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hello everyone ive moved to a newww blog!! =)
feel free to go read there ok.. den tag too~
oh if u wan me to add u to e friends part (under links) juz add ur blog there kk~
http://-juzadream-.blogspot.com
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| Almost Here |
[06 Jul 2005|10:50pm] |
Almost Here
Brian Mcadden & Delta Goodrem
Did I hear you right
'Cause I thought you said
Let's think it over
You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you
Shadows bleeding through the light
Where a love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?
But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's
Not enough
But when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'Cause you're only almost here
I would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me
Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Please protect me
Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered how it hurts
Haven't I always loved you
But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's
Not enough
But when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'Cause you're only almost here
Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you
But when I need you, you're almost here
Well I never knew how far behind I'd left you
And when I hold you, you're almost here
Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted
Now I'm with you, I'm close to tears
'Cause I know I'm almost here
Only almost here
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[03 Jul 2005|10:05pm] |
tuition was cancelled 2dae (e 11am one)
so i met didi in e morn..
we quarelled on bus.
how e fuck do 2 ppl start quarelin aft meetin 4 only 15 min.
good god shit.
wadeva. im angry w him.
n effingly hurt.
anyway. aft tt even thou he was angry
we went to buy stuff at j8.
n siao la we met my mom.
she was dam pissed cos she tot i was at tuition.
well i din see no tuition as sth v significant wad so i din tell her
so she's been pissed e whole day n still doesnt wana tok to me
unusually.. i dont give a shit.
im worried yet i dont care
what can she do to me..
hmm.. anyway.. aft didi left 4 e run ting..
i shopped myself
n bot a mango top.. quite like it :)
its e right size summore..
unfortunately its black
n he wasnt there to remind me o my agreement w mel to not buy black stuff
ahah so i bot it :)
i din get my white tube thou.. oh ya!
HELLO EVERYONE. ANYONE WHO GOES TO MANGO AND SEE'S THIS WHITE TUBE THAT COSTS $9 N IS QUITE LONG (can cover er most of my short body) AND IS IN SIZE (S) PLEASE BUY IT FOR ME!!!!!!!
thanks.. i really really want it..
why din i buy it when i saw lik tonnes of it last weeeeekk
argh.
mel is such a bitch but wad e heck..
anyway. then aft i bot tt i went to another mango to look 4 this top my mom wanted but dun hv..
then i went to bugis to walkwalk..
saw huibin n went to walk arnd n talk to her abit.
we shopped abit n i bot mascara.
then we juz walked n toked n shopped n stuff
i lik huibin..
she matured n funny n really has her own thoughts
:) haha i miss her..
anyway.. then l8r went back to orchard lo
went to john little look 4 my tube..
but dun hv.. *sniff*
aft tt jiu go tuition le..
now my mummy still duwnaa tok to me
wadeva. hmph..
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1. Full Name:
mel
2. Were you named after anyone?
nope
3. Do you wish on stars?
they're hardly arnd but yea i do..
4. Which finger is your favourite?
i like them all
5. When did you cry last?
juz now while bathing.. lik 10 mins back?
6. Do you like your handwriting?
hate it :(
7. What is your favourite lunch meat?
fiSh? chiCken?
8. Any bad habits?
i cry quite easily. i think too much. i cant stand to be alone. i dun take care of my brother?
9. What is your most embarrassing CD on the shelf?
i have no ideaa
10. Are you a daredevil?
im juz dumb
11. Have you ever told a secret you swore not to?
i doubt so
12. Do looks matter?
im -is-my-hair-messy-mel-.. wad'ya think.. of cos not x)
13. Have you ever misused a word and it sounded absolutely stupid?
duhh
14. Do you think there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?
no la. duH..
15. Do fish have feelings?
uh huh..they feel fear when u go near them..
17. How do you release anger?
cry.. rollerblade quickly
19. Where is your second home?
didi's houSe?
20. Do you trust others easily?
waayyyy too easily
21. What was your favourite toy as a child?
i dnoo i love all soft toys.. cute ones i mean..
22. What lesson in school do you think is totally useless?
pw!!
23. Do you like soppy love songs?
yeapx~
24. Have you ever been on radio or television?
yea..
25. Do you have a journal?
not really i guess
26. Do you use sarcasm a lot?
not that much lo
27. Have you ever been in a mosh pit?
nope
28. What do you look for in a guy/girl?
i like girls w a slight boyish feel to them.. lik seh seh kinda gorgeous?
n i lik lik those lik really really really pretty girls w hot bods toO!
(ok no im not les!!)
haha i lik guys.. w relatively larger eyes. tall? cute/seh?
i dno la. lets not talk abt guys.. i'll cry
29: What are your nicknames?
is-my-hair-messy-mel.. mel B.. bull.. ah boy.. NIAN NIAN...
30. Would you bungee jump?
yess!
31. Do you un-tie your shoes when you take them off?
not if i dun hv to..
32. What are you worried about right now?
wad i'll do tml.. whether we'll meet.. who i'll go out w aft tt..
33. Do you have any irrational phobias?
loAdss..
