sARAH*'s Blurty

Subject:	`*i'M G0iNG N0WHERE, KiLLiNG TiME, JUST TRYiNG T0 FEED MY BLEEDiNG MiND
Time:	11:42 am.
Mood:	happy.
Music:	"bad day" <33 something corporate.

well, christmas is over! that's a bit sad, but ah well. there's much shopping to occur, now. :) wooha!

so yesterday was christmas w/ my parents + brother + sister. i goootttt: friends season 5 dvds, pirates of the caribbean, DRIVE THRU 2 dvd, SOMETHING CORPORATE a year in the life dvd, SENSES FAIL "i'll eat your heart out" hoodie [the one i wanted!! so badly!!], THE EARLY NOVEMBER tee w/ the couple on it in the circle [you know which one i'm talking about? i wanted to get it at their show, but for some reason didn't], DRIVE THRU RECORDS beanie [w/ brim! i love those], a purse, etc etc.. and then in my stocking i got guitar legends magazine [led zeppelin feature!], some uuundies, candy, and fun stuff like that. oh! and a tiny ghetto-blaster boombox that i will look the coolest with if i walk around doing the "midwest stride" [lmao django!] w/ it on my shoulder blasting power 92, OR the spanish channel. you know how i do. ;)

so yeah, i definitely got some cool stuff! later i went to visit my grandpa in the hospital and my grandma and uncle frank were there. got cash from them, cash is always good. we stayed and chatted a while with my grandpa. he's doing really well with the chemo [is that how you spell chemo?] so far! glad to see he's doing alright.

dude, the drive thru dvd is HILARIOUS. i love love love it. i was watching it and my dad is like "what the hell are you watching?" because it was a bunch of the guys just acting ridiculous. i love the segment "jersey's best dancers." i not only catch myself doing ace faces now, but yesterday i was doing ace dances. lol, i love that man. i really am going to steal his clothes. muahaha. i want one of his little white tees. <3

AND dude, the something corporate dvd, though really short, rocks my socks! these guys are funnnny guys, and it's cool seeing a year in the life of one of my favourite bands! okay, plus, there's william with no shirt on. DOES THAT SELL IT FOR YA? thought so. ::dies:: it was so hot. haha i <3 that man. he's on my "to do" list ;) there are a couple shirtless brian shots too.. but not full body like my boy william. sigh. <3 ::my heart is pulsating:: heh ;-P

i'm calling the drive thru today to order some cool stuff w/ my cash. i'm going all-out E11 and ordering the early november track jacket [dude! i love it!], the early november acoustic EP [i've got 2 out of 3 albums, need to collect all 3! i love acoustic ace-ness.], and the early november trucker hat. woohoo! it's love.

whoa, i'm listening to the old version of "punk rock princess" by something corporate. yeah, it's the same lyrics, but it sounds different. it's the one on the audioboxer EP. it's adorable. love love love. this cd rocks. especially "walking by!" so so cute! ;)

above below you look and so you say, 'when i wake up in the morning is it gonna be another ugly day?' .. i love something corporate. sigh sigh sigh. <3

well, i'm back to rambling, so i'm gonna go. ta ta!

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Subject:	`*EMBRACES WiTH A WARM GESTURE, iT'S TiME.. TiME T0 SAY G0ODBYE!
Time:	12:55 am.
Mood:	tired.
Music:	"i'll melt with you" <33 mest.

i don't even care about shit w/ my sister anymore. i'm over that. onto bigger and better things. she's at the dave matthews concert right now. lmao. COOL! [sarcasm. obviously i'm NOT a dave fan.]

i love this song. everyone better know it. "ruby soho?" by rancid? yeah, that's right, kids. you learn something new every day.

yesterday we had christmas at my grandma's house. got lots of cool stuff! here's the lowdown: no doubt 'the singles' cd, something corporate 'audioboxer' ep, queen's 'greatest hits I, II, + III,' circuit city gift card, borders gift card, cash, 128 cd case, pajamas, cute monkey photo album [it's like a stuffed monkey, and you unzip his mouth and the pictures go inside. it's too cute] w/ camera, make-up brushes etc, and i think that's about it! cool stuff.

my cousins are so cute [i have like 5 billion of them. okay, that's an exaggeration, but there are many], but dude. i had such a bad headache. they are SO loud. it was chaotic. but my cousin amanda brought over her baby [she just had a baby a few weeks ago] david. he's so tiny!! he's really cute. it's funny, because he's so dark skinned and has dark hair, and she's pale with like.. blonde hair so blonde it's almost white. her boyfriend is mexican, and you can see that in the baby, lol. my cousin daniel [amanda's little brother.. he's maybe 7? i don't know] is so cute with him. david had on the cutest little christmas outfit. it was too adorable.

anyhoo.

i made a new friend. his name is matthew, and he wears girls' pants [like buddy from senses fail! that's who he and i compare him to sometimes], even though they sometimes smash his "potato." lmao i luff him. he found me on the MBR message boards, commented back but mistook me for someone else, and IMd me to apologize. we've been talking a bit since. he's so entertaining. i heart him.

everyone must go get rolling stone. yes, the one with j-timbs on the cover, lol. there's an awesome little dealie on christopher carrabba, and awesome little plugs [both in greatest albums of the year and best EMO albums of the year, heh heh] on brand new's "deja entendu" + dashboard's "a mark, a mission, a brand, a scar." i got teary eyed reading them!! i'm such a nerd!! i'm just so happy to see some of my favourite boys doing so well. i'm listening to brand new's cover of "oh holy night" as we speak. :-D or.. as i type. right.

oh! yes! yes! must talk about straylight run now! they are fucking AMAZING. i'm becoming obsessed. i've of course downloaded all their demos off www.straylightrun.com [go download! right now! become obsessed, just like me! haha]! they REALLY need to sign with someone and record an album! i'm definitely anticipating it. i LOVE the demos though, because they're so raw! john's voice isn't polished like on a record, and it's AMAZING. i'm so so so in love. sigh. and will is such a sweetheart. he's always the one to email us street team kids. he wished us happy holidays first and foremost before even getting to street team stuff. ;) he's emailed me back personally, before, too, to thank me for supporting them in my zine and everything. he's such a doll. i adore him.

my basement is FINALLY making progress! you don't understand how long it's been "being redone!" the paint is finished, the trim is finished, there's carpet, i'm loving it! now we just need furniture, a big screen, an air hockey table, and we're set! woohoo!

she's the blade and you're just paper .. woohoo! i love sugarcult! january 30th baby! i can't wait. they're opening for simple plan. meh, simple plan is okay. they should be fun. but motion city soundtrack will be there too!! ::jumps::

aaaaand..

february 20th at the vic ... MATCHBOOK ROMANCE, fall out boy [yippee! i'm in lust with the lead singer's voice], and dynamite boy [pretty good from the few songs i've heard!] are opening for MEST! i'm so excited. megan and i went to get our tickets tonight. becka you better get yours! i can't wait. i'm gonna fuck judas backstage. lmao, yeah right. hopefully i will just get a chance to talk to him again, maybe have him sign a live pic i took of him ;)

moving forward using all my breath! making love to you was never second best! .. i love this cover. "i'll melt with you" by mest. although i think i like saves the day's cover of it better. haha, oh well. ;-\ i'm in the mest spirit!

becka and i are going to borders this weekend [right? right? we must] to find emo boys. they hang out there sometimes. they better be there. and i better have the guts to talk to them! lmao. i heart emo boys.

well, i'm gonna go do.. nothing! but i have nothing to say anymore. ta ta!

