ashley

11:27am: yesterday was a very long day, but a very good one. got up at 9 to get ready for the baseball game. left at 10. my bro, sis, & i laughed at my dad trying to get gas at a gas station that was out of gas. lol, it was great. picked up esther & her mom. drove to pittsburgh. we had a lot of trouble getting the tickets because instead of having them at will call, they mailed them to our house. got my jack wilson bobblehead doll. it doesn't look like him at all, but it's all good. the game was good. they lost. :( & i was so sticky & sweaty & yucky all day because it was so humid out. finally left at 4-ish. sat in the parking lot for over 20 minutes because some people were trying to leave the pirates game (which always causes traffice) & even more were trying to get in for the steelers game. i called jill on the way home. she wasn't happy. dan hadn't show up yet & he was supposed to awhile ago. but i got home & she found him. so i freshened up as much as possible. then jill & dan picked me up. we went out to our fair. it was... well the same as always. i, like a ron, forgot tennis shoes & had to walk around the unbelievably muddy fair. i kept getting mud flipped on the back of my legs & trying to wipe it off. dan made fun of me & laughed at me the whole time. we found jill's dan & his friends a little bit later. got some food, found jenna, looked at the animals, then went to the tractor pull. decided to leave because it was raining. i entertained everyone on the walk back to the car by having muddy water running down my legs & getting on my clothes. came back. went to mom's for a little bit, ate cheesecake. came back to dad's. dan & i hung out for the hour or so before he had to leave. i had a lot of fun. i miss him. i had to take him back to his car at jill's a little after 11. i fell at jill's & scraped up my foot. it really hurt. came back, stayed up for a little while, then went to bed. now i'm wishing the next two days will go by as slowly as possible because i don't want to go back to work for two more weeks.

9:50pm: so here's another random update from me, highlighting the past few weeks --

last monday: went to pitt with jenna. it seems like a really nice school. also FINALLY exchanged my cell phone cover that stupid guy sold me. (yeah, he was cute, but do your job!!)
last tuesday: unexpectedly left a day early for virginia. went to visit my uncle, aunt, & two cousins. stopped to pick up bruce at his job. got another tour of the prison, which was awesome.
last wednesday: left the motel we stayed at wednesday night & drove the rest of the way to virginia. it was a really long ride. got to the house & basically just hung out the rest of the day.
last thursday: it rained during the day. boo that. i forget what we did. but that evening/night we went down to the beach to walk around on the boardwalk & such. it was nice. wow, i should live at the beach. dan called me too. we talked for awhile. then jill called me. i haven't seen or talked to her in way too long.
last friday: finally got to spend the day at the beach. it was still kinda cloudy though & i didn't feel a need to put on sunblock. got burnt. :D
saturday: went to water country usa. it's this water park down there. that was tons of fun. spent most of the day on this thing called *hubba hubba highway*. we decided we need to build one in our backyard. :P
sunday: drove home. wow did that ride suck.
monday: did some miscellaneous errands. drove (with jenna!) to c-bus.
tuesday: worked. boo!
wednesday: went horseback riding. too much fun. went to an icecream factory thing & had this thing called *messy mess*. hot fudge... yumm! also finally made it to the pool (after getting lost).
thursday: picked the hottest day of the entire summer to go to the ohio state fair. we absolutely melted all day long. but we saw a pig race, rode the skyride thingy, bought candy, & got that lovely sick feeling from the roller coaster. (had two phone calls interrupt my sleep. but they were both worth it.)
today: worked. :( it was such a crazy, busy day. but i made it through & now it's the weekend!! woo-hoo.
tomorrow i'm going to the pirates game. it's jack wilson bobblehead doll day. then going to the fair with dan, jill, & dan. (i think.) i'm very excited to see dan again for the first time since april or whenever. i'll try to update again soon.

5:24pm: i make yet another triumphant return to blurty! so the past two weeks have basically been filled with work. though last saturday i did go to deer creek with danielle & josh for the day. that was fun. finally came home friday evening. but didn't stay too long. jumped back in the car 20 minutes later to ride up to cleveland for my bro's playoff game. it was a great game. & he pitched the last inning & a half & did awesome! saturday, guess what i did again. rode to cleveland. i think i'm out of my mind. so i spent like 13 hours in the car on friday & saturday. & he didn't even play on saturday. however, we went to the macaroni grill after his game. i had never been there & it was very good. today has been dubbed my lazy day. i went to the mall to get my nails filled & went to the store with my mom. jenn & i are gonna watch a movie when the race is over. looks like tomorrow i'm going to pitt with her for her school visit. well, i have tons of laundry to do awaiting me in my suitcase, so i'm outta here.

