Wednesday, September 17th, 2003
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11:51 pm - Spoiled In Cocaine Powder
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Tuesday, September 16th, 2003
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3:33 pm - Spoiled In Cocaine Powder
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Sunday, September 14th, 2003
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11:18 pm - Spoiled In Cocaine Powder
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Saturday, September 13th, 2003
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10:52 am - spoiled in cocaine powder
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Thursday, September 11th, 2003
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6:34 am - Spoiled In Cocaine Powder
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Sunday, September 7th, 2003
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6:49 pm - spoiled in cocaine powder
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It get's in your eyes
It's making you cry
Don't know what to do
Don't know what to do
Looking for love
Calling heaven above
Send me an angel
Send me an angel
Right now
Right now
Send me an angel
Send me an angel
Right now
Right now
Empty dreams can only disappoint
In a room behind your smile
But don't give up, don't give up
You can be lucky in love
well these past few days have been interesting,Ha. I Love It.
April And I Are Now Whores. It Makes Us Love Life Even More.
your just another pretty face
in a room full of whores
so you dont mean much...
Thats All I Am, Thats All April Is..Anyone Else Wanna Join?? HaHaHa.
I Dont Know Whether To Be Proud Of Virgin Mary*s Boyfriend Calling Us That Or What But This Is What I Think,
Oh Fucking Well, Shit Happens.
Don't ever want to be like you
You have your friends calling you to say
That nothing can touch you
Nothing can hurt you
Nothing can take your fantasy away
Nothing can touch you
Nothing can hurt you
Tegans Car Went Crazy Friday, Didnt Go To School, HaHa. It Was An Odd Day, We Almost Got Killed 5 Times In Her Car On The Way To G's House. Something Or Someone Was Telling Us To Not Go To His House.Whatever Makes Her Happy :/ :) But Yeah, Tegans Car Is BROKEN, So I Think Shes Getting A New One.
Right Now Im At Aprils, Were Talking About What Were Doing On Homecoming (hahahaha) , And On HalloWeen( hahaha Thats Better Than Hc)...OOO Fun Times Were Gunna Be Having..And Go Ahead, Guess And Assume What Were Going To Do And Call Us Whores, Whatch Us care..:)
.I Can Make It Go Away.
current mood:  determined
current music: metallica :: unforgiven 2
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Thursday, September 4th, 2003
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10:07 pm - Spoiled In Cocaine Powder
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Tuesday, September 2nd, 2003
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12:19 am - Spoiled In Cocaine Powder
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i feel like im dying..
slowly..
painfuly..
but quickly.
i hate knowing some of the responses from my friends..well, the people i think are..
i dont even knwo whos my friend.and honestly..
it doesnt matter cause where is it going to get me in life?..maybe alive. but thats about it.\
i cant help myself.
im a fuck up.
i didnt mean to.
i ahte myself.
i want to.
i can.
i wont.
all this pain..all this drama..all this suffering..
its making em have break downs and cry..i cant stop crying.
its like its a part of me now..and i try to stop, but it doesnt work.
im useless..
thats all..
i try..
thats it..
a few people make me feel good,
and they keep me alive..
theres this special one..and she has saved my life so many times.
so many times.and she has been there for me. cause she has a radar on me i guess.
but i thank you certin people..and the special one..
i jsut want to say goodbye...
thats all...
current mood:  pessimistic
current music: everythign i do i do it for you
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Tuesday, August 26th, 2003
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10:19 pm - Spoiled In Cocaine Powder
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well earlier today i hung out with tegan and garret...haha interesting id say.
umm..it was..yeah interesting.thats all i ahve to say.
with teh past week..i didnt really do anything, got clothes with april n suchness,
monday went to school, did work...today, went to school did work. God for a half a year..
i have to deal with dave..yes..ex dave..dum dum dum...it sucks. i get to wake up to him talking to me n shit.
not cool, and hes making me be in like all of his groups and yeah. it sucks, last year after everything that happened with him and i, i had to switch my schedule around so i didnt have to see him..again...-ever!..but well, that fucked me over, liek woah..