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Subject:	`*
Time:	2:17 am.
Mood:	pissed off.
Music:	"perfect" -- simple plan.

it's 2:17 AM. why the fuck am i online? i don't know.

straylight run is fucking amazing. i'll talk about that next time i update.

i'm in such a fucking bad mood right now. why, you ask?

i just read my sister's online journal. she'd looked at it on my sn earlier so the link was up. she talked fucking shit about me like 3 times in there, and i know she's done it also in the past [way back in it she called me a cunt. lmao.]. and i know it's not my business to be reading it, but fuck, do i fucking talk shit about her in my journal? no, she's my sister, and i have more respect for her than that. the fact that a ton of people from munster read her journal doesn't really help me.

i was reading an entry she'd written while we were in florida, and she was talking about how much she was annoyed with everyone in our family. more than her talking shit about me, it pissed me off that she talked shit about my mom. my mom does everything she fucking can for our family and for my sister to disrespect her like that makes me so mad. my mom doesn't deserve that. my mom is everything anyone could ask for in a mom. for my sister to be so ungrateful just makes me want to vomit.

anyway, about me. she was like "She must be horribly insecure. I mean, my mom has told me before how Sarah's intimidated because she thinks I'm prettier, or I have better skin, or I'm more in shape, or whatever is this week's reason." blah blah motherfucking blah. i'm sorry, kristina, if you're so damn cocky, but i'm an adolescent girl, and i'm sorry if i have insecurities. YES, EVERYONE, I'M FUCKING INSECURE. then she went on to say how i was talking to these guys and when the older one asked if i had a sister, i told him yes, but she had a boyfriend, and she started ranting about that. well, SHE DOES! [not anymore, but did at the time] big fucking deal. he was disgusting and all he wanted to do was hook up.. he said "do you have a sister? i have condoms." umm okay, yeah, that's someone i really want to introduce to my sister. i guess she overlooked the fact that i was looking out for her.

then she called me a douche because i called her preppy. lmao, a douche. well, she is preppy! it was because she was getting so excited about her letterman's jacket. i wasn't saying it disdainingly, but she is preppy. get over it.

whatever, so it's none of my business. but apparently it's the business of everyone else in munster who reads her journal. now i have people thinking i'm jealous of my sister because i'm insecure. yes, i'm insecure, but i'm not jealous of kristina. yeah she's gorgeous. yeah she has better skin than i do. yeah she's in better shape than i am. but i'm my own person, and i know i'm gonna be happy with my future, and i'm happy being me. no, kristina, i'm not jealous of you. i'm sorry.

i'm fucking shaking right now. i feel sick as hell. i feel so.. destructive. i just want to break glass with my fist and then admire the battle scars. weird, i know. i hate getting like this. i'm so fucking bipolar. or maybe i'm just oversensitive. i don't know. i need someone to talk to right now, but it's fucking 2:31 in the morning and all the sane people are sleeping. "if i hit bottom, will i crawl out alone?"

i'm gonna go try to get some sleep. hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.

"nothing's gonna change the things that you said, and nothing's gonna make this right again. please don't turn your back. i can't believe it's hard just to talk to you, but you don't understand....cos we've lost it all. nothing lasts forever. i'm sorry i can't be perfect. now it's just too late and we can't go back. i'm sorry i can't be perfect."

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Subject:	`*0H N0, D0N'T Y0U DARE HANG UP THiS PH0NE! HEY! ;)
Time:	11:34 am.
Mood:	thirsty.
Music:	"simple life" -- death on wednesday [RIP! iloveyouguys.].

haven't updated in a long ass time so i decided to do so :-D

since last entry i've been to two concerts : 11/30 @ chicago house of blues = something corporate, the rx bandits, mae, and days away. // 12/6 @ allstate arena = AFI, dashboard confessional, 311, korn, and jane's addiction. both AWESOME awesome shows. at soco we met clutch, and at the q101 show [which we ended up getting SECOND ROW for! and i went to first for dashboard! YOU KNOW!] we met.. MIKE MARSH OF DASHBOARD CONFESSIONAL! [drummer for those of you who aren't familiar] that was like my highlight of the year.. you have to understand my undying affectionate love for dashboard confessional. our [mine, megan's, kristina's] picture with mike is absolutely adorable! ::sighs:: ixlovexdashboard.

tomorrow was our last day of school for the year!! everyone was in the holiday mood, giving out presents and whatnot. i gave out my cds and some candy canes with cute little tags on them that say "happy holidays! <3 sarah" haha. i made rockin' x-mas cds for most, and then i made individuals for lindsay, alyssa, and ilissa since they're jewish, so i couldn't give them x-mas cds, lol. for lindsay i copied dashboard's "the places you have come to fear the most," for alyssa i made a something corporate/less than jake mix [random mix, eh? it rocks, so i hope she enjoys it because she usually likes all that hippie music, lol], and for ilissa i copied finch's "what it is to burn." yep. good stuff.

aww cuteness! i love this cover! [ "if you leave" xo: good charlotte ] i'm listening to my mp3 player, so it's got some definite randomness on it.

anyway, back to the holidays. megan got me some rockin' cool stuff [thanks hun!] = a happy bunny wristband that says "i love boys they're stupid," a happy bunny button that says "wow you're ugly," and a southpark button with mr. mackey on it that says "i'm going to kick your ass, mmkay." haha, it's love. i wore the wristband last night, it matched my outfit. :-D soeka got me an adorable teddy bear with a little santa hat on and all. becka got me the most random, coolest, most original gift of the year.. a CACTUS! haha i love you becka that's such a cool gift. sam got me some awesome 80's new wave cds! they have awesome songs such as : "i'm turning japanese," "she blinded me with science," "white wedding," "always something there to remind me," etttc! hannah got me some lotion and body spray that i LOVE, the lotion is so soft!, and awesome vanilla incense with the coolest holder ever! then everyone else gave me cards or candy :-D so that's love! i love christmas.