12:23pm: i don't get it. why can't life ever be simple? why is it always one extreme or the other? just when i think things are great, i finally find something i want & i may finally get to actually have that, i'm bombarded with all this other stuff. i don't know what i'm supposed to think. when will i ever completely know what's right? i'm beginning to think never. & i don't understand why i'm so.... whatever. but no one else ever seems to see my side of things. they never get why it's so complicated for me. it's hard enough to try & deal with all of this, but i feel like it's that much worse when no one understands. no one thinks any of it is a big deal, but all of it is a huge deal to me. i just wish it wasn't like this. i just wish that for what seems like that first time ever in my life i could have what i want. but as i've learned over & over again, that's asking too much....

11:44am: so not quite a month later, i'm back!! hehe. my few & far between somehow became almost non-existant. but at any rate, i'm still alive so here's my life in a nutshell since june 18:

*i finally got a new bathing suite! for those of you that know me well, you'll understand how exciting this is. & it's not like my usual "oh, it's fits & isn't totally repulsive so i'll buy it" type. it's really cute!

*i started work. it's going pretty well. i went from the "phone girl" to the "final policies girl" in about two days, so now i'm doing this important stuff & i'm not really sure i should be. lol. they let me sign my name to stuff. the days are rather long for me, but i'm managing. & the paycheck i brought home was a very nice reminder that it's worth it. it sucks having to look cute all the time though. but it's a change from my normal scrubby look, so it's not all bad.

*time at home isn't too exciting. (big surprise.) i spend a very large portion of the time floating around my pool being lazy. & i'm trying to get a tan, but haha me & tanning don't go so well together. i coached more. it was too much fun. but their season is over this week & i won't be here for the last two games. i got to go to two pirates games, which, as always, was awesome. even sitting in the second to very last row of the stadium through a 15 inning game. it was great! i also managed to get into two or three fights with my mom. i dunno what happened. we just haven't been getting along so well lately. i don't like it.

*my fourth of july was fun. we had a cookout at my dad's. my aunt from canton, cousin, & his gf came, along with a bunch of other family. even my brother was there! i've seen him like twice this month already. that's a lot considering i almost never get to. but we swam, watched baseball, & i grilled. :p well, i did until it turned into hurricane season in my backyard. then i bailed for the indoors.

that's about all the excitement i could stand in a few weeks time. i'm going to try to do better on updating, but that probably won't happen until i get back to school. & what's with the random that left a comment on my journal?? who was that?? i'm off for work in columbus again today. but i only work 3 days this week. & on wednesday, the night johnna & i have been waiting for since like april will finally be here. we're going to see "pirates of the caribbean"!!!! & it's her birthday the week after, so i gotta buy her something. oops, guess i should do that soon. alrighty, i've got tons of work to do before i leave. don't miss me too much while i'm gone! hehe.

happy birthday lou!!!

11:47pm: obviously, updates this summer will probably be few & far between. wintersville is not a very exciting place & while here, life is usually pretty boring & routine. i moved out of my dorm last thursday. it was very sad to leave. but not so sad because i'll be back in that same building in the fall. haven't done too much exciting stuff since i've been home. been trying to help coach my old softball team. somethings are just a lost cause, lol. j/k. i still have too much fun with those girls & still love it. the first game was a little rough trying to control myself from running on the field & trying to play, but i managed. thursday night we had a buttload of company. my cousin, danielle, who was leaving for aruba friday morning, stayed the night here since we're much closer to the airport. her boyfriend was taking her up, so he also stayed. & shane made a pitstop here for the night before heading to maryland on friday. (side note - all that stuff from last weekend has been more or less resolved.) made a trip back to columbus already, lol. my bro's baseball team played there last night, so we went up. went shopping during the day & to the game last night. got back late. went shopping again today at robinson. i'm trying to get some new clothes for work since i don't dress *cute* that often, but i have been a bad shopper recently. i have to coach again the rest of the week. saturday i may be going to the pirates game. i'm very excited. sunday we may go to sandcastle. i also have to head back to columbus sunday night. i start work on monday. i'll be there 'till friday, so no updates that week. well, life doesn't get much more exciting than that around here, so i'm out to try & shake this cold still.

peace & stuff

6:32pm: all three finals are over & i'm still alive to tell about it. yay!! .....& that was my freshman year of college. (i suppose a little mushiness is in order.) i can honestly say that this has been the best *year* of my life. i could not have had a better time or made better friends. there are soooo many moments from wandering around with *strange boys* the very first night to the last steak 'n shake trip & movie night with lou that i will never forget as long as i live. (even with my bad memory, i will remember them!) i also met many truly amazing people. several of them have had a profound impact on not only my first year of college, but also on my life. they are such great people & i am so lucky to call them my friends. they really encompass what it means to be a friend. so to all of them (from those that were there from the very beginning to even those friends i just made my last weekend here, especially one who did more for me in one night than many have all year), i thank you with all of my heart for being such a great part of this amazing experience.