and does anyone read this? cause if not, then im not going to write in this anymore..so, leave comments.. or something
current mood:  mellow
current music: tatu-all teh things she said
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Wednesday, August 20th, 2003
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7:50 pm - Spoiled In Cocaine Powder
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PAST
First grade teacher's name: Dont remember
Last word you said: ::bangs head::...stupid stupid stupid
Last song you sang: orgy - blue monday
Last song stuck in your head: lifehuose - everything
Last person who you chatted with: drew
Last movie you saw: little witches ( dotn see it)n ginger snaps
PRESENT
What's in your CD player: orgy
What color socks are you wearing: im not wearing socks :(
What's under your bed: knifes
What's the weather like: Cool and Calm..kinda sunny
What time did you wake up today: 12:10..15
What's playing on your TV: its not on
How many enemies do you have: alot
FUTURE
Are you going to college: hahahaha its like asking me if im going to pass..hahahahaha
Where do you want to go: itly
What is your career going to be: masseuse
Where are you going to live: oregon..flordia..or cali..
How many kids do you want: 2 girls and 1 boy..maybe 2
Where do you want your honeymoon: itly
What kind of car will you have: who knows...a simmeron cadi...hahaaha..
What age are you going to marry: i want to at 18..
PERSONAL STUFF
Name: magan
Nicknames: jinx..ginger
Address: what one
Birthday: april 3
Birthplace: i dotn know
Parents: kimberly...::puts head down in shame..::..aster..david..mark..joe..different mark (my moms been around...so what)
Pets: one kittie..2 dogs..and fishies
Hair Color: umm...strawberry blonde
Eye Color: green..blue..grey
Glasses/Contacts: both
Height: 5' 2''
Peircings: yea
Righty, Lefty, or Ambidextrous?: used to be both...but now just left..losing feelign in right arm
What's one thing you would change about yourself?: my face
What's your most comfortable piece of clothing? ..no clothing
Goal in Life: to make a decent living and to make someone happy
Song to Describe your life: stitches...dizzy..and solititude
Five words to describe yourself: messed up, fun, weird, stupid, hungry
SOCIAL LIFE
Best Girl Friend: Bre apeil and britt
Where can you usually be found?: in my bed...and if not mine...then someone elses
Who would you be with?: whosever sleepign in my bed...or whosever im sleepign with
Are you the center of attention?: at times
What's your idea of a dream date?: dinner, then a walk on the beach...when its a full moon...and no one around..
Are you timely or always late?: always late
Where's the best hangout?: wherever i feel that would be fun
Do you like being around people or being alone?: half and half
Which EX now induces the gag reflex?: dave grey and steve pokorney
What's your biggest turn off in the opposite sex?: them not beign rough and incontrol
Who was your first boy/girlfriend?: some chris kid..in peschool...
Who was your first kiss?: that chirs kid...in preschool
OUT OF YOUR FRIENDS...
Have you known the longest?: britt
Do you argue the most with?: bre
Do you always get along with?: april
Is the most trustworthy?: I dont trust anyone..but prolly britt bre and april
Makes you laugh the most?: april and bre
Has been there through all the hard times?: depends on who i want to tell
Always has a man/woman?: ...me
Is the most sensitive?: hahahhaa lee
Biggest loser?: no comment
Most unique?: danielle
Has the coolest car?: nick
Is the most encouraging?:..depends..
Is the most blunt?: britt
Is the shyest?: ...brandon and lee
Is the most outgoing?: danielle
Is the most rebellious?: harry
Is the horniest?: i duno britt..its a tie between us..;)
Is the laziest?: yeah...april n i
Is most likely to become famous?: Shawn
Is most likely to become rich?: Shawn...because if becoming famous
Is most likely to end up in jail?: Probably me..hahaha
Is most likely to have a million kids?: tegan...hahaha hunny you know im only joking:) i love you...you just....scrump...ALOT..lol
Is most likely never to have kids?: bre
Will get a boob job: hopefully no one
Will lose their virginity first?: hahahaha...out of my friends?? umm..who is who i oh!...april....lol..well before bre..lol
Always wears a smile?: umm...ummm....do i have friends that smile??
