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Another week. This past weekend was CFTC. Some of the fans aren't too happy about how everything went down and we lost money this year I am told. Plans for next year's event are up in the air now. Now with CFTC being done I am back on the road. The last couple of nights were in Chicago. Even did a show at the local House of Blues. Other than that my life is pretty crazed. Touring takes a lot out of you.
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[18 Jul 2003|08:38pm] |
::sits down in his hotel room, resting his laptop on his lap, smiling as he glances over at the door, knowing he has to make this post a quick one, resting his keyboards on the keys, starting to type::
This weekend we're all together. All five of us. Its so great to have us all together again. can't wait for al the stuff we're going to do this weekend. Even though it is going to be hotter than hell here in Miami, but it still be fun. And best of all I get to spend the weekend with my husband. I miss him put on the road, but we're together now. That is what counts.
::smiles, clicking post and logging off::
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[09 Jul 2003|11:45am] |
*sits on the tour bus, his laptop resting on his lap, looking around the bus for a moment before resting his fingers on the keys, starting to type*
The tour is going good. Last wek was nice to have off. I went home to Los Angeles and spent sometime with Lance. He's been busy doing his own thing back home, so we haven't had the opportunity to be together as much like we had planned. I just really miss him. I don't even know if I'll get to see him before CFTC.
*sighs softly, clicking post update and closing down his laptop*
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[25 Jun 2003|10:54am] |
*sitting on his hotel room bed. chewing on his bottom lip as he glances over at the tv screen, watching it play some video on MTV, sighing softly before looking down at the screen of the computer, setting his fingers on the keyboard, starting to type slowly*
Well the tour is going well. Everything is running pretty smoothly since the little problem in Vancouver. Tonight's show is in Oklahoma City. It was nice being in LA last week. Spent the week at home. Did the shows at the Staples Center and the late night show at the House of Blues. Joey and Lance came out on stage and danced around like silly fools. Britney showed up for the Vegas show. Next week we're taking a few days off from the tour for the Holiday. I have no idea of what we're going to do yet. Guess I need to figure that out.
*reads over his entry before clicking post*
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[16 Jun 2003|06:19pm] |
*sits on the couch in his dressing room backstage, his laptop resting on his lap, setting his fingers on the keys to type*
Tonight we're doing the show in Los Angeles. Somehow KIIS-FM out here got me to do a show after the concert at the House of Blues over on Sunset. Plan on having a long night with the concert ending at 11pm then the HOB show I don't have noe clue on when I'll be home. It's nice that I'm back in LA for a few days. Since we're pretty much al week Lance and I decided to spend the week at home instead of at the hotel. love being on tour, but its also really nice to have the opportunity to sleep in your own bed too. I'm glad Lance is here. Hopefully they'll stop sending him off to do this or that.
I'm performing on Leno on Thursday night so you all better watch that. I don't have much to say right now. The crowd is starting to file into the Staples Center now, so I better cut this short. More later.
*reads over his entry before clicking post and shutting his laptop off*
( OOC note )
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[11 Jun 2003|03:05pm] |
*sits on the tour bus, sighing softly as he stares out the window before looking down at the ring on his finger, reaching down and turning it before pulling out his laptop and setting his fingers on the keys as he starts to type*
Well tonights show was cancelled in Vancouver due to logistic problems with customs. Having a night off is nice. I love touring, but we've been doing a show almost every night this week.
Lance had to go back to LA. Went to this at the Playboy Mansion for the launch of Spike TV. I saw some of the pictures taken and he looked good. I just wish he had been with me. I know we're both busy but we've just been married a short time and I want to be with him.
*sighs softly, reading over what he wrote for a moment before starting to type again*
I can't wait until the tour is over and we can get back to working together on things. Get the group back together and work on our next album. Been awhile since I've talked to JC. Actually the last time we spoke was at Joey's wedding. I hope he's okay, and I wish that even if things didn't work out for us he would still talk to me. He's one of my best friends and has been for the last ten years and I need him in my life. I still love him but I know he has moved on and I'm doing the same.
*chews on his bottom lip for a moment, a soft sigh escaping his lips*
I wish Lance was here. Maybe a night off wouldn't be so lonely if he was here.