34. Do you think that you are strong?
not at all.. mel is lik how weak la >_
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i should be buried in phycis right now since e paper's tml
but wad e heck i juz cant.
my mind's too full of stuff..
what? puppyshit (as my sis wud put is *shrugZ*)
sth's wrong w mel.
see she's been sad.
she's been really really depressed
when she's smiling and laughin everyday
and really really lonely
even thou he's beside her.
and she's been cryin.
everyday.
only now "it doesnt rain, it pours"
he says he's shocked
by how much tears can continuously flow
she cant find e reason y herself
juz an overwhelmin sense o..
er.. of.... dno..? sadness mayb..
its lik a big fat rain cloud jus floated past.
n it blocked her entire sky n she lost all e sunshine
then e cloud goes away
and she smiles again.
it happens so frequently.
even she's gettin scared.
someone save her..*
i wana go back to teachin again
i dont wana go back to vj
theres sth so weird abt this pretty girl
its the way she looks at others
but i tink she's really pretty all e same.
we quarrelled 2dae..
n i did sth wrong.
vvvv wrong..
n it really upsetted him..
regrettin it lik hell now.
at least he din return e 'favour'
thou i noe he was juz dyin too.
sniff wad e hell's gg on..
at least im gettin along better w my classmates
OH!! i went past rj twice w/o cryin..
thou i was sad. i din cry :)
n he was proud o me..
haha lemme tell everyone good news
jean jo huiyi dawn mel are gona go out soon
after everyone's exams..
haha i think jean n huiyi n dawn dno yet thou
sth me n jo agreed on de.
hey babes if u read this msg me k.
im ugly.
freakin ugly
cant stand it
now i have 7 pimples to add
freak
didi saw me 2dae "WA! y so many pimples?!"
den he counted 7 for me.
freak
din dare to look at him anymore for a large part o e day
why e heck m i this ugly
cos my sis is gorgeous!! :)
im lucky to have a pretty sis..
cos rich guys give pretty girls nice stuff so i can kup her chocolates
wad e heck..
queeerness..
good luck for jcts, cts, mid yrs. or wad ever they're called.
i screwed econs bad. probably gona get O is im lucky..
sigh studied quite hard for chem ba.. but i tink its an E max?
den 2dae matsh. fuck la lets not talk abt it shall we mel.. thank e heavens if u get C ok?
ha tml's phy. den im free.
i dont care thou. juz break my wings.
fly*
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[24 Jun 2005|12:50am] |
hello! my com's wkin! =)
heh 2dae went 4 bball trainin back at dhs.. wasnt as fun as i had hoped.. mayb cos e sec 3 n 4s werent there.. haha but im glad that there were 6/8 of us J1s..haha usually is lik 4 or 5.. :) i really do miss my teammates loads.. such a really unique bunch o gorgeous girls w different like n personalities.. yet somehow we're a team n we've come so far tgt... we hung arnd sch den went to kfc to eat n chat n stuff.. really really fun n funny.. haha yi's still slow.. jas's is still.....i shant call jas dumb!...she's juz.. adorable! :) mouse is WHITE.. amanda is her typical haha *gives tt expression yi uses on amanda*.... n dinO.. haha dino is dino.. bull is bull... we were short o amelia n zhu hui.. haven seen them both 4 really long.. i miss them :( well.. aft tt we er.. attemted to study! well it din wk la.. not e least bit.. but at least i taught jasmine some chemistry.. haha i din teach her wrong stuff OKAY! >_< well aft tt didi called askin me to go down to pp quickly cos he cut his hair n stuff n all his money's w me.. haha silly boy quarrelled w mom so no money.. he PROMISED to study w me when i got to pp n settle his stuff la.. we agreed on gg back to my place to get bks to study initially. i got pretty pissed cos our studyin din wk out at all.. yea he kinda refused to study at all i think.. hmm.. idiot. anyway. we quarelled again cos i was damn irritated at him 4 makin me come all e way down to pp.. den abandonin me 4 hrs to go plae ball. irritatin.. well.. den came e bad part.. hmm.. he insisted i choose btwn my studies or him cos he says he cant take all e pressure im exertin on him by askin him to study.. hmm after a long hot shower.. i called him to tell tt i picked my studies.. den aft a while he realised its downright stupid to want me to pick btwn studies n him so he said sorry n promised to study w me frm now on.. wad e fuck we all noe these promises dont last but what e heck. e com seems to be swirling.. or isit my eyes.. dno la.. anyway hre are e bball pics! :)
*Dhs Bball
http://share.shutterfly.com/osi.jsp?i=EeCs2bhqxcOqA
*2J
http://share.shutterfly.com/osi.jsp?i=EeCs2bhqxcOzg
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[17 Jun 2005|01:36am] |
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=)
2dae was a gr8 day! haha lets see.. i woke up EARLY!! lik at 12+.. haha met up w didi 4 lunch n stuff.. we took pics n talked.. sheesh i feel lik that boy's mom. everytime this S word comes into the picture we'll get really unhappy w each other.. eh e S word happens to be STUDY ok -_-".. yeap he juz refuses to touch his books. whY? juz to spite the fact that i wan him to study hard. he juz has to prove he is incapable of muggin e way me n many dhs ppl do.. whY? cos he insists he's frm SA.. good grief.. load of childish nonsense.. ANYWAY.......
heh! i met my juniors on the train to Pasirris! as in my dunman high bball juniors.. cool man they all look really different n stuff.. but they're still really adorable n nice to talk to :) i met the present sec 1s and sec 2s. frenly bunch o ppl! heh they have their 1st game next next tues le.. awww i totally remember when i was sec 2 n played my 1st game.. haha it was zhu hui's bdae.. against manju at marine parade library's bbal court.. n we won.. aft catchin up when we were trailin lik by 12.. haha we used this trap formation which wked really well.. haha i miss my team soso much.. haha yay we're gg back to visit juniors next week! =) im lookin 4ward to tt lots x)!
