: Tunay na Lalaki, Boylessness, and the Pursuit to Perfection (a Fezbook Convo)
Dahil nga graduate na at walang allowance, stuck ako sa bahay, at, kita niyo naman, on-line the whole day. Si Bojit/Chrysanthus ay duty sa Rehab (na pugad ng sangkatutak na mga moomoo), at bilang kaibigan i kept him company - virtual nga lang.
At sa pag-iinarte ko, dahil nga naaaning ako for the past few days, surprises, may mga wisdom kaming napagnilaynilayan.
At kasama na dun ang panghuhusga sa katangahang nakalipas, at katangahang kasalukuyang nagaganap.
Yves: sakit sa bangs. (try mo din yung phrase ko)
Chrysanthus: it's too... gay
Yves: wow, meh ganong judgment!
Chrysanthus: sorry. i AM straight after all. check out tunaynalalake.blogspot.com
Yves: eh di no harm!
Chrysanthus: hehe
Yves: that's hay-men right?
Chrysanthus: yeah
Yves: contact ko sa multiply yun noh.
Chrysanthus: ah, really?
Yves: dapat naman talaga ganon ka-black and white ang mga bagay bagay, para wala ng nalilito.
Chrysanthus: haha, well, if that were so, where would that leave gay people?
Yves: not in confusion, at least. and that would make virtually ALLLLLL hot men gay.
Chrysanthus: er. because...?
Yves: "ang tunay na lalaki walang abs"
Chrysanthus: oh yeah. but admit it.
Yves: what?
Chrysanthus: if clean, good-looking and well-groomed. probably gay.
Yves: oh, true? anong point?
Chrysanthus: no point, except that a return to "black and white" really wouldn't change the divide between straight and gay in terms of physical appearance. it would be more of the stereotypical character.
Yves: helloooo, you'd be surprised how many people are still hiding behind glass closets noh. and how many girls still buy their bullshit pretense of heterosexuality. (hindi ako galet!)
Chrysanthus: but aren't we all getting what we want? women are more "empowered", and men are more "sensitive". if that blurs the lines between previously distinct gender roles, it's not really a fault, but a consequence.
Yves: i don't care. i'm not getting what i want!
Chrysanthus: maybe women are becoming more masculinized than they want to admit---they even look for feminine features (i.e., gay) in prosprective mates.
*prospective--sorry!
Yves: *forgiven
Chrysanthus: well. maybe you really want to be alone. haha.
:-D:-D
Yves: yun? yun ang putanginang conclusion mo!
Chrysanthus: well, if you don't get what you want,try to want what you gety?
*get
Yves: ano bang nangyayari sa typing skills mo.
Chrysanthus: if people didn't learn how to settle we'd probably be a lot more good-looking and intelligent as a species.
Yves: anyway, eh i don't even have anything or one. I DON'T EVEN HAVE THE OPTIONS!
wait, nalito ako sa advice mo.
Chrysanthus: huh?
Yves: if people didn't learn how to settle we'd probably be a lot more good-looking and intelligent as a species.
so, don't settle?
Chrysanthus: i'm saying that settling is an inherent survival trait. that's why we have such mismatched couples.
yung tipong "wtf was he/she thinking?"
Yves: okay i get.
Chrysanthus: the choice to settle was for the "at least i'm not alone" shite. people are stupid and scared.
Yves: hay naku bojit, you're just saying that because you're in a relationship.
for people like me (like me talaga), some somethings are better than nothing.
Chrysanthus and Sarah Lim are now friends.
Chrysanthus:well, the grass is always greener in the other stash.
Yves: adik ka!
::: ::: :::
Yves: Remember [censored]?
Chrysanthus: yeah, why? you're never-was-love-of-your-life?
i'm guessing?
Yves: ay, hindi siya yun. hehehe. pero before, naging crush ko siya for two seconds. but he's not particularly bright.
Chrysanthus: ah. fail. hehe.
Yves: 'xactly. pwede lang siyang pang-2 dimensional crush.
kasi hot naman talaga siya.
Chrysanthus: i'm guessing we can go as far as 3 dimensions. just don't try abstract concepts, like words? hahahaha
Yves: ahahahah.
Chrysanthus: ansama, i've never even met the guy.
Yves: wow, conscience? di uso yun. anyway, ang real deal breaker ay...
may boypren na siya.
Chrysanthus: ah. the houseguest/homebreaker dilemma.
Yves: hindi siya yun friend.
kita mo, natanso ako TWICE over the weekend.
nagka-kras ako sa dalawang out, tapos pareho silang may boypren.
Chrysanthus: natanso...?
Yves: putangina, it's like i skipped a whole stage.
(natanso=naloko, pay attention)
eh sanay ako, crush, tapos pagdududahan ang sexuality, tapos magkakaron ng imaginary relationship na magtatagal for, say, four years. tapos magkaka-GELPREN sila right before my eyes.
Chrysanthus: well. at least they're gay. that's a marked improvement over your previous fixations
Yves: YUN NGA ang consolation!
Chrysanthus: haha. but is the imaginary relationship any different?