*presses click update and sets his laptop aside, laying back on his bunk*
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[03 Jun 2003|01:44pm] |
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Well tomorrow the tour starts. Kicking off in Phoenix. Arriving into Phoenix sometime today and seeing if maybe I can get some golfting time in. Finally got to spend some more time with my wonderful husband Saturday. He was home when I got back from the Movie Awards taping. I was just a tiny bit drunk, but its all good. He says he is going to come out on tour with me which makes me so happy. I have missed him so much. It sucks being married to him and not being with him all the time. Having him come with me will be nice.
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[29 May 2003|12:50pm] |
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Its amazing when I'm home I even miss my husband. If I'm not busy. He is busy. I know we're both busy individuals, but we need to find some us time. Before I start the tour next week.
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[20 May 2003|01:00pm] |
*sits on his bed, typing on his laptop, chewing on his bottom lip slightly*
Well tonight we have one more show in London and then I'm off to do two more shows in Dublin and I'm done. Dates have already been set for a return trip to the UK in December. The fans out here have been really cool. It was nice having my mom come out for the show on Sunday. They were taping it live for broadcast on MTV UK. They showed the entire show and pre-show live. I see video files have already made their way onto the internet if you didn't get to see the show.
Lance called afterwards. I was already in bed, but the phone woke me up. We talked for awhile. I miss him so much. We haven't seen each other since the ceremony here in London. With him flying back to LA to do premieres and other stuff. I see new pictures of him everyday online from this function or that event. He's looking a little skinny lately. I'll have to talk to him about that when I see him. It won't be long now. Just a few days more and I'll be able to fly home. Back to the states and back to my husband.
*clicks update and shuts off his laptop*
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[16 May 2003|04:01pm] |
*sits with his laptop on his lap, sighing softly, looking at a picture of him and the group sitting on the table next to the bed*
Touring is still going. Just a few more dates here, and I'll be able to fly back home. Home to my husband. We haven't seen each other the day after we got married when he had to fly out to go and do some promo type stuff over in LA. I can't wait to see him again. Just hold him in my arms and he hold me. I still don't know if the whole being married thing has sunk in yet, but we are and I can't be happier.
*smiles a little, hitting the update button*
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[08 May 2003|02:28pm] |
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*sits on his hotel room bed, his laptop on his lap*
Well the tour has started. I'm off in England. Reviews and pictures from the concert and already popping up everywhere on the internet. You can find some here or here or even a review here. I think it went well. I was out there for awhile. Sang pretty much everything and even threw in a few *Nsync songs.
I heard through the grapevine RYB retired at #1. First of my videos from Justified to go out on top which is nice. Shows the fan still care. The DVD that was going to be released in support of the album is now postponed indefinitely. No idea if it'll come out now or what. I guess we will have to wait and see. Tonight MTV is airing the interview I did with Keanu for Matrix 2 on Movie House so you can all catch me on that.
Also doing some spots for TNT during their sports coverage. Might have caught my little thing with Magic the other night after the Lakers game. Looking forward to doing more spots as my schedule permits. Although it is quite busy now with the tour and my husband and everything. *smiles, looking up for a moment* Um... yeah guess I should tell you all. Lance and I decided to just say fuck it and got married the other day just before the tour started. e just wanted it to be something for us, so we just did it. No one was invited, and I do apologize for that. I know we have a lot of friends and family that would have wanted to attend the big event, but it was something we decided to do over the weekend. Very spur if the moment. I was so nervous just before the ceremony, but everything went well. We're both busy doing our own thing right now, but Lance says he will spend as much as time as he can with me while I'm touring. He had to fly out to go to the Matrix premiere, but he should be back with me in the UK soon.
Well I think that is everything for now. More from the UK soon.
*clicks update, yawning softly and setting his laptop aside, laying down*
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*smiles at Lance asleep in bed, leaning down to kiss him softly, whispering* Happy Birthday baby. *gets up from bed, setting a tiny box and a note on the pillow next to Lance with this inside before getting up and going downstairs, starting to make breakfast before Lance gets up*
( The note to Lance )
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[01 May 2003|11:55am] |
This weekend Lance and I went off and spent the weekend. Skipped one day of rehearsals and just went off to be us. I still haven't any idea what to do for his birthday yet, but I'll come up with something.
Tour starts next week. As the day draws nearer I get more and more nervous, but Lance is planning to go with me, so that will help.