how do you make things bold or italicized in your blurty entries? i tried like.. the html i used to use on my profile and it doesn't like to work. someone help me! lol

you can't hide! what's inside! when you die! .. okay this is officially the best good charlotte song ever. everyone download "overcome!" good charlotte should seriously write more songs like this. maybe there wouldn't be so many god damned teenies! lol. one can only wish.

anyhoo. so turnabout is next month. sam is going stag with kara, and she asked me to go. first i was all excited and was like hmm that'd be fun! because i'd really been wanting to go, but there's no one to ask. but then i was thinking about it.. and the only reason i really want to go is because of my whole longing for a guy.. i want to go with a date! god damnit. there are no good guys around here. only my exes, most of which i'm not even close to anymore, a couple i regret even dating, and the others who've found new girls while i'm still pathetically hanging on. but like, it's not even that. i'm not even hanging on. even if i don't feel anything for certain exes at the moment, i'm not longing for them or anything, i still get jealous when they like other girls. i HATE it. but i can't help it. i really need to meet some new guys. i don't want to spend new year's eve alone. someone should really have a huge new year's eve party with guys from other towns so i can friggen meet some new guys. i'm so god damned lonely. i just long for affection. is that too much to ask for? i guess so.

i love yellowcard. [just finished listening to "way away," now listening to "breathing"] i missed the yellowcard/matchbook romance show last weekend. ::cries:: matchbook romance is so high atop the list right now. up there with brand new and the early november and all those bands i can't put alone at a #2 spot [#1 is dashboard.. so many after dashboard are tied at #2, lol]. i love them so much and i hate it that i missed their show. they're not coming back until like.. february i think. with mest, though! so that will rock my motherfucking socks off. i want them to play.. right now. just like, come in my basement and play for me. haha, how cool would that be? i NEED to see them play. it's so theraputic for me. their live show amazes me. sigh. i have two judas pictures in my locker : one = my favourite live one of him that i took, two = him with.. me! it's such a cute picture. everyone says we look like boyfriend and girlfriend in it. lmao, i WISH! he'sxsoxmotherfuckingxhot. ::splooge:: lmao.

this entry is so up and down / back and forth with my moods, eh? ah well. DEAL WITH IT, BITCH! ;) ahah.

i'm downloading "my december" by linkin park. this is such a good song. december songs rock. like "december is for cynics" by the matches and "forget december" by something corporate. and you know what's another awesome one that i used to love times ten billion and i haven't heard it in forever? "long december" by the counting crows. i heart that song.

ooooh myyyy god! i love my mp3 player. i haven't listened to it in forever since i had no batteries, but i stole one from a TV remote. i am currently listening to "picture in the paper" by the new amsterdams. [becka! copy me your vagrant cd when you get a chance! i want more new amsterdams! ;) love love love] this is such a good fucking song. you should all download it. it makes me smile! really! it's so good! <3

i'm in love with the idea of being in love. anyone else ever feel that way? yeah, yeah.

did you notice most of the time the subjects to my entries never have to do with anything? i just put in what i'm listening to at the time. and then when i put what song i'm listening to later, i'm not even listening to that song anymore, so it doesn't match up. like, look. my subject is from "space" by something corporate. right now i'm listening to "all that's left" by thrice. later, it will be a different song, and it still won't match up to "space." oh my god, why am i rambling? this is senseless. no one cares! anyhoo.. lol..

the OC rocks my fucking socks. i want a seth cohen. i can't wait 3 more weeks to watch again!! last episode rocked though. seth and anna are adorable. ryan and marissa are too cute! plus, oliver is creepy. lol. and i love sandy and kirsten. i kinda felt bad for summer, but meh, she had her chance! ah well! ;) i want to do adam brody so hard. lmao, and johnny depp. ::dies .. and splooges .. at the same time:: hahah

anyhoo, this is getting really long and just becoming a mess of rambling, so i'll go. ta ta!

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Subject:	`*jUST WANT Y0U iN MY CADDY ;)
Time:	10:40 am.
Mood:	ecstatic.
Music:	"steven" by senses fail is playing in my head.

I MET MY SEX GOD! .. read on. ;)

so last night was the matchbook romance/senses fail/millencolin show! the guys of millencolin are swedish? who knew! well, i didn't. anyway. joe picked me up around 4:30 and we were off.

so we got there a little after 5:00, and the line was all the way down the street. it was freezing outside! joe and ryan were dumb and didn't bring sweatshirts, although i was still cold with one on, so we went to this hotdog place to keep warm. the guys ate [i wasn't hungry] and we chatted about extremely random things for a while. we didn't go outside until they had started letting people in for a while, and when we DID go out, we still had to stand in line and freeze for like 5 or 10 minutes! bah. ah well! we chatted with some of ryan's friends who had met up with us there, and headed inside.

once we got upstairs, the room was really full, so i said to the guys, "i'm gonna go mosey my way up front. i'll see you guys after the show," and that is what i did. i had two rows of people in front of me, and they were both girls shorter than i am. so it worked out. ;-P i never mind being alone at a show. i'm too wrapped up in the music to care.

so i thought wakefield was supposed to be there, at least that's what it said on the ticketmaster site, but i saw judas walk onstage.. and wow. all the hotness brought back from warped tour. that man is incredibly sexy. plus, he's an amazing guitarist and he can scream like no other! that right there is my essential guy, lol. so the guys of matchbook romance came onstage and i was ready to rock!

they opened up with "14 balloons," and though that song is only a minute long, it's one of my favourites. the guitar on that track is amazing, along with the whole emotion of the song. i love it! after that, andy kind of introduced them as a band and talked for a bit, and then they played "your stories, my alibis." throughout the set, they also played "playing for keeps," "promise," "hollywood + vine," "my eyes burn," and they closed with "the greatest fall." i think that was it. i was SO psyched to hear them play "hollywood + vine" again, just because that's the first song of theirs i'd ever heard. the guys of MR really appreciate all of their fans, and you can tell it's not bullshit when they say it. it was awesome to scream along with them, and YES, i screamed - screamo style - along with judas's parts. i had NO idea i could do that! lol. andy does some good screaming, too! ;) their set was so awesome. SO much fun. i never thought they could do any better than they did at warped tour since that was SUCH an incredible performance, but they proved me wrong. fuckin a! i don't know what else to say. i love matchbook romance.

