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Choking on nothing, its clear in my head, im screaming for something.. [03 Apr 2004|03:29pm]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | Blink 182<3 ]

Im extremely bored. Ive been on the computer all day/listening to music. I made 6-7 new wallpapers. I dont know how to get them actually on my freewebs site though. I also forgot how to get the color not change to blurry when I save it.I drew 4 new pictures and colored some of my old ones(plus new ones)
Jeans dad talked to my mom last night. Im assuming he told her that it was an all day thing and that their were many bands on it. He also said that its gonna be like 25-something($). Which is a good thing. My mom said that she didnt care that much because she already said yes before. She thought it was nice of him to call and let her know about the concert too. Im so happy. I dont want to wait until August to go though. Plus, my mom said I cant go to any other concerts until after that one. Ill beg depending on how good the concert is. But it would have to be during the summer. Warped Tour is in like 82 days or something. It was on the site, haha I go just look at the countdown. Their saying the names of the bands that are playing at each date and they havent done MA/August 18th yet. Of couse, because its the last one.
No ones been home all day. Its been an okay day..yet boring. I really really want to get new clothes/cds/posters. My moms bringing me shopping soon. Im gonna get the orange yellowcard shirt and other bands shirts that arent black. My mom said I CANT get shirts for the summer that are black. She claims I have too many black ones(I do). Im gonna tell my mom I need some "summer cds",hahaha.
_Jean, do you think you could sleep over tonight?_

Im out like a fat girl at a dodge ball game,

Ive been here before a few times, and im quite aware were dying..-Blink 182-

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Fuck it all [01 Apr 2004|09:24pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]
[ music | brand new ]

I HATE EVERYTHING. Im seriously fed up with the people that lie to me. This is the reason that I get mad and get in fights. This is the reason why my life sucks. lies. Why do people say them? What is wrong with people? They think im stupid and that I dont know your lying to me, well I do know. So fuck you all think I dont. Fuck you all who think that I trust you.


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Please tell me im not wanted, please tell me im not wanted.. [01 Apr 2004|04:55pm]
[ mood | blank ]
[ music | |S|Senses Fail|F| ]

I finally got my Early November sweatshirt yesterday. I <3 it, it rocks.

Jean's dad said yes to warped tour so I had to ask my mom and she it sounded like this:
Me:..hey mom...
Mom: what? Dont ask me to go to another concert because its no.
Me: But its in August!
Mom: What concert would this be?
Me:A good charlotte one( I had to lie, if I told 100 someone-what bands were on it she'd kill me)
Mom: Ugh, I dont care. But this is the last concert for the season.
Me: Okay(haha..like she wont know if I sneak to one..)Thanks mum
Thats what was said when I asked her.Now Jean's dad needs to talk to mom about the concert over the phone but she wont be here til late tonight. Like maybe 10 to 11 ish. Around there, maybe 9 I dont know. My dad doesnt know im going so her dad cant talk to him. Only my mom knows. She knows too much about my life..and I dont like it. If her dad talked to my dad he would get mad an stuff. He already gets mad when my friends call. I hope her dad doesnt say that their are over 100 bands and thats it this huge thing with moshpits and stuff. Yup, right then my mom would automatically say no..not a good thing. I was so happy when she said yes though.

Its raining pretty hard out. Rain=awesome though. I like the rain but I dont like the fact that it makes the ground all soggy and shitty. I still want a cool wallpaper..that loads fast. Maybe a Brand New one? Yeha that would be good. Anyone wanna find me a good looking Brand New one? Actually, im gonna go and get one right now. At a site I dont know of yet.
I saw this one a couple peoples journal so im gonna do it cause' it seems ...okay.
-Im going to warped tour
-its raining
-tomorrows friday
-Im gonna be doing something awesome in August?lol
-Im going to Boston for the day(at school,feild trip)
-Im going to Concord(feild trip..not great but better than school)
-People I dont like are still around
-we're getting 4 different snow storms next week(according to the weather guy but he better be wrong)
-people were pulling April fools day jokes on me all day
-my mom still gets on my nerves
-my dad is yelling at me
-hardly anybody is joining my communities
-some of the people arent updating in the communities
-Danielle hasnt burned my cds yet
-I stole candy from a kid today..

im outxx

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ahhh sooo bored [30 Mar 2004|05:58pm]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | |M|MEST|T| ]

Im really bored. My mom isnt home so I cant ask her if I can do anything...
Im happy that its a yes to warped tour. But warped isnt til August for me and I cant wait that long to go to a concert. There is a Brand New concert coming up April 14. I want to go really bad! Its in Worchester MA at the Palladium.
I dont feel like typing. Im out..