Yves: with the gay one's?
ones?
Chrysanthus: yus. i'm guessing much less drama. no "coming out" scene.
Yves: there wasn't even an imaginary relationship. yung thing was, at the very beginning hindi ko na kelangan gawin yung "imaginary relationship" kasi sa isip ko, pwede ko siyang career-in/i-career, for real.
Chrysanthus: haha. and...?
Yves: instead na i-imagine, gawin na lang. nagmamature din naman ako noh. yung isang crush ko, na bading si [censored]... yun pwede. pwede talaga. kahit nga [censored] siya, i didn't feel like i was settling eh.
Chrysanthus: then why not?
Yves: eh may boypren nga puta naman.
Yves wrote on Estelle Osorio's Wall.
Chrysanthus: grabe. lapit na 4am. yey! haha
thanks yves. :-D:-D that's said with sincerity.
Yves: good for you. and good for me!
i appreciate that too.
seryosong usapan... i really needed someone to talk to today.
so thanks din.
Chrysanthus: haha. no problem. BRP secondary to forced isolation?
Yves: that, and the Tantalus punishment.
Chrysanthus: that's just bad.
Chrysanthus and Bernard Llaguno are now friends.
Yves: it's not that i expect us to get perfect... i know that now. it's about being able to stand someone, at least.
Chrysanthus: true. that's why conversation is so important. after the sex is gone, what's left?
Yves: kaya nga medyo surprisingly hurtful when i heard [censored] has a boyfriend kasi i felt ready na eh. he's not perfect, but he seemed right enough.
Chrysanthus: that sucks. haha.
Yves: as in. i felt, wow, this is it! ganon ako kaseryoso.
Chrysanthus: after knowing him for how long?
Yves: don't judge.
Chrysanthus: haha. i believe, the high school term is "yiheee."
hahaha!
Yves: *blush, sabay hawi ng hair sa gilid ng tenga
Chrysanthus: omg. this is your adolescent awkward panliligaw phase! :-p:-p
good luck. hehe.
Yves: wala na nga. ayoko na dahil may bf siya. pointless venture!
Chrysanthus: no, no, no. kahit wala, the mere fact that you're liking men (who are actually GAY this time), and having serious thoughts about courtship, then getting your heart broken... high school, mehn! haha!
Yves: sorry, late bloomer!
Chrysanthus: onga. at least you get to do it as a fully-formed adult... none of the awkward teenage physique and acne and self-awareness issues.
Yves Aquino [FB status] matutulog na ako, kahit hindi kita nakausap. bukas, titigilan ko na, hindi ko na hihilingin na sana, sana akin ka na lang.
Dahil nga graduate na at walang allowance, stuck ako sa bahay, at, kita niyo naman, on-line the whole day. Si Bojit/Chrysanthus ay duty sa Rehab (na pugad ng sangkatutak na mga moomoo), at bilang kaibigan i kept him company - virtual nga lang.
At sa pag-iinarte ko, dahil nga naaaning ako for the past few days, surprises, may mga wisdom kaming napagnilaynilayan.
At kasama na dun ang panghuhusga sa katangahang nakalipas, at katangahang kasalukuyang nagaganap.
Yves: sakit sa bangs. (try mo din yung phrase ko)
Chrysanthus: it's too... gay
Yves: wow, meh ganong judgment!
Chrysanthus: sorry. i AM straight after all. check out tunaynalalake.blogspot.com
Yves: eh di no harm!
Chrysanthus: hehe
Yves: that's hay-men right?
Chrysanthus: yeah
Yves: contact ko sa multiply yun noh.
Chrysanthus: ah, really?
Yves: dapat naman talaga ganon ka-black and white ang mga bagay bagay, para wala ng nalilito.
Chrysanthus: haha, well, if that were so, where would that leave gay people?
Yves: not in confusion, at least. and that would make virtually ALLLLLL hot men gay.
Chrysanthus: er. because...?
Yves: "ang tunay na lalaki walang abs"
Chrysanthus: oh yeah. but admit it.
Yves: what?
Chrysanthus: if clean, good-looking and well-groomed. probably gay.
Yves: oh, true? anong point?
Chrysanthus: no point, except that a return to "black and white" really wouldn't change the divide between straight and gay in terms of physical appearance. it would be more of the stereotypical character.
Yves: helloooo, you'd be surprised how many people are still hiding behind glass closets noh. and how many girls still buy their bullshit pretense of heterosexuality. (hindi ako galet!)
Chrysanthus: but aren't we all getting what we want? women are more "empowered", and men are more "sensitive". if that blurs the lines between previously distinct gender roles, it's not really a fault, but a consequence.
Yves: i don't care. i'm not getting what i want!
Chrysanthus: maybe women are becoming more masculinized than they want to admit---they even look for feminine features (i.e., gay) in prosprective mates.
*prospective--sorry!
Yves: *forgiven
Chrysanthus: well. maybe you really want to be alone. haha.
:-D:-D
Yves: yun? yun ang putanginang conclusion mo!
Chrysanthus: well, if you don't get what you want,try to want what you gety?
