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| Tuesday, August 17th, 2004 | | 9:48 pm |
I am HERE for YOU Lay your head on my pillow Here you can be yourself No one has to know what you are feeling No one but me and you
I won't tell your secrets Your secrets are safe with me I will keep your secrets Just ain't goin' be as the pages in your diary
I feel such a connection Even when you far away Oooo baby if there's anything that you fear Come forth and call 7693370 and I'll be here
I won't tell your secrets Your secrets are safe with me I will keep your secrets Just ain't goin' be as the pages in your diary
And only we know what talked about baby Don't know how you can be driven me so crazy Baby when your in town why don't you come around Be the loyalty you need you can trust
I won't tell your secrets Your secrets are safe with me I will keep your secrets Just ain't goin' be as the pages in your diary
Current Mood: mellow Current Music: The Diary of Alicia Keys | | 1:53 am |
Attempting to Place the Pieces of the Nonexistent Puzzle TOGETHER.........ohh how I am bewildered Some people live for the fortune Some people live just for the fame Some people live for the power yeah Some people live just to play the game Some people think that the physical things Define what's within I've been there before But that life's a bore So full of the superficial
Some people want it all But I don't want nothing at all If it ain't you baby If I ain't got you baby Some people want diamond rings Some just want everything But everything means nothing If I ain't got you
Some people search for a fountain Promises forever young Some people need three dozen roses And that's the only way to prove you love them
And in a world on a silver platter And wondering what it means No one to share, no one who truly cares for me
Some people want it all But I don't want nothing at all If it ain't you baby If I ain't got you baby Some people want diamond rings Some just want everything But everything means nothing If I ain't got you
Some people want it all But I don't want nothing at all If it ain't you baby If I ain't got you baby Some people want diamond rings Some just want everything But everything means nothing If I ain't got you
If I ain't got you with me baby Nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing If I ain't got you with me baby
Current Mood: introspective Current Music: Jadakiss - "Why" | | Thursday, March 11th, 2004 | | 5:59 pm |
InTOxICAted Baby can't you see I'm calling A guy like you should wear a warning It's dangerous I'm falling There's no escape I can't wait I need a hit Baby give me it You're dangerous I'm loving it
Too high, can't come down Losing my head Spinning 'round and 'round Do you feel me now
With a taste of your lips I'm on a ride You're toxic, I'm slipping under Tasting the poison paradise I'm addicted to you Don't you know that you're toxic And I love what you do Don't you know that you're toxic
It's getting late to give you up I took a sip From my devil cup Slowly taking over me
Too high, can't come down It's in the air And it's all around Can you feel me now?
With a taste of your lips I'm on a ride You're toxic, I'm slipping under Tasting the poison paradise I'm additcted to you Don't you know that you're toxic And I love what you do Don't you know that you're toxic
With a taste of your lips I'm on a ride You're toxic, I'm slipping under Tasting the poison paradise I'm additcted to you Don't you know that you're toxic And I love what you do Don't you know that you're toxic
With a taste of your lips I'm on a ride You're toxic, I'm slipping under Tasting the poison paradise I'm additcted to you Don't you know that you're toxic And I love what you do Don't you know that you're toxic
Intoxicate me now With your loving now I think I'm ready now Intoxicate me now With your loving now I think I'm ready now
Current Mood: sexcited | | Sunday, December 14th, 2003 | | 4:07 pm |
DeCaDentLy dELicIOus...... My Milkshake brings all the boys to the yard And their like it's better than yours Damn right it's better than yours I could teach you But I have to charge
My milkshake brings all the boys to the yard And their like it's better than yours Damn right it's better than yours I could teach you But I have to charge
I know you want it The thing that makes me What the guys go crazy for They lose their minds The way i whyne I think it's time
La,La,La,La,La Warm it up La,La,La,La,La The boys are waiting La,la,La,La,La Warm it up La,La,La,La,La The boys are waiting
My milkshake brings all the boys to the yard And their like it's better than yours Damn right it's better than yours I could teach you but i have to charge