anyway...went to pasir ris to meet my rj class to go alohA chalet.. haha stupid guys were lik "we noe e way to e bus stop! we noe e bus!" and poof! we missed the bus cos we walked right pass it n they din realise its the bus. only after waitin 4 another 15 min then winfred was lik "OH! i think the same bus goes to all the chalets leh!!" ahaha everyone wanted to murder that guy man.. we ended up takin public bus n walkin a freakin LONG way there.. haha okAy.. they we got there.... well.. we helped with the preparation o food! haha since e girls in class are WEAK *coughjilyncoughhuilian* i helped break e corn :) interesting.. haha then me n winfred buttered the corn.. oh crap! i jus realised i din getta eat a single corn! x( haha nvm i shant b greedy! aft tt me n shiting n tsai n umay talked n took some pics in a room.. haha v funny la those girls.. all crazy n nice.. i like them so much :) aft tt we decided to head out to see our guys plae bball. haha they totally suck :) n are super adorable when they flop. haha ltr e same 4 o us went to e beach n met ms wong!! talked abit abt everything n i took queer pics..haha i took pics o everyone's feet!!! (yes i noe im strange) haha then ltr.. we went to er.. i dno.. back to the chalet.. haha e 3 girls lik did sth to the squids n prawns thing but it was lik too gross la eew cant bear to touch them man. i prefer my seafood when its alive n im lik up close with them in the sea! >_< haha eew. scary.. hey but i DID help ok! i took foil paper n made these cute boxes thingy :) haha n i er chased houseflies away.. haha =) ok fine didi's right. mel's useless x(! haha anyway.. then aft tt juz slack arnd n all..quite fun la.. everyone juz tgt.. not doin anything significant but havin a swell time all the same.. sheesh i miss 6a so so much.. well.. aft tt i went to white sands to buy stuff w ms wong.. sat at macs n had a semi heart to heart talk w her.. e ting abt ms wong is tt she doesnt seem lik a tcher at all.. as in we juz talked abt our life n lovelives n everything like we were good friends n not tcher n student.. v pleasant n trustable ba talkin to her.. haha she's so adorable.. i wish her happiness n may she find her bai ma wang zi soon man x]!! haha aft tt we picked up nic n headed back.. STUPID nic! fight w me for e front seat.. haha end up e dumb guy dno how he was tt dumb too la.. he was tryna open e door n climb in b4 me but somehow it ended up he opened e door i stepped in n he closed it 4 me.. haha super amusing.. wong said we were small kids x(! fineeee... haha aft gg back we ate w e rest n toOk more pics:)! then went to watch jue dui superstar! haha lloyd is amusin.. he doesnt uds chi..but watched w us so he spent e whole show lik "oh she's hot.." "my god! he's such a wuss" "i like her eyes..""oooh.." haha v funny den gerbert spent e whole time complainin how this fella here got prob that fella there got prob.. haha amusing.. anyway.. then ltr we went to e rooms to play mahjong.. HAHA! i won almost every round!!! =) even those lik ming ming wun win one i oso won.. den e guys were lik juz dyin to kick me off e table.. well i learnt alot more abt zhuzhengyi 2dae.. he's rly alot more than what u juz see on the outside.. n he can sing! n cook.. coOl man.. haha.. oh well aft awhile i went upstairs to find jilyn n huibin.. ahah found them + huilian n xiutang pourin over cleo..haha bimboing tgt.. haha juz slacked arnd w em.. took more pics.. n stuff. aft awhile my daddy came :( oh well.. then juz as i was gona leave.. DAVE SIM came.!! haha he's e tcher tt tinks i look malay n im v lazy (im suppose to be able to walk 1km to find a seat).. haha oh well aft tt i had to go le..
basically.. i had a hell lota fun 2dae.. n 6A juz makes me feel lik i belong there with them.. rly miss them lots.. well.. haha jus hope they have more chalets next time then!! :) haha!!
here are e pics taken at the chalet!
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Your dating personality profile:
Athletic - Physical fitness is one of your priorities. You find the time to work athletic pursuits into your schedule. You enjoy being active.
Liberal - Politics matters to you, and you aren't afraid to share your left-leaning views. You would never be caught voting for a conservative candidate.
Big-Hearted - You are a kind and caring person. Your warmth is inviting, and your heart is a wellspring of love. | Your date match profile:
Athletic - You aren't looking for a couch potato. You seek someone who is active and who keeps his body in top shape.
Big-Hearted - You want someone compassionate, someone gentle and kind. A loving, nurturing person will fill that hole in your life.
Conservative - Forget liberals, you need a conservative match. Political discussions interest you, and a conservative will offer the viewpoint you need. | Your Top Ten Traits
1. Athletic
2. Liberal
3. Big-Hearted
4. Practical
5. Wealthy/Ambitious
6. Traditional
7. Intellectual
8. Sensual
9. Shy
10. Romantic
| Your Top Ten Match Traits
1. Athletic
2. Big-Hearted
3. Conservative
4. Traditional
5. Practical
6. Romantic
7. Shy
8. Intellectual
9. Wealthy/Ambitious
10. Sensual
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booooo my gf went to perth!
n my bf may b gg to malacca!!
oh boooo
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[12 Jun 2005|10:24pm] |
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i feel negative. so tolerate this entry will ya.
miserryy..
happy holidays ppl.
happy shoppin to all females x)
hmm.. half e holidays are gone. tts lik freakin fast.
eh i spent e entire first week shopping..
i MEAN entire..
haha visited orchard lik 6 times in 7 days of week 1..
quite fun initially but after the same shop same pdts same not pretty salesgirls same everything
its not fun anymore. :(
dis week. i feel more accomplished i guess.
sunk into my "oh f*ck haven started studyin someone help me" kinda state lik durin prelims.