*get
Yves: ano bang nangyayari sa typing skills mo.
Chrysanthus: if people didn't learn how to settle we'd probably be a lot more good-looking and intelligent as a species.
Yves: anyway, eh i don't even have anything or one. I DON'T EVEN HAVE THE OPTIONS!
wait, nalito ako sa advice mo.
Chrysanthus: huh?
Yves: if people didn't learn how to settle we'd probably be a lot more good-looking and intelligent as a species.
so, don't settle?
Chrysanthus: i'm saying that settling is an inherent survival trait. that's why we have such mismatched couples.
yung tipong "wtf was he/she thinking?"
Yves: okay i get.
Chrysanthus: the choice to settle was for the "at least i'm not alone" shite. people are stupid and scared.
Yves: hay naku bojit, you're just saying that because you're in a relationship.
for people like me (like me talaga), some somethings are better than nothing.
Chrysanthus and Sarah Lim are now friends.
Chrysanthus:well, the grass is always greener in the other stash.
Yves: adik ka!
::: ::: :::
Yves: Remember [censored]?
Chrysanthus: yeah, why? you're never-was-love-of-your-life?
i'm guessing?
Yves: ay, hindi siya yun. hehehe. pero before, naging crush ko siya for two seconds. but he's not particularly bright.
Chrysanthus: ah. fail. hehe.
Yves: 'xactly. pwede lang siyang pang-2 dimensional crush.
kasi hot naman talaga siya.
Chrysanthus: i'm guessing we can go as far as 3 dimensions. just don't try abstract concepts, like words? hahahaha
Yves: ahahahah.
Chrysanthus: ansama, i've never even met the guy.
Yves: wow, conscience? di uso yun. anyway, ang real deal breaker ay...
may boypren na siya.
Chrysanthus: ah. the houseguest/homebreaker dilemma.
Yves: hindi siya yun friend.
kita mo, natanso ako TWICE over the weekend.
nagka-kras ako sa dalawang out, tapos pareho silang may boypren.
Chrysanthus: natanso...?
Yves: putangina, it's like i skipped a whole stage.
(natanso=naloko, pay attention)
eh sanay ako, crush, tapos pagdududahan ang sexuality, tapos magkakaron ng imaginary relationship na magtatagal for, say, four years. tapos magkaka-GELPREN sila right before my eyes.
Chrysanthus: well. at least they're gay. that's a marked improvement over your previous fixations
Yves: YUN NGA ang consolation!
Chrysanthus: haha. but is the imaginary relationship any different?
Yves: with the gay one's?
ones?
Chrysanthus: yus. i'm guessing much less drama. no "coming out" scene.
Yves: there wasn't even an imaginary relationship. yung thing was, at the very beginning hindi ko na kelangan gawin yung "imaginary relationship" kasi sa isip ko, pwede ko siyang career-in/i-career, for real.
Chrysanthus: haha. and...?
Yves: instead na i-imagine, gawin na lang. nagmamature din naman ako noh. yung isang crush ko, na bading si [censored]... yun pwede. pwede talaga. kahit nga [censored] siya, i didn't feel like i was settling eh.
Chrysanthus: then why not?
Yves: eh may boypren nga puta naman.
Yves wrote on Estelle Osorio's Wall.
Chrysanthus: grabe. lapit na 4am. yey! haha
thanks yves. :-D:-D that's said with sincerity.
Yves: good for you. and good for me!
i appreciate that too.
seryosong usapan... i really needed someone to talk to today.
so thanks din.
Chrysanthus: haha. no problem. BRP secondary to forced isolation?
Yves: that, and the Tantalus punishment.
Chrysanthus: that's just bad.
Chrysanthus and Bernard Llaguno are now friends.
Yves: it's not that i expect us to get perfect... i know that now. it's about being able to stand someone, at least.
Chrysanthus: true. that's why conversation is so important. after the sex is gone, what's left?
Yves: kaya nga medyo surprisingly hurtful when i heard [censored] has a boyfriend kasi i felt ready na eh. he's not perfect, but he seemed right enough.
Chrysanthus: that sucks. haha.
Yves: as in. i felt, wow, this is it! ganon ako kaseryoso.
Chrysanthus: after knowing him for how long?
Yves: don't judge.
Chrysanthus: haha. i believe, the high school term is "yiheee."
hahaha!
Yves: *blush, sabay hawi ng hair sa gilid ng tenga
Chrysanthus: omg. this is your adolescent awkward panliligaw phase! :-p:-p
good luck. hehe.
Yves: wala na nga. ayoko na dahil may bf siya. pointless venture!
Chrysanthus: no, no, no. kahit wala, the mere fact that you're liking men (who are actually GAY this time), and having serious thoughts about courtship, then getting your heart broken... high school, mehn! haha!
Yves: sorry, late bloomer!
Chrysanthus: onga. at least you get to do it as a fully-formed adult... none of the awkward teenage physique and acne and self-awareness issues.
Yves Aquino [FB status] matutulog na ako, kahit hindi kita nakausap. bukas, titigilan ko na, hindi ko na hihilingin na sana, sana akin ka na lang.