andy came up to the barricade after the set and did his little meet + greet thing. shook my hand, introduced himself, all that good stuff. at warped he'd given me a hug, but this time i wasn't right on the barricade. damn, lol. anyway. i had 13 pictures left after MR [27 on the camera], and up next was senses fail. i love SF, so i had to take some pictures, but i had to make sure i saved a couple, because i was DETERMINED to meet judas. he's the only one in the band i hadn't met at warped. you'll find out more later. ;)

so mike of senses fail walked onstage, and he was turned around, and i think like everyone around me [including myself] thought it was buddy. everyone was like "buddy cut his hair!" lol. but then mike turns around, and buddy walks onstage with this crazy hair. it was almost like a mullet.. very 80s.. and it had a bleached spot in the front. lol, it was so random. he had on super-duper tight pants and this tight pink shirt, and the girls around me were calling him gay. poor buddy! lol, i love his style. i think it's great. so anyway. the guys get ready as we anticipate the set. ;)

the first song the guys did, i have NO idea what song it was. it wasn't on the album, and it wasn't any of the unreleased tracks ryan has [he said he has about 3, but he didn't know this one], but some people around me knew it, so maybe it's another unreleased one? i have no idea, but it rocked.

buddy has this fucking AMAZING stage presence. he was even crazier than last time. and i think he jumped in the crowd about five times as much. [i don't want to be a teenie and say "i touched him!" lol but he jumped right in front of me and his drenched, sweaty hair ran through my fingers. lol, good stuff.] he was dancing, doing the shimmy, and shakin what his momma gave him! lol. i love buddy. he rocks my world.

they played two new songs. one was about pirates! [haha, buddy was talking about how he believes there are pirates on the great lakes, or at least likes to pretend there are. lol] it was rad. the other.. i don't remember. but they were both cool. they also played "free fall without a parachute" which is probably my favourite off their EP, "steven," "the ground folds," "handguns and second chances," "bloody romance," and closed it off with what i think is one of everyone's favourites, "one eight seven." it was great to be able to scream back "SHOT THROUGH MY HEART!" again, and scream along, screamo-style, of course.

i believe it was during "bloody romance" that buddy's pants decided to rip from his crotch all the way down to his knee. he went on singing like that for a while, but he obviously got very uncomfortable in those ripped pants, so he just took them off and jumped around in his little maroon boxers. it was grrreat! i made sure to get a picture of that one! lol, and he threw his pants out into the crowd. there were like.. guys fighting for them. lol.. found it funny.

senses fail is such a talented band, especially for all of them being so damn young! SF was awesome! :-D

so after senses fail, i decided to go get merch, because to tell you the truth, i didn't really give a shit whether or not i saw millencolin, lol. they're cool from what i've heard, but i'm not a huge fan, and i wanted some merch! lol. so i headed to the merch line which was at that point all the way up the stairs. but it was cool, i'd wait it out. as i started nearing closer and closer to the booth, mike of SF came out, but by the time i got up to where he was, he'd gone backstage somewhere. HOWEVER, someone else came out.. ;)

andy of matchbook romance was just walking around, signing stuff, saying hello to everyone! he was signing stuff for the girls ahead of me, and when he was done he walked up to me and shook my hand, and i was like "great job tonight, you guys are so incredible." and he's like "thank you!" and i was like "i saw you guys at warped tour, and that was such an awesome performance, so i didn't think you guys could pull a show better than that, but you really proved me wrong, because you just seem to get better everytime." and he's like "oh thank you so much! thanks for coming out to the show and for listening to our music. i really appreciate it a lot." and all this good stuff. he's the nicest person in the world, really. i asked him to take a picture with me and he was like "of course!" so i had one of the girls in front of me take it, and she was like "say cheese!" and andy's like "cheeeeeese!" in just about the cutest voice you could ever imagine, lol. it was grrreat!

so who came out after andy? that's right, none other than sex god JUDAS! sigh. i was in awe. he was signing things for the girls in front of me, and when he was done he was just kind of chilling there cos the line hadn't moved yet and he didn't know who to go talk to, so i was like "judas!" and he came over to me. i told him awesome job and everything, and he's all "thank you!" and shook my hand [having to move his right hand from his drink and switch hands, lol] with just the biggest smile on his face. he was like "thanks so much for coming out to the show. it's really cool that the fans like you support us so much." and he's so sincere and genuine and gah! so i had the same girl take our picture, lol, and of course i thanked her, AND him. and sigh. i should have told him, "fuckin a! you can scream!" haha, but i didn't. i did tell him he rocks, though, so yeah. he's amazing.

so after that i went and got a matchbook romance tee and a senses fail baseball-jersey-style tee, and the MR merch guy gave me a free poster, so it was cool stuff. i wanted a hoodie but they were only in like XL. damn. so for millencolin i went and stood in the back, cos i wanted to hold all my stuff. millencolin was cool though! a LOT of fun, and they had the pit going crazy! they all have swedish accents, too, so it's great. after millencolin we headed home, listened to some good ol' TSL and yellowcard in the car, and that was the end of our night.

i can't wait to get my pictures back! i get them back today. 6 days until dashboard confessional! :-D

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Subject:	`* THiS iS THE L0NGEST ENTRY EVER!!
Time:	3:42 pm.
Mood:	calm.
Music:	nothing! ::gasp:: my cd player in this room won't work.

wow. i'm super-horrible at updating this. ah well. i don't think anyone really reads it anyhoo.

sunday was the concert adventure day with django! it was rad, rad, rad. i'll tell you the story.

so we left around 10:30 and arrived at the metro at.. i don't know what time, actually, but we were standing out in line, and there was this crazy, insane man. mind you, we were in chicago, so there are a lot of homeless people. well, he was dancing, singing/screaming like james brown, and playing the harmonica, and just going craaaazy. he wasn't even asking anyone for money, just walking up and down the line, screaming! anyway. that has nothing at all to do with the show, but he made for interesting conversation.

so we were waiting to go inside, and it was like 12:45 when they finally let us in. the show started at 1:00, so you'd think we would've been in there long before. hmph. once we got in, we went straight to the stage. there was only one row of people in front of us. fun stuff!

