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Wednesday, May 16th, 2007
07:14pm 05/16/2007	1.Do you remember the person you first kissed? yes 2. Have you ever kissed someone you weren't dating? yes 3. Ever kissed an ex after you broke up? yes 4. Have you kissed anyone in your friends list? yes 6. Kissed someone with a gf/bf that wasn't you? possibly 7. Ever kissed someone younger than you? yes 8. Older than you? yes 9. Have you kissed someone you didn't like? yes 10. Ever made out with someone who was a really bad kisser? ohh yes -------I'VE--KISSED...--QUESTIONS-------- I've kissed/been kissed by somone: [x] on the cheek [x] on the forehead [x] on the nose [x] on the lips [x] tongue [x] in your room [ ] in the park [x] in public [ ] on a ride [x] on a bench [ ] upside down [x] sitting on their lap [x] laying down [x] in broad daylight [ ] at a fair [x] at night [x] in water [x] in the rain -------YOUR--LAST--KISS--QUESTIONS-------- 1. The last time you kissed someone? the saturday before last. 2. Was it a game? no 3.Was the person ur age? hahah no 4. Was it a friend, bf/gf/ etc. friend 5. Do you regret this kiss? no 6. How many people know about the kiss? it doesn't really matter
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Sunday, October 1st, 2006
06:14pm 10/01/2006	GUY-ISH [ ] You own a jersey. [ ] You like being sweaty. [x] You love mud. [x] You've played at least one sport on a team. [x] You've played more than one sport for fun. [ ] You hate pink. [x] You love hoodies and jeans. [x] Pranks are fun. [x] Dogs are better than cats. [x] It's funny when people get hurt. [ ] You've played with/against boys on a team. Total: 7 [x] Shopping is torture [x] Pulling heads off of dolls isn't creepy. [ ] You don't cry. [ ] Sad movies suck [x] Painting your nails is weird. [ ] You own a PS2. [ ]You own an XBox. [ ] You own a Gamecube. [ ] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter. [ ] You own a PSP. Total: 2 [x] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers. [ ] You watch Sports Center. [x] You watch sports on TV sometimes. [x] Gorey movies are cool. [ ] You aren't scared of anything. [ ] You take part in "male bonding." [ ] You only go to your dad for advice. [x] You own like a trillion baseball caps. [ ] You aren't sensitive. Total: 4 [ ] You like going to football games. [x] Night games rock. [ ] Spiders and bugs are cool. [x] You like to freak out your sister/brother. [ ] You used to/do collect baseball cards. [x] Baggy pants are cool. [ ] You get Sports Illustrated/other sports/guy magasine. [x] Fire is cool. [x] You don't babysit. [x] You're immature sometimes Total: 6 [x] It's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people. [ ] Green, black, red, blue or silver are your favourite colour(s). [ ] Sometimes romantic comedies are boring. [x] You don't care about your hair sometimes [ ] You love to go crazy and not care what people think. [x] Climbing trees is fun. [ ] Contact sports like football are fun too. Total: 3 Now add the numbers up and times by 2. I'm 44 % guyish. * GIRL-ISH [x] You wear lip gloss. [ ] You shop all the time. [x] You wear eyeliner. [x] You buy different coloured shirts. [ ] You wear halters and tube tops. Total: 3 [ ] You don't like shopping at Hot Topic. [x] You wear the colour pink. [ ] You consider cheerleading a sport. [ ] You hate wearing the colour black. [ ] You love hanging at the mall. Total: 1 [ ] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures. [x] You like wearing jewelry. [x] Skirts are a part of your wardrobe. [ ] You take a long time doing your hair. [ ] Shopping is one of your favourite hobbies. Total:2 [ ] You hate the movie Star Wars. [x] You cry in movies [x] You are/were in cheerleading, gymnastics or dance. [x] It takes you around 30 minutes to get dressed and put on make-up and accesories. [ ] You smile a lot more than you should. Total: 3 Add them up and multiply by 5. I'm 45% girly.
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Saturday, August 19th, 2006
01:05am 08/19/2006	10-20= goodie good 21-30= a little rebellious 31-40= getting there 41-50= rebel 51-60= bad kid 61-70= bad 71-80= wow 81-90= dang calm down 91-100= cant believe you made it this far 1) smoked 2) consumed alcohol 3) slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex 4) slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex 5) made out with someone of the opposite sex 6) made out with someone of the same sex 7) had someone in your room of the opposite sex 8) got drunk 9) been high 10) done drugs TOTAL: 10 11) taken pain killers 12) taken someone elses prescription medicine 13) lied to your parents 14) lied to a friend 15) snuck out of the house 16) done something illegal 17) cut yourself 18) hurt someone 19) wished someone to die 20) seen someone die TOTAL: 9, wtf 21) missed curfew 22) stayed out all night 23) eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself 24) been to a therapist 25) been to rehab 26) dyed your hair 27) recieved a ticket 28) been in a wreck 29) been to a club 30) been to a bar TOTAL: 4 31) been to a wild party 32) seen the Mardi Gras 34) had a spring break in Florida 35) sniffed anything 36) wore black nail polish 37) wore arm bands 38) wore t-shirts with band names 39) listened to rap 40) own a 50 cent cd TOTAL: 6 41) dressed gothic 42) dressed prep 43) dressed punk 44) dressed grunge 45) stole something 46) been too drunk to remember anything 47) blacked out 48) fainted 49) had a crush on your neighbor 50) had someone sneak into your room TOTAL: 8 51) snuck into some else's room 52) had a crush on someone of the opposite sex 53) been to a concert 54) watched t.v 55) been called a bad person 56) called someone a bad preson 57) installed speakers in your car 58) broke a mirror 59) showered at someone of the opposites sex's house 60) brushed your teeth with someone elses toothbrush TOTAL: 9 61) consider ludacris your favorite rapper 62) seen an R rated movie in theaters 63) cruised the mall 64) skipped school 65) had an eating disorder 66) had an injury 67) gone to court 68) walked out of a resteraunt without paying 69) caught something on fire 70) lied about your age TOTAL: 8 71) owned an apartment 72) cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend 73) cheated with someone 74) got in trouble with the police 75) talked to a stranger 76) hugged a stranger 77) kissed a stranger 78) rode in the car with a stranger 79) been sexually harrassed 80) been verbally harrassed TOTAL: 8 81) met face to face with someone you met online 82) stayed online for 12 hours straight 83) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours straight 84) watched tv for 12 hours straight 85) been to a fair 86) been called a bad influence 87) cursed 88) prank called someone 89) laid in the bed with someone of the opposite sex 90) cheated on a test TOTAL: 8 91) cheated on homework 92) held hands with someone of the opposite sex 93) been pushed into a pool 94) played pool 95) watched 5 hours of mtv straight 96) had a crush on someone 10 years older than you 97) had a crush on someone younger than you 98) wear eyeliner 99) skinny dipped 100) laughed at someone who was seriously hurt TOTAL: 8 Final total= 78. i'm bad, apparently.