so i know i disappeared for a few days. this was an intended thing. i had some stuff happen this weekend that changed so much in my life. then i had one of those days where you spend the day crying & trying desperately to figure out what happened & how to deal with it until you become so emotionally numb that you stop caring about everything. very few people will understand any of what i'm saying & it will probably stay that way because i believe that this is one of those things you deal with then leave in the past where it belongs. at any rate, i'm in the process of dealing with it & am at least out of the dark hole i fell into for one day. besides all that not-so-good stuff, i had a great last weekend here! then lou & i went to k-town monday night since neither of us had finals yesterday. it was fun hanging out at her house, getting a tour of *town* & going to work with her. took my last final this morning. now i'm left with a buttload of work to get done tonight. i sold my books back. i have to finish pack & cleaning the room. johnna already went home, so it's just me now.

so to all of my friends already back in *the 'ville*, that place i not-so affectionetly call home lol, i'm coming home!!!!!!!

11:46pm: thank you andy

3:30pm: class for my freshman year is officially over!! woo-who! i went to my very last class of the quarter & the year yesterday morning. i thought about skipping it, but thought it's the last one. i should just go. so i did. then i regreted it once he started talking, lol. but i stayed the whole time anyway. came back to my room. ate a peanutbutter sandwhich. went to west campus to get my car. stopped at larkins to get cds from daniela, so i could burn some for her. then waited on lou to get back from class & for my mom to call. she finally called around 2 (after i called her because i got impatient). so lou & i left for cambridge. it took a freakin' hour & 20 minutes to get there because of traffice & retarded cars with people who can't drive. it should never take that long to get there. only mom & jenna came. dad had to work. we ate. it was soo good. i think food always tastes better when it's free, hehe. they gave me my boxes & suitecases & lou & i headed back to school. i watched her pack for awhile. thought about how i should be doing the same, but continued to just watch her. talked to shane to see what he was doing. he said they were just hanging out, but they would probably go out later. so i went over & hung out with him, andy, & mike. we played *guess the artist* for awhile. mike & i were very bad at it. eventually, we headed out to 126 to hang out. stayed there for awhile. watched drunkenness at its best as two guys ran around the house, one punching the other in the back & the other spraying the one with airfreshner. it was so funny. eventually, the one with the airfreshner tackled the other one on the porch. he said his finger froze to the can. haha, good times with the boys. then we headed to some party one of bair's friends was having. it was really far away & we were already up on lane! shane said it's as far away as you can live as an osu student & not be a commuter. there were TONS of people there. it was fun. poor mike was abused by shane & bair's friend. walked back & crashed sometime after 3:30.

only slept 'till 11:30 today, which i was very surprised by. went to get lunch at dairy queen with lou. then she left for her crew game. took a shower & studied some. now i gotta study more. then it's olive garden with the floor. (i have to get dressed up. what's that?! lol.) might be going to a party with shane again tonight. gotta see how much studying i get done & if i can really be motivated to walk all the way back to 126 again. tomorrow the entire day will be spent studying. i have two of my three finals on monday.

i will now be outta here for good in 5 days. :*(

4:13pm: *does a dance to her music* wa-na-na-na. (it's outkast silly.)

so my bro didn't make it on Tuesday. he was afraid of traffic & what-not. so i'm meeting the 'rents tomorrow for dinner to pick up my crap. studied for awhile on tuesday. fell asleep while studying. watched the *pirates of the caribbean* trailor. then went to bed.

yesterday, went to my two morning classes AGAIN. wow, that had gotten very, very old. however, i was so excited because it was my last myth class. i didn't know that i didn't have it today. it almost made my day. came back & had lunch. went to work 'till 5. studied for my exam while i was there. then went to econ. i really thought i would die in that class. he reviewed that awfully boring crap forever!! then, being the nice guy that he is, gave us 8 minutes to do our quiz. yeah, 8 whole minutes. hmm, i'm so lucky that class is over. after wishing i would die right there in my seat, lou & i went to steak 'n shake for our last time this year. *tear* lol. it was gooood. then we came back & that's when my day was actually made. lou illegally downloaded *the two towers.* so it was another great, great night filled with visions of legolas. yummmm!

today, is a great day because technically the only thing i had to do was work for an hour. i need to study more. & probably take a nap. but that's all the excitement today holds for now. so until later.....

peace & don't let finals make you blue (for my poor friends that still aren't done with school with me)

1:19pm: here's a shocker -- i'm at work with nothing to do! so i decided to check my e-mail & write in my journal. it's so nice getting paid for this.