so around 1:00 eisley came on. eisley is this emo/indie type band [with a sort of country influence in a couple of the songs. and hippie lyrics.] from texas, with three sisters and two guys [brothers, maybe? i'm not sure]. megan had said the stuff she heard from them wasn't too great, so i wasn't looking forward to seeing them. however, they ended up being pretty good. the lead singer was absolutely adorable. she's really, really pretty and she has an awesome voice. the bassist was really tall and gangly, so it made me chuckle. anyhoo. during one of their songs, someone just walks out on stage, and guess who it is. it's JESSE LACEY. wow, you have no idea the state of shock i was in. of course, i was expecting to see him that day, but not YET! he had on one of his typical, awesome outfits [i want a boy who dresses like him! lol].. a red hoodie with a dark green jacket over it, hood up and hands in his coat pockets. i was so surprised. i literally covered my mouth with my hands with that "OH MY GOD!" type of expression, lol. he sang a verse for them, and he was right in front of me, so i took a picture. :-D yay for pictures! through the rest of eisley's set, jesse stood in the doorway on the side of the stage, and watched eisley and sang along. he seemed so affected by their music and so genuine about it. it was great. eisley all around was cool. ;)

after eisley was hot rod circuit. i was excited to see them! the only HRC song i knew was "the pharmacist" so i was hoping they'd play it! they come out to do sound check, and their guitarist is hysterical. he's got this bert mccracken [the used] look going for him, but he had on this random red jumpsuit. he gets off-stage, and they all come back on and start playing. the guitarist had a green + red guitar, and it was really cool! he was SO crazy. he had this awesome energy. he was jumping EVERYWHERE, smashing himself down on the ground only to lay there and play a while, sweating and spitting and all of the like. he was awesome! the lead singer has a really really cool voice [megan talked to him backstage later + took a pic with him!]. i was getting pretty into their stuff. i like it a lot! throughout all their set, everyone was still pretty calm. no one was smashed together, really. so they've got ONE more song to play, and they hadn't yet played the one i wanted.. so what was their last song? none other but "the pharmacist," of course! ;) the crowd rushed the stage for that one! it was such an awesome performance! and at that point, i was smashed next to this adorable emo boy, and i didn't mind that one at all! ;-P he was hot.. REALLY hot.. but i think the girl with him was his girlfriend. ::shrugs:: anyway. that's beside the point. hot rod circuit ROCKED! :-D

so everything i had anticipated was about to fall into place as i waited for brand new to take the stage. brand new has become so important to me lately, so this was something i was way excited about. the lights go out, and everyone in the room screams. except this bitch behind me who wouldn't stop complaining. but anyhoo. the boys take the stage and get ready for what i think of as one of the best performances i've seen.

i still had one row of people in front of me, and i was pretty stoked about being in that spot. they opened the show with "okay i believe you but my tommy gun don't," and by the second verse i was up on the barricade, with nothing separating me from the stage but the barricade and about 2 feet of space. and you KNOW i wasn't going to move from that spot the rest of the night! ;)

so they played pretty much everything you can imagine! the only two they DIDN'T play that i wanted them to were "magazines" and "failure by design," but i couldn't complain! it was SUCH an excellent show. i got some really really cool pictures. i was right in front of garrett, so i got cool pictures of him, and then jesse was in the middle, so of course i got awesome pictures of him as well. there were tons of moments where jesse would come up between the front speakers and stand close enough for us to reach out and touch him, although i was busy taking pictures! [hah, the pictures were from, like, under him.. and i had told megan "i definitely wouldn't mind being under him again if you know what i mean!" lmao.] i love being in the front, because you have so much interaction with the band. like, during the line of "the no seatbelt song" that goes "it's only you, beautiful, or i don't want anyone. if i can choose, it's only you." jesse and i locked stares and it was INTENSE! hah, and the thing is, he KNOWS he has the power to make girls feel this way ["i am paid to make girls panic while i sing" says that one for you!], so i think it makes it even more fun for him.

the lead singer of hot rod circuit came out and sang along to "tautou" with jesse! i thought it was so awesome that they played that song, since it's so short and repeats the same line over and over, but it's such a good song!

jesse was talking about how they all had hangovers since they'd played the metro the previous night as well and it was about 3:00 in the afternoon. they were just randomly talking and jesse was like "this has been a hellacious day." vinnie was like, "whatever word you just said.. i have no idea what it means." and jesse's like "hellacious.. like.. from hell." and vinnie was like "ohh! hellacious! i don't know what i thought you said. maybe, like, bodacious or something." and everyone starts cracking up and they're just rambling and jesse's like "bodacious! this is a bodacious show!" and then they realized they'd been talking for a long ass time and went back to playing. lol.

so they played pretty much everything a brand new fan could hope for. before "seventy times 7," jesse was like "this song goes out to my good friend john nolan." haha, i love john nolan, but the whole story with them is grrreat. the creation of that song is wonderful. and of course they played part of "there's no i in team" by taking back sunday in there. good stuff.

jesse played this song that he had probably made up when just goofing around with the guys. i don't even remember what it was about, but it was really funny, and it made us all go "awww!" because he basically got a huge diss from some girl in the song. but yeah, it was great.

as for naaames of what they played, they played stuff like "soco amaretto lime," "i will play my game beneath the spinlight," "the boy who blocked his own shot," "jude law and a semester abroad," "sic transit gloria.. glory fades" [they closed with that one], "the quiet things that no one ever knows," "mix tape," "guernica," i don't know.. EVERYTHING! lol, well, pretty much. i'd have to go get the cds to remember everything they played.

i got this adorable picture of jesse with this huge grin on his face, because some girls kept yelling "I LOVE YOU JESSE!" and he was all flattered, blushing and whatnot. it was oh-so cute.

vinnie had a picture of michael jackson's face just randomly taped to his mic-stand. does anyone else find that funny? haha, i sure did. he ran past the barricades after the show, so i snapped a picture, and it's up close on his face. fun stuff :-D

anyway, since i think this is already about as long as the warped tour entry and i still have to type about the rest of the day, i'll stop with brand new here. FINAL NOTE ON BRAND NEW: absolutely incredible live show. check them out if you get the chance!

after brand new, the merch line was MASSIVE! megan had left the set early to go get her stuff, but i was up front, and there was no way i was leaving that spot! so i wasn't going to wait like an hour and a half to get merch, so i just left. there will be more times, and i already have my brand nizzle tee! ;) so i went outside, eventually found megan, and the adventure continued on.

from the metro we walked to mcdonald's, which was just down the street. it was raining outside. not cool. we stood in line at mcdonald's for seriously a half an hour. it was crazy. there were a ton of kids from the show, and another crazy hobo. i feel bad for those people, but sometimes they can be really pushy. so anyway, we finally got our food, and stood outside trying to get a taxi. three or four had already passed us when one FINALLY stopped for us and took us to the riviera. rancid, here we come!

so we arrive at the riviera and there's a line around the friggen corner for the show! the show wasn't starting for another two hours!! so we stood outside.. in the rain. it was freezing! we were all, "WHY ARE WE SO INSANE?!" because i mean, we had already gone to a show that day, we were exhausted and aching, and now we're standing outside in the cold rain to see another show! lol, oh well, that's how we are.

luckily they didn't make us stand outside long. they let us in a half an hour early since it was freezing and raining outside. they finally separated the girls and guys into two lines, so we ended up being pretty far up in the line rather than all the way around the damn corner! lol, good stuff. so we went ouside, and again, only one row of people in front of us. i must say, we're pretty damn good! but then we had to wait for nearly two hours for the first band to play, and we were just standing there. i was ready to fall asleep! lol.