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Monday, August 14th, 2006
10:41pm 08/14/2006	11-21 =ghetto 22-30 =average 31-40 =spoiled 41+ =rich/way upperclass PUT AN x BY THE THINGS YOU HAVE THEN ADD UP YOUR TOTAL [x] mother [x] father [ ] brother [x] sister [ ] nephew [ ] niece [ ] Cell phone [ ] Own bathroom [x] Own room [x] 2 story house [ ] Swimming pool [ ] Guest room. [ ] laptop or desktop in your room TOTAL: 5 [ ] full or bigger bed [ ] More than 5 pairs of shoes [ ] sunglasses/shades [ ] watch [x] mp3 player/iPod [ ] ps2 [ ] Xbox [ ] nintendo DS or PSP [ ] GameboyAdvance [ ] gamecube TOTAL: 1 [ ] Basketball hoop [ ] Air hockey table [ ] Pool table [ ] Ping pong table [x] foosball table [ ] Trampoline [ ] Own a surfboard/wakeboard/snowboard/skateboard etc.. TOTAL:1 [x] Nightstand [x] Stereo in bedroom [x] DVD player in room [ ] Have something from Prada/Armani/ Louis Vuitton/Versace/Vivienne Westwood/Coach/gucci [x yeah, because i have a fucking job. this doesnt count.] Gets 100+ each month [ ] Shops at A&F << [ ] owns a gucci ,dooney & bourke, louis vuitton, coach, guess something [ ] Wears Lacoste [ ] Parents give you credit card TOTAL: 3 [x] Job [ ] Goes shopping at least once a week [ ] Expensive cologne/perfume [x] AIM [ ] Camera [ ] electric/gas scooter [ ] Guitar/drums/Bass guitar [x] piano/keyboard [ ] Any other instrument [ ] Hammock [ ] Been on a cruise. [x] traveled out of the state (or, the uk) [ ] Personal trainer(do i look like i have one) [ ] expensive jewelry [x] Met a celebrity TOTAL: 5 [x] straightener/curling iron [ ]Been to a batting cage [ ] 100+ on you right now ? [ ] Credit card or atm card,debit card [x] Been to Europe [ ] been to Colorado [ ] Been to Hawaii [x] Been to NYC. [ ] Been to Chicago. [ ] Been to LA [ ] Been to Florida. [ ] Been to Cancun. [ ] Been to the Bahamas TOTAL: 3 [xpaidforitmyselfthisdoesntcounteither] car [x] pet [ ] Ranch or cabin [x I think five...] been to 5+states in the US [x] 20+ buddies on myspace [ ] more than one house ToTAL: 3 [x] home cooked meal almost every day. [x] Been in a limo [ ] Been in a helicoptor [ ] video on my phone/camera/own a camcorder [ ] Own a laptop TOTAL: 2 total total: 23. I'm nearly ghetto!
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Friday, August 11th, 2006
11:16pm 08/11/2006	i wasted my summer. [x] went to your school for any reason [x] had a job [x] read a book [ ] looked through your homework from last year. [ ] babysat total: 3 [x] went on myspace [ ] looked through your text books for next year [x] woke up before 11 am [ ] went to bed before 11pm [x] stayed in your house for 24 hours total: 3 [x] got sick [ ] broke a bone [ ] started studying for next year [ ] went to grandmas house [x] were involved in a summer club total: 2 [ ] did NOT go on vacation [x] did NOT go to a festivial [x] did NOT go to a theme park (six flags, disney world) [x] did NOT go to a concert [ ] did NOT hang out w/ your friends total: 3 [ ] did NOT go swimming in a pool [ ] did NOT go to a party [x] did NOT do anything for the 4th of july [x] did NOT go to a lake [x] did NOT go to a BBQ. total: 3 TOTAL SCORE: 14
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Sunday, July 16th, 2006
11:13pm 07/16/2006	the pain in my right leg is entirely unbearable 1.DON'T TAKE IT IF YOU'RE GOING TO LIE. bueno. 2.WHAT KIND OF SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? verde, para mi trabajo. 3. WOULD YOU KISS ANYONE ON YOUR FRIEND'S list? si, muchos. 4. DO YOU HAVE "A THING" FOR ANYONE ON YOUR TOP LIST? si 5. HOW MANY PEOPLE ON YOUR LIST DO YOU KNOW IN REAL LIFE? 98% probablemente 6. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT TO HAVE? ningun. por favor. 7. DO YOU HAVE A GOOD RELATIONSHIP WITH BOTH YOUR PARENTS? por lo general, si. 8. WHAT NAME WOULD YOU WANT TO HAVE BESIDES THE ONE YOU HAVE? Arianna 10. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST B-DAY? heh... nada. 11. WHAT'S YOUR CURRENT RINGTONE ON YOUR PHONE? vibrato 12. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP TODAY? 10 15. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN'T WAIT TO DO? consiga puesto 16 .WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME U SAW YOUR MOM? hace... 5 minutos 17. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU WISH YOU COULD CHANGE ABOUT YOURSELF? demasiado. 18. IF YOU HAD 500,000 DOLLARS... WHAT 5 THINGS WOULD YOU DO WITH IT? =] comprar un caballo. x5 20. HAVE YOU EVER TALKED TO TOM? no. 21. WHAT COLOR UNDERWEAR ARE YOU WEARING? verde, amarillo, y rosita 22. LAST THING YOU ATE? ...medicacion? 23. WHATS YOUR FAVORITE MONTH? julio 24. YOUR LEAST FAVORITE MONTH? noviembre 25. WHAT'S THE LAST PIECE OF CLOTHING YOU BORROWED FROM SOMEONE? una camisa de mi hermana 26. WHO IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES RIGHT NOW? evan-fucking-sharko 27. MOST VISITED WEBPAGE? dmv 28. LAST PERSON YOU TEXT MESSAGED? Adria 29. LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU SAD. vegas 33. HAVE YOU BEEN TO EUROPE? si 35. IF SOMEONE YOU HATED DIED, WHAT WOULD YOU DO? bailar 36. HAVE YOU KISSED SOMEONE IN THE PAST WEEK? no 37. IF YOU COULD TELL YOUR LAST EX SOMETHING WHAT WOULD YOU SAY? morir. 38. WHAT DO YOU THINK YOUR EX WOULD SAY TO YOU? "¿por que?" 40. WOULD YOU GET BACK WITH YOUR LAST EX IF YOU COULD? coja no. 41. WHO HAS BEEN YOUR FAVORITE EX? No estoy en una posición a decir 42. WOULD YOU GET BACK WITH YOUR EX FROM QUESTION 41? si 44. HOW MANY PIERCINGS DO YOU HAVE? 4 46. IF YOU COULD GET PIERCED ANYWHERE WHERE WOULD YOU GET IT DONE? ...en ninguna parte 47. DO YOU SMOKE? no mas 48. WHAT ARE YOU MOST SCARED OF? "care bears" 49. DO YOU LIKE BEING ON STAGE WITH A BUNCH OF PEOPLE WATCHING YOU? no 50. DO YOU ENJOY THE RAIN? si today we salute you, Jersey girls. May your unnecessarily expensive digital camera always hang high above your head, capturing pointless moments of you and your heavily made-up friends making awkward facial positions. Forever shall you be respected for passing around the Vodka bottle like its Kool-aid and "not recalling" embarrassing events; all the while sensitive to breaking the fake shards of plastic you call a nail. Sure, these nails need to be well manicured every few weeks that is after, falsely tanning your skin and spending money like its your job. But this is a small price to pay in return of the loads of positive male attention headed in your direction. So grab Daddy's credit card, put on that shorter than short mini skirt, let your push-up bra-elevated boobs hang out of your shirt, and crack open an ice-cold Coors Lite, you Jersey girl, you deserve one, for all of your hard work and natural beauty
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Sunday, July 2nd, 2006