PS- does anybody know where I can find Brand New or Something Corporate wallpapers? That are reall good?

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Good-bye to you,good-bye to you, your taking up my time.. [29 Mar 2004|07:56pm]
[ mood | energetic ]
[ music | [T]The Used[U] ]

Today wasnt that bad. It wasnt horrid either. Tomorrow is going to be a good day though because I have no classes and we get to watch movies all day and eat candy.My last ccd class in next Monday. We're haveing a party.
I really like Jaes layout. I need a new one. Pink is getting old with me. Or maybe im aging..that didnt quite make sense but we can pretend it did. okay? okay. Jae, where did you get your layout?? Im getting mine where ever you got yours because yours is cool like w0ah.
I really like The Used now. I liked them before. But I like them more than I did before...god, im not having a good night with making sense. I want my New Found Glory cd back though. Maybe by Wed. Jean, bring your mest cd tomorrow!!!! I need to listen to that cd. yes, NEED.hahaha.

Out like woahxx

You always pick the worst times to drop the worst lines

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Communities... [28 Mar 2004|03:17pm]
[ mood | energetic ]
[ music | |y|Yellowcard|c| ]

I made 3 communities..1.Mestxfansxrock 2. DrivexThru 3. TheBenjiTonyLuv. TheBenjiTonyLuv isnt a community anymore. Nobody was joining and I didnt want anybody to get mad because of the Benji and Tony thing. I dont know how to get millions of people knowing about my community.
Jae slept over last night. I had to go out with my mom today. I have to go to my cousins birthday tonight...roar.
Im looking for a Drive Thru records wallpaper. Not like any certain DTR band just like the cover of the DVD's or the little sign thing.

Im outxx

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Friends Only [27 Mar 2004|05:55pm]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | |x|Blindside|x| ]


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The Benji --Tony Love [27 Mar 2004|03:23pm]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | yellowcard ]

Read the rules/bio and Join. Not much to say.

im out

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Back to the drawing board with the words you heard a million times before... [26 Mar 2004|05:05pm]
[ mood | happy ]
[ music | mest ]

Today was a very good day. Its so nice out. I hate winter. I cant wait until June. And August but not because of school would almost be starting, because of warped tour. Im probably gonna go to another concert over the summer before Warped..I hope. I made TONS of wallpapers. Simple Plan, Brand New, Senses Fail, Finch, Something Corporate, Good Charlotte, The Early November, The starting Line, Mest, Drive Thru Records..and more. Iif you want one just ask.=)


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Another sleepless night turns colors black and white. [25 Mar 2004|04:15pm]
[ mood | blank ]
[ music | <3Brand New ]

I made my Finch and Brand New wallpapers. I love making them, but I dont know where to upload them so I can use em'. Oh, I also made a My Chemical Romance one. Today was a pretty good day. Things happened(to me) today but im not going to say them. I <3 rainy days. And then when your on the bus and your listening to Brand New and everything around is out of your head, the rain is falling..its cool. My favorite Brand New songs is Me vs. Madonna vs. Elvis. Courtney startes crying today because I told her that "someone"(she obsesses over) is gonna commit suicide. And yeah...I didnt mean it in a bad way. Cuz this kid would never do anything like that. The kid was mad today because he didnt make the baseball team.

Brand New Rocks


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You are second hand smoke.. [24 Mar 2004|04:23pm]
[ mood | indescribable ]
[ music | ||Brand New|| ]

I dont know what to say but I need to update..

I making tons of brand new and finch wallpapers. anybody want one?