yesterday turned out to be a pretty eventful day. went to my two morning classes (yuck!) & then to work at 1. was planning on getting done with work at 4, taking a nap, going to econ, then possibly getting something to eat with lou. well, that didn't happen, lol. lou called me at 3:30 on my cell & said her family was going to dinner & a movie & we should go with them. i protested for about half a minute because of econ. but then i remembered the torture professor pants put me through on wednesday & i stopped objecting & agreed to go. so lou picked me up at our room & we went out to her sister's old apartment. it was very empty. apparently, they have almost everything moved into their new house. the icecream man came as johnna & i got there & her sister & mom were outside waiting to get something. hehe. they bought us icecream too! then we went to fudrockers (???) for dinner. i had never been there before. it was cool. they had one of those *let's put tons of random stuff on our walls & ceilings* type of decoration things going on. so we checked all of that out. then we went over to the theatre. we saw *watching nemo*. lou & shelsa had went to see it friday as a break from packing & moving & thought it was really funny, so they wanted to see it again. it was really cute & very funny. i enjoyed it. then lou & i stopped at kro-ghetto to get me some antifungal stuff for my ringworm. we made queer jokes about jock itch the whole time because the can claims it works great on that. so now johnna's convinced i'm going to be *that guy* like the one giving the world sars. only i'm going to give them jock itch. lol. wow, we're retarded. then we came back & had to finish *the lord of the rings.* i was very excited about that. after that, i talked to shane online for a little while, then went to bed.

today has been very uneventful. went to my two classes & now i'm at work again until 2:30. i got my history of art final exam monument list in recitation today. since that's my first exam next week & has the most info to memorize, i'll probably start studying for that today since i'm done for the day after work. other than that, my bro's coming around 5:30 to bring my boxes & suitcases for me to pack all my crap in next week & then i got nothing for the rest of the day. a nap may be in order this afternoon, hehe.so i'm out until something more exciting happens.

btw, strong bad's new e-mail is halarious!! him & those squeaky pants. lol. it made me giggle.

12:24am: plans for Saturday ended up doing a 180 in the afternoon. between the clouds, rain, wind, & cold temps, shane & i decided not to go to the crew game. we may go this week if the weather's better. called aunt to see what she was up to since i now had nothing to do. she said the movie we had wanted to see awhile ago was at their cheap theatre & we could go to that. so i went out to her house. she had a lot of work to do & she had a long week at work, so i helped by cleaning for her. then we got cleaned up & went to dinner at chi-chi's with brenda & the girls. i was so excited to see them again. kendra sat on my lap most of the time looking at all the babies in the restuarant. she has some kind of fasination with them. it was really cute. then later, miranda came over & also wanted to sit on my lap. then they started playing with the ice & salt. that turned into a nice mess. then aunt & i went to anderson's general store for awhile. i had gotten something on my shirt at dinner. i was very distressed about it & walked around the store trying to cover it up the whole time. then we went to see *how to lose a guy in 10 days.* it was pretty good. some parts were really funny. & matthew mcconaughey... yumm!!

today, we went to church, had lunch, & i took a 3 hour nap, lol. we also took alex for a walk. it was fun. we went to see the horses we always would feed when i was little. they even had my favorite kind of horse. it was so pretty. had dinner & watched the end of *a few good men* on tv. came back down to school. had a staff meeting. i found out what floor i'll be on next year. i desperately wanted to be on 5 or higher. i don't know why. i'm just queer like that. so yay for me -- i'm on 8!! i'm in a programming cluster with ryan, ryan, & ashley. kinda weird. then i had to take my car back to west campus. i had to stand on the bus. i never like doing that. came back. talked to jenn. tried to find out who the random was that called my cell last night at 4 am!!! grrr. & that's about it. so it was a pretty good weekend. i'm sad. i only have one weekend left!! :( it's gonna be even sadder when i have to tell everyone goodbye.

well, i'm off for the night. tomorrow starts the last week of my first year of college (excluding finals). hehe.

1:44pm: i love days when i get to sleep in & have nothing to do. i woke up today around 11:30, but i stayed in bed until about 12:15 because i could. hehe. it was so nice.