07:44am 07/02/2006	I guess I'm not much of anything -=-Jock-=- [ ] You've played a school sport. [ ] You've been on a school varsity team. [ ] You've been on JV [X] You've been doing sports for years. [X] You know your closest friends from sports. [ ] You are physically fit. [ ] People would not call you "lazy." [ ] You eat healthy. [ ] You own at least one nalgene water bottle. [ ] You want/have already recieved a scholarship for playing that sport. [ ] You like to work out. [ ] You are a member of a fitness club. [ ] You take winning in P.E. class more seriously than others. [x] You don't mind getting down and dirty. [ ] You don't have modesty in the locker room. [ ] You tend to whip others with wet towels. [x] Your shoe collection consists of mostly sneakers. [x] You've won an award for a sport's achievement. [ ] 4 shots of tequila doesn't even phase you. Total = 5. I consider riding a sport. -=-Outcast-=- [x] You dont have very many friends. [ ] Often times, teachers forget your name. [ ] You were always picked last for kickball. [x] You don't like to talk a lot. [X] You tend to avoid mass social activities (i.e.- dances, ice cream socials, football games, etc.) [ ] You dont participate in any extracurricular activities. [ ] All you wish for is to move away or get a fresh start. [x] Your friends have blown you off before. [x] You sit alone in most of your classes. [ ] You have a feeling that once you leave high school or college, nobody is going to remember you. [X] You hold interest in activities that other people find strange. [ ] People dont find you friendly. [ ] You hold extreme hate towards another high school stereotype (i.e- jocks, preps, goths, etc.) [ ] You eat alone at lunch. Total = 6 -=-Party Girl/Boy-=- [x] Lets face it: you like to party. [x] You party every other weekend. [ ] or every weekend? [ ] You've been going to frat house parties since early high school. [ ] You're the defending beer bong champion. [ ] You know the best hook-ups in the state. [ ] Everybody whose anybody goes to the same parties you go to. [ ] You've hooked up at parties. [x] You spend time getting ready for parties. [ ] You've passed out from being too drunk. [x] You've partied all night. [x] You've snuck out of the house to party. [ ] Actually, your parents really dont give a shit if you party or not. [x] You're pretty much nocturnal. [ ] You like to go clubbing. [ ] You and your friends always party hop. [x] You've crashed a party before. [ ] One way or another, you've wound up naked in front of everybody at a party [ ] You've thrown up from drinking too much. [ ] You've done something that you regret at a party. [ ] You can dance. [x] You've had a hangover. [x] You're friends with a lot of people older than you. Total = 9 -=-Scene Kid-=- [x] You know what sXe and hXc actually mean. [ ] You have a obsession with dinosaurs, robots, and Pokemon. [no, jeffrey dahmer, dear.] You idolize Jeffrey Starr. [ ] People have called you scene before. [ ] You spend at least an hour getting ready to take pictures of yourself for your MySpace. [ ] You have a mirror pic. [x] You listen to bands that most people have never heard of. [ ] You enjoy going to shows. [ ] You only go to shows for the sake of going to shows, not the music. [ ] Your hair is multicolored. [ ] You accessorize your hair with kiddie barrettes and bows. [ ] Fashion is one of the most important things that define you. [ ] You mosh. [ ] You often mix vintage with modern. [ ] Your myspace picture captions are sad lyrics to sad songs. [ ] All of your friends are scene. [ ] You dont know many of the people on your friends list in person: you just added them because they were scene. [ ] You take angled pictures of yourself. [x] You enjoy photography. Total = 3 -=-Prep-=- [ ] You pop the collar [ ] You won't go near the Goths [x] You own at least one thing from a designer store. [x] You are very clean cut. [ ] You are squeamish. [ ] People have called you preppy before. [ ] You never leave the house without putting on cologne/perfume [ ] Lot of money. [ ] You know who LC is. [ ] You watch shows like The OC, The Real World, The Hills, and Laguna Beach. [ ] One favorite stores are Abercrombie & Fitch or Hollister. [ ] Youre afraid to set foot into Hot Topic. [ ] (Girls) You carry a purse wherever you go. [ ] You will not take alcohol straight up. [x] You need to wake up at least an hour before school so you can get ready. [x] (Girls) You do not leave the house without make up. [ ] You are content overall with how your life is going. =] [x] You constantly text. Total = 5 -=-Band Geek-=- [x] You have played an instrument before. [ ] You still play an instrument. [ ] You are/were in Jazz Band. [ ] You are/were in Marching Band [ ] You've never dated anybody outside of Band. [ ] Most of your friends are in band. [x] The band room/band hall is your second home. [x] You enjoy listening to classical music on occasion. [ ] You aspire[d] to be a Drum Major. [ ] You've made out with somebody on a band bus or at a band competition. [ ] You have trouble getting your non-band friends to go near the band room. [ ] Band is your favorite class [ ] You have been to band camp. [x] You walk in step with all your friends. [ ] You talk about band constantly. [ ] You know that American Pie has got it all wrong. [ ] You hate rap music. [ ] Marching Season is your favorite time of year. [x] When you go to football games, you don't really pay attention to the game itself. [ ] Your favorite jokes are band jokes. [ ] You know it's not about the bloods and the Kryps: it's the brass and the woodwinds. Total = 5 -=-Thespian-=- [x] You have seen a school play. [x] You have seen a Broadway musical. [ ] You like to act. [ ] You have participated in a school play. [x] You have participated in a play outside of school. [ ] You have gone to the Thespian Conference (State or International or both) [ ] You get pissed off when people make that thespian, did you say lesbian? joke. [x] You have done tech. [ ] You know that you cannot touch anybody else's props. [ ] You have played in the pit orchestra for a musical. [x] You have been to a cast party. [ ] You are in a thespian troupe. [x] You often sing show tunes at the top of your lungs. [ ] You know who Idina Menzel and Johnathan Larson are. [x] At one point in your life, you were obsessed with RENT. [ ] You do not have a personal bubble. [x] You actually understand Shakespeare. [ ] It's like normal makeup onstage makeup. [ ] You have been a lead. [ ] You met a lot of your better friends through theatre. Total = 8 -=-Overachiever-=- [ ] You participate in a lot of extracurricular activities. [x] You have a part-time job. [ ] You have straight As. [x] You are in mostly honors/IB/AP classes. [ ] You do not procrastinate. [ ] You have scored a 5 on an AP test. [ ] You do not have very much down time. [ ] You are very organized. [x] You always have a thousand things going on at once. [ ] You are in a long-term relationship. [ ] You go to an Ivy League School. [x] In your extracurriculars, you hold leadership positions. [ ] You have been on Student Council. [ ] You are/were the class president. [ ] You are/were a class officer. [ ] You were the Salutatorian for your class. [ ] You are/were the Valedictorian for your class. [x] People have told you that you didn't have a life. [ ] You are getting/have already received the IB Diploma. [ ] You get mad when you get anything lower than an A on anything. Total = 5 -=-Slacker-=- [ ] They have ups and downs. [x] You always wait until the last minute to do big projects. [x] A lot of things half-assed. [x] You are an overall procrastinator. [ ] You tend to do your homework when youre watching TV. [ ] It takes you ages to turn your job applications in. [x] You are often late to school/work. [x] You dont turn in a lot of your work. [x, minus the TV] You spend the majority of your time watching TV, the computer or going on Myspace when you could be doing something more productive. [x] You sleep in past noon on the weekends and during the summer. [ ] You do not get out of your pajamas unless you have to leave the house. [ ] You could walk, but you'll just drive. [x] You have fallen asleep during class before. [x] Friends have called you lazy. [ ] Life is hard when you lose the remote & you