativeness |||||||||||||||||| 54% Group Attachment |||||||||||||||||| 54% Extroversion ||||||||||||||||||||| 70% Understanding |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74% Warmth |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 82% Morality |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 82% Pleasantness |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 86% Empathy |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 82% Cooperation ||||||||||||||||||||| 70% Sympathy |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 86% Tenderness |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78% Nurturance ||||||||||||||||||||| 66% Friendliness |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78% Conscientiousness |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 82% Efficiency |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 86% Dutifulness |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78% Purposefulness |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 90% Organization ||||||||||||||||||||| 62% Cautiousness ||||||||||||||| 50% Rationality ||||||||||||||||||||| 66% Perfectionism |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78% Planning |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78% Orderliness |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74% Stability ||||||||||||||||||||| 62% Happiness |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 86% Calmness ||||||||||||||| 50% Moderation |||||||||||||||||| 54% Toughness ||||||||||||||||||||| 70% Impulse Control |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74% Imperturbability ||||||||| 26% Cool-headedness ||||||||| 22% Tranquility ||||||||||||||| 46% Emotional Stability |||||||||||||||||| 54% Intellect |||||||||||||||||| 58% Ingenuity ||||||||||||||| 42% Reflection |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 86% Competence ||||||||||||||||||||| 66% Quickness ||||||||||||||||||||| 66% Introspection |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74% Creativity |||||||||||||||||| 58% Imagination ||||||||||||||| 50% Depth ||||||||||||||| 46% Openmindedness |||||||||||||||||| 60% Take Free Advanced Big 45 Personality Test personality tests by similarminds.com Factor low score high score Gregariousness 70% quiet, reclusive engaging, socially bold Sociability 90% withdrawn, hidden warm, open, inviting Assertiveness 78% timid, gunshy controlling, aggressive Poise 86% uneasy around others socially comfortable Leadership 62% stays in background prefers to lead Provocativeness 54% modest, plays it safe bold, uninhibited, cocky Self-Disclosure 90% private, contained very open and revealing Talkativeness 54% quiet, stealthy, invisible motor mouth, loud Group Attachment 54% loves solitude prefers to be with others Understanding 74% insensitive, schizoid respectful, sympathetic Warmth 82% disinterested in others supportive, helpful Morality 82% break/ignore the rules play by the rules Pleasantness 86% aloof or disagreeable gets along with others Empathy 82% out of tune w/ others in tune with others Cooperation 70% competitive, warlike agreeable, peaceful Sympathy 86% socially inconsiderate socially conscious Tenderness 78% cold hearted, selfish warm hearted, selfless Nurturance 66% self pleasing, me first people pleasing, me last Conscientiousness 82% reckless, unscheduled careful, planner Efficiency 86% unreliable, lazy finisher, follows through Dutifulness 78% leisurely, derelict strict, rule abiding Purposefulness 90% inattentive, undisciplined prepared, focused Organization 62% relaxed, oblivious detail oriented, anal Cautiousness 50% impulsive, spendthrift restrained, cautious Rationality 66% irrational, random direct, logical Perfectionism 78% careless, error prone detail obsessed Planning 78% disorganized, random scheduled, clean Stability 62% easily frustrated calm, cool, unphased Happiness 86% unhappy, dissatisfied self content, positive Calmness 50% touchy, volatile even tempered, tolerant Moderation 54% needs instant gratification easily delays gratification Toughness 70% hypersensitive, moody thick skinned Impulse Control 74% lacks self control maintains composure Imperturbability 26% highly emotional emotionally contained Cool-headedness 22% demanding, controlling accommodating Tranquility 46% emotionally volatile emotionally neutral Intellect 58% instinctive, non-analytical intellectual, analytical Ingenuity 42% lacks new ideas innovative, novel Reflection 86% unreflective, coarse art and beauty lover Competence 66% slow to understand/think intellectual, brainy Quickness 66% intellectually dependent intellectually independent Introspection 74% not self reflective self searching Creativity 58% dull headed synthesizer, iconoclast Imagination 50% practical, realistic dreamer, unrealistic Depth 46% lacks curiosity mental explorer Take Free Advanced Big 45 Personality Test personality tests by similarminds.com post comment