My milkshake brings all the boys to the yard And their like it's better than yours Damn right it's better than yours I could teach you but i have to charge
I see your on it You want me to teach thee Techniques that freaks these boys It can't be bought Just know things get caught Watch if your smart
La,La,La,La,La Warm it up La,La,La,La,La The boys are waiting
La,La,La,La,La, Warm it up La,La,La,La,La The boys are waiting
My milkshake brings all the boys to yard And their like it's better than yours Damn right it's better than yours I could teach you but I have to charge
My milkshake brings all the boys to the yard And their like it's better than yours Damn right it's better than yours I could teach you but I have to charge
Oh once you get involved Everyone will look this way-so You must maintain your charm same time maintain your haylo Just get the perfect(land?) Plus what you have within Then next his eys are squint Then he's picked up your scent
La,La,La,La,La Warm it up La,La,La,La,La The boys are waiting La,La,La,La,La Warm it up La,La,La,La,La The boys are waiting
My milkshake brings all the boys to the yard And their like it's better than yours Damn right it's better than yours I could teach you but i have to charge
My milkshake brings all the boys to the yard And their like it's better than yours Damn right it's better than yours I could teach you but i have to charge
Current Mood: Tasty | | Saturday, December 6th, 2003 | | 10:57 pm |
Who must determine............what this life is meant to be...... You called yesterday to basically say That you care for me But that you're just not in love Immediately, I pretended To be feeling similarly And led you to believe I was OK To just walk away from the one thing That's unyielding and sacred to me
Well, I guess I'm trying to be Non-chalant about it And I'm going to extremes To prove I'm fine without you But in reality I'm slowly losing my mind Underneath the guise of a smile Gradually, I'm dying inside Friends ask me how I feel And I lie convincingly 'Cause I don't want to reveal The fact that that I'm suffering So, I wear my disguise 'Til I go home at night And turn down all the lights And then I break down and cry
So, what do you do When somebody you're devoted to Suddenly just stops loving you And it seems they haven't got a clue Of the pain that rejection Is putting you through Do you cling to your pride And sing "I Will Survive" Do you lash out and say "How dare you leave this way" Do you hold on in vain As they just slip away
Well, I guess I'm trying to be Non-chalant about it And I'm going to extremes To prove I'm fine without you But in reality I'm slowly losing my mind Underneath the guise of a smile Gradually, I'm dying inside Friends ask me how I feel And I lie convincingly 'Cause I don't want to reveal The fact that that I'm suffering So, I wear my disguise 'Til I go home at night And turn down all the lights And then I break down and cry
Well, I guess I'm trying to be Non-chalant about it And I'm going to extremes To prove I'm fine without you But in reality I'm slowly losing my mind Underneath the guise of a smile Gradually, I'm dying inside Friends ask me how I feel And I lie convincingly 'Cause I don't want to reveal The fact that that I'm suffering So, I wear my disguise 'Til I go home at night And turn down all the lights And then I break down and cry
Well, I guess I'm trying to be Non-chalant about it And I'm going to extremes To prove I'm fine without you But in reality I'm slowly losing my mind Underneath the guise of a smile Gradually, I'm dying inside Friends ask me how I feel And I lie convincingly 'Cause I don't want to reveal The fact that that I'm suffering So, I wear my disguise 'Til I go home at night And turn down all the lights And then I break down and cry
Well, I guess I'm trying to be Non-chalant about it And I'm going to extremes To prove I'm fine without you But in reality I'm slowly losing my mind
Underneath the guise of a smile Gradually, I'm dying inside Friends ask me how I feel And I lie convincingly 'Cause I don't want to reveal The fact that that I'm suffering So, I wear my disguise 'Til I go home at night And turn down all the lights And then I break down and cry
BREAK
I can't help it When I'm not around you (Boy) 'Cause all I ever seem to Do is drift away In dreams about you 'Cause when I'm without you (Boy) It always seems like Part of me is missing baby
Sometimes I don't call Like I don't care at all But secretly, you're the only thing That lifts me up And makes me smile When I'm unhappy All you gotta do is call And suddenly things don't really Seem so bad at all