so around comes 7:00. while we had thought the disasters were supposed to play, i guess they weren't because the rock 'n roll dare devils played instead. but it's okay cos from what i've heard, the disasters are pretty lame anyway. the rock 'n roll dare devils were alright. they actually had some pretty cool guitar riffs in there, and the drummer was really good! the bassist had his bass so up high on his body.. it was random. they had a crazy black-light logo, though, and it was cool stuff.

so after the rock 'n roll dare devils was tiger army! they were really good, from my point of view! i think it's the bassist that won me over. he doesn't play a bass guitar.. he plays one of those giant, orchestra basses except it's electric. he was soo good at it, it was amazing! his hawk was cool, too. definitely 80s. the lead singer made really really random facial expressions, lol, he was crazy. they played extremely well and got the crowd going, but they played for SO long, and the whole time i was just waiting and waiting for rancid! they were cool, though, so maybe i'll further my exploration of them.

so FINALLY, rancid took the stage! i had never been to an actual PUNK show. pretty much just emo, alternative, pop-punk, whatever, so this was pretty exciting! [note: megan and i were such outcasts there. here i am, this little emo kidd (we renamed me "emo bitch" haha), and she's a little pop-punker (though at times a metal-head!), so yeah. we thought we were gonna get beaten up! lol] they started out with "ruby soho" and that got EVERYONE excited. every rancid fan should know that song! [even me, and i pretty much just know new stuff and a couple classics! yeah, i'm not obsessed, but i do consider myself a fan] tim armstrong is SO fucking incredible live. he's such a legend in my book, and i think many people would consider him the same in their perspective. he had the gretsch that he spraypainted black [i believe that one's a gretsch, right? correct me if i'm wrong], which is probably my favourite out of his guitars. he wears his guitar so low, too! it's way way down, it's crazy. i have a fascination for lars, too. it's the star tattoo, i swear. haha, gets me every time.

i only took two pictures during rancid, since i'd taken most of mine at brand new, but megan took some so i'll get to see those when she comes over tonight! sweet deal!

RANCID PLAYED "DAVID COURTNEY!" that's what megan and i wanted them to play, and she brought up a relevant point with it. how often do you get to scream those words? if i screamed them at my house, i think my family would be a bit annoyed.. you know, "WELL ALL YOU MOTHERFUCKERS, CRIMINALS WILL BE SUCKERS IF YOU DON'T STEP ASIDE FOR DAVID COURTNEY!" and i was excited to say "do you know.. who the FUCK i am?!" haha i heart that song. same with "out of control!" does anyone else feel at the top of the world when they scream along to that song? i sure do!

matt and lars were throwing things at each other throughout the set, it was great. it's cool to see the on-stage chemistry between the guys. this band has so much experience and so much past, and it's awesome to see how they're still hanging on and they're still great friends. and fuck brody. her breaking up with tim brought about an incredible album for rancid, so i laugh in her face. :-D

anyway, i'm really sick of typing so sorry if the rancid part was so short compared to the brand new part. but FINAL NOTE ON RANCID: fuckin a! RANCID IS ONE OF THE BEST BANDS YOU WILL EVER SEE LIVE. makes me realize why i love punk rock. i'm so happy i went, because my love for punk had been fading out [it's all this emo i tell you! lol], and rancid just re-justified it all for me. ;-P wooha!

well, this was a fucking novel so i'm gonna go. saturday is matchbook romance, senses fail, and millencolin, so be excited to hear about that! adios!

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Subject:	`*BR3ATHE iN D3EP, L3T iT 0UT SL0W.
Time:	7:33 pm.
Mood:	indescribable.
Music:	"something that produces results" <33 the early november.

so it's 7:35 on a friday night and i'm sitting at home on my computer. COOL! [sarcasm] maybe i should make more of an effort to be social. ahah, oh well, all my friends had previous plans.

i just got back from emily's house like a half an hour ago. the memorial service was really nice. i didn't cry until i gave emily a hug, and luckily i only shed a tear or two. i can't believe how strong she is about this. i'm glad to see she's getting through. i told her that becka said sorry she couldn't be there and told me to give her a hug for her and all that. back at emily's i saw where i had signed her wall in like.. 4th or 5th grade. haha, funny stuff.

sooo i talked to josh yesterday! ::smiles:: it had been a while. yesterday at lunch, he got brought up in conversation, and sam, katie, and i were just talking about him for a while, and i confessed that i'd had a crush on him last year and so did they!! lol. katie and i talked about him the WHOLE lunch period today. we're like 4th graders with this crush thing, seriously, lol. he's having a rough time so i was being comforting and supportive and all that good stuff. what can i say, i try. he said he wants to keep in touch and that he'd IM me next time he caught me online, and then i gave him my number and told him to give me a call sometime if he wants, and he's like "cool, i just might do that" ;) heh heh. yaaay. i miss him a LOT.

and then there's davey. we want to hang out, but his girlfriend seriously won't allow him to! lol. he said he's going to lie to her. haha he said she doesn't trust me with him. what does she think, i'm going to rape him? yeah so he'll just tell her he went somewhere else, because she's not keeping us from hanging about. what a slut. i mean, what a bitch. lol. she's dirrrty anyhoo. ;P he had previously said, many times, that he wanted me to hang out at his house and see everything over there. yeah like THAT'S going to happen. lol, she's always over there anyway. they've been going out for a long ass time. i didn't think relationships soley based on sex could last that long, ahah. lmao, i sound so jealous. i just think it's funny that she doesn't want him hanging out with me. well FUCK HER! lol, i've been friends with the kid since fourth grade. some girl who's been sucking his dick for the past 8 months isn't going to stop us from being friends.

anyway. i want to hang out with josh. we've got much catching up to do. maybe if i catch him online tomorrow or something, i'll see if he wants to hang out. weee! i hope that happens. i've only been thinking about him since yesterday at lunch.. ahaha. it doesn't stop. ;X he's just SUCH a nice guy. and it's not even like, "omg he's sooo hott!!!" i just have fun with him, and feel comfortable around him, and talk to him about anything and everything. sigh. ;D

well that's it for now. ta taaa!