juz not THAT bad but close.
mugged e shit outta myself n scared e crap outta didi
mugged lik frm i woke till lik 4am for a couple o days
den i fell really really sick n drank polish remover n fell even more sick.
argh screw it.
ooh i tanned w my neighbour!
her name's serene.
guess ive known her 4 a pretty long time but nv rly talked to her much
she's actually v nice n warm n pretty matured too.
haha shared experiences while gettin our tans* :) whee
stonnee
anyway. what else did i do?
stone.
and cry.
and cry summore.
sth's wrong.
w me. n my tears
they're different. more watery i think. n they flow much MUCH easier
(4 close frenz dun even try to imagine how frequently they flow now)
eh apparently i cry more den kailing now (his baby sister)
she's so cute haha she was learnin from the caterpillars at home and ate a leaf!
good heavens.
screw my entry's juz goin round n round to no wher.
"indifference and neglect causes more damage than angry outbursts"
tt was copied from belle's blog. i dno if its true thou.
u piss me off yet what can i do
teach me how to walk away without looking back.
oh SHE has this nice song. ta hai bu dong.
e lyrics are. rather. meaningful i suppose.
argh, u can suck boy.
why ever did i begin datin small boys. screw*
this holiday i've bought:
1 x tube
1 x lipstick
1 x gift 4 my mummy
1 x book
1 x scarf
1 x scarf 4 my aunt
2 x earrings
3 x shoes
total cost : $95? or mayb less
is that alot?
eh i dont think so at least.
we quareled today.
along the way he pulled in the "why do u spend so much money?" shit
sian no one's spendin ur money.
anw ive only been spendin what i earn. n i still have some left over
freak he owes me more than ive spent so whats that complain all about >_<
i got hit by a motorbike today. it hurts. there's a big ugly bruise.
n its all cos u were scoldin me while i was crossing the road.
(thank heavens he dont come online n read blogs)
n u re-sprained my wrist today. it hurts like hell too.
nvm mel shall be happy.
cos im shoe shopppin w zhern tml =D!
n i bot this piAno score book w jay's songs.. love it!
haha.
oh im fat. :( had this icecream thing w my family yesteday.
i feel so so fat
shall stop eatin for awhile.
i realised i dun get that hungry if i dun eat so means e diet will work!
yay!!! x)
oh ya n to my darling gf.
woooooomann..
do cheer up. i bot sweets 4 u tt friday but u din turn up.
broke my heart! haha oh in the end i ate the sweet =)
nvm ill buy u a new prettier one if u promise to smile.
n tell me if he bullies u.
didi can chop off the erm. well. them. it. whatever. haha
love u babe! =)
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Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our dark that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people don't feel insecure around you.We are all meant to shine as children do. Its not just in some of us; its in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsiously give other people to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.
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[22 Apr 2005|09:52pm] |
what would u do..
if u were mindin ur own business on e bus n some ass started takin pics and videos of u?
in a really obvious way at that..
oh n add a really REALLY violent bf beside u..
wad would happen to e guy? hmmz..
but its quite terrible la..
lik we were wonderin..
all this camera n video phones..
good is good la.. but lik w assholes like that..
abit not safe shi ma..
we took his phone (to confirm wad he was doin b4 we smashed his face)
n there were lik other videos.. of girls lik standing on e bus.. or havin a meal..
lik from e odd angles.. OBVIOUSLY is secretly taken de..
sheesh how disgustin can he get la..
dover ite guy..
ugh. pissed didi off pretty badly..
nv seen him this angry b4 =x
anywayy!!!
vj bball got in to e next round =D!
tgt w hci..
damn sad la rj din.. :'(
cried lik shit over tt (which is politically freakin incorrect) but wad e heck..
i feel damn confused..
vj - a bunch o really nice girls tt ive trained w for 2 wks n sometimes still get e names wrong..
rj - a team i trained 3 mths w n cried w n laffed w n went to KL with n bonded with..
heartbreakin..
vj lost hci.. beat rj.. beat tj.. :)
oh.. aft so many weeks..
alot alot o 2nd intake ppl..
esp ppl in my class are lik gettin more n more unhappy..
e way e tchers look at us is disgusting enuf..
e phy tcher spent e whole o 2dae's lesson gg like..
"i noe 47 is a 2nd intake class n its ok if u dun do well"
"ppl will uds if u all dun do well.. n will b surprised if u all do.."
shit along those lines..
lik fu*k u woman we're tryin shit hard to get ourselves integrated into this effing sch.
thank u loads for makin it easier by sayin we're dumber den e rest juz cos we came in 2nd
super moralising la.. all o us tryin hard to study le la..
give us a chance B.
stop n wonder. how dumb can e class b..
we've got ppl who rejected raffles n hci la.. those 8A1 ppl n stuff..
rg girl.. rv girl.. tch guys.. nanyang girl.. all top sch students..
not dumb lo.
meanpot!!!*
oh well.. im juz hopin my class will bcome closer n everyone will properly adapt to e vj life.
yea easier said den done ey.. heh.
47 lets jiayou tgt!! =)
much as i miss SO6A.. i'm 05S47 now..
i miss my frenz.. my dunman frenz.. my cedar frenz.. everyone....* smile =)
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hi..
meL is depressish..
