| 10:13 pm |
I didn't want to hurt you baby...
I can feel all the muscles in my body tense up. Yes. This song scares me. It scares me like nothing else does. I'm very afraid that this song is right.
Vast - Pretty When You Cry
It reminds me of Brian, yes it does.
"I didn't really love you baby, but I'm pretty when I lie..."
Remembering how much I used to love him is a strange feeling. The part that scares me is that I'm right and that he used me and didn't care. Didn't care for a second. Love is a sensitive subject.
I remember the last time I held him and how I knew it would be the last time. It would be the last time he truly cared for me; cared for me more than anyone else. I had a dream about him last night that he wanted to come back again and I let him, of course. I hope that never really happens. I'll never be his favorite. That's okay though, he isn't tied to me anymore and I wish him the best of luck in the future. Honestly.
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Current Mood: bored
Current Music: Paul Oakenfold - Someone |