yesterday wasn't too exciting. i went to class. waited on lou to get back & we went to get lunch. then she took me to my car, which was awesome because i didn't have to ride the bus. then i ran around doing some errands, including getting my pay check. yay! it's rather entertaining how exciting that can be. & i only have four days left to work at larkins!!! i'm very excited. especially since i may have gotten ringworm from doing towels. :/ shane said i have to go to the doctor to see if that what it is because if it is i gotta get some cream for it. otherwise, it will get bigger & eat me! yikes! so i dunno. i really don't want to go back to the doctor's AGAIN. so maybe i'll give it a few days & see if it just goes away. hopefully, it's not ringworm & it will. so when i got back from my errands, jenna came down & we talked for awhile. then she & i went to get dinner at toca bell. she sang kareoke to the backstreet boys while we were there. it was funny. came back & had nothing to do. shane didn't either, so he told me to come over there & hang out, so i did. he was playing some football video game. two of his friends came by for awhile -- hiren & mike.... i think, lol. one of them played fuzion frenzy while shane played football. then shane & i decided to watch a movie. we watched *the american president*. shane was appalled that i had never seen it. it was so good! i really liked it. then we just hung out, watching espn, & talking. it was fun. he fell asleep on me at about 1, so i sent him to bed & came back to my room. i was tired myself, so i went to bed, too.

got up today. took a shower. & now i'm just sitting here. i might be going to lou's game tonight. (hopefully, the weather gets better, so i can go.) it won't be over 'till late, so i'll probably go out to aunt's in the morning. still gotta call her. that's about all today holds for me so far. i should probably do some homework.......... well, my tummy is calling for some lunch, so i'm gonna get some grub.

5 more days of class!!

5:57pm: *i heard you're doing okay, but i want you to know,
i'm addic--, i'm addicted to you.
i can't pretend i don't care when you don't think about me.
do you think i deserve this?
i tried to make you happy, but you left anyway.

i'm trying to forget that i'm addicted to you,
but i want it & i need it. i'm addicted to you.
now it's over, can't forget what you said.
& i never want to do this again.
heartbreaker.

since the day i met you & after all we've been through,
still addic--, i'm addicted to you.
i think you know that it's true
i'd run a thousand miles to get you.
do you think i deserve this?
i tried to make you happy. i did all that i could
just to keep you, but you left anyway.

i'm trying to forget that i'm addicted to you,
but i want it & i need it. i'm addicted to you.
now it's over. can't forget what you said.
& i never want to do this again.
heartbreaker.

how long will i be waiting? until the end of time.
i don't know why i'm still waiting. i can't make you mine.

heartbreaker, i'm addicted to you.*

10:58am: i got the whole june-thingy straightened out. thankfully! it wouldn't let me add my entry from today because it was a "backdate" or something crazy like that. but at any rate, i fixed it. yay!

10:54am: so here's a funny thing: according to my journal, it's already june!! :p i was counting days until *pirates of the caribbean* the other day & must not have gotten it back to may. it would be nice if it was already june 27. so yet again, ashley's journal has random queerness everywhere. i got my yahoo! id yesterday. (i think i hear a faint *thank you* in the background. hehe.) & so it came with a new e-mail addy. it said that i could check my pop e-mail through there, so i got excited & added my osu e-mail addy to that in hopes that i wouldn't have to use campusi anymore. well, surprise, surprise -- it's not working. :( i don't know why, but it's just not. so anyway, that's that.

yesterday was a pretty good day. i went to my two morning classes. they were boring as usual. went back to the room & grabbed a peanutbutter sandwhich & what was left of my cherry garcia icecream. (it was sooooooo good!) then headed off for work from 1:30-5. it was very, very borning. usually it's not so bad, but yesterday it was. maybe it was because i was trying to read my greek mythology the entire time. that didn't go well. & i have my quiz here in about an hour, so this should be interesting. then i went to econ. i swear that man is going to be the death of me. it was bad enough to begin with, but then lou left at 6:30 because she had practice. so i had to sit there & try to not fall into a coma from boredom by myself. i thought about just leaving, but i remembered my recent slogan as of late -- *what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger.* well, professor pants certainly tested my strength. & it came pretty close to killing me. & to make it really, really great, he didn't stop at 6:45 like usual. no. he wanted me to be in pain all the way until 7:15. i knew there was a reason there aren't any windows in that room. what's that word again? defenastrate.. def.. oh i don't know what it is, but it's what i was thinking yesterday. so then i went to drackett to pick up my check. (money, money, money!) it was my reimbursment for the money i spent for the program. i had chipotle for dinner. i dunno why, but it was calling my name in a bad way yesterday. then lou came back (with *the lord of the rings*!!) so we did our usual coke & popcorn routine & watched the first half of the movie. that movie is 3 hours long!! so we're going to finish it another day. then jill tried to get me to listen to john's song, but the stupid internet was hating me. then it was to bed for me.

which brings me to this morning. got up sometime after 9. just long enough to throw on my work shirt, pull my hair back, & brush my teeth. then i headed down to buckeye for my usual thursday breakfast. saw bair down there & talked to him for a minute. he had already been to class! ew. now here i am at work, really looking forward to this quiz. then i gotta make a run for cvs. not sure what the rest of the day will hold. probably a nap.

have a good one!
(hmm legolas. lou, i want one of those! hehe)