My first youth camp... [15 Nov 2004|09:22pm] [ mood | cheerful ] this entry was suppose to be posted and accomplished last November 7, 2004...but because of the busy schedule (school and church) i have just finished it today. The youth camp was held last november 6 and 7. it was the first youth camp that i have ever attended. si mama kasi, hindi ako pinapayagan dahil daw bata pa ako...eh ngayon na 19 na ako at president ng usherette kaya pinayagan niya ako... sobrang saya ko nung nalaman ko na magkakaroon ng youth camp... sobrang kahit busy ako sa school eh hindi ako nagdalawang isip na sumama... siyempre, una dahil first time ko ata makakasama sa youth camp papalampasin ko pa ba naman ang opportunity... pangalawa, siyempre time na yun para kahit papano eh makapag-relax man lang ako sa dami ng problema na iniisip ko..deserve ko din naman yun eh.tsaka syempre magkakaroon ako ng chance na makilala yung ibang tao from other ministries.. and siyempre, si Bro. Jerry ata yung organizer, matatangihan ko ba naman yun? malabo ata...pano sobrang bait kaya i'm just returning the kindess na pinapakita niya... ah basta... maaga kami umalis galing dito sa parañaque. sa laguna kasi yun sa tabor house. Salesian Brothers yung may-ari. eh Salesian Brother si Brother Jerry kaya free yung place. nagbigay lang kami ng donation dun. sa church nag-meet pero nagpasundo ako dito sa bahay kasi dami ko dinala...sandok/ serving spoon, knives, rice cokker, ice, cooler etc. siyempre hindi ko ata kaya bitbitin lahat yun.. si bro. jerry nga sumundo eh.. pagdating sa camp eh, siyempre nag-ayos na ng gamit at kumain..nagkaroon na din ng groupings. group1 ako... yun group na yun eh yung permanent group mo for the whole stay dun. at dahil kami ang group1, kami ang unang magliligpit at maghuhugas ng pinagkainan...wala problema saakin, tagal na rin ako hindi nakakapaghugas ng plato eh, tsaka 6 naman kami gagawa kaya ok lang... siyempre tapos maglinis group activity na... a. unang activity, yung pinakamaganda, matibay at mataas na tower. bibigyan ka lang ng 6 sheets ng newspaper at 3 meters ng tape... at 30 minutes para gumawa.. tapos i-eexplain mo yung ginawa niyo.. ako nag-explain sa group namin..kami nanalo sa pinakamatibay na tower...siyempre engineer ata yung leader namin, si kuya basty! realizations: you can't have everything, kasi hindi mo ma-aachieve lahat yun.sabi nga nila nobody's perfect. ang importante eh mahal mo yung ginawa mo tsaka nag-exert ka ng effort para dun...tsaka, mahirap pala makihalubilo sa mga tao na hindi mo pa kilala, siyempre first activity kaya medyo ilangan pa...hindi mo alam kung agree siya or hindi sa design na gusto mo..buti nalang yung groupmates ko mabait lahat... b. lunch time na... syempre activity ulit..kakaibang lunch ang na-experience ko...tinawag nila itong "monk's meal"..grabe ang hirap nd rules...may ka-pair ka...yun yung magbibigay sa'yo ng food and water...so dapat sensitive siya sa needs mo..ang masaklap pa eh bawal magsalita..so pakiramdaman talaga. napakain tuloy ako ng marami kasi nakakahiya naman kung hindi ko kakainin yung binigay saakin. Realizations: mahirap pala maging deaf/mute...minsan kasi pinagtatawanan sila ng mga tao, pero diba dapat mas maging sensitive tayo sa needs nila kasi mas kailangan nila nun..tsaka dapat maging thankful tayo sa mga blessings na binibigay saatin..gusto man natin ito or hindi dapat magpasalamat tayo..kasi yung binibigay saatin, based yun sa nakikita ng ibang tao na kailangan natin..lastly, maging selfless...usually pagkakain sarili lang natin iniisip natin, pero this time natuto ako na magserve muna bago sarili ko..yun naman role namin sa church eh..to serve and not to be served... c. pahinga muna konti tapos "amazing race"... 