| color quiz scarily accurate? |
[22 Nov 2009|06:54pm] |
"Vulnerable and impressionable and prone to learning new things. Fantasizes of building a perfect relationship with another full of love, trust, and deep understanding. Needs to know people are sincere as she is far to trusting and fears being used and hurt. Needs to know where she stands in relationships. Has high emotional expectations and desires to be the center of attention, which makes it difficult to find a satisfying relationship. her reserved, cautious nature makes her emotionally distant."
Emotionally demanding and will involve herself in close relationships but won't get too involved or give too much of herself.
"Feels she is carry more than her share of problems. she is flexible and laid back, sticking to her goals and working to overcome any difficulty."
Current situation is leaving her doubtful and cautions about becoming intimately involved with others. Willing to put aside her own ambitions and goals in order to gain the comfort and security she craves and live a low-key life.
"Wishes she was more spontaneous and impulsive, but holds back because she needs things to be in order, rational, and clearly defined.Fights resistance or limitations, and insists she is free to develop in her own way. Rewarded by accomplishing things on her own, with little to no help from others."
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[15 Nov 2009|01:47pm] |
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i miss florida |
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your flirt finds me out
teases the crack in me
smittens me with hope
possibly maybe probably love
as much as i definitely enjoy solitude
i wouldn't mind perhaps
spending little time with you
sometimes
sometimes
possibly maybe probably love
uncertainly excites me
baby
who knows what's going to happen?
lottery or car crash
or you'll join a cult
possibly maybe probably love
mon petit vulcan
you're eruptions and disasters
i keep calm
admiring your lava
i keep calm
possibly maybe probably love
since we broke up
i'm using lipstick again
i'll suck my tongue
as a remembrance of you
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[05 Nov 2009|01:49am] |
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"i don't dream about anyone, except for me" |
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don't know why i always do this, fucking settle like this. & get all emotionally fucked cuz of it. i'm just horrible at this sex/relationship thing, & i REALLY know how to fucking pick 'em. gah bullshit, more angry with myself than hiiiim. shouldn't be a distraction right now. i got two papers to finish tonight and then two more paintings. think i may go to the studio to work on this bad boy:
oooy, seriously i just wanna curl up and convulse.. or paint. either way, i suppose.
Yes I'm lonely wanna die
Yes I'm lonely wanna die
If I ain't dead already
Ooh girl you know the reason why.
In the morning wanna die
In the evening wanna die
If I ain't dead already
Ooh girl you know the reason why.
My mother was of the sky
My father was of the earth
But I am of the universe
And you know what it's worth
I'm lonely wanna die
If I ain't dead already
Ooh girl you know the reason why.
The eagle picks my eye
The worm he licks my bones
I feel so suicidal
Just like Dylan's Mr. Jones
Lonely wanna die
If I ain't dead already
Ooh girl you know the reason why.
Black cloud crossed my mind
Blue mist round my soul
Feel so suicidal
Even hate my rock and roll
Wanna die yeah wanna die
If I ain't dead already
Ooh girl you know the reason why.
edit; just thinking about what to say to wobz- erm- i am an emotional person and become invested in all of my relationships (with friends, family, or whomever) and when concern isn't reciprocated, it's extraordinarily frustrating. makes me feel you just don't care THUS i feel like i'm wasting time. it's an added distraction that i really don't fucking need, son. so, either man up and think about someone other than yourself or i gotta stop sleepin with you (which is totally easier said than done, btw)
edit edit; "just do me a favor dont let assholes drag you down .. you are gold .. or jinjit and i love you and i dont like hearing you say they hurt you"
plus, i really want a fucking cigarette.
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[09 Sep 2009|01:07am] |
imagine what loneliness
will drive someone to do
now multiply that times me
and multiply that times you
now imagine what it would take to make
this all happen again
and just when you think you're gonna cry
multiply that times ten
you
are distracting me
from all other activities
and i know the fact of your presence
will dominate my memory
of this restaurant this table
this day and this town
cuz i carry you, baby
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| goin goin back back to brooooklyn |
[27 Aug 2009|12:35am] |
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"So much on my mind that I can't recline
Blastin holes in the night til she bled sunshine
Breathe in, inhale vapors from bright stars that shine
Breathe out, weed smoke retrace the skyline
Heard the bass ride out like an ancient mating call
I can't take it y'all, I can feel the city breathin
Chest heavin, against the flesh of the evening
Sigh before we die like the last train leaving"
lots & lots goin on..the summer of 2009 fucking pwned. consisted of many lazy nights with gecko and douganz, doing absolutely nothing productive- solely giggles, dazing, and gazing...le sigh. i miss it too much already. young at art was just fucking wonderful. i loved contributing as much as i could and had some AMAZING volunteers. for the sake of a "recap"- BARCELONA IS MY FUTURE. (<--period.)
back in new york, scoping out apartments, went to STORM KING Art Center today with mamacita- it was a beautiful mess of chaos. i'm a bit buzzed by the end of the night..oyoyoy
One more semester and it's off too Yisrael...yuh oh.
i guess we'll see, huh?
lila tov
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