have to walk a million miles over to the TV and change the channel. [ ] When you hang out with your friends, the majority of your time is spent playing video games or doing something where neither of you have to stand up. [ ] You have eaten an entire pint of ice cream in one sitting. [ ] You have sat through an entire running marathon of a show before. Total= 9 -=-Goth-=- [x] Your wardrobe consists of mostly black things. [ ] When you have the money, you shop at Hot Topic. [x] You think tattoos are hot. [ ] You think piercings are hot. [x] You don't get along with your parents. [ ] You have/want to dye/dyed your hair an exotic color. [ ] You've styled your hair in liberty spikes. [x] Sometimes you ponder the meaning of life and death. [x] You like to write dark poetry. [ ] You are into S&M. [ ] You have a pair of oversized black pants. [x] At one point in your life, you liked Foamy, Happy Bunny, Emily the Strange, and the Happy Tree Friends. [x] You listen to grunge. [ ] You have a messenger bag with buttons up and down the straps. [ ] You smoke cigarettes. [ ] You will only date other Goths. [ ] You don't really give a shit what people think about you. [ ] Overly happy people scare you. [ ] You like black makeup & nail polish best. Total = 7 -=-Nerd-=- [ ] You actually study for tests and quizzes. [ ] You have straight As. [ ] You haven't had any luck with the opposite sex. [ ] You are into WoW, Magic Cards, and Halo. [x] You overanalyze jokes to the point where they aren't funny anymore. [ ] Your mom buys your clothes for you. [x] You actually answer the questions in class. [ ] You sit front row center in all of your classes to get the best learning experience. [ ] You miss school during the summer. [ ] You wear your pants all the way up your waist. [ ] You prefer sweatpants to jeans. [ ] You have a pocket protector in your shirt with pens and a calculator in it. [ ] You let cute boys/girls take advantage of you & copy your homework in hopes of getting noticed. [x, yes and i fixed some of them] You've noticed some of the spelling and grammar mistakes in this survey. [x] People always cheat off you during tests. [ ] Your parents pack your lunch for you every day. [x] You wear/should be wearing glasses. Total= 5 -=-Gangsta-=- [ ] You actually are black. [x] You know who the bloods and the Kryps are. [ ] You wear doo-rags. [ ] You actually grew up in the ghetto. [ ] You can freestyle. [x] You drive down the street blaring your music. [ ] Your ride is pimped out with stereo boosts. [ ] You can break dance. [ ] You say nigga a lot. [x] You talk too fast for people to understand you. [ ] You are pretty chill with life. [ ] You wear your jeans oversized and below your ass. [x] Old school rap is the best. [ ] You know that Tupac will never die. [ ] You wear bling [ ] You have/want a custom grill. [ ] You have custom rims on your tires. [ ] You are actually in a gang. [ ] You are always big pimpin Total = 4 -=-Emo-=- [ ] You often have trouble convincing people that you aren't emo. [ ] You comb your hair over one of your eyes. [ ] You flip your hair often. [x] You have dark-rimmed glasses. [ ] If you're a boy, people often complain about your pants being too tight. [ ] You dont really smile too often. [x] You blog often. [ ] You never smile in pictures. [x] You listen to Thursday [ ] You're too much of a pussy to be a goth. [x] You own a lot of band t-shirts. [ ] You go to a lot of shows. [ ] You only go for emo/scene boys and girls. [x] It doesn't take very much to make you cry. [ ] You have played all the Emo Games (www.emogame.com) [x] You have worn black eyeliner before. [ ] You own a bandana which you wear in your hair. [ ] You have dark hair. Total= 6
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Tuesday, June 27th, 2006
05:24pm 06/27/2006	one wish you know what I wish would happen? that people would start fucking learning how to spell words before they write them down. it would be greatly appreciated.
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Wednesday, June 21st, 2006
01:29am 06/21/2006	COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA COJA Current Mood: sad Current Music: goo goo dolls
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Monday, June 19th, 2006
09:00pm 06/19/2006	en espanol un veces mas! Time Started: 9:01pm 1.) When showering, do you start the water and then get in or get in then start the water? agua antes de duchar 2.) Do you read the labels on the shampoo bottle? si estoy aburrida 3.) Do you moan in the shower like the people on the herbal essence commercial? dios mio no 4.) Have you ever showered with someone of the opposite sex? si senor 5.) Have you ever been forced to shower with one of your siblings? cuando estaba una nina 6.) Have you ever brushed your teeth in the shower? si 7.) Have you ever dropped your soap on your foot? no senor 8.) How old do you look? depende al dia 9.) How old do you act? no se 10.) What's the last song you sang? "Zoe Jane" 11.) Have you recently become a member of anything? las rubias 12.) What are your plans for the weekend? voy a estar en nueva york para una fiesta 13.) Do you kiss with your eyes opened or closed? cerrado 14.)Have you ever rode a mechanical bull? ya no 15) Do you ever intentionally vomit after eating? si, cuando como demasiado alimento 16.) If you were working on a pirate ship, what would you most likely be? muerta 17.) Have you ever called anyone a slut? muchos tiempos 18) Have you ever been called a slut? mira, numero 17 19). Have you ever smuggled something into America? no 20.) Does playing a guitar make someone more attractive? a veces 21.) Do you live in a city with a good sports team? haha coja no 25). Do you have more enemies or more friends? no se... no cuido... 26.) Have you ever sent an anonymous letter? si 27.) Can you fix your own car? si... soy un hombre 28.) Have you ever turned someone down for a date? si 29.) Are you smarter than your friends? algunos 30.) Have you ever lied to your friends? ¿por que no? 31.) Have you ever been to jail? todavia no 33) Do you like the smell of beer? no 34.) Have you ever died or killed someone in a dream? he matado mucha gente 35.) Have you ever given to charity? si, algunas veces 36.) Would you kill a dog for $1000? no! 37.) Do you sometimes get depressed? ¿quien no? 38.) Do you live with your parents? si 39.) Do you have plans for your future? algos X MARKS THE SPOT You are [] short, under 5'4 [x] 5'4"-5'5" [] 5'5"-5.6" [] 5'6.5 - 5'7 '' [] 5'7" - 6'0 [] tall 6'1 and up NATURALLY [x] blonde [] redhead [] brunette [x] dirty blonde [] brownish []dark brown [] black [x] blue-eyed [] brown-eyed [x] green-eyed [x] Hazel-eyed [] gold/gray-eyed [x] silver/gray- eyed [x] blue/green-eyed [x] green/gray-eyed [x] blue/gray-eyed [x] they change colors haha [x] glasses [] contacts [] neither [] short hair [X]medium hair [] long hair Your favorite color(s) are? [x] red [] khaki [] aqua [] pink [] hot pink [x] yellow [x] black [x] green [] lime green [x] blue [] white [] turquoise [] silver [] purple [] brown [x] orange [] grey [] fushcia [] maroon [] gold [] teal [] clear [] bronze [] I don't really care Some things you've done? [x] ice skating [x] hiking [x] kayaking [] rafting [] water skiing [x]camping [x!] horseback riding []bodysurfing and skin boarding []snowboarding []skiing [x] dancing [x]skateboarding [] cheerleading [] lacrosse [] street hockey [x] gymnastics [x]martial arts [] flag/rifle/baton spinning [x] swimming [] wakeboarding [] 4 wheeling Your