4 major and 2 minor activities yun.yung mga major activities eh yung may wood na lusutan ng paa tapos lahat kayo andun...may 3 bulag (naka-blinfold) at 3 pipe, (bawal magsalita) kasi 6 sa bawat group. so kahit nakikita mo yung dadaanan niyo eh hindi ka naman pwede magsalita...dapat sabaysabay kasi matutumba kapag may nauuna..siyempre pasaway na naman ako..tawa ako ng tawa kaya medyo natagalan kami... second, yung may maze isa tiga guide isa naka-blindfold..bale 3 pairs bawat group..may hahanapin din na mga object,,,kasama ako sa naka-blinfold kaya grabe putikan yung mga damit ko..ahaha!gusgusin na ako.. third activity, yung web...may web na malaki tapos dapat lahat maka-cross from one side to the other...bawal sumayad sa mga tali, tsaka yung nalusutan ng isa eh hindi na pwede lusutan ng iba pang groupmates...fourth eh rappelling...2 minor activites, isa yung tricky riddle...tsaka pangalawa yung giant star...5 kami na magrerepresent na fingers tapos yung isa leader...siya yung mag-didirect ng gagawin..may straw (tali) gagawa ng giant star na hindi gagamit ng kamay, so katawan yung gagamitin mo kung lulusot ka or what... Realization: team work, tsaka trust sa ka-group mo..lalo na sa mga activities na may naka-blindfold.... d. party... siyempre special ang dinner namin...may mga baloons and decorations..tapos may party hat pa kaming lahat...tapos ng kainan eh "variety show" eklat.. may group presentations, cheers, games etc... grabe, sobrang sumakit yung tiyan ko kakatawa..sila ate sherla and ate ghe (mga member ng ministry of readers) ang pinakamakulit...mga clown in the making... umaga na kami natapos pero worth naman...kami pala yung winning group...may ribbon din kami,,,siyempre nakatago dahil remembrance... sa tent natulog, umulan ahaha kaya medyo basa kami... * i admire bro. jerry, despite ng pagod at puyat eh nagagawa pa niyang ngumiti... kasi kita naman sa mata niya na pagod na siya at inuubo pa siya nun pero siyempre the show must go on..tuloy ang camp... e. umaga, hindi natuloy yung sked na pag-attend namin ng mass...dami ang antok pa at natutulog kaya breakfast nalang muna...after breakfast and ligo, pahinga muna,,,siyempre tulog muna ako kasi puyat at kailangan bumawi ng tulog dahil the next day may exam na ako sa accounting... ayun, pagtripan ba naman ako..nilagyan ba naman ng palaka yung tabi ko.. alam naman nila na sobrang takot ako dun..siyempre naiyak nalang ako sa takot...hindi ako lumabas ng room..hindi tuloy ako nakasali sa isanga activity...buti nga hindi ako nilagnat sa takot, naalimpungatan kasi ko nun... sinundo na nga ako ni ate julie, tapos si bro.jerry para tingnan kung ok na ako at niyaya na ako sumama sa last activity.. siyempre yung final activity sasali na ako, kahit naluluha pa din ako sa takot...drawing yun ng masasabi namin na nangyari sa camp... f. tapos lunch break na at picture taking...siyempre...dapat may group pix at kada pix.. dahil down ang server ng mypicgallery eh hindi ko malalagay dito ibang picture...pagnagkaroon ulit ako ng time eh ilalagay ko yun dito..konti lang picture ko kasi kami ni nordan yung kumukuha ng pix..gamit ko yung cam ko siya naman yung kay bro. jerry. nilagay ko yun sa yahoophotos ko..eto yung link... http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/katrina_ellorin_4/album?.dir=/68e9&.src=ph&.tok=phs21DCBOM4kxIGq ang cute pose bago kami umuwi...dahil ako tiga kuha ng pic eh dapat may pic din ako..siyempre with the person who organized the camp...fave ko siya kasi sobrang bait....sino pa ba eh di si bro.jerry -copy paste niyo nalng sa internet explorer para makita niyo..176 pix yung andun... siyempre yung cover ng album namin eh yung pic namin ni bro.jerry..dapat lang..joke, baka may magselos..dami kasi may gusto dun sa san antonio...although hindi siya ganun ka-gwapo eh sobrang bait naman... siya yung pinakamabait na tao na nakilala ko..hindi man lang marunong magalit..tsaka pag nanghingi ka ng favor sa kanya basta kaya niya ibibigay niya...hay...sobrang bait talaga, kaya nga pag may meeting ang youth at may activity full support kasi sobrang bait niya saaming lahat... sana lang matupad na ang dreams niya...lam niyo na maging priest... siya kasi yung first brother na na-assign sa parish na naging ka-close ko...yung mga bros. 1 year lang sila nag-stay sa parish kasi ililipat din sila sa ibang place..dati kasi ang kilala ko lang yung sa ministry namin..hindi ko na ginusto na may makilala pang iba...kasi mahirap na..parang dati..may naging ka-close ako ng sacristan..