(Boy) I need you (Boy) Adore you (Boy) Gotta have you (Oh boy) I wanna feel your touch This ain't no little crush So come and get my love Baby anything you want Feeling you (Boy) Fiending for you (Boy) Just waiting on you (Boy) When I see you (Oh boy) I'm gonna wrap you up Inside my love And never let you go boy Never let you go boy
My heart races when My Motorola beeps Or my cell rings I just make a wish and if it's you My whole day changes 'Cause when I know You're thinking of me (Boy) Heaven knows Suddenly it's not so dismal baby
Sometimes I don't call Like I don't care at all But secretly, you're the only thing That lifts me up And makes me smile When I'm unhappy All you gotta do is call And suddenly things don't really Seem so bad at all
(Boy) I need you (Boy) Adore you (Boy) Gotta have you (Oh boy) I wanna feel your touch This ain't no little crush So come and get my love Baby anything you want Feeling you (Boy) Fiending for you (Boy) Just waiting on you (Boy) When I see you (Oh boy) I'm gonna wrap you up Inside my love And never let you go boy Never let you go boy | | Friday, December 5th, 2003 | | 8:57 pm |
Does "Goodbye", mean "Forever"? "Mhmn bye byeHow do you love someoneThat hurts you oh so badWith intentions goodWas all he ever hadBut how do I let go when I'veLoved him for so long and I'veGiven him all that I couldMaybe love is a hopeless crimeGiving up what seems your lifetimeWhat went wrong with something once so goodHow do you find the words to sayTo say goodbyeIf your heart don't have the heart to sayTo say goodbyeI know now I was naïveNever knew where this would leadAnd I'm not trying to take awayFrom the good man that he isBut how do I let go when I'veLoved him for so long and I'veGiven him all that I couldWas it something wrong that we didBecause others infiltratedWhat went wrong with something once so goodHow do you find the words to sayTo say goodbyeIf your heart don't have the heart to sayTo say goodbyeIs this the end are you sureHow should you know when you've never been here beforeIt's so hard to just let goWhen this is the one and only love I've ever knownSo how do you find the words to sayTo say goodbyeIf your heart don't have the heart to sayTo say goodbye[Fade out]" Goodbye - Your are my girl, Alicia, Rock on!
Current Mood: distressed | | Tuesday, November 25th, 2003 | | 11:24 pm |
??? WHAT THE FUCK
Current Mood: confused Current Music: External Influences | | Tuesday, November 18th, 2003 | | 10:30 pm |
Thou shall not give into TEMPTATION............. +_Irresistible_+
You know, I don't know what it is But everything about you is so irresistible
Don't you try to tell me that he's not my type To hide what I feel inside When he makes me weak with desire I know that I'm supposed to make him wait Let him think I like the chase But I can't stop fanning the fire I know I meant to say no
But he's irresistible Up close and personal Now inescapable I can hardly breathe More than just physical Deeper than spiritual His ways are powerful Irresistible to me (Oh, I can hardly breathe, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
Don't you think I'm trying to tell my heart what's right That I should really say goodnight But I just cant stop myself falling (falling) Maybe I'll tell him that I feel the same That I dont want to play no game (no) Cause when I feel his arms wrapped around me I know meant to say no (I meant to say no)
But he's irresistible (irresistible) Up close and personal Now inesacpable I can hardly breathe (I can hardly breathe) More than just physical Deeper than spiritual (oh oh yeah) His ways are powerful Irresistible to me
Can't you see whenever he's close to me I really find it hard to breathe He's so irresistible Baby, you know its more than just spritual His kisses are powerful He's so irresistible You're so irresistible
He's irresistible (yeah yeah) Up close and personal (oh yeah) Now inescapable I can hardly breathe (I can hardly breathe) More than just physical (oh yeah) Deeper than spiritual His ways are powerful Irresistible to me
He's Irresistible Up close and personal (yeah yeah) I can hardly breathe (irresistible to me) More than just physical Deeper than spiritual His ways are powerful Irresistible to me
Current Mood: sceptical | | Friday, November 14th, 2003 | | 9:43 pm |
MAELSTROM.............. From the depths of despair I write to you........confused and bewildered, I have once again failed to understand the traumas of life - my life. Unfortunately, I am have been the constant victim of baseless and virulent assualts - committed by those I consider to be my strongest allies, those who should love me blindly even with all of my foibles........for if it weren't for the blindness of love, who would love us?