10:43pm: the away message last night said it all:
*ouch! my head..that's gonna leave a mark (or bump in this case)*
there's definitely a huge bump on the back of my head right now. i pulled a usual for me. i was opening the window & while trying to climb off my bed, (our beds are bunked by metal frames) i cracked my head off the bottom of johnna's. it hurt sooo bad. probably worse than most of the other times i've done it. i was holding my head on my lap, actually laughing because i get so mad at myself when i do that & i do it way too often. johnna thought i was crying, lol. so i'm pleading amnesia from that as to why i forgot my history of art map was due this morning (that & i forgot today was tuesday with yesterday off) & didn't do it. i, however, remembered upon getting into bed, yelled at myself for the second time last night, & set my alarm for a half hour early to do it this morning. i wasn't a very happy camper this morning.

but i managed to survive, get the map done, & be ready on time. went to class, then to mythology (boring!), & then to work. nothing too exciting. came back to my room. did homework. talked to shane online. had dinner. scanned new pix. omari came to hang out for awhile. then shane gave me crap again for not wanting to go eat with him. it's not my fault i'm never hungry when he asks! he just has bad timing. i pouted to him about ryan's internet being turned off & not getting to talk to him. then he said he found someone much nicer than me to go eat with him & left. which brings us to now. i am very tired & it's not even 11 yet. lou's not here. it's very quiet on the floor. this is weird. & boring! i need something to do. i think i'm gonna go roam the hall for someone to bother. i'm sure the boys have missed me terribly & want me to come visit, lol.

15 more days!!

10:43pm: 9 days of class left, whoo-waaa! it's very scary to think my first year of college is almost over. where did this year go?! i'm so, so, so excited to be almost done with these awful classes that i have this quarter. but i'm also very sad to be leaving all of my friends soon, especially knowing everyone from my floor will be so spread out everywhere next year. so i gotta enjoy these last three weeks as much as humanly possible while they last. (i also have to manage to get my butt load of work done & do incredibly well on my finals to help my grades.) it's going to be a busy 3 weeks, hehe.

saturday, i went to aunt's around 6ish. played with the dogs for awhile since i was there alone. well, i played with alex because i love him & he's so much fun. didn't so much with peanut because she's not so cute & doesn't really like me. (my aunt & uncle from back home were up & brought their dog.) everyone came back & we went to dinner at the texas roadhouse. my uncles had a little bit too much fun eating (or throwing) the peanuts. i made the mistake of wearing a hooded sweater & wound up with a bunch of shells in my hood. i ordered the chicken critters salad again. we had a brand new waitress & somehow she messed things up & they brought me out two salads. they asked if i wanted both & i said "free food?! box that baby up & i'll take it!" (it's now sitting in my fridge waiting for me to enjoy it probably tomorrow.) went back to aunt's & watched a movie. also finished up my laundry. it's so nice being able to do it out there.

got up sunday. aunt & i went to church. uncle worked & my other aunt & uncle are catholic so they didn't want to go with us. my uncle's son & gf from toledo came down for the day. we had a cookout at aunt's. i cooked on a grill for the first time ever! they claim i did a good job. at any rate, it was fun. then we went to easton mall for awhile. i love that place. i got two mini something-or-others from the nestle store. it was sooo good. (i accidently left the other one on the foot stool in the living room & alex got to have the other one lol.) went to see uncle at work. i've been there a couple times, but he did a tour again. we got to sit in the ambulance. brenda & i looked like little kids on a field trip. she was trying on all the equipment & he ran ekg's on both of us. he printed part out & i now have it. went to the olive garden for dinner. hmmm so good. then went back to the house. everyone left so it was just me & aunt.

today slept in again. yay! hung around the house for awhile. aunt made breakfast & i played with alex. then we decided to go to walt & brenda's for a cookout. (different brenda - my uncle's brother & sister-in-law.) that was fun. i got to see the girls again. they're so much fun. & kendra is so cute. she's learning how to talk. it's adorable. went back to aunt's, got my stuff, & headed back down to campus.

& here i am. i still have that buttload of work to be doing. gotta get on that. & i still haven't put my laundry away. oops, lol. oh well. tomorrow i only have two classes & work for an hour & a half so hopefully it will be a productive day after that.

until then............