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I missed out on the best part [21 Mar 2004|08:04pm]
[ mood | blank ]
[ music | -x-Reggie and the full effect-x- ]

I love talking in italian. So..yeah.
L'italiano è divertimento da comunicare dentro perché nessuno
conosce che che cosa dire e di im smussano ottenga pazzo.
Non ho fatto niente questa fine settimana perché seccatura del didnt
di I che denomino venerdì o sabato perché ho calcolato che wouldnt
potete fare qualche cosa, come sempre. Ho provato a denominare
sunday.and che cosa voi sanno? Couldnt fate qualche cosa da inglese.

I wrote 6 new songs, not 5 but 6...


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Home on a friday night... [19 Mar 2004|10:02pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]
[ music | -x-Motion City Soundtrack-x- ]

Im pretty happy I guess. I found my Brand New cd. I got new head phones too. Thank god its the weekend though...to me, it was a long week.
[x]-Have another drink and drive yourself home-I hope its icey out on the road and I think of me when you forget your seatbelt and again when your head goes thru the windshield-[x]
Im really bored. Theres things to do but my moms making me get off the computer soon. I can always write more songs[wich I probably will do], I could finish my drawings..god those take forever.., and uh...listen to music like always. Ya know what would be good? if I had a guitar. Then I could piss my mom off and not be bored at the same time.

Truly Yours,

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Whos gonna save us? .....Whos gonna provide us, whos gonna divide us? [17 Mar 2004|08:53pm]
[ mood | sad ]
[ music | The-Living-End ]

Im Sorry. I realized that I care about someone so much that I dont want to stay in a fight forever. Because no one knows when there gonna die. This person could of died tomorrow. Im just saying. If you stay mad at someone forever then when they die your gonna know that the last words you probably said to that person was "I hate you" or something.
I know I cant control my anger. I dont know how to control the things I do. I dont even know what Im feeling half the time. Alls I know is that if you keep talking when your angry then its gonna get so bad that its impossible to fix. i know I probably wont get a "sorry" back. Im sure I probably be standing alone tomorrow. I know Ive cried to much between the last 2 days and im sick of it. Ive cried to many times ever since I was 12 years old. I still think that people should have a limit of tears that can fall from there eyes. I still think that too many have fallen from mine for various reasons.

I know that I want me and my Hard Ball friend to be friends again


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[17 Mar 2004|04:59pm]
[ mood | confused ]
[ music | Myself singing my own song.. ]

You wanna be an ass to me at school? Fine, Ill be one too. You wanna act like you dont care? fine. ill do that too. You wanna say that life isnt fair? Ive been doing that. Im sick fo this bullshit and grudges and shit. Ya know what I realized? Whenever im happy someone else ruins it for me! They make up bullshit about me.
Ya know what? everytime I get in a fight with someone im always the one who walks up to that person and tries to fix it. Im sick of doing that just because the other person is to stubborn to try.By now people should know that I say my opinion wether its good or bad. And if you didnt well,sucks doesnt it?
Bianca is thinking of not wanting to deal witht he band anymore because of one person. Shes like the only person that will talk to me(and I talk to her) about things, I really dont want her to leave. If she leaves then I would probably have no one to talk to about the band because Jae doesnt really talk about the band..ever. If she leaves then no more bass.

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Best Friends fornever... [16 Mar 2004|05:59pm]
[ mood | angry ]
[ music | |--Rufio--| ]

Did you ever notice theres and end in friendship?I also dont get why they say BEST friends, especially when it means nothing to other people. They say that true friends care, and they say that their always there. Well I guess that only goes for some people. Whats the point in having friends? Or for me atleast. Their never there for me, they act like they dont care because their to busy with other things.Most girls treat their friendship like glass, which for example could be a window. Yeah well I keep breaking mine and you cant fix a broken window unless you buy a new one. And if your not sure who your true friends are then runaway and see who will follow. Because real friends wouldnt leave you...or most.Its like your friends until the other one lies and then everything is down hill from there. people should think about it as if your friendship is like a mirror, if you break it you cant fix it so stop pretending you can. Its true, its like their waiting for you to turn around so they can stab you in the back.
Im sorry but this is what I think right now. I dont care what you have to say. Comment, say what you want. I said what I wanted so why cant you?