personality is sometimes... [] talkative [x] shy [x] funny [x] serious [x] laid back [] strict [x] hyper [x] weird [] ditzy [x] sarcastic [] slow you like listening listening to? [] pop []country [] Christian [] orchestral [x] techno [] oldies [] opera [x] 80's punk rock [] disco [x] rap [x] classic rock [x] punk [x] metal [x] screamo [] reggae [x] rock [x] alt./indie rock [x] brit/foreign rock [] beachmusic []a little something from everything The pets you have HAD? [] cat(s) [x] dog(s) [] lizard(s) [x!!!!] rat(s) [] ferret(s) [x] bunny(ies) [x] fish [] duck(s) [x!!!!] horse(s) [] bird(s) [] frog (s) [] hermit crab [] turtle [] hamster [] snake [] gerbil [] guinea pig [] pig [] goat [] chinchilla [] tarantula [] geese [] baby chicks [] none [] hedgehog [] snail [] piranha [] seagull [] newt [] other Clothing Brands you like? []Delia's [] American Eagle [] Hollister [] Buckle [] Abercrombie & Fitch [x] Target [] Wal-mart [] Wet Seal [] Forever 21 [] O'neil [x] Pac Sun [] Gap [] Banana Republic [] Aeropostale [x] Dickies [x] Quicksilver [] Anchor Blue [x] Guess [] Lucky Brand [] Champs [] Salvation army/goodwill/value village [] Old Navy [x] Name brands [x] Victorias secret [x] whatever is at the thrift store [] Eddie Bauer [x] Hot Topic [] BCBG [] ARDEN B [] Anything Shoe Brands? []flip-flops [] Rainbows [] Nike [] Adidas [] Reebok [] Billabong [] Roxy [] Puma [] Jack purcells [] Uggs [x] Etnies [] Reefs [x] Converse [] K Swiss [] Adio [x] DC [] Path [x]Steve Madden [] Timberlands [x] Vans [x] if I like something a lot I'll buy it [] New Balance [] LEI [] Payless [] DVS [] Es [x] Macbeth [] NINE WEST [x] Diesel Your confessions: [x] I'm afraid of silence [] I am really ticklish [x] I'm afraid of the dark [] I've collected comic books [x] I sometimes shut out others [] I open up to others TOO easily [x] I read the newspaper [] I love Disney movies [x] I am a sucker for gorgeous eyes [] I don't kill bugs [] I have "x"s in my screen name [] I bake well [x] I have worn pajamas to class [] I love Martha Stewart [] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS [x] I am self-conscious [x] I love to laugh [] I can't swallow pills [x] I bite my nails [] I play computer games when I'm bored [] I have gotten lost in the city [x] I have gone out in public in my pajamas [] I have made out in an elevator [] I have been skydiving [] I have been bungee jumping [x] I have bitten someone [] I have dressed up like the opposite sex [] I have egged a house/car/person [] I have smashed a car [] I have been fired [] I have been skinny dipping Have you ever... [x] kissed in the rain [x] danced in the rain [x] seen a shooting star [x] proposed to anyone [x] been proposed to [x] Gotten stitches [x] Eaten Sushi [x] Gotten the chicken pox [x] Ridden in a taxi [] Been on a cruise ship [] Driven over 400 miles in one day [] Been on a Plane by yourself [x] had surgery [x] seen a movie more than 3 times in the theater. [x] been on stage [] gotten a black eye [x] memorized all the dialogue in a movie [] watched an entire baseball game Do you like... [x] old movies [x] musicals [x] blasting music in your car [x] foreign foods [] Pokemon [] Christmas time [] donuts [x] animals [x] coffee [x] tea TWO'S OF EVERY KIND Two Names You Go By Other Than Your Real Name: Ari, Lena Two Things That Scare You: Care Bears, cosas muertas Two of Your Everyday Essentials: telefono, libros Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now: pantalones, camisa Two Things You Want in a Relationship other than Real Love: sexo buen, reir mucho Two Things that Appeal to You In a Guy/Girl.: ¿fisicamente o mentalmente? Two Things You Want Really Badly una caballa, un chico Two Places You Want to go on Vacation: francia e inglaterra Two Things You Are Thinking About Now: musica, layla Two favorite animals: caballos y ratas y perros y... Two Reasons you're doing this survey: no se Spell your name without vowels: ct mddgh//rnn frch How many pairs of jeans do you own?: umm... cinco? Last song heard on the radio? "I want you to want me" -- cheap trick What's for dinner tonight? pasta Are you happy with your life right now? podia ser mejor Tell me a secret about one of your siblings. ella no tiene un cerebro Who did u last call on your cell phone? vegas/layla [Do you own a...] - PS2?: no - XBOX ?: no - PSP?: no -Gamecube: no - SIDEKICK?: no - DIGITAL CAMERA?: no -Ipod? si In what state or country do you want to go to school after high school? nueva york Do you shop at stores like Hollister, Abercrombie? no senor How do you make money? trabajo mucho Last thing you bought over 50 dollars? telefono... hace seis meses How's the weather?: caliente When do you start summer break?: junio Are you missing someone right now? si... siempre One word to describe you? loca Favorite pair of shoes: doc martens Do you own big sunglasses?: no Do you find yourself attractive?: a veces Why is the first person in your Top 8 in the spot?: su comienzo del nombre con "a" What would you rather be doing right now?: salir de mi casa What should you be doing right now? ¿nada? Last text message you recieved? "Am* at the corner" Who did you hug today? nadie Q: How many beds did you lay in yesterday? dos Q: What color shirt are you wearing?: verde Q: Name one thing that you do everyday? respiro Q: Whats the color of your bedroom walls? gris y azul q: How much cash do you have on you right now? hah! nada Q: Whats your favorite sport? la eqitacion Q: I cant wait till..? salgo de aqui Q: When was the last time you saw your dad? hace veinte minutos Q: Who got you to join myspace? ashley Q: What did you have for dinner last nite? no se Q: Is Tom on your friends list? no Q: Look to your left. Whats there? otra computadora Q: What website do you visit the most? poetrydmv.com Q: Do you have plants in your room? no Q: Does anything hurt on your body right now? mi garganta Q: Where was your last taxicab ride in? seattle Q: Do you own a picture phone? no Q: Whats your favorite starbucks drink? no me gusta el Starbucks Q: Recent time you were really upset? el sabado pasado Q: Ever been cheated on? probablemente Last person you.. 1. Saw: padre 2. Hugged: layla 3. IM: shelly 4. Song you listened to: "blow away" 5. What are you doing tonight: ya no se 6. What are you going to eat for lunch tomorrow: no cuido... posiblemente nada Time ended - 9:36 Current Mood: bored
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Thursday, June 8th, 2006
02:19pm 06/08/2006	bienvenidoes a mi vida en espanol, porque soy una cula. biologia de AP esta terminada para siempre! mi final de biologia no estaba muy dificil, contrario a lo que pense. no puedo estar mas contenta con mi vida ahorita. solo tenemos seis dias mas en escuela. entonces endendido a la graduacion. voy probablemente a llorar. demasiados de mis amigos estan saliendo. =[ finales para el resto de este ano de escuela: manana: historia lunes: clase de salud martes: matematicas e ingles miercoles: historia de arte/dibujo y pintar II Current Mood: content Current Music: The Mars Volta
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Monday, May 22nd, 2006