Current Mood: bewildered | | Sunday, October 26th, 2003 | | 9:24 am |
Heal.................. "Ab imo pectore"
Current Mood: hopeful | | Thursday, October 23rd, 2003 | | 7:26 pm |
Well, Well, Well Do you think you love me... Ooo we! I think I love you!
I'm sleeping And right in the middle of a good dream Then all at once I wake up From something that keeps knocking at my brain Before I go insane I hold my pillow to my head And spring up in my bed Screaming out the words I dread .... "I think I love you!" (I think I love you)
This morning, I woke up with this feeling I didn't know how to deal with And so I just decided to myself I'd hide it to myself And never talk about it And did not go and shout it When you walked into the room ..... "I think I love you!" (I think I love you)
I think I love you So what am I so afraid of? I'm afraid that I'm not sure of A love there is no cure for I think I love you Isn't that what life is made of? Though it worries me to say I've never felt this way
Believe me You really don't have to worry I only want to make you happy And if you say Hey, go away, I will But I think better still I'd better stay around and love you Do you think I have a case? Let me ask you to your face Do you think you love me?
I think I love you So what am I so afraid of? I'm afraid that I'm not sure of A love there is no cure for I think I love you Isn't that what life is made of? Though it worries me to say I've never felt this way
I don't know what I'm up against I don't know what it's all about I've go so much to think about Hey!I think I love you! So what am I so afraid of? I'm afraid that I'm not sure of A love there is no cure for I think I love you Isn't that what life is made of? Though it worries me to say I've never felt this way
I think I love you! So what am I so afraid of? I'm afraid that I'm not sure of A love there is no cure for I think I love you Isn't that what life is made of? Though it worries me to say I've never felt this way
Ok enough with the sappy lyrics, now it is time to attend to business - to discuss the true matters that need to be adressed in my tumultuous life..........well there are other adjectives that could be assigned to describe my current condition......but let us move on
So every morning when I rise from my somnolent state, I expect to see the same dumbass mother fuckers I see everyday and do the same dumbass mother fucking tasks I am obligated to do. I only know what to expect of myself as an individual but not of the greater world. As each day nears, arrives, and passes I grow increasingly cynical of the blatant nature of my surroundings. I embrace my ability to surmont my misery but not my fatigue and genially interact with those in my presence. So the time of the escape is approaching...............steadily approaching and I can't be more enthusiaistic. The arduous and euphoric task of releasing myself from the shackles of my customary life will prove to be an exhilarating experience. The time is soon..............
Current Mood: amused Current Music: Taal- The Beat of Passion | | Sunday, September 28th, 2003 | | 6:02 pm |
A Time for Reflection............. Common Sense EVERYONE can use:
Don't hold on to the people of your past, there is a reason why they didn't make it into your future.
Current Mood: perspicacious Current Music: The sagacious voices that are speaking to me. | | 2:14 pm |
FANTASIES..............become REALITIES............. Certified quality A dat da girl dem need and dem not stop cry without apology Buck dem da right way - dat my policy Sean Paul alongside - now hear what da man say - Beyonce Dutty Ya, Dutty Ya, Dutty Ya Beyonce sing it now ya
BABY BOY YOU STAY ON MY MIND FULFILL MY FANTASIES I THINK ABOUT YOU ALL THE TIME I SEE YOU IN MY DREAMS
BABY BOY NOT A DAY GOES BY WITHOUT MY FANTASIES I THINK ABOUT YOU ALL THE TIME I SEE YOU IN MY DREAMS
AAH OH MY BABY'S FLY BABY OH YES NO HURT ME SO GOOD BABY OH I'M SO WRAPPED UP IN YOUR LOVE LET ME GO LET ME BREATHE STAY OUT MY FANTASIES
Ya ready gimme da ting dat ya ready get ya live And tell me all about da tings that you will fantasize I know you dig da way me step da way me make my stride Follow your feelings baby girl b/c they cannot be denied Come check me in-a night and make we get it amplified Me have da ting to run da ship cause I'm go slip and I'm go slide And in the words of love I got ta get it certified But I give you da toughest longest kinda ride - girl
BABY BOY YOU STAY ON MY MIND FULFILL MY FANTASIES I THINK ABOUT YOU ALL THE TIME I SEE YOU IN MY DREAMS