(wag pag-isipan ng masama, mabait lang talaga yun) tapos kung kelan sobrang close na namin tsaka siya nag-migrate...imagine how painful it is...hindi sa selfish ako, pero mahirap na maging attached diba.. kaya simula nun sinabi ko sa sarili na dapat wag maging close...kasi kpag nawala yung tao mahihirapan ka lang.. pero na-realize ko mali ako, natural lng yung mga ganoong pangyayari..sabi nga nila nothing is permanent in this world..hirap tanggapin noh! dapat maging handa ka nalang sa mga possibleng mangyari... hay, ngayon sobrang enjoy talaga kasama yun si bro.jerry tapos sabi niya hanggang march lang daw siya..kakalungkot isipin, pero sabi ko sa sarili ko ok lang kasi ganun talaga ang buhay tsaka ang importante dun eh yung memories di ba... kaya nga gumawa ako ng scrap book para sa kanya...ibibigay ko yun bago siya umalis...siyempre para hindi niya kami makalimutan.. yan, panibagong tao na naman sa blurty ko, hindi love life yun ha..tao na nakatawag ng attention ko at nagpa-realize saakin ng mga bagay - bagay... advice nga niya saakin eh : wag masyado maging busy dahil lang may gusto ako kalimutan, tsaka dapat daw galing sa puso mo yung ginagawa mo... kasi daw pag naging workaholic mahirap..based dawa yun sa experience niya... buti nga ngayon nakalimutan ko ng tuluyan si pao eh... hay! sarap ng feeling... may retreat na naman na inorganize sa dec18..excited na ako,,,siyempre, sasama ulit ako...alam ko na it was all worth the time... post comment

sa mga broken hearted...(na 2lad ko?) [05 Nov 2004|06:44pm] [ mood | crazy ] A new love, he says, that comes at the tail-end of a failed relationship can be any of three things: a band-aid (otherwise known as panakip-butas), ointment (think Tiger Balm, Omega, or Ben Gay), or a painkiller (Alaxan, Aaaaadvil, or Midol. Take your pick). Flings, One-night-stands, FUBUs—are all short-term or short-lived so-called solutions to the problem at hand, otherwise known as band-aids. As you already know band-aids cover up a wound, keeping the bloody mess from plain view. And like they say; out of sight, out of mind. But if you really think about it, band-aids don’t really take away the pain. Of course they do keep the thing all neat and tidy on the surface while the wound continues to fester underneath. Next thing you know, you’re lying on your back in the dark, staring at the ceiling, and the pain starts creeping in. Through the ache you wonder what the hell you are doing in some strange bed, who the hell you’re with, and why the heck you do it. Then you remember why and you groan inwardly. But what’s the point of it all if not to keep from hurting, right? Still there you are… in the dark. Hurting just as much (or perhaps even more) before you hooked up with the one snoring next to you. Then there are those who are so great to be with, you simply forget about the pain. Let’s face it. The world is full of wonderful, lovable people who could be the next best thing that could happen to you, only you won’t let it because you’re too tangled up in your own hang-ups to notice. But in the event that you do allow yourself to have a bit of fun every now and then, they’re there, ready to wrestle a smile out of your gloomy disposition, fill your ears with phrases of encouragement, and inflate your ego with unadulterated adoration. Fortunately for you they don’t ask for much save for your being happy. They’re the bosom buddy, no. 1 fan, on-call lover rolled into one. They’re the balm to your wounded soul—if only for a few hours to a couple of months or until you finally get yourself together and let yourself love again... though not necessarily with them. Lastly we come to the human versions of ibuprofen paracetamol. People proven to stop the pain before it stops you. And you go to great lengths to find them. It doesn’t matter that it’s only been a week since the break-up, all you know is that you’ve hit rock bottom and there’s no other way to go but up, right? Through sheer determination you might even be lucky enough to find someone. Suddenly life is beautiful once again. You’re overwhelmed, overjoyed, head-over-feet for someone again. You’re so happy, you can hardly remember whats-her-name or whats-his-face and why the heck you were so miserable in the first place. But then, every beginning has an ending. Yes, for a moment there he or she definitely took the pain away but then the effects wear off and you’re back to hurting all over again. What happens next? Should you go on another fervent hunt for “The One?” Take down the numbers of a prospect or two and call them in the morning? Then again I’m just talking about if you manage to find someone to address your aches and pains. But what if you don’t? What if, despite your efforts, there’s noone there? What then? * * * I’ve learned that in the end you need three things to remedy a broken heart, ego, and soul. Time, distance, and yourself. As words come, those three aren’t so difficult to pronounce but it’s a hell of a lot to really apply. But anyone who’s had his or her heart