05:21pm 05/22/2006	I'm the cause of all their crime and when theyre drunk , I pour the wine [1] I have read a lot of books. [ ] I have been on some sort of varsity team. [ ] I have run more than 2 miles without stopping. [2] I have been to Canada. [3] I have been to Europe. [4] I have watched cartoons for hours. [5] I have tripped UP the stairs. [6] I have fallen down an entire flight of stairs. [ ] I have been snowboarding/skiing. [7] I have played ping pong. [8] I swam in the ocean. [9 (yeah, when I was like 8)] I have been on a whale watch. [10] I have seen fireworks. [11] I have seen a shooting star. [ ] I have seen a meteor shower. [ ] I have almost drowned. [12] I have been so embarrassed I wanted to disappear [13] I have listened to one CD over & over & over again. [14] I have had stitches. [ ] I have had frostbite. [ ] I have licked a frozen pole and got stuck there. [15] I have stayed up til 2 doing homework/projects. [16] I currently have a job. [17] I have been ice skating. [ ] I have been rollerblading. [18] I have fallen flat on my face [19] I have tripped over my own two feet. [20] I have been in a fist fight. [ ] I have played videogames for more than 3 hours straight. [21] I have watched the power rangers. [ ] I attend Church regularly. [22] I have played truth or dare. [23] I have already had my 16th birthday. [ ] have already had my 17th birthday. [24] I've called someone stupid. And meant it. [25] I've been in a verbal argument. [26] I've cried in school. [27] I've played basketball in gym. [ ] I've played baseball on a team. [ ] I've played football on a team. [ ] I've played soccer on a team. [ ] I've done cheerleading on a team. [ ] I've played softball on a team. [ ] I've played volleyball on a team. [ ] I've played tennis on a team. [ ] I've played lacrosse on a team. [ ] I've been on a track or cross country team. [28] I've been swimming more than 20 times in my life. [ ] I've bungee jumped. [29] I've climbed a rock wall. [ ] I've lost more than $20. [30] i've called myself an idiot. [31] I've called someone else an idiot. [32] I've cried myself to sleep. [33] I've had (or have) pets. [ ] I've owned a spice girls CD. [34] I've owned a britney spears CD. [ ] I've owned an N*Sync CD. [ ] I've owned a backstreet boys CD [35] I've mooned someone. [36] I've sworn at someone in authority. [37] I've been in the newspaper. [ ] I've been on TV. [ ] I've been to Hawaii. [38] I've eaten sushi. [39] I've been on the other side of a waterfall. [40] i've watched all of the Lord of the Rings movies [41] I've watched all the Harry Potter movies. [ ] I've watched all of the Rocky movies. [ ] I've watched the 3 stooges. [ ] I've watched "Newlyweds" Nick & Jessica. [42] I've watched Looney Tunes. [43] I've been stuffed into a locker [44] I've been called a geek. [45] I've studied hard for a test and got a bad grade. [46] I've not studied at all for a test and aced it. [47] I've hugged my mom within the past 24 hrs. [48] I've hugged my dad within the past 24 hours. [49] Ive met a celebrity/music artist. [51] Ive written poetry. [ ] I've been arrested. [52] i've been tickled till i cried [53] I've tickled someone else until they cried. [54] I've had/have siblings. [55] I've been to a rock concert. [56] I've listened to classical music and enjoyed it. [57] I've been in a play. [58] Ive been picked last in gym class. [59] I've been picked first in gym class. [60] I've been picked in that middle-range in gym class. [61] I've cried in front of my friends. [62] I've read a book longer than 1,000 pages. [ ] ive played halo2. [ ] ive freaked out over a sports game. [ ] I've been to Alaska. [ ] I've been to China. [ ] I've been to Spain. [ ] I've been to Japan. [63] I've had a fight with someone on AIM [64] I've had a fight with someone face-to-face. [65] I've had serious conversations on any IM. [66]I 've forgiven someone who has done something wrong to me [67] I've been forgiven. [68] I've screamed at a scary movie. [69] I've cried at a chick flick. [70] I've watched a lot of action movies. [71] I've screamed at the top of my lungs. [ ] I've been to a rap concert. [ ] I've been to a hip hop concert. [ ] I've lived in more than 2 houses [72] I've driven on the highway. [73] I've driven more than 40 miles in a day [74] I've been in a car accident [75] I've been homesick. [76] I've thrown up [ ] I've puked on someone. [77!!] I've been horseback riding. [78] I've filled out more than 10 myspace surveys. [79] I've spoken my mind in public. [80] Ive proved someone wrong. [81] I've been proven wrong by someone. [ ] I've broken a leg. [ ] I've broken an arm. [82] I've fallen off a swing. [83] I've swung on a swing for more than 30 mins straight [84] I've watched Winnie the Pooh movies. [85] I've forgotten my backpack when I've gone to school. [ ] I've lost my backpack. [86] I've come close to dying. [ ] I've seen someone die. [87] I've known someone who has died. [88] I've wanted to be an actor/actress at some point. [ ] I've done modeling. [89] I've forgotten to brush my teeth some mornings. [90] I've taken something/someone for granted. [91] I've realized how good my life is. [92] I've counted my blessings. [93] I've made fun of a classmate. [94] I've been asked out by someone and I said no. [95] I've slapped someone in the face [96] I've been skateboarding. [97] I've been backstabbed by someone I thought was a friend. [98] I've lied to someone to their face. [99] I've told a little white lie. [100] I've taken a day off from school just so I don't go insane. [101] I've fainted. [102. it isn't] I've had an argument with someone about whether cheerleading is a sport or not. [103] I've pushed someone into a pool. [104] I've been pushed into a pool. [105] been in love 105/157
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Wednesday, May 3rd, 2006
10:19pm 05/03/2006	anthony finally started talking to me after he found out about what happened. i don't know what to think about it. my parents are missing.
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Sunday, April 30th, 2006
11:04pm 04/30/2006	rob's so cute. he came to my horse show today. i didn't get any pictures with him in it though, he stayed in the car for the most part. it took way too long. i got there at 9 in the fucking morning and left at 6 at night. the fuck? Pictures in my other journal.
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Thursday, April 27th, 2006
10:23pm 04/27/2006	1. Who was your first prom date? anthony rankin 2. Who was your first roommate? my dog. srsly 3. What alcoholic beverage did you drink when you got drunk for the first time? vodka! 4. What was your first job? pony rides. $5 an hour. 5. What was your first car? the one i have now. 6. When did you go to your first real funeral? last year when justin died. 7. How old were you when you first moved away from your hometown? i still live here. 8. Who was your first grade teacher? mrs. dinatale, now ms borgia. 9. Where did you go on your first airplane ride? washington to see my aunt in seattle 10. When you snuck out of your house for the first time, who was it with? uh, the first time i snuck out of my house i forgot my shoes and lost my virginity. justin. 11. Who was your first Best Friend and are you still friends with them? adria. we were friends before birth and still are. 12. Where did you live the first time you moved out of your parent's house? haven't yet. 13. Who is the first person you call when you have a bad day? layla and/or vegas. 14. Who's wedding were you in the first time you were a bridesmaid or a groomsmen? uh, never? 15. What is the first thing you do in the morning? kick my alarm clock, aka my mom 16. What was the first concert you attended? jimmy buffett in like 7th grade 17. First tattoo or piercing? ears pierced in 6th grade 18. First celebrity crush? george clooney 19. First crush? jeremy, in kindergarten 20. First love? rob. shut up.
