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Sunday, November 2nd, 2003
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12:22a
Eeeeeh... I must seem like such a lame, stalker kinda girl, huh? @x@
Aaaaah, David, David... I don't think you even remember my named... >>;;; I talk to you on a semi-regular basis, but... fwaaaaah.
Is it sad? That I already have a Christmas gift for him, but not anyone else? I don't even know what I plan on doing for anybody else. >x< And yet, I've already paid for something for him...! How sad can a person get, huh? I need to be shot.
I must be so annoying... ^^;;; I don't know how you people put up with me, really. I'm clingy, desperate for attention, and not particularly smart. >x<
I have this weird sense of paranoia, that's been plaguing me more and more lately... do any of you people actually like me? I don't know, this probably sounds dumb, and I"m not trying to whine--it's an honest question. You talk to me, and you all seem nice enough, but...
My constant random IMing probably gets annoying, and I never have much to talk about... even if I do have things to talk about, they're not really interesting, and I'm not as good at holding serious discussions as some of you... (I've been worse lately, but... I feel stupid a lot of the time >x<)
I feel like ... the only ones of you ('you' being... anyone I talk to regularly) who I really trust are Ririh0n, Pewt, and maybe Pink. Beyond that...? I don't know. I frequently get the feeling that you (you being the ones I didn't just list) are only humoring me... @x@ You're all very kind people, and I like you all very much, but...
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I don't know. ^^;
Meeting people always seems like a good thing. >x< It's easier to tell if you're annoying someone that way.
... I'm always scared of annoying people. @x@ I think it's because Mum and Dad always used to yell at me if I interrupted their conversations, when I was little. Now, I"m terrified of annoying anyone...
something like that.
I don't know, really.
Aaaahn, this weekend is so boring. >x<
Ririh0n, get back soon! Checkers requires entertainment! (...and doesn't feel like pissing anyone off!)
current mood:  anxious
current music: Green Day - Welcome to Paradise (comment on this)
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