3:20pm: what is with everyone taking english in the fall?! 40 english classes & i can't get into any of them. geeze. nonetheless i schedule last night at 9:45. it didn't go as well as i had hoped. it's turns out atronomy 161 is a prereq for 162, so i'm now taking that. (boo.) i actually got into the history class, which is good anyway but i found out i may be able to use that to petition my poli sci 100 to count. one less poli sci class for me! then i was stuck not knowing what else to take. i didn't want to take two sciences in one quarter because i hate science too much for that. so bio was out. considering what was left, i ended up with my stats 135 class. i have credit for math 150. i was supposed to be done with math forever! oh well. yeah, & it's at 8:30 in the morning. somebody out there really loves me don't they?

didn't do much else yesterday. hung around the dorm, watched some movies. slept in today. it was soooo nice. showered, ate, & did some stuff on the computer for awhile. i'm going out to pickerington tonight (if my aunt ever calls me back.) i'll come back tomorrow probably. then tomorrow & monday, i have a buttload of reading i need to get done. i only have two weeks left. i can't fall behind again now. that's about it for now. not a very exciting weekend.

happy memorial day/weekend!

6:43pm: oops..both of those posts were done in the pm-fashion. silly clock.

6:42am: who almost has a major at osu?! me, i do! i'm a (clears throat in dramatic way) PREMAJOR! woo-hoo. so yeah, i had my meeting with my *new* advisor. & she turned my world upside down lol. she said i should probably be in the family studies option of human development & family science, not the early childhood education. she also completely changed the classes i was about to schedule tonight. so right now, i'm faced with the decision of family & consumer science, yiddish, agricultural communication, or theatre five days a week. blah!!! i'm definitely gonna have to sleep on this one. so it's naptime for me. since i have nothing else to do tonight, i may just have to sleep until 9:45 when i have to schedule.

& for the record, yes, strong bad is awesome! (homestar is funny, but strong bad is definitely the best part of that website).
*welcome to the place where the tropical breezes blow......* :p

12:59am: i hate being on hold at this university. not just because i'm that impatient, but their choice of music & that guy that rambles on about nothing is so annoying! as one may have guessed at this point, i was put on hold yesterday while making all of my wonderful phone calls. the financial aid office had me on hold for thirty minutes! & of course the conversation lasted that of a whole two minutes. grrrr. oh well. i got almost everything i needed to organized or straightened out yesterday. i even got in with that advisor today, which really suurprised me. daniel yelled at me because he didn't read his mail & i wasn't aware that it was my job to tell him that yesterday was the deadline for our contract thingys. (it was in bold print! read your mail!!) yesterday wasn't too exciting beyond that. mainly sat here doing a lot of work all day. though i did get to talk to dan on aol. that was exciting. aside from like two e-mails, i haven't gotten to talk to him at all lately.

my alarm went off at 9 today, but i decided i was still really tired, would save my shower for later, & got back into bed. so i went to class looking so cute today lol. on the agenda for the next couple hours -- shower, eat lunch, read my 60 pages of mythology, & got to my appointment with that advisor. no plans for the rest of the day/night. hopefully something will come up though!

peace & all things strong bad (even though i can't find that stupid e-mail)

10:17am: i hate horror movies!! for some reason beyond me, i agreed to watch "thirteen ghosts" with johnna last night. we were supposed to watch "lord of the rings", but the crazy took it home! (she's going to bring it back for next week's movie night.) the movie itself was decent. the acting is some parts was pretty bad. i just hate ghosts, dead things, & that creepy music they play just before something bad is going to happen i have come to the conclusion that anyone who could think up something that demented should be locked up & never allowed to write again. (yes, i know i'm a big wuss.) anyway, so we started that at about 11:30, so it wasn't over until a little after 1 &, of course, i couldn't go to bed right after watching it. so i got online & the only person still awake ws ryan. i talked to him for awhile, which was interesting as usual. we played role reversal all night. first, he was the klepto & i had the dirty mind. then we switched & i was the klepto & he had the dirty mind. i guess it made more sense during the conversation lol. eventually, i remembered that i had to get up at 9 am & went to bed at about 3.

before that, my day had been uneventful, but very busy. i went to my two morning classes, went back to my room for lunch, came to work at 1:30, did homework the entire time (rather impressive for me), got a good bit of my reading for this week done, went to econ at 5:30 to take another quiz, went back to my room, found out about my financial aid stuff (my bill at the end of next year will only be about $6,000 total, yay!!), called the 'rents, worked out (even though my body was protesting), & did a little "spring cleaning". yikes. i am proud of myself for not being lazy for once.

today could be another story however. i'm at work right now yet again with nothing better to do than write in my journal, hehe. i will miss parts of this job next year. here 'till 11. then it's off to greek mythology to try desperately to stay awake. (side note: i'm loving greek myth right now because yesterday my prof said that everyone was having trouble with the exams, so we are getting bonus poiints on all of them!! just from the first two exams, my grade has now gone up an entire letter with absolutely no effort on my part! whoo-waaa!) then i have some no-fun stuff to do. gotta call res life office, financial aid office, reschedule an appointment with that advisor, & actually decide on classes for next quarter since i schedule tomorrow night. then it's a nice long nap for me. alrighty, time to go entertain myself with something else that isn't work, lol.

oh yeah, current music is because i was listening to the song just before i left my room & it's just such a great song.

