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Friday, January 21st, 2005
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7:25a - SURRENDER...
My dreams last night were very telling. I was with someone in them...a romantic partner. But not just him. My entire family was in his house...a beautiful house by the way that I've never been in. When I say entire family I include V and hers too plus my mother and her boyfriend with his family and my father and his side with my brother and his fiance up here (I assume it was here in CT) from Florida and my ex and his new family. Quite an interesting mix of people. I sat lounging on a bench outside and V's daughter came by wondering why I was outside. I know it was a comfortable beautiful day. I remember this part vividly. I said, "I've never been in this situation before. I've never introduced the man in my life to the people in my life. I mean, I've introduced them to my friends but very few and I mean very few have gotten past meeting the friends. He is the first who I've allowed to get through any barriers I may have set up. Look at how well they've taken to him. He is wonderful with them and they with him. I'm just trying to wrap my head around all this. I'm a bit overwhelmed at the moment. Its all good but I guess I'm sort of in shock." She just looked at me and shrugged and then a large group of people came outside from the house to relax outside. The dream went on and I know what took place. He and I were in a truck with a little blond haired girl who was beautiful. I don't know if she was mine or not but she was definitely his. I do know I was smiling brightly and warmly while holding her.
The dream shifted or what I remember leaped to this: I was reading online at a bulletin board where someone asked for the lyrics to the song Surrender. I asked who performed it while thinking that the group Heart did it. But it kept going on even though I brought it up. So obviously the song by heart wasn't the one. But the last words I remember in the dream were "Its time for you to surrender." I believe it was meant for me but I don't know in what context. So I looked up some lyrics and posted them below. Who knows. Interesting nonetheless.
Is this real enough for you
You were so confused
Now that you've decided to stay
We'll remain together
You can't abandon me
You belong to me
Breathe in and take my life in you
No longer myself only you
There's no escaping me, my love
Surrender
Darling, there's no sense in running
You know I will find you
Everything is perfect now
We can live forever
You can't abandon me
You belong to me
Breathe in and take my life in you
No longer myself only you
There's no escaping me, my love
Surrender
Breathe in and take my life in you
No longer myself only you
There's no escaping me, my love
Surrender
could be too?:
If that's the way you want it,
Well there you go.
Baby you can have it all,
Now that you just let me go.
Yeah, yeah! Yeah, yeah!
I've waited here for so long,
Thinking that you'd see.
You just kept on running away,
you make your misery my company
Open up your eyes,
Don't you know you only get one life!
(CHOURUS)
Oh, you drive me crazy,
Oh, you just bring me down.
Look out your window,
My sunshine's all around.
All you have to do is just surrender,
Just surrender.
All the pain in your heart,
All the tears in your empty soul.
And when your spinning around and round,
I'm the physco goin' outta control.
Open up your eyes,
Don't you know your only wasting time!
(CHOURUS)
Oh, you drive me crazy,
Oh, you just bring me down.
Look out your window,
My sunshine's all around.
All you have to do is just surrender,
Just surrender.
You know it doesn't matter what you do,
Don't you know I'm so over you!
Open up your eyes,
Don't you know that it's your life!
(CHOURUS)
Oh, you drive me crazy,
Oh, you just bring me down.
Look out your window,
My sunshine's all around.
All you've gotta do....
Oh, you drive me crazy,
Oh, you just bring me down.
Look out your window,
My sunshine's all around.
All you've gotta do is just surrender,
just surrender, just surrender.
If that's the way you want it,
Well there you go!!
or maybe:
There's so much life I've left to live
And this fire's burning still
When I watch you look at me
I think I could find the will
To stand for every dream
And forsake the solid ground
And give up this fear within
Of what would happen if they ever knew
I'm in love with you
'cause I'd surrender everything
To feel the chance to live again
I reach to you
I know you can feel it to
We'd make it through
A thousand dreams I still believe
I'd make you give them all to me
I'd hold you in my arms and never let go
I surrender
I know I can't survive
Another night away from you
You're the reason I go on
And now I need to live the truth
Right now, there's no better time
From this fear I will break free
And I'll live again with love
And no the they can't take that away from me
And they will see...
'cause I'd surrender everything
To feel the chance to live again
I reach to you
I know you can feel it too
We'd make it through
A thousand dreams I still believe
I'd make you give them all to me
I'd hold you in my arms and never let go
I surrender
Every night's getting longer
And this fire is getting stronger, babe
I'll swallow my pride and I'll be alive
Did you hear my call
I surrender all
'cause I'd surrender everything
To feel the chance to live again
I reach to you
I know you can feel it too
We'd make it through
A thousand dreams I still believe
I'd make you give them all to me
I'd hold you in my arms and never let go
I surrender
Right here, right now
I give my life to live again
I'll break free, take me
My everything I surrender all to you
Right here, right now
I give my life to live again
I break free, take me
My everything I surrender all to you
Today's Virgo Horoscope: You can already feel the change starting. The stars are getting antsy, and the pace of your life has picked up considerably -- and there's no end in sight. Fortunately, it's exactly the kind of change you've been hoping for, and you're ready to throw a huge fete to celebrate it. You may feel guilty if you stay up too late tonight celebrating, but go ahead and risk it. Hmm...
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