BABY BOY NOT A DAY GOES BY WITHOUT MY FANTASIES I THINK ABOUT YOU ALL THE TIME I SEE YOU IN MY DREAMS
PICTURE US DANCIN REAL CLOSE IN A DARK DARK CORNER OF A BASEMENT PARTY EVERY TIME I CLOSE MY EYES IT'S LIKE EVERYONE LEFT BUT YOU AND ME
IN OUR OWN LITTLE WORLD THE MUSIC IS THE SUN THE DANCE FLOOR BECOMES THE SEA FEELS LIKE TRUE PARADISE TO ME
BABY BOY YOU STAY ON MY MIND FULFILL MY FANTASIES I THINK ABOUT YOU ALL THE TIME I SEE YOU IN MY DREAMS
BABY BOY NOT A DAY GOES BY WITHOUT MY FANTASIES I THINK ABOUT YOU ALL THE TIME I SEE YOU IN MY DREAMS
BABY BOY YOU STAY ON MY MIND BABY BOY YOU ARE SO DAMN FINE BABY BOY WON'T YOU BE MINE
Top top - girl Me and you together is a wrap - dat girl Driving around da town in your drop top - girl You no stop shock - girl Little more da Dutty, we'll rock dat world
Current Mood: ecstatic Current Music: hhhhhhhhhhmmmmmmmmmmmm | | Monday, September 22nd, 2003 | | 8:42 pm |
OHHHHHHHH WWWHHHOOOAAAAAA........ See, baby I know you done had your share of girls I am more than confident You won't ever have to search any streets for affection I got you
What kind of girl you like I know my looks can be deceivin' Tell me am I your type My main goal is to please you
What's on the schedule tonight Am I the reason you'll be treatin' I hope you have an appetite So tell me will you come and spend the night
My love is like...wo My kiss is like...wo My touch is like...wo My sex is like...wo My a** is like...wo My body's like...wo And you're kissin' it So what you think of it
My love is like...wo My kiss is like...wo My touch is like...wo My sex is like...wo My a** is like...wo My body's like...wo And you're kissin' it So what you think of it
When will you come through 'Cause I'll be waitin' up right here Can you bring some Belvedere So we can pop the cork and cheers
Please have no fear Yeah I just wanna love you right I hope you have an appetite So tell baby, will you come and spend the night?
My love is like...wo My kiss is like...wo My touch is like...wo My sex is like...wo My a** is like...wo My body's like...wo And you're kissin' it So what you think of it
My love is like...wo My kiss is like...wo My touch is like...wo My sex is like...wo My a** is like...wo My body's like...wo And you're kissin' it So what you think of it
Hold me, Oh my Taste it, Taste it Hold me, Oh My, My
Hold me like you never wanna let me go If you're likin' what you're tastin' Baby let me know See if you're gonna love me better love me strong 'Cause I want this love to love last all night long
My love is like...wo My kiss is like...wo My touch is like...wo My sex is like...wo My a** is like...wo My body's like...wo And you're kissin' it So what you think of it
My love is like My kiss is like My touch is like My sex is like My a** is like My body's like And you're kissin' it So what you think of it
Wo Wo Wo Wo Wo Wo Wo
My love is like...wo My kiss is like...wo
Current Mood: energetic Current Music: thump thump | | Thursday, September 18th, 2003 | | 5:31 pm |
Rain On Me.............. I'm looking in the mirror at this woman down and out She's internally dying and knew this was not what love's about I don't want to be this woman the second time around 'Cause I'm waking up screaming No longer believing That I'm going to be around
Over and over I try And over and over you lie And over and over I cry
Over and over I try And over and over you lie And over and over I cry
Rain on me Lord, won't you take this pain from me I don't wanna live, I don't wanna breathe Till you just rain on me Lord, won't you take this pain from me I don't wanna live, I don't wanna breathe
See, I don't wanna hug my pillow late at night no more I'm tossin' and turnin' and thinkin' about burning down these walls I don't want to fuel this fire no more, no more, no more See I made up my mind cause I wasted my time Ain't nothing here to keep me warm
Over and over I try And over and over you lie And over and over I cry
Over and over I try And over and over you lie And over and over I cry
Over and over I try And over and over you lie And over and over I cry
Over and over I try And over and over you lie And over and over I cry
Rain on me Lord, won't you take this pain from me I don't wanna live, I don't wanna breathe Till you just rain on me Lord, won't you take this pain from me I don't wanna live, I don't wanna breathe