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Tuesday, April 25th, 2006
08:37pm 04/25/2006	Today did you... 1. Talk to a boy/girl you like: yes 2. Bought something to eat: coffee 3. Get sick: bellyache 4. Sang: currently 5. Realize anything new: yes. 6. Talk to an ex: no 7. Miss someone: well i always do. Last person who... 8. Slept in your bed: me. 9. Saw you cry: still mr. wilks 10. Went to the movies with: madrecita 11. You went to the mall with: i don't go there often 12. You said "I love you" to and meant it: layla! 13. That made you laugh: layla 14. Said they loved you: robbi skaera 15. Called you in the middle of the night? anthony. 16. Do you have a crush on someone: vegas. 17. What book are you reading now: just finished Burned. fucking good book. 18. Best feeling in the world: to be content. 19. What's under your bed: stuff 20. Favorite sports to watch: eh. 21. Favorite Location: 69 peter rafferty. 22. Piercing/Tattoos: ears 23. What are you most scared of right now: failing junior year 24. Where do you want to get married? dear lord... no idea 25. Who do you really hate? ryan giovacchini and jesse schulman and Barb Zukas. 27. Do you like being around people? depends on my mood 28. Have you ever cried: stupid question 29. Are you lonely right now? kind of. 30. Song that's stuck in your head right now? "if i wrote you" 31. Been on radio/TV: dunno 32. Ever liked someone, but you think they never noticed you?: of course. 33. Ever liked someone who treated you like crap?: yeah. i went out with him for a few months. stupid alchie.
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Sunday, April 23rd, 2006
07:37pm 04/23/2006	quiz a la franny. 19%, makes me a boy. take this quiz and find out how girly you are. (GUYS TOO) Put x's beside each thing that's true. Each x that you put is one percent. Have fun!! [ ] my fingernails/toenails are almost always painted [ ] during the summer pretty much the only shoes i wear are flip flops [ ] my favorite toy as a child were barbies [ ] my favorite color is pink or purple [x] i did Gymnastics [ ] i love skirts [ ] hollister is my favorite place to shop [x] tight jeans are the only jeans i'll wear [x] i love chocolate [ ] i've never had a real job TOTAL: 3 [ ] my hair is straightened [x] i have at least 8 myspace pictures [ ] i usually go shopping once a week [ ] i love to hang out at the mall with friends [ ] i have a real diamond ring or diamond necklace [ ] i've gone to a tanning salon [ ] ive gone to the beach to tan - not to swim [ ] i have at least 10 pairs of shoes [ ] i watch either the OC or Laguna Beach [ ] i change my icon weekly [ ] i wear a shower cap TOTAL: 1 [ ] dont like Hot Topic--sorry but those people scare me. [x] my cell phone might as well become a part of me [ ] i wear mascara everyday [x] i've been or am on a diet [ ] bathing suits are adorable [ ] i dont know the difference between a sheep and a goat. [ ] big sunglasses are hott [ ] i have gotten my nails done [ ] i own over 10 purses [ ] MTV is my one of my favorite channels TOTAL: 2 [ ] all i want to do at sleepovers is talk about boys [ ] i love to have other girls do my hair [x] i give and receive hugs from all my friends [ ] i hate bugs, snakes, lizards, spiders [ ] carnivals are so fun!! [ ] summer is the BEST season [x] my swimsuit has 2 pieces [ ] im waiting for my knight in shining armor [the talented ones] musicians are hot [ ] you write me a poem and tell me im beautiful and im all yours TOTAL: 3 [x] i am self-conscious. [x] i cry often [my car smells like cigarettes.] my car smells like vanilla [x] my dishes get washed more then once a week [ ] i dont do sports [ ] i HATE to run [ ] i squeal when i am surprised or angry [ ] i eat dried fruit as a snack [ ] i love romance novels [ ] Drew Barrymore is so cute TOTAL: 3 [ ]i dance stupidly [ ] i usually spend over an hour to get ready to leave my house [ ] i only have like 5 billion hair products (more like 5) [ ] i love to get dressed up. [ ] every part of my outfit needs to match [x] i talk on the phone at least once a day to a few of my friends [ ] i would love to have a photo shoot of myself [ ] price on clothes hardly matters [ ] i apply lip stuff 50 times a day [ ] i wish i were a model TOTAL: 1 [only to punch her in th e fucking face.] i wish i could meet Paris Hilton [x] i have been something that was semi slutty on halloween [ ] i own Uggs [ ] Hip Hop is the best music [ ] i pop my collar [ ] i like to be the center of attention [ ] guys with Mohawks are crazy [x] horses are beautiful (just my horse, thanks) [x] i'd rather not pay attention in school [ ] cats are adorable TOTAL: 3 [ ] i write my own music [ ] i would love to visit Hawaii [ ] Valentine's day is so cute! [ ] white is better then black [ ] i wouln't be caught dead in all black [ ] my closet is STOCK FULL of clothes [ ] i hate the grunge look of a beard [ ]i love to read gossip magazines TOTAL: 0 [ ] i love to gossip; only true good kind [x] I had Lisa Frank folders, posters as a kid [ ] i love Celine dion [ ] My bubble baths are 2 hr long [ ] my wedding only needs a groom because it's already planned [ ] my friends and i are in a strict group. we mostly only hang out with each other [ ] i like kids [ ] diet drinks are the best [ ] im all about being vegetarian [x] i refuse to eat at McDonalds TOTAL: 2 [x] i check my myspace everyday. [ ] i love life! [ ] i have a lot of jewlery! [ ] claires has cheap jewlery [ ] my screen names have x's in them [ ] either one of my myspace names has/had <3/?'s in them [ ] i would never want to be the opposite sex [ ] it's not what he/she said it's the way he/she said it [ ] i have more than 3 pillows on my bed TOTAL: 1 Current Mood: bored Current Music: Lights and Sounds
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08:31am 04/23/2006	coley's quiz Since the start of 2006...] 1. Have you had a gf/bf? yes. 2. Have you had your birthday? no 3. Gotten drunk? yes. 4. Gotten high? no. 5. Smoked a cig? yes. 6. Cried? yes. 7. Had someone close to you pass away? no. 8. Pulled an all nighter? yes. 9. Drank starbucks? yes. 10. Went shopping? yes. 11. Been camping? no. 12. Been to the beach? no. 13. Bought something for over $200? no. 15. Been out of state? yes. 16. Visited a family member? yes. 17. Gone snowboarding? no. [In the past month] 1. Kissed someone? yes. 2. Slept in a friends bed? yes. 3. Drove somewhere? yes. 4. Seen an old friend? sort of. [In the past week] 1. Bought something? yes. 2. Choked? yes. 3. Watched tv for more than 3 hours? no. 4. been to the movie theater? yes. 5. Been to a party? yes. 6. Gone skydiving? no. 7. Been to the beach? no. 8. Smoked? yes. 9. Done drugs? no. 10. Gotten a gift from someone? no. 11. Been out of control? depends on what you consider "out of control". 12. Made a cd? yes. 13. Called someone? yes. [Lasts] 1. Thing you bought? Burned (book). 2. Person you hugged? Vegas. 3. Person you kissed? Rob. 4. Person you talked to? Vegas. 5. Person to call you? Vegas. 6. Last thing you said to someone? "When Hell freezes over, Mom." 7. Last time you brushed your teeth? when I woke up. 8. Last time you took a bath? shit, like a year ago? 9. When was the last time you cried? last night. 10. Last time you felt stupid? yesterday. 11. Last time you walked over 1 mile? two days ago. Current Mood: sore Current Music: Cold - A Different Kind of Pain
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Wednesday, April 19th, 2006
