so i look effeminate in this?
Moving on. [28.06.03  10:26am]
mood crushed

"So many times I've seen so many people's dreams, lost and washed away out to the sea. I said 'No not I,' pain will surely pass me by. Happening to them but not to me. Hearts get broken all the time. I never used to worry about things like this. But the problem is, this time it's mine. Now I'm worrying, this one is mine. See the problem is, the heart is mine."

The things that you cherish the most, are the things that are the first to go, and sadly I had to learn that the hard way. So here I am in the same situation all over again, like an endless cycle meant to teach me a lesson about my ways. Taking people for granted was the biggest issue of mine, and not taking other people's feelings into consideration, but the process is making me change for the better because I want to. I want to mend hearts that have been broken because of my doing. I'm a lover, and long for it so deeply and passionately so much so, that now that I'm alone again, I crumple up into a little ball and weep just for the sake of weeping, like a child who is lost in a void without it's mother. Today, infact, while in the midst of watching Spongebob with dearest Milla, those emotions came into play and I felt like a complete bafoon for doing so. But it's a process, I have to reassure myself. A process I'm not use to handling unless I'm on the other end..

This time it's mine.

3   odi et amo


››› flip the pages ‹‹‹

››› nature boy ‹‹‹

There was a boy - a very strange enchanted boy. They say he wandered very far over land and sea. A little shy and sad of eye, but very wise was he. And then one day - a magic day - he passed my way. And while we spoke of many things, fools and kings, this he said to me. "The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to Love and be loved in return."

››› about a boy ‹‹‹

Full Name: Joshua Daniel Hartnett
Status: Single
Birthday: July 21, 1978
Birthplace: St. Paul, Minnesota
Residence: Los Angeles
Height: 6'3"
Weight: 175 lbs.
Hair: Brown
Eyes: Brown
Shoe Size: 11
Quote "I think I'm a genuinely mixed-up person. I'm aware of being goofed-up and just happy to be going through it. I'm a guy who likes to explore. I'm just looking for the next adventure."
The Crew: Meela , Nessa , Larter , Katie , Nickeh , Vinnie , Peree , Jewbro , Hay-den , Shan & Luce.
Likes: Surfing , macaroni and cheese sandwiches , traveling , Paris , kissing , women , men , acting , swimming , Nalu , cappuccinos , Shakespeare , snow , romance , Bas Luhrmann , theatres , George Carlin , Anne Rice , Fight Club , cooking , fine cuisine , beautiful people & Draco Malfoy.
Disikes: Heartache & poetry & political correctness , migraines , dinking my fins , Superman , being wrong , mud on my shoes , Leann Rhymes , Coyote Ugly , dwarves , shopping carts , burnt chicken & Harry Potter.

››› lights; camera; action. ‹‹‹

Halloween H20 (1998) , The Faculty (1998) , The Virgin Suicides (1999) , Here on Earth (2000) , Blow Dry (2001) , Pearl Harbor (2001) , "O" (2001) , Black Hawk Down (2001) , Forty Days & Forty Nights (2001) , Halloween Resurrection (2002) , Hollywood Homicide (2003) & Wicker Park (2003)

››› tickle my fancy ‹‹‹

LeeLee Sobiesky , Tom Felton , John Isaacs , Edward Norton , Edward Furlong , George Carlin , Christian Coulson , Jack White , Meg White , Adam Sandler , Tom Delonge , Travis Barker , Jenna Jameson , Harrison Ford , Trent Reznor , Kerri Russell , Robin Williams , Eric Szmanda , Brendan Frazier , Jennifer Aniston & Rachel Weisz.

Heel over head?