(gf wud say : wad did he do this time?)
haha my gf sucks! >_< ahha thank heavens she's in vj..
anyway.
had trng tdae..
den we had another major quarrel..
probably e worst oen we've had..
it went pretty bad..
but i made frenz w a cat..
dno la.. we're better now..
he's happy le..
hm yeapx..
ok then l8r i went to this eh ursa thing
at east coast park
damn shit la i stopped at e wrong stop..
ended up walkin to some expressway..
den i called someone hu told me to go underpass..
which took me to dno wher
den i asked another someone hu told me to walk straight
landin me on a flyover
den i called david.
hu thank heavens got me to ecp safely :)
oh i was freakin scared on e way
cos it was damn dark n lik no one lo n all e shadows!!
dno la den go ecp talk w class mates..
see david lee gf..
who's almost taller den him n pretty n cute..
w small dimples tt're damn adorable..
i feel effing queer la..
guys are not suppose to be mean to girls.
will probably remember. forever. booo..
baby wants to cry*
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[13 Apr 2005|11:40pm] |
couple of weeks in vj have passed..
guess i'm gettin along much btr w my class girls le le.
thou there are some rather..
how should we say this.
UNIQUE personalities (for 4'7 ppl readin this.. *points to eyes n points to u*)
haha oh well~ =x
everyone is different ey!
haha one thing i'm happy for is that dawn n my gf are in vj..
seriously girls.. w/o u 2 especially..
i dno how i wu rly tak vj la..
esp when -someone- quite unsupportive of e stuff im involved in..
heh i got into vj bball team?
ok it wasnt hard to get in they were short o ppl kinda thing
but still im in la jersey 15!! =D
somehow.
i dui getin in..
not much gan jue?
lik i'm part of e team yet..
i cant even do e friggin formations (try learnin 8 ways of runnin sth in 5 trngs)
yeap 5 trng's all e time i hv frm day 1 til competition..
first game hcjc =X followed by rj.. :*(
pray i DO NOT see my ex teammates n burst into tears.
e vj team/coach wil lik juz kill me
oh n me n ying² doin cheerleadin 4 ursa
really hv no idea wad its gona b lik la but oh well
juz giv it a gO lo..
heh.. wa lao tt day they took measurements..
man i am fat *sulks in a corner*
n now tt my knee's lik shit injured.. i cant train..
so i shall juz get (as daddy wud put it) fat - ter.. -_-!!
haha i realised we're either damn bored or damn dumb..
probably both.
y e effing hell do 2 ppl quarel everyday la.
sickenin nth to quarel oso muz quarel de la
are we lik insane..sheesh
but thankfully we USUALLY make peace by e end of e night..
USUALLY.. it hasnt been usual this week. hai..
yesterday got syf for sec sch band..
went down in e evenin to meet him at sg con. hall.
quite a nice grand placee..
ARGH!!!
he had lik random girls frm dno wad ulu schs givin him lik pretty pretty cards of encouragement la..
lik how sweet is that >_< ARGH.
lik "hi handsome!" or "yo yandao" den wad "lots of love" "missing u"
GRR seth was right. his gf is nOt happpppyyyyyy!! boOooo..
heh ok nvm i'm juz a TINY bit jealous. yeapx..
wad can i do la he's cute -_-" pig.
anyway.. they did really well for syf i suppose..
got some Gold with Honours thingy?
dno la means they scored really really well accordin to a fren i guess..
heh nvm..
den took e chartered bus back to sas w him n e band..
my god -_-" aft achievein syf gold w honours ah..
e band boys egos were lik walao SKY HIGH..
seriously. it was.. an enrichin experience takin a bus back w 40 ego-inflated males -_-"
haha but quite cute la they weree lik cheerin for e retainees n sec 5 ppl hu played solos n stuff..
super dumb but cute.. yea so they were lik singing n super high till lik 9+?
den they headed down to marche heeren for celebrations..
but we din go la..
had dinner w his juniors.. toked nonsense.. den went hm~
heh 2dae.. sch was.. boring as alwys..
e ting abt vj.. is tt they hv lik SUPER LONG HRS..
4 dno wad kok purpose la n lik end o e dae... u get home..
u sit down to reflect. n u realised - ive barely leart 1 new thing e entire day.
its kinda sad. n stupid. n even more stupid?
they teach 2 chapters per subject at a time..
which means revisions on weekends is hell..
cos its lik 1 wk of dun uds accumilated n is double wad other jc's have..
yeap me n rourou realised they teach 2 chaps o chem n we uds neither
end up both get mixed up n its a whole big mess :(
aft sch..rushed down to pp to meet up w didi*
sth ****ingly horrible happened on e bus.
males can be. such perved. horny. b*****ds. assholes
ANYWAY... yeap den we hung arnd macs den went to dno wad police academy..
2dae sas vs acs rugby finals..
sheesh there were lik 700+ guys there la.. den lik 15> girls? freakin scary.
lik u walk den 200 pairs of eyes follow u cos u happen to be female..
yea.. so i juz hung arnd w his gan mei. this veron girl. yeapx no comments.
oh..den it started to rain.. so e game was kinda postponed to tml..
den e whole bunch o us were hidin under e shelter w lik e entire sas.
talk abt awkward. said hi to his cute tcher 4 a bit den juz yea. hung arnd.
oh we met him.
this guy i accidentally mistook for him at heeren la.
den damn idiot la.
lik didi n i standin facin each other..
den tt fella was lik standin behind him there givin me chao odd looks..
lik winkin n raisin eyebrow n givin this super super perved smile n stuff
ya.. den jun noticed n told didi..
yea as expected they kinda fought -again-
and ppl say i'm violent *shrugs*
well he wasnt hurt so its ok..thou i do hope he's ok in sch tml =x
tt guy lik quite beng ba.. w his stupid earholes n tatoos n smokin.
u noe e usual. -ugh- yeap l8r we went back to pp..