09:43pm 04/19/2006	1. Can you tap dance? no 2. Do you own a pair of see-through underwear? no 3. What color is the sky today? blue 4. Do you own a classic brown teddy bear? no 5. Is your favorite holiday christmas? no 6. Is there a candle by you? no 7. If you had an iPOD mini, what color would you have? blue 8. What song are you listening to? who are you 9. Is it your favorite song? no 10. How many myspaces have you had? one 11. Have you ever made a myspace survey? no 12. Are you wearing any jewelry? ring 13. Where does your grandma live? which one? 14. Are you an angry drunk? no 15. Do you prefer pen or pencil? pen 17. Ever been in an earthquake? yes 18. Is your birthday this month? no 19. Do girls suck? yes 20. Are you afraid of the dentist? no 21. Do you know exactly what car you want? no 22. Have you ever bought something from ebay? yes 23. Ever seen "boy meets world"? yes 24. Own a locket? no 25. Do you share a locker? yes 26. Ever dissected anything? yes 27. Ever had a referral? no? 28. Still play with legos? no 29. Do you know when easter is? yeah. last sunday. 31. Last time you wrote a note? couple days ago, to myself. 32. Ever been on a cruise? no 33. Ever gotten pregnant by someone on a cruise? no...? 34. Dyed your hair? yes 35. Like your handwriting? yes 36. Do you eat? yes 37. Are you wearing lotion? no 38. Last time you talked on the phone? couple minutes ago 39. Do you know Victoria's Secret? sure 40. Are you nice to other people? some more than others 41. Ever been in love? yes 42. What were you last halloween? dunno 43. Ever met a midget? no 44. Ever been to Cuba? no 45. Ever cut yourself shaving? yes 46. Ever owned an exotic pet? no 47. Is it your birthday? no 48. Is it someone elses birthday? probably 49. Had a good day? yes and no 50. How long did this take you? like 10 seconds
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Sunday, April 2nd, 2006
08:14pm 04/02/2006	This is the longest entry every written, but I don't care. It's important. 1. Ella gave me a book by Alice Sebold called "Lucky". It's about how she (alice) got beaten and raped in a park outside her college campus the last day of her freshman year. At least I wasn't beaten about the face. There was no brutal fighting and no real physical harm. I don't even remember if he hit me at all. Layla said I still refuse to believe it was rape. She's right, I guess. I think it's selfish to call it that. It's glorifying something that doesn't need to be addressed anymore. It's been a year and five months. I should be over it by now. Yes, I get it. Rape = bad. But that's no reason for me to still be fretting about it after so long. I'm not over Justin being dead, or Ryan trying to do things to me in June/July of 2004. I mean, I have a right to still be angry with him, don't I? He was worse than Jesse. I was just afraid of Jesse to the point where I couldn't say no. I fought back with Ryan. The more I fought, the more he tried to do it. One time we were walking in the woods near Tom's house and he pushed me to the ground, held me there, and tried to get my pants off. The same thing happened in his basement. I was hitting him. Hard. He wouldn't stop. Screaming "STOP" over and over apparently has no effect on him. He never even showed remorse. Never. Not even when, 6 months later, he asked if I still hated him, and I said yes. He got furious at me. The only thing that ever stopped him was a parent or his sister coming down the stairs to se why there was so much noise. It was my noise. From me screaming and trying to get him off of me. I shot him with an airsoft gun repeatedly. I hit him with it. He didn't stop. I shot myself in the head one time with that stupid gun. I told him if he came near me or touched me again that day, I would do it. He touched. I shot. I couldn't hear out of my left ear for a week. He didn't stop. ----------------------------------------------- 2. I eventually had to convince him that I was a lesbian and that I wanted nothing to do with the male gender ever again. I was, of course, lying. But it got him to stop. He refused to let me break up with him. I told him at least three times a day that he was not allowed to EVER tell me he loved me. He was not to call me "baby" or reprimand me for, or try to control, hurting myself. He did all of those things repeatedly and still came to my house. He came to my sister's graduation party. I stayed in the office with him and Adria because I didn't want anyone to have to deal with him. My mom took a picture of us. I set it on fire. Adria said he seemed weird. No shit. He's a psychopath. He would yell at me for not letting him do things to me, sometimes. He told me the more I fought, the worse he would make it for me. My shirts were always stretched out when I left his house. The black and the red "Happy Bunny" shirts were pulled to the extent that they didn't fit anymore. He would shove his hand down my pants, and I would wriggle away, making him take it out. He held both my hands in one of his (because I was so small and he was 6'5") and pinned me down. And kept me there. He took me up to his room one day. Pushed me onto his bed. Took my clothes mostly off. I cried. He didn't care. My shirt was on the floor, my pants were at my knees, my bra was unclipped. The only thing still completely on was my underwear. He would have taken those off too, had I not been lying underneath him. I kept them on. He would have fucked me on more than one occasion if I hadn't had the resolve I did. For a 110-pound girl (which is how much I weighed at the time), I had a shitload of resilience. I don't know if it's healthy to be writing about this. I've tried to push it so far back in my mind that it just goes away. It hasn't gone away. But forcing myself to relive it? I don't know. It doesn't seem right. I wish I'd broken his nose when I had a chance in hell to do so. It was wrong. I hate him. I want to cry. I want to kill him. I still know where he lives, and I can't go past his house without having an anxiety attack. ------------------------------------------------------- 3. I went out with him to get revenge on Tom. Tom hurt Layla really badly, the way I should have known Ryan would hurt me. Then he decided he liked me. I was going to make him regret it the only way I knew how. Jealousy. Either that or anger. He was going to be sorry for hurting Layla. So I got his best friend to like me. Enough to ask me out. It worked. It was always easy for me to get boys. Not keep them, but get them. Anyway. My plan worked. Tom got upset. In a way I blame myself for everything that happened after that. I brought it on myself, at least in the beginning. I made it seem like I wanted him, I let him kiss me in front of Tom to make him envious. I remember a conversation Tom and I had when he found out. When I felt my job was accomplished, I backed off from Ryan. Wouldn't kiss him in public or private. I only acted interested for a week and a half. I guess that doesn't sit well with some guys. He would pull out his sofabed in the basement, put a sheet on it, put ME on it, and lie on top of me to hold me down. I couldn't breathe right sometimes. Then he'd start what I call "The Wednesday Game". Wednesday = hump day. It makes sense if you can associate things like that. I hated it. He was violent about it. It never went so far that he'd go in me, since I was still a virgin when I got myself out of the whole situation in the end, but it HURT. He'd press so hard I thought I might break. He eventually got it to the point where he'd leave my shirt on but have me naked from the waist down under a sheet. I learned to block out what he did. Sometimes I'd even do what he told me to do. I shouldn't have done it; it encouraged him; but I did. "Ryan, stop." "No." "Ryan, please stop." "No." "RYAN! STOP! PLEASE!" "The more you tell me to stop, the more fun it is for me."
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