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Subject:	`*Y0U SMiLE LiKE A SAiNT BUT Y0U CURSE LiKE A SAiL0R..
Time:	10:45 am.
Mood:	stressed.
Music:	nothing. ::gasp:: my cd's are upstairs..

i'm so stressed out. half because i'm stressing myself out, and half because stress has been brought upon me. being sick really fucks you up. i've got so much shit to do today.

i have to prepare for my speech on the history of punk rock, which actually could be fun, but the fact that i have to speak about it tomorrow and really really know what i'm talking about [we can use a notecard but it can only have 75 words on it.. that's not enough to read off for 5 minutes], and it's gonna blow. but i tend to do pretty well in that class so bah. whatever.

and chemistry.. fuck. i am SO fucked over in chemistry. i wasn't here a couple weeks ago when we watched some video and took notes on it, and we had a quiz on that one of the days i was gone this past week. then our notebooks were due. i have nothing in my notebook. then we had a test. i don't know ANY of the material. i haven't been here.. at all.. for anything important in that class, and i have to take a test. i'm hoping miss haussman will allow me a few extra days to get myself together.

i really really hate school. i know everyone has to go through it, but fuck, why? what do i need it for? i guess i'd like to be intelligent but for anything that i really want to do in life.. i don't need chemistry or math or speech.. it's bullshit.

cool, now my mom is complaining. i feel bad for her because she has to put up with all our bullshit and clean up our mess and everything, and she's so stressed out. but dude, i just fucking did all this laundry yesterday and vacuumed the living room and shit while dealing with my own mess of a life, and while that may be much, it's more than my sister or brother do around here. and now she's telling me i have to clean my room today. fuck that, i'll do it if i have time. this is bullshit.

yesterday was battle of the bands - the big one - schwader vs. robot hero. i'd told jon, chuck, and collin that i'd be there. well my plans fell through. sara had a halloween party to go to, becka was going to casey's, sam couldn't do anything, brooke had to work, megan had to babysit, alyssa and kara were doing something and obviously didn't want to go being that i brought it up and they just said i could probably come hang out with them, plus i think alyssa has a strong disliking for them all, lol.. and that was all okay, because gersh was going. she was going with some random people that i don't really associate with or care for, and they didn't have enough room in their car, so i was going to meet her there. so i called her up a little after 7:00, and she's like "yeah, we went there but by the time we got there joe's band was done, and that's all they wanted to see, so we're going to casey's." fuck that! gersh wasn't even invited to casey's! and i could've been there if gersh hadn't have SAID she was going to be at battle, but now i had no ride, and no one to go with to battle. i feel like shit because i was supposed to go support schwader. i hope they had some people there for them! i still don't know who came out on top.

i called megan around 9:00 and she was back from babysitting, but schwader was probably already going on by then. so she just came over and we attempted to watch a movie and then just went online and chilled and did whatever. it was fun. with megan, it always is, but i still feel like shit about not being there. i haven't hung out with any of them in forever. bah.

i'm honestly so sick of life right now. i wish i could just hit pause and stop all this for just another day, but then tomorrow i'd have to deal with this all over again. life's a bitch. i guess i should just get used to it. fuck, fuck, fuck.

ps-- i long for an emo boy

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Time:	7:32 pm.
Mood:	confused.
Music:	the lovely something corporate. north rocks.

"don't you wake up yet, cos soon i'll be leaving you, but you won't be leaving me."

i love something corporate. oh so much. if you're reading this and you like soco and you haven't gotten the new album yet, you should. because it's absolutely amazing.

i am oh so in love with dashboard confessional. DC has been on my mind much lately, just how much the music means to me. ha, look at this random convo between megan and i. i love randomness.

me/s-squared: when i was in florida, i was like 'hmm.. i wonder where boca raton is' cos hmm yeah chris moved there when he was 16 and that's where he played in the vacant andys, further seems forever, and that's where dashboard got it's start! but it was at the opposite side of FL.. lol i'm going there someday!
megan/m-squared: haha you're gonna make a .. what's that one thing called where they take a religious trip somewhere? lol
me/s-squared: haha i know what you're talking about but can't think of the word
megan/m-squared: haha well at least you know what i meant
me/s-squared: lol yep yep
me/s-squared: well i worship that man, so it may as well be a religious trip, lol
megan/m-squared: hahahaha
me/s-squared: i actually looked on a map to find boca raton.. i wish i was near there, i would've made my parents take me and i would have taken a picture by the sign.. the sign should say "welcome to boca raton! home of the wonderful musical genius, christopher carrabba."
megan/m-squared: i'm gonna make a nice one to stalk billy until he knows me! lol
me/s-squared: hahaha nice
megan/m-squared: hahaha wouldn't that be crazy if you just accidentally ran into him?
me/s-squared: if i did, i would be able to die a minute later and die happy.. my life would be complete. well, not really, because then i would have to follow in his footsteps and become a musical prodigy, but yeah, i'd be happy enough to end my life right there. "so won't you kill me.. so i die happy!" haha anyhoo.
megan/m-squared: hahahaha
me/s-squared: i am SUCH a nerd. :-D
megan/m-squared: so?! it's okay.. i still <3 you
me/s-squared: hands down, meeting christopher would be the best day i could ever EVER EVER EVER remember!! the dashboard concert probably is the best day i can remember.. man, i do worship him, don't i.. there should be a new religion.. dashboard confessionalism. haha ;)
me/s-squared: well of course you do, you're almost as crazy as i am!
megan/m-squared: hahahaha dashboard confessionalism haha that's classic!
megan/m-squared: EXACTLY!
me/s-squared: i practically practice it already ;) ooh.. practically practice.. weird sounding.
me/s-squared: stop the madness! i'm too random.

and then we went on to talk about my meeting with pete and my future meetings with jesse and andrew. i'm such a weirdo. but i love dashboard confessional. love love love. DASHBOARD IS COMING BACK DECEMBER 6TH! madre is getting me tickets tomorrow when they go on presale. but it's a seated venue and she won't be home til like a half hour after they go on sale. damn. i'm gonna get poo seats. ah well. for christopher, ANYTHING! plus, AFI, 311, and ::drumroll please:: jane's addiction will be there! i heart dave navarro.

"taste the saline rolling down your cheekbone. tell me that you're alone. tell me on the telephone. feel your heart. it breaks within your chest now. try to get some rest now. sleep's not coming easy for a while, child."

i keep skipping from dashboard to soco, i know, but they're both awesome. weee!

while i was in florida, i had dreams about the most random guys. guys from my past [one kid i had a big crush on in eighth grade], guys i have no interest in whatsoever, and just.. random, random guys. it made me long to be held, to just have someone there. i never think like that. i always say i don't care whether or not i have a boyfriend. i still believe that i don't care, but maybe it's not just about having a boyfriend. just having someone there. there doesn't need to be a committment, but it'd be nice to have SOMETHING going on right now. at least a mutual liking between myself and someone else. bah.

casey invited me to her post-halloween party. [post because it's on saturday, the first] it sounds really fun. i really want to go! but battle of the bands is that night and i told jon and collin i'd be there. maybe i'll show up at the party for a bit. schwader is second to last and robot hero is last, so jon said that if i get there by 9 i'll be fine. i haven't hung out with any of those guys in a while. i think the last time was when jon was over at becka's, which was like.. i dunno, three weeks ago? more? yeah. i miss it. those are fun guys. they can be.. obnoxious. but they're fun.

well, now my thoughts are just wandering, so i'm going to go. xo!