had dinner.. talked a bit.. had our daily quarel -_-"
den we went homeee~ heh i'm happy :)
oh ya.. i forgot to mention.. lik 2 wks back friday..
there was a 6A dinner..
as in rj so6A not pri6A..
ahah it was really really fun.. lik most of e class was ther..
den seein all of them again..
gettin e letters n stuff.. being w my frenz..
felt really really good..
but of cos mel being mel..
cried lik enuf to flood orchard as alwys..
i really miss them.. alot..
theyre really different frm my new classmates
in terms of thinkin.. behaviour.. maturity.. etc..
i miss jilyn n huibin especially much..
they're wonderful girls n yea.. everything's so different w/o them :(
I MISS 1SO6A!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
n i miss rj.
good luck to all my frenz.. n to eh anyone readin this la..
may u have a great week..
n in case i dun update within a week..
have a great mth :)
heh take care *
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e postin results sucked.
i got posted to vj.
i noe lik many o u readin this prob hate me since vj is stil lik 3rd jc.
but. well. uve gotta spend 3 mths in a place u din like.
n force urself everyday for 3 mths to start e day w e "tdae will be a btr day" thought.
den aft some time..
u start liking e place n everyone there.
then u start fallin for it. hard.
n just when u're all so happy n havin loads of fun (while wkin hard of cos)
u get torn away from it.
rejected time n time again. appeal after appeal - unsuccessful. *piang* (mel starts crying....)
if tts not bad enuf.
u go to a new sch, wher even thou u practically noe everyone.
u feel lik a stranger.
u go to sch w e feelin "i'm juz crashin.. tml i'll be back wher i belong."
den tml comes n reality strikes.
vj O2.. was..... as everyone put it.. sian. terrible. boring.
everything wasnt organized v well n 2nd intakers din really feel lik anyone really cared abt us.
to many. O2 merely seemed lik a chance for e dno wad dno wad elects or wad to show off their capabilities.
lik e sole purpose o O2 wasnt really to let e new comers fit in.
lik at e end of e first day. there were 3 ppl left in my OG. if u could even call it my OG that is.
n i din noe e names of anyone in my grp (other than those i alrdy knew b4) n no one knew mine either.
talk abt feelin lost n left out.
now i have to play for vjc bball.
of cos its a great thing to meet new bballers n play w new ppl.
but it hurts. cos e psat 3 mths. hasnt been easy for rj bball.
we've gone thru alot tgt n somehow we've finally goten closer to each other.
now i'm apart frm them n worse still, in e first rounds of competition this yr.. vj will be competin against rj.
totally e cherry atop e cream cake.
kns la :(
ok ive finished crying.. so i shal stop whinin..
lemme tell u all e good good stuff abt vj shall i :)
in no order of merits of cos.. :
1. MY GF IS IN VJ.. hor sweet? ;)
2. MY OTHER GF IS IN VJ!! (cp!!)
3. *more insignificant* MY OTHER OTHER GF IS IN VJ (jenny)
4. most of 4J are in vj
5. vj has nicer uniform
6. vj has? aircon classrooms?
7. vj has.... a closer distance frm ecp?
8. vj has.. a population of which half i already know?
9. vj has.. no cute guys?
10. vj has... easier mass dances?
11. gunawan's in vj too!! fellow RR - raffles reject.
*wEeePs.. i wan rj back...
i wan mornings w iris bf woman
i wan my bridge-fanatic og mates
i wan my class.. i love my class.. i love all e girls in my class..
they're sweet n sincere n matured and fun.
i wan.. er panda to be my chem lab mate!! he's slow n retarded n has alot o brains so i can copy his wk :(
i wan rj bball..
i wan rj touch rug.
i wan miss wong.
i wan e continuous reception no matter wher u are
i wan all the things that are just out of reach.
i wan random lunches and outins w my new frenz
boy m i miserable.. *soaks my feet in misery.*
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[28 Feb 2005|11:29pm] |
congrats to everyone who did well..
so proud of all u ppl.. so happy for u all..
meiyu.. lehui.. hq.. eric.. etc.. e 11 A1s..
ami.. bryan.. jenhan.. etc.. e 10 A1s..
sijian.. szeling.. melody.. joel.. sheryl.. etc etc.. e long row o 9A1s..
den e tonnes of 8 and 7 A1s.. so happy for all u ppl :)
of cos those are e expected ppl..
another bunch o ppl we shd b happy for are those hu improved loAds thru hard wk n totally deserved their improvements..
eg. cheryl!!!! =D i'm as happy for u as u are foR urself dear.. :) heh~
tO e rest hu din do startlingly well.. (this applies to little ol ME too)
yes lets juz play tml away shall we..
i already bot earrings n a new spoRts brA to cheer myself up =)
all e sad ppl out there do stuff to smile agaiN okAy.. :)
wa jilyn's e best.. she got 7 pnts n was sad so her mom's givin her money to pamper herself tml..
tt juz roCks..
i got 9 pnts..
eng A2
em A1
am A2
humans A1
bio A1
phy A2
chem B3
chinese B3
hcl C5
i kinda expected e 2 for eng.. but vv upset w e e A2 for Amath n phy.. n B3 for chem..
i dno how to face ms ling n mr ong now..
aft they put in effort to help me so much in my subs..
dno how to see tan jen fee oso..
hai..
BUT i m freakin proud!!! of my HCL!!!