broken before can tell you that if there are tried and tested elements into getting over someone, those would be it. It may sound a bit sanctimonious but if you even start looking to others for happiness and healing, then you will always do so. Old habits die hard. Believe me, I know. How will you know when you’re finally okay? I can only speak from experience—when the titles of self-help books, particularly those that sound like “How to handle hurt” or “Love conquers all—even broken hearts” won’t catch your eye in a bookstore. When you can do things you used to do together and feel nostalgia and not nausea. When you can hear certain songs played on the radio you won’t feel even a slight twinge. Basically if your can go through your every day without sparing a thought to the pain you used to harbor because of the past and if you can honestly wonder about the person without plotting elaborate schemes of revenge or without having your vision suddenly going blurry with tears, then you’re on your way to recovery, if not already. My unsolicited advice to those still in the process of getting over? Live. Just live. And when I say live, don’t just drift through the days like a ghost of your former self. Really live; and if you can, live it up—with friends, family members, loved ones, your dog, etc. Obviously his or her life didn’t stop for you, why then should you let yours? And it always helps if you have a sense of humor. from peyups.com post comment

im back! [03 Nov 2004|11:01pm] [ mood | crushed ] tagal din since yung last blurty entry ko.. syempre sobrang busy sa mga priorities...ACCOUNTING! grabe, kaka-relate yung entry ni ayen..and agree naman ako sa comment ni dyan... hindi ko na rin kasi alam gagawin sa mga accounting subjects ko... feeling ko napipilitan lang ako mag-aral kasi third year na ako at hindi na pwede mag-shift... sobrang hirap talaga...hindi na ako nag-eenjoy... sobrang puro nalang aral yung ginagawa... samantalang yung ibang course eh pa-easy easy lang eh mataas yung grade samantalang kami na subsub na sa pag-aaral eh bagsak pa din...hopeless case!!! buti nalang supportive mom and dad ko, pati mga tita and tito ko... ayun, kahit papano eh ini-encourage nila ako na magtiyaga lang daw...may right time na binigay or tinakda si God para makatapos ako..basta daw gawin ko nalang yung best ko..whatever daw maging grades ko ok lang kasi nakikita naman nila na nagsusumikap ako..kakatouch!!! sa church thingy naman, eto sobrang busy din ako...siyempre may regular sunday service tapos from 7:30 am eh nagbabantay kami ng mga tables dun para mag-solicit sa mga tao na gusto mag-donate para sa construction and finishing ng church....kakapagod pero iba kasi yung sense of fulfillment kapag nakakatulong... this saturday eh punta naman kami sa Laguna, youth camp!!!! excited na nga ako eh... third, hahaha!!! love life! ayun, negative pa din ang love life ko... siguro maling tao, maling panahon at maling pagkakataon... ok lang yan, malungkot pero may lesson and learnings naman kaya ok lang.... sabi nga nila the truth hurts tsaka reality bites...pero ok lang at least mulat at aware ka sa katotohanan... salamat sa mga friends na sobrang supportive... kay wen, ayen, ches, dyan, marian....ahahaha...ang mga tao na nagtityaga na makinig sa mga walang kwenta kong kwento... si wen...touched ako sa text na andyan lang daw siya pag kailangan ko... si elmz naman...yung mga sweets na binibigay mo at words of encouragement...sobrang nakakatulong...touched ako...siyempre si jigs,,,ang matiyagang nakikinig saakin..sobrang laki ng utang na loob ko dito... salamat... kakatawa nga lang yung mga text..para bang galing ako sa isang break up...sobra mag-worry... dont worry guys, im ok...nasaktan...pero part lang yan ng life...tsaka ipokrita ako kung sasabihin ko na deadma lng..tao lang may feelings...pero wala ako sama ng loob kahit kanino...palagay ko nga blessing pa lahat ng nangyari... napatunayan ko sa sarili ko na im very lucky to have friends na lagi andyan for me... priceless people... na hindi ko man lagi napapansin...pero hindi ako iniwan... hay! sa wakas eh matatahimik na yung mga tenga niyo sa paulit-ulit kong mga kwento... i'm ok..i'll be ok...sabi nga nila "life goes on" and "life doesn't end where our heartaches begin"... 1 comment|post comment

quiz result (from dyan) [30 Oct 2004|10:49pm] [ mood | calm ] I am Girl Next Door Click on the picture below to read more: Take the 'What Kind of Girl Are You?' quiz at CookingToHookup.com post comment

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