Is the smartest?: i dont know...brian and harvat
Would, without thinking, die for you?: well..i dont think that they could jsut...have teh shit thats wrong with me magically appear in their bodies....but go ahead....take all the acid you want..
Complains the most?: brian malloy..lol...i miss him
Complains the least?: April
Is the biggest flirt?: Bre
Needs a good man/woman?: april
Has the best fashion sense?: i think i might
Best form of entertainment?: april says me....so i guess me
Is a bad influence?: heh..hehehahahaha...me
FAVORITES
Color: Black and red..pink
Clothes: Spikes, Chains, Black, ...then again..tight glam clothes
Animal: panther
Book: goodnight kiss
Food: Ice Cream..and if no..then..ask me and then see what happens
TV show: Boy Meets World..or simpsons
TV star: drew fuller
Movie: ginger snaps
Movie star: drew fuller...katherine isebelle
Song:jessica andrews- who i am singer: to many to name
Band: also too many to name
Car: simmeron cadi, or a 98 jeep wrangler
Holiday: halloween
Month: october
Season: fall
Girl's name: pagan
Guy's name: jinx...or owen..heh..ive always liked that name
Vacation: Disney World- Florida!..or..a different roller coaster place
School Subject: math..believe it or not...yes math
Teacher: mr.horton
Number: 7, 13, 34..cant choose
Clothing Brand: clothes are clothes..id rather go with...nothing
Radio Station: 89X, 101.1 WRIF
Soda: Jones- Green Apple
Candy: kit kat
Shampoo: Anything
Outrageous Hair color: the rainbow
Cologne/Perfume: belara
Nail polish color: pink..blak...red
Video game: zelda
Fast food place: Arby's
Alcoholic beverage: umm..whatever, heh
Foreign language(s): latin, italian..and greek
Stuffed Animal: my bear dog that my mom gave me
Disney movie: The Lion King
Odd Make-out spot: under the monkey bars...lol
Midnight snack: bread
Beach: ....? a clean one where i can walk on..
Amusement park: Magic Kingdom- Disney World
Lip Gloss flavor: clear?
Shoes: black hooker like combat boots
Thing to do when your bored: Play Video Games..sleep...read..take a shower?
Smell: swiss chocolate or irish creme coffee ...riight when i wake up
Concert: ..think..think..tryign to remember..ahh ill remember sooner or later..
Pick up Line: umm..nice shoes wanna fuck? lol
current mood: cold
current music: everyoine loves raymond
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Tuesday, August 19th, 2003
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6:43 pm - Spoiled In Cocaine Powder
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2:53 pm - Spoiled In Cocaine Powder
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2:50 pm - Spoiled In Cocaine Powder
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2:06 pm - Spoiled In Cocaine Powder
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Wednesday, August 13th, 2003
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2:36 pm - Spoiled In Cocaine Powder
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spent 6 days at aprils house...heh...hhahahaha....ahhh that was interestingly great...umm...bre and i are back together...well..we never really broken up...lol....but yeah....anyways..its all good...
lee and i got in soo many fights...holy shit...now..were straightening our...relationship...to where....i can see others...and same goes for him...
aahh everything thats around teh topic of...him..gets on my nerves...
i duno...i might hang out with drew glenn and brandon today..then later on...guess who?!?! APRIL..lol
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current mood:  horny
current music: stitiches
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Saturday, August 2nd, 2003
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6:52 pm - Spoiled In Cocaine Powder
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bored..yet again
:x: name =Magan
:x: piercings = 4
:x: tattoos =umm..sorta?
:x: height = 5'2
:x: shoe size = 7 to a 9
:x: hair color = whatever i want it to be
:x: siblings = so far i know of 2 step-brothers and one step-sister..
LAST...
:x: movie you rented =dracula dead and lovign it
:x: movie you bought = ginger snaps and vampire clan
:x: song you listened to = Shadows Fall Of One Blood
:x: song that was stuck in your head = First Commandment by soulfly
:x: cd you bought = i burn them
:x: cd you listened to = orgy
:x: person you've called = david
:x: person that's called you = james
:x: tv show you've watched = johnny bravo
:x: person you were thinking of = dave...n lee
DO...