LOOK AGAIN!!! its a C5!! => a PASS..
whee no more chinese for e rest of... er rest of e time until its impt again =D
aft tt met him at kallang den he peied me back to rj to appeal..
sai la.. 9-4 = 5..
still muz appeal..
i wonder oover n over. y e hell m i stayin in such an insane sch..
i've no answer to e qn.. but i'm stayin anyway..
sigh.. anyway i was cryin n cryin n cryin e entire day n last nite for tt matter..
so my eyes n head really hurt so i was grouchy..
den ltr tt stupid guy scolded me cos i was cryin over 9 when many ppl cant even dream of a 9..
true..ni shuo de dui ah..
but let me cry 1 dae zhong ke yi ba..
frm e start.. din u noe i'll cry even if my 7 pnts rose to an 8.. much less a 9..
if u knew tt frm e start.. n knew u'd get grouchy hvin to put up w my tears..
wtf did u come look for me for..
screw u.
nvm.. mel promises to b a good girl frm tml.
den we'll not hv our daily dose of mean, harsh, hurtin words..
and we'll live happily ever after..
wooomAn is strong.. she din cry...
haha random..
L'amor che move il sole e l'altre stelle
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bOo..
ok bloggin mood's gone..
good luck for tml ppl.. i wish everyone luckk..
i feel funnnnnnnyyyyyyyyy...
lets make peace n b nice to each other now shall we?
wads e definition of xing fu..
wads it like to be bi..?
he says its confusing..
yet.
he's happy..
we're str8..
but are we..
i juz realised 30+cm ht diff is quite alot..
its 2 of e 7 rulers in my pencil box..
i learnt a new language today..
its fun.. n pretty cool..
thank u kat..
bu yao zai rang ni men de ai
bai gei le shi jian
ji ran yi yu jian le yong yuan
jiu bu yao zai shuo zai jian..
bu yao zai rang ni men de ai
shu gei le yong yuan
ni men cheng jin guo na me duo kao yan
zui hou hai shi hui dao le yuan dian..
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heyoO!
haven updated for a week now..
lets see..
mondAy..
aft sch went shoppin w sijian for didI* prez..
haha got his this really nice shiRt..
guys are generally huge so i bOt XL..
den i realised 2 of me can fit into it -_-"
oh well we'll see..
met up w didI for dinnEr aft tt..
haha den crApped w ah pa at macs b4 headin homee..
oooh!! i painted macdonAlds!!!!!!!'
lik arnd 6 inches of 1 wall la..
b-e-a-utiful~ =D
tuEs..
had bball trainin..
haha its nice i suppose..
i'm kinda enjoyin trainins more..
cos e rg bballers are really really nice n stuff..
make u feel welcomed..
but quite sad a few girls r leavin..
n they're all really good..
wEd..
met melly aFt sch.. den went to cityliNk..
shopped foR his carD..
endEd up buyin a wallet for him since he lost his..
haha melly was in rg unifOrm!!
i still think she looks better in dhs de thou..
smarter :)
went to meet him aFt tt..
hAd dinner den he sent me bAck..
thUrs..
FINALLY met our senioR class.. 2SO6A..
suppose to b really smart but really muggerish class..
oh lee kuan yew grandson is in e class toO~
haha thou i din exactly fig out hu he was..
there was this other guy.. pretty cute..
l8r tt aftnoon i had trainin!!!
its was fun i suppose but coach seems lik really..
sad n stff.. din ask her y but well.. dno lAa..
hmm everyone was injured..
i hurt my wrist n ankles..
mel lim hurt her knee caps..
zhern is lik e cutest..
she er.. i dno her shoulder shifted out of place..
den she kinda squated on e floor n lik looked really realy in paiin..
super scary..
den lik aft 1 min.. she was lik "ok it went back"
den she was fine again..
everyone was lik.. *jaw drop* intereestin...
aft tt he came to meet me for dinner b4 sendin me home..
fRiday = todAy..
terrible morning..
she is not -THAT- pretty woman..
i slept thru phy lecture cos e teacher din teach ANYTHING at all..
juz play games w wad 200 ppl? weird..
haha anyway sch was a boRe n pe was crap..
din feel tired at all..
den l8r econs..!!
woah actually econs s pretty interestin..
only kinda dumb cos its all comman sense n stuff...
but e econns lecturere is lik mad..
she teaches even faster den i can highlight lo..
den everyone was lik lost so most ppl gave up n wentto slp~
ahah..
aft tt met up w sijian.. sup to go buy cAke.!!
haha end up.. me..woman..lynette..huiqing..bryon went to eat tgt..
den went to j8 piCk a cake..
den went to takke neoprints!!
haha kinda cuute n funny n all :) *beams..
nicenice ppl~
aft tt headed back tO sch..
slacked arnd den met e og ppl to cut cake for nat n benny..
hmm our og lik.. fen saning liao..
not so tgt anymore..
everyone's lik realy b4 w their commitments to ccas n classes..
sounds lik excuses eh.. yea i dno..
time!! >_<
aft tt gossiped abit w umay..huibin..lloyd..jilyn...
all vv nice ppl in my class!!
den l8r went for bball match..
perth wildcats vs sidney kings!
haha it was a damn coo game man..
e startin was lik they offed all e lights den had coloured smoke n all
den lik they called out players one by one their names n stuff den they ran out..
ultra seh..
den they had e cheerleaders n all..
e guys are lik damn tall.. at 1 pnt in time e shortest guy on court was 1.99m..
man im short..
then they all lik bounce bounce n can dunk n all..
we were lik "gimme a chair n i stil cant touch e net!!!"
ahah horrible..
v interestin la beisde e fact tt i was damn tired..
oh aft tt jiachi pei me walk all e way to e busstop n wait for my bus thou it was damn near 4 him to go home..
thx maNn~ tt was really really nice =D
haha made e darkneSs that bit less scary..
met amelia on e bus home..
haha she's grown.. aganin ---___---"
not my darling baby dhs amelia..
is e scgs now in vjc de.. my close fren in pri sch..
haha she's prettyy!!!
yeap tts abt e dae..
oh.. i got into netball..
but decided not to do it in e end aft talkin to layming abt it..
shes realy nice n stuff.. v helpful senioR! =D
so now i'm kinda in bball.. touch rug.. n astrO..
thou e last 2 not confirmed..
might picK up lik stamp soC or sth thou=X i dno..
oh yA..
if u ppl wan him..
juz take him man..
serious we're lik not related to each other..
we juz kinda mixed each other's genders up so im boy n he's woman..
no need bitch arnd behind my bacK..