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Subject:	`*EVER S0 SWEET.. Y0U BAKED iT iN CAKES F0R ME.. ;)
Time:	4:21 pm.
Mood:	happy.
Music:	"fluxy" -- the early november ft. kenny vasoli of TSL.

"the room's too cold" by the early november is an amazing album. it's been out for one week today. go buy it if you haven't yet! the early november is fucking incredible. i live for them.

so saturday was the show! i'm not going to make this one a novel like all the others, i'll just go through the basics.

the riviera: i love this place. it's a bit smaller than i had remembered it being, but that's a good thing! it's maybe a little bigger than the metro, but it's love. <3

the early november: ace came out onstage with his acoustic and i was shocked! i wasn't expecting them to play first, i don't know why, i just wasn't. E11 was my reason for being here. don't get me wrong, i love all the bands there, but the early november is one of my absolute favourites, way up at the top of the list somewhere in there. the early november = love. ace opened the show with "ever so sweet." that is SUCH a good song. then all the boys [joe, jeff, and serg!] came out. man oh man are they awesome. they played "the mountain range in my living room," "i want to hear you sad," "baby blue," and closed it off with "every night's another story." i want to say that's all they played? seems like such a short set, but it was an incredible one. i thought maybe kenny'd come out and they'd play "fluxy," but that didn't occur. there sadly weren't many E11 fans there! ace was like, "this is a new song, so if you know the words, feel free to sing along." and of course i started singing. becka was like, "you're like the only one singing!" hah, t'was a bit sad, but i guess you can't expect everyone to know the album by heart just a few days after it came out. ..is it crazy that i knew all the new songs by heart? i bought the cd on thursday...hah. anyhoo, i took some neat pictures, so hopefully they all came out. these guys are fucking amazing. it was love. [that's my new phrase, i suppose.]

senses fail: fuckin a! senses fail was INCREDIBLE. the only song i knew by them was "bloody romance," but after seeing them live i'll definitely have to further my exploration of them! they just have so much energy and natural stage presence. plus they're all so young! it's crazy. they have a bit of a harder sound to some of their songs, which made for an amazing live show. i was on dave's side the majority of the time. well, in between dave and buddy. [buddy = love. no, that doesn't mean i'm all "goo!" over him, it means he's awesome. he has a craaazy energy!] i was close as hell to dave so i took some snapshots. we'll see how they turn out. he had spacers. rad! i cannot wait to see senses fail again november 29th! and yes, senses fail is love.

homegrown: you wouldn't believe how many asian kids were there for homegrown! hah, it was awesome! they spread the asian love. definitely. they put on a really fun live show! there was a bit of a circle pit going, so i jumped around in there with the guys! haha, i ended up with like.. 5 or 6 guys on top of me, and when we all got up, i just kept jumping around, and one of the guys goes, "you're one brave girl!" lol. it's just fun! they played "i love you not!" i adore that song! they also played "give it up" and "you're not alone." it was awesome to see "you're not alone" live, because i think a shitload of the kids meant the words they were screaming back. they of course played some others, but those were the ones i knew. i didn't take any pictures during this set, but homegrown rocked the hizzle. <3

allister: wooha! i don't even know where to begin with allister. they are SO fucking fun. it was awesome to jump around with that crowd. every single guy in that band has their own certain quality to them that makes them so fun to watch live. they played a good set! i don't remember all of the songs, but i know they played "somewhere down in fullerton," "scratch," "none of my friends are punks," and "radio player." i met scott [bassist] after the show!! he is a rad, rad guy. i think i might have taken one picture during the set, but i took one with scott! love. love love love.

the starting line: and now for the headliners! holy shit, i didn't expect a TSL pit to be so.. intense? i can't think of a word for it. i mean, sure, i expected everyone to be excited and jumping around, but it was a tough pit! oh so much fun, though! :-D they opened with "given the chance." i was SO happy they played that song, because i hope one day i'll be feeling the same way [listen to the lyrics in that song], and it's almost a future anthem for me. during much of TSL i was buying merch. yeeeah, i know, it's crazy that i didn't even watch the whole headlining set, but i had to get my stuff before the show was over since i was handing out flyers afterwards. when megan and i were done at the merch booth, though, we went back to watch! gah, i adore TSL. haha, it's funny, because i can never keep mike and matt straight. just like.. the two names. i know who is who, and i know what they play and everything, but it's the two M's, i swear. haha, i have distinguished them now, and i mean, every time i have to ask i'm like "oh yeah, duhh!" but i'm just so forgetful. lol. i didn't stay to watch the encore [i left after they played "the best of me"] because i had to go get my flyers. damn security wouldn't let me take them in, so i left them by the exit and most of them were still in the pile when i went back! so i passed out my flyers, supporting straylight run [GO CHECK THEM OUT! RIGHT NOW!]. that's when i met scott! cool beans, it was love. i passed out flyers for mayfield, too, since i ran out of all of mine. lol. but the starting line was kick ass. it, again, was love.

so anyhoo, it was SUCH a great show. i'm keeping it cool on shows until straylight run if i can even go to that one. i think my mom wants me to go, though, since i'm such a good fan and i pass out their flyers and whatnot. i love the drive thru. i bought the dvd there, and oh man, i can watch it forever. i love the video for "if you c jordan." the shermanator is in it!! lol, woohoo! there are really awesome performances on it, too. and benj is in fenix tx's [r.i.p.! no, no one died, but the band broke up a while ago] "threesome" video! wooha! DTR rocks.

so aside from my love for DTR, what else is new.. oh! i went to my grandpa's house on sunday! the last time i saw him, he was in the hospital. he looks so healthy now :-D it was so good to see him back to normal, being jolly and laughing at his own jokes. haha, he asked my sister if her boyfriend was "from the hood." lmao, and she's like "haha noo he's from munster," and he goes "yeah, that's what i meant, the neighborhood!" lol. i <3 him.

and i got to visit w/ my little cousins! emma is getting so big! she's so effing cute. and of course jimmy and joey are cute as ever. yaaay for cute kids! aunt liz + uncle jim were at the dashboard show i went to! and they were at the AFI show kristina went to! and they are going to see alkaline trio! they rock [both alk3 AND my aunt +uncle]. and my uncle frank said i should go see bend it like beckham! lol, he said he didn't think it would be anything special, but he said it was actually really good! he thinks i'd like it, so i may check it out.

ooh, speaking of movies! i want to rent "better luck tomorrow." i want to see it so bad! gah!

anyhoo. not much else to say for now. ta ta!

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