:x: you have a crush on someone = yes
:x: you wish you could live somewhere else = fuck yeah
:x: you think about suicide = uhh...
:x: you believe in online dating = img gunna have to go with no on that one
:x: others find you attractive = unfortunally...yes
:x: you want more piercings =who wouldnt
:x: you like cleaning = when im pissed off..or just happy..then yes
:x: you like roller coasters = yes
:x: you write in cursive or print = print...no one can read my cursive
FOR OR AGAINST...
:x: long distance relationships = no one has a choice
:x: using someone = no
:x: suicide = if your going to do it then fucking do it
:x: killing people = depends...
:x: teenage smoking = for
:x: driving drunk = their choice
:x: gay/lesbian relationships = for it
:x: soap operas = ALL THE WAY...anyone know what happened in passions?
HAVE YOU...
:x: ever cried over a girl = no
:x: ever cried over a boy = definately.
:x: ever lied to someone = ha..ahhh..yeah
:x: ever been in a fist fight =i think..hah i dont knwo
:x: ever been arrested = umm..by an actual cop? ::coughs:: well..yeah..cause my friend was in training..and he had a pai...but it was only for shits and giggles
WHAT...
:x: shampoo do you use = whatever i own
:x: shoes do you wear = i dont pay much attention
:x: are you scared of = my mother leaving me again
NUMBER...
:x: of times I have been in love? = i think 2
:x: of times I have had my heart broken? = alls i know is teh 2 times
:x: of hearts I have broken? = lets not go there
:x: of girls I have kissed? = ha..hahahaha...
:x: of boys I have kissed? = ha. ha. ahh....wait..cause i can ell you that one
:x: of girls I've slept with? = is that a trick question?
:x: of boys I've slept with? = like..without doing anything..4..
:x: of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? = 1
:x: of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? i duno. i don't read the freaking paper.
:x: of scars on my body? =way too fuckign many to count
:x: of things in my past that I regret? = i regret alot of things...but theyre all lessons in the future
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...
:x: pretty -at times
:x: funny - when i want to be
:x: hot - at times
:x: friendly - hahaha...i try...keyword:::try
:x: amusing - yes
:x: ugly - i seem to think so
:x: loveable - not really
:x: caring - depends on what
:x: sweet -...if i was sweet...then im fat and hott at the same time
:x: dorky - when am i not!
current mood:  lethargic
current music: Killswitch Engage-Temple From The Within
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6:18 pm - Spoiled In Cocaine Powder
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i HATE being bored...oooh..just you wait....mores comin
favorite:
5 letter word: frump
actor/actress: Katharine Isabelle
Candy:...no thank you
Cartoon: jonny bravo
Cereal: kix
Chewing gum: watermelon chew? i dont know...gum..
Color(s): black, red, pink
Color nail polish: black n pink or red
Day of week: saturday
Least fave day: sunday and monday
Flower: black rose...actually..i love all flowers...but..black rose is on the top
Jello flavor: strawberry or watermelon flavor
Jewelry: spikes..or silver rings with little blood red or black stones in them
Special skills/talents: looks around....no one can make me answer this question..
Shampoo: whatevers in my bathroom
Summer/Winter: fall
Trampolines or swimming pools: jumping off the tramp into teh swimming pool
|| Person who last.. ||
Called you: umm..james?
Slept in your bed: david
Saw you cry: david
Made you cry: david
You went to the movies with: bre
Yelled at you: who doesnt?