:) thx ah..
oh i have a new son/dotter..
his name is ryan.. n he's damn adorable..
J1 but lik sec 1 sec 2 lidat..
haha ke aiii~
he wrote this ultRa cute note to didI* which went sth lik
"hi mel's didi! i'm ryan! i'm only 1.__m tall n i'm so jealous of u!! muz take good care of mel ok!"
haha for his sake we shall not mention e __ but haha its kinda lackin compared tO didi*~
haha adorable..!!
oh n 6A's gettin closer n closer as e days pass.
really a v nice feeling..
to actaully hv a calss tts bondin quickly..
haven had tt feelin for pretty long i guess n its nice to have it back again..
2dae we gossiped abit n realised e class aint eactly cliquish at all..
its juz a whole big lot..
then those who havn come in well arnd e sides...
its gettin better thou..
n gettinn rather sick n perved!!! haha cute..
alright i've gtg..
bye ppl~
have a great time no matter wher u are.. =)
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(1) walked towards e toilet..
(2) walked out..
they bumped into each other and coke spilt on e (2)..
(2) punched (1) in e stomach..
(1) slammed his head against e wall..
they started fighting..
(3) n (4) joined in...
now the walls of mac are stained..
(1) is didi.. (2) is some unknown indian..
(3) is chong.. (4) is some unknown indian..
sheesh.. almost ended up in e police station..
luckily got ah pa help them tok to manager o macs..
he was waitin for me near j8..
and some rgs->rj girl asked for his number.
thou he din give.. n i dno who she is..
i juz get super grouched over it..
got tt wana hit sth de gan jue >_<
this week.. got 3 girls n 2 guys ask for his no. le..
quite sad.. competition v stiff :x
v confused..
over which cca to join..
signed up for..
netball. softball. touch rugby. odac. astronomy club. canoeing. bball.
and 1 more i forgot le..
hmm.. muz decide on sth tt dun clash w e others..
somehow really felt lik gg for choir tryouts i dno y..
choir is so.. not me..
juz.. till now.. hours later..
still kinda regret not going..
haha not tt i'll get in anyway -_-''
oh well..
went for lunch w ryan tday..
at s11..
haha tt guy eats damn little..
like a girl lidat..
aft tt we went to j8..
walk walk shop shop.. look for didi* presEnt =)
found this nice shirt tt wud suit him..
bet he'd look great.. as alwys..
den another 200 ppl will wana know himm! =x
oh we looked at clothes.. earings.. PINK underwear.. makeup.. etc..
ahaha i put some makeup on his face den he lik freaked out..
haha super super ke ai.. haha xiao hAi zi!!
oh 2dae i talked to melly~
it was nice talkin to her..
haha its nice talkin to someone dhs..
aft 4 yrs shd have a change of bit*hing target ehh ;p
muz meet for lunch ahh~
and i lik totally cant play e piano anymore..
it sounds disgustin.. sobx*
=*xiang tong hua gu shi li.. kuai le shi jie ju..=*
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i woRe rg uni on fRi~
haha its a pretty coOl uni.
n u lik kinda feel diff in it.. cos its lik raffles girls sch n all tt nonsense~
haha everyone was lik "wasnt she frm dunman?"
oh well..
quite a cOol experience~
haha my class is lik bondin a bit more le le..
quite fun.. only its gettin pretty sick =x!
haha we played this game den e guys started askin other guys lik..
which part o a womens' body do u lik best?
or..
wad was e -wildest- dream u've had?
walao ri guys are damn sick.. despite e guai kiA face!!
haha we made jenhan do foRfeit!!
ahah it was damn funny~
he put on e rgs pinafore den walked around e level wavin n blowin kisses to everyone..
den we took lotsa pics n now we're gona blacKmail him!!
haha
haha aft sch went to sa find didI*
den his tcher was lik -sttuneed-
cos she tot he changed gf again..
frm dhs to rgs one.
haha damn cutee lo e rest o e band guys were bein dumber den usual tt dae -_-'
aft tt we headed down to ecp..
den walked arnd n toked nonsense..
n vandallised come stuff =X
oh we met tons o vj ppl = ex dunmanians..
we stayed till pretty late.. den counted lik 40+ staRs?
so pretty..
ok i'm bored again..
got so many tutorials to do >_<
die la my maths is gettin frm bad to worse..
all e O level stuff i cant do le !!!
oh in case anyone's wonderin (lik how many are in rj)
1. i'm not attached to sijian.. he's gay..
2. i'm NOT les :)
3. i'm NOT bi..
sheesh! *pengz*!
many ppl hv been unhappy these days..
alot o rj ppl i noe at least...
n a few outside ones too..
well..
»--(¯`v´¯)--» ming tian bu yi ding gen hao.. dan gen hao de ming tian yi ding hui lai.. «--(¯`v´¯)--«
i love all my frenz out there..
be happy n keep smiling.. :)
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