||"If You Fall" by Azure Ray
i'm sorry for the way i am.
i really wish it would snow.
its almost january, and no snow.
i hate it. can you believe it? i'm mad
at the weather. what nonsense.
but you know, not being a white Christmas,
i think i have right to be angry.
no, probably not. its probably me being
my stupid self.
i wish i could get over this.
get over what you ask? get over
whatever i feel inside, thats making
me hate. i just want to feel the way
i used to. the way i used to before
we moved. before everything go hard.
before highschool, before school even.
happy, like a little child, who doesn't know
what the world's really like. i wish i didn't
know. i wish i'd never find out. i wish
i could be that sheltered little girl forever.
so many problems. not just with me, but
with the world. everyone hates, its practically
a religion. people kill others, which isn't right.
what is wrong with us? have we all become so
obsessed with hating and killing, that we've
we've forgotten about what life is really supposed
to be about? that we've forgotten about love, and
harmony. we've all turned on each other. 'tis a shame
that we have to be like this. we're going to kill off
the whole human race before it's over. but i don't
think it'll ever be over.
there should be more, that i put here, such as
what i'm currently working on, which is religion.
i've been wondering, what if heaven and hell, and
possibly even God, don't exsist. what then? what if
all these years, we've all been mistaken? who knows.
its not like you can walk up to some random dead
person and ask them "Hey! Does God exsist? What about
Heaven, and Hell. Do they exsist too?!" that would be
slightly odd, but none the less, effective. but hey, let
people believe what they want. in a sense, all religions
are the same. they all teach of kindness, and good will
towards mankind. whether it be with one god/dess, or
several i guess. but the question i'm trying to answer
right now, is what do i believe. again, i'll have to get
back to you on that one, perhaps when i know the answer.
well seeing as how my thoughts evolved from myself, to the world's problems, to religion, i think we've made some good progress here tonight....er...today? i'm still struggling, but i think its better...
i wish one of these days, i could right about more than my life....but instead.
of those i've inspired...if i only concentrate on that, instead of myself.
i want to be a better person...i really do...