12:49am: j: you're smart. not engineering smart. but in your own kind of way.
me: i'm everything 'in my own kind of way!'
:p

today was a great day! (i'm finding that i'm having a lot of those lately & it makes me very happy.) went to history of art recitation. got my exam back............. oh yeah, i got an 85!! a vast improvement on my previous 51. also went to greek myth lecture. that was very boring as usual. i think about 100-some people out of the 600-some in the class showed up. i dunno what's up with that, but nobody has been coming to class this week. oh well. went to work for an hour & a half. nothing too exciting. then i went to cvs to pick up my 3 rolls of film. that was very exciting. one of the rolls was the camera i got at convocation in september & i just finished it last week. lol. i've been very bad at taking pictures this year. though looking through them, not as bad as i though. i'm very happy to find that i actually have pix with almost everybody on my floor (that i talk to anyway). came back, chatted to people online for awhile, finished my presentation for class, ate dinner, & played the guitar for a little while. then i went to my last r.a. class ever! it was so much fun. nobody could stop laughing during meg's presentation after last time when matt counted her "like's". he started to do it again today. she got so frustrated she almost couldn't finish. aw, as much as i hated that class, i'm going to miss everybody in it. there were only 12 of us & we always had a lot of fun. then i came back & took bryan the double of the picture i took of him & wilbon like 6 months ago. he fake-cried for awhile. i comforted him. it was cute. then i went down to the boys' room. daniel & jason were there. they've been getting on me for not coming down as much anymore. i tried to explain to them it isn't my fault. i have too much work & i would much rather be down there then doing homework. hung out there for awhile. came back to my room. chatted to amanda online for awhile. i miss her!! i can't wait to go home & see all my friends. watched part of gilmore girls. did stomach exercises. after yesterday, i just didn't have it in me to go over to jesse. but i know i can count on lou to drag me there tomorrow. now i'm just sitting around for a little while before bed eating icecream (the best thing to do after exercising hehe.) oh but it's soooo good. nothing in this world quite like cherry garcia. my aunt e-mailed me after she talked to my dad. he said they were get back to her within a week if it's okay for me to stay & work for her this summer. i'll probably be calling them tomorrow to try & speed that process up a bit. $10/hr is calling my name. tomorrow should be another pretty uneventful one, but that's always open for change. :)

***also during my convo with j when i was trying to explain to him what a child life specialist is --
me: well, i'm glad you understand what i'm saying because i don't.***

1:00am: okay, so i thought all of the r.a. stuff i had to do last night would be really boring, but it turns out it wasn't so much & now it has me really excited. well, the opening thing was kinda cheesey, but then i got free food & we had a staff meeting, which was actually fun. we're going to have a really new staff next year. only 7 of this year's 20 r.a.s are returning. but i talked to a lot of the people i will be working with & they seem really nice. i want to find out what floor i'm going to be on & who the guys' ra on the floor will be & all that good stuff. i dunno when i will though. i got back from the staff meeting late, though. so i got out to drackett tower even later. plus, i forgot it was sunday & only the courtesy shuttle was running so i had to wait forever on the bus. geeze. lol. got back from rounds & what-not with adam at about 1 am-ish. was totally tired! & soooo hungry. all i had to eat yesterday was a peanutbutter sandwhich & some pretzels. but lou was already sleeping so i didn't want to have anything loud. i settled for some jello then went to bed.

today, i did my usual routine of history of art, mythology, & work 'till 4. came back & ran around the hall trying to use up the last of the pictures on my roll of film since i need the ones i took yesterday for my program tomorrow. that was rather entertaining. lou & i did a hiesman pose one. should be interesting. i dropped my 3 rolls off at cvs. stupid one hour photo isn't going to be done until tomorrow! what is that?! then we went to mcdonald's for dinner. yay! went to econ. thought about leaving. decided to stay. that's the only class i have a decent grade in right now. i'd hate to have that change because i'm too lazy to stay in class. so then i road the bus with lou to get her car. crazy stalker boy of her's was on there. we laughed about that. came back & did some work on my papers. went to work out at jesse owens with loula. wow - that was bad. i need to do that more often so i'm not so out of shape. came back & finished my papers. & here i sit now. talking to jill (who was turned into a worrywart) & ryan (who i'm talking to on the computer for the first time in about a week. totally not his fault though.) tomorrow won't be anything too exciting. class, work, my final presentation due in my ra class. then it's over!! then maybe working out, maybe studying with my ever-so great tutor for econ. (does anyone else think it's a little odd i'm being tutored in the class i'm doing the best in?! lol.) oh well. i gotta get to bed now.........