I'm so tired of the rain in my life And I'm so tired of the strain And I ain't gonna lie 'Cause sometimes I can't sleep at night And this here it just don't seem right Sometimes I just wonder why I almost let my life go by Sometimes I can't sleep at night And this here just don't seem right Sometimes I just wonder why I almost let my life go by
Rain on me Lord, won't you take this pain from me I don't wanna live, I don't wanna breathe Till you just rain on me Lord, won't you take this pain from me I don't wanna live, I don't wanna breathe | | Wednesday, September 17th, 2003 | | 5:38 pm |
Who I Am...................... I am a product of the new world
I represent the convergence of civilizations
I have a heritage rich with culture
An experience truly unique
This is who I am
Current Mood: content and relaxed Current Music: quiet breeze..........surrounding my being | | Sunday, September 14th, 2003 | | 7:06 pm |
After the Storm.......... Yes, well life does go on..............after the storm there is light to guide you to a luminous future, where you may prosper in the face of adversity. Life is a continous process of living, observing, and learning.........................
Life does go on after the storm the time when everything will return to the "norm" Or will it?.............or is that a fallacy a figure of my imagination or an overblown fantasy
Who is to say or dictate what will really happen... this grave uncertainty is a concept I find hard to fathom What constitutes one's struggle is that even measurable? It can never be assigned a quantity or compared against a standard quality
When the time draws near will all of us flee in fear? Or will we adopt an attitude of determination or cower and subject ourselves to the subsequent humiliation? Can we test the strength of our minds and hearts or will the cyclical nature of destruction tear us apart?
Who is to say that we will survive When we lack the basic ability to revive our lost and contemptible souls having abandoned all of our goals
Where do we, you stand now? do we, do you even have the notion of how Considering that we, you possess the aptitude humble yourself and develop a new attitude Realize that the time is now PEACE
Current Mood: amused Current Music: The voices in my head | | 1:35 am |
NIGGAZ Yeah NIGGAZ..............well what is there to say about niggaz - A considerable amount of statements can be made about NIGGAZ - we can explore the deep and perplexing psychological realms of the Black exsistence and experience but I'll attempt to do my best in expressing, what truly needs to be addressed.
Yes NIGGAZ Not my NIGGAZ But NIGGAZ nonetheless
Don't I just love those NIGGAZ No I hate those NIGGAZ Those filthy, low down, desperate, sorry - ass, triflin' Don't know how to gain a purpose, busy playin' the endless games of the white man trying to get all that they can While they don't have a plan to futher advance themselves or their people but your people don't matter when you're a token That's right a damn token so busy trying to please those around them - they don't realize that they are broken
Obedient, passive, pliable, loyal busy tryin to convience yourself that you are royal! So caught up in the white man's hands that you have abandoned all the necessary demands Have willing forgotten their true and God given identity have allowed themselves to be manipulated mentally So twisted in the ways of the beast they can't even appreciate in the least The true potential of themselves and their people but when you attempt to gain strength then realize that you are feeble
So my NIGGAZ, what is your next course of action? Will you allow the white man to dictate your destiny or will you confide in the guidance and wisdom that is within thee We have inheirited a wonderful legacy let us recognize this reality with all honesty Within you lies the potential to be your own savor so do yourself a favor... recognize your abilities and the endless capabilities............. PEACE You have the ability to be your anchor in the strom
Current Mood: cynical Current Music: Liberation! | | Monday, September 8th, 2003 | | 11:01 pm |
Le Monde "Where and why in our country and elsewhere have the 'weak' and the 'unique' been oppressed?" | | Sunday, August 31st, 2003 | | 2:28 am |
And the Beat Goes On So here I am ......well what is there to say, I believe I will wait for another day to convey what it is I need to say. Advice: Do not dwell and preoccupy oneself with the "What if" but contemplate and consider the "What is".
Current Mood: contemplative |
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