Sent you an email: no one
|| Have you ever.. ||
Said "I love you" and meant it?: i think so...i dont know anymore
Gone out in public in your pajamas: hahah everymorning
Kept a secret from everyone: That is why it is a secret
Cried during a movie: not my thing
Ever at anytime owned new kids on the block stuff: ::shruggs::
Planned your week based on the TV Guide: haha hell no
Been on stage: yes
Been to New York: no
Been to California: yes
Hawaii: not yet
Mexico: no
China: no
Canada: no
Europe: no
Asia: no
South America:no
Australia: no
Wished you were the opposite sex: hahah i dont have to wish, JP
What time is it now?: 5:53
Apples or bananas?: frute cocktail
Blue or red?: red
Walmart or target?: walmart
Spring or Fall?: fall
What are you gonna do after you finish this?: sleep
What was the last meal you ate?: bacon and eggs
High school or college?: neither
Are you bored? heck yea
Last noise you heard?: james
Last smell you sniffed?: my blood
Last time you went out of state/province?: uhh i dont know
|| Friendship/Love ||
Do you believe in love at first sight?: Sure,
Do you want children one day & if so, how many?: one day yes...and if so, 1
Most important thing to you in a friendship is: Trust
|| Other Info ||
Criminal record?: LOL I dotn get caught..but there was that one time...
Do you speak any other languages?: yeah
Last book you read: goodnight kiss
Name some of your favorite things in your bedroom?: umm... who knows Thing you dislike about yourself the most: I dont let peopel get close to me, and a few other things that id be better off not saying
Worst feeling in the world: not beinging able to make others happy..but that falls in with beign useless
Who you love: ...my cat? and james's cat!! hahahaha
Who you miss: 2 people
|| You ||
Nickname(s): jinx, shez, ma, meg, maggie, freak,
Initials: MRTRMH....no seriously...
How old do you look?: depends on how young i want to look
How old do you act?: lol liek 8 at times
Glasses/Contacts: both
Braces: no
Do you have any pets?: 2 dogiez,1 cat, fishies
You get embarrassed: not really just laugh
What makes you happy?: LOTs of Alcohol, and a few other things...:)
What upsets you?: things at time to time
|| Finish the sentence: ||
I Love to... get drunk and dance
I Miss...being innocent
I Wish...i wasnt so stupid
I Hope... to live the life i want
I'm Annoyed by...drama
I Am... goofy
I Want to Be...sleeping..or drunk...either or...i get sleep
I Would Never...hate dave
I'd Rather...be in oregon...
I Am Tired of... running aroudn
I Will Always be...a fool
|| Lasts ||
Last movie you saw: leauge of extordonary gentlemen ..yeah i cant spell...thats nothign new
Last Phone Number You Called: i think dave
Last show you watched on TV: ghostbusters
|| Have you ever.. ||
Thought you were going to die: yes
Wanted to Run away: yeah
Flunked a grade: which one?
Skipped a grade: i dotn think so
current mood:  bored
current music: Killswitch Engage-Temple From The Within
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Friday, August 1st, 2003
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5:33 pm - Spoiled In Cocaine Powder
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1:28 am - Spoiled In Cocaine Powder
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ive got a lovely bunch of coconuts there they are a WWEEEEEEE.......
ahh hahahaha ...ah..ha....wow...hyper...hyper...hyper....i think i tooooook the wrong medicine.....
anyways...nothign has been happening...been ahnging out with bre lee brandon april and drew...oh..and richard,...but that was once...ohwell...it was still fun...but yeah...umm...gunna be ahnging out with april soon...well i better..or else! lol...um...and ill be with bre later on today i think..i think i dont knwo though...lee and brandon are wantign to..then james is wanting ehr and i to go to harvats for a little...party thingy thing
so i wonder if well be able to do that....uhh....yeah..wellll......im going to be going now...and try to find my sleeping pills and see if thooooose will help me...
haha im sooo gunna be tweekin tomorrow
current mood:  crazy
current music: muzik...hmm..what kind..i....dont..KNOW....
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Friday, July 25th, 2003
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2:44 pm - Spoiled In Cocaine Powder
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today i get to go and see april...so this is gunna be good...and fun..haha i get 10 bucks from brandon...hahaha
umm...so yeah...2 days..shweet. uhh..yeeaaah theres nothing really to say. im tryign to stop the fighting between her and brandon....wow this is gunna be interesting..okay well im off to get ready..
current mood: crazy
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creative
tired
scared
bouncy
devious