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[23 Apr 2003|07:48pm] |
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So tonight was fun. *rolls his eyes* Totally. I just love stupid disc jockeys calling me at home after a long day of rehearsals to ask me things that are not even any of their business. What fan really cares who have had sex with? The real fans ...well ... hell they are probably curious, but they care more about the music. At least I would hope they would. Asking me about if I tapped this ass or that one. Pretty extensive list this guy had. Of course if he only knew the truth of what I'm doing in the bedroom right now.
I think I handled the asshole pretty well. He was just being too much. Deserved to hung up on.
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[22 Apr 2003|02:27pm] |
ell not much going on. Back in LA. Doing more tour rehearsals. The tour is almost set to kick off in the UK in a few weeks. Then the summer tour here in the states. I don't know how Lance and I are going to handle things once I'm on tour. I want to be with him all the time. Now more than ever. I have no idea how JC is going to react when we tell him.
I got to see JC on TRL yesterday talking about his new album. He's so close. Yet so far away. Recording just a short distance from where I rehearse. I wish we had all been able to work things out, but he and Nick seem happy. I only wish Lance and I could have made him happy.
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[20 Apr 2003|07:11pm] |
*sighs softly, opening his leather journal, starting to write*
This weekend so much has happened. Starting with JC's phone call, and then my earlier than intended flight to Orlando to attend Joey & Drew's wedding. When I got there Lance wasn't at home, so I crawled into his bed and slept fitfully for most of the night. He came home the next morning and I got the chance to talk to him some before we had to run around and do wedding stuff. Well, before he did anyway. Being in the wedding party and everything.
The wedding was nice. Beautiful ceremony. True to his word JC showed up with his new boy toy ... I mean boyfriend. And shockingly it was none other than Nick Carter. I never thought JC wolud go to the other side of the track and say he was dating a Backstreet Boy, but he is, and they had no problem flaunting their relationship at the wedding reception. Lance was considerably upset, and I had no idea what to do. Joey offered to go out and talk to him, so I hoped that help some. By the end of the party Lance was considerably wasted and I had to get us home and to bed.
Today Lance asked me something. Something I never thought he would, but he did. He asked me to marry him. And I said yes of course. I love him, and I want to be with him forever ... with or without JC. Looks like it will most certainly be without.
*sighs softly, glancing over at Lance asleep in bed next to him, closes his journal and lays down, curling up to Lance and falling asleep*
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[19 Apr 2003|12:20am] |
*lets himself into Lance's house, looking around the dark living room with a sigh*
Well you are a day early Justin. Weren't supposed to arrive until the morning.
*drops his bag on the floor by the door, going upstairs to the bedroom, stripping off his clothes*
Probably out getting stuff done for the wedding. I'll see him tomorrow. Hopefully I can talk to him before the wedding about JC.
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[18 Apr 2003|01:27pm] |
*lifts his head, sniffling a little, looking over at the phone*
Well he called. JC called to tell me about his new boyfriend. The one he is taking to Joey's wedding. Wouldn't tell me who it was. Guess I'll find out tomorrow at the wedding. *wipes at his eyes, standing up from the couch slowly* I hadn't heard from him since the break up. Been awhile, and it turns out he's been seeing this other guy since the week after that happened. Well ..fucking forever sure is long ain't it?
*sighs, picking up the phone, calling the airline for an earlier flight to Orlando, hanging it up and dialing another number, leaving a voice mail for Lance*
( VM for Lance )
I can't believe it took him such a short amount of time to find someone new. He says he still loves Lance and I, but he loves this other person differently. What a bunch of ...*sighs shakily, looking down at his trembling hand*
You'll be okay Justin. Just need to get to Orlando, and then you'll be with Lance.
*goes into his room, off to finish packing*
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[11 Apr 2003|02:05pm] |
I have no idea at all what I'm doing anymore. Lance called the other day and told me he saw JC in Florida. I hadn't even known Lance was in Florida until he called. We started talking and I tod him he should just go to JC and tell him he wants him back and I'll just stay out of the picture. Lance kept telling me no, but I wasn't even really listening. I started to panic and I just freaked out. Lance got so worried he flew back, and was there sometime in the middle of the night and he stayed with me for a bit until everything was okay again.
Now I know I have to see JC this weekend. That is if he gets back from wherever he is. He is one of the stars tentatively scheduled to present. I really don't know how that will go. I miss him, and I still love him, but we haven't seen each other since things ended with the three of us, and before then he was so busy in the studio we barely got to see each other even then. I just hope it goes well.
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(Thanks to  joshuascott for the lovely top pic for my journal. Post later)
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