Best friends mean I'll pull the trigger, best friends mean you get what you deserve..


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Hey boys hey girls hey anybody who will listen to me.. [15 Mar 2004|08:58pm]
[ mood | indescribable ]
[ music | -Blindside-|-Pitiful- ]

I had a horrible day today. And ya know what? Im not even gonna explain it so tough shit people. I dont get anybody. I dont even understand myself. You have no idea what its like to be me. For those who know me probably think im an anger freak. Yeah well none of you even know the real me, I dont care who you are.
Im just showing you this because its very close to how I am.
You're Element is Night. You're a loner who is very
creative but never show your work to anyone.
You may smile a little but sadness or
loneliness surround you and other can feel it
when they're near you. You have a dark or
unusual beauty that makes you mysterious and
you probably have a lot of secrets that you've
never told anyone. You're beauty is intriging
and unorthidox but the real thing that makes
you special is your eyes. Something in them
makes them like "Diamonds in the

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I do have a lot of secrets that I never told anyboyd, and I never will because why the fuck would they care?And if you do well you sure dont act like it. The only person who acts like it my friend Danielle. The rest just either make me angry(a lot),ditch me or pretend im not their friend.

Have another drink and drive yourself home, I hope its icey out on the road and I hope you think of me when you forget your seatbelt and again when your head goes thru the windshield....Is that what you call a get away? tell me what you got away with..

xim losing against the world...x

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Alone she cries..... [14 Mar 2004|09:26am]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | |Halo Friendlies x me vs. the world| ]

Its sunday and pretty boring. I hate sundays. Tomorrows not gonna be a horrible day(cuz most mondays are) because one of my teachers were playing basketball for this stupid game at school and she fractured her hand/arm or something so shes getting surgery on monday. Unless I have a really bitchy subsitute.
Theres a really good band called the Halo Friendlies. Falling Away- Sellout-Just like you- and Me vs the world and Acid Wash are some of their songs. Download them they are really good!!! Its an all girl band.
Warped tour tickets for the Boston area are on sale even tho its in Northampton but thats okay. The tickets are 32$ in all. Ill be like "mom, theres this concert..during the summer, can I buy the tickets now because this is the only time they go on sale" Ill lie, lol. But I have to ask her when shes in a good mood. Plus, I need Jeans dad to say yes that were going first.


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Fuckin...blah [10 Mar 2004|04:41pm]
[ mood | angry ]
[ music | ||AFI|| ]

Im so pissed right now! I got my DTR stuff today. Everything is awesome..the shirt, the cd, the poster. But the ONE thing ive been waiting to come in for a while doesnt fit! Its friggen HUGE! My moms gonna try and get me a new one soon..yeah right. Shes probably just saying that. But the only one that isnt black is the TSL one.(I got the finch one) Maybe I can get black...
I'm The Ataris.
The Ataris

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You are the Real Deal
True Punk. Good Job this is what I am. Dont let
anyone change who you are. Keep being true to
yourself and good things will happen. Dont care
what others say or think about you. They cant
change you and, sadly, you cant change them.

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Your Energy is Grey. Your thoughts are unclear,
muddled, and confusing. Dark thoughts or
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It may be that you have been hurt and rejected,
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Whats wrong with me... [08 Mar 2004|08:42pm]
[ mood | depressed ]
[ music | |F-I-N-C-H| ]

When your young your supposed to live your life at its fullest.Not mope around. Not stay in a room and do everything the same way every night. Well how do you think it feels do never do anything with your friend(s) and sit a corner on your bed in your room and do nothing? And when anyones(or just me) alone they tend to think about everything bad in their life and feel like they shouldnt even be alive. Yeah well I know how it feels, it feels like shit. It also feels like shit when someone treats you like your nothing, that your just their to take up space. But then your parents come in and think your insane because your sitting in a corner...alone..staring at nothing. Maybe even thinking about every little thing. I know I say this all the time but Im really fed up with people giving up on me, and no, its not just my parents. Im ending this now before I start saying things I dont want to.

Nothing but silence Fold the Corners